#but idk i'm also very into home decorating shit right now I HAVE NO TIME <- definitely has time

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i need to play totk this is crazy how long i've been putting it off @ me just turn the damn device on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[sydneekomspacekru]

heyyy I love ur writing sm !! But i was wondering if you could make a Steve x Reader based on the reader having some sort of eating disorder (I’m really in a shitty mood rn since I’m trying my best to recover from my ED and idk if this could be a way to cope but yeah.) if it’s okay with you !! Stay safe and ily 💖

Inspiration: This request right here😊

Summary: Steve finds out that you're recovering from an eating disorder and tries to help as much as he can.

Warnings: Mention of an eating disorder, mild language, food, fluffy bf!Steve, modern!au, none of the monster shit

Requested: Yes.

A/n: Other than the help I got from @chishiyas-backstory, I don’t really know much about eating disorders. I'm sorry if I misrepresent anything, please let me know how to fix it. Kind of a blurb, I'm sorry if this is a little short or vague. Also, please critique this, anything you have.

Steve Harrington was clueless. He knew that you were struggling with an eating disorder, and he wanted to help. But how? was the question.

Let's start over: Steve Harrington is your boyfriend, whom you are deeply in love with, and him with you.

You've been struggling with an eating disorder for a little over a year, and you were trying to get over it. Being the person he is, Steve wanted to help. He just didn't know how.

You weren't completely sure either, you just knew you wanted his support. So support he gave. He gave all the support, your own personal cheerleader. His intentions were great, but on your bad days, he could be a little overbearing.

This wasn't too bad of a day. Today you're doing pretty good. Eating "normal" as some would call it. You were sitting on your couch, in your apartment, leaning halfway on Steve.

But Steve suggested going out for dinner earlier, and you've been contemplating it for an hour. You liked going out, but it was the prospect of going out and eating in front of people. It was like they were watching you, you felt like you were eating too much, or too little. Either way, it was a struggle because you had yet to figure out what your "normal" eating habits were.

But, you were feeling alright with it at the time. "Let's go out to eat, then." You finally decided, during a commercial.

"You don't have to if you aren't comfortable." He was looking at you now.

"I know, but I think I'll be fine."

--

You didn't exactly know what to call the restaurant. It was... odd. It served all kinds of different food, ranging from Mexican to Italian to some kind of Korean Barbecue. But that wasn't it, something was just off about the place. It smelled of something strangely like weed, with strange psychedelic decor hanging from the ceiling, but what looked like a Greek sculpture in the entryway.

You ordered spaghetti, it seemed like a safe choice in the odd restaurant.

When the food came, you tried to pick at it. But like you had predicted, it felt like all eyes were on you. A one woman show starring a barely-adult woman at a weird ass restaurant.

"Are you alright?" Steve asked in quiet voice, apparently he had noticed you weren't eating very much.

"Yeah," you leaned closer to the table, "just a bit uncomfortable. It's fine."

"Okay. How about let's just get this to go and we can rent a movie or something. This place gives me the creeps." You snorted.

And like that, you were outta there, to-go boxes in hand. On the way home you had rented a horror-flick which you weren't even sure the name of. It was just going to play in the background while you and Steve played Monopoly or some shit.

You were finally home. "Home, our sweet, sweet abode!" Steve yelled as he walked in, swinging the door open. You chuckled at him, shutting the door after you came in.

--

You slid the disc into the slot, and clicked it on.

Thirty minutes in and you still had barely touched your food. You were hungry, but you felt sick when you thought of eating. You sighed as your stomach grumbled, and Steve looked over at you.

"Hey, look, I don't know if this will help, but I can eat with you. That's a thing right?" He talked to you in a hesitant voice, he was trying to help in the best way he could, but he didn't want to upset you.

"Yeah, we can try I guess." He re-opened your container, and grabbed two forks. He took a bite, and you put a small one in your mouth. It was weird sometimes, eating. It was all slimy in your mouth, and sometimes you tried to swallow, but it wouldn't work. It would get stuck right before your throat.

But this time was okay. The spaghetti wasn't the best, but you weren't feeling sick anymore, thankfully. You sighed in relief. "Thank you, Steve." He scooted closer to you, and kissed your cheek.

"Of course, babe."

[ravysu]

Sannin headcanons and thoughts

The last thing I would like to post for the sannin week. It is still 24.04 here! :D @sannin-central

This is long. Spoiler alert. Mostly Orochimaru, some Tsunade, a little of Jiraiya (because his story is pretty clear and spoken and idk what I can add). Also I recommend to read this meta about Orochimaru, it has influenced me a lot and has some good points. Sorry for any posible grammar mistakes. Also I really should put here a lot of references to the manga or anime but it was something that was piling up for a year and I'm soooooooo lazy. After all, those are just headcanons. Also: Im not excusing Oro's bad stuff here, Im trying to understand the reasons.

Ive already posted some hcs, here, here and here.

1. First if all, the chronology pic of sannin lifetime based on the info i found on naruto wiki and also some statements about wars from this post. It was tough considering what a mess naruto’s chronology is.

2. Sannin story shows what it cost to be a legend. They're like Team 7 but more realistic. Tsunade literally carried the war but left with nothing and developed a ptsd and have problems to just live on. Also anger control issues. I think she can be pretty bossy and stubborn which is not always nice. Jiraiya is the hero of the day but also very idealistic and can ignore some important details in the real word whether its the fight (he always injured during flashbacks maybe because each time he took too much to handle and on the one hand it's heroistic but on the other is a mistake that can lead your team to situations like in that Iwa cave) or your friends issues (I bet he saw what's going on but thought it's fine until Oro actually got red handed and left). He lives in his world and may have problems to get out to see it through someone else's shoes. As for Orochimaru, it seems like he was a normal guy for 20+ years (I mean, he didn't do crazy criminal shit and had something good in him and it was stated somewhere that it was his teammates influence. It is obvious they considered him as a friend, I don't thinks it was for nothing) but we mostly know his darkest side. Despite being a moster he is a human that have empathy and some ordinary human traits (man just decorates every bit of an environment he is in lol).

3. Tsunade was the leader of team Hiruzen.

4. Tsunade sometimes hit Jiraiya for some stupid things he did or said but never touches Orochimaru even if he did something same. Jiraiya complained about it once and almost got another hit.

5. Jiraiya had problematic parents that didn't care about him much and a lot of time he was wandering in the streets.

6. Judging by the look of Oro bangs and hair, he sometimes cut it off. A stress relief huh? And the fact that he doesn't do it now in Boruto..

7. It was shown that Tsunade and Orochimaru was acknowledged before they become a team. Maybe they did just before, or maybe some longer time before. I prefer the second option and hc that they met because both had no real friends - Orochimaru seemed weird and scary for everyone and Tsunade was Senju so everyone wanted to hang out with her but didn't really care. They weren't seen as what they were - people put the labels on them. But they didn't care about each other's labels and actually saw each other in true lights.

8. Tsunade knew it was an accident and it's not right but still she blamed Orochimaru for Nawaki's death for some time. It was something that seriously damaged their friendship and the team. Orochimaru was mad but also guilty, after all, he was responsible at least as a shinobi since Nawaki was under his watch. So he started to act cold and emotionless and was trying to distance himself from his teammates.

9. Jiraiya was in Ame while Dan died.

10. The whole his orphans mission was a bit irresponsible tbh. They already fought Hanzo and as he stated the conflict between Konoha and Ame is going to an end with Konoha's win. It's weird to stay here for three years in the middle of the war while there were other lands to fight. He left his teammates for some idea. Maybe that caused another crack in their team friendship.

11. If Tsunade would have find a way to live on with her trauma and follow the will of fire and stuff it would affect Orochimaru as well just as her grief affected him. It's like he would get an example that you can live on with this pain. So death isn't above human capability and we are not just the slaves of mortality (sounds stupid but i dont know how else to describe sorry). But as we know what he actually saw is that it broke her crucially to the point she couldnt be herself again. And so the death is above everything.

12. Oro wasn’t just acting as a cold pragmatic bitch in that cave but also tried to save Tsunade. Jiraiya knew it and that’s why he showed this sign to him like "I see what youre doing here" and that stunned Oro because he would prefer to look rather like a cold pragmatic bitch hehe

13. Just a thought. People in the village probably treated Oro as a foreigner or just wouldnt accept him because he looked so differently and had a weird attitude. That's why he sometimes didn't feel that Konoha is his home. After the wars where people were treated as means and tools, even the children, he himself developed this view on people - he dehumanized them and used as the means to his goals, just as his village did. Funny thing some people were straightly dehumanizing him too like Ibiki thought that he was a demon (tho he was a child). And he probably weren't the only one. Anyways the point is that it's logical that Orochimaru don't care about anybody but some few people, he's the product of his era. He's like Naruto that would chose the hatred way. But naruto had some good and understanding people around him and.. Orochimaru had them too, but match how Iruka treated Naruto and this Hiruzen's "I sAw tHe mAliCe in This cHiLd fRoM tHe BegGinNinG". And oro didn't even have a big ass evil fox in him. sry i hate hiruzen

ANYWAYS the moral of the story is not "go criminal if they hurt you" but always treat people like people. Waving my hand to Kant.

14. The reason why Orochimaru didn't pick some good morals to stick with through the hard times no matter what (like, idk, Jiraiya or Naruto) is because 1) I think he is/was pretty depending on people around him 2) the war fucked him and his friends up too much (Nawaki incident + Tsunade) 3) twisted addictions (though I don't think he's that sadistic, we never saw him torturing randoms just for fun, it was always some science experimental shit. He tends to get fun out of cruelty only when it's personal) that maybe developed as a way to sublimate anger and sadness caused by his parents loss (that's what they share with sasuke - unlicke naruto, they knew their parents and it's other kind of pain. Sasuke developed a revenge issue and Orochimaru - cruelty pleasure which... is kinda the same but less epic and more occasional lol).

15. Speaking of that, Orochimaru cared for Sasuke because he saw himself in him.

16. Oro hold grudges against Hiruzen for not choosing him to be Hokage not only because he was ambitious and/or egoistic, but also because Hiruzen was some kind of a father figure for him and his approval was important tho i doubt he was aware of that. He also probably could tell that Hiruzen was suspicios about him when he was a child and that led to many conflicts and was hurting as well.

17. Tsunade knew things weren't pretty with Orochimaru after the wars but she never expected them to be this bad. During the week that she was given in her arc she thought not only about how much she wants to see Nawaki and Dan again despite how wrong would it be but also was trying to bury all the good memories she had left of Orochimaru so it would be easier to kill him.

18. She poisoned Jiraiya exactly because she knew he would not let her do it. Jiraiya was always hesitant to kill and inclined to forgiveness, while Tsunade, as mentioned by Orochimaru, could be merciless (so much so that he was not surprised when Kabuto suggested that she wanted to use Jira for Edo Tensei).

19. That was one of her traits that scared Jiraiya and fascinated Orochimaru.

20. Remember how Oro grabbed Jiraiya's neck when the latter was trying to cover with hair jutsu? On the snake, in Tsnade's arc. Orochimaru could have easily kill Jiraiya by pulling the sword out of the mouth (arteries are right there) but he didn't. As well as he could kill Tsunade when she was still shaking - just aim for the neck or the heart. Instead, he just injured her lung and kicked her which is not a big deal for the kind of shinoby like her at all.. Also he helped Anko not accidentally kill herself but it would be way much profitable to let her do it. "Orochimaru has no feelings".

21. The reason he suddenly wanted to kill Tsunade instead of forcing her to heal his arms as it was planned (which is weird since it will not going to get him heals and he kinda said that he wouldn't want to kill her just minutes ago) is that not only she refused to help him (he thought he could work it out) but she also prefered the village over him (from his point of view). Out if everyone she was the closest to being able to understand him since the village caused her painful losses too but nevertheless she agreed to be on it's side.

22. He wasn't fighting her back in the end partly because he thought he deserved that. Somewhere deep inside hahah.

23. Tsunade got a fear to develop deep bonds so they probably weren't very close with Shizune (also the way she knocked her down in this hotel.. oh).

24. Orochimaru will be here when she'll die.

25. Orochimaru's eng dub to Tsunade: "I often wondered what it would be like to ring that pretty neck yours". No comments.

26. Orochimaru is either bi/pan or ace. Anything or nothing lmao

27. Hiruzen knew about at least some of the Oro’s illegal experiments and was okay just as he was okay with the Foundation all the time. Because it’s useful. Then he has discovered he went too far OR he knew everything and oro just became too inconvenient because of his methods. The way Orochimaru tells Sasuke about reasons they are well treated as the criminals is based on in his experience with Hiruzen.

28. As you may know the lyrics in Orochimaru’s music theme goes “don’t talk with the silence of the heart”. It was taken from one Indian song that also had lines like “don’t question life too much”, ”pain arose somewhere in the chest”, “don’t speak to the wounds of the heart”. Though I’m not sure 100% because I was translating it with some hindi dictionary with like zero knowledge of hindi

29. I like to think that this “silence of the heart” theme and the fact that he called his village a hidden sound village are somehow connected. The hidden sound is the possible explanation of all things waiting to be listened to but the truth is silent and you know it deep in your heart and it bothers you. The world is silent just like the life is meaningless but people can only hear. *Sigh* anyways

30. Orochimaru’s journey is the one about accepting death. When he saw Karin released her chains while was trying to get to Sasuke he understood that the death is a part of human’s strength.

Can’t wait to feel that everything I wrote is wrong or not enough or stupid and obvious lol. Anyways, it’s something that I wanted to share until I move to some other fandom.

[hnderyx]

hey can you do their reactions on first date? i'm loving your posts

WayV's First Dates

Hey anon :) Thank you so much for your request~!

I hope you enjoy

Kun:

Kun had recently asked you out on your first date

You honestly didn't know what you were expecting to do when he came and picked you up from your place

But spotting a cute little picnic basket and a checkered sheet in the back seat of his car, it clicked

He was going to take you out on a picnic, duh

He knew after your years of friendship that you adored his cooking

So he thought "maybe I should just cook something just for them and I"

When you two arrived at your destination, being the gentleman he is, he helps you out of his luxury Mercedes

(He wouldn't admit it but he wants to flex a bit for you)

And honestly, this place was beautiful

"Kun, it's stunning here.. Wow"

You marvel at the lush green grass and the beautiful weeping willows decorating the open field

He linked his hands with yours, the picnic basket and sheet in his other

He led you to a very specific spot, next to a small trickling stream

"I come sit here sometimes when I'm feeling overwhelmed, y/n. I thought that since you know.. we're dating now I should begin to show you my safe places" he said as he spread out the checkered sheet and set the basket on top of it

You planted yourself on top of the sheet, and he followed

After opening the basket, he pulls out your lunch

It was simple, but adorable

He had made precious little bite sized sandwiches and beautifully decorated heart shaped cookies

Two cans of coke for you two to drink as well

And a bag of chips

"I hope this is alright, y/n.. I know it's not much bu-"

"Kun, it's absolutely precious. I love it so much."

He smiles and laces his hand with yours

You two spend hours sitting and enjoying nature

Maybe you two fall asleep in each other's arms and wake up 3h later when the sun is setting

Ten:

Ten was extremely nervous about picking you up for your first date together

He was slightly worried that maybe you wouldn't enjoy what he had planned

Slightly? I mean he was nearly shaking because he really wanted to have many many dates with you after this one

If he messes up now, it could nuke the possibility of any other dates

He had told you to dress somewhat formally

Preferably in a suit and tie or a flowy dress

So when he sees you walking to his car from your door, he's starstruck at how you look

He had planned taking you to a waltz class and then to an Italian dinner

Guy wanted to be extra

So when you arrive at the class

And you realize what he had planned

You're flustered because

Holy shit, you're expected to dance with the man that is known in the music industry partially because of his dancing?

You're nervous, yet so grateful

He guides you slowly and eventually you get the steps

And the way it feels to be in his arms as you two dance together ignites a fire in your heart

All you feel for Ten at that moment is just an insane amount of love

After the class is finished, you're in awe when he takes you two a dimly lit restaurant

A candle lit restaurant as well??

Damn, Ten really knew how to get you in the loving mood

When he drops you off at home, you invite him in for tea

He asks you for a dance

And you two waltz around your living room like a couple of fools

But a couple of fools that were in love

Winwin:

It took months before Winwin actually got the guts to ask you out

He'd manage to get half the question out before changing the whole conversation

So when he finally forced it out, and you accepted

He was over the moon

But now the problem is..

Where should he take you?

He decided to settle for something easy but just as special as anything else

And that was taking you for a walk in your local park

It was fall, so the leaves were turning and the air was somewhat chilly

"y/n, to warm our hands, do you want a warm drink?"

"Yes please, Sicheng"

You two went to get coffee/tea

And with your coffee/tea in your left hand and Sicheng's hand in the right

It gave you a feeling in your chest like a roaring campfire

You two talked for what seemed like an eternity

About anything and everything

Sitting on a bench, hand in hand

As you watch people and their dogs stroll by

Eventually, you started to get a bit cold

So you two made your way back to your apartment

You invited him in for snacks and maybe some TV

As you were watching some randomly picked out b-movie

You two fell asleep in each other's arms

Lucas:

He's actually adorable. I just wanna hold his hand.

When Lucas originally asked you out

He never thought that you'd actually agree

So he didn't think of anything past the idea of asking you

When you went "sure, I'd love to go out with you. What would you want to do?"

He halted

"I don't know.. Maybe just go see a movie on Friday night?"

It was a basic idea, but an idea nonetheless

So when Friday night came and he picked you up

Poor guy was super nervous

You two settled on seeing some action spy movie thing

You didn't want to admit to him that sometimes during these movies, you get motion sick

So when you get the slight nauseated feeling from keeping your eyes on the fast moving screen

You hide your face in Lucas' shoulder, doing deep breath exercises

You grab his hand and as he realizes you're not exactly feeling well

He rubs tiny patterns into the top of your palm

"Do you maybe just want to go walk around the mall, y/n? We can leave now if you'd like"

"Yes please.."

He guides you out of the theatre and into the adjoining mall

As your eyes land on Build-a-Bear Workshop, you give him puppy eyes

"Xuxi, let's build a bear together!"

Oh, how could he say no?

So you two build a stereotypical teddy bear together

But with one of those hearts that they put in that does the little heartbeat thing

He admires the way you look as you butt-fuck the stuffing into the bear (idk how else to describe it I'm so sorry)

And honestly, he has a bit of a hard time letting you take the bear home but he has to be the charming "yes, you can have the bear" type #MatureXuxi

He's so happy when you agree to another date ;)

Xiaojun:

Xiaojun preformed at your local bar on Saturday nights

As his best friend, you'd always agree to be there

Until he asked you something that genuinely surprised you

"Do you maybe want to come and see my show as... my girlfriend and date? I mean, you don't have to but..."

"I'd love to, Dejun."

You had been having certain feelings for Xiaojun shortly after you two developed a friendship

Anyways,

On Saturday night, he had picked you up

At the bar, you helped him prepare for his performance

Setting up the microphone, tuning his guitar, etc.

He had written a song for you that he would perform in front of the audience

And God, if your face wasn't flushed at the way he introduced you to the crowd as his girlfriend

Then it definitely would've been after he sang this song about how handsome/beautiful you were

After his performance, he sat across from you at your table

"Did you like it, y/n?"

"Y-Yes, I loved it.."

He reached his hands across the table and grabbed your hand

"I love you, y/n."

He pressed a gentle kiss on the top of your hand

Quite a weird first date, but a very heartfelt one.

Hendery:

You and Hendery had a specific place to always go as friends

And that was the arcade

He loved how you'd jump around and smile after beating the high score on one of the flashy machines

He also found it hilarious when you'd input "ur mum" as your name after you've absolutely obliterated 1st the place score

So when he asked you

"y/n you think you'd like to go on a date with me to the arcade? I mean like.. a date date"

It kinda hit different

I mean, it was the place you'd always hang out with him

But this wasn't as homies

This was as blossoming lovers

You were unreasonably nervous, and so was he

You two eventually stopped being shy around each other

And started pushing each other around if you or he wanted to play one of the games you've played millions of times before, first

The way he cheered you on as you played some type of Street Fighter

It really opened your eyes to how you truly felt about Hendery

Every compliment that he spilled

It'd make your face flush

I mean, you knew you had a bit of a crush on him in the first place

But now? Now you knew you were undeniably in love with him

After this little occasion, you two started to go on more date dates to other places besides the arcade

Yangyang:

You and Yangyang spent the majority of your time at the PC cafe with each other

Playing some online games

Sometimes other members of NCT would join you as well

It became something you'd look forward to at the end of the week

You and Yangyang were almost ALWAYS teammates

You weren't too sure if he always requested to be on your team because he liked you or because he thought you were a good player

Maybe both?

Definitely both.

After your hangout with Yangyang and a handful of NCT members, he asked you out for a trip to the bakery

"y/n, you maybe wanna join me to the bakery? I'll buy you something... it'll be a little date"

A date?

"Sure, Yang. I'd love to. Free food is a bonus too."

Your face went red as he slips his hand into yours and pulls you towards the bakery

You two unknowingly kept your hands grasped to each other's as you picked out a small dessert

"Yangyang, do you maybe... like me?"

"Like you? Of course I do" he squeezes your hand "I think I like you more than a friend should like a friend"

Oh so this..

This WAS a date

"I like you like that too, Yangyang..."

He flashes you his signature Yangyang™ smile

"Then lets do little dates more?" he asks

"Yeah, I'd love to..."

[boop-le-snoot]

PARTY FAVOURS I CHAPTER 32

💖 first time reader click here 💖

Summary: Stephen Strange being a grown-up. Reader being a grown-up. Kind of. Revenge plot starts now - don't be like the mercenary, don't threaten reader's family. Avengers being good.. bros? Good found family idk. More smut + plot coming soon.

The silence hung awkwardly over us. Stephen wasn't the one to wax poetics, usually, and I wasn't in the mood to do anything but curl up somewhere warm, chug a bottle of liquor and fall asleep. Sleep is like death without the committment and after my little outburst, I inwardly prayed and begged for the ground to open up and swallow me whole. Instead, I was directed to sit and drink my tea by the sorcerer, who, by the way, was beginning to look like a kicked puppy.

It was starting to become unbearable. "I'm listening," I finally croaked out, shocked at how raspy my voice sounded. As if someone had forced me to choke on some nails - and I felt like it, too. My hands were shaking, all but spilling the hot tea onto them.

"Princess..." His mouth did the thing when he was worried, lips pursed, their corners upturned. "What we did was not... Right, you were drugged without your consent. I am sure Tony feels the same way."

My eyebrows rose, words bubbling up to the surface as I fought the urge to simply start calling Stephen some strong names. Had he been blind the whole time I flirted with him, had he not seen both me and Tony ogling him when we thought nobody could see? Every time I joked about the sexual tension between them - you know what they say, every joke has a little bit of truth in it.

Or maybe the sorcerer had used the incident as a convenient excuse for our little fuck-fest to be a one-time thing? I expected more, I won't lie, but I wouldn't put it above him. I knew all too well that some men tended to simply... Avoid.

I was angry, probably rightfully so, but it was not the time for me to comfort an adult man. My own life was going to shit, I had no mental energy to unburden his baseless guilt. It was selfish and it made me feel even more like shit, but it was as if someone had flipped a switch inside of me. I just didn't care about someone's heartbreak. I needed to solve another problem, a much bigger than a man that couldn't make up his mind.

I had to find that damn mercenary. It was the only real threat hanging over our heads; unlike any mission that I've seen the team go on before, they had thrown all the forces into catching the man that had gotten into their safe space, their home. That threatened to take what they thought as theirs. Long gone were the days of comfortable domesticity.

"Okay," I replied, nodding curtly. "I wanted it, if it helps any. I thought you were attractive the first day I saw you." I spoke bluntly, beginning to feel like myself more and more with each word that I spoke. "And again, no strings have to be attached. I'm sure Tony will understand it too, it's not his first rodeo."

Stephen's head shot up from where he was examining his clasped hands, to study me with furrowed brows. Cloaky moved where it was wrapped around me, attracting the sorcerer's attention - I, unfortunately, did not understand the Cloak's sign language and what it told Stephen remained a mystery to me. I was just delighted to be out of the cold and and wet clothes.

"I think you misunderstood me," Stephen eyed me with surprise. "I want more, but..." He trailed off, unsure. "I don't know. I'm surprised Banner hasn't gone green on me yet. I'm a doctor, I should have known..."

So, he was pulling a me and wallowing in pity. Is this really how pathetic I looked when I used to mope around the house earlier? No wonder my mother thinks I'm a baby. "Stephen, I'm really not in the mood to listen to bullshit. I wanted it, you wanted it, great, we can move on. Because with everything that has happened to me, I really have no energy to convince you I like you even while sober when you're sabotaging yourself." Sure, I might have ripped off the motivational speech from a self-help book my mother used to have laying around. My patience was wearing thinner with each second. "There, I said it. I like you, my boyfriends like you, you're welcome to the club if you decide to believe the fact that I am telling the truth." And if he wouldn't, well, I could get over it. I was planning to never act upon my feelings for both Tony and Bruce, it hadn't been as hard as I thought it would be. Especially with me being busy enough to just ignore the feelings.

At some point, I had grown attached to Stephen. Perhaps, if I and Tony hadn't decided to mess around with the sorcerer at the party, my feelings wouldn't have bloomed into anything more than physical attraction. Murphy's law had a particularly strong affinity on me, I noticed, because over and over I found myself falling head over heels for emotionally unavailable men. It worked out with Tony, which wasn't as surprising as one might expect, considering we're two halves of a whole idiot, but then Bruce also decided to pucker up - Stephen was bound to be the rock that I trip on.

Or not? Soft lips pressed against my forehead, beard hair softly tickling the tip of my nose. I was pressed against a solid chest, surrounded by warmth and comfort. "I'm sorry, I'm an idiot," Steph whispered, voice quivering.

"Well, it's not like this... Relationship... I've got going on is something commonplace," My arms wrapped around him, a deep sigh relaxing my body into his. "I'm sorry I yelled at you. It wasn't right."

Stephen chuckled, all but pulling me bodily into his lap. "Don't worry, Princess. I deserved it." As he spoke, the Cloak carefully unwrapped itself from me, drifting away with a parting pat on my back. "Now what happened with your parents?" Large palms pushed the hair out of my face, stormy blue eyes looking at me with worry.

"I should probably assemble all my significant others for this conversation," There was little enthusiasm in discussing the incident. I was an adult and had enough money to get by for a few months, at least until I could patent one of my inventions. I had plenty of knick-knacks that should be able to interest buyers, that much I knew, and while the legal side of the process was a blank slate to me, I knew I could be charismatic enough to have someone work it out for me.

"I don't think I'll be able to take Steve seriously when he says 'assemble', now," My third boyfriend chuckled, which - wow, I didn't have boyfriends and now I had three? Should I be considering opening a factory or something? Stephen adjusted his hold on me. "Let's go, I'll portal us in."

"My car's out there with all my stuff. I'll have to drive," I protested but made no move to get out of his lap.

"Tony is a billionaire, he can pay someone to retrieve it," Shrugging carelessly, he produced a golden circle of magic, the common room couch in plain sight at the other side of it. I heard voices and then Clint's head peaked through, a curiously tilted eyebrow morphing into full fledged face of confusion upon seeing the two of us.

Yikes. I had forgotten about the state of my dress and the bruise on my cheek. "Hey, bird. I need a drink," I said the first thing that popped into my mind, causing both Clint and Steph to laugh as the sorcerer carried me into the tower through the portal.

"I'm starting to think you go out there and look for trouble on purpose," The archer sighed, pulling out his phone and texting rapidly. Mine vibrated, too, once he was done, which meant he'd called for a family meeting. Blergh.

In no time, Tony appeared, dark circles under his eyes and yesterday's shirt on, towing a worried Bruce behind him. One after the other, the Avengers tickled in, looking restless and exhausted. Loki's frown was well on its way to becoming a full sneer.

"Talk, please," He requested, eyeing me with concern.

"Good news is I got our rogue wizard back," I poked Stephen in the chest. He was blushing. "Bad news is my mother threw me out and my father didn't pick up the phone, so technically I'm homeless and parent-less," I decided that spitting out straight facts was the easiest way to go about it. I mean, there was no good way to tell what I just told them.

The storm that I anticipated didn't appear. Just a lot of disappointed sighs all around, especially from Tony, who looked twenty years older after I'd confessed to the current state of my affairs. "You're not homeless, you live here," He pointed out, rubbing his face and muttering some very strong words under his nose. Particularly, the expressions involved my mother and various methods of fornication.

"We got your back, doll," Bucky nodded, coming over to wrap me in a gentle hug. He was like a brother from another mother to me at this point, kind and goofy and sensible. "I would propose to teaching that harpy a lesson but I think she's beyond it."

"Perhaps it's for the best," Loki mused suddenly. "If I recall correctly, your mother was against your career of choice, which is idiotic. Science is a noble and prospective path." The Asgardian, too, gave me a hug.

I wasn't crying! There were ninjas, in the vents, cutting onions! "Stop it guys, I'm gonna cry. I already look like shit!" The protest was silenced by Bruce's lips on mine, his tiny smile briefly covering my mouth with tenderness. After that, everybody somehow decided it was their job to try and make me cry; like a bad bitch, I resisted, but eventually broke and started sniffling when Tony began rambling about building me my own lab and Wanda offered to help me decorate my new apartment.

No matter how much my mind screamed at me to refuse, I forced that noise down. Fighting against myself, accepting help despite feeling unworthy of it - it was probably the hardest thing I've done in my whole life.

Bruce volunteered to carry my prone body to Tony's bedroom which was quickly becoming the master bedroom for the three of us - ever since the incident, both of my scientists stuck close to me whenever possible, aggressively cuddling me whenever they decided it was time to get some sleep. Which wasn't much these days, if I was being honest. Persuading Bruce to stay with me was a novelty - usually he didn't resist, but that time, I had to repeat myself multiple times that the team could handle business even without him being present.

I had my ulterior motives, of course. Tony and Stephen needed to talk. I only hoped their egos wouldn't clash without me to mediate - having two boyfriends start a fight wasn't something I wanted to experience. I had zero experience in those matters and had no idea how to manage all that. Are there handbooks for polyamorous relationships? I stuck a mental post-it note inside my brain to check it out.

I fell asleep with Bruce wrapped around me and woke up in the same position, having been too exhausted to move even in my sleep. Voices, rough and quiet, were the first thing I heard upon syncing my brain into a resemblance of a working order, instantly recognizing Stephen's deep baritone and Tony's teasing drawl.

"Expect either Reindeer Games or Kim Possible to come and terrify you," My engineer didn't sound particularly ecstatic. His voice came from somewhere around my feet; the hand wrapped around my ankle, thumb gently stroking the skin, must've been his.

"Duly noted," Stephen's reply was equally sarcastic, sounding a little closer. The warmth coming from my side was him. I could smell the faint spices that surrounded him, smell that I'd come to associate with the Sanctum.

Bruce snored away, not a care in the world.

My body, on the other hand, felt rested for what felt the first time in years. A pleasant ache in my muscles had me begrudgingly squirm out of Banner'd grasp, shamelessly pushing up into Stephen as I stretched with a juicy yawn. "What's poppin'?" I rubbed my eyes, finding the men awake looking at me with fond amusement.

"Just watching," Tony smiled, causing me to giggle at his accidental meme-ing. Was it even accidental? I refused to believe that a man well versed in IT was oblivious to meme culture.

Stephen, on the other hand... "We've discussed some things, wanted to talk to you too." His hand stroked my hair, face expression soft unlike anything I'd ever seen him have. "But you were sleeping. So cute."

Me, cute? There was a puddle of drool the size of a dollar bill on my pillow, I was pretty sure some of it had even gotten in Bruce's hair. Banner's sleep was quiet except for every five minutes when he'd let out a snore with a force somewhere between a Mack truck and a whale in mating season.

Cute, sure.

Bruce groaned, a tell-tale sign of him waking up. I met his eyes, brown, shiny, a narrow edge of green around his irises. Huh. Do I have three boyfriends or four?

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[theladylovingcrow]

New Places, Friendly Faces (Sanny) Pt 1

Author (As known on Various sites): Lady Lover- Rockfic, Luluthechoosingcrow - AO3, theladylovingcrow - Deviantart and Wattpad, @sammy_bluebells - Instagram, @imacrowcawcaw - main Tumblr, @theladylovingcrow - writing/art Tumblr, @insannywestan - Sanny shipping Tumblr

Fandom: Greta Van Fleet

Pairing: Sam Kiszka/Danny Wagner (Sanny), lil bit of Danny/Ronnie but he's quickly swept away with Sam

Length: about 2k

Warnings/Tags: Alternate Universe, Diner AU, No band AU, fluff, some angst, awkwardness, first dates, you know the ones where person A's date is failing and person B comes and sits with them, sorry i forgot what its called but that, hand holding, flirting, Sanny

Summary: Danny was nervous; he had been building up the courage for *weeks* to arrange a date, and now.... He wasn't quite sure what to think of the situation he found himself in. The night certainly wasn't going as he had expected it to - and his emotions had never ridden a roller coaster this fast. Hell, the beautiful angel holding his hand wasn't even the one he had arranged to meet 2 hours ago.

Author's Notes: I don't know what inspired me to do this but I'm very very happy with how it's turning out (and I've never written a longer-ish multi chapter story before, so this is interesting!) I would hate for Danny to not know the Kiszkas growing up, but hey I think I made their first meeting pretty damn cute!

Also, just FYI this is set roughly in late January of whatever year, so the twins are supposed to be 20, Ronnie is 18 I think, Danny just turned 18, and Sam is 17 (I think I did all the math right but idk) HOWEVER it wasn't until I finished that I realized I absolutely did not make their appearances congruent with what they would have looked like then.... Sam and Danny look like 2018 ish but the twins also look like their high school selves :( Idk sorry

Also, because Sam is 17, this will not be posted on Rockfic and will be marked as underage, though I'm not planning for it to get dirty

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Danny had been taping his foot for the past fifteen minutes.

He usually didn't do that, it wasn't his nervous tick of non-choice, but Michelle hadn't showed up yet, and it was nearing eight.

Checking his watch, Danny watched the hand tick to 7:58 and then looked up, peering around the restaurant he was in.

Diner, he corrected himself. It was a homey, 1960's American diner, a little more exposed timbers and bear carvings than checkered tiles and jukeboxes, but that's what you got in Michigan. The building was low and sturdy, a log structure with a river rock chimney over the grills in back. Every single wall was decorated with various signed pictures of celebrities that had passed through, local newspaper articles about Gerald and Fern's Homestyle Grill, old handsaws, vintage pop signs, and a million other trinkets and posters chosen by the owners (Gerald and Fern, he assumed, though they'd probably passed on considering how old the place looked to be).

It was a nice restaurant, Danny thought; the atmosphere was welcoming and calm despite the occasional clamor from the kitchen, and the decor was very interesting to look at. Plus, the waitress that had directed him to a window booth and brought him some water was just gorgeous.

'Don't think that! You're on a date, idiot' Danny scolded himself,  shaking his head. Well, he was technically waiting for the date to start, seeing as she hadn't showed up yet. But, he still shouldn't be admiring another girl like that when his wasn't there - that would just make him an asshole.

But maybe Michelle was a little bit of an asshole because she said she'd meet him at 7 o'clock and it was now 8:06- 'Stop. It.' Danny scolded himself again, mentally smacking himself upside the head.

'Didn't your mother ever tell you to assume the best of people?' One voice asked.

'Of course!' Another Danny answered.

'Well, then, she probably got stuck in traffic, or her dog threw up in her car, or she hit a bad pothole, or her mom made her go to the store, or-'

'Okay, I get it! She probably doesn't mean to be so late,' Danny conceded, concluding the conversation he was having with himself. Maybe the waitress was right and he had been sitting there by himself for a little too long.

Of course, being the nice girl she was, the waitress - Ronnie her name was Ronnie - had stopped by periodically whenever she had a minute to chat with him or finally bring him some coffee after he had given in to the craving.

Danny looked down at the small bouquet wilting on the table and sighed. Looked like this date was a bust, just like the few others he'd attempted, and he'd actually been very excited to see her. In fact, it was Michelle who had suggested this Gerald's Grill when he had shyly asked her out in Biology.

He had finally made up his mind to just stop wasting Ronnie's time and go home when a group of boys came trouping in, wet from the snow but in exuberant spirits and, apparently, "In great need of some refreshment, Ronnie dear!"

That made him want to pack up and get out even faster because, honestly, he didn't need any more knowing looks or judgement right now, but the last boy to walk in made him freeze with his coat halfway on.

The kid looked about Danny's age, roughly the same height but a whole lot skinnier. He had on skin tight jeans, scuffed hiking boots, and a red woolen coat. When he turned to talk to Ronnie, Danny could see the Tom Petty hoodie beneath the jacket and some silver necklaces.

'Nice,' he thought, 'seems like a cool guy: good taste in music and fashion.'

Also, 'Fucking gorgeous'.

What made him pause his leaving, though, wasnt the guy's body but his face - his sculpted brows, insanely high cheekbones, pink lips, and long lashes; all framed by the healthiest looking head of hair Danny had ever seen, second only to his own, or possibly one of the guy's he had come in with (the one who yelled for Ronnie) that had rather impressive, long curls styled to look like 70's mutton chops. There was something naggingly familiar about his features, but Danny couldn't place it.

Ronnie rolled her eyes and pointed the group of boys to a large table in the Eastern corner of the diner.

She snagged some menus and followed behind them, though another guy, this one also with long hair (he was having some competition here) grown out Justin Beiber style (okay, maybe not) said; "We don't need those, Ronnie, I'm pretty sure Sammy here has the whole menu memorized by now. Right, Sam-a-lam-a?"

The intruiging boy nodded, starting to recite off what sounded like a very accurate, detailed account of the diner's menu, prices and everything. Danny was surprised at the slight raspy, smokers quality of his voice, but it was pleasant, in a way.

After the fourth item or so, Ronnie stopped "Sammy" with a swat to the shoulder, shaking her heading and muttering "stupid genius" under her breath. He grinned up at her, wiggling his eyebrows and asking for a round of Vernors, pretty please, Ronnie-kins.

Holy shit, they were siblings! That's what had been buzzing at the back of his head for the past couple minutes; those mouths and cheekbones, seductive eyes, that lovely hair. The guy was Ronnie's brother (and no wonder he was so beautiful then).

Squinting, Danny watched the party in the corner. Two of the other guys, 70's hair and Justin Beiber (though he felt bad calling him that since he seemed cool and, hey, he'd  had the same 'do when trying to grow his out) were laughing at something Ronnie said, leaning on each other and behaving the exact same way, down to their blinks.

Twins! Danny could tell because he had two cousins, also twins, that acted exactly like that. Wait, though.... they looked awfully similar to-

More siblings?! Jesus, how many kids did this family have? He hoped the four were all, for the sake of their parents.

He guessed that the twins were a little older, so either "Sammy" or Ronnie had to be the youngest, though they all looked awfully similar in age.

'Seriously, how do their parents handle that?' Especially with the attractive, flirty twins, beautiful daughter, and the super smart supermodel - it had to be several handfuls raising a house like that. Danny suddenly felt a bit more sympathy for his parents, even with just having to deal with him and his little sister.

Ronnie sashayed away, calling over her shoulder for the boys to keep it down. They all hooted and hollered in response, seeing as Danny was the only other patron to bother at the moment.

Danny slowly sat back down, curious as to what interesting conversations he would hear from the group. The twin with curly hair was currently talking to a larger guy on the other side of the table about the "carefully curated sensuality" of Led Zeppelin's Prescence, which alone made him want to stay.

Not to mention, he could continue to observe the hot guy that was immediately fascinating him like few people did. Danny wasn't deluded enough to think it was love at first sight - though it was definitely a fair amount of lust - but there was something about the other boy that made him want to track his every move down to the blinking of his eyes.

"Woah there, creepy much? Chill out, he probably doesn't even like guys anyways," Danny muttered to himself, hoping that his staring wasn't obvious enough to make "Sammy" aware of it. He loved to people watch - and admire, but hated the uncomfortable confrontation of acknowledging that he had been doing so.

Supermodel boy twisted in his chair, looking at one of the many things on the wall - though it made Danny's breath catch because, could he tell? - when he caught Danny's eye. He smiled at Danny, making him smile a little tightly and nod in return.

At that moment, Ronnie came out of the back with a platter of glass pop bottles and a notebook tucked into her apron pocket, using her hip to close the swinging half-door to the area behind the counter. She smiled at Danny as he passed, murmuring a soft "I'll be right back with you," before continuing on to her brothers' table.

Gorgeous boy laughed - a surprisingly obnoxious, though maybe endearing, braying one - and reached out a fine boned hand, plucking a bottle from the tray before she could set it down. He took a long swallow, throat visibly working and eyes half closed, head tipped back. Danny quickly averted his own eyes unless he started drooling onto the tabletop.

Ronnie came over to him after a minute, refilling his coffee and insisting that she get him a piece of pie, on the house. He didn't have the heart to tell her no, not after more than an hour of sitting there pitifully, and especially not now that he knew her gorgeous brothers (or at least one of them, the prettiest, too) knew he was there. It would be incredibly embarrassing for them to know that he was stood up and alone; Danny wanted to give off a good impression, for some reason.

Ronnie walked away again, hips swaying, and disappeared into the back. "Sammy" laughed at the table in the corner and Danny's eyes shot to him, watching how he played with his straw between those two pillowy lips.

He started sweating a little bit, considering who he thought was more attractive (not like either of them would be interested in him, but). Ronnie was curvy and kind and beautiful, but Sam was lean and charismatic and had the most lovely facial structure Danny had ever seen.

'Ugh, bisexual problems', Danny thought. No one else would have know what he was talking about if they were there, though, since he had never mentioned it to his parents nor his few friends.

He wondered, idly - because he really was out of their league and it would never, ever happen - what his family would think if he brought either of them home. Ronnie would be sure to elicit absolute delight from his mother after her admonishment for getting a girlfriend in the first place (despite the fact that he was allowed to do what he wanted now that he was 18, Danny's mom still saw him as her little boy). Ronnie's brother, he wasn't sure; it's not like they were homophobic, but Danny was certain that him bringing home a guy out of nowhere would be quite the shock.

They'd warm up to Sam (he didn't want to call him "Sammy"; it felt too familiar to he polite, though he did like that), he was sure. His parents would be impressed by his intelligence and be charmed by his jokes, and tell Danny that they were glad he had found such a nice boyfriend.

Danny drifted off into a daydream of what it would be like to date Sam, to take him to family holiday meals and go out hiking with him and cuddle up on a late winter afternoon like this one. He rested his head on his hand, letting his eyes go unfocused as he envisioned the imaginary world in which he had an 11/10 boyfriend.

"Hey, I've got your pie. Mind if I sit and eat mine with you?"

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@satans-helper @okietrish @lazingonsunday @bigthighsandstupidguys @karrotkate @oblvions @lantern-inthenight @mountainofthefleet seriously PLEASE tell me if anyone else wants to be tagged in Sanny and I'll add it to my list because I guessed these peeps last time and got it right but I can't remember if there's anyone else

[consistent-self-destruction]

rahhh i am so excited for college i could seriously burst at the seams but i am also so NERVOUS

there's just so much swirling around in my mind and sometimes i'll get so wrapped up in one corner of the swirl that i forget about the rest of it until i realize "holy shit oh yeah there's more to be mindful of." like im constantly forgetting and remembering how much is going on and how much is coming

there's the anticipation of getting ready to dorm. figuring out what i'll need and what i want. and im worried because i havent seen what my dorm will really look like in person other than pictures online. but i'm a really visual person so seeing the dorm in person would help give a visual perspective of how much space i have, which will inform me of what i should buy for the space i have. it'll give me ideas on how to decorate, and just things like that. so it's nerve wracking. thinking about what i can buy for as cheap but effective as possible and how i plan to store my belongings. it's a little fun because i can picture how i WANT the room to be when i get lost in wormholes, looking at dorm essentials and decors on amazon and all. i love daydreaming so that part is fun. but then i remember that im still pretty clueless to if what im envisioning will actually work and it just makes me feel uncertain about when move in day actually comes. and i want move in day to go as smoothly as possible because i know i have a bunch of other stuff to be worried about, so i want to feel settled and comfortable in at least one area of this college process yk? and there are other dorm-related worries like, i havent gotten in contact with all my roommates yet but i need to find out if any of them are renting a microfridge so that we all dont bring one each and end up with 4 fridges in the same small space. i also havent really figured out what aesthetic i want for my space so that's something. i love my space to have personality - a lot of me in it. personal references to my experiences and things i like. i dont have much decorative freedom in my own room right now at home - but i say ive managed to make it as personable as i can with little knickknacks and things. i'd define my room as very very tame clutter core. and i like clutter core, but i also know that my clutter is because i cant buy the cute aesthetic pretty things i want. now that i kinda maybe ?? have the freedom to buy those things - will that cancel out my tendency to design in a clutter core way ?? idk, im still figuring out my aesthetic but i just hope it goes okay. i also have to figure out where to buy things. a lot i can get from the basic dollar tree or five below. other stuff - big stuff, i still have to figure out. like a 3-tier cart thing, a desk hutch - but a cute one :/, little fake plants cause god knows i cant take care of real ones for the life of me. but yeah that's one area of my mind right now.

another area of my college-infested brain right now is welcome week and settling in once school actually starts. getting adjusted to my classes and schedule without burning out you know? but still making time to meet people so i'm not too alone and confused. but also making time to give myself a breather from the college stress and just take care of myself. i'll have to find a balance. so that's something i'm a little worried about. i tend to burn out really easily.

i'm thinking about seeing my bestfriend as soon as i can because i really miss them. they said they'd visit and help me decorate and they'd bring me a "dorm-warming" gift which they made up LMAO. so sweet. i love them with my whole heart. the dorm stuff wil be fun, but i also wanna get away from college and just spend time with them so that's something im thinking about - cause i'll have to balance that with getting adjusted to school and still taking care of myself too.

i'm thinking about financial and health things !!! loose ends for school before it starts. my school requires you to be covid vaxxed to attend so i just got my first shot this past week and my second dose is gonna be the exact day after move in day. i dont know if that's gonna mess with my ability to attend ?? but hopefully not because it'll be like 3 days before the official first day of classes. i also dont know if my dad sent in my required health forms or not, but i dont wanna ask because he's a cranky old man and doesn't like it when you ask him questions. he just wants you to trust that it's taken care of, but i still cant help but worry because how do i know it's taken care of if i dont SEE it being taken care of ? if you dont tell me or show me ? so i'm thinking about that and just hoping he's tying up the loose ends. and then financial stuff too. i know he applied for fafsa / financial aid and i just saw an email that my decision was made and all so i think that's all done. but i still have a student bill that's due to be fully payed on the 10th unless you get a payment plan. and i dont know if he filed for a payment plan or not. again, he expects that i just trust he'll do what he has to, but i still cant help but have it nagging my mind. if im not 100% certain that responsibilities are taken care of, they will bite at my brain worms like the most annoying mosquitos. as for other financial things that are more in my hands ?? im also thinking about the back to school expenses of dorm room shopping hhh. that's gonna be a hefty bill and i dont know when my parents are gonna let me start buying either. if i buy anything online, it has to be early so that it delivers in time. then im thinking about my future expenses DURING school - paying for little groceries like fruits and snacks and microwave foods for the dorm. buying food occassionally when i feel like it or going out with friends or traveling to the city or visiting home. the expenses of going shopping because i'll wanna make my wardrobe more personal now that i'll have the freedom too. i can already see myself spending so much money once school starts. AND I NEED TO TAKE A LOAN OUT ON A CAR TOO GAH. because i definitely need to learn to drive asap because driving around will cut my travel expenses by a gajillion please. the campus offers work and work-study programs and they have a site and program that i can look into that on, but i cant access it right now because mom is limiting me resourcefully. i need my phone to do that two-factor authentification thing to open my student email. through my student email i can register my account for the campus work search program. but i cant do any of that because i dont have my phone to do the two-factor thing. im worried about getting a job early in the school year anyways because i already know how overwhelmed im going to get - juggling a job for the first time ever, adjusting to school, adjusting to a new life with new freedom and meeting new people and still making time for myself. i really really really dont wanna burn out. but i dont wanna go broke EITHER. so i need a job. and i wanna start exploring right now but i cant because mom is on her b.s. so it's just frustrating. and i need my phone for the other reason of contacting my roommates too. hhh.

anyways. college on da brain asf.

- 8.2.22 | 9:24 AM -

[couldnt-think-of-a-funny-name]

- Carrie needs fo feel like the main character. I feel like Sue and Margaret get more...emphasis than her? I know it's framed as Sue retelling the story but like. let the girl get her spotlight

- Carrie's songs should start out as very simple, meek and quiet, actress singing lightly, but then as she learns about her powers and gains confidence her voice gets a little stronger, and then BAM! Pigs Blood! I think immediately after the blood drop it should be a time stand still, her classmates frozen, and this bitch rips out an absolute POWER BALLAD to end it all. belting all over the place. after a high note is when the kids unfreeze and start laughing, and THAT'S when she starts killing everyone, and after her first surge the music starts back up and sounds even more vengeful than before, and then after she kills everyone she starts singing again. I'm getting chills right now leave me alone

- Margaret's songs should sound very church hymn-y, all twisty and preachy and soprano-y, with a dark undertone to the music that doesn't quite match her demeanor. as she descends more and more into madness her voice gets all over the place, so when we get to her final song, as she's trying to kill Carrie, she's barely singing anymore, just screeching somewhat in tune with this chilling organ music

- when Carrie starts killing the kids at prom it needs to look SCARY. everyone's always like 'oooh we wanna ground this in realism so the focus is more on the human characters instead of the horror' blah blah blah SPARE ME. choreograph the SHIT out of the Black Prom. I saw American Psycho on broadway, and during one song there's a pile of dead bodies on stage that start twitching and reanimating to move to the song and it was so well done it still lives in my head rent free. do some shit like that. get some people on wires so they can be thrown around the stage. get fake blood everywhere. smoke machines. fake fire. go big or don't even bother!!

- I am pro actually dumping blood on Carrie and not just using a red spotlight, HOWEVER, I think it would just be absolutely bitchin' if she could have like, some red led lights under her dress that can be switched on after the blood drop so she's extra red and also has an otherworldly glow to her

- pop off with the practical effects for her powers!! don't just give me some flickering lights and a pile of books falling off a table! blow some shit up! invert some crosses! shake some furniture!

- I think the prayer room Carrie gets locked in should be the most detailed part of the set, like the school and the prom you can get away with basic and minimal decorating, but the room should be over the top, and I also think it's where Carrie and Margaret's finale fight should take place, instead of, like, their dining room.

- I also think these bitches need to BATTLE. idk when I watched it the end scene was just too anticlimactic. Carrie gets stabbed, she stops her mother's heart, they both die like...I know that's literally what happens in the book but it's not satisfying enough to see it play out. I want them scream singing clashing songs, Carrie not trying to kill Margaret at first until she hits a moment where she realizes that's the Only Way to stop her (I know we can't get the movies 'a million knives' death on stage lmao but we can still make it a FIGHT)

- no one in the show should wear red, so when things start getting bloody it REALLY pops. lowkey I even think Carrie should be in white for most of the show.

- tik tok promotional campaign where people dump fake blood on themselves and donate to different women's shelters and anti-bullying centric foundations. yes I'm ripping off the ice bucket challenge here shut up about it

- okay you know how after prom Carrie is supposed to go through town wrecking havoc before getting home? here me out. she literally takes her murderous rampage out into the audience. she walks through the aisles, actors are strategically placed in seats that she kills, fake blood everywhere in the audience (who were provided with rain ponchos I'm not a monster). while THAT'S going on is when they can clean up the stage and switch the set to the prayer room for the finale with Margaret

- OOOOH would it not be so sexy if all the students are dead and Carrie's standing center stage and the curtains start closing but she steps out between them before they close entirely and that's when she starts attacking the audience....bitch....I want this so bad....

- obviously don't actually slaughter a pig on stage but don't just have Chris and Billy appear and be like 'ah yes here is the blood we got in a cut scene' lmao like show me them at the barn

- there's no real way to show mental links on stage sadly so give Sue and Carrie like...a Moment before everything goes to shit so when Carrie doesn't kill her and accepts her comfort in her dying moments it like. makes sense.

- it's 4:30 in the morning rn so I'm gonna tap out but please. please someone let's make this happen please

anyway whom wants to hear how I would do Carrie the musical

[taldigi]

I played the 48 hour trial of Sims 4 a few weeks ago and it got really boring fast. At first, it was fun, but it's basically all aesthetics. What's the difference between using a treadmill or a boxing bag? The animation. What's the difference between being a programmer or a writer? The menu. What's the difference between all of the food? As far as I can tell, nothing but the price and the appearance. I'm curious as to how you still like it after a (presumably) long time of playing it.

I was gifted the game a week ago and I’ve been digging my teeth into it. When it comes to the sims, it’s sort of like that all around. You have x skill, you can use x, y, or z to level it up. You need levels to rank up in x career or do x thing.

Sims is, and always has been, a dollhouse. the joy of it is making your own goals. Some games are better at it than others: Sims 1 Console games were pretty good that: like Bustin Out and Urbz, where there was a goal in front of ya: getting to the top. Some people have fun skilling up, others enjoy chasing careers or collecting- even building and decorating has been a huge part to why Simmers love it. It’ ssort of always been that way across all the games (MySims might be the exception here, but it’s hardly a Sims game tbh) Personally, if you own Sims 2, give the apocalypse challenge a shot. Or, overall, a legacy challenge also works great. Right now I’m doing one in Sims 3 where the rule is I can’t move in anyone, and the sims have to be born into the family. 

Sad part about Sims 4, tho, is that it has a pedigree, but that’s all it really has going for it. It looks great, it feels great, the sims are very full of life (animations, voices) and the style is clean and multitasking is great! Heck, emotions are fun too. But in the end, it’s just a strangled version of it’s predecessors. 

You gotta look at the leaps the series has made from maingame to maingame. 1 was great, revolutionary, start of a genre. But 2 added so much. It gave your sims lives of their own rather then them feeling like stupid animals. Aspirations and the want/fear system was great! it made the sims take a  full transition into 3d (rather than 3d sims/pets and 2d everything else) it’s the diff between a hamburger and a cheeseburger. and 3? damn, it added fries to that combo meal. personality traits out the ass, an open world, collectable gnomes?! YES? BUGS TO COLLECT, ROCKS THAT COULD BE COLLECTED AND GVIEN CUTS- hunting down seeds was great! I loved finding seeds and then growing em to find what they were. Plants becoming barren also kept the cycle going. Weird and cool plants like the flamefruit, life fruit, death flower- you could grow eggs and steak and cheese. exploring was great too! I loved how you could park and play music while another sim could stay home or go to another part of town- expantions were all good too. All added good shit. 

But 4.. man, it’s a huuge step backwards. Even now, with all the updates. it’s barely meeting the bare minimum of what the game should have been at launch 3 freakin’ years ago. Toddlers were basegame in 2. they were basegame in 3. it took 3 years for them to be patched into 4.  Sims feel like less. their personality traits feel like they have little to no impact on gameplay. Wants feel like they were added on as a last thought. Emotions are fun, yes, but it’s too easy to manipulate em. the days feel shorter than 3′s did. Gardens never die unless you neglect em. Expantions and Game packs add so little for their prices. Why are game packs even a thing?! Idk, ramblin.

to address some points you brought up: in 3, food had a point. sims had favorite foods. I think some foods fed more than others or kept your hunger bar fuller. recipies required certain foods that could be grown in your garden. in 4 there’s no real point. Heck, gardening’s been dumbed down too. I know writers could sell their books in 3 and earned royalties over time, and I think writers could write a book that could bring sims back to life: but I haven’t made it that far in 4 to really get into that kinda stuff.

right now, I have 1 sim and her daughter. the sim is gunna complete all asperations, jobs, and skills, and that’s all I’m doin. I’m outie after that. Back to 3 and my legacy there.

[kisekimegami]

YOU'LL NEVER WANT TO REBLOG AN ASK MEME EVER AGAIN LOL i'm so sorry. 4, 6, 10, 11, 14, 23, 29, 35, 36, 41, 51 (this is very important what are you talking about), 61 (lmao), 71, 73 (to me, platonically, as sisters, forever), 76, 78, 79, 80, 82, 88, 94, 95, 96, 97.

hmpoMGG SO MANY N U M B E R S

4. i used to hate my last name bc it sounded weird, but i like my name!! its uncommon but sadly it doesn’t really sound right with any other last name than my current one lol i guess im not getting married ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

6. chill but wild

10. it ranges from ��i just woke up and i didn’t feel like it” to “hey thats trendy and casual wow ur so hip 2k17″ like i really like chokers and oversized sweaters and all that trending stuff. it’s usually just really cozy though, like sweaters are my FAVORITE THING EVER :D

11. TUMBLR OR YOUTUBE or snapchat i have no idea i live my life through a scREEN

14. CANADA HANDS DOWN CANADA, VANCOUVER OR TORONTO EITHER OR TBH london is nice too i have lots of family there and it’s a chill city but omg CANADA UGHHH I LOVE IT

23. holy shit where do i begin hMMMMM um amusement park would be AWESOME i would love to ride rollercoasters all day and take aesthetic ferris wheel pictures and then after we can come home and cuddle and watch movies and eat popcorn OOOOH ALSO BAKING I LOVE BAKING WHA T A CUTE DATE THAT WOULD BE

29. i dont have one bc im perfect hHAAHA jk um hmm the worst thing… i accidentally stepped on my cats tail once and he ran away from me and i cried. oh also i shoplifted a webkinz once whoops

35. OOOOH THATS A TOUGHIE if we’re including youtubers THE DOLAN TWINS UGH THEY’RE ACTUALLY SO COOL i would love to be friends with them at least, like even just being their friend would make me very honored, umm i have a bunch of celebrities i look up to (mostly youtubers again whoop) but uhh lets see… i like all of the Chris’s (Evans, Pine, Pratt, Hemsworth, etcetcetec) also Ryan Gosling ugh what a cutie anD YOUNG LEONARDO DICAPRIO JEEZ IF HE STILL LOOKED LIKE THAT HIS FACE WOULD BE ALL OVER MY WALLS what sucks is that there’s really no celebrities my age so i mostly look up to them as friends or for lack of a better word “senpai’s” //cringes

36. Ferris Beuller’s Day Off has become a really big favorite w me recently, Guardians of the Galaxy, HTTYD 2, Summer Wars, Kimi no Na Wa, Aladdin, Zootopia, and The Boy And The Beast. I like movies a lot sorry :’)

41. OOHHH HOW CAN I PICK JUST 10 GAH GIMME A SEC 

“Hurts Like Heaven” and “Strawberry Swing” by Coldplay

“Say It, Just Say It” and “Clean Light” by The Mowgli’s

“Happy” and “Ghosting” by Mother Mother

“All I Wanna Do” by Jay Park

“We Don’t Talk Anymore” QUEEN SELENA and Charlie Puth

all of the undertale ost just all of it

“I’m Still Here” John Rzeznik

theyre all really good song s you should listen :33

51. i think 10? i didn’t get anything under our “tree”(i dont celebrate and our tree at the time was just a fake decorative plant w christmas lights) and i was like to my dad “santa isnt real isnt he” and he was like “lol yup he fake”

61. YES AHAHAHAHAH ok so I was 4 and our car broke down and i really needed to pee so i got out of the car and did what needed to be done :’)

71. TEA 10000000000% YOU DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND I LOVE TEA

73. i would love to someday :DD

76. black ahahaha um also red, maroon, yknow fall colors, olive green, etc etc. i have warm toned skin so i tend to gravitate to warmer colors

78. closed who sleeps w their door open wtf

79. hmMMM maybe idk i don’t doubt they’re real but idk for sure

80. people who talk about themselves too much omg that grinds my gears, like when someone goes on and on about themselves like “ok you need to get your head out of your ass pls” and also people who brag about themselves?? like just stop.. theres this guy ik and he thinks he’s the literal best at musical theatre but lowkey he’s garbage and no one likes him hhhHAH @stressedtrashcan knows who i’m talking about

82. cotton candy or mint!! or plain old vanilla but i looove cotton candy flavor

88. yea sure its relaxing

94. “I GOT GREENS BEANS POTATOES TOMATOES LAMBS YAMS MMM YOU NAAAME IT ” lolol jk uhh “If it's God who made us, why're we so damn cruel?” from Start Over by Abandoned Pools

95. WINTER WINTER WINTER

96. hmmm day i like the sun

97. milk is my favorite :)

omfg that took me like 2 minutes just to type up the numBERS and NOW IM FINISHED AND JEEEEEZ THAT TOOK SO LONG BUT AHAHAHAH I HAD A LOT OF FUN!!

[ashley-virginia]

Alright I'm gonna be "that guy" and be totally annoying, but for the unusual asks thing, answer all of them (or whatever ones you want to/have time for) bc I'm honestly genuinely curious :)

Ahhhh thank you so much! I actually love you a whole bunch, because this was so fun and I never really get to do things like this!!

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? spotify

is your room messy or clean? my room at home is messy as hell, but my dorm is pretty neat and pretty.

what color are your eyes? brown, but like a nice chocolate brown!

do you like your name? why? i guess i like it, i think it’s kinda adorable when people mess up the pronunciation and add an extra syllable in the middle. so they say ash-uh-lee instead of just Ashley.

what is your relationship status? s i n g l e 

describe your personality in 3 words or less calm, friendly, shy

what color hair do you have? brunette

what kind of car do you drive? color? white ‘99 solara. i named him caspar :)

where do you shop? target, forever21, kohls (if i’m feeling like dropping big bucks), lush

how would you describe your style? terrible. i have zero style whatsoever. but i guess it’s classic? trendy? what words do you even use to describe style??

favorite social media account tumblr or twitter

what size bed do you have? queen i think

any siblings? only child!

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? somewhere warm so i don’t freeze my butt off, and my skin gets super dry when it’s cold out. so like maybe florida or cali. the outer banks is pretty nice in the summer, they have great beaches

favorite snapchat filter? the butterfly crown thingy

favorite makeup brand(s) COLOURPOP, maybelline, ulta brand?, nyx, too faced…(i have a ton of favs)

how many times a week do you shower? usually 7 because i work out quite often so i don’t want to go to work or class smelling gross like some people do 

favorite tv show? gotham, the flash, supergirl, ouat

shoe size? 6 or 7

how tall are you? 5′3

sandals or sneakers? sneakers because i have ugly, wide feet

do you go to the gym? not really, i usually go on runs or use the treadmill/elliptical that i have in my house. but since there’s a gym on campus i might start going, but it’s also out of the way so idk

describe your dream date cute lunch or dinner at a cute cafe. i’m sipping some hot chocolate and munching on a soft pretzel or muffin. and my date, whoever he or she is, is munching on their snack, telling me about a book their reading or something that makes them happy. maybe afterwards we’ll go on a walk and find a quite place to read

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? maybe like $30? about to be like 10 after i get my lab notebook

what color socks are you wearing? maroon and white

how many pillows do you sleep with? at home: two regular pillows, a body pillow, two pillow pets. at school, one pillow, three decorative pillows.

do you have a job? what do you do? i work part time at an agriculture company, currently at school though, so i work during breaks. but i help with harvest and such, i don’t really know how to explain it without going into major details

how many friends do you have? not a lot. it’s kinda embarrassing to put a number to it 

whats the worst thing you have ever done? give my phone to two of my friends while they prank called some guy that had called one of them while he was very drunk (the dude not my friend). it turns out he was in a very high position in our state, and we all got in a shit ton of trouble :/

whats your favorite candle scent? classic vanilla i suppose. or anything fall themed

3 favorite boy names noah, adam, jonathan (and any variation of it)

3 favorite girl names carrie, zoe, dorothy 

favorite actor? river phoenix or cameron monaghan. i could go on and on about why i picked them

favorite actress? i don’t really have one, but i like emma watson and elizabeth taylor

who is your celebrity crush? probably cam or river

favorite movie? stand by be, the mummy, and et are all collectively number 1 on my list

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? i’ve read 7 books in january so i guess i read a lot. and right now my favorite would probably be The Raven Boys (i’m patiently waiting on the rest of the series to arrive so i can binge read it)

money or brains? brains

do you have a nickname? what is it? sadly i have a very plain nickname. It’s Ash, just the first three letters of my name. but i do like it, usually on my family and few friends call me it, so it’s kinda special to me

how many times have you been to the hospital? oh yikes, proably like 15-20

top 10 favorite songs 

sexual by NEIKED

shout out to my ex by little mix 

anything that dodie calrk sings lol

all i ask by adele

make you feel by love (the glee version)

the dear evan hansen sounddtrack (it hasn’t been released yet but you know i’m gonna love it)

human by darren criss

driftwood by cody simpson (basically the whole album, free, is a bop)

last night on earth by green day

girls like girls by hayley kiyoko

do you take any medications daily? yep, nothing serious just stuff to keep me healthy

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) usually oily, but during very cold days, it can get very very dry

what is your biggest fear? probably being alone in life.

how many kids do you want? maybe 2 or 3

whats your go to hair style? well considering i have short hair, i just shower and let it dry

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) i guess it’s small, but before i left for uni, i was in the process of moving into a slightly bigger house, so now i guess it’s a medium sized house

who is your role model? lea michele

what was the last compliment you received? some girl in my psych class complimented my blue jacket

what was the last text you sent? “i love you” to my dad

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? 7, i saw one of my presents that had yet to be wrapped in the back of my dads truck, and then on christmas day, i opened the exact gift and it had said it was from “Santa”. i didn’t let my parents know for a couple more years.

what is your dream car? idk, i kinda like the one i have now.

opinion on smoking? it’s bad for you and your health, you shouldn’t do it

do you go to college? yep, just started my first semester on monday

what is your dream job? either a writer or an actress, i’m going to school for neither of those things

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? suburbs was always the dream, but i am starting to like more rural areas.

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? no, but my mom does

do you have freckles? yep, on my shoulders and face, though the latter are more prominent in the summer

do you smile for pictures? usually

how many pictures do you have on your phone? 37

have you ever peed in the woods? yep!

do you still watch cartoons? not really, but sometimes i’ll watch old pokemon episodes on netflix

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? i don’t think i’ve ever had wendy’s nuggets, but i’m sure they’re much better than McDonald’s

Favorite dipping sauce? BBQ or ketchup

what do you wear to bed? usually sweatpants and a tank top, but i’ll switch to shorts if it gets too hot

have you ever won a spelling bee? i’ve never been in a spelling bee

what are your hobbies? singing, acting, writing, reading

can you draw? nope

do you play an instrument? ukulele and a bit of guitar

what was the last concert you saw? hunter hayes in 2014

tea or coffee? tea

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? starbucks

do you want to get married? yeah, i’d like to

what is your crush’s first and last initial? JC

are you going to change your last name when you get married? maybe

what color looks best on you? i’ve been told dark green and blue?

do you miss anyone right now? yeah, my dog and family

do you sleep with your door open or closed? closed, i like to think that it keeps the bugs out

do you believe in ghosts? hell yeah

what is your biggest pet peeve? body odor

last person you called my dad

favorite ice cream flavor? vanilla or pistachio 

regular oreos or golden oreos? regular

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? rainbow sprinkles

what shirt are you wearing? not wearing a shirt ;) lol i’m actually just wearing a sweatshirt

what is your phone background? my date for prom and i

are you outgoing or shy? depends, if i’m with good friends, i’m outgoing, if not, i’m usually very very shy

do you like it when people play with your hair? not really

do you like your neighbors? not really

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? morning and night

have you ever been high? nope

have you ever been drunk? nope

last thing you ate? a granola bar for lunch

favorite lyrics right now literally the entirety of Waving Through a Window. like i relate to that so much it makes me cry half the time i listen to it

summer or winter? i guess summer, but i prefer fall to all seasons

day or night? day

dark, milk, or white chocolate? dark

favorite month? october

what is your zodiac sign cancer

who was the last person you cried in front of? probably my dad

[iwantabatlleaxe]

OK so. I have time and nostalgia to spare and a will to share.

Festa junina is a party that happens in june, and it has a christian background (I think it's supposed to celebrate a saint) but where I'm from nobody cares about that lmao. I imagine church parties would, and more religious schools too, but I didnt.

Schools or other communities (buildings, the city itself, neighborhoods) gather everyone and well, party.

The vibe is kinda like... well I'll just use a bunch of words bc I've been trying to come up with a cohesive way of explaining for minutes but nothing will come out.

So. Trees, mosquito bites, friends, parents, kids gossip, music, dance, smiles, green, yellow and just... idk, community and love.

And this is coming from someone who used to hate going to them (now that I look back it was mostly dysphoria and anxiety- it is a very gendered event especially as a kid, and I didnt exactly fit in with a group of friends.)

But it's always a warm celebration.

There's food stands, a bunch of corn related food, drinks, meat (bbq style), and games such as if you pick the right hat, you'll win a plastic ball, or trying to fish wood fish with a... bamboo rod or something.

My teachers would be the ones working at the games and we'd catch up with them there, talk about something other than school and ask how life is.

Parents would let their kids play, and catch up at those plastic white tables over a beer or two.

We'd wear boots and jeans and dresses and somehow always bring dirt back home, and without the makeup dots on our cheeks and mustaches we started the party with.

Oh, and not to mention the gossip and drama! During the quadrilha (the dance I mentioned) you're supposed to dance with a partner- and the amount of drama I've seen because of this was a lot.

I tried finding a video of the quadrilha and this was the best I could find. It isn't exactly like the one I danced, but close enough.

Also, I think it's worth mentioning that same gender pairings were quite common- not that homophobia wasn't a thing, it sure was and is, I just think it's interesting that they happened quite often. (Which reminds me of the times I danced with my friends and insisted on being on the boys side lmao)

(I encourage to skip around the video since it's quite long)

The couple leading is "married" (aka dressed in smt that remembers wedding clothes). I have no clue why or where this tradition is from but oh well.

Ah, and there's a part where we'd be all in a queue and the narrator would say shit like "look, it's gonna rain!" Or "look! A snake!" And everyone would turn around. My school would say "look, Maria is coming!" Because she was an inspector who'd get mad at the kids if we did smt wrong (bless her soul we loved her. Also not her real name)

Oh and the party would last all day, from like 9am to 6pm.

AH AND HOW COULD I FORGET THE JAIL TIME

Now This is smt I have no clue if other schools did BUT mine would have a "jail" made of bamboo and you could pay the guys in their last year (third grade here, they're 17 or 18) to pick someone up (literally or just ask) and bring them to that bamboo cage.

You could scape, though you'd have to run a bit if you didnt wanna get caught again or you could wait (or just pay).

The 17-18 yos would save up that money for their graduation, and the girls would do this correio elegante (elegant mail?) that you could send cute phrases on a decorated card to whoever you liked.

We'd send sweet ones to teachers and sometimes to a crush, and yes this was a way to bully someone too. Not so much fun the last part, I know.

So yeah that's it. Of course this is based on my experience and things change depending on your community but it was fun reliving those memories

I really wanted to share the festa junina dance we have here in brazil (I suppose I could call it a traditional dance but that sounds weird) but it's so hard to put into words