#but idk I'm already missing the older drivers we lost like what do you mean Carlos is fourth oldest he's my age 🥲

[sainz100]

Carlos Sainz | F1 London Live in 2017 | x x x x x

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Hi! I'm glad you had a great time with your friend while you were visiting here! But I also missed you a little bit. Did you guys get to do anything else fun? It's hard for me to tell what to do either since I really don't travel or vacation much. I'm sorry you got food poisoning..that sounds horrible, and had an awful time with your Lyft driver. That actually happened to me last time I was there to see a show. I didn't get to see any shows either yet but i'm glad you're going to see Hamilton! I was a little sad cuz we missed it 3 times now but it's okay. The tickets are pretty expensive and I stupidly didn't think it would sell out or anything. I've been thinking about the musical a lot because of it and I also can't believe it's been 10 years! I'm not even the biggest Hamilton fan or anything, but I love that it got more people into theater and it was sort of the first big Broadway musical I was actually into, and maybe my first cast recording without watching a bootleg and just hearing the full musical the first time lol. I'm pretty sure the first Tony's I watched was the year before though. Do you have any memories about it? I wasn't even sure you liked it or not, but I do think it would be a cool musical to watch and I hope you have fun. You'll have to tell me how it is!

I do sometimes notice differences in the rerecordings but not really..as much as other people complain about. I don't notice the production as much, but I do notice less emotion in some songs. Hmm that makes sense with TTPD..I almost felt the opposite, I liked it pretty quickly but that started to decrease the more I listened to it. I think it could have to do with what you're saying about her personal life for sure. I don't really see that with the anthology as much and could be why I prefer some songs. Some of the name stuff just threw me off I think. Like with a song like The Bolter, Aimee and Peter, I thought it was just stories or something idk and none of them really seemed that connected to her real life. I find it sort of odd when people take things so literally as well..like something from her life, the drowning in water or whore lyrics. But I also just have some issues with some parts of certain songs when I normally would like it. I like the ideas of the song or it's a song I should like but dislike how she did it. I don't understand why lyrics in the Bolter talks so much about the guys perspective when I don't relate to it or like it for that reason. It reminds me a lot of YOYOK without that part of it though. I get the point of Robin and Peter, how it has to do with lost youth, something I relate to, and I should like the song more, but I just don't. I like the bridge and message of the manuscript but don't like the verses about older guys since that's not what I would relate to..so idk. Omg Why don't you like Cassandra? I knew what that would be about already and I do like it..the mashup with Mad woman and IDSB worked so well! Fortnight, Florida and But Daddy I love him felt kinda like stories to me too or just a vibe. I don't really get My Boy, cuz that's not something someone would really say..it feels weird and reminds my sister of the Barbie movie lol. I definitely do the fictional characters thing and that's what I meant when I said I try to give different meanings. The Bolter actually reminds me of one of my favorite characters in a favorite book as well and I actually was relating some of it to the Outsiders for a while and it fit kinda well. I can explain more in detail but I don't want you to think I'm weird haha. Anyway I will send more in a part two!sorry it's just cuz I try to respond whenever I can and underestimate how long it sometimes takes.

hi my sweet friend!! so sorry it has taken so long for me to reply, again. i feel like i'm just cursed to be the world's slowest penpal at this point 😭 this is the first time all week i've had a chance to properly sit down but please know that i always see your messages and smile when i get them!

we did do a lot of fun things in california — i really love san francisco & san jose (have very fond memories of both, since my aunt used to live in san jose and now lives over in livermore & i grew up visiting her pretty often). we got into sfo around 9 am, and then after a very interesting lyft incident that may or may not have featured a bird in a glovebox (whole story, i can elaborate if you want!) we checked into our hotel and then took the bus to the presidio!! i just think it's so so stunning, and one of my friends is a huge star wars nerd so i wanted to show her the yoda fountain/the lucasfilm headquarters, and my other friend loves the outdoors so i thought it'd be a good place to take them! so we did a little trek up to the golden gate overlook and then spent far too much on postcards at the welcome center + at roundhouse! we were supposed to see waitress that night, but because we were all exhausted + one of my friends got motion sick, we decided to skip it (which i do think was a smart move, although it made me a bit sad to do so — especially since i'm not sure if i'll be able to see waitress in seattle). the next day we just did a bus tour (which was honestly a little boring to me because i've been to california so much + have done all the touristy stuff but that was okay! neither of my friends had been to san francisco before so it was fun for them) and then walked around fisherman's wharf/pier 39. our third day we had breakfast and then public transported our way over to san jose! i explored the san jose museum of art and then my friends and i met back up for dinner (had the best dumplings) and then went to an AHL game! and then the next day i met up with another friend who lives in the area and we did an escape room (so so fun, it was time travel themed) and then my friends and i met back up again and had dinner and then went to an NHL game! and then our last morning there (our flight was at 3pm) we went back to the same escape room place and i did another escape room with the two friends i went to (this one was art heist themed and was SOOOO fun). so a lot packed in a few days but very, very fun!

tickets are so expensive which is crazy to me! it's been like ten years! why is it still so expensive! i saw it twice back when it was here in seattle (once with my cousin, and once with my mom) and thought it was cool; it's been really neat to see how much people who aren't normally into musical theatre love it. my friend who wanted to see it isn't a musical theatre person so i really hope they like it!!

i think i love the idea of robin and the lyrics of robin a lot more than i do the actual song? if that makes sense. i actually can't pinpoint why i don't like cassandra, because it feels like a song i'd love but i just ... skip it every time. and yes! definitely interested in hearing about it in relation to the outsiders; i always love hearing your thoughts and takes on things!

[1d1195]

Bestie, I’m so sorry I’ve been MIA. I’ve been ridiculously busy. This whole “part-time” job I got at the new lab is NOT part time. My supervisor it just means she has to give me at least part time hours. So I drive 45 minutes to work 10.5 hours, 45 minutes back to my town, then even further to my old lab and work there. By the time I get back to town from my new lab, I’ve already been awake for 12-12.5 hours, so I don’t work too long at my other lab on those days, which means I have to get those hours on other days. I haven’t had a day off in a month😭 oh and school lol

Then my flu shot fucked me up, so I felt like shit at work, then the whole Liam thing… that hit me so hard. I knew the day would come eventually when one of the boys d*ed, but I never thought it would be this soon and affect me this much. And a few weeks ago my autoimmune disease started flaring since I had to stop my medication when I lost insurance, which is making my hair fall out and my skin basically fall off, and of course just make me feel like shit in general. So love that for me 😂 I’m so exhausted in every way and I’m losing my damn mind and crying so much every day and sorry to dump all that😔

Heavy on the road rage!!! I’m so bad idk how people don’t lose their shit as much as I do😭 We get the slow ass drivers and people who chill in the passing lane when they’re not passing anyone. Or when people can’t pick what speed they want to go??? Like how do you expect us to not get mad when you’re literally just a horrible driver in general😂 I live in southern Oregon, and so many people from California move to this valley specifically for some reason, and a few years ago, people from Montana and Washington started moving here too, and now Idaho. Like guys, we are literally surrounded by wildfires every summer. Employers are required to hand out masks because the smoke gets so thick, and you can only see maybe half a mile away on a GOOD day! Gtf away none of us want you here😂 I went to another state for work like 6-7 years ago for a few months in the summer, and when people found out I’m from Oregon, they’d go “didn’t you guys have a really bad wildfire awhile ago?” ??? You mean right now? Last year? Literally any fire every year I’ve been alive? And for decades before that? I know they’re talking about the biscuit fire, but no joke, EVERY year, we have at least one fire that passes 100,000 acres. Sitting around and saying “Oh the fire jumped the freeway already” like it’s nothing because it’s so normal for us😂 It’s our little way of knowing summer has officially started. The amount of people I know personally that have to evacuate each summer is ridiculous. When we say we have bad fires *every* summer, we’re not exaggerating 💀 and then the transplants complain about sooooo much like stfu because you chose this😂 go back please

Also, my insurance is supposed to start November 1st! I’ll see my psychiatrist on the 14th.

Anyways, that was probably far too much, but I hope you’re doing well and your classes are going well too! On the academic rivals story when you said there wouldn’t be too much math involved, I was like 😪 lol but I have to finish it because I didn’t realize how close is was to needing to leave my house when I started it😂 and I hope your students are being good!

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OMG that's so overwhelming I'm sorry! Please don't apologize. You gotta take care of you. That's literally insane hours you got there, I hope you take a day off :(

I thought we were going to be much older as well :( I'm sorry it hit you so hard. Between the flu shot and the medicine missing and all the side effects. I'm sorry! Don't feel bad dumping it on me. I'm glad you have a place to vent and I think I would be in far worse shape than you and the fact you're still standing is admirable. I sincerely hope you can take time for yourself soon.

THAT'S CRAZY about the wildfires. I didn't know that! I don't expect you to remember or read everything I post, but I've mentioned before I don't watch the news because I find it mentally horrible (but also i apologize if I've already told you this specifically) but I always remember seeing the stories about the wildfires. That's so fascinating. I'd be so scared and you're so casual about it. Idk if we have anything out here like that. Someone I met from California said the thunderstorms we get are kinda wild. But they're nothing special in my opinion (other than being fun to watch from the window).

Well happy almost insurance day! 🎉🎉 I'm glad you'll be able to get things back on track 💕💕

My students are lowkey driving me crazy. I'm blaming the end of the term and Halloween. Hopefully they'll settle a bit soon. I hope you like the end of it even though there's not a lot of math 🥰😂

xoxo