#but i'm a pessimist and i doubt it'll ever happen

[starryjkoo]

Too Much is such an underrated song, I need another version with more JK vocals so bad 😭 I think it might be my fave (non-album) collab of CH2. It deserved more

[newtkelly]

Not to word vomit on you but I can't stop thinking about Oliver wanting a love story like Tarlos and how it all accidentally lined up.

Knowing that Carlos and TK were about to move in, and then Carlos made that romantic gesture and TK got scared because it was, "too good to be true."

Carlos is left, confused, puzzled and nursing a broken-heart but still just as in love. What do you mean that TK and Carlos saw a future together, one got scared at that prospect and left before Carlos was the one to leave??

What do you mean that happened after Oliver said he wanted Bucktommy to have a love story like Tarlos; where it was always going to be them?

Then you consider Oliver saying that we might see Tommy and Buck interact during a call and it'll be awkward and who can't help but think of TK and Carlos running into the furniture store and seeing each other for the first time in weeks.

Anyways, sorry to be delusional in your ask box. I'm deep within the Tarlos trenches so this is all starting to look eerily familiar lmao (it could also be Tim is out of ideas, which is most likely the case)

Please feel free to word vomit on me always, I live for it.

Receiving this ask has actually prompted me to share some thoughts that I’ve held back from sharing, just because I wasn’t sure if it was worth it to throw more speculation into the void. But this message is so lovely, and I agree with it so much and so… okay I will share some of my mixed bag of thoughts about this whole situation.

Firstly, I adore Tarlos and LS (even if I don’t post about either much), TK is my baby, and the interesting thing about them for me is that I wound up caring for them more AFTER they broke up and got back together. If Buck and Tommy’s story is formatted as a rom-com, TK and Carlos are a tragicomedy. TK, the heartbroken recovering addict thrust into an entirely new city, a new career, who doesn’t want to let himself get too close to something good because he is misery incarnate. Carlos, the hopeful hopeless romantic who sees TK and doesn’t see something that needs fixing, but someone who his love could help heal. It’s such a gorgeous story, and the symmetry of both characters shockingly losing a parent in a tragic way is painfully beautiful. I LOVE their love story.

That brings me to Oliver and Tim’s comments. Throughout the Buck and Tommy relationship, my belief that this would be Buck’s final relationship only ever wavered twice. The first time was in the immediate aftermath of their first date (I spent the whole episode thinking that Tommy was actually reintroduced to kick off the bi awakening plotline and Buck was not acquiring a boyfriend) and the second time was towards the tail end of the summer hiatus when I legitimately began to doubt Lou would want to come back given everything that transpired. Other than that, I had full faith that this was it, this was Buck getting off the “hamster wheel”—Tim’s words, not mine.

I had confidence for a few reasons. 1 – the story was always handled with care onscreen and gave us no reason to think they weren’t going to work out. 2 – the chemistry was insane, and I knew it couldn’t just be me because an entire fandom was born. Tim and tptb must have seen what we saw. 3 – the supplementary information funneled to us through articles and Tim’s social media, literally up until post-8x06 never seemed to indicate that their relationship was headed in this direction. A big part of that was the comparison to Tarlos.

In order to protect myself (should I name the list of shows, movies, couples that I’ve fixated on that wound up playing out in dissatisfying ways?), I am awfully pessimistic. The post-episode interviews, articles, + hearing a bit from LFJ and OS has me wondering if this was some mass hallucination. Did we truly cling to something good and blow it up, run with it? Was this always the plan? I’ve wondered if because S7 was so short and S8 required that other characters get the spotlight first/other stories needed to be told and wrapped, and if because of production and scheduling and whatever external reasons, did their relationship wind up having a longer life than was ever intended. Were they ever supposed to make it to six months? Were they ever supposed to make it past the fucking wedding? I have been asking myself this stuff a lot. Alternatively, did something happen that made them want to or have to part ways with LFJ? So many questions, and I’m not sure we’ll ever know.

But… then there’s the delusional side of me, and the reason I haven’t totally abandoned hope is because when I was watching 8x06 live, EVERYTHING in me told me that this is a necessary section of the rom-com formula. Even the call-backs throughout the episode made me feel like the writers are so painfully aware, and that the narrative wants these characters to be together (Miceli’s, Abby, basketball, going to the movies, calling an uber, the loft kitchen, “you’re not ready”)—the motifs were absolutely popping off. I did not think it was the end when the episode ended. I wondered when and how they would find their way back to each other to fulfill the rom-com genre, but what I did NOT expect was to open social media and see articles framing this as the end. I wasn’t surprised when I found out who wrote the articles, and listen—if they bait one side of the fandom, can’t they bait the other? I still have some hope, because at the end of the day, anything can happen with network television. Maybe this is all part of the plan, and the interviews should be taken with a grain of salt. I just don’t know.

Interviews with Tim and Oliver from day one positioned the Buck and Tommy relationship as a queer love story devoid of trauma. Okay, well… huh. From where I was sitting, there was A TON of explicitly queer trauma exposed in 8x06. Their “hurdle” is tied utterly and completely to queerness. Tommy runs because he is a gay man who doesn’t trust that his bisexual boyfriend should “settle” for him, and who would rather be alone than heartbroken, and if that truly is the last of Tommy, it has to be one of the coldest and cruelest exits we’ve ever seen on this show. Do they simply not realize how deeply traumatized both characters come off in that episode, or is it all part of the plan? If the interviews positioning this as the permanent end of bucktommy should be taken at face value, shouldn’t the other interviews that position them as a rom-com (with the formulaic third act breakup, boils and all) be taken as the truth as well? If there was some misinterpretation, why hasn’t Tim said anything—he clearly knows a lot of fans were hurt by what they watched. He must have seen the outrage—why radio silence? Did we truly blow this out of proportion? Are the wheels coming off behind the scenes? I need a tell-all at this point lol

Thank you for the lovely ask, I’ve been sitting with these thoughts all week so this was a good excuse to finally articulate them. <3

[veiledfox]

} As much as it hurts, I really should just announce an indefinite hiatus at this point.

I've had next to no muse or motivation whatsoever for weeks, and whenever I've come on here it's always just been an immediate mental and emotional drain. Between seeing stuff from people I wish I could still write with like we used to, but knowing we can't. Never seeing similar support as others have whenever things have been rough. And practically nothing ever being sent my way while essentially everything I've sent out has just been dropped. There's just too many negatives that drain me so damn quickly on here with my already heavily pessimistic mindset and all kinds of self-confidence and self-doubt issues.

After having been like this for the past few weeks... I really don't know when I'll be able to return, let alone if I ever will. I don't want to just drop this blog and these characters either, though, cause like I've said before I've never been more happy with the characters I've written in the past as I have been with these ones. Which is why everything that's happened and just gotten worse and worse throughout the year for most of them has hit so damn hard.

That and I'm really tired of trying to start again from scratch only for the same cycle to repeat itself. This whole thing has just happened again and again on every single blog I've had for the past decade. Which makes it hard to believe it'll ever change honestly.

Gonna do a little bit of cleanup on discord too, try and just narrow things down to the people I actually still talk to. If you've read this far, have me on discord, and we've not talked in a while but you still want to keep me on there, just send a message my way on there.

If I post anything else after this, I'll be trying to keep it to my personal, which is a side-blog, so things might wind up on here from time-to-time cause of Tumblr's dumb system.

I'm sorry.

[sapphire-weapon]

I guess I'm just doubtful bc RE9 (from what I've seen so far, and I do wanna preface that it's nothing substantial yet) feels more like a continuation after RE6 than RE8. Not in its story or anything, I know it'll probably be a separate thing, and that's honestly the best way to go. In a game structure way. As in, 'we're going back to what RE always was'. I do wonder where they will go with it. Whether it'll feel in any way connected to RE7 and RE8, or it'll just be somewhat of a standalone game.

And the thing is, I feel like either of those options feels risky. Specifically because they chose to make RE8 a direct continuation to RE7. Or maybe I'm just talking out of my ass here lmao. I do wonder what they'll do in terms of gameplay too, mostly because RE4R was so amazing. Would be pretty sucky if the original title's gameplay turns out feeling less advanced than one of the remake!

But yeah. Honestly I wouldn't be having all these doubts if RE9 wasn't in development for that long, either. It all boils down to that issue in the end of the day.

here's something to consider:

at the time that RE9 entered development, RE7 was plateauing on sales, hovering at around the 3-4 million mark, which is WELL BELOW average for an RE mainline title, and was not considered for GOTY

since then:

RE2make was nominated for GOTY in 2019 and has since become the highest-selling RE title of all time

RE8 was nominated for GOTY in 2021

RE4make broke records for the fastest-selling RE title ever released and was not only nominated for GOTY, but was the fourth highest-rated game on metacritic in 2023 (losing out only to baldur's gate 3, tears of the kingdom, and metroid prime remastered)

it's also helpful to note that RE8 was pretty obviously built as a beta test/blueprint for RE4make

so when RE9's director says they're going to take RE back to what it always was, my take on that was that they, after a long session of hand-wringing back and forth trying to decide on what to do after RE7's release was lukewarm at best, decided to try to make RE9 a mix of RE2 and RE4, which are the two highest-regarded titles in the series and have now twice-over brought capcom massive success, both financially and critically.

my best guess for RE9 is that

when it started production, that was when co-op team shooters had seen a huge re-emergence in the form of overwatch and destiny, and so capcom's initial thought was to try to capitalize on that. that's probably where the initial idea of a leon and jill co-op game came from. remember, that's what andy reported that the game originally was.

but then they changed that when they saw what happened with RE2make, RE8, and RE4make.

and so what's caused such massive, massive delays in production was a complete restructuring of the project, and now instead of a co-op, we may very well be getting a dual scenario system closer to RE2. and if not two scenarios, a switching back and forth between leon and jill, sort of like how RE8 handed off to chris about 3/4 of the way through.

the most optimistic take on this is that RE9 will be what RE2make should have been and will have not only a full zapping system, but an improved one that will not only affect gameplay between campaigns but also possibly story sections.

the more realistic/pessimistic take is that they've been trying to make RE9 into what RE2make should've been and have been failing at it spectacularly, and they're now just trying to cobble together something that at least passes the bar of being both complete and playable.

i could be wrong.

but that's my best guess.

we'll see what happens.

[snowddeong]

i also want to note, that if cy is in fact a fan of sid + the sex pistols that should give her more reason to know the significance of the symbol and why sid wore it for attention. and if she just wanted to wear some of their merch, there are more common and accessible versions of the same shirt with the symbol edited out.

i also think it's important to note, the context in which she wore the shirt. she wore it in public in america twice (la and in new york). even if she is truly ignorant about the symbol's meaning it doesn't erase the fact she paraded around in public with a hate symbol on her shirt (where the symbol anjd what it stands for is common knowledge)

This. I don't know much about the sex pistols honestly but this is her shirt, she wore it in public, she posted wearing it TWICE. Context is great and all, understanding is great and all but Chae is a grown woman that has a lot of influence and reach. No one can ever know her beliefs or intentions or what she knows and doesn't know except her, but that doesn't change the fact that she wore a fucking hate symbol. I said this before in my rant but like it doesn't stop at just not being a hateful person, being mindful and having awareness is how you show love to the people around you. And if Chae genuinely doesn't know better we as fans have a responsibility to talk about this openly and publicly, not ask fanbases to delete posts about what happened or turn this into some stupid protecting her bs. She's not the one being harmed here.

I really just hope that all the Jewish and other affected folk will be okay and receive an apology that they deserve. Especially considering that to my knowledge there's also a LOT of anti-Semitism going on in western politics and discourse right now? Imagine having to deal with that and then turning to kpop for escapism and seeing a well known idol wearing a fucking hate symbol like that. I'm extremely pessimistic about this ever changing in kpop but at the very least I hope that this'll be a lesson to Chae, Twice and maybe even other artists (though again I kinda doubt that it'll actually teach anyone beyond MAYBE twice unfortunately. the world doesn't give af about minorities. even fellow minorities don't give af about minorities but that's another discussion for another time)

[bowandcurtsey]

Happy Birthday, Bokuto Koutaro

Confession with Bokuto Koutaro x f! reader TW: unchecked !

He had already rehearsed with Kuroo and Akaashi thousands of times, but he was still a nervous wreck.

"What if y/n rejects me!" the captain still had his doubts and was already showing his emo face.

"Geez bro," Kuroo sighed, "the entire universe knows that you and y/n like each other, alright?"

"Just. Go. Or you'll be late to walk y/n home." Akaashi quickly nudged his friend away.

The Nekoma Captain and Fukurodani setter looked at each other and sighed again.

"If y/n really rejects him... We'll face an emo Bokuto for a week." Kuroo lamanted.

"It's unlikely, but if it happens, it'll probably be a month." Akaashi nodded.

-----

"y/n!!" his voice could be heard even before you saw him, "Is your practice over?!"

"Bo!" you smiled, happy to see him at the end of the day, "yes, you?"

"uh-huh! mine's done too! It's a hell training today!!" the volleyball captain exclaimed.

"Wanna walk home together?" you both said at the same time.

There was a moment of silence before you both broke into laughter.

"OKAY!" Bokuto beamed at you. You wondered where he got his endless energy from.

"Let's go then~" you started walking.

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It was already 8pm and it was starting to get dark out, so you were glad Bokuto was walking you home. The dim street lights illuminated the pathway and you couldn't help but notice how close the both of you were. Your hands occasionally brushed against one another, making your heart flutter.

Bokuto Koutaro has been your rock and anchor for about a year now. You both met at the annual sports leader camp last year, since you were the captain for your team and he was the captain for the men's volleyball team.

You then progressed to being closer friends and once, he bumped into you after practice and realised you both lived close by, and the rest was history ever since.

On the days where both your teams had practice on the same day, Bokuto would always walk you home. Some days you would join his team for supper if you felt up for it and since then, the entire school saw you and Bokuto as an item. Except he hasn't officially asked you out. yet.

And you wonder, whether you meant anything more or special to this captain besides being just a close friend. Maybe you were just someone that was similar to him, living nearby, having the same leadership roles, in the same year... That's why you both could click off easily.

You started having pessimistic thoughts and you got more and more quiet throughout the journey home.

This made Bokuto panic. He pulled out his phone to text the group.

Bokuto: GUYSSSSSS. SOS Kuroo: DID SHE SAY YES Akaashi: if she did, there wouldn't be an SOS, Kuroo san. Kuroo: Fk Bro. She said no??? Bokuto: I haven't asked!! But she seems cold to me all of a sudden!! T.T Akaashi: What do you mean by "cold" Bokuto: She's quiet all of a sudden!! Kenma: Maybe she's tired from practice? Not everyone is like you, Bokuto san. Kuroo: Whoa, even Kenma's here, haha! Bokuto: She's talking awhile ago! And she seems to be keeping a little distance! T.T She's always walking by my side!! Kuroo: So now she's not beside you? Where is she? Bokuto: She's beside me but not side side!!" Akaashi: Bokuto, could you please talk properly... Kenma: rip language. Bokuto: We always walk Reeeeallllly close... But today she's one volleyball away. Akaashi: JUST ASK HER. NOW.

"ARE YOU MAD AT ME Y/N!?" He was showing you his emo look, his hair a little deflated.

"huh? No, I'm not, Bo." his sudden shouting caught you off guard.

"then why aren't you talking to me today?" he gave you a cute little pout.

"Oh. I'm sorry I didn't mean that.. Maybe I'm just a little tired.." you lied.

"y/n.. can I ask you something?" Bokuto gave you his best puppy eyes.

"hmm?"

"Will you go out with me!!" he squeezed his eyes shut and said it so quickly.

Your face flushed red and you had no idea what to say, but you had to double confirm if you and him were on the same page.

"You mean, like go out or go somewhere?"

"Yes! We can go anywhere as well!"

"Huh? So what do you mean, Kou?" you called him by his first name, making his heart thump against his chest.

"I mean, will you be my girlfriend and go out on a date with me like this Saturday at 12noon!!!" he said everything quickly in one breath.

Pfft. you let out a giggle. Then a laugh. You couldn't believe it, your best friend / crush asking you to be his girlfriend, finally. You felt all your worries from awhile ago just disappear into thin air and you felt so light and fuzzy you pulled him into a hug.

He instinctively enveloped you in his arms.

"Yes, yes. I'd go anywhere with you, I thought you'd never ask." you nodded in his arms.

[musette22]

What do you think will happen with Bucky's character in future mcu movies? I find it hard to have good expectations

Hi! I'm sorry for taking a while to reply to this. To be honest, I've sort of given up on the MCU completely (at least when it comes to new content) and abandoned any expectations I might've once had for the future or Bucky's character. I personally don't believe they'll ever do him justice, and I have no desire to watch them mistreat Bucky any further, so I no longer watch new MCU movies and shows at all.

Like I've said before, I totally understand that there are people who are still excited for and hopeful about new Bucky content, and I don't begrudge them their excitement at all! But, much like yourself, I personally don't have any expectations, let alone good ones. We'll have to wait and see what happens exactly, of course, but I very much doubt it'll be something I'll like 😅 Sorry for sounding so pessimistic, I usually try to find the silver lining and look at things from a positive angle, but in this case... hmmm 🙃

[yeolmae-s]

Hello! I hope you're fine! I was wondering if you'll ever post the next part of your chanbaek analysis? I was so hooked!

hi! i'm so happy you enjoyed reading my mess of an analysis but i think its time i be truthful about it, since i have a lot of similar questions sitting on my askbox.

basically i do not think chanbaek was real as in real and together as a couple. this doesn't erase the fact that i find their relationship extremely complex and i too have my doubts whether or not something concrete happened between them. but that's all it is: doubts. i don't plan on concluding this analysis by "confirming" that they were indeed real, my point this whole time has been that their relationship is COMPLEX and that it raises a lot of questions we don't have the answers to.

i'm saying this because i received a few asks specifying moments between them that are almost meaningless to me. the only stuff i include in my analysis are things i personally find meaning in, things that i see as irrefutable and unexplained behavior between people that are supposedly friends.

some of the moments people asked me to analyze were things like traveling together somewhere, and i couldn't help but be like okay, so what? they've done the same thing with other members and even close friends. i can't possibly analyze something like that because it implies a biased pov, shipping lenses and all that, and i've said it before that i want to be as neutral as possible, even if i am a chanbaek shipper myself.

if we want to analyze their relationship we must destroy our shipping lenses and sometimes get hurt because things aren't how we want them to be. thats okay. that doesnt erase everything else. thats why i waited until i wasnt so much into them anymore, to write an analysis with a clear, impartial point of view.

but after posting it i think people misunderstood my point completely, i dont know if anyone even got it right. they've come at me with "this proves they're real!" moments, stuff i cant even bother to post and analyze because ill just end up being seem like a pessimistic hater when all i want is to neutrally and impartially analyze their relationship, and it seems that people arent ready to face something like this. im not putting myself above anyone, im just skeptical about most things and i value proof and well made analysis more than anything.

so yeah point is idk if im gonna continue it. im basically afraid of dissappointing people who misunderstood my point completely, afraid of having to deal with even more "AND WHAT ABOUT THIS MOMENT?? HUH???" comments (bc if its not in my analysis then i dont consider it that relevant my dude. if i do it'll show up on later parts but if i dont, thats my opinion).

i might say fuck it and continue it someday for my own sake, since i still desire seeing an impartial take on their relationship. but for now i really dont know.

sorry if this is long.

[mhokday]

HI NICOLE HI!!!!!! since we're getting our boys back, is there anything in particular you want to see for the puentalay episode in our skyy? also do you think we're getting another color title for it 👀

MONICA HIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay i'm gonna be honest. i completely did not expect to see puentalay ever again. no movie no special ep NOTHING so i never thought of what i would want to see of them. and also, vice versa left me completely and 100% SATISFIED. there's nothing more i would wish for.

however... one thing i did really want to see, but which i doubt will happen since it might be too random to address this, is the bucket hat scene being brought up again. okay so puentalay's meet cute is my favorite scene in the series, wbk. i love it, am obsessed with it, probably rewatched it fifty times after ep 1 aired. we saw puen realizing that talay is the one who gave him the hat, and that is my second favorite scene in the series. we saw puen finding the hat again when he went back to their universe. BUT WE NEVER SAW TALAY ADDRESSING THAT SCENE AT ALL AND THAT MAKES ME FEEL SICK. my biggest bone to pick with vice versa. i want puen to bring it up again. i want talay to be embarrassed about it. give me all the bucket hat references.

but anyways, i don't think that'll be brought up again. it's been a long time since i've watched an our skyy episode, but as far as i can remember it's kind of just a little side story that really doesn't have much relevance to the main plot? and i don't think they have many callbacks to old moments, that's a reason why i feel like the bucket hat scene won't be brought up. but again it's been a LONGGG time since i've watched an our skyy episode so i could be totally wrong! or maybe p'aof wants to do something different this time, who knows!

aside from that, i realllly hope we do have color elements in the episode. my worse fear is that not happening, but color is the staple behind vice versa, and if i don't get another color, i will cry. at the same time i'm not expecting a color title. colors are so specific to vice versa and i also expect the tone of every episode in our skyy 2 to be kind of similar to each other, so they might not put that extra care and effort to do the color thing with vv? i'm a pessimist at heart, but who knows, i'd love to be proven wrong. i would absolutely LOVE to see rainbow. but if not that, i would really like to see a brown or purple color for the episode title because we didn't get those in vv and i really wanted to see them!!!

but yeah, i don't need much out of this, just give me puentalay back being happy and cute and i will be very satisfied!

i do have a fear. a little tiny fear. in the our skyy 2 trailer, we see the hourglass.

when puen flips it, the sand moves, which is kind of ... scary. because in ep 12, he froze the sand in the glass to signify that they would never travel universes again. the movement of the sand represents universe traveling... you know where this is going.

also, talay is wearing earrings in the trailer...

he only wears earrings in the other universe, not the home universe. so yeah, i'm a bit worried that they're going to go back to the alternate universe. if they do, it'll be pretty gimmicky and i'll just try to have fun with it and not take it seriously, but yeah, that's my one fear. it's just a trailer though i don't even know if the plot has been thought out for it yet, so it might just be me overthinking.

anyways those are my thoughts!! monica monica monica im SO EXCITED to see them again! and im curious about your thoughts too :D