#but i’m not retyping that whole tag LMAO

[inkykeiji]

its dabi's b-day and im celebrating by re-readin bmb and gigglin abt my daddies, i know touya would b teasin me abt how much im gigglin at him and that makes me giggle more and thinkin abt givin him a lil birthday surprise hehe- 🧁

cupcake bb u are so cute!!!!!! that’s so sweet i’m 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 extremely soft to hear that <333 oh my god he absolutely would tease u, in that sugary condescending coo, but he’d also find it so genuinely adorable and tbh i think he’d be extremely flattered, even if it’d be like pulling teeth to get him to admit it <33333

[catofoldstones]

I promise I’ll start reading ASOS tomorrow

[fahbev]

Hi! Saw you jumped on the tim hate train, welcome to the club! Aplarently you're Damian fan, which is good bc hes also one of the characters who's hit by tim's..woobification? Victimization(???) while simultaneously being the bestest, most competent batfam member. You Damian fans honestly have my respect for the pure amount of shit Damian gets because of tim.

hi lmao. Thanks xD. I usually try to keep all my negativity off of the internet, but last night I was going the anti Tim drake tag bc my frustration was flaring up. At first i was collecting posts by liking them instead of rb, then I was replying, and then at some point... “Fuck it. I want this on my blog.”

(This is gonna be a ramble btw, I don’t care abt making a good post rn.)

I used to be fine with Tim! I think the whole thing was a lot less prominent in the dpxdc fandom bc DANNY was the fan favorite/community elected woobie, but then I kinda moved out and... well. It still took awhile for this issue to seep in bc those Tim fans (you know the ones) are certainly a minority, but I just don’t think you can be a Damian fan for longer than a few months without getting frustrated.

Nowadays I refuse to read anything tagged with any variation of “Tim Drake angst” that features the batfam. Timkon fics are usually just fine though.

Actually— recently? Shit’s been bothering me so bad that I don’t wanna risk reading fics that have Tim in the first relationship tag at all. He’s gotta at most be in the second one. Ship fics are again an exception, but I don’t tend to seek out ship fics much anyway.

But, like I said, I usually keep it to myself. Every time i catch myself venting in the tags I either screenshot the tags and delete, or I delete and retype them. I put them into a private notes document. I also journal in there a lot instead of posting it.

That document is pretty long.

I do wanna say that there’s nothing wrong with what tim fans are doing. It is fun to woobify your fave. It’s fun to prop them up and tear others down and make everything about your blorbo and it is harmless. I do it too (usually in my daydreams). It’s a fantasy, and that’s what fanfiction is for. People who act like it’s “problematic” are wrong. That doesn’t mean it’s not annoying. Because it is. It’s annoying as all fuck.

Also wanna mention that I once read a damian fic that like... started off with some delicious whump, but then it turned into a whole Damian pity party and it guilt tripped all his friends and family. Damian IS my blorbo and I couldn’t read that. I didn’t even know who Maps was at the time but it seemed so bizarre to throw her under the bus. Anyway I feel like that’s what a quite large portion of Tim fic is like except a bit less extreme.

I used to tell myself that “ohhh it’s just a rivalry. I’m sure Tim fans get the same shit in reverse all the time” but I literally NEVER see it in the other direction and spend the most of my time in Damian circles. The only time I see tim hate from damian fans is frustration at those particular fans in response to it or in response to favoritism of authors.

I mean i saw a good chunk of it last night, but what else can I expect from the anti tim drake tag?

It’s actually funny how most of the stuff in anti tags is polarized hate shitting on the character with a lot of bad takes, but in tims anti tag it was almost exclusively frustration from Damian and Jason fans, and usually pretty mild takes. Also people calling Tim boring.

Ngl, Idk much about Jason. I’m familiar with his fanon, but the only comic i’ve read that featured him in a major way was Gotham War. I don’t know him well, and I don’t have too much interest in him. However, I hate “Jason falls over in guilt and kisses Tim’s fingers begging for forgiveness” type posts in solidarity. It’s yucky.

Anyway, I didn’t even mean to get on this anti tim train you speak of, It just sorta leaked out of my vent doc. Don’t expect me to keep posting about it.

but also... don’t not expect it. It might happen.

Even so, my dms are absolutely open for Timothy Drake related frustration! I’m pretty tired of being nice to him.

[lv-iceprince]

https://www.tumblr.com/lv-iceprince/764842753956937728/httpswwwtumblrcomlv-iceprince764199268811718

Dang I’m so happy I did what I did then or else imagine retyping this whole ish and you don’t remember half of what you wrote🙃

OMGGGG THE SKZ CONCERT IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU😭😭I bet Felix couldn’t take his eyes off you👀oh yeah that mars was damn right marsing cuz YOU DESERVE ALL THE ATTENTION FROM YOUR ULT GOSH IM SO HAPPY OF THE EXPERIENCE YOU HAD AND FROM GETTING A GIFT FROM THE LEE FELIX?!! You have officially won at life mate🫡

No because why is it the same with my mom?😭She loves Yunho and of course she loves all the other members but since I love Yeosang very much, she calls him her other son😂and yeah I mean, idk either. My mom’s very open minded so if anything she was just shocked and everything but then she’s like “moving on!”

Ooo ok going to Australia will be on my bucket list. As for fandoms, I’m not antisocial but I’m not extroverted either so it depends really. I have to read the atmosphere first, see how they’re treating other people, and if they seem nice, it’s easier for me to approach to them while others just come to me, I think it’s nice. Nahh I felt that lol since we had a cup sleeve event the day before the concert, we meet a lot of Atinys and then the next day we met again with some and we were like “oh it’s you from yesterday!” And then after the concert we parted ways lol🤣🤣BUT I did keep like 3 people sharing our ig and stuff lmao

Awww you’re so sweet, I love having you here too🥺my request “getting you all sparkly” made my day😭💕

~🎶

Okay... like the interaction was, I got to interact with Felix prior to the concert and stuff. SO I told him I was excited and that I really cared for all of them but especially Felix. So to welcome him home I gave him this obscure Australian song about coming home. I also told Felix that I was happy because the concert would be a part of a huge birthday gift to me. But that I was reluctant about going because of anxiety. He just said "no come for me, no one else just focus on being there with me" So I did that AND OH MY FUCK ANON MUSIC ANON WHOEVER YOU ARE YOU AREN'T PREPARED. Near the end of the concert they were talking about fans and Felix mentioned how Stay and some fans say things that matter so much to him and the other guys. AND NO WAY I KID YOU NOT, he started fucking singing the song I gave him😭 I just cried in the crowd, but like okay lowkey was annoyed because Felix started leading on to singing it and he started to hum and singing the opening of it then CHAN INTERRUPTED AND TOOK OVER THE SONG HOLLERING AND CHANTING IT LIKE A FOOTY ANTHEM. NO CHAN LET FELIX SPEAK LIKE THIS ONCE LET THE BOY FUCKING COOK

So I was a whole ass mess and my mum saw me cry so she walked with me to the sides of the arena and let me cry it out.

I just.... love is an understatement I have never been validated like ever from a hot guy, nevermind a hot, nice guy.

So it felt like my life was complete and done, that was so nice and the fact he did that on the day of what was my birthday concert.

Mum's are literally the best form of kpop stans, they are just so supportive and istg if Yunho and Yeosang met her they would be just showered with every type of love imaginable.

But really you are the ideal fan, I'm glad you are able to accept the love and the talking and the freebies and the whole thing because kpop stans can be so wholesome as a unit and that sounds like such a cool time with Atiny! My mum was actually so shocked how nice the majority of kpop stans are and how they include her in everything as well! She was so into it that she was telling me how she wished concerts outside of kpop had fans being so nice and sharing and just being so wholesome.

So now she's a stan and she's actually already learning korean so she can sing along to more skz songs when they come back and she is about to learn their choreography so we can tag team if skz ever got us on camera we could dance together for them!

And lets be real you will always make me sparkly for an entire eternity 💖💖💖

[packetofsuga]

lil personal post but not me being in a manic episode for the last week or so and not having the energy to work like at all

[idkhow-butyoufoundme]

So does anyone know anything abt dream/nightmare deciphering

[crystalizednight]

All Kinds of Memes!

DTagged by @syntheticpoetry​!!!  Thanks for the tag dearie I love doing these things!!!  Also I’m too lazy to retype all this out so I’m just gon copy and paste it lmao

10 songs meme

Rules: You can usually tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to!  Put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 10 songs and then tag 10 people!  No skipping!

1: Qing Xin Yin (The Untamed OST)

2: Living Failures (Bloodborne soundtrack)

3: Wuji 1 hour loop (The Untamed)

4: Killing in the Name- Rage Against the Machine

5: Same as 3 but like a different version XD

6: Sanctuary (Ending)- Hikaru Utada

7: Slave Knight Gael (DS3 soundtrack)

8: Parasite Eve- Bring Me the Horizon

9: A Million Dreams- The Greatest Showman soundtrack

10: Revali/Vah Medoh theme (BOTW soundtrack)

7 albums meme

Rules: Make an image HERE of your top 7 albums, just type in the name and select the alb.  This can be too 7 of all time or this year or whatever you’d like

Disturbed 10 Thousand Fists: Listen I bumped HARD to this when i was a pre teen and I STILL do as an adult.  If I had to chose a fav band, I would prob default to Disturbed, I fuck heavy with them and this album. 

The Greatest Showman: Listen I can sing that entire fucking movie with no shame (But a lot of embarrassment since I don’t even sing to myself)

Dark Souls 3 soundtrack: Call me whatever you want for listening to whole game soundtracks, Idgaf.  I adore the DS3 soundtrack, I default to it whenever I wanna listen to something while drawing or whatever.  It’s so good and I am forever salty I wasn’t able to see the orchestra live.  That’d be a dream come true

Avenged Sevenfold Nightmare: Same as Disturbed, I bumped to this but more like in later teens lmao.  It is such a great album

Evanescence: You tell me what weird kid didn’t listen to this band, you tell me.  As a emo on the inside kid because mom wouldn’t let me be emo outside, I adored them.  I don’t listen to em much but I still have a lot of memories as a youngin with them

Celtic Music: I use it as inspo a lot of the time back when I actually had the ability to write which hasn’t happened in months lmao.  But it is still relaxing to listen to!

Into the Spiderverse soundtrack: I’m not sure if it’s like one artist or multiple for this movie, point is I listen to all the songs on the soundtrack and they BOP

Check in meme

1: How has your day been?

It’s been alright lmao, nothing has really happened.  Woke up a couple hours ago, lit a candle, played with my bearded dragon.  We shall see how the rest of the day goes!

2: What’s the last thing that made you smile?

I saw this pic that, instead of Live Laugh Love, it was Live Laugh Lurk with moth man.  I sent it to my gf and she said we can have that instead of the original :D

3: What’s keeping you entertained these days? *Subtly eyes my blog now full of The Untamed content*

No but really I’ve been binging this show/novel/ other adaptations.  If not that, I’ve actually gotten back into playing piano for the first time in 3 years, which feels so good honestly. 

4: If you’re in some kind of quarantine/self-isolation what do you hope to achieve in this time?

I am not, not really?  I mean I’m unemployeed/job hunting so I guess it’s self isolation?  And I hope to achieve another job lmao.  Had to quite because my old job was tearing me apart.  Wish luck for me to get a call back soon!!

5: Post selfie, if you’re comfortable doing so:

I haven’t brushed my hair so it looks a bit messy but here lmao.  I don’t usually take selfies but like why not ig?

Phone images meme

Homescreen is Wangxian, surprise surprise right?  Thanks to Synthetic for giving me this photo which I adore

My phone lockscreen is my girlfriend, and I don’t think/know if she’d be comfortable with sharing her face like that so I’ll just not lmao.  She’s a cutie though and I love her!

Last song

And a surprise to literally no one, The Untamed

Last photo I saved

Need to keep growing my meme folder :D

To whoever I tag, no need to do it if you don’t wanna!!!  While I’d be interested to see if you do, no pressure, just following the tag 10 people rules!

@ixhadbadxdays​ @kittyreaper​ @ndrogyny​ @wolfie-rood​ @hungry-froxidilian​ @kenndont​ @spookyne​ @bullhorns-and-fairywings​ @rin-a-din​ @ashe-is-here​

[tuanyiems]

writing quiz 🌟

i was tagged by @fallinnflower 💞 ty!

1. what is your ideal setting for focusing on your writing?

i like writing at night with a chill playlist and some rain in the bg, maybe a glass of wine if i’m feeling fancy 😌🍷

2. what is your favorite genre to write?

angst lol what is a story without inner turmoil and character conflict, amirite? but i only read fluff oops 🤪

3. do you prefer to write on paper, or digitally?

digital lol if i do write on paper, no one will ever read it because i’m way too lazy to retype it 

4. it’s the middle of the night and you suddenly wake up with an idea. what do you do?

sleep and hope i remember it in the morning ha

5. who is your favorite person to write about?

i write a lot of mark bc i love him but i think i always start off with jaebum as my default main character just bc i think there’s so many sides to jb that no matter how i imagine my character to be, jb is so dynamic that he can fit into most roles

6. do you like making your own characters, or do you usually write about real people?

i love love love imagining OCs but because of the nature of my blog and this platform i don’t share that writing here, only kpop fanfics c:

7. have you ever written a book, or a story with more than 15 chapters (or 100k words)?

The Space Between Your Fingers has 20 chapters but I think it only comes to about 60-70k i think. i do want to write another longer series but the time commitment is stopping me. plus have you seen how often i update my blog in general? lmao im terrible

8. how often do you get ideas?

it’s random. sometimes every day and sometimes it takes months before i think of something that i realllly want to write

9. do you ever get an idea that you really like, but just can’t seem to finish?

this is my whole brand as a writer LOL i have probably 30 fic ideas semi-drafted/outlined but it takes me forever to finish a whole story. it’s why i really respect writers who have the discipline to write and update regularly! how do y’all do it???

10. what is your least favorite plot?

i absolutely hate yandere. i really don’t understand why ppl write or read it. to me it’s just glorified abusive relationships and i do not fux with dat 😤

11. tag 5 or more people

only if you want to do this~ @mara-twins @jinyoungsir @jjpmoans @writingsfromtheseaside @shesparkless @listlessmaenads @prettywordsyouleft

[thearrowteam]

so. im a system, and im very pro “alters are their own people” and i want to learn more about parts of a whole tho- and how the two ideas can co-exist? do you have any info on that?

Lmao I wrote a whole reply to this and then I deleted it. And feel really upset by it. I accidentally x-ed out of the wrong tab and yeah so I’m going to attempt to retype it out but I’m also lowkey pissed I deleted it. Also I’m on my computer and it wont let me add tags to asks so I do mention integration, I know this makes some people uncomfortable.

Okay so now that I did that, I just want to kick this whole thing off with I don’t know a whole lot about this topic specifically especially when it comes to the parts of a whole thing. Most of this is how I interpret it and how things work for us. 

I’m going to start with the being your own people thing. I can acknowledge and accept that alters can have very distinct personality traits, opinions, fears, outlooks on life, appearances, genders, ages, and all of that. We all have our own memories and experiences that shaped who we are. I’m going to talk about my system cause honestly that’s all I’m qualified to talk about on this topic. I (Izabella) am a very different person than the host (Kinsey). I’m emotion, dramatic, petty, controlled by my paranoia and fear, I’m blunt at times, “edgy”, and I’m very opinionated. Kinsey on the other hand is calm, she’s good at keeping herself together, she’s fearless, sure she’s also a blunt person, her and I have a completely different sense of fashion and we have very different outlooks on life. I have a very different identity than Kinsey and this is due to the things and specifically the trauma that caused both of us to split. I’m here to keep us safe online while Kinsey is here because we didn’t want to be controlled by our fear anymore. I remember things that Kinsey would never believe happened and it’s shaped me into my own person who is very distinct and set in who I am. In that sense we are each our own people because we each have our own very important and distinct identities formed by our experiences. 

For the parts of a whole thing there’s other blogs who have done a lot more research than I have on this topic that I’m not on the best terms with so I can’t link you to any of their posts. But there’s those resources out there if you wish to pursue them and look for them. I’ll just explain it from my understand and the quick research I just did on this topic so I don’t look like a complete fool (fun fact there’s a copy of the Haunted Self online and easy to access in Russian if you google theory of structural dissociation. Or at least I think it’s in Russian that’s what Google Translate told me it was.) (Also just a quick sidenote I think it’s really gross that all the research data on this topic costs a lot of money, and I think mental health information should be more easily accessible but that’s it’s own complaint and irrelevant).

Okay after going through google this was the only thing I could find with images that didn’t make me pay for it:

https://www.casa.org.au/assets/Documents/Dissociation-and-complex-trauma.pdf

I only skimmed because I’m in class right now. But anyways I think just learning about the theory of structural dissociation will help you understand the whole idea of parts of a whole. I’m not going to summarize the article because I don’t think that that’s relevant right now. Basically how I mentioned Kinsey and I. We’re very different but we’re also part of the same system, or team. Whenever I talk about us as a whole I’m going to refer to us as Arrow just because it makes things less complicated. 

Anyways, I may be my own person but I am still part of Arrow, and so is Kinsey. I like to think of that one question about “If you replace all the parts of a boat over the course of years is it still the same boat that it originally was?” Which is a very loaded philosophy question that’s probably going to send me into another existential crisis if I decide to think on it too long. But it comes down to those are still parts of the same boat, they’ve just changed over time, they still make up that boat right. That’s kind of how I feel about us and Arrow. I am just one part of Arrow and sure I’m distinct and I have my own function but I’m still a part of this child and I’m still working with my headmates to keep Arrow safe and stable. Arrow is a person and I am in his head, I am a part of him. Arrow is the whole person and I’m a part of that whole person. And the rest of my headmates are too. We make up this one consistent identity that is Arrow. 

For us just acknowledging that we’re parts of a whole has been really helpful for our healing. Personally we’re not into things like complete integration, we don’t know if that means we’ll never pursue it but we know that it’s not something we’re interested in right now. But just acknowledging that yes we’re a team and we’re all part of the same person has mad functioning and interacting in daily life a whole lot easier. It’s also helped us accept our more trauma heavy and aggressive parts (I’m not going to say persecutor because we have a whole stance on how tumblr treats persecutors and I don’t want to go into that right now), because we’re able to accept that yeah those messed up things that caused these parts to have those actions happened to us and we shouldn’t reject any part of ourself because that’s not healthy. It’s just allowed us to accept eachother as a team and alters and it’s been really helpful for system communication and trauma processing. 

I kind of got off on a tangent and I’m sorry about this. Long story short for parts of a whole you all share a brain. All of us are in one brain. We are all one person just various dissociated parts of the said person. So sure we can be our own people with our own identities but we’re still dissociated parts of the same person.

Sorry this got long, I didn’t realize I was so passionate about this topic and how I felt about it. I appreciate everyone who took the time to actually read the whole thing. I guess I was more bored than I thought I was in class today.

Again I’m sorry if any of this is poorly worded or doesn’t make sense. I really tried my best. I hope this helps, if not feel free to ask follow up questions. If something I said was incorrect let me know because like said I’m not totally educated on this topic. Stay safe and have a good weekend.

- Izabella and the rest of the Arrow Team

[dazedclifford]

I deleted this yesterday because it was a draft and then when I edited it the edit never loaded so I just deleted the whole thing almost immediately after posting it and I was too lazy to retype it all up. So this is me retyping something very similar.

so, there's something I've learned the last week about tumblr and something I've realized personally. This website that I had always honestly thought of as a wonderful place for so many people to just share beautiful things is really just a bunch of disgusting individuals with a few actually wonderful people sprinkled in.

When I first joined tumblr last January (yes I know imma baby on this website lmao) I thought it was so cool and I posted my artwork, some pretty pictures I took, and a lot of things that I've written, so then I really wanted to post a picture of myself that I really liked, a picture that I thought was really beautiful and made me just feel very confident. I posted it on here and was almost immediately found and objectified by multiple men. I was sent disgusting pictures, comments, and even a video...and on top of that I had men ask....sorry no....tell me to text them so we can discuss my allowance for now being there sugar baby. And all of these people...get this....WERE MEN. Not ONE woman did that to me EVER. I'm not saying women can't be like that, but no woman no woman on here at least. So here's a lil message you creep ass bitches:

When I put "bored girl," "bored," "talk to me," ect. in my tags that is NOT code for "I'm horny pls send me pics of ur peepee"

When I post a picture of myself, it's for me because I think I look pretty. Not for you to ogle that, but if that's what you're gonna do, then please do so without commenting or dming me.

I'm not stupid okay. You telling me I'm gorgeous or sexy or whatever the fuck your tiny mind can think of is NOT causing me to drool all over myself.

No, you cannot know where I live nor have another picture of me.

Again when I put those specific tags that I mentioned above, it's genuinely because I AM BORED and I want some tumblr friends :/

and finally, DO NOT get mad at me when I reject your ass. Just because I'm a young woman DOES NOT mean I dont have thoughts, opinions, and feelings. I don't give fuck of you're upset that I dont wanna send you a titty pic.

edit!!

ps. my tumblr may have some rather "raunchy" things on it that I have reblogged...but that also doesn't mean i want to have sex with you. I'm a human. I'm allowed to want and think about these things.

[sunbeamsandmoonrays]

Author Interview

I was tagged by @ladyalice101. Thank you!!

Note: I made pages for my fanfics and my picspam edits! Feel free to check them out. (If you’re using the mobile app, my older fanfics may look wonky; I guess it has to do with the fact I copied and pasted it instead of typing it out on here.)

Name: Sunny

Fandoms: way too many lol, but the fandoms I write for now/will most likely write for are GoT/Jonsa (my main fandom), ouat/Captain Swan, MCU/Sifki, and Riverdale/Bughead

Where You Post: AO3, tumblr, and previously on ff.net.

Most Popular One-Shot: On ao3, it’s Utter My Love. On tumblr, it’s An Embarrassing Promposal.

Most Popular Multi-Chapter Story: I haven’t posted a multi-chapter story...yet.

Favorite Story You Wrote: I really enjoyed writing An Embarrassing Promposal

Story You Were Nervous to Post: There is a fic I’m totally nervous about writing because it’ll be a massive undertaking; the timeline (not even a chapter by chapter outline) I have of it is way over 10 pages long, and it’s not even complete. (It’s a whole canon divergent Robert’s Rebellion never happened because long story short, Aerys arranged a marriage between Lyanna and Rhaegar AU). So far the timeline covers 2 potential fics, but I had a plot bunny for a vague third story, and *Tina Belcher groan*.

How You Choose Your Titles: I’ve been mostly lucky with finding song lyrics or titles that fit, but for other fics it’s a throwing a dart and seeing where it lands type of deal. 

Do You Outline: For one shots, no. For multi-chapters, yes.

Complete: 11

In Progress: Ummm 5, I think? There are 3 drabble prompts left for my follower celebration (but I’ve only started writing for 1 so far...it’s slow going, but I’m getting there). I’ve written a little bit of a modern royals AU, but when I hit a road block of the setup I needed to write I outlined it...then promptly forgot about it *facepalm*. Same thing for my jealous Jon fic. Then there’s snippets of fics in other fandoms I’ve written.

Coming Soon/Not Yet Started: Ha. Hahaha. Ha ha ha ha ha ha. Well, first of all, see above. And like...all my fics (except for a rare few) basically exist in my head, because I’m too lazy to write anything down lmao. But here’s a list of stuff that will come...eventually.

Sansa and the Wolf - canon divergent AU, fairy tale AU. Based on the Grimm brothers fairy tale Lily and the Lion. I’ve basically been wanting to do this since I joined the jonsa fandom in 2015. My initial idea for it was just going to be a rehashing of the fairy tale’s plot, but then certain...things happened in seasons 6 and 7 that made me go, “You know, I can use this for my story!” So yeah, there’s one instance where I’m glad I procrastinated lol.

Time Travel AU - basically, shit went down during the Battle for the Dawn, the good guys were losing, and Bran uses his 3ER powers to send him, Sansa, and Jon back..back in time. (Remember when Sansa said, “Don’t you wish we could go back to the day we left?” ?!?! Yeah, me too! Hint hint, nudge nudge!) Featuring: tired Ned, suspicious Catelyn, angry and protective Arya, and confused Robb. 

Something for Halloween that @themiddleliddle will love me for lol

Another Halloween-ish thing that I’ll be collaborating on with @missfaber! (But not this Halloween.)

The Compass, The Curse, The Crown - not Jonsa, but Captain Swan! Basically, this is a trilogy that’s start off as a No Curse Lieutenant Duckling AU, then eventually ties into certain plot elements from the show. I stupidly wrote the outline of these on my old phone and did not write a copy of them on my computer. (But it’s not lost or anything; I just have to charge my old phone up and retype the outline out on my computer like I should’ve done before lol.)

Do You Accept Prompts: Yes! It’s e x t r e m e l y slow going sometimes, but I will fill them out!

Upcoming Story You Are Most Excited to Write: Sansa and the Wolf, hands down! I’ve already made an edit for it, but I’m waiting to post it when I’m close to posting the fic itself.

Tagging: @blackholeofprocrastination, @peglegsjones, @snowsinthenorth, and anyone else who wants to do this!

[chrliekclly]

do you think charlei and dee had sex because they mistook their genuine platonic bonding as attraction? (serious question, steming from thatlesbian dee post). I never thought of it that way, and I'm interested to hear that side !

YES that’s actully smthn i lose my sht abt !! iv blown up ppls mssgs with this kinda talk like, im a mess. ok lemme type right nd lemme type A Lot Again Anyways cz thos 2 giv me Way too many feelings (im spposd to b working on a final rn christ…)

okay…i scrolled back up after finishing nd turns out i went…literally insane…aka Much too far…so i need to under-the-cut it. mobile…viewers…i’m rly so sorry. swipe hard to leap ahead…hell im sorry fr computer viewers too. my theme is rough.

to start, my HCs surrounding chardee are rooted in charlie being on the ace spectrum and dee being gay (or like @ least bi, but imo all the men stuff is straight up compulsory heterosexuality).

i will always cling tight to the deleted scene wherein charlie says he thinks sex is gross and will genuinely get sick when he thinks about it unless he thinks about it with one specific woman. i know he shows sexual interest a decent amount of times throughout the show and has canonically had sex (on camera too, yeesh) but i see each time as very out of the blue moments (coming onto dee @ multiple points while worked up, agreeing to bang tatiana cuz she says to, that kinda thing) or relating to his long standing and delusional obsession with the waitress. in that vein, he’s also canonically enjoyed sex, and I don’t try and blind-eye any of it, because ace doesn’t always mean sex can’t be enjoyed in the moment. charlie definitely has a libido, and bodies be bodies. hell, sex-repulsed can sometimes even flip 180 in the right conditions. shit is one fun spectrum i’ll tell you that…but either way, to start with him, i think him going forward with banging dee was very much a misjudgment of what feelings are and being extremely caught up in a moment where he felt real, genuine, closeness with someone else who he was having a damn good time making terrible poetry with.

as for dee, i, first of all, just agree with everything in that post. in the context of chardee, as much as i will lose my mind in tags about how hard i ride or die the ship, it’s mostly my obsession with their dynamic. i don’t think chardee is meant to be endgame. i absolutely 100% believe that dee, too, is misinterpreting her feelings. i think part of it is her consistent comp het, and the other is she’s never been close with someone the way she has been with charlie, and she doesn’t know what she’s meant to do with it. i think she was similarly caught up in a moment in which she showed her own vulnerability, opening herself up to someone who could easily just ridicule her as she’s used to (”right now? i’m scared”), and she receives support from him instead (”you’re not gunna bomb, you’re gunna do great”). we’ve seen how much dee craves validation, thats her entire thing. i’m not shocked she dropped her pants in this moment lmao. she probably felt her damn heart flutter cuz she got told by someone who she at least somewhat trusts that she really is good, even if she doesn’t think so. the only rational explanation for the feeling associated with that person is that he’s The One right? pretty big leap

just…basically i dont think either of them know what a relationship is.

charlie’s lived nearly his entire life deluding himself into thinking that, 1. he and the waitress have a relationship that is anything other than creepy, and 2. that the warped-ass mess of an image he’s created in his brain for what he and the waitress are to each other is what love is. he thinks he’s making progress in getting close to her when the only thing she’s Ever done pre-s12 is ask him to leave her the fuck alone. he’s never even attempted to look past the waitress before, and the only time he shows interest in other people it’s purely his libido talking. he doesn’t pursue romance, and the one time we’ve seen him do so he was using her to get to, who else?, the damn waitress. 

dee’s lived her entire life having to prove herself to every single person she interacts with, and its familiar to her to getting ahead by using men, usually as sexual objects. i’m hesitant to bring this up on a post wherein i speak on dee’s sexuality because i don’t want to link this trait to it in any way as if its related, but to be fair, dee is as much a serial rapist as dennis is in that regard. the gang are shitty people, we know that. she will get men drunk to have sex with them, or pressure them into it, or trick them into it. she’s not having sex with these men for pleasure, she’s literally doing it for power. it’s absolutely fucked up, but so is she.

when she Is romantically involved, she’s shown to leap headfirst into those relationships and blow them out of proportion on 0 grounds for it. she buys a promise ring for a guy who didn’t think they were dating, it’s implied she’s going to actually go ahead with the brad fisher marriage thing after the episode ends, she gloats about how important she is to a stripper who was literally shame-crying during sex (also? she says “we BOTH wept,” and she can say that’s because it was that good, but i really doubt it). i mean the woman GAGS when talking to men she’s “nervous” around, something she takes as meaning she’s attracted to them? lmao uh???

at this point i’ve probably repeated myself over and over, my brain is on backwards and my train of thought went off the rails years ago. but i’m still gunna retype an old set of tags i found:

i hc that neither of them end up together but they do go through a relationship-ish phase, but dee’s gay and charlie’s okay with that (and always ace in my mind) because they finally move on from their own irrational drives to adhere to what they think is expected of them. i dont think either of them have any idea what a relationship is meant to be and they pathetically grasp at each other because they’re kind-ish to one another and that feels safe for once. chardee may be my main ship but i purposefully backtrack on myself because i know they’re two people who barely know love and have found each other, both as underdogs in their environments, and feel an electrifying Something that they Cant Name wen theyre together, and that something just so happens to be friendship and they don’t realize it cuz they’re doofuses who’ve led really unfortunate lives where friendship and hatred are always intermingling.

i’ve never brought it up here, but i often imagine a timeline of their relationship, because i enjoy the idea of them figuring themselves out through each other, just because they are genuinely amazing (platonically) together, and they get into some of my favorite shit. the thought of late night talks and confessions about their worries and confusion about their feelings while lying in bed, just close because they feel comfortable that way, realizing they can keep loving each other and not force it to mean something it doesn’t, the relief that comes with that, a final kiss that really doesn’t mean anything but thank you, not losing what they had but rather gaining a whole new kind of intimacy, and still getting into absolutely ridiculous situations. maybe dee realizes shes, ironically, found herself with a crush on the waitress and it cracks charlie up. he doesnt mind. he’s finally learned that if he Is going to be with someone it should definitely be with someone who makes him feel at Least half as comfortable as the way being around dee does, and knowing he doesn’t have to make himself look for that, but when he knows he will know. plus, he cant imagine dee pulling that one off. but maybe one day she does. dees gentler around the edges, and she gets butterflies when talking to women, but she never gags. charlie’s a terrible wingman but he keeps convincing dee to let him try. she brings a girl home for the first time and charlie all but backflips in an empty pool that day. they’re still shithats but they’re learning to let that go. people can get better. AA would probably help.

iv gone too far goodbye

[rainbowchibbit]

Hey Chibs, just thought someone should let you know that you tagged the post about the Sans in the shark costume as humanstuck.

LMFAO okay I misread this at first so I'm retyping the whole thingYES I KNOW I DID IT ON PURPOSE LMAO all human AUs are humanstuck to memfjgjd

[feathersandstripes]

I swear I’m not posting screenshots of things I’ve said in a rude sort of way, it’s just a lot easier than retyping it. Essentially though it’s not that I disbelieve the concept of Otherkin- i respect that stuff because it’s also quite saturated in a number of religious and has been for 100s of years.

I also GET why folks are pissed off because I didn’t bother to spell out my exact feelings on the matter- mostly because I don’t think people are entitled to pick my brain that way. I don’t really care that people dislike me for this either, in a way some responses that I’ve gotten prove the exact point I’m trying to make.

I do want to try to respond to you my feelings the best I can because honestly you’re being real chill about the whole thing, and you are right that posting in the tags and insulting people was not really the best move I could’ve made lmao. Not really gonna give an excuse for that one.

I just woke up from a nap so some of this might not make a ton of sense, pologies

I recognize there are good people in the Otherkin community

I have nothing against the beliefs

I’ve spent a long time doing my research on the community because I don’t believe in making uneducated rants on something I don’t understand

My feelings on the community come from personal experiences and interactions, of which situations I always did my best to remain respectful and calm

I admit that what negative I see within the community is mostly tumblr based, but I’ve seen it on forums and YouTube videos as well

My original post was made about 1am; reason being that I was thinking and thinking about Otherkin I recently met. I came to the set conclusion that most people in the community at this point are, as I said, using the concept of Otherkin like a toy. It’s not respectful or modest, it’s loud and boasting. And that’s where my irritation comes from. It’s a HUGE character flaw and a personal pet peeve of mine.

I do apologize to [mostly] anyone I’ve upset but I can’t say my opinions have changed based on the reactions I’ve gotten.

Most criticism I see of the Otherkin ideal and community are based on disbelief and I wanted to separate my own points from that. APPARENTLY didn’t do a great job, but putting my thoughts to paper (or iPhone) has never been a strength of mine.

I feel like Otherkin would be a more believeable thing if like….90% of these kids weren’t either Angels, Dragons, or Wolves. I’d say the other 9% is equally distributed towards convientantly popular characters, while the last 1% is like. Actually quite vague and more unique to the individual person. Essentially Otherkin always pick a recognizable character from some form of pop culture, or the strongest and edgiest animal or mythical creature. The 1% are just outliers that you NEVER see.

Seems like there’s no harm in having a deep connection with an animal, character, or concept. Nothing wrong with feeling a kinship with something you truely relate to and enjoy on a deep and soulful level.

But legitimately all Otherkin I see are in it for attention. I see your posts, how you talk, how you act. I did the same shit when I was 10, 14, whatever age I was. I pretended I used to be some powerful creature, and that I was unique and stood out. I wanted to be different.

Most Otherkin aren’t hurting people with their beliefs but they’re really fucking fast to be condescending to anyone who might have a shred of doubt at their “identities”, considering how transparent the concept is.

[party-pixie]

Quality Tag 👌👌👌👌👌👌

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RULES: tag 10 of your followers you wanna know better.

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Song stuck in my head: Mind Brand by Maretu

Last movie I watched: I think the third evangelion movie idk

Last TV show I watched: YURI ON ICE AND I CANT WATCH IT ANYMORE ILL CRY OK STORYTIME EVERYTIME I WATCH THAT SHOW I CRY DURING THE WHOLE EPISODE I CRY WHEN YURI MENTIONS VIKTOR I CRY WHEN VIKTOR IS ONSCREEN I CRY MORE WHEN HE SKATES AND MY FRIEND CAME OVER LIKE TWO WEEKS AGO AND WE WATCHED EPISODES 3+4 AND I LITERALLY CRIED SO MUCH SHE HAD TO CHANGE IT TO NANBAKA BC SHE FELT BAD FOR ME LMAO IDK WHY IT MAKES ME SO EMOTIONAL

What I’m wearing now: green sweater and jeans it’s great

When I created this blog: my friend forced me to like two years ago or something

The kind of stuff I post: I blog about blogs that blog about other blogs I also have an art blog @silvertailsdoesart pls love me

Do I have other blogs?: I have an art blog see URL above

Do I get asks regularly?: no please send me asks I’m lonely I get lonely easily

Why did I choose my URL?: It’s based on a scrapped character I had and my friend came up with the numbers from a different thing for a different site lmao

Gender: Female!I’d give my opinion on gender but I’d get fried lol

Hogwarts House: idk I never got super into Harry Potter I need to tho but lazy

Pokemon team: MEME TEAM INSTINCT BITCH *DABS*

Fave colors: every shade of purple,green,and blue

Average hours of sleep: 6-8 on school nights and like 12 on weekends I have like the worst sleep schedule lmao

Lucky number: 17 or 18!

Favorite characters: See http://silvertails1683.tumblr.com/post/157040957864/mamma-mia-thats-a-spicy-tag bc I’m too lazy to retype all of it

Dream job: Idk actually this is a weird one for me bc I would do art and music if that field had a good pay but it doesn’t and I would do programming yknow like coding and stuff but I kinda lost the passion for it so I’m not sure what I wanna do

Number of blankets I sleep with: 3 but usually by the time I wake up they’re all kicked off the bed lol

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[raidenenthusiast]

you already know I'm gonna ask for genshin<3

GOD BLESS ILY 💖💕 i should mention that i accidentally closed tumblr halfway through answering this, so i am literally retyping all of it. this new phone has a very like, slippery screen n i'm not used to it so i was like OH SHIT HAGDJANHDBSN

my favorite female character: SUCROSE!!! i only have very minor complaints about her design (really i just wish she was wearing some pants) n the parts of it i do like (her hair n her ears n the COLORS) are so pleasing to look at. i fly around with her bc the mondstadt wings match her really nicely n she looks so cute. her little ears.......i adore her. she has a voiceline about how she wants to use alchemy to create a fairytale utopia n it's SO sweet n i love her so much.

honorable mention hu tao, bc she's actually the only female design i personally don't complain about at all (the bar is so low though) n i LOVED her story quest. i'm also a really big fan of how she's voiced in english (bc i play in english) n also she's hilarious. i'm obsessed with her dynamic with zhongli too.

my favorite male character: strap in kids. this is gonna be a long ride. i have a top three, although it's technically more of a top four.

tied for first are childe n xiao bc i cannot choose between them. i had a really fun journey with childe; when i first started playing, my friend told me they thought he would 100% be my type n i looked at a photo of him n went "ehhhh" so i wasn't really sure at first. i also knew the um. "reputation" fans of him had within fan content n such so i was ALSO wary of that being a very frequent fandom-goer. fast forward a little bit n his banner roles around. i actually decided to pull for him for GAMEPLAY reasons initially, bc the idea of a ranged user being able to use a melee stance was literally a gamechanger for me who wasn't n still isn't very good at archers. i did start liking him reluctantly at that point, but i didn't really want to admit it (very funny looking back) n i used to make fun of him a lot bc i was in denial. NOW i have him in my party (my incredible dps my beloved) n i have finally met him in story which made me fall REALLY hard REALLY fast bc believe it or not, canon childe is NOTHING LIKE fanon childe. n that's a good thing mind u. n the rest is history, he now means everything to me. i am soft for him daily. i also rescind my previous "ehhhh" about his appearance bc he is very sexy. i am ALSO very much an advocate for how griffin voices him n i could talk about the golden house scene for literal hours; it is THE best scene in the game so far.

xiao was sort of similar, my (same) friend n i both knew i would like him bc he is VERY much my type. we were right. i was hyped up to meet him n as SOON as i did i fell so hard i fell off a cliff. it breaks my heart every day i don't have him as i wait patiently for him to rerun. playstyle wise i honestly think he's really fun, but i would probably be saving for him even if i hated how he played, bc i just love him that much. i'm also obsessed with yaksha lore in general n i think about him a lot. xiao my beloved. he also has one of my favorite (if not my favorite) designs.

diluc n zhongli are the last two, bc i can't really choose which one of them i like more, only bc they're both important for different reasons?

diluc was my FIRST favorite character. i took a single look at him n i KNEW. first character i loved, first character i really wanted, as well as the character i tried to (n failed to) REROLL FOR. over fifty times, n nothing. i have him now, but goddamn. i have a thing for characters associated with fire, n as soon as i heard about the whole darknight hero thing i was like oh my.....marriage. i was heartbroken when i played through the chunk of the story quest where they let u trial him before i had him bc i wanted him so bad. he's literally been on my team since day one. i go idle with him to hear him say nice things to me. i love him so much.

n as for zhongli, he's. also special. the definition of comfort character. "he's more than daddy to me. he's.....he's like GRANDPA" HQGDNANHD no but seriously, he walks on sceen n i just feel safe. part of it is keith being so very good at voicing him, but regardless i love him very much. he tugs at my heartstrings a lot n i think he's probably the character the causes me the most physical heartache bc i feel so bad for him.

honorable mention dain, bc who would i be if i didn't mention dain. mwah.

my favorite book/season/episode etc: i'm gonna go with quest for this one! n i think we all know what i'm gonna say; OF COURSE IT'S ZHONGLI'S STORY QUEST!! i complain a lot about how this game doesn't treat tension properly, but i have absolutely nothing to complain about in either of his quests. particularly part two really held its own for me against the entire main story, in my opinion. i know part two just came out, but i am ECSTATIC about the possibility of future parts. also the only story quest i've shed tears over (although i came pretty close on childe's n xiao's). i even THINK about a scene from that quest n my heart breaks into pieces. emotionally, zhongli owns me.

my favorite cast member: in terms of acting performance, probably keith. in general, yuri. he is one of my all time favorite voice actors n i inhale everything that he has done like fucking kirby. i'm really attached to a lot of the english cast though; laila, griffin, khoi, erika, etc.

my favorite ship: this is hard, actually. what's hilarious is that all my favorite pairings involve zhongli. i honestly, at this point, think it's a tie between zhongluc n rezhong. bc rezhong there is just so much there n so much to THINK about, but zhongluc is very comforting to me, personally, n the whole dragon n the phoenix imagery stuff sucked me in like a VACUUM. i also really like guili though; basically, if zhongli is in it, i will at least think about it (sort of, see later).

a character i'd die defending: childe no uhh. in terms of characters who NEED defending, kaeya. i am so SICK of u people not knowing how to interpret him. i'd like to add in eula here too, bc i REALLY like her, n i think some of u went a little bit haywire. in terms of characters who don't really need defending, xiao. i would die for him, actually.

a character i just can't sympathize with: ironically i don't genuinely hate any of the playable characters yet. dottore is pretty fucked up so i guess him, but also i still find him interesting hagdbanhdnan.

a character i grew to love: besides childe? ganyu! i didn't NOT like her by any means, but i was mostly indifferent, n while i WISH her story quest had a little more to it...i adore her very much.

my anti otp: besides the obvious ones, zhongchi.....LET ME EXPLAIN!! i don't HATE it, exactly. but i got so irreparably BITTER about it clogging up both childe n zhongli's individual tags, to the point where i couldn't find enough content without it, i completely lost interest. i will accept nice art of it, but i also have a massive problem with how A LOT of fans tend to over/hyperfeminize childe in relation to the ship, which feels very disingenuous to me bc childe.....isn't a feminine character, really. he's just, i dunno, skinny?? if anything, his whole fight happy shit feels more masculine to me, lmao. it just very much feels like a lot of u can't accept a pairing between two men unless u put one of them in the role of the "woman" n it very much bothers me. like, listen, i know childe is canonically a malewife n i love that about him, but it's about the intent. n i feel HORRIBLE vibes from a lot of u people. i know active fandom genshin fans have bad vibes in general, but u know what i mean. i have been to this rodeo before, n i hate it every time. also, i see a lot of very mischaracterized childe in relation to the pairing too, n to a much lesser extent zhongli, but it still exists. basically, i don't hate it, but i am bitter. n it very much feels like a lot of u are turning them into ur token fandomwide homos which NEVER ends well.

please all i ask is if ur gonna ship two men can u at least treat them both like some semblance of men i am tired