#but i would give anything if this doesn't become a fad again

[miasmaghoul]

I just, I don't even know what to say

W O W

Ok, serious chat for a moment. Warnings for mentions of an ED and medical mistreatment.

It's so frustrating to still see shit like this when I grew up in the days of fat free everything and Weight Watchers ads every 5 minutes on TV.

Why is it fat people that everyone agrees to dogpile on? We're bullied incessantly for something that a lot of us can't even fix or help, because people who AREN'T fat assume we're just lazy pigs. Like yeah, please just disregard my physical debility and MULTIPLE hormonal issues and just assume that I just shovel food into my mouth constantly. Oh, you say I can't have an eating disorder because I'm fat and "those people" are skinny? BOY DO I HAVE NEWS FOR YOU!

It's bullshit, full stop. I still struggle with my ED, but the older I've gotten the more open and honest with myself I've become. I've never sought treatment for it because, again, I'm still fat. The one time I did bring it up to a doctor, he said "well if you do have an eating disorder then you aren't doing a very good job." I wish I were making that up.

Fat is in my genes, and there are so many other contributing factors it isn't even funny. It's so pounded into our heads that we NEED to be thin (mostly targeting women, let's be real) in order to have value, and I'm so fuckin sick of still hearing about the latest severely unhealthy fad diet or what fucking celebrity is on ozempic.

Which, by the way, I did have pushed on me a couple years ago when regular people could still get their hands on it. It made me feel so much worse. Every dose would trigger a binge, and I would feel horrible for days afterwards. I told my doctor (different from the other one I mentioned) this, and she told me that it was just something I was going to have to deal with because look, you've lost 20lbs since your last visit!

I felt worse than I had in YEARS, but it didn't matter because my body was becoming more socially acceptable. Do you want to know how many times doctors have tried to shove weight loss surgery down my throat? Countless. No matter how many times I say I'm not even there to talk about my weight, and that those surgeries are NOT for me, someone always brings it up. It's crazy how hurtful being ignored for knowing your own body is, because someone else thinks you need to change.

I wish this was something I had figured out when I was younger, but alas. I wore a hoodie over my clothes for 6 years straight, regardless of how hot it was outside, just to try to hide. I made myself miserable, ate barely anything (which would just trigger a binge, of course) and had it beat into my head constantly that my weight was the most important thing about me.

Here's the thing it took me way too long to learn:

IT DOESN'T FUCKING MATTER

You know what the number on the scale is? It's just a number. Your weight, high or low, is simply a tiny part of who you are as a human. If others choose to judge you based on it, that's not a failure on your part. It's on theirs. Being fat is not a crime, nor is it deserving of the insults and sneers we get in public spaces. People will always find a reason to stare, to whisper and giggle, and the best thing you can do for yourself is not give them the time of day.

I realize that's not easy. It's taken me 30+ years to reach a point where I've realized that going out in public is a necessity, and that the only reason I think people are staring at me is because advertisements like this punched the concept into my fragile little mind as a kid. At the end of the day, this is the one thing all fat people need to know:

Being fat is not a moral failure.

There is nothing wrong with you just because you need bigger clothes, mobility aids, or help from others. I don't care what anyone says - your weight is no one's business but your own. You want to lose weight? Go for it! More power to you, you'll get nothing but support from me. But there's nothing wrong with not wanting to do that either. That's really what it comes down to - the assumption that there's something inherently wrong with us because we're bigger than other people.

That's the part that needs to stop. And if anyone ever needs a reminder, my asks are always open. You're beautiful, I promise. 💜

Thank you for coming to my TED talk lmao

(I'm sure some asshole anons will come at me for "glorifying obesity" or "promoting unhealthy lifestyles". I assure you I am not. I am simply trying to help normalize a different mindset. If you're upset that fat people exist and that I'm saying they deserve the same care and compassion as anybody else, then you need to do a little bit of internal examination there. I promise fat people have not hurt you by virtue of existing in larger bodies ♡)

[ipercreeper]

WORRY. - Jeff Rosenstock [2016]

We Begged 2 Explode

Laura said to me, "This decade's gonna be fucked Friends will disappear after they fall in love (Fall in love) Fall in love and get married Isn't that shit like, crazy? The workin', havin' babies and promotions? The cheatin', cryin', leavin', and divorcin'?"

Pash Rash

I've been doing this for half my years; I've been mouthing off in bars, trading shame for self-respect My trajectory is crystal clear I can see it in the stars that frame the shame above my neck That frame the shame above my neck And the sky is always pitch black When I sneak away, I only wanna come back and see your face, see your face again

Festival Song

It feels completely ridiculous That I'm a willing participant Gazing at the purples and pinks In the shadow of a bank-sponsored skyline "Unite against the establishment!" While drones transmit the images To a server farm in the valley For a culture that'll eat its own insides

Staring Out the Window at Your Old Apartment

The city don't care if you live or die It's just gonna grow and it doesn't care why You're tired of kicking and fighting through life And left me alone on this cold winter night

Wave Goodnight to Me

Yeah, ignorance is bliss until the day The things you ignored all come into focus And those conveniences leave cavities That can't get filled 'cause you didn't notice

To Be a Ghost...

Born as a data mine for targeted marketing And no one will listen up until you become a hashtag or a meme But hate's not a fad that dies with its virality They want you to be a ghost when they rob you of your hope But you've got power when they're not expecting anything

Pietro, 60 Years Old

Will you wait for me? Keep me warm in the cold? Will you stay with me

I Did Something Weird Last Night

Everything so unexpectedly started to change in the dream But I was preoccupied with how the magic would end Because nothing intangible remains sustainable Hope is a scheme Will I ever see you again?

Blast Damage Days

We'll get lost and wander off, enraptured by fake doom When our towns fall to the ground Oh, it won't shatter me and you Whenever we feel ashamed being alive and awake In such an era of hate and military police These are the mass murder days We are the blast damage age

Bang on the Door

And we can keep pretending this isn't really happening Or wait until the noise goes away We can declare our grand ambitions about living somewhere different But we aren't doing anything today We can avoid the telephone when it's a number we don't know But we don't even know what they're gonna say

Rainbow

They wanna hear us scream "We ain't got no money, we ain't got no money! You got me! You got me! You got me! You got me! We ain't got no money, we ain't got no money! You got me! You got me! You got me! You got me! Please don't take my love away! My home from me today!"

Planet Luxury

They brutalize your confidence and drain you of your energy Until you're always tired and unsure They make a lot of promises but keep on taking everything So you always want more You want more? You want more

HELLLLHOOOOLE

But we don't have to live inside a hellhole And give our money to some fucking asshole We don't wanna live inside a hellhole

June 21st

I didn't leave the house all day For the last thirty Saturdays It's time to trade the darkness for a view Because it's June 21st

The Fuzz

I can't stand feeling violent But it's hard not to sometimes When the innocent get slaughtered And the guilty get a fine When I drown myself in chemicals Do I even have a choice? And if you scream and no one hears you Are you even making noise?

...While You're Alive

I wanna let you know while you're alive Because everybody loves you when you die But when it matters, they're not there Not there I gotta let you know while you're alive Cause I'll be a disaster when you die Chubby body, no hair, don't care

Perfect Sound Whatever

Next time I see you I'll find better words than I'm sorry (I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!) Perfect always takes so long Because it don't exist Perfect always takes so long Because it don't exist It doesn't exist It doesn't exist It doesn't exist It doesn't exist

[coolspacequips]

Been so long since I've seen some homophobic violently abusive McClain family bullshit and the streak is finally... broken