#but i still dont wanna forgive or even be near you ever honestly (directed at the Specific People)

[cosmiccyndaquil]

hi tumblr i fucking hate intrusive thoughts! at least i think this counts as one

you ever get one thats like. oh. and then you know its gonna become a recurring thought and fuck up your life because guESS WHAT-

also it Could potentially happen! and i wouldnt be able to tell anyone! because 1 nobody would believe me (people ALREADY dont believe me when i get hurt in other ways by this person! and for good reason! theyre literally 3 years younger than me) and 2 id get blackmailed into not saying anything! because this person has so much power over me fuck why do they have so much power why did i let things get like this

oh and i cant say the thought itself (even though what it is is heavily implied bc i cant be subtle to save my life) because someone WILL absolutely see it and take it as some kind of fucked up fantasy and think i actually wanna do those things and itll be what happened 6-7 months ago all over again!!

and i know i know its fake and not real and hasnt happened so i should shut up and not complain but. I am actually terrified rn haha

[styx-n-stone]

The Amalgam

Rating: T

A/N: There is honestly not enough Demencia and Flug Bonding fics, nor is there  many Demencia and Flug being badass fics. I actually almost started crying while writing this so.... 

The angsty villainous fic about Demencia no one asked for: 

  Of all the villains within city limits, none had a more mysterious past than the eccentric Demencia. Even Black hat himself has an assumed legend to back him. No one- hero, villain, or otherwise- could even imagine what possible origin the reptilian lady could have possibly had. That being said, no one had ever bothered to ask her herself, so perhaps this mystery had a simple answer? Not that anyone could get close enough to ask.

Then again....

"Demencia, if you don't stop fooling around with that vile it could-" the vile exploded. Demencia giggled and pulled so of the glass shards out of her hair. The scientist sighed and rubbed the ash off his goggles. There goes another week's work. At least he remembered to write the formula down. He sat back at his desk and looked through the drawers. Demencia promptly lied across the top of the desk. Flug looked up at her. "What are you doing?" "Annoying you" she cooed at him. "Get off." He ordered. "No" she replied, flatly. He sighed and moved his work to a nearby table.

"Flugsy why do you do this?" She asked him. He looked back at her. "Do what?" "Work for him?" She sat up, swinging her legs like a child. "Because it pays well." He responded. The answer was quick and efficient. He didn't really feel like explaining the circumstances. "But you're always here, if you had a lot of money couldnt you just leave?" She pushed. Flug really wasn't gonna get rid of her this time, was he?

"I don't want to. Why are you Always here?" He deflected the question back to her. She shrugged. "I wanna be."  His turned back to his work.

was it a bad sign the chemical exploded just by being shook? Maybe he should  revise the formula to be more stable. Less cesium and more-

Flug felt her breathing down his neck.

"what do you want, Demencia?" He asked her. She leaned up against the table. "But why Black Hat?" "Because I owe him." "What do you owe him?" "What does it matter to you?!" He slammed his palm onto the table. There was immediate regret. He looked up into her mismatched eyes trying to read whatever deranged plan she was working. He repeated himself softer, with better word choice. "Why are so interested in what I'm doing? Shouldn't you be fawning after Black Hat or something?"

"He's busy."

of course he is

"Demencia, I'm busy too." Flug turned back to his work again, hopefully to stay that way. It wasn't meant to be. "But I'm bored." She whined, sliding his notes off the table. "What about 5.0.5?" The doctor suggested, picking up the papers. "No. I want hang with you." She sat down on the floor to level with his face. "You never talk about yourself." These words seemed less teasing more genuine. He placed his papers back on the table and sat down. "What's your point? Neither do you." Demencia picked another glass shard out of her bangs. "That's not important."

Flug slumped back in his seat, giving in to her. It was pointless trying to work while she was still with him anyway. She continued while casually picking more shards from her arm. "You've known Black Hat longer than I have. How did you two meet?" The scientist really didn't want to tell this story. "An accident." He simplified it. "Did he hire you then?" She added to the previous question. "No, there was a some.. events that led to that." He simplified another story. "Do you like working for him?" "Yes." "Why?" ok , that was a question he really didn't feel like answering.

"Why do you like Black Hat?" He asked her. She paused and thought for a moment. "He's dreamy.. strong.. powerful..bad.." she continued to describe a generic supervillian. "Ok, better question: why are you so weird?" She went silent. That was a terrible way of phrasing 'how did you get your powers?' Thankfully she interpreted this as such.

That didn't give him an answer.

"Well, how did you get your powers?" Flug deflected this right back at her. "I don't.. i'm not.. you're not answering my question!" He stood up. "Well you aren't answering mine either!" She mimicked him. "Why are you here?!" He shouted, becoming angrier by the absurdity that was Demencia. "Why are you spending time with a bunch of villains?!?! YOU DON'T DO ANYTHING!!" "BECAUSE I WANT TO BE HERE. I BELONG HERE JUST AS MUCH AS YOU DO!" She hissed back at him. Demencia seemed more threatening than normal.

"NO YOU DON'T. YOU'RE JUST SOME OVERZEALOUS FANGIRL WHO ABANDONED YOUR FAMILY AND IS TRYING TO IMPRESS YOUR IDOL BECAUSE YOU HAVE IDENTITY PROBLEMS." Flug snapped at her. Demencia lost whatever cheeriness was in her face. Flug realized his fatal error. Her fists clenching seemed mismatched to the expression on her face. She looked like someone had just shot her after promising to protect her. This didn't last.

She bared her teeth at the scientist "you think I chose to be like this" was more of a statement than a question. She was trembling violently. Flug didn't know whether to go over and help her or evade the room for his own safety. He could see her trying to force back the anger starting to leak from her eyes.

"Y-you think.. I want to... to be.." she tried to breathe out the words. Failure only fueled her rage.

"Demencia, I didn't mean-" Flugs apology was interrupted by a table hitting the wall, leaving a dent and a broken mess of wood.

It was at this moment Flug knew how much he royally fucked up.

Demencia let out a blood curdling scream and kicked a trash can in Flug's general direction. Flug ducked and bolted to the door only to have his coat grabbed. The scientist was flung into the opposite wall.

"WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU KNOW WHO I AM." Demencia cries out. Her voice painfully scratching her throat.

Flug maneuvered to his desk and grabbed a ray gun and a gravity orb.  He fired at a potted plant that hurled towards him, vaporizing it. He hid under his desk.

Demecia threw down a bookcase. It's contents landed into a messy pile and was crushed by its holder.

"I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO I AM!" Demencia screamed before breaking Flug's desk in half with her bare elbows.

The scientist tried to crawl away from her but was snatched from the ground. He had dropped his ray gun, which Demencia crushed with her foot.

"Shit." He muttered. He managed to reach into his pocket and activate the gravity orb. Everything began to float. Demencias grip loosened. Flug looked at her, "sorry." He kicked her away and pressed himself into the wall. She hit the ceiling with a heavy thud.

If he could just angle himself correctly he could propel himself to the door he'd be safe.

Demencia had already bounded back to him. She slammed his shoulders into the wall.  The orb had glitches and the two fell back on the floor along with everything else.

Flug was pinned down, weak from his injuries, and at the mercy of an livid super villain. (Ironically, this wasn't the one he had expected to do it)

Demencia threw a punch near his face and broke the ground instead. Her knuckles were red and blue. Her breathing was heavy, she was trying to speak but it all came out as sobbing.  "I.." she threw a weak punch on his arm. "I didn't.." she choked on her own breathing. Frustrated with herself she growled and slammed her fists near his face repeatedly. Flug used what little strength he had to grab her arms. "Demencia, calm down."

She ripped her arms away from him. Flug clinched and covered his face to block another strike... but nothing came.

In fact, she had gotten off of him and curled up in the corner.

Flug sat sat up and looked over to Demencia. He noticed how hard she was clutching herself. She was almost clawing her own arms. There were so many bruises and cuts, probably worse than the ones she gave him. And there were so many scars.

Everything hurt so much.

For a moment, the only noise was the sobs of a broken person.

...

"Demencia.." he finally asked.

There was no response.

"¿Demencia, Estás bien?"

"I never asked for this." She spoke quietly to no one in particular.

Flug crawled over to her, keeping a safe distance in case she lost it again.

"I never asked to have my life taken from m-me... I never asked to be ripped apart." The villain's voice cracked.

"What happened?" Flug asked her. He gingerly reached out to comfort her. She flinched away slightly. He could see a long scar riding up her back through a slight gash in her shirt.

"I.. I can't remember.. anything before..." Demencia struggled to keep her words steady. She could barely breathe. Everything was just building up.

She broke down.

Snot and tears trailed down her face. It was like a dam being burst open. Her body convulsing with all the bitterness and tragedy running through it. She didn't look like herself. She wasn't even the same person as Flug had known a few minutes before.

He watched her like this, unsure of how to approach. Eventually he got up and brought her some tissues. They spent time venting to each other about the past and making up for nearly killing each other.

"We should probably clean this place up. Black hat would literally kill us if he walked in and saw this." Said flug.  Demencia grinned mischievously "Yeah well, it's your lab sooo.." she bolted.

"Wait, what?! DEMENCIA!!" He limp-ran after her. ~~~~~~~~~

Leaning against an adjacent wall Black hat rubbed his chin in thought. He looked over to 5.0.5, who was playing with the sunlight beaming through the window. Black Hat chuckled, perhaps he had underestimated his employees' abilities.

Ain't 5.0.5 so cute? So cute you forgive me for making you feel?...no? Whatever, I don't care. I warned you this would hurt.

[stacksonstacksonstacksgirl]

When The Sun Met The Moon: part 2

A/N: Okay so I got a pretty positive response to the first little part of this that I did and decided to do another part because I kind of fell in love with my characters and wanna see where I can take them! Anyway please let me know if you guys like this! Enjoy! <3

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“Niall Horan....”

And just like that I fell back into the fandom.

“You must be Olivia, yer sister mentioned tha you like our music, is that right?” Niall asked bending over a little so he could be on my sister’s level.

“UH HUH THATS RIGHT! I LOVE ONE DIRECTION SO MUCH! Harmony doesn’t like you guys anymore though!”

Oh shit

“LIV!”

“What?! It’s true!”

I was so embarrassed and caught up in arguing with Olivia that it wasn’t until Niall’s laugh cut through our conversation that I realized how ridiculous we must’ve looked.

“ Haha! Harmony? Right?”

“Yes... Mr. Horan?”

“Ah please, just Niall! Its okay, not everyone is a fan. It’s no big deal really!” 

“I am a fan! I mean I was before! I drifted away once you guys went on break and all that mess happened! Ugh it’s complicated...”

“Well listen, if that’s true then I’m terribly sorry and I hope you’ll give me an the lads a chonce to make it up to yeh tonight but we should probably get moving because yeh weren’t kiddin when you said it was freezin out here!”

And with that he started to lead us towards the buses to meet the rest of the band. Meanwhile in the back of my mind I’m trying to make sure I remember to breathe and that I’ll survive this night.

Olivia was doing phenomenal compared to me.

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Before we went in I decided it would probably be best to give my little sister a small pep talk for her sake aswell as the boys’ sake. I could never forgive myself if my sister got banned from concerts forever for being a little hooligan!

“Olives listen to me real quick okay? I know how much you adore these boys but remember they are people just like you and me alright? So remember when I would show you those videos and tell you how some fans dont respect personal space?”

“Yeah I remember Harmony! You said we gotta use our manners!”

“Exactly! Good! So dont forget to use your manners and give the boys some space okay?”

“Got it! I’m gonna be the best fan ever!”

“You already are babe! Go in and say hi, I’m gonna try to catch my breath really quick okay? I wont be long at all!”

“Okay sissy! Hurry though!”

While she went in I stood on the side of the bus for a second. I felt terrible. How could I have just gave up on them so easily? I know I had a lot going on but I completely forgot that these boys were some of the nicest people until now. Niall had just made tonight a night my sister (and honestly myself) would never forget.

“Hey Harmony, you okay?” he sounded worried and yet gorgeous all the same

“Niall, hey, yeah I was just thinking.” I replied honestly

“Oh? Wanna talk about it? I’ve been told that I’m an amazin listener!” 

Imangine me telling my small problems to Niall Horan! How many girls would kill to be me right now? But I opted to keep the conversation light, I wouldn’t want to weird him out off the bat.

“I’m sure you are but its okay really! Nothing important at all anyway!” I gave him a small smile

“Yeh sure? I mean it, if there’s anything at all I can try to help,,,”

“Nah, I’m fine really! Maybe next time I’ll let you pick my brain about it!”

Did I really just say next time? Who was I kidding other than myself?

“Alright, I’m gonna hold yeh to that! Come on inside, yer sister is ravin about you and how yer the best sister ever so all the guys are dyin to meet ya!” he said with a nudge.

I felt like I was dreaming! One Direction wants to meet me? On what planet is that reality? Oh, this one, this is real. I decided to suck it up and head on the bus as bravely as I could.

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Oh. My. God.

“H-Hello-Hi... I’m Harmony” my inner teen was crying but I was pretty composed so that was good! 

“Hello Harmony, your sister here has told us so much about you! It’s great to meet you!” Harry said giving me his hand to shake

“Yeah apparently you’re the best sister in the world” Liam continued also shaking my hand

“Well I like her already! She’s got a wicked name and she managed to convince her mum to name her sister after one of our songs which takes balls and dedication. Let’s have a hug then luv” Louis blurted out before yanking me into hug

“Wait am I dreaming?! I just hugged Louis Tomlinson and shook Harry Styles’ and Liam Payne’s hands!” I squeaked out

“Haha! Harmony I thought you said that we needed to treat the boys like they are normal just like me and you?” Olivia reminded me giggling and doing some funny dance with Louis

“I know Liv I’m trying, thank you though.” I said sheepishly grinning

“Ah no need to be shy love!” Liam said attempting to be helpful

“Right, we’re just hanging out. Just relax, come sit on the couch with me” Harry said patting the seat next to him

“No funny business Styles, you’ll give ‘er a heart attack if yeh do something weird!” Niall shouted from near the door

“Oi! I don’t do weird things ever! We’re just sitting and having a conversation...” Harry replied “Soooooo Harmony.... I just have one question for you”

“Of course Harry! Anything! What do you wanna know?” I said a little more eager than I would have liked

“Your sister also mentioned...”

“HARRY STOP! We decided we wouldn’t!” Liam cut him off

“What’s he goin on about now?” Louis chimed in

“I NEVER AGREED TO ANYTHING! I Simply said I wouldn’t make her uncomfortable, she looks comfy on the couch does she not?”

“JUST ASK ME HAROLD!” I yelled above the bickering

They all looked at me

“Well... why don’t yeh like us?” Harry said 

Uh oh

“But I do” I replied quickly

“Nuh uh Harmony! Don’t lie! Momma says its a sin!” Thank you Olivia

“I like you all as people!” I defended

“But you don’t like our music?” Liam asked

“Ugh Olivia I should beat you with a stick!” I sighed “Listen, I used to love your music and I still have very special and fond memories with your music but I thought you guys had really broken up when you went on your hiatus okay? And when you came back it just wasn’t the same! I can’t handle this pressure! I’m just gonna go back outside, Liv I’ll peep my head in when they have to go onstage.” 

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I tried my hardest not to just bolt as soon as I got off that bus, the only thing keeping me glued was the fact that I was with my 9 year old sister who would never let me live peacefully if I decided that we needed to leave.

They sounded like they were having a great time probably joking around and being silly. I on the other hand was miserable again and freezing.... again. 

Suddenly I heard the bus door open and shut and saw Harry coming over to where I was standing. Great. Time to get chewed out.

“Harry...”

“No Harmony, just listen for a second.” 

I nodded allowing him to go on

“I’m so sorry...”

“What?”

“I shouldn’t have put you on the spot like tha’ an’ I feel terrible. We knew when we decided to take a break that some of our fans might leave us and I dunno why it still hurts but I’m sure you have your reasons and either way tha’s not what matters. You’re here and I’ve been really rude”

“Harry you’ve been wonderful! I feel horrible. I shouldn’t have come! I wouldn’t have come! I’m sorry. After tonight you won’t ever have to see me or hear from me again, I promise.” I have no clue how I was holding my tears for this long but I was proud of myself for doing so.

“Ah no no no love don’t say that...” he said wiping a runaway tear from my face “I’ve quite enjoyed getting to know you! ‘M glad yeh came! Please come back on the bus? The rest of the lads feel pretty gutted and I think Liam has developed a bit of a crush on yeh” he winked

I couldn’t help but laugh. Harry was far too charming for his own good.

“Alright Styles but only because I can only imagine what sort of influence you boys will have on my sister if I leave you all alone too long!” I said nudging his tummy

“Hey before you guys leave she’s gonna be a master prankster is Louis has his way!” He said holding the door open for me but grabbing my wrist before I walked on

“Yeah Harry?”

“I jus wanted to say thank you for bein honest. Its refreshing and I meant what I said about bein glad yeh came with Olivia. I really want to be friends okay?”

“I’m glad I came too Harry, I would love to be friends. Its been a memorable night.” 

And as I said that my night became even more memorable when THE Harry Styles kissed my cheek before climbing on the bus. 

I had no idea how I was supposed to think straight after that but I did have an idea of how much of a long night this was gonna be.