#but i shant! no sir! i have garbled thoughts! a witch hath placed spells on me! | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

bingobongobonko · 9 months ago

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man enters deep state of neurosis and works in an hour. there are so many evil things i want to say about myself but im gonna hold my tongue and not feed the neurosis cuz its not real and in fact, not true. actually im mentally ill and i dont trust half the things i think cuz it tends to be a fun house version of everything i actually think

#fool's monologue #my favorite pastime is convincing myself im evil and should jump off a building #but i shant! no sir! i have garbled thoughts! a witch hath placed spells on me!#sometimes its kinda like. well if i DID die it would stop my spiraling thoughts and i wouldnt be here #but but but but but #thats neurosis too. i cant logic my way into suicide #thats not happening #you see what i mean #im like. my thouights are tainted #sometimes i really wish i did kill myself. this sucks very much. i wanna die #i wont though. yayyyy i cant. i cant do that i refuse to do it #i will come out of this dragging by my feet but i will wake up tomorrow and i will do it and i wont relapse

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