#but i love thinking about modern au bg3. my fave

[shewhowas39]

october fic recs!

i'm back with my monthly fic rec list! and this time i have quite a mix, many of which are fall or halloween themed! and all are either 1 or 2 chapter fics or a collection of oneshots, so easy to dive right in!

so, without further ado, lets get started.

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the house on the hill by @kittenintheden a 2 chapter fic in which a few of our tadfools (now without tadpoles!) end up exploring a haunted house. it's spooky, yes, but it's also kitten, so it gets sexy as well. perfect for spooky season. (Astarion x f!Tav)

Things That Go Bump In the Night by @busy-baker a very fun, modern university au one-shot in which a few of our faves sneak away from a lecture to go get high int he woods. but something might be waiting for them in there. this was a delight, and i think it's my first Gale/Tav rec i've shared, too!

tell me a tale that's weird and gory by @dalgursbate i love dalgursbate's fics in general, but this oneshot is an absolute gem. the gang exchanges scary stories one night at the Last Light Inn. That's all you need to know. it's fun, atmospheric, and a very quick read. absolutely go give it a read for spooky season!

Khywren's Kinktober 2024 by @khywren it's what it says on the tin! our beloved khywren has been doing kinktopber, with each chapter being a different prompt and featuring Astarion and her Tav, Ysera! every chapter is hot as hell and infused with khywren's usual emotion and sweetness. (Astarion x f!Tav)

say yes, but only if you want to by @amoremagnificentbastard this is a 2 chapter fic in which Astarion and Diana have a very adult conversation about intimacy and comfort in the wake of Astarion's trauma. (and apparently chapter 2 is gonna be sexyyyy). i love this because i love when writers really get into the emotions of a relationship, and this fic absolutely does that! it might not be fall or halloween themed like the others, but i don't care. it just got posted and ther'es no way i could leave it off this list! (Astarion x f!Tav)

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i'd be remiss not to mention that 3 of these come from @thekindredcollective's Fall in Faerun event on AO3! so if you want more fall and halloween themed BG3 fic, definitely check out hte cllection!

[hismercytomyjustice]

Ayyy, I’m back on my bullshit with my BG3 fic! Just about to hit 86k words. Good god.

Still struggling to comprehend that. And still have about two chapters to go. Eh, maybe 1.5. I’m thinking it’ll end around 95k. Maybe 100k. (・ω・｀)………..

Those numbers sound wildly fake. Especially how up until this fic, I’d never written anything longer than maybe 55k.

I can’t believe I’m finally reaching the end. Just a month or two ago, I was convinced I might never finish it with how bad my analysis paralysis was.

The whole reason I even started posting it was because my therapist suggested it as a way to help me out of the OCD spiral it was sending me into. I had fully intended not to post any of it until it was completely finished because I was terrified I’d never finish it.

…def don’t have unfinished shit haunting me decades later from ff.net…

Somehow my most popular fic on there was an InuYasha one from my MAJOR InuYasha brain rot days. God, Sesshomaru lived rent free in my head for fucking YEARS.

I am so fucking distraught with how they decided to handle his character arc. There is SO MUCH Sesshomaru merch out there this day and age. I would have lost my fucking mind as a teen if it had been available then. But I just can’t enjoy it now.

Like, no shade to those who are happy with how he wound up with Rin. I’m just not one of them. I just personally feel like it was a missed opportunity for both of their character arcs and also imho…he was pretty much her dad, so it just doesn’t sit right with me. Especially with how young she was when he took her in…

Would’ve loved to see her wind up with Kohaku like it felt they were going to. I also really loved Sesshomaru and Kagura together too (minus the whole uh…her no longer being around thing).

God my life fucking revolved around that show for literal years. Pretty much all of high school. Maybe some of middle school? I don’t remember 100% when I started watching it.

Idk if it was a special interest or a hyperfocus or what. It doesn’t happen to me often (despite what it might seem like on here). POTO hit me around the same time (when I was 16) and then there was a gap until Pacific Rim with a brief Transformers interlude in between.

The fact it’s happened again recently with BG3, Hazbin, and borderline IWTV is fucking wild to me. Like oh yeah, I get obsessed with shit but there’s obsessed and then there is Obsessed™. It might not look that different from an outside perspective, but good god it is BAD on the inside.

I fucking LOVE IWTV but I’m not hunting down every single microscopic bit of lore I can find for it.

Hazbin and BG3 tho? Good fucking god. I am desperate to consume anything I can fucking find. I am watching interviews, reading veritable dissertations on them, I am thinking about them non-fucking-stop.

You can gauge my true level of derangement by:

1. Have I written fanfic about it?

2. How much fanfic have I written about it?

IWTV is an A Tier obsession for me. BG3 and Hazbin? That shit is S Tier.

Not that I write fanfic for everything S Tier, case in point Stardew Valley, but yeah…there’s a fucking reason I have fucking 7 Pacific Rim fanfics under my belt.

And right now I’ve got a multi-chapter Hazbin crack fic cooking on the side that’s already about to hit 9k words. It is wildly self-indulgent but damn if I’m not enjoying every fucking second of it.

Maybe one day I’ll get back to the modern day Phantom AU I started back at the end of January. It’s got 5k on it. My only real concern with it tho is I worry about drifting too close to Binary, my fave POTO fanfic of all time. And, tbh, a solid contender for my fave fic of all time in general. The number of times I have read that masterpiece.

Fuck. Cannot recommend it enough if you’re a POTO fan. It is a goddamn work of art.

But yeah, being so close to finishing this BG3 fic is such a weird feeling. It kind of makes me want to peel my skin off and flee into the woods? But I think it’ll also be really fucking good for me. And I can’t believe I’m about to do it. It’s fucking terrifying lol. My OCD is NOT HAPPY.

I can take “comfort” in the fact I still have 9 weeks of editing ahead of me tho I guess? (ಥ﹏ಥ) Maybe that’ll shut my goddamn fucking OCD up with its chants of “you never finish anything, you’ll never finish this, best to give up now, easier to give it up than fight through until the end, you should give it up before everyone comes to their senses and realize it’s awful” blah blah blah.

OCD is the fucking WORST.

Weirdly I also have piano to thank for my ability to write again? Because the hardcore fucking OCD spirals that shit was sending me on was what made me realize I constantly have OCD spirals running in the background. It’s making them a fuck of a lot easier to see earlier on too. And that was like…Category 2/3 OCD for me lol. Writing was probably Category 4/5 until recently. There’s other shit that’s solidly a Cat 5 but I don’t ever intend to talk about it on here. That’s what I have my therapist for! Yay, therapy!

It is truly fucking wild seeing an OCD specialist though who is just like “oh, your big scary brain is not as big and scary as it wants you to think.” Like that was one of the biggest “holy shit” moments I had when she was walking me through the stages of OCD spirals and I was just like…I never saw the pattern before. But there it was. Spelled out in black and white on a little fucking worksheet.

Fucking insane.

Tumblr has helped me so fucking much too by making it easy for me journal about it all regularly. I don’t always post what I journal, but it helps me see the forest for the trees regardless. And by forcing myself to “share” shit, I’m chipping away at the part of my OCD that fucking thrives on avoidance and self-consciousness about this shit. Because you’re not supposed to avoid OCD thoughts. That just makes ultimately them worse. So I share them on here knowing there’s like a 1% anyone will ever read any of this, but it’s enough to take away some of the fear/shame/avoidance that would otherwise add fuel to the fire so.

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It’s all not as big and bad and scary and awful as my OCD makes it out to be in the confines of my noggin. It’s fucking hard sometimes, sharing some of this stuff because it’s embarrassing and awful and stupid. There’s nothing logical about OCD thoughts and knowing that makes it even fucking worse.

Like… I know the entirety of the internet isn’t going to just show up one day and tell me my writing is shit and I should quit. Logically. My OCD, however… It makes a lot of compelling arguments to my little lizard brain that are a lot harder to ignore.

Like how I almost didn’t sign up for piano classes at all because my OCD told me I’d never practice and I’d be wasting the teacher’s time and if I then quit I was frivolously playing with part of their livelihood and therefore a terrible fucking person. Would I say that to someone else? Absolutely not. That’s all absurd. Did I spend weeks agonizing over it in my noggin? Abso-fuckin’-lutely I did. And it didn’t even occur to me it was batshit until I finally brought it up to my husband and realized “wait one goddamn second, this is an OCD spiral, isn’t it?”

Lololol. The “joys” of mental illness! But hey, at least the therapy seems to be working. One step at a time baybeee!

[mikuchan]

Throwing you the reverse card: BG3 and Dragon Age 😉

:D

BG3

The first character I first fell in love with: this is kind of cheating, but I made my girl Sabine in early access and then didn't stop thinking about her for the like 2 years or so it took for the actual game to come out. I still love her. Otherwise hmm in my first playthrough I really liked Astarion and Alfira

The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: I was actually super meh about Minthara at first. It took a little more time + learning her character to get into her. I also hated Shadowheart in EA because she was rude and I took it personally LOL they're both big faves now obviously

The character everyone else loves that I don’t: Gortash... there are a lot of other villains that have much better hair

The character I love that everyone else hates: Maybe Araj Oblodra, she had some controversy going in the fuckable bg3 character poll. I also really like Yenna, I see a lot abt how annoying she is but I think she's so sweet.

The character I used to love but don’t any longer: Astarion...I still like him, but after playing the game a few times/ways other characters just resonate with me more

The character I would totally smooch: Mizooorrrrraaaaaaaaaa

The character I’d want to be like: I'm not sure! Maybe Karlach, she has a good attitude

The character I’d slap: most of the druids...Volo...Aradin

A pairing that I love: I'm still on my Minthara/Alfira train, also deep in the Minthara/Florrick fan club right now (and this modern au!). Alfira/Lakrissa, Isobel/Aylin, Danis/Bex, Shadowheart/Nocturne, Karlach/Wyll, all very good pairings that I adore too. I've also been reading Mimetoist's Minthara/Halsin fic and loving it, I like that ship a lot.

A pairing that I despise: I don't like Durge/Gortash! I don't like Gortash and I think there are more compelling ships for Durge, like WYLL. Monster hunter hero who won't give up on the one born to be a monster?! Two souls both being forced to follow higher evil powers, mutually loving and supporting each other through that?! Also could go on about my toxic platonic ship of Auntie Ethel/Durge but we'll save it for another day

DA - so I just finished Origins (tetoman playing and me watching/backseat gaming), and have played some Inquisition but not all

The first character I first fell in love with: ✨🥰Cassandra🥰✨ my husband + bff are probably sick of me going oohhhh cassaaaaandra every time one of them mentions Dragon Age

The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: historically I'm not too keen on dwarves but I really like Varric!

The character everyone else loves that I don’t: I think Sera is annoying

The character I love that everyone else hates: idk who the Dragon Age fandom hates lol. probably not hated, but I had never heard of Wynne or Shale in general and I'm surprised, I loved them.

The character I used to love but don’t any longer: n/a since I'm still pretty early in my DA career

The character I would totally smooch: Cassandra... but she doesn't want me 😔✌🏻 so I suppose Iron Bull or Leliana

The character I’d want to be like: Leliana! She is actually my favorite, I liked what I saw of her in DAI and now that I saw DAO I love her even more!

The character I’d slap: idk probably Solas

A pairing that I love: I like Iron Bull x Dorian! and the mage guy my husband and I made x Morrigan lolol

A pairing that I despise: n/a for now, not enough knowledge of popular DA ships

[idyllic-affections]

🌻 i see anon questions and run to answer HEHEHEHEH there are two games actually that i love but dont talk much/dont write much...

i talk about baldur's gate 3 like. shit ton. to my friends. about my bg3 oc especially and even now im currently brainstorming lore stuff for mine and my friends ocs for modern au. and its Chaos. but i cant sadly play the game cuz of disk space and money n also the i find my fav characters kinda complicated to write so i wouldnt dare to write and butcher them up 😔

fandom i both dont talk and write tho would be the entire nier series....... dont get me wrong i Love. nier. would commit crimes even /lh but i talked everything i can talk about to my friends already and once again the characters are complicated to write, so i just chill in silence with my love for nier characters 😔😔😔

that's so real, my best friend keeps hitting me with the bg3 rambles. i think she wants me to play bg3 you guys (i do not have a ps5) (i do not like pc gaming) (sad)

the not wanting to butcher your faves? that is ESPECIALLY real i am so afraid of butchering my faves all the time 💔💔💔💔 the curse of wanting to write vs. not wanting to butcher your faves and their nuances