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lets-talk-spirituality · 2 years ago

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I'm struggling with going and living in abroad eu.. and it's literally impossible for me but I know I'm meant to go like my whole life and where I live I cannot do it anymore and nothing to do anymore here I've been born in wrong place and more but I wanna bother and spill lots of the issues here rn you know .. soo can I ask a reading on this based on this topic without telling or asking much because I will have and gonna ask my questions later with your reading please if it will be okay to ask more after 🥺 thank you 😭😕 - Leo sun and rising and cancer moon is my big three (I saw people do it idk if will it help but 🙈)

What immediately came to mind is that what you think so strongly that you want is connected to the past version of you that first wanted it. Let me unpack that. Sometimes we hold onto wants we first wanted years ago and we’re afraid to let them go and discover what the current or even future version of us wants. Because we’ve made this desire part of our self identity. You identify as a person who wants to move to Europe and it’s part of your self perception that you were meant to be born somewhere else and that you’re meant to go there. But what if that is you refusing to accept that where you were born is exactly where you were meant to be born and where you are is exactly where you’re meant to be. Are you using your dream of moving to Europe to avoid the truth of where you are? Are you escaping from your present? What do you think is in Europe that isn’t where you are and how can you bring that to where you are?

Usually we envision when we move somewhere we will become a different person but you can become that person now. It’s natural as you evolve and grow for your wants to change. And if you are still living out of sync with your authenticity, what you want may be coming from a less than authentic place. I never wanted to move to Hawai’i. I would’ve never wanted that for myself. But it’s so deeply where I’m meant to be right now. You can’t manifest what you don’t know exists! What if what the universe wants for you is more than you can even imagine but by you doggedly holding onto the belief that you are meant to go there, you are blocking the universe from giving you something that actually would ultimately be better suited for you? You know the saying rejection is divine protection. Well that also has to do with things in life not working out. It fucking sucks and hurts but years later you see why it had to be that way. I felt that way about not being able to finish my education in California.

What you’re being asked to do is accept what is and work with what you have to create what you envision your life being, bring it into being. If you want to go to Italy because the fantasy is that you try all these cool espresso shops, you can bring that energy into the present by going to cool coffee shops where you are, or learning how to brew your own espresso. This is how you jump timelines like I mentioned in a longer post.

I’m not saying you aren’t meant to move to Europe but I’m saying that you are blocking it by holding so deeply to these beliefs that you created from a different version of yourself and that until you can bring the energy of who you think Europe will shape you to be nto the current moment, it’s going to be a struggle. The belief that things have to be hard is just that, a belief. With Hawai’i for example, it moved so fast and easily. I applied in middle of June was called back late June, interviewed in July, got the position in July and moved in August. Everything was provided for me. It was like a domino effect, everything just worked out step after step. Sometimes with sheer willpower you can make things happen but when you live in universal flow, things flow. Looking back the universe gave me signs for months but I was holding so deeply to this other idea of where I would move that I didn’t even recognize the signs until Hawai’i was in front of my face. I wonder what your focused vision on moving to Europe is causing you to miss.

#channeled insight #channeled message #channeled reading

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xiaophobic · 3 years ago

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tyty toki !!! oh dear and anyone else who tagged me as well i can’t see all the rbs

𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄. tag 10 people! ( i dunno if i can LOL )

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐅𝐄𝐋𝐋 𝐈𝐍 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 — oh my god okay i actually think it was xinyan and venti!! they were the reasons i started playing yET I STILL DONT HAVE VENTI he fucking hates me i stg. but i saw edits of both of them and i was like 😱😱 SO COOL

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐄𝐗𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐀𝐒 𝐌𝐔𝐂𝐇 𝐀𝐒 𝐈 𝐃𝐎 𝐍𝐎𝐖 — LITERALLY DILUC I DONT KNOW HOW I GOT HERE???? I ALWAYS THOUGHT HE WAS FINE BUT THEN I STARTED WRITING AND I GUESS I DID IT TO MYSELF 💔 oh and thoma because i literally said i didn’t like him and. look where we are

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐒 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐈 𝐃𝐎𝐍’𝐓 — signora? ………bUT I MEAN LIKE I DONT NECESSARILY NOT LIKE HER i was just very appalled and upset when she kicked venti and i still haven’t gotten over that ABSHABSHA

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐇𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐒 — DILUC!!!! like yeah okay i get it his in game model isn’t the best and i guess he could stand to be happier or whatever BUT I DONT GIVE A FUCK and of course you’re free to not like any character but the only instances i’ve had with REAL diluc antis are when i bring up how much i like him. and then they start trashing him. what do you gain from hating on something i just told you i loved 😦

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐃𝐎𝐍’𝐓 𝐀𝐍𝐘𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄 — sigh…scaramouche. okay but i feel like i will always be at ends meet with him because he’s fucking evil and like MY MORAL COMPASS but i really like hiS VOICE AND. i have no excuses for myself because HES THE REASON TEPPEI IS DEAD AND I WILL NEVER GET OVER TEPPEI!!! but if he’s ever made playable and gets a redemption arc i might forgive him

𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐄𝐋𝐄��𝐄𝐍𝐓 / 𝐕𝐈𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍 — anemo & pyro !!!

𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐖𝐄𝐀𝐏𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐘𝐏𝐄 — claymore 😳

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐓𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘 𝐒𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐂𝐇 😩 — INHALES sucrose, diluc, itto, thoma, xiao & kokomi :D

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐒𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐋𝐄 𝐃𝐎𝐖𝐍 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇, 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐘, 𝐋𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 — AN ACTUAL MARRIED LIFE??? okay sucrose, diluc & thoma. the list has been narrowed because i actually haven’t considered married life with the rEST HMMM NEW HC IDEA!!!

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈’𝐌 𝐒𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐅𝐎𝐑 — rn??? ITTO RRRRRR ARFA RF ARF

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈’𝐃 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 — albedo because he gets to work with sucrose all day 😔

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐒𝐋𝐀𝐏 — DAIN FOR FUCKING JUMPING THROUGH THE PORTAL WHILE HE WAS STILL CARRYING THE DAMN EYE OT WHATEVER IT IS HE HAD THAT THE ABYSS ORDER WAS AFTER HE LITERALLY PLAYED RIGHT INTO THEIR HANDS BY DOING THAT

𝐀 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐌𝐈𝐓 𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐒 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 — childe absolutely no questions asked i want all the tension while we hide from our enemies yupp!!!

𝐀 𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐈 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 — OHMYGOD ZHONGLUC & CHAEYA BECAUSE THINK ABOUT HOW AWKWARD DOUBLE DATES WOULD BE WAHSGAHAABAHA

𝐀 𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐈 𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐒𝐄 — i once saw this awful awful thing that was bennett x literally every ADULT woman in the game 😕 so whatever the hell that monstrosity was (oh && obvs kaeluc)

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐒! — OHMYGOD I THINK LIKE ALL MY MOOTS HAVE ALREADY BEEN TAGGED BECAUSE IM SO LATE WAHHH op i’m so sorry i cannot continue it on :((

𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐍 𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐀𝐂𝐓 | 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐆𝐀𝐌𝐄.

𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄. tag 10 people!

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐅𝐄𝐋𝐋 𝐈𝐍 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 — xiao. (since launch after seeing his beta leak, i saved up JUST FOR HIM. i still main him but that’s gonna change when itto comes out ahem what?)

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐄𝐗𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐀𝐒 𝐌𝐔𝐂𝐇 𝐀𝐒 𝐈 𝐃𝐎 𝐍𝐎𝐖 — zhongli. (i swear he is such a kind man, i adore him ngl he’s someone i would definitely entrust my safety/life to)

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐒 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐈 𝐃𝐎𝐍’𝐓 — raiden. (the reason why i don’t like her is because she killed tomo/kazuha’s friend, and then almost killed tohma and the traveler TWICE)

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐇𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐒 — scaramouche. (i don’t think everyone necessarily hates him, but can find him obnoxious and destructive)

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐃𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐀𝐍𝐘𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄 — (i can’t really think of anyone tbh with you? i mean i still love xiao, kazuha and scaramouche but they’ve been knocked down on their pedestals as soon as i heard about itto and saw him)

𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓 / 𝐕𝐈𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍 — cryo and hydro.

𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐖𝐄𝐀𝐏𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐘𝐏𝐄 — pole-arm and claymore.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐓𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘 𝐒𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐂𝐇 😩 — arataki itto. (HAVE YOU SEEN THIS SEXY BITCH??!)

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐒𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐋𝐄 𝐃𝐎𝐖𝐍 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇, 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐘, 𝐋𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 — arataki itto. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈’𝐌 𝐒𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐅𝐎𝐑 — arataki fucking itto.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈’𝐃 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 — yoimiya/ayaka. (so carefree and positive i wish i was more like that instead of stressing over every little thing)

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐒𝐋𝐀𝐏 — scaramouche. (and then kith him afterwards, ik he’s into that shit)

𝐀 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐈 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐌𝐈𝐓 𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐒 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 — scaramouche. (need i elaborate?)

𝐀 𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐈 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 — (i don’t really ship characters but tohma x ayaka or kazuha x tomo)

𝐀 𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐈 𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐒𝐄 — (i don’t really ship like i said but i can’t think of any that i would despise.. probably kae**luc because that’s not okay or adults shipped with minors)

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐒. — @oikadiors @genshinarchives @noirkkat @permanentlyexhaustedowl @xiaophobic @luventi @3rdgymbros @valberiyah @sketchydainsleif @cursedraiden

and anyone else who wants to play feel free to tag others

#atlas.games #me & my scaramouche hatred but also scaramouche love #enemies to lovers but it takes like 89 chapters to finally get to where i stop hating him #THEY BETTER REDEEM HIM

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