#but i hve.. never crushed on anyone before. just know i like girls

[sugarkinky]

Gamers gotta game

Pairing: Gamer!jungkook x Nerd!Reader x Fuckboy!Jimin Genre: Future smut, fluff and angst (the holy package). Warnings: None in this part, actually.

A/N: This is my very first fic posted on here, please give me any kind of feedback you feel I might need. Not edited v. 

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PART 1

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7:34 am

You was almost late when you jumped out of bed and made it to the bathroom, your first class starts at 8:15 and you still had to walk for 20 minutes to get there. This left you with an empty stomach and a lack of caffeine for the rest of the morning, the class itself wasn't bad but you couldn't pay much attention to Mr. Patrick talking about some impossible function. After what felt like days, you were finally lunching with your friends on the cafeteria.

"Y/N, how could you forget my skirt?" Kenny said with her puppy eyes. You promised her you would borrow her some clothes that your mom insisted on buying for the sake of you "going out more".

"Sorry K, can't you pick it up tomorrow?" Your month were already full of sandwich.

"I guess it will do... Are you sure you won't come tomorrow?"

"Yeah, I'm not the frat party type, you know it" And specifically not this one, the Beta Tau Sigma were a fucking no-no for you after your first party with them on freshmen year. This guys are just crazy and loud as fuck.

Since it was a Friday, you made plans to watch some documentaries and order pizza with some wine. It was just perfect. 

Well, almost perfect if it wasn’t for the hungover from the cheap wine the day after. This was a typical Saturday afternoon, Kenny knocked at your door to hang out with you and you guys chatted about school stuff and about her crush that is supposed to be at the party. 

“What if he is already with other random girl and I don’t even know?” You stared at Kenny’s eyes with a scowl in your face. 

“What makes you think like that?”

“I don’t know, Jin is a very popular guy and older than us, from what I know he has no reason to tell me the truth.”

“So he has no reason to lie to you as well, dummy.”

And the afternoon passed like that, Kenny was already at the door when you shout to her:

“Get home safe bitch!“

“And you stay safe in yours sweetheart!“

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(1:23)Kbae: bich, wasuuuuupp

The sudden noise scared you but you got up from the couch to go catch your phone in the kitchen table. 

(1:24)You: Are you ok?

Kbae: I thik I lost m cell 

You: No, you didn’t

It was a little late for you to deal with drunk Kenny but a side of you were worried that she wasn’t home yet.

You: Where are you?

Kbae: Im los at the bathroom 

You: Your bathroom?

Kbae: nooo im PRTYING LOL

Ok, now you are officially worried she’s going to get her head in the toilet at any moment.

You: Is anyone with you??

Kbae: no that bitc left m

So you remembered that Lisa, Kenny’s friend was there. You try to reach her with no success. You can’t believe she’s getting you out of the comfort of your couch because of her low alcohol tolerance, that dumb bitch…

You: Don’t move a single bone, I’m coming and you will pay me for this later.

The uber was almost there when you received the reply.

(1:50)Kbae: bt I hve no mony

The BTS house wasn´t that far from your place, but it was enough time for you to start regretting your decision. The single thought of a place full of people and loud noise was making you really anxious. When the Uber arrived you took at least 5 minutes getting out of the car, you knew something bad was going to happen with the bad luck you had.

The entrance had just two guys that, from what you guess, should be the security or something like that. You go straight to the door but you fail on not getting attention from the two.

“Hey, do we know you?” The blond guy ask you just when you were getting in.

“Probably not, I’m not the party type. Just here to pick up my friend.”

The blond guy look to the other that seem a little waisted.

“Yeah? What’s her name?” The waisted one shout at you.

“Kenny.”

They look at each other with a little surprise and the blond one say:

“The last time I saw her she was upstairs, are you sure she asked you here?”

“Hyung, let her in, I know her.” The voice comes from inside and you recognize it from your Contemporary Literature class, It’s Namjoon. You never thought he was into frat parties…

“Hi Y/N, I’m sorry for Yoongi and Hoseok here. They are just making sure you aren’t someone from a rival frat or something.” I laugh at the thought of it.

“It’s okay, have you seen Kenny?” You say as a proof of what he’s saying, Namjoon and Kenny are in the same major and maybe he would know where her dumb ass is.

“Not really”

When you get upstairs looking for her you see something you were afraid of seeing, but you know it was inevitable since it was a BTS party. Your ex, well not really an ex since you never had an actual relationship – what actually made the things worse. Jimin was a typical fuckboy but a smartass one for your bad luck, he was almost better than you in your classes and sweet with you. You didn’t know his fame back then and that led into you falling for someone who just saw you as a fuckbuddy. Since you never told him your real feelings, he never knew the reason for your sudden distance, he probably thought you got tired of him and with time he didn’t reach you anymore. And for it not being awkward, you made sure you didn’t took any classes with him this semester.

There you were standing in front of him kissing someone against the wall, you were just frozen in place when you remembered why you was there: Kenny. You almost run to a corridor that had a door with “WC” wrote on it.

But Kenny wasn’t there, actually there was another couple making out, which made you blush and say a lot of apologies after you saw the face of the guy: Jin. You closed the door and rested at a nearest wall, this night is getting worse and worse.

Ok, just breathe. If she’s not there, where?

You started calling her but she stopped answering you since you got there. You tried Lisa but with no success. So you decided to look downstairs but just when you’re reaching the stairs you collided with someone and thanks to your bad luck it was Jimin, of course.

“Y/N?”

“Hum… Hi.”  

“What are you doing here?”

“Kenny.”

“Oh, she made you come.”

“Yeah, you can say that.”

“Well, do you want some vodka? I know you’re not a big fan of beer.”

“Actually someone is waiting for me, sorry have to go” And you run to the closest door praying for it to be open and for the first time that night things worked out and you got no problem getting in. There was a guy in a computer in the room it took him just a few seconds to notice you.

“Hey! Don’t you know how to read? There is a sign at door saying DO NOT ENTER THIS ROOM you…” and the man sited before you turned his chair to see you.

“I’m sorry, can I hide here for a little?” He was shocked to see that you weren’t, first thing, trying to find a spot to make out – since you were alone – and second, drunk.

With a sad smile he said “Some weirdo is following you?”

I felt bad for lying but it was almost it wasn’t it?

“Yeah…”

“No problem, you can lay on the bed for a while.”

The room was not that big but it had two single beds and a study space with the most expensive-looking computer you’ve ever seen. When you sat on the bed, the guy returned to do something on the pc and put his headphones on again. When you got to see what he was doing you notice he was playing some game, who plays games on a party? Weird. Not that you were in a less awkward position.

“HYUNG, can’t you see the MAP?”

You were startled with the sudden shout and nearly jumped on the bed, then he turned to you and said:

“I’m sorry I didn’t mean to scare you.”

You just nodded and he returned to talk with someone on the game. So you remembered about the Kenny matter, where did this bitch went? You got your phone and text her like crazy, called Lisa and finally you got an idea: her roommate. You call Jisoo and she picks up rather quickly.

“Hello?” Her voice seemed a little sleepy, you must had woke her up.

“Hi, it’s Y/N. I’m sorry for waking you up but I’m trying to find Kenny. Did she go home?”

“Oh, yeah. She arrived here about 20 minutes ago, super wasted and crying. Did something happen?”

Oh, no. Seokjin.

“I don’t really know, but thanks for answering me this late.”

“It’s nothing, any time.”

“Well, good night.”

“Good night.”

Finally, the nightmare is over. Well not really over, you have to get out of this hell before that. So, you get up and go to the door, not really wanting to bother the man on his game. But he heard your steps and turned to you.

“Are you going?”

“Yeah, I’ll try to get home.” And you go back to your way.

“Wait.”

You look at him and he seems a little self-conscious with what he has to say.

“I can take you to the door so you won’t get into trouble with the guy again.” He says that with a hand on the back of his neck. You feel bad for telling him a lie and make him worry about you, he seems nice.

“Ahm, I don’t think its that of a big deal. I don’t want to bother you any more that I already had.”

“It’s no trouble at all, actually I had delivered food and it should be in the way right now.”

“Okay then.” And you two go downstairs to reach the door as you’re praying you won’t see Jimin in the way there. When you got in the balcony you called an Uber and a strange silence got to the both of you.

“Ah.. I didn’t actually got your name.”

“It’s Jungkook, and yours?”

“I’m Y/N, thanks for letting me hide on your room.”

“Oh, it’s nothing.”

And the silence came again…

“Ahm… Is it your first party here? I don’t remember you from before.”

“Well, I’m not much of a party goer kind of girl.” He laugh at that and your face turned into a frown.

“I’m not laughing at you, I don’t like parties that much too as you could see.” You smile at that, yeah playing games wasn’t much of a party activity.

“Why do you live on a frat then?”

“That’s what I ask myself every day.”

That’s when your car arrived and both of you said your goodbyes.

(3:36) Jimin: Hey, missed seeing you.

 A/N: Thanks for reading, I’ll try to do part two if this one succeed. Send me a message I’d love that.  

[skunkpixels]

May or may not be some form of aro but the environment this site had harbored for that kind of experimentation is hmmmmmm scary

[pacifymebby]

Hiya bestie! So the bleeding/spotting has stopped completely for now. So that’s good. But I’m still a little shaken up about the changes seeing as I started having sex almost two months ago and have had multiple regular cycles (my cycles are short that’s why I’ve had multiple) since then so if it was what you’d said about when you start having sex you’d think it wouldn’t be quite so delayed?

But I just wanted to come by to say I did a pathetic thing and went to the bar we met at and waited around to see if he’d show up and of course he didn’t. However, I did meet a couple girls who were super sweet and watched my drink for me while I peed! And then they invited me to join them and we had a great time talking and joking around!! The one girl was quite cute but I don’t think she’s gay lol. For real though they really brightened up my night because I spent like three hours there journaling about him writing a letter I’ll never send. Maybe this was fate because I was actually planning on going on Saturday not yesterday and if I did I wouldn’t hVe met those girls! We might even go out some time which would be nice! Maybe the end of our relationship doesn’t have to be the end of my social life after all!!

Thanks for all the help girlie I know it must not be easy to hear me moan on and on about this guy who’s obviously not very good for me. I guess it’s just the end of my first love and I don’t know how to handle that quite yet. Is it okay for me to say that word? Love? It feels right to me and my feelings about this all and him but at the same time it doesn’t feel like the appropriate word to use just because it was so early on in the relationship? - age gap crush anon

Hi lovely, I'm so glad you got to have that positive experience and I hope you go out with them sometime, that's such a nice wee twist of fate and you should definitely try and make the most of it!!

I think if your period has worried you and you find the changes to be abnormal then you should consult your doctor. It probably isn't anything to worry about but it's better safe than sorry and it'll help you to be less anxious about it if you have a doctor talk to you about what could be going on.

I think first loves and relationships are a big thing and you experience a lot of strong emotions. I know u felt a LOT of strong feelings of attachments, adoration and perhaps a kind of love in my previous relationships. It's something me and B have talked about before where like, we don't think we've ever actually been in love before, but we have felt very strong feelings that at the time, have felt like love because they were the strongest feelings we'd ever felt about anyone before. But now we compare those feelings to what we feel for eachother and its like wow, this is some different shit.

But also the feelings you had, if you wanna call them love and thsts the best way to describe them then you should, you went through a lot of pivotal moments in your life with him, he was your first kiss and first time, you fell hard pretty fast and we're really wrapped up in eachother for a while. It was intense and I think you should call it what it feels like.

[preservationandruin]

The Tower

Here it is. The big one. The one we’ve all been waiting for. Sadeas and Dalinar’s joint-plateau assault on the Tower. 

BRING IT. Alliances, betrayal, freedom, the truth--or part of it--about Jasnah, the truth--or part of it--about Voidbringers, a strange arrival, and the end of the book. 

Dalinar is so hopeful this might be the turning point of the war, and in all honesty it could have been, had Sadeas not been an asshole. 

The Tower is really strange in many ways for the Shattered Plains--covered with rock formations. Is it where the teleportation to Urithiru happens in the next book? I can’t remember. It definitely seems like it might be. 

Anyway, Dalinar is still hopeful and it’s still crushing if you know what’s going to happen. I remember when I first read this, I had an idea Sadeas was going to pull something, but the moment he told his army to pull back still astonished me with the casual cruelty of it. 

And Dalinar does offer a quick prayer for the bridgemen, which is nice of him. All these moments with Dalinar looking at Kaladin or Kaladin looking at Dalinar are very interesting here, and pave the way for the ending in a great way as well as stitching the plots together. Also, we’ve started flipping perspectives more often--a sure sign you’re getting to the end of a Sanderson book. 

Also, while Dalinar is crossing, Sadeas is keeping his men in the area with the bridgemen. Interesting. Dalinar and Adolin have begun their attack. Gloryspren are spreading around Dalinar. They’re winning. He’s so optimistic, feeling as though he’s truly living. And then the thrill gets cut off again as he realizes he’s facing a young parshendi boy. or girl. Dalinar assumes a boy, but Alethi tend to assume men do all the fighting. 

And then a second Parshendi army arrives. And then Sadeas’ army pulls back, not alerting them, not doing anything. And taking the bridges. 

back to Kaladin. He Notices that Sadeas is retreating, is confused, and then sees that Dalinar’s group has been stranded. Kaladin: “This was treachery on a grand scale, terrible enough that it made Amaram’s betrayal of Kaladin seem trivial.” Kaladin is even close enough to see Sadeas just turn away from the battlefield with a note that he always said Dalinar’s honor would get him killed one day. 

seriously FUCK THAT GUY

Adolin is taking this time to, while fighting, unload a massive and well-earned “I told you so” on Dalinar. Dalinar even knows Sadeas well enough to know the lies that Sadeas will tell when they get back to camp. Dalinar is just staring at Sadeas like I saved your fucking life, you piece of shit. 

Dalinar is too good of a person. Tactically speaking, he should have left Sadeas to die, although of course that would be hardly better than what Sadeas is doing at this moment. (Still better; it wouldn’t be planned treachery.) 

And Adolin finally takes a moment to cut off Dalinar’s self-incrimination to say it’s not his fault, because what would hve have done differently? Become like Sadeas? That’s not the answer. And Dalinar lets this settle him--comes to terms with the fact that his guilt was, essentially, selfish. He’s no longer uncertain. 

Jesus, we are all so lucky that Kaladin has honor. 

Dalinar gets his “today is not that day” moment: “It is time for us to fight. And we do so not because we seek the glory of men, but because the other options are worse. We follow the Codes not because they bring gain, but because we loathe the people we would otherwise become. We stand here on this battlefield alone because of who we are. Death is the end of all men! What is the measure of him once he is gone? The wealth he accumulated and left for his heirs to squabble over? The glory he obtained, only to be passed on to those who slew him? The lofty positions he held through happenstance? No. We fight here because we understand. The end is the same. It is the path that separates men. When we taste that end, we will do so with our heads held high, eyes to the sun.” (note: one could say, it’s the journey that’s important, not the destination.) 

“I am not ashamed of what i have become! Other men may debase themselves to destroy me. Let them have their glory. For I will retain mine!”  I feel that this speech would be more effective with “FUCK YOU, SADEAS” at the end, but it’s pretty great. 

Bridge Four is on the retreat. They’re slower. “The sheer awful audacity of what Sadeas had done twisted at Kaladin’s insides. He thought what had been done to him had been horrible. But here, Sadeas callously condemned thousands of men, lighteyes and dark. Supposed allies. That betrayal seemed to weigh as heavily on Kaladin as the bridge itself.” 

Rock even makes the point that it’s their shame as well--they were following orders, but everyone and their mother knows that’s not a reason. It never has been, it’s just the justification of cowards who didn’t do anything when people were morally repugnant. 

Kaladin also notices that this is the perfect time for them to escape, but decides he’s going to stay behind. 

And then he sees Syl, the size of a human, looking back at where Dalinar’s army is, with the expression of a child watching a brutal murder. And Kaladin realizes that they have a bridge. They have a bridge. 

And Kaladin doesn’t want to put his neck out for a brightlord again. Not after last time. But...Dalinar always fights at the front. And he remembers Lirin’s words: Someone has to start caring. And Dalinar came to help Kaladin’s men when he didn’t have to.  Life before Death. Strength before Weakness. Journey before Destination. Helping Dalinar is what’s right. 

And all of Bridge Four agrees to go with them.  Kaladin yells “BRIDGE UP” and the others cheer. “With a shout, he led his men in a charge back toward that abandoned blue banner.” 

I love this series’ take on honor, by the way. You don’t need to forgive your enemies. You just have to do the right thing in spite of them. I can get behind that. 

Dalinar and Adolin are getting beaten. Dalinar doesn’t have the thrill, and is glad for that. And then Dalinar, looking toward Sadeas’ army...”Blood of my fathers, what is that?

That is, apparently, the only other person on the Shattered Plains with a sense of fucking honor. Kaladin saved so many lives with the decision to go back. 

“This is my choice, he thought as the Parshendi archers formed up. It’s not some angry god watching me, not some spren playing tricks, not some twist of fate. 

It’s me. I chose to follow Tien. I chose to charge the Shardbearer and save Amaram. I chose to escape the slave pits. And now, I choose to try to rescue these men, though I know I will probably fail.” 

Along with Dalinar’s speech, this is one of the most motivational and inspiring parts of the books. Someone’s gotta choose to do what’s right. And Kaladin also draws like 50000 arrows all into his shield and fucking explodes it. The Parshendi of course noticed the EXPLOSION OF LIGHT as ALL OF THE ARROWS WENT TO ONE SHIELD and call him “Neshua Kadal” --possibly a term for Radiant. Or Windrunner. In any case, they fucking ran. 

Kaladin is pulled to the side while the others carry the bridge, but it’s not enough. He has a flashback to Tien’s death--to the horrible “Turn a liability into an advantage whenever you can” when the advantage is using children as meat shields. 

And Lopen had brought a single spear onto the battlefield. And the fact that Parshendi wear stormlight-infused beads as jewelry--well, that turns out not to be a great idea. 

And he speaks the second ideal-- “I will protect those who cannot protect themselves.” 

Kaladin fucking explodes with energy, tossing the Parshendi around with stormlight, and then he starts actually fighting. 

Teft notes that stormlight doesn’t increase skill-Kaladin is a master of the spear all on his own. He’s just had his abilities amped up to ludicrous levels, making him a one-man army. Fortunately, Teft notes they’ve gotta start fighting to stop the Parshendi from getting the bridge--and also to get Kaladin an unbroken spear, because he’s doing all of this with a broken one. 

Dalinar also notes that the bridgemen are fighting, which dumbfounds him. Welcome to life around Kaladin Stormblessed, Dalinar--literally anyone is a threat because he trains everyone he knows with a spear. “It was the most amazing, most glorious thing Dalinar had ever seen.” 

Dalinar immediately sends Adolin to give them support with the Cobalt Guard. 

AND ESHONAI APPEARS FUCK YEAH. Although Dalinar thinks she’s a dude. Dal, no. 

Kaladin issuing battlefield promotions to lighteyes, but frankly are you going to argue with the person who basically singlehanded defended your one escape? Yeah thought not. 

Also, we get the first time Kaladin runs in to help Adolin fight a superior force. Kaladin yells at Adolin to leave, gets asked who he is, and replies with “I’m the man who saved your life.”  And then he starts ordering Adolin along, along with promising that he’ll go in for Dalinar, which he does. Adolin agrees, because he almost can’t walk anymore. 

So Kaladin goes in for Dalinar, along--actually--with Gallant the horse, who refused to leave Dalinar behind. And Dalinar, for a moment, thinks that Sadeas came to save him. 

Nope, it’s Kaladin. Dalinar actually sees him glowing, and Kaladin--fortunately--knows how to fight a Shardbearer, and thus gets Eshonai seriously hurt--and the others realize he’s gotta be a Surgebinder and start freaking out. Dalinar assumes that he imagined Kaladin glowing. Also, Dalinar was going to try to kill Eshonai, but Kaladin makes the eloquent and pissed-off point that Dalinar’s army won’t leave without him, Kaladin’s crew won’t leave without Dalinar’s army, and Dalinar needs to get on his fucking horse and go.

Dalinar also notices that the bridge crew are coordinated and disciplined, and has to go over and talk to them. Also, he notices Kaladin is trained in field medicine.  Dalinar’s like “why did sadeas send you back” and Bridge Four is like lmao he didn’t

Also, Dalinar promises to repay Kaladin if Kaladin and crew return with him, and Kaladin--cautiously--accepts. 

Meanwhile, Navani is pissed. 

She notices that Sadeas’ force really doesn’t look like one that just suffered a disaster (because, spoiler, they fucking didn’t) 

Level of Navani’s irritation and stress: “What would sadeas do if she just started screaming?” 

Honestly, that would be great. Also, Renarin has arrived, and is terrified. Sadeas offers his condolences at the loss of Dalinar, Renarin gasps, and Navani is furious. She just says “You will explain” and fucking stares down Sadeas. It makes him nervous, as well it should. Someone brings a chair, Navani refuses it, and Renarin--who’s having a panic attack, understandably, takes it and Sadeas, being an ableist asshole, starts Judging Him. 

Saying it right now, Sadeas couldn’t have managed half of the things Renarin has at this point in the story. He’s a weak asshole. Navani realizes that Sadeas had all of the bridges. And demands a large brush. And in blood-colored ink, starts painting on the ground, and paints a prayer for Dalinar. A giant glyph saying Justice in the center of Sadeas’ area, set on fire. 

Navani is the best. 

And then a runner delivers the news to Sadeas that whoops, the army is coming back. 

Hey, Sadeas, turns out having no honor got you exactly jack shit. 

Dalinar tries to send the bridgemen--who are wounded--back to his camp, but if Dalinar is confronting Sadeas, Kaladin is staying with him. And the other bridgemen don’t want to leave Kaladin.  And Dalinar is also positive that the discipline of the bridgemen is entirely because of Kaladin and completely not because of Sadeas. 

And then they see Renarin and Navani waiting for them. Renarin is actually outwardly joyful and we get Dalinar hugging Renarin--god bless, this is too pure--and Renarin grabbing Adolin and pounding on his shardplate. God, i love the Kholin Family. 

And then Dalinar and Navani get to embrace, which is heartwarming for them and supremely awkward for Adolin and Renarin who are like uh Uh UH DAD WHY ARE YOU HUGGING OUR AUNT LIKE THAT UM DAD UHHHH

And then we basically get a bit of a confession from Dalinar that he doesn’t give a shit what other people think anymore. And then they look over and see that Adolin and Renarin are Very Uncomfortable. 

Dalinar: Someone had burned a giant “thath” glyph into the courtyard, and Sadeas stood at its center. 

I know the framing here is a little melodramatic but it totally works so I’ll let it slide. Also Sadeas is literally treading on Justice. 

Sadeas is playing this off as “oHHH IM SO GLAD YOURE OKAY MY OLD FRIEND” which is such rank festering bullshit. 

And Sadeas admits that in the end, he just wanted Dalinar gone. And Dalinar tells Sadeas that Sadeas as good as admitted Dalinar was still a threat. 

And Dalinar’s like “yeah these bridgemen are mine.” And Sadeas refuses, at which Dalinar offers a ludicrous sum of money, and Sadeas refuses out of pettiness. And note: Dalinar’s army is also willing to fight to protect the bridgemen who saved them. Dalinar flat up says “Do not press me on this, Sadeas.” 

And Dalinar summons his shardblade. And drives it right into the center of the “Justice” glyph. And he exchanges the blade for all of Sadeas’ bridgemen.

Kaladin, understandably, is like, wHAT THE FUCK, and we get a great exchange:  “What is a man’s life worth?” Dalinar asked softly.  “The slavemasters say one is worth about two emerald broams,” Kaladin said,frowning.  “And what do you say?”  “A life is priceless,” he said immediately, quoting his father.   Dalinar smiled, wrinkle lines extending from the corners of his eyes. “Coincidentally, that is the exact value of a Shardblade. So today, you and your men sacrificed to buy me twenty-six hundred priceless lives. And all I had to repay you with was a single priceless sword. I call that a bargain.” 

And then Dalinar goes to find Elhokar. And beats the snot out of him, and gets him to admit he cut his horse’s girth himself. And then Elhokar is like “...are you going to try to kill me?” 

“Storms, no! I love you like a son, boy.”  Elhokar rubbed his chest. “You....have very odd paternal instincts” 

And then at the end of it all Dalinar is just like “oh by the way I’m dating your mom.” 

(as an aside, please look at this, the comic which has ruined and also made amazing this scene for me: http://dalinarkholin.tumblr.com/post/130292538016/i-just)

And we enter part five, with a Shallan POV, as she puts some things together--Jasnah ate the bread but wasn’t poisoned, Jasnah didn’t notice the jam was bad--and realizes that Jasnah had to be still soulcasting. Without a caster. So she goes to find Jasnah. And flat-out says that both Soulcasters were fake. 

And she also shows Jasnah the picture of the Shadesmar that she drew, and manages to actually leave Jasnah Kholin without words. And Jasnah tries to call a bluff--saying that Shallan is delusional from stress, and Shallan is like, okay, let me prove it, and calls to the cryptics again. The truth she tells is that she’s a murderer who killed her father. 

Jasnah has to soulcast a raft and save her, but it proves Shallan’s point. 

And so Jasnah decides to take her on as a ward in earnest. 

We move over to Szeth, who has been sent to “kill” Taravangian. And so we get that Taravangian is behind several things in this, and we also see his hospital--the one where he kills people to get death rattles. 

And he adds Dalinar’s name to the list. 

Of course, it’s not going to be that easy. I have mixed feelings about the Diagram in general--I’m pretty certain that while it’s the most certain way to save the world, it isn’t the most moral, and that’s where the conflict is. It’s where conflict lines have already been drawn up--do you sacrifice the moral for the pragmatic? Amaram does, although he also has an inflated sense of his own worth. Taravangian does. Dalinar and Kaladin don’t. 

Anyway, Jasnah is now telling Shallan some about soulcasting. She apparently assumed that Shallan was like her, an Elsecaller, but realized that didn’t fit Shallan’s personality at all. And we get the revelation that Parshmen are what remain of the Voidbringers. 

Back to Kaladin; we get that Syl trusts Dalinar, but hates his shardblade. Also, Dalinar made sure Bridge Four got medics before the lighteyed officers, which is remarkable. And also apparently Adolin is still bitter about Kaladin telling him what to do, although he recognizes it was what was smartest. And Dalinar offers Kaladin the position as his bodyguard, with the rest of Bridge Four. 

And Kaladin requests exactly the things he would need for the job, which Dalinar notices. And so Kaladin officially gets the title of “Captain” so Captain Kaladin Stormblessed is ready to go. 

And he gets a Kholin Coat. Dalinar’s own, hand-me-down, with khokh and linil sewn in carefully, and Dalinar explains that he considers the people who wear his colors his family. 

Also, it totally fits Kaladin’s blue color theme. 

And Bridge Four has stew night, because of course they have Stew Night, they’re bridge four. Lopen also thinks being able to glow will get Kaladin girls. Sigzil immediately wants to empirically test Kaladin’s powers. 

Rock suggests throwing Kaladin off a small cliff to help him get a feel for his powers. Kaladin is unamused. And Kaladin recognizes that he’s finally managed to save people. 

It’s a good moment. 

Shallan and Jasnah are going to set out in a ship for the Shattered Plains, to get to the heart of the Voidbringers. She also says that the Ghostbloods are after similar secrets to her, and their overlapping diamond pattern is the same used by the people who interrogated Shallan’s brothers. Shallan admits to Jasnah that her father might have been part of the group. 

Back to Dalinar--and Navani, who is there. It’s a highstorm again. Navani’s also a little pissed at Dalinar for what he did to Elhokar, understandably. 

And Dalinar finally gets face-to-face (Sort of) with Tanavast, we get confirmation that Cultivation can see the future, and Dalinar realizes that Tanavast could never hear him. And Tanavast admits that he is dead. 

And then we enter the epilogue, starting with Wit talking to himself, continuing with his declaration that timing is what’s most valued by people, and ending with Taln showing up, saying he’s failed. 

And then the book ends. 

[thetaylorfiles]

I find it weird that Taylor liked Karlie’s post. Literally the only interaction they’re had. I hve a few theories: 1. Taylor remembers when Karlie and Josh were still just dating / unsure of each other and liked it out of the nostalgia and support of a former close friend Or 2. T&K really did use to date and that was Taylor’s farewell and wish my ex all the best kinda gesture What do you think?

I think that Taylor and Karlie are on cordial terms. I think Taylor wanted Karlie out of her life for the most part. Maybe there was an actual falling out. Or maybe it was just Taylor seeking distance. But I think that after some time, or maybe all along, the super close friendship settled into a very distant barely there friendship, wherein they were not close at all but they were still polite when necessary.

And I think that’s why Karlie can get away with (poor choice of words, but you get what I mean) saying she and T are still friends to interviewers so many times and talking about her. And sending birthday wishes on Insta but now with the most generic captions ever. And how Karlie ended up backstage at Rep and posted the pic of them.

Taylor hasn’t liked or acknowledged or liked any of these things. She has kept her distance. And that’s her overall preferred mode of dealing with her, I believe. I don’t think she wants Karlie in her life after everything that went down.

However, when someone goes through a major life event (marriage, birth of child or death of a loved one), it is polite and the right thing to do for people to acknowledge that if there is any friendship at all. And that is why I think Taylor liked her wedding post.

To not like it could easily be considered a snub and rude. The only way to get away with not liking a Life Event post is to contact that person directly. And I suspect Taylor didn’t want to congratulate Karlie privately so she liked/acknowledged the wedding post instead.

I do this all the time on Facebook/insta with friends that I don’t know well or arent close to anymore or even the very few whom I don’t care for anymore due to something that happened. But I must be cordial and polite to that person because either we see each other at our kids’ school or we have mutual friends. To blatantly ignore everything, including important parts of their life (I.e. life events) is to basically throw down a gauntlet. And I don’t see Taylor wanting to do that. I just see Taylor no longer want Karlie in her life but also not being a dick about it.

This is pure speculation based on the past several years of watching their interaction, or lack thereof. This seems the most likely scenario to me if you take everything we know and have seen into account and think of the most logical and likely answer.

I’ll probably always wonder just a little if there wasn’t more to their friendship because I was a Kaylor for so long. And because they were so into one another, how they gushed over each other publicly in a way that they didn’t do with other friends. But I really think the extent of that was mayyyyybe a girl crush or even a real crush that was never acted on. And even that I think is such a slim to none possibility.

So, no. I don’t think they were ever together. The most I could ever see happening is a drunken makeout whilebplaying truth or dare at a party or while drunk and dancing and everyone being a little overly sexual with one another. I’ve kissed and made out with my girlfriends before when out orbin and having had too much to drink or being in the middle of young debauchery. More than make out sometimes. But I don’t consider any of those instances as me being with them in the real sense of the word. Nor did I have anything but platonic feelings and we went right back to platonic friendships the next day. Fun, crazy stuff happens sometimes. And maybe it did for K and T. Although I doubt it. Mostly because Karlie had a boyfriend at the time. And unless he was cool with a little over the line inappropriate kissing while partying, then I doubt Karlie did it. Or unless they were on and off.

Most likely nothing happened beyond platonic friendship that stayed platonic. But if there was more, then those are the possibilities I’d imagine happening. Not an actual lesbian relationship.

Anyway, enough speculation from me. Anyone else can feel free to chime in on their thoughts of why T liked that post or what could’ve happened between her and Karlie.