#but i have a busy day planned tomorrow and monday / tuesday will probs be very hard since i have RUINED my sleep schedule SJSKS

[goodsgraces]

i'm currently posting opens and i'm gonna get to a few drafts tonight but i may be a little MIA for a few days since i go back to work on monday . . . as always , thank you for your patience !

[atlafan]

Relax

Rucas oneshot au: Riley is in her last year of college, and Lucas is working as a police officer. Their semi new relationship has hit a snag when Riley realizes that not everything has been fair.

Lucas and Riley met during Riley’s senior year of college. They got set up by some mutual friends. The connection was instant, and they made things official within the first month of dating. Riley was studying Media, and was involved with many clubs. Lucas was a police office for a neighboring town right near Riley’s college, so he only lived five minutes from her, super convenient.

His schedule was annoying though. His two days off were in the middle of the week, and sometimes he would work extra shifts. Riley found herself getting annoyed because Lucas always wanted her to sleep over, unless it was a morning he had to be up early for work, but if it was a morning she had to be up early for class, he’d get sad if she didn’t want to stay over. He didn’t understand that it was a lot of work to get ready in the morning. The days Riley had class she didn’t care if she was in sweats, but if she had work, it took her a solid half hour to get ready. All Lucas had to do to get ready was throw on his uniform.

Riley loved Lucas a lot, but this was his first serious relationship, and there were a lot of things he had to get used to, as there were things she had to get used to as well. There was a weekend he went away for a cop thing, totally fine. He wanted to hang out the night he got back, but Riley had already made plans to see a concert, so they made plans to grab lunch the next day. That morning she received a text from him.

Lucas: I got called in early to work...I can’t get lunch :(

Riley: Okay, maybe tomorrow then

Lucas: I didn’t have a choice, if it were up to me we’d still be seeing each other.

Riley: Mhm, I know

Lucas: I have to go in at noon and stay until 4am

Riley didn’t want to answer him.She knew Lucas secretly loved working extra shifts. He had gotten out of working them before, why not now? They called him in on Valentine’s Day and he made a stink about it, so they didn’t make him go in. On Mondays he usually only worked 4pm to midnight. Usually Riley would wait up for him and he would pick her up, but she had class early on Tuesdays, and she had already told him she wouldn’t be available until the afternoon. Their schedules were totally not insync. He sent her another text.

Lucas: I really want to see you

Riley: Me too...I wish we could get a quick coffee or something

Lucas: Me too

Riley checked the time and saw it was only 10:20, plenty of time to meet up for a coffee, but she didn’t want to badger him about it, or ask “why don’t we do that then?”, and a get response like, “I don’t have time” or “I have a lot to do before I go in”, or “I won’t want to leave once I’m with you”. All dumb excuses. Maybe Riley was being too harsh, but she was so annoyed, that she turned her phone off, and sat at her desk fuming trying to get her work done. Part of her wanted to see Lucas walk through the door with a coffee in his hand, but the other part of her knew he wouldn’t do that. He would probably stay in bed for as long as he could, and get to shower, and then leave for work. He claims he misses her, and wants to see her…

She does everything according to his schedule, Riley realized she hasn’t been doing much for herself lately. She always says yes to him whenever he wants to hang out, she figured it was time to start telling him no.

On Tuesdays, Riley has two classes in the morning, and two meetings in the evening. She had the whole afternoon to do whatever she wanted. She wanted to go to the gym. She hadn’t been going as much as she wanted because most of her free time went to Lucas. So after he second class got done, she went right to the gym. Of course he texted her right when she got there.

Lucas: Are we seeing each other this afternoon?

Riley: probs won’t be available until 2...then I have a meeting at 5, then another at 730

Lucas: no dinner together then...what about after the second meeting

Riley: maybe, I have work Wednesday morning and I have some hw to do

Lucas: are you mad at me or something?

Riley: no, I just have my own stuff going on, and I need it to get done. I’m at the gym, I’ll call you later

At around 2, after Riley had showered up, she called Lucas.

“I’m not saying I don’t want to come over, I can come over now for a couple of hours, but I have to be back at school by five.”

“Why are you talking to me like a child?”

“I’m not, I’m just saying sometimes when I tell you I have to be somewhere you say okay, and then you make it very hard for me to leave when I have to go.”

“Because I never want you to go.”

“Look, why don’t you just come get me?”

“I can’t, I’m on my way to the gym. I was gonna go earlier, but one of my buddies got held up. I can get you at like 3:30 though.”

“Why so I can be there for like an hour? I told you I’d only have a couple hours this afternoon.”

“Yeah I know.”

“So couldn’t you go to the gym later?”

“I already told my buddy I’d meet him there Riles.”

“Whatever.”

“So are you coming over tonight?”

“No! I have work in the morning and I want to get a good nights sleep, for the millionth time. I’ll come over tomorrow night.”

“Okay but remember I have work early Thursday.”

“I’m well aware.”

She was absolutely annoyed with him. Whenever he had work early he’d always remind her. It was to make sure there wouldn’t be any funny business after a certain hour so he could sleep. But he was the one with no self control. She’d be fine watching TV and going right to bed, without even cuddling. But him? Lucas would cuddle her, and then they’d makeout, and then they’d do it once or twice, maybe even three times depending on the night, and then he’d spoon her until he fell asleep. But you know, it’s definitely all her.

When Wednesday evening rolled around, Riley wasn’t sure if she even wanted to see Lucas. He would be picking her up soon. She hated having to lug so much stuff with her all the time. She must have asked him a million times by now to buy a spare pillow so she wouldn’t have to bring hers back and forth. What idiot has a queen sized bed with only one pillow? She saw his car pull up, and she walked outside. He got out of the car and took her things from her and put them in the back seat. He took her in for a hug and held her tight.

“God I’ve missed you.” He kissed her deeply, and that just about made all of Riley’s annoyance go away.

“I missed you too.” They got into the car, and headed towards his place.

“I got some groceries earlier so we can cook.”

“That’s great babe, what did you have in mind?”

“I got some potatoes, brussel sprouts, and chicken.”

“My favorite.” She kissed him on the cheek.

After cooking, eating, and cleaning up, they got cozy on his couch. He was like a big, brawny teddy bear, and her favorite thing to snuggle up to. He rubbed her back and played with her hair. She could barely remember why she was angry earlier.

“So, how was your day?” He asks her.

“Long and busy as per usual. Yours?”

“Well I had today off so I slept, went to the store, then I picked you up.”

“That’s all you did?”

“Pretty much. It was nice.”

“You didn’t go to the gym?”

“Nah.”

“Why didn’t you go today instead of yesterday?”

“Because my buddy couldn’t go today.”

“You know you don’t need to go to the gym with someone every time, right?”

“Why are you getting heating?”

“I’m getting heated”, she sits up to look at him, “because you made a big fucking deal about not seeing me, then make plans to go to the gym when you knew I only had a little bit of time to see you, and then today you barely did anything! We could have seen each other yesterday, you could have gone to the gym today!”

“Riley, please relax.”

“Don���t tell me to relax! Do you know how stressful this is? I always want to hang out with you, and my schedule is always all over the place, and I know your job is demanding, but that’s no excuse to not have some wiggle room for me. I’m always rearranging things for you, but you never do it for me, or if I ask I feel bad having to do it, it’s not fair.”

“I always want to see you too, I know this isn’t the easiest situation. I wish you could just m-” He stopped himself.

“You wish what?”

“I wish you could just move in here. Then our paths would cross more, we wouldn’t have to worry about pick up and drop off because you’d have your car here, everything would be easier…”

“You really want to live together already?”

“I don’t know...maybe. For the convenience, yeah. I mean I would love to come home to every night and crawl into bed with you, it would be great. I know you can’t break your lease with the school though, so I never brought it up before.”

“Lucas, I think once I graduate, which is only a few months away, everything will get easier.”

“Would you move in with me, after you graduate?”

“Of course I will, where else would I go?”

They hugged each other for a long time. They loved each other so much, and they both hated getting into arguments like that.

“Do you feel like going up stairs?” He asks.

“Yeah, I do.”

He picked her up and carried her upstairs to his room. He gently put her on the bed and layed next to her. She put her arms around him he rested his head on her chest. This was Lucas’ favorite thing to do, just bury his head into her. She enjoyed holding him as well, she knew he needed it. Being a cop was not easy at all, and this made him feel better. Lucas was never used to someone caring about him the way that Riley did, and he never wanted to lose her.

“I got you something.”

“What?”

Lucas gets up and goes over to his closet. He takes out a pillow and throws it to her.

“Are you serious?”

“Yup, picked it up today.”

“Babe...thank you.”

She opened her arms up and he came back over to her. They started kissing. They would probably both be extremely tired in the morning, but who cares? They were in love.

[theleftoverurl]

So let’s recap the past couple of days because I haven’t for a while I suppose haha.

Had a marathon convo with Nemoss that went from 9am on Monday to 8am on Tuesday rip and because of that I’m currently operating on 1h sleep but I haven’t really felt very tired yet and I think mostly I’m okay, surprisingly.

So this week is the start of like hell study week jam all the notes into your brain type thing but for some reason I don’t feel particularly stressed about it. I have 112 pages of notes to learn so I’m hoping that the stress kicks in soon. I spent most of Monday morning killing time by playing on my phone and pretending to study. I made a study plan and that’s it.

Then at 1pm I got ready for hospy, grabbed a Turkish melt (yom) and found Kate and friends in Dino. They were going to Coog cos it was pretty hot so I waited for them to get ready and walked with them half the way so I could go to hospy. Time to do my SOCA! I was sort of nervous because I it’s a catchup SOCA to make up for the fact that I fucked up the Effective Communications cap so I felt like I had to make it count but didn’t want to be nervous because I felt that would affect my communication with the patient? I like did a quick recap of the history via Google and then met George my assessor. He was super nice and we went to the cardio ward to do it. The first two patients were busy and I almost had to interview a prisoner (which I was not ready to do lol) but luckily the prisoner was asleep. He was with two policemen and I was made really uncomfortable because as a joke when we asked if we could interview him one of the policemen offered to kick him awake and then when he saw our like shocked faces was like “I was joking” quickly and then like laughed but I felt it was awkward because being mean to a sick patient, prisoner or not is kinda rude? Anyway I had the best luck because I ended up interviewing a patient who was a retired nurse so she like knew what I was trying to ask with the history and could fill in gaps when I forgot to ask about things with useful information and she was super friendly so rapport was good. It was probably the most perfect history I’ve ever done, like structure good and everything and it was definitely what I needed to like boost my confidence about the whole situation and remember why I wanna do med and stuff. George was pretty impressed too so I P+-sed my way through the assessment lol. He did say I should’ve been more like relevant with my questions about presenting complaint though, because she was in for breathlessness and I didn’t pick up that that’s a sign of heart failure so didn’t really ask about related symptoms to heart failure. But overall, it was a good history and I was proud of it.

Then I headed up to Edmund Blackett to attend my actual hospital session. We had this nice girl called Emily running the session and she took us to this patient who had serious scoliosis. It was good to practice the hand exam with my newfound confidence and I feel like I really got a lot out of the whole thing. Hei Wai’s history was a bit stilted but it was actually quite good and just the whole thing was good because it’s renewed my confidence for the OSCEs kind of at a good time I feel.

Then I rushed back to college to borrow a charger off Hamish because mine broke and grab Rid’s textbook before tutoring. Tutoring was pretty fun we were doing polynomial division which is fun to like go through the process. Me and Rid both made a stupid mistake with one of the questions and I got so confused lol but overall it was a really good lesson and I really am feeling the bond between myself and all my kids which is just so hard when I think about dropping them next year.

Then on a whim when I got back I thought I’d study on Floor 7 for some company to see if any of my friends were around. It was windy af but stinking hot and Max was holed away in the stuffy stuffy study room but I joined him for like 30min of studs before STUVAC supper! Because it’s official uni study week, Dino feeds us like supper for Mon-Fri this week and J&D do free coffees and honestly it was so lit. Brownies and fresh fruit (for once) and I ripped my undies by deciding I’d drink a large mocha. I knew the coffee would fuck me up but I was just excited about free coffee and toasties and ham and I was talking to Nemo anyway so figured I wouldn’t be like up and insomniac alone. Kate and Vron were there and we actually chilled at supper for a bit because Kate’s finished for the year so she’s so calm and like chill now – like it’s actually a bit freaky how noticeable the difference is when she doesn’t have a single stress cos uni’s over for her. Vron was saying how she needs to sell her clothes cos she’s so poor and I wanted her like nice conservative clothes for hospy so I was like YASSS I’ll come to your room and look.

So we went to hers and I put aside a potential buy pile and she’s gonna bring up more clothes for me to browse next time she comes back from Tamworth. Then we marched up to Kate’s room so I could relieve her of some clothes. I don’t even need more clothes I have plenty I just wanted to cheaply boost my wardrobe and chill with the two of them and procrastinate I reckon. Linley and Hadeel and Nicky G and Claudia joined us in Kate’s room eventually and it was like a whole party!

Eventually we drifted to the commo and I did some actual work but it was getting pretty late by now so I only got through a couple of lectures. Also my computer just blinked out and died and I freaked the fuck out inside a little bit and had to make my notes off Edward Rose’s notes (which I actually think I may prefer doing now anyway lol) but yeah so it took a bit longer. And so I was texting Nemoss about euthanasia ethics because I wanted to show off my tute and I can’t believe he doesn’t like ethics and philosophy cos I feel like we talk that sorta stuff all the time and I was talking just generally to Max and Claudia and Nick and it was such a good time and then we drifted to Claudia’s room and suddenly it was 3am and we were talking some serious shit about annoying people at college (which was really funny because we all agree but can never say) and about how state laws are stupid and some should be federal etc. and then suddenly it was 3:30am and Clauds had fallen asleep with the light on so we thought we should vacate her room and everyone decided to go to bed.

I was still riding my coffee high and had Nemoss so headed back to my floor and omg Riley had vomited all down the corridor. It smelt terrible and he must’ve vomited like 3x down the corridor at least because it reeked and like in a patchy kinda way too. And then I see Riley and I swear I have never seen someone look so fucked in his life he was white as a ghost his eyes were starey and red and he was shirtless holding his shirt in a crumple and there were literally drips of vom dripping off his shirt-ball onto the floor in front of the bathroom. It was disgusting. And he stared at me blankly and then was like ‘Georgia’ and I was like gonna spew from the smell and I was sleep-deprived and like I don’t really like Riley and I was just like rip rip rip I’m gonna bed so I left him to deal with his shit.

His vom was so strong I could smell it from inside my room with the door closed so it was a huge rip. Anyway by then it was getting kinda late to sleep because I had to get up early to meet corky for brekky so I thought I’d just rough it and stay up and like watch my caffeine doses and like crash sometime tomorrow so I was up chilling with Nemoss by phone till 8am when I crashed for an hour.

Corky woke me up by texting me 40min later to see if I was awake to get ready to go to brekky and she’d even researched the bus I had to take and everything I was like wtf. So I dragged myself outta bed and had to shower on the 4th floor because the 5th floor still reeked like shit and I wasn’t entering that bathroom if my life depended on it. 4th floor water pressure is probably the worst in all of college, I discovered, so after an unsatisfactory shower I grabbed my wallet dumped mascara on and dragged myself on a bus to Centennial park.

Queen’s Park Shed was where we ate and it was actually like very small and quaint, not at all what I expected for some reason but it was nice and had just like chill picnic in the park vibes. Corky and I had granola with poached pear and berries and it was like clearly overpriced for $12 for like a bit of muesli, yoghurt and sparse berries but it was healthy, filling and yummy so oh well. I also medicated with a coffee and I reckon that’s why I’ve made it so far tbh. Corky and I had good chats because I haven’t seen her in ages and she was like not as stressed about uni work as usual because she’d purposely like written time off study so we could hang out. It was really really good to catch up and we talked from 10am to 2:30pm in our procrastination type catchup and it was so good we probs would’ve kept talking except I had to get to class by 3 lol.

SG was boring af we watched 2 videos on like bereavement and palliative care. The first was just an explanation of palliative care and the second was following the life of this irish man who had a large stomach sarcoma and was going to die. It was quite emotional but there wasn’t much like discussion on it and as soon as the vids were over we were pretty much allowed to leave. I was so bored and like not coping (but not tired yet, weird) so I let Kuheli like read texts on my phone and it was kind of weird breaching my own privacy like that but at the same time not really caring because I’m just at that stage in my life where I’m really open cos I don’t give like a shit about anything.

After SG we wasted time with Fenton and Nguyen for awhile then Kuheli dragged me to the coffee cart cos she wanted tea. I stayed well away from that coffee cart because I wanted my sleep tonight thank you very much but considering it’s now 1:30am and I haven’t slept it’s all quite moot, isn’t it? And then I bussed off to tutoring with Ella. Kuheli walked me to the busstop which was nice and I almost crashed on the bus but by that time I was dangerously close to my stop so managed to stay awake. Tutoring Ella woke me up too. We made use of the NRICH site link I stole off Wayne when I used to tutor him and we started doing some problem solving. We were only doing extension Year 5 problem solving and she’s year 7 but I felt that like it was easy enough to ease her into the concepts and yet there were still some things which confused her so I think it was a good level to start and maybe we will build on it next time and go a bit up idk. HOWEVER her exams are coming up so I can’t get distracted by my get her to problem solve goals cos she really has to revise all her topics to do well and pass her test like as first priority. Anyway it was nice session and afterwards her Dad dropped me back at Churchies like right near uni so I didn’t have to bus which was so so so fantastic.

I went up to floor 7 because I think whilst I’m studying I should make the most of people being around and soak up some company too and Linley was studying in the study room. I got a decent amount done, but I’ve lost a lotta time due to wasting time on Monday and having breakfast with Courteney like all day today so I’m still behind but not too stressed. Headed down to floor supper and cos I didn’t have lunch or dinner I like went ham and had a double cheese and ham toastie, 2 donuts and fruit and it was honestly so lit. Stayed away from the coffee again though cos I ain’t that mad.

Then back up to the study room and honestly just threw myself into it. Like Max, Claudia and Nicky G were in and out I think but I honestly can’t say what was going on I was so focused. Kate popped in as well and I think her like meeting with Hugh didn’t go great but it was never going to so at least she was a bit prepared? Idk then we moved to the commo again and the chill cycle is repeating again as we speak with the same people. Hamish has lent me his charger again tonight thank god so I have my phone and now that I’ve successfully (and lengthily) recapped the past like idk 48 hours or so, I can head back for some chats before bed. Hopefully I can find the balance between sleep and chills but idk even if I don’t I just don’t wanna rek myself too much. There’s always a bit of coffee tho tomorrow idk.

Off to Woollahra library all day cos I wanna try a change of scene but also wanna get a lot done so should be like nice to go somewhere slightly different to hang for once. Kk that’s all for now, I know this is quite badly written but I don’t have the cognitive function to like fix it up or write it properly or anything on my limited sleep right now, so it will have to do. Till another day J