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fantastic-mr-corvid · 20 days ago

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Nothing beats having your mother walk into your room on christmas day and starting the conversation with "I think i deserve a pat on the back for not saying to your grandmother that our families emotional constipation is why your uncle john was an alcoholic at 15" So uh. yeah. Happy bloody Christmas!

#ive gotten out of christmas dinner which actually is something to celebrate #but uh #yeah...#i dont think we are ever hosting christmas ever again #or even going elsewhere for it #like this morning was kinda nice in the moment! sitting around opening presents and chatting #but i got upstairs and burst into tears bc of just how hollow i felt #she doesnt really engage or say anything special...#i spent hours drawing so i could gift her a piece of my artwork something shes never revived anything like before #and she gave the same rote praise #shes in her 80s and shes had a lifetime of emotional abuse but...#is is wrong that we wish she could fucking make us feel loved??

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