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[frankiebirds]

so. in seven seconds they show a cd in katie's house and reid is like "oh hey that was my favourite movie when i was a kid :)" you can just see "babar" on the cd, which is fine, but the wiki says it's specifcally babar: king of the elephants which came out in feb 1999?? and he was born oct 1981??? so. the wiki is almost certainly just wrong and it's actually one of the many other, more timeline-appropriate babar films. but im going to make it angst now fuck you.

dont think about reid watching a ton of children's films after committing his mother in an attempt to relive his childhood dont think about it dont think about it dont think abou

[beautysamour]

hi eir! I’d like to make a request for an Aaron warner x reader where the reader is sick and Aaron has to take care of her 🧎‍♀️

TNANK YOU <3333

Yes.

Swooning season

Pairing: Aaron Warner x reader

summary: It’s flu season and unfortunately; you’ve caught it. Luckily you have such a loving boyfriend to take care of you.

warning/s: none

a/n: aaron warner makes me weak in the knees.

enjoy !!

“Lay down,” your boyfriend ordered you while putting a hand on your shoulder, already beginning to push you back down on your bed with his eyebrows furrowed. He hated seeing you in any kind of pain.

You allowed him to push you down, a small smile on your face as you watched him pamper you.

“I love you,” you said with eyes that would be described as dreamy, could anyone blame you though? Aaron Warner pampering his sick significant other is definitely something to swoon over.

He brought a hand up to your forehead and brushed some of the hair that had begun to stick to it, as his expression softened at your words he brought his lips up to your temple, “I love you too,” he whispered back.

You’ve heard him say that very same phrase to you over a hundred times, yet it manages to make you weak in the knees every time, it’s a good thing you weren’t standing.

After a few seconds on Aaron keeping his lips on your temple, he pulled away to look at your face, your eyes to be specific, but that romantic desire immediately fleeted when he saw your beaming red face.

“What happened- here,” he quickly began to open a water bottle and pushed it towards your face, “are you ok?”

You tilt your head on your pillow now confused, “My love,” you begin to say but struggle to continue as you start to giggle; realizing that he took your red face, caused by blushing, as a sigh of you being in pain, “I’m ok- I was blushing. Im surprised you couldn’t feel my love for you in the moment.” You tease at the rare boost of energy you suddenly received.

Aaron sighed as he lowered his hand with the water bottle in it, “Of course I could feel it, I just didn’t realize a change in reaction since I’ve been feeling the same thing from you all day.”

He brought the water bottle up again; pushing your hand away as you reached to grab it, “I got it, you’re too weak right now.”

And just like that, your lovesick expression turned into a heartbroken betrayed one.

Aaron frowned as you pouted, feeling the change in your emotion for the first time today.

Feeling hurt that he called you weak, you pulled up the blanket that was previously resting on your legs and turned to lay on your side, facing away from your boyfriend. You weren’t weak, you were just sick.

Normally if you were feeling better you wouldn’t have reacted this way because he obviously didn’t mean it like that, but you weren’t feeling better. So you blame it on the sickness.

Aaron internally cursed at himself, even though he was right. Half of him was saying that he shouldn’t feel bad for stating the obvious, but the other part, the other part that couldn’t ignore the fact that his words managed to throw you off your lovesick demeanor was upset.

He set the water bottle he was holding on your nightstand and tried to pull the blanket up so he could apologize by cuddling you under it. Being the stubborn person you are, you mustered all the strength you could and gripped onto you blanket making sure that it wouldn’t budge.

Aaron softly sighed at this, he hated seeing you upset. Even though he was upset that you were upset, he couldn’t help but smile as he found the view in front of him adorable. You, pouting, with your eyes closed and your entire body covered except for your head and your arms that were now above the blanket, keeping it pinned down. It was enough to make him feel weak in the knees.

A few minutes passed, probably, as silence filled the room. You were beginning to wonder if your boyfriend left but you didn’t remember hearing any noises coming from the door, at the same time though you were getting tired so your memory was a little hazy.

With your curiosity getting the better of you, you turned in your bed and felt your entire body freeze due to surprise. Aaron Warner, your ever so loving boyfriend, had his head on your bed, his eyes closed and his eyebrows furrowed as he rested his body on his knees.

You felt your heartbeat start to increase at the sight. Aaron Warner was always beautiful but him asleep was a different kind of angelic view.

As you began to internally swoon over your boyfriend again, you took notice of his furrowed brows and guilt immediately took over. You hated seeing him in any kind of pain, both physical and emotional, and you hated whenever he didn’t look relaxed in his sleep because he deserves to relax.

“Aaron,” you whisper as you run a hand through his hair. He opens his eyes quickly and sits up even quicker, now on full alert.

“What’s wrong- are you hurt? Do you need water?” He reached for the water bottle rested on your night stand, but you stopped him by reaching for his arm.

“I’m ok,” you croaked out, he raised an eyebrow as you cleared your throat, “just tired.”

He relaxes at hearing that nothing was wrong, that you weren’t in pain, “Then close your eyes, go to sleep.”

You shake your head, “Can’t.”

“Do you want me to leave?”

You widened your eyes at his question, he thinks you want him to leave? “What? No- no, I want you to stay,” you push yourself up on your elbow and reach for his hand, “I want you to sleep next to me.”

This time Aaron widened his eyes, he was surprised that you weren’t completely upset with him still, “Ok,” he whispered before pushing himself up on his feet and pulling the blanket up; wrapping his arms around your waist to pull you in closer to him, ignoring the way you tried to push against his chest.

“I don’t want you to get sick-“ he interrupted you with a hush, “I’ll be fine,” he reassures as he pulls you impossibly closer, resting his head atop yours.

After a few moments of shuffling under the blanket, you two finally settle into a more comfortable position; with Aaron spooning you from behind.

You think a few minutes passed again with just silence filling the atmosphere, and you still can’t sleep, feeling as if something was left unfinished.

“Aaron?”

He hums in response. You don’t turn your body towards him, you just continue talking, “I’m sorry for getting mad at you.”

Aaron mumbles something you can’t quite make out, obviously on the edge of his consciousness, “I shouldn’t have called you weak, so it’s all right,” he says quietly.

You force a chuckle out, “You were right anyways.”

“Yeah, I was.”

You snicker at his response. “Aaron?”

“Hm?”

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

[mysteriouswolf]

hello hello _o/

i know we’ve not interacted before but im moots with geode/lux and i saw your vent post. i dont wanna overstep any boundaries and please feel free to ignore/delete this if you want to! but as someone who went through something similar i wanted to offer some advice. anything could help, and i simply refuse to ignore when someone is hurting. if there’s anything i can do to ease your worries, i’ll try.

in school, i was a top student but i started to suffer severely from undiagnosed mdd, cptsd, autism, disordered eating, anxiety, and a terrible home life to top it off. like you, i didn’t wanna do it anymore. i almost felt like i couldn’t do it anymore, and every day was a struggle to get up.

but looking back (and im 24 now) im so happy that i kept fighting through each and every day. because i promise you it gets so much better once you’re on the other side of school. i know you must feel an insane amount of pressure and stress right now, but i promise you everything will turn out okay.

i was a straight a student my entire life. then everything tanked and i graduated with like a 2.4 gpa. but guess what? there’s nothing less important to me now. even if you feel like you’re failing, you can still go to college and chase your dreams. when i was figuring out college courses you know what my college advisor told me? she listened to how stressed and nervous i was about planning my whole career and future, she looked me dead in the eyes and said “it doesn’t matter what your gpa is, it doesn’t matter how long it takes you to get your degree. a job doesn’t care about those things, they only care that you have the degree. they don’t care if you’re 24 or 54. you can take all the time that you need.”

and that changed the course of my life, cause she was right. you don’t have to plan everything out, and you don’t need to rush through it all. hell, i realized that i didn’t want to go to college to become a pastry chef. instead i took my time, and ended up becoming a licensed senior pharmacy technician through other means. now im chasing my passions to be a writer and professional dungeon master.

this is a long way of saying that you aren’t alone. take it from someone who went through similar struggles; one day it won’t hurt so much, and you’ll have so much room to grow past your pain.

there are so many people who love you and would give what they can to help you. as they say, shared joy is twice the joy and shared sorrow is half the sorrow. don’t be afraid to reach out to them, or even me, for anything.

you’re allowed to slow down and take accommodations. you’re allowed to take as much time as you need. all that really matters is making sure you’re okay.

i hope you’re able to find at least a tiny amount of solace from my ramblings. and if not i apologize for the long read (whoops) have a lovely rest of your day <33

Affjakgkakga thank you <333 sorry it's taken me a bit to reply to this, I genuinely haven't had the energy lmao, but I just want you to know that just- knowing that practically some random internet stranger really cared about just like- the shit I was going through and cared about me really means a lot? Idk how to describe it well enough, but thank you <3333

Also, just a side note, I've read some of your stuff and it is genuinely incredible, I love it sm. You're really good at manipulating (in a good way) people's feelings with the way you write characters, and I bet that's done just as well in your DnD campaign, which is awesome :] I did not know that being a professional dungeon master was a thing, but that's really really cool, and tbh I would probably enjoy that so much lmao (I'm a dm with an inconsistent campaign with my friends right now)

Tysm for the ask and the advice <33333

[donkey-hyuck]

hello!! merry belated christmas!! <3

I'm currently reading your fic, rockland and UM I HAVE TO SCREAM ABOUT IT TO SOMEONE SO I'M JUST GONNA DO IT IN YOUR ASKS IF YOU DON'T MIND T-T (pls just ignore this ask if u wanna)

first of all, oml mark tf WHY DID HE DO THAT TO YN IN THE BEGINNING IM SCREAMING I HATE MIYOUNG SO MUCH #$%^&

that was on of the best break up scenes I've ever read it was so well described omg 😭 ok ngl Chae is kinda evil for doing that to yn like dude why would you bring a person to their ex's house 🧍‍♀️ MARK STILL LOVES YN OMG NOOO😭

OH WOW OK NOW YN INVITED MARK TO HER HOUSE OK- both of them are fucking up so badly I'm laughing in pain if that makes sense JUST LEAVE MIYOUNG, MARK PLS #$%^&6 Mark made a mistake and now he's regretting it like WHAT DID HE EVEN SEE IN MIYOUNG HONESTLY not mark and yn calling each other and ending it in secs 😔 HONESTLY I LOVE JAEMIN SO MUCH HE'S BEING AN ANGEL

OMG YN IS WEARING MARKS HOODIE DIJFHBVGFHRDENSM yn wants to slap miyoung PLEASE JUST SLAP HER SHE'S SO ANNOYING 😍 NO NOW I WANNA SLAP MARK HE'S BLAMING YN WHEN ITS MOSTLY HIS FAULT WHAT THE FUCK

PLEASE WHY TF ARE THEY PARTYING AT YNS HOUSE T-T ok ngl even tho yn's friends made a huge mistake ITS OK IG BECOZ THEY'RE VV GOOD FRIENDS-

ok honestly I'm curious h o w will mark make it better between him and yn like what does he even have to say now mark needs to move on i think i mean??

OH OFC MARK AND MIYOUNG ARE MAKING OUT THESE MFS DOJIJGBFRHDENSM PLEASE YN'S JUST SCREAMING TO EVERYONE WHILE GOING OUT OF THEIR HOUSE 😭😭

at this point I honestly don't know whether I hate mark more or miyoung jdfhbdns AWW THE DREAMIES (EXCEPT MARK OFC) ARE SO SWEET TO HELP YN FEEL BETTER <33

oml yn is having a nightmare of mark OMFVUGYFDHN YES JAEHYUN GO BESTIE SCOLD MIYOUNG <3

I LOVE THE ENDING SO MUCH “The sunset’s beautiful isn’t it?”

I AM CRYING THIS IS THE BEST ANGST FIC I'VE EVER READ LIKE OMG THE FEELINGS, EMOTIONS AND EVERYTHING WAS SO FUCKING WELL DESCRIBED AND WIJOEFUHVGIYBFRHDENSWJ IM CRYING THIS IS SO GOOD THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME SCREAM IN YOUR INBOX AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY 😭😭😭

ANNA OH MY GOD. HAHAHAHAHA THIS WAS SO FUNNY TO READ!

thank you for spending your time reading this fic LOL AND IM GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT!!! I LOVED READING YOUR THOUGHTS HAHAHAHA

“PLEASE JUST SLAP HER SHES SO ANNOYING😍” HAHAHAHA GIRL I WANTED TO SLAP HER SND SHE WAS A FIGMENT OF MY IMAGINATION😭

i’m so happy you liked reading it tho :(( your freak-outs are utterly amazing and truly made my day. i’m glad you feel that way about this fic which i worked my ass on😭

AND PLEASE, FEEL FREE TO SCREAM IN MY INBOX ANY DAY! I HOPE YOU HAVE AN EVEN GREATER DAY <3333

[imaginethathaikyuu]

How did I find your blog? I was looking for soft Kuroo content on google. And your soft birthday hc’s for him came up. And that’s also how I found tumblr

What was the first story of yours that I read? That Kuroo piece ^

Roughly, how long have I been following this blog? Well I found that piece shortly after it was posted so…. Around the beginning of December 2019 I think. Got a tumblr a few months later and you were the first person I followed (had you in my bookmarks bar before that! (still have you in my bookmarks bar and when I share my screen in classes there are occasionally questions. I ignore them))

What’s something I’ve noticed about you personality wise? You’re really clever and funny. But you’re also sweet. But because you’re clever you have no hesitation in setting up and enforcing your boundaries, and I really admire that strength and confidence.

Have we ever interacted, either by PM, ask, or in the comments? What was my perception of you? YES!!! PM, SOOOOO many asks, comments, and you sent me an ask. And reblogged it. And I cried. A lot. My perception: you’re lovely and I want to h*ld your h*nd ….please.

What’s my favorite story of yours? Oh how to choose. Firstly, I’m a nb, biracial, bisexual. Honey, I’ve never made a choice in my life. But let’s try here. Anything you’ve written for Tsukki. Literally all of it is gold. Fight me. I was going to write “especially [piece title]” but I LITERALLY CANNOT CHOOSE ONE. Your Bokuto nightmare piece. Your Kuroo angsty fight. Your Tendou dealing with S/O with parents who yell piece. Your Kinktobers. Your Futakuchi and Mattsun pieces. And your Terushima pieces. Ugh. I CANNOT CHOOSE. OH AND YOUR STREAMER KENMA!!!!!! OKay just… all of it. I can’t choose. I tried, and I failed, and I’m willing to admit failure.

What’s a story I’d love to see you write? I don’t want to say this… because it hurts me… but I just KNOW you’d write brilliant angst. Some of my fav pieces of yours are pained beginnings with happy endings. That fight with Tsukki after a bad day at work. The pieces I mentioned above (nightmare pieces and fighting pieces and angsty home life ha.. ha.ha.ha.). That Oikawa one where the reader wakes up in bed without him and thinks he left. You write these gorgeous atmospheres and descriptive, visceral feelings, and if you chose to use it for evil…. You could get evil shit done. You’re SO powerful. So I want to read it… but also…. I don’t. I’d love to see you write ABO like you mentioned a while back or just see you explore a cutesy soulmate AU or something. I think you’d be really good at writing an AU where you hear what the other person’s listening too. I feel like you’d be so good at making me feel something for someone who was in another city. (think this would be cute with Tsukki cos he’s headphones boy, OR terushima because I like the dynamic of someone flirty, who clearly cares about looks, falling for someone he can’t see) ANYWAY….

Favorite pairing you write for?/fav reader insert? Tsukishima x reader. It’s my fav self-ship. (but also Mattsun, Bokuto, Oikawa, Tanaka, and Akaashi because you write them SO WELL!!!!)

Have any of your stories helped me through a hard time? Of course. Your self-harm piece came at a time I needed it. Iwaizumi’s in particular saved my life. But also your Tendou dealing with S/O parents who fight… came right when I needed it. Also starting college… was hard.. And reading and rereading your fluff really pulled me through it.

Have any of your stories hit closer to home? YES (see above).

Do I genuinely like your blog, it’s aesthetic or posts? It’s overall feel? It’s content? Yes. The aesthetic is, ngl, a wee bit basic. But I kinda love that. And the feel? It feels like home. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Your blog is my safe space. So, yes, I love. It’s content? YES. OF COURSE. Your personality probably could have kept me here even if your content was kinda shit, but I follow you RELIGIOUSLY because of your content. So yes. I adore.

Is English my first language? Kinda??? I grew up in a trilingual household so I kinda learned three languages at the same time while growing up. But no, I don’t need to translate it in my head. Because English was one of the three.

Anything I want to share? Yes. Please keep being kind to yourself, caring for your mental health, enforcing your boundaries, loving Akaashi, and just generally being you. You’re so lovely as you are, and I hope you continue grow, but never change. Also I’m sorry about all your work stuff…. It literally makes me feel sick. And I hope you find a job where that’s not tolerated, or that your work finds a better way of protecting it’s employees. I know you know this, but none of it is your fault. I just hope things improve. AND I love you… a lot. And I’m so proud of you hitting 9K and you deserve so many more followers because your pieces are just... GORGEOUS. I can’t wait until I’m at Barnes and Noble in a few years and I can pick up a hardback copy of your debut novel. I’m so excited to say “I knew Em Akaashi (which is your legal name as far as I’m concerned) before she was so popular among the masses.”

so ive been trying to figure out the correct and worthy way to reply to this ask since the moment i got it......because its so fucking sweet and kind and amazing and pure and perfect and i just dont know how to use WORDS to explain the way it makes me feel so.......i will just reply in bullet points in regards to every question u answered to make it a lil easier :D

- the fact that u found my blog on google ....... like this may be odd and a very specific thing but before i made this blog i always hoped that 1 day my fanfic would pop up in google searches bc thats ALWAYS how i found fics when i was reading them religiously and i felt so much ENVY!!!!! LIKE I WANTED TO BE THERE I WANTED MY FICS TO B POPULAR ENOUGH TO POP UP ON GOOGLE.....that may sound very selfish but its true......so thats just very cool to me... :]

- u’ve been here for so long omg 🥺🥺🥺🥺 if anyone in ur classes ever asks jus promo my blog like its nbd 

- thats so sweet what 🥺🥺🥺 i try my best to advocate for myself and be confident for myself.....ive spent far too much of my time being silently uncomfortable because i was afraid of pushing someone’s buttons seeming rude.....but NO MORE!!!! i know what upsets me, i know my triggers, i know what i dislike experiencing, and im never gonna let myself be anxious or uncomfortable for someone else’s sake, esp if theyre being rude 2 me. i would say its less strength and confidence and moreso me attempting to take control of my anxiety in the places i can (aka on the Internet) bc i am SICK OF ANXIETY ATTACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

- BBY no dont CRY!!!! im racking my brain trying to think of who u are i wanna know so bad so i can thank u personally for being the kindest person in the world n so i can send u more asks >:(........MY HAND IS URS TO HOLD!!!!! dont tell akaashi tho 

- OMG my TSUKKI pieces.....hes so hard to write why ;-; thank u so much im so glad u enjoy my works<3333

- NOT ANGST NOT LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!! pained beginnings to happy endings are my specialty.....IMAGINE me writing a sad ending like i CANT!!!!!!!!! ive only done it a few times and it is so Difficult.....YALL ARE SO LUCKY IM NOT EVIL!!!!!! ive had this idea for an angsty akaashi fic that i think about and write in my head every night before falling asleep and it Hurts and i wanna write it but i also can’t make myself :D ABO would be very fun but i genuinely do not know how to explore the concept while making it feel like it’s Written By Me.....u know what i mean? same with soulmate aus, i really dislike writing them because theyre just boring to me like they all feel the same everything’s been done for them.....which is FINE!!! but i write enough cliche stuff as it is HAHA, a long distance type soulmate au could be fun and interesting but ldr’s trigger me bc of a past relationship so </3 but hey maybe someone else could use the idea!!!!!

- gotta love tsukishima <3

- im rlly glad my writing could be there for you friend, one of the biggest reasons i write fanfic (and write the kind of fics i write) is bc i know firsthand how much reading sweet stories abt ur comfort characters can help u through the shittiest times - i just wanna offer ppl some support and happy feelings and love cuz sometimes fanfic is the only time we can find those things (and theres nothing shameful abt that either if anyone bullies u for reading fanfic i will fight them)

- I KNOW MY LAYOUT IS LAZY AND BASIC AS FUCK AND THAT IS BECAUSE I DO NOT GIVE A SHIT LMAOOOO so im glad u think its ok...... like i dont have the patience to create a fancy ass layout that actually works are u KIDDING ME??????? I COULD LITERALLY NEVER plus i kinda like that its just the basic kinda ugly boring default layout like it makes it simple and easy and i feel like it brings focus to the only thing on this blog that i care about which is my writing, i rlly only care about the content here and not aesthetics jdbljdabsdk that blue background will be there til i Die......i adore u more btw 

- WHOA trilingual what the hell ur so cool tell me more 

- you have my word, friend, that i will continue to do all of that so long as you do the same. take care of yourself, be kind to yourself - i know u can do it, ur so kind to others and u deserve to be kind to urself, too so this is the part that genuinely brought me to tears because *sappy dumb shit ahead* ok look ever since i can remember the one and only thing ive wanted to do with my life is become an author ...... dreams of book covers with my name written on them and words in pages written by me and fanart of my characters and going into my local bookstore n seeing my book there....these thoughts all haunt my fucking brain because i want it SO BAD!!!!!!!! so bad that it makes me CRY!!!!!!!! ive never wanted something more and just!!!!!!!!!!!! idk how much u meant that part but holy fuck!!!!!! i hope so bad that one day i can send u a free copy of my book as a thank u for being the person u are. u have all my love friend, every last bit of it <333333333