#but i dont care cus im posting this out of spite

[trifoliumaries]

People probably already know how to do this but if you wanna get rid of the stupid hulu ad: inspect the HTML and pull up the PAtyZ class, add " display: none; " (don't include the quotation marks) in the CSS

[beeben]

Wish the day ( the twilight/night time part) lasted longer ( i mean extra hours not get dark sooner) so i could have more time to myself.

I don't get an ounce of privacy until everyone is asleep and I cant stay up as late as i used to bc i start work so early. I really cannot stand it here lol this is turning into it vent post cus ive been having a really bad time lately and when i try talking about it everyone just goes "well i feel the same way but i just put up with it" i dont want to put up with it anymore i hate most of my family i hate my house i hate my life no i dont feel spoiled im always out of money because i have to pay for everyone's shit because my dad is an idiot whos been chasing a spot in football hall of fame since he was 12 even though now hes 50 and 300 pounds and cant hold a job more then than a year because he picks fights with people and is a bigot trying to work with mostly black people. Like it's fucking ridiculous i live in a fucking fantasy world where people think im crazy for saying things aren't okay. Maybe I am suicidal what then? I get an eye roll i get "everyone is suicidal im suicidal too" like? And we're supposed to be okay with that? Ive had such a shit month man idk i have to meet up with the hr people at work tomorrow idk if im traumatized or something im like terrified they're gonna spin some shit around and get me fired man im literally so sick and tired of people walking all over me i honestly don't care if i come off as an asshole anymore i deserve a little self importance idk why its such a shocking thing. I stayed over at my boyfriend's house the other night and people acted like i burnt a building down saying how out of character it was for me cus hes a man what the fuck ever. I don't even give a shit at this point he could've assaulted me and i would've come back just to spite them. Idk where im going with this im pissed off and i dont have anybody to tell because they either heard it already or would leave if i said anything. Nobody gives a shit and i don't mean shit and if i do mean shit to somebody they assume im normal like them and im not i feel like such a piece of garbage and i live with a bunch of idiot slobs who keep me on a leash so they have an extra wallet to use when getting school supplies or whatever else my dad refuses to pay for or as a fucking unpaid therapist when he abuses them and they feel sad about it :'(. Im really worthless lol i kinda just wish someone was honest and said it to my face instead of acting like its fine and everyone feels this way cus i know it's not and i know its not normal. I was born to be an accessory in my dads life to make him look more virtuous in the eyes of the church. My mom would've been better off if she had miscarried and he divorced her for being infertile or something at least then shed have a fucking life to live. This is ridiculous.

[guroshitsuji]

All you do these days is follow horrible people out of spite, I really thought you were better than that. Almost miss being mutuals but you and your blog are full of red flags.

i have a feeling i know who you are n i almost miss being mutuals too but its probs for the best if u rly think this black n white. cus i don’t follow “horrible people” out of spite. i don’t think anyone i follow is horrible and ive yet to find a reason to unfollow anyone other than this mob mentality that once someone has been accused of something via a callout post w no evidence, then they are that thing , no questions asked. ppl keep sending me anons abt my new mutuals and i keep asking for evidence that they are these horrible things and i always turn up empty handed. ive talked about this before. x , x .  and ive talked abt this before too but its so like .... nonsensical that you’re all anons. if you rly miss being mutuals or if any of you guys rly cared enough ud just talk to me directly. how are you gonna expect me to it take seriously when ur saying rly confrontational things or rly heavy accusations and ur quiet literally anonymous. idk how everyone else is ok with that but im not.. i just cant get behind it. these things matter to me and if im going to break mutuals w someone i need more than a rly aggressive anon, i want to be talked to like a person and explained in detail all this evidence that ive yet to see. like my dms are always open and i am happy to talk these things out privately !! there is no reason for me to be having a onesided public conversation like this !! id esp want to talk abt these red flags you think im full of, bcus as far as i know i have not changed whatsoever and thats a big accusation . i would absolutely love if it someone could talk to me abt smth ive done thats hurt people bcus i rly cant think of one thing and i dont want to be doing that !!!

anyways this is too much energy and time to waste on stuff like this. this is the last time i will ever answer an anon like this... ive said this before but ill say it again . just mssg me. frm now on if i receive an anon abt my mutuals i will delete them and i will not publicly acknowledge them.. im sorry that i demand a little respect in situations w sensitive topics but its rly what i think is fair. and sry to literally anyone other than the asker whos had to read thru this and for all the needless drama, this will not be a problem again, i promise