#but i didnt want to use actual colours for it cuz it wouldnt match the other two pieces in the post

[anxiouslyextroverted]

stuff like this srsly confuses me cuz I don't understnad how masc means boy/man, but masculine women also exist like I thought masculine was a gender expression, same with feminine,and it didnt actually mean gender identity itself?

and its hard to pinpoint my exact personality and gender expression because like my style is just black hoodies i pick off my floor which im used to doing that for years. and my personality is like everywhere like my likes and dislikes are ig stereotypically fem and masc (cuz i dont actually seperate anything by gender or gender expression , im not raised really being taught the difference.) and stereotypically ig im masculine cuz i dont wear makeup but i dont get that cuz men wear makeup too so how is not wearing makeup masculine to other people. And then i might be considered feminine too cuz I love pink but like I see pink as a very masculine colour in my head. This is why im gonna fail my character design course becasue I dont see colours ike gendered, or like see dark colours as scary for instance, and i dont see clothes as having any meaning other than pieces of fabric. Istg one day il understand style and what the difference is with genders but ig not yet... Like did no one else as a kid see gender as identical, and believe women and men were equally dominant and that women can dom in sx and sht and can mmake nsfw jokes like men and mmen can wear dresses because as a kid i was surrounded by men that wore dresses and stuff like that so its just so normalized to me that I now am struggling to understnad why its a big deal for most and what is so gendered about it. I dont know if im making sense but imagine someone grows up in a society where everyone believed everythng feminine or masculine was just the same meaning and then that person was put on a planet where everyone separates it, because thats hwo i feel right now. And i think masc and feminine should be more nuance then just style. Because soetimmes peoples style and personality dont match, why do I wear black all the time and dark colours? because I just want too. Why do I wear pink, because I just picked it up off my floor. There is no personality or gender behind why I picked those clothes, I dnt even know what clothes would be considered feminine.

the rare times I wore a dress, I was fine with it until people started condescending me and treating me weakly. If I get treated weakly while presenting stereotypically femininely than I guess I don't want to dress stereotypically femininely? But if that idea was gone, I wouldnt mind it. I dont usually present stereotypically femininely i even though im shy and sensitive and that would categorize as feminine to people ig, but whenever i do it, It feels like im doing something im not used to at all cuz i never really had that like stage, ive been the same since a kid and never changed cuz if i change then im going against what im used to, my routine and my mum and rest of my family is gonna make it this massive af deal like I sort of tried fashion by going to thrift stores and getting cheap clothes not just fo cosplay and my brother was like "WOAH. You look so fashionable" and i freaked out cuz hes not used to me being fashionable and i just wanna go back to not doing that yk, attnention is stressful

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[jakeperalta]

Okay so it wasnt announced today..but maybe cuz she didnt want to release something the same day as Olivia Rodrigo? I kinda wonder why she hinted at today though in the Colbert interview. She did release a Fearless chapter but everything was pointing to 1989. I guess it gives us a little more time to imagine or brainstorm the cover. I agree with you..I would want something simple but bright colors instead to match the feel of the album. I know the original didnt really have bright colors though so I dont know what it could be. I agree that she'd keep the same style..half her face. I think a city skyline background could be cool but maybe unrealistic. I wonder what her hair or outfit would be..i know she basically just wears a tshirt anyway so would it just be a similar shirt..or saying I love NY lol. I like your ideas..i hadn't considered her taking the picture..and I think she will come up with something cool and creative that would match each album rather than just a filter. My guess for the announcement is after next week cuz Olivia's album coming out, but also I've seen people saying if 1989 could come out at the end of June which would only be a month but Fearless was a two month wait..so in July? Or it could be a shorter wait but I also saw people thinking it was gonna be announced June 4th. I dont mind cuz my sister and I are getting ready for the new Twenty One Pilots album next week which will keep us busy until then but I thought she just might announce it for today cuz she hinted at this date. I also kinda just wanted June cuz my bday is in a month, and I just wanna know the date, cover, vault songs lol but dont really mind waiting as much for the actual album compared to other people are upset about not getting anything yet. I wouldnt want it to be too long though.

yeah i was definitely expecting/hoping for more than a fearless chapter today! you could be right though, like she was going to move the evermore release so she didn’t clash with paul mccartney’s album release, i think she definitely does take into account other artists’ release schedules. weirdly i feel like the original 1989 cover colour palette doesn’t really match the album that much, i think bright colours would definitely work well for it and something incorporating new york would be cool because that’s such a big motif from the era. i agree i don’t really mind waiting for the album itself, especially since we already know the songs lol, but i’m so curious about the cover and vault songs!