#but i didn't because in my naivety i thought the dr would. you know. be less ooc about it

[dsabian]

Are you telling me that the most "f it we ball" incarnation in a long list, the crying screaming begging on his knees "let me save you" Doctor, are you telling me that he has NOT sprinted directly for the Tardis, giant grin in place, roaring "Come on babes we have me a Fiancè to find!!!"

TF??

[wishi-selfships]

What about Denji makes you attracted to him? I love him as a character, but I’m not attracted to him at all.

Hiii anon I'm very sleepy but I saw this and didn't wanna wait until I woke up in the morning to answer. So forgive me if this makes little sense.

Basic Tl;Dr that leaves a whole bunch of stuff out: what makes Denji attractive to me is a combination of various things about him (personality and appearance), while certain other variables make that initial sense of attraction stronger. Full yap down here ⬇️⬇️

To be honest, I think I'm a little bad at understanding and explaining why I'm attracted to a character— outside the instances where my attraction is solely appearance based (bc there are characters who look so good visually but that's to the extent where I'm attracted to them). I'm just not a person who is very good with her words or figuring out her thoughts. I'm actually ... very bad at this, and it's definitely a point of insecurity for me. Which is besides the point (I told you I was sleepy and wouldn't make sense).

I think it's a combination of his appearance + personality + experiences he goes through + mutual likability.

In the sense that: I think Denji is cute. His design is very appealing to me. I love his boyish looks, the sharp teeth. His brown eyes are so pretty and his hair, while frustrating to draw admittedly, fits him so well. His design is so pretty to me. Even when he pulls some real fuckass expressions, his design is genuinely so alluring and so dear to me that I can't help but feel happy seeing it.

But his appearance would mean nothing if his character wasn't likeable— and to me, it is. Again I am admittedly bad at understanding character. But when I read Denji's interactions and I see his actions and how he speaks and how thoughtful he really is and how sweet Denji is despite certain circumstances making him seem otherwise. And how much love he has with not so many places to put it. And his naivety is heartbreaking but makes me more attracted to him, but not in the sense where it's like "aww he's so naive and stupid (I'm going to use him)" it's "he's gone through so much and hadn't had the chance to learn or be taught certain things and it breaks my heart I want to help him I want to help him see what it should be like" and just. He's such a sweetheart but he's also so silly and lovely and aaa..♡♡

And then speaking on that last part: the inherent tragedy of Denji and his place in the world of Chainsaw Man makes me feel so much for Denji. Because I read the manga and I read analysis' and I talk with others about it. And I see Denji going through so much and I already care about him so much for the person that he is that I cannot help but feel incredibly sympathetic for him. Denji going through so many hardships makes me want to protect him. It's... odd, I guess, from an outside perspective? But to me it makes total sense. Seeing negative things happen to him and make his mental state worse make me worry about him more. The more worried and sympathetic I become of his plight, the more I think and dwell on Denji as a character but also as a person. In a way. And the more I do that, the more my love for Denji is cemented in my heart.

And then I mentioned the mutual likability; which is my way of saying. Well. Denji is a character who would like me. I don't consider myself as desirable by any means. I don't consider myself pretty or having the best personality or anything that makes me worthwhile as a partner. But I read more of Denji and I get to see more of his character and I get the feeling that he'd see something in me the same way I see something in him? I can't put it into words. I think Denji actually liking me helps me like him more as well. It provides me with a sense of comfort (as sad as this may sound lmao) and that comfort makes me love Denji even more. And me loving Denji even more makes me think that he'd love me even more too. It's like a cycle lmao.

I don't know. Does this make sense? I always think passively as to why I love Denji. I struggle with putting feelings into words, but I know how I feel and I know why. Just instinctively, in my heart. And I'm very tired so my abilities are even WORSE. but. I hope this answered your question anon

[justanotherblogger]

Good Omens Season 2 Ending Drabbles

Spoilers ahead for Good Omens Seaon 2

I have just watched the entirety of Good Omens season 2 and what I want to say is... am I the only one that thinks Aziriphale went with the Head of Heaven guy (forgot his name/title/whatever) to easily?

Like I know that he had those longing glances and the whole talk and the KISS, but, it just seems a bit... off, to me.

Like, I think Aziraphale is so much smarter than that, even with his naivety towards heaven, because of all his growth from seasons 1 AND 2. He got to see a bit of the underbelly of heaven and obviously didn't like what they were doing.

Also, I initially though Aziraphale was gonna legit be kidnapped again or something when he went with the heaven official (still can remember that dudes name/title/whatever). He had sinister music coming off him when they went out the door, and had hateful glances towards Aziraphale and Crowley, like twice! That guy is so shady and since we didn't see the full conversation between him and Aziraphale, i think he did SOMETHING to Azi.

Aziraphale seemed to uptight, or maybe anxious, after his 'high of being back in heaven'. He seemed to want to say something, ANYTHING that would at least agree with Crowley, but he couldn't even nod or hum in agreement. Even when Crowley said something he should obviously agree on.

Their nightingale song also started to play after the argument and Crowleys line, maybe to signify that Aziraphale does REALLY want to go with him, playing their song saying that he agrees, even if he can't show it.

He seemed to be holding back tears, maybe trying to convey his true emotions with his eyes, but just couldn't for whatever reason. (My bets on Heaven Official guy)

And my final point, at the end where Aziraphale is about to go down the elevator. My initial thought, like everyone else's, was that he was doing his final decision of Crowley or Heaven, and chose to have his 'life' back.

But, maybe it was something more. The direct, long glance towards Crowley mightive been one last call for help, hoping Corwley could steal him away again. When it was clear Crowley was only their to see Aziraphale go and uproot the life they made together on earth, to see if he would really 'choose his old life than their life', he sighed and reluctantly got into the elevator.

Also, a little thing, the Heaven Official guy seemed a bit pushy. Taking Aziraphale away from his companions as soon as possible, saying he's the only right fit for the place of Archangel, and then saying so many nice things about the job, mostly things about getting to stay with Crowley that we don't even know are true. I just get a bad feeling from him.

Anyway, I loved this season we all have been waiting patiently for, for FOREVER, and I can't wait to see what happens in the Totally Coming Out season 3 that's coming up. I was already squealing when Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy played on Corwley's radio while going to save Aziraphale, so you bet I did the whole screaming and kicking when they FREAKING KISSED. I never in my life thought it would be cannon but IT IS, and I LOVE IT! I obviously was heartbroken at the end and was emotionally numb for a few moments, but that's what everyone probably experienced at that ending. I'll be patiently waiting for season 3.

TL;DR: I don't think this is something Aziraphale would do so quickly, like in just an afternoon and one meeting with little to no questions asked nor answered. I think something must've gone on in the conversation bits we didn't see and any alone time between Aziraphale and the Heaven Official guy.

[lithopsy]

i? okay.

i'm not even going to try to format this literally who cares

(getting this out of the way, this is my least coherent thought:) i think that it's useless to try to quantify the feminism in poor things, even though i feel like most discourse surrounding the film has centered around classifying it as either feminist (because of bella's journey of self-actualization) or antifeminist (because of *gestures broadly*). i don't particularly gaf. however, bella's sexual liberation is,, uncomfortable? and that’s okay but that’s the fact of it? in MY opinion, the first act feels too degrading for me to believe that the film is fully invested in bella's autonomy. have your cake and eat it too kind of situation. the most overt “feminist” message of the movie is one of sexual liberation and i don’t think that’s a good reading. i know i'm not making sense!! my head hurts!! i don't care about whether or not this movie is feminist i want to talk about cinematography!! moving on!!

i did enjoy the movie a lot stylistically!! the sets were gorgeous, the colors were great, the fun pseudoscience was interesting and pleasantly campy. the cinematography was hit or miss for me, mostly because i really wanted the radial blur effect to have more of a purpose. literally 90% of the time, this effect was tracked to bella's eyeline, so i would have liked it more if that were a consistent choice made to show how she was seeing the world instead of it seemingly being thrown onto a quarter of the close-up shots at random. i did like the vignette "porthole" shots, even if they also felt a little random. there was a sense of voyeurism in the vignette shots for the first act that transitioned gracefully into a sense of bella looking in on the world from the outside. good stuff. interesting stuff. i read a lot of reddit posts about the camera lenses they utilized and had a good time.

i love weird movies and i love when they get made. this movie is, however?? pop weird? it's weird that isn't going to flop. (beau is afraid dr. ari aster rest in peace to a real one. the box office just didn't get you and that's okay.) poor things is still weird enough to appreciate that it's weird.

i loved the scene outside the slums in alexandria with harry. i loved how overdone the set and the colors were here, as well as the melodrama of the suffering bella sees. i think bella's confrontation with harry back on the boat was my favorite scene in the whole movie!! it was such a good character moment for bella to state that she chooses to see the good in the world. harry's explicit desire to ruin her innocence was refreshing, when all the other men want to preserve her naivety. it also struck me that i preferred harry’s honest cruelty to the false kindness of the other men taking advantage of bella. it was a good contrast and a deceptively comforting moment that takes a moment to hurt.

i DID NOT fuck with max. his interest in bella was inherently predatory and i don't think that the ending was as satisfying with him in the garden with everyone else. i think the film wants us to believe that bella comes back from her adventures worldly and learned enough to reverse the power imbalance between them. i don't buy that and couldn't ever get over my initial discomfort with him.

the brothel was really a lot lmao. ambigiuous sexual liberation feminism interspersed with a few "ew this man is ugly. erm... maybe prostitution bad and not empowering actually???" scenes that didn't really take. the (nameless iirc??) socialist lesbian love interest was a fun twist but didn't make up for the rest of that section of the movie. i get it but i didn’t care for it.

there is REALLY something thematically interesting to the idea that bella is both mother and daughter in one body and that she, herself, is the child that she didn't want. i think they could have gotten some mileage out of that idea if they'd spent less time *gestures broadly*

my second favorite scene was bella's conversation with god(win) when she first returns to london. bella confronting her creator was good stuff. should have been the end of the movie tbh. i feel like she regressed from that point.

godwin backstory was maybe a little *too* melodramatic for me but i am not a dark comedy guy so that's just me.

i'm not gonna dwell on this because i'm not idfk neil degrasse tyson and i know how to suspend disbelief but this script played it sooooo fast and loose with language acquisition. there should have been *at least* more consistency with her speech toward the end. the regression was silly. however, bella kind of delivered bar after bar; her word choices were almost always interesting.

almost every establishing shot looked like a microsoft screensaver. didn't like that.

the black and white to color transition was well-intentioned but i didn't care for it, especially because the moment of transition was a sex montage. call me a prude, i'll live with that, but there is a dubious line between exploitation and liberation (i know that's half the point. i still don't have to like watching it.)

final thoughts: idk it was fine i'm normal about it three point five stars

i watched poor things,, unfortunately i have thoughts