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actuallylorelaigilmore · 1 year ago

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aaaaahhhhhh stevie nicks will be performing close by me in december

and @actuallylukedanes told me about it because they knew i would want to know and that i might want to go and now i'm like...

it's expensive, but i could put it on a credit card? i've never been to a stadium-style concert alone, but i'm an adult and can surely figure that out? i'm fat and i worry about fitting in the seat, but when that happened with florence and the machine i just stood most of the time and it was worth it? a hotel room would cost more than the ticket and i don't want leander to have to come get me just cuz i won't have another way to get home... but it's STEVIE NICKS? and the time i was set up to go to a comic con carrie fisher was at i didn't end up going, and then she died?!?

so i can't decide if it would be dumb to go because i might regret it, or more dumb to not go and risk regretting that

#probably the best solution would be to stop thinking about it and continue living my normal life #where i don't do things like go to stevie nicks concerts #(much less stressful...much less exciting)#but i appreciate that leander wants me to have the access/opportunity to those things and that kind of life #so i just don't know #it's not until december so i wish i could be like 'i'll earn extra money and plan ahead and it'll be fine'#but sadly one of the few downsides to having stable disability income is that it's the same each month #so i know there will be no unexpected windfall that could conveniently solve this dilemma #(wouldn't that be nice? if i were in a novel or a movie that could happen!)#life stuff #randomness #stevie nicks #actuallylukedanes #i have the best best friend

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