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ghostzzy · 4 months ago

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anyway i haven’t talked abt this a lot on here but i am realizing lately. that the last eight-ish months. i have been kinda going through a slow-motion breakup with the person i had been anticipating my future with for many years. which. contextualizes a lot i think. about how bad i’ve been doing.

#she will always be one of my best friends. but i also readily thought of her as my life partner in a lot of ways.#and it’s not like we were in some codified partner relationship. but that’s how she Functioned for me. we did everything together.#and she has found someone else she plans to do life with now.#and i don’t begrudge her that. i want her to be happy.#and i know she loves me.#it’s just been hard for me. to adjust to.#like. we’re not actually broken up. she’s not Gone. nobody Left. she’s always going to be in my life in some capacity.#but i am having to significantly readjust my support system to accommodate a lot Less of her #both now and in the future.#it’s hard to have your Primary Person suddenly take a much different role in your life.#my codependency issues have made this whole situation rly hard for me to parse. but i need to like. give myself some credit.#it’s hard. and it’s okay that it’s hard. it doesn’t make me wrong or bad.#izzy.txt

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