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[mimormonfeminist]

I got bamboozled into going back to church.

Okay, bamboozled isn't totally accurate, but it went something like this:

Step One: Buy a house and move back into the ward I grew up in, where my dad is in the bishopric.

Step Two: Accept a calling as a seminary companion, mostly because my dad asked and the commitment was low (except for having to wake up waaaaaaay too early).

Step Three: A couple few months later accept a calling as a Youth Sunday School teacher. I've had this calling in a couple different wards and it is my favorite calling of all time.

Step Four: Get released from Sunday School (boo!) and accept a calling as the Relief Society Secretary.

Step Five: Reach my final form and accept the calling to be Young Women's president.

Here's the thing, the things I don't like about church haven't changed. I abhor the ecclesiastic segregation, the anti-queerness, the institutional infallibility and lack of transparency, and the inability of the institution to convincingly repent of its former and current sins.

BUT I still love the gospel. And I think I can do a lot of good for the youth in the ward. They're good kids who deserve open-minded and open-hearted support; love without exclusion or expectation.

So, yeah, I'm back at church. Still conflicted about it, but I always said I'd go back when God said the time was right, and I suppose that's what happened.

Guess we'll see how it goes.