#but hey maybe reg is just a late bloomer
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"I like seeing how many ages people give to Reginald... but it does reach a point where it's like 'Okay uhm... is he really that old?'"
"Like I know some people say my Reg is a little too young, but I seen people say he's over 50. It's even weirder when people make Reginald lead for most of his life. I don't think he would make this many mistakes or act like this if he was leading for as long as some people say" submitted by anon
#OH YEAA it's really nice to see all the age headcanons for him and rhm#it's kinda funny whenever ppl headcanon him as like.over 50 years old bcz while I can kind of see it he does look a little young honestly#like 30s-early 40s#but hey maybe reg is just a late bloomer#thsc#mod dave#thsc confession#thsc confessions#reginald copperbottom#anon
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realizations pt. 2
part one
read it on ao3
Regulus Black knows he doesnât like girls. He wishes he did. It would make everything so much easier. But at some point, you have to accept that maybe you arenât just a late bloomer. Maybe it isnât just that you âhavenât found the right girl yetâ. Maybe itâs just who you are.
Aside from knowing he definitely doesnât like girls, though, itâs all very confusing. It seemed like a logical conclusion that if he doesnât like girls, he must like boys.
But then, James Potter kissed him, and heâs pretty sure that if he were gay, it wouldâve felt⊠special. Or it wouldâve felt like anything at all. But rather, it felt exactly the same as kissing girls: uncomfortably and wetly smashing your mouths together. He didnât say any of this to James. He didnât say anything, actually, just left with what he knows was a terribly transparent excuse. Now, heâs in his room, sitting on the floor and staring out of the window at the few stars visible through the clouds. Â
Is there something wrong with him? The question has been echoing in his mind since the kiss. Well, really, itâs been there long before, but he has managed to ignore it well enough before today. It was easy to push it to the back of his mind, and tell himself that he would figure it out eventually and it didnât really matter.
But⊠He kissed James. James Potter, the guy who half the girls - and several guys - are utterly enamoured by. James Potter, who is objectively very handsome. And surely, if he were gay, kissing him wouldâve felt⊠good? How is kissing supposed to feel? Regulus has tried it a few times by now, and it has never been the enjoyable experience that people make it out to be.
He is typing the words into google before he even registers having taken his phone out. Is kissing supposed to feel good?
Most of the search results are clinical, detached articles, explaining the biological and social reasons as to why humans like kissing. Until he stumbles upon a blog post on one of those ask-and-answer forums.
Anonymous: need advice!! my friends are constantly going on about their crushes and the people theyâve been with, how much they love kissing, all that stuff. and i just canât relate at all. iâve kissed a few boys, and once a girl too, and i donât understand the hype at all? iâve never really had a crush on anyone either, i think. all that kissing and dating and sex stuff just seem like a waste of time to me. is there something wrong with me? am i broken or something?
Regulusâs heart stutters as he reads the post through. He⊠relates to most of it. Is there something wrong with me? Itâs the same question thatâs been ringing loud and clear through his head since the kiss.
The comments are mostly stuff like âjust wait til youâre olderâ and âyouâll get it when you meet the right personâ, and Reg feels his stomach sink. Is that really it? Heâs supposed to sit around and wait for âthe right personâ to come into his life and⊠fix him? He thinks about James again. James, who is kind and funny and one of his favourite people in the entire world. But kissing him didnât feel right. It hasnât felt right with anyone.
But then his eyes catch on another comment on the personâs post: you should look into the terms asexual and aromantic. i donât think thereâs anything wrong with you or that you are broken, but if you donât have an interest in romance/sex it could be because youâre ace and/or aro.
Asexual and aromantic. Regulus googles both terms, spends hours reading through articles and blog posts and people sharing their experiences, and for the first time in his life he feels⊠seen. He hadnât realized how lonely he felt, before discovering that he isnât alone.
Itâs a lot to take in. A lot of thoughts and questions and answers swirling in Regulusâs head. He really, really wants to talk to someone about all of this. But first of all, itâs 3 AM. Secondly, who?
James is⊠kinda the whole reason heâs having this sexuality crisis to begin with. He is certain he wouldâve figured it out anyway at some point, but itâs thanks to James that he is up in the middle of the night, buried in research about his own identity. He doesnât think he can talk to James about all this. At least not yet.
Then thereâs Sirius. Regulus doesnât know if he would understand. He feels some of that familiar loneliness creep up on him again. He and Sirius are finally close again. After years of division and hurt and pretending the other doesnât exist, they have a relationship thatâs actually good, and Regulus doesnât want to ruin it. What if Sirius doesnât understand or doesnât accept him? He canât lose his brother again. He doesnât have anyone else.
Should he just⊠not tell anyone, then? Perhaps that is best, at least for now, he thinks. If no one knows, no one can judge him for it or tell him that itâs wrong or that his experiences arenât real. He nods to himself, settling back into bed. Itâs better if no one knows.
-
Regulus doesnât get any sleep that night. Not that he really expected to. He spends the next day dozing off in class and avoiding James. Both are working out great for him until he starts awake, feeling a gentle hand on his shoulder.
He sits up straight on his chair and squints as he looks around. The classroom is empty, except for him and-
âSorry, did I wake you?â James asks. He's standing beside Regulusâs desk, looking down at him with something like concern.
âSâfine,â Regulus mumbles, stifling a yawn.
James sits on top of the desk next to Regulusâs. âYou look tired,â he says. âAre you okay?â
Regulus still doesnât know how to react to people showing him genuine concern. Itâs not something heâs really used to. âIâm fine,â he says, perhaps a bit too forcefully. He stands up, almost knocking over his chair in the process, and starts quickly packing up his things.
âHey, uh,â James says, nervously messing up his hair in that way he does. âThereâs something we should probably talk about.â
The kiss. Reg was desperately hoping James would pretend it never happened. He slings his bag over one shoulder and starts towards the door. âIâm sorta in a rush.â
James stands up. âReg, please,â he says. âI⊠I really need to talk to you about it. Please.â
Regulus sighs, but stops in the doorway. âWe donât have to,â he says in an almost pleading tone, turning around to face James. âIt doesnât matter.â
âYou donât understand.â James looks at him with big doe eyes. âReg, it matters to me.â
He regards James for a while, before nodding, signalling for him to say whatever it is he wants to say.
James takes a deep breath. âSo, er⊠The thing about the kiss,â he begins, fidgeting nervously with the strap of his bag. âIt sorta⊠made me realize something? About myself?â
Regulus has never seen him this nervous. He waits in silence for him to go on.
âShit,â James mumbles, rubbing his face with his hands. âI feel like Iâve rehearsed this conversation all day, but now I just, like⊠Have no idea what to say.â He takes another deep breath. âScrew it, Iâm just gonna say it, okay? I really fucking liked that kiss and I havenât been able to stop thinking about it and also Iâm bisexual.â It comes out as a quick string of words with no pause for James to breathe - or for Reg to interrupt him.
James looks at him; nervous, expectant, awaiting. But Regulus really doesnât know what to say. He feels a tight knot in his stomach. âOh,â he finally manages.
âAh, shit,â James says frantically. âThatâs right, there was something else I was gonna say, something important. I, er⊠I completely get it if you donât feel the same way. I donât want this to ruin our friendship, because I really care about you and I donât wanna lose you. I just⊠really needed to get this off my chest.â
He sounds so genuine. Of course he does, Reg thinks and feels stupid. When has James ever been anything but genuine, honest and loyal? When has he ever judged Reg or turned his back on him for anything? James knows him better than he allows most people to, and if thereâs anyone Reg can talk to about this, itâs him.
âThereâs something I need to get off my chest too,â Regulus says quietly.
Jamesâs eyes widen. âOh? What is it?â
Reg sets down his bag and goes to sit by the desk opposite James. He doesnât look at him as he starts talking. âIâm aroace. I donât experience⊠that kind of attraction. Romantic or sexual. Itâs⊠not exactly that the kiss made me realize it. Or maybe it did. But I kinda already knew. I just⊠wasnât ready to admit it to myself, I suppose? Also I didnât really know the word for it. But⊠yeah, thatâs who I am and I canât do anything to change that, just as you canât change the fact that youâre bi, so⊠I hope you wonât hate me now.â
When James stays quiet, Regulus forces himself to look up. James is looking at him with an unreadable expression, and Regâs stomach drops. This was a terrible idea. He shouldâve known he couldnât tell anyone. He has ruined everything. James opens his mouth but before he can say anything, Reg has pushed out his chair and is walking toward the door with swift steps.
âNevermind,â he says, ignoring the stinging of tears in his eyes.
âReg, wait!â
âForget everything I just said.â
-
James finds him rather quickly, at the area behind the school thatâs nearly hidden with shrubs. Itâs where he comes when he needs to be alone, and he knows itâs also where Sirius comes to smoke.
Regulus is sitting on the ground with his back against a tree trunk, not caring if his clothes get dirty. James sits down about a meter away from him, but doesnât speak, so Regulus is the one to break the silence:
âAre you upset because of my sexuality or because I donât have feelings for you?â he asks. His voice is harsher than he meant it to be, but at least itâs not shaking.
James draws in a sharp breath, turning to face him. âIâm not upset at all!â he exclaims. âWhat on earth gave you that idea?â
Heâs⊠not upset? Regulus clears his throat. âWell,â he mumbles. âYou didnât say anything.â
âIâm sorry,â James says earnestly. âI didnât really know what to say. And you didnât exactly give me a lot of time to think before you stormed off.â
Now Reg feels like heâs the one who should apologize. He doesnât, though. Just stares straight ahead at the shrubs surrounding them.
âIâm really sorry I made you feel this way, Reg,â James says softly. âI promise Iâm not upset. I care about you. A lot. And I, er⊠I may not know that much about this stuff, but Iâm gonna do research on it so I can support you the best I can, because I care about-â He cuts himself off. âNo, wait, I already said that part,â he mumbles, laughing nervously.
Reg smiles at him. âYou hate doing research,â he says. âYou avoid it like the plague.â
James laughs again. âShut up, you wanker,â he says, shoving him gently. âThis is different!â
He scoots a bit closer, putting his hand on Regulusâs shoulder. âBut really,â he says, his tone more serious now. âI support you one hundred percent. Youâll always be family to me. So if you want, we can just forget all about that kiss.â
âButâŠâ Reg looks up at him. âThe kiss did mean something to you, didnât it?â
James considers this for a moment. âI mean⊠it was a good kiss. And it did sorta⊠force me to come to terms with my sexuality. But what really means something to me is you, Reg, and our friendship. I donât wanna lose that, ever. So⊠do I maybe have a teeny tiny crush on you? Yeah, I think I might, but itâs honestly no big deal. It wonât change anything between us, I promise.â
He holds out his pinky finger, and it takes Regulus several moments to realize what heâs doing. He holds up his own pinky and laces it with Jamesâs.
âI just realized, Iâm kind of an asshole,â he says after a bit. âI practically dismissed your coming out because I was so worried about my own.â
âOh.â James chuckles. âMate, donât worry about it. I completely understand.â
âIf you want, you can tell me again and I will try to react better,â Reg offers.
James shakes his head, amused. âI⊠alright,â he says, grinning. âRegulus?â
âYes?â
âIâm bisexual.â
Reg smiles at him. âOh, okay!â he says, acting as though itâs the first heâs hearing of this. âThatâs lovely. Iâm very happy for you. And⊠obviously, I support you, and I care about you a lot, too.â
Jamesâs grin grows wider. âThank you,â he says.
They sit quietly for a while, before James speaks again:
âDo you wanna come over today? Mum is making pancakes for dessert. And we can play Mario Kart.â
Regulus groans, but canât quite suppress a smile. âUgh, I donât wanna play Mario Kart against you. You always win. I swear youâre cheating, somehow.â
âHow would I cheat at Mario Kart?â James asks with a laugh.
Reg shrugs, crossing his arms. âI donât know, but I donât wanna play with you either way.â
âOkay, well⊠You can play against Sirius? Or you two can team up and try to beat me together,â James suggests, nudging his shoulder. âCome on, itâll be fun. And pancakes.â
âFine,â Reg says, as if he wasnât going to say yes from the beginning. âBut only because of the pancakes.â
James nods solemnly. âThatâs fair,â he says, and Reg tries not to smile like an idiot, but itâs hard not to because at least for now, all of the worries and doubts swirling in his chest have been driven away by a warm, relieved feeling.
âJames?â he says.
âYeah?â
He doesnât actually know what to say, so he just wraps his arms around James and pulls him into a hug. James hugs him back tightly, and Regulus feels incredibly lucky to have a friend like him.
#regulus black#james potter#marauders#marauders era#muggle au#modern au#fanfiction#marauders fanfic#marauders fanfiction#bisexual james potter#aroace regulus black
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