#but he was a lot goofier and all his mean comments were just taken as jokes 😳

[anthony-burchs-dog]

tl;dr. op you’re so right. excuse my indulgently long stream of consciousness rant on your post.

god i have so many more thoughts to add. something i can’t stop THINKING about is the PAUSES and the TIMING and the LACK OF PAUSES!!!!! in moments where scary might’ve had a moment to genuinely open up and kind of unravel her mask and her defenses. they have moved on so fast! like that episode that ended with terry jr leaving, we all know that scary really meant the opposite — it was so clear in beth’s voice — and i so ravenously believe that if she’d had a little more time to really realize NO, she DOES care abt terry and she DOESNT want the last thing she says to him to be mean — maybe it would’ve been different!!!!! there’s another moment too but i can’t remember when it was — and then there’s times where i’ve been S C R E A M I N G at link and normal and taylor to slow down and not let the little chink in scary’s armor pass — like stop, and be vulnerable for REAL, not just expect her to share out of nowhere but really let the pauses sit, let the offer of shelter and trust linger in the air bc scary is a scared animal! she bites and claws you bc she doesn’t know you and she’s scared! she hasn’t learned that things can be another way yet and she’s terrified of getting hurt! and now she’s cornered! i really believe that scary is trying her hardest just like everyone else to find the right path forward—she turned for help to an adult she trusts 😔 and he killed a guy. is the weight of that death on scary’s shoulders? she let willy out. she told willy to kill him/asked willy to kill him. she knew what willy would do. but… she’s a teenager, and willy is literally like so old. soooooooooo old. her heart was in the right place, right? agh!!! i can’t say it was her fault! she’s a teen! she’s a traumatized teen! all her friends are traumatized too! they made her the leader but only when it was hard or not fun to be leader! they played so much d&d without her! also holy shit i feel that so deeply in my heart soooooo painfully every time i think about. like it’s funny and it was a GREAT bit and then they turned it into something that haunts me every day. scary had no idea how to play and she tried and she did it completely wrong but alsooooooo it was funny! wasn’t it still a little fun! idk! just like! she keeps being made the leader and she steps up and makes choices that seem good to her based on her knowledge and her past and the info she has and every time everyone’s like!!! no not like that! be the leader but don’t do that!! which is hard!! leading is hard for grown ass adults! harder still as teens! and also! the rest of the teens can and should be mad at her 💜 bc they’re kids too. what scary really needs is an adult who will love her unconditionally and can help her see what she’s doing—what’s happening, who can help her understand why she feels the way she does and help her understand why she keeps doing things the way she does and help her understand how her friends are reacting to her and help her make HER choices about how she wants to be and act, ,,,,,, idk someone like her MOM or TERRY would be GREAT!!!!!!!!! or WHATEVER!!!! you know what else i think about tho is that scary is literlaly exactly like terry 🥺 they’re both so/were so angry at their stepparent for the loss of their 1st parent and took it into themselves, internalized it as maybe their own fault, and now terry’s accepting whatever scary throws at him and i think HE thinks he’s giving her the grace to work through her emotions in her own time and i think he’s trying his best but idk!! i just think sometimes it comes as that he hates himself too! that he thinks he’s deserves for scary to hate him and never want to be around him! (he may have actually yelled about this but i don’t remember for sure lol). and like!! terry my love!! what kind of example are you setting for scary! if you can’t love and forgive yourself for how you were as a kid or for the things you’ve done, how can scary learn to? (that’s an oversimplification i KNOW but that’s the dynamic i feel between them. like you obvi don’t have to be able to love yourself to love others or teach

others to love themselves but my god terry :( you deserve love and so does scary 🥺 and link and normal and taylor

um in short, i am also SO normal about these characters and this podcast. not weird or obsessed at all 😳

feeling extremely normal about these podcast characters tonight.

[lilhwahwa]

ATEEZ Maknae-Line Reaction: First Date

Hyung line here

Not that it was requested but I’ll still write it...

MASTERLIST

San

★ Sweet boy.

★Was playing really tough and confident when asking you as if he had everything planned- but he really didn’t...

★ I see him as someone chill and intimate yet fun, he’d be happy wherever you were, so he’d go anywhere you want. Some date ideas might be: A small restaurant/cafe somewhere, arcade, picnic at night, a walk in the park. 

★ He would whip out his best cologne and date outfit. He knows he is charmy but boy might be a little insecure anyway because he can’t read your mind and just hopes you like him, please compliment him. 

★ Tries to pull his serious/stage face but ends up smiling and chuckling shyly when he meets you up from the excitement.

★ Would compliment you cheesily and make you blush a lot because he thinks you look cute like that. Would just love to make you flustered but get flustered himself a second later.

★ Very important that you’re comfortable during every second of the time you spend with him. He will make sure to initiate talk so that there is no awkward silence. 

★ The talks might get a little deep with him, nothing too overboard but just enough to know what a thoughtful boy he is.

★ Will keep small things from your date as a reminder or buy something matching for you and him to have. 

★ Will look at you with stars in his eyes and kiss your hand like a traditional gentleman. If you want a real kiss though, he wouldn’t deny you, but you gotta ask... 

★ Writes you a paragraph some hours after the date explaining how much he enjoyed it/inviting you on another day. 

Mingi

★ Whipped boy. 

★ Will show off to you about asking you out, you get me? Like will have his own little moment and praise himself while you’re literally right there. “Of course you want to go on a date with me”. Very happy and loud though.

★ He’s pretty energetic and excited easily so he would want to go out and do some fun things together. Likes chilling too but for the first date I feel he would want to show his energetic side. Some date ideas might be: Amusement park (he really likes you if he goes on the scary rides/ haunted house), Carnival, Ice Skate/ Rollerblades (not sure if it will be successful but it’s fun), Listening to mixtapes he made for fun while taking a walk/ swinging on swings in a park.

★ Wouldn’t go too flashy on the outfit, maybe a soft, street boy type vibe? Will bring an oversized jacket to be cheesy and give it to you later oops. His hair is styled though...took him hours.

★ Would bring you flowers because he asked his mom told him too + he’s cheesy.

★ Teases you playfully about going with him and acts confident, he’s whipped for you tho...

★ Knows how to be all gentleman-y and will make you feel very comfortable and taken care of. 

★ Ask him to tell you funny stories, he’ll make you a whole interesting movie script, it’s very very interesting.

★ Would be a little shy initiating skinship, but might do it without noticing like putting his arm around your shoulders naturally.

 ★ Will give you a drama-like long hug, giggling lightly. 

★ Will text you all confidence aside to genuinely tell you he enjoyed himself a lot. (But makes a quirky comment right after...)

Wooyoung

★ Sexy boy

★ I mean, it’s Wooyoung. Can you really say no? Not sure you can. The way he asks you puts others to shame because he’s so chill and it almost seems effortless how casual he was, not in a bad way though. Boy took a long time though observing your signs.

★ENERGETIC but also intimate. 

★ He wants to have fun with you. I mean you could be anywhere with him and it would be hella lit but since we’re talking activities here...some date ideas might be: Amusement park, festival, go kart, arcade, dance workshop. 

★ He looks good in anything and everything like the other members. He will put in effort but not too much since he’s comfortable with you and wearing what he wants. Probably and oversized shirt with cool printings hehehe. 

★ Will treat you like a friend and not have any real filter over what he says or does.

★ Will make inside jokes with you or just joke around in general about random things.

★ You laugh a lot together and it’s just lighthearted and comfortable.

★ Will give you suggestive looks or run his fingers through his hair to fluster you to feed his pride.

★ Very laid back and non-judgy, down to earth so you can easily discuss any topic or make any joke with him.

 ★ Will be very cheesy and plans a kiss in his head right before you leave to go back home.

★ Will give you a breathtaking but short kiss to make you look forward to more.

★ Might text a short message after, asking to go out again. 

Jongho

★ Expensive boy.

★ Would think it through for a long time and observe you closely before finally asking you on a date kinda awkwardly because he wasn’t too sure about what emotion to engage in this nerve-wracking situation really. If you are a little close since before he might be more chill about it.

★ He might enjoy an intimate and laid back date, but will not hesitate to spoil you. Kinda a mix of like Seonghwa and Hongjoong. Some date ideas might be: Eating street food, cafe, might go extra and rent a hot air balloon..., drive in a movie/picnic. 

★ Will make sure to look very styled and fancy for you but also for him to feel himself. Chanel perfume ;)))

★ Will pick you up and drop you off from the date.

★ Smiles gummy smile at you softly.

★ Very attentive and open for communication. He’s interested about you a lot and will probably listen more than talk. 

★ Knows exactly what emotion or topic to engage in different situations because he’s very observant of you and how you’re feeling.

★ Will act goofier after some time as he loosens up a little.

★  Will spoil you to anything you’d like, insists on it. 

★ Very very respectful and might not initiate a lot of skinship or suggestive stuff to make sure he doesn’t push you. 

★ If you do want to initiate some type of skinship, would prefer it in some place a little more private. 

★ Might give you a hug if you got comfortable together and smile at you sweetly...(caresses your head gently too...) 

★ Will talk on the phone after the date, maybe until you fall asleep even.