#but genuinely i hope everyone following this blog is blessed by peace and joy all through this year and many others

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I hope 2024 treats you with love and kindness <3

i hope 2024 treats you with vampires and werewolves and other creatures <3 sexy style <3

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“to all admins (who are so beautiful it is sO UNFAIR) : it’s me!!! sofia ahaha and im sending this a lil early because i wont be home for christmas (:p) and i’d like to thank all of you because i can’t send over gifts due to the ocean. damned water. somewhere in december, i think on the 14th??? i will have known this blog for 5 months ! which isn’t that long but im looking forward to spending many more weeks and months on this wonderful blog. all the admins are so, so friendly, nice, amazing, interesting, beautiful, etc etc. thank you for talking to me ! thank you for being here for me during the tough times! thank you for your advice, thank you for your jokes, your rants, your posts, your everything. this blog has given me as much joy as seventeen does. really! i’m so happy i stumbled upon this blessing of a blog when i was still a baby carat and needed more knowledge. 

but please, you guys, get enough rest okay? i heard that someone (like joshua’s wife cough) doesnt get enough sleep and i swear im flying over. all of you are humans and you need rest. you all are in school and you need rest from school (which can be a pain lets be honest) and a break from writing. remember, we, as your readers and fans, care more about your health than how fast you answer our asks. we want you all to be happy and we wish we could give you back the happiness youve given us with this blog. i hope that in 2018, the blog will earn many,many more followers, the admins will make many more friends, and get more supporters (ok but i still dont understand why and how people send hate to the admins?? like fuck you man, these people work so hard arghhh don’t send them hate just because you’re pathetic and lonely and deprived of love and all the good things in life. Legit everytime I see a post about a hater i want to throw a pan at the shithole who hated on these amazing creatures. @jun @minghao @hoshi @scoups jom let’s go beat up the haters im bringing my frying pan and my sunat knife y’ALL BETTER WATCH OUT LATER KENA I SUNAT YOU) drink water, not alcohol : okay sO YOU’RE TELLING ME THAT A HUMAN IS ALLOWED TO BE A TALENTED WRITER, PRETTY ENOUGH TO BE A MODEL AND BE A SINGER ????? JESS IDC WHAT YOU SAY YOU ARE G O R G E O U S YOU’RE SO QR3UBFD-BGQIF and you’re so talented and friendly and n i c e. You’RE SO HARDWORKING AS WELL YOU’RE IN YOUR LAST YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL AND STILL WRITE ON THIS BLOG AS OFTEN AS YOU CAN (it really touched me when i told you me and my best friend were fighting and you sent me tons of dino pics and tagged me in pictures of him. that really cheered me up , thank you :D) i think you’re the first admin i started to talking to hahahaha and even though im really annoying you still talked to me? like ?? i heard that you’re in your last year of high school and i wish you the best of luck !!! do only what you want to do. Don’t stress about choosing the right college/uni or the right course, just do what you want to. Please take your time with the blog, college tends to stress writers out and whenever you feel stressed rEST PLEASE. pls make many many new friends in college and have a better diet than ramen 24/7 which doesnt sound too bad but that’s a lot of sodium. i hope everything goes well for you but remember if anything goes wrong or u just wanna talk im here! love youuu bb. 10:10 : ok sERI. WE REALLY NEED TO FIND TIME TO TALK because whenever i text you you’re in class and whenever you text me im about to sleep (damn these timezones) sighh. it’s okay if i ever have kids, i’ll sell them and buy a plane ticket to meet you. okay when i first started talking to you i was really impressed because you’re really..tough? like i really people with thick skin and people who don’t give a shit about what other say and tbh i’m trying to be more like that. people like that are so cool !! and ur so pretty and cool sighh im so jealous (you have vv nice lips dONT TAKE THIS THE WRONG WAY I JUST THINK THEY’RE VV PRETTY oR dO I) also you’re really smart ! like you’ve gotten full marks for a test like woah hoshi is so lucky. i hope you remain thick skinned and brush the haters away, but it’s okay to feel bad once in a while, you’re only being human. but you can talk to me any time you feel down or u just wanna talk or rant or vent. i hope you don’t stress about school, please take a break if you have to (i dont want you to go away i want you to get the rest you deserve)anyways i love you ! my name is soonyoung, call me soon : APA KHABAR MY MALAYSIAN FREN ahaha im soooo happy i met you on tumblr. *ur the aesthetic queen* . i hope that we meet in person soon or one day because we live in the same country and won’t it be cool to see each other? we should have a photoshoot together. speaking of photoshoot im very happy to have a model sensei to teach me how to pose. also ur one hell of a sweetheart. you always share fandom things with me and i tend to fangirl in the middle of tesco or class because of you. hmm if seventeen ever come back to malaysia we should meet at their concert, given both of us are going. i’d really love to know more about you lmao you’re so interesting and you’re really patient with me!!! which is reallly nice. okay bb let’s find a date when both of us are free and leggo have some fun. i hope you don’t ever have to feel sad. well actually i think sadness is vital to humans so maybe anger. i hope you’ll continue to be very peaceful and freak out w carats and kpop fans across the glose and i hope that one day you’ll see naega hosh up close and p e r so nal. ilysm bb xxx my i geddit because wo ai ni so ur my love heh : hello my wife /name twin ish / dancer girl / jun’s / blessing to thie world. oh my god we need to talk moreeeee. ur so funny and we’re so alike (like we both swear like pigs) but we’re different because you’re so good at dancing! heck, whenever i dance i blind people from a 5 kilometre radius. all the other admins say you could dance my i with jun and i am sHOOK BECAUSE ho l ee s h i et also do you know what i would give to see you dance with jun? i’d give up all my memes. yeah, that’s right. my knowledge of all memes and vines and fre sh a vacado. apart from your dancing skills, you’re very, very pretty. i can’t believe you think you’re ugly , sweet jisoos, you’re have… the beauty of all the sunsets in the world. you’re actually really nice (stop protesting) because you’ve listened to me rant about all the damn drama in my life and you gave me advice. and you’ve never lost your patience with me. jeez i love youuuu !!! you’ve laughed with me and sent me dino pics to make my heart explode and you were there when i did something really stupid on kakaotalk. sighhh good times amirite? well we can still talk on tumblr. i hope you continue being yourself, the amazing person you are. xx love you to bits. seventeenteenteen : i survived. you havent killed me yet. i have stuck to dino faithfully. well actually, my first bias for like, a week, was memesol but then dinosaur found his way into my heart. i know y’all are busy and it may be hard but please rest. please don’t read mean comments, please love yourselves, please eat well. please do anything that would make you happy. each and every one of you are so, so important to me and i hope all of you are healthy. the8 please rest, i hope you get better soon. scoups, i hope that fever is gone. dino, i hope you find someone that makes you really really happy and i hope you wake up with a smile on your face each day and i hope people will stop prying into your personal life because you deserve to find someone you love and you deserve to be able to love that person without hate. i hope all of you don;t feel pressured to keep away from relationships because of selfish “fans” and i hope all of you will be happy. @josh @hoshi @jun you guys, please take care of your aegis. @josh wish ur gf luck for college, @hoshi stop killing these girls w ur visuals and @jun im waiting for u and sophia’s dance duet. i love all of you with all my heart <3333 thank you for a wonderful 5 months, i hope many more will come. love, sofia xx add on : i wrote this note before jonghyun killed himself and i’d just like to say this to everyone. the admins and the readers ; please ask for help. you are not alone. people are here for you. mental illness is not and will never be a light topic. suicide is never the answer. i know it’s hard but you need to stay, because we need you. i need you. it doesnt matter if we are close friends or complete strangers : you are so important. you are strong and brave and kind and smart and beautiful and you can get through this. you have people willing to listen. if somehow the whole world refuses to listen, im here. there are people around you who care deeply about you and please, stay. if any of you feel sad about the recent tragedy, take a break from tumblr, okay? i love all of you and please, stay safe. — sofiafabulousphan”

Admin Jess: Sofia, bb T^T I honestly can’t express how much your words mean to me. I love you so so much thank you for everything. I honestly won’t deny, it’s hard. I think it will always be difficult to a certain degree to run this blog. Not that I don’t love every second of it believe me, I just (LMAO LEAVE IT TO ME TO START TEARING UP IN THE MIDDLE OF TYPING THIS) I’ve never wanted to do something I wanted to just because I can.  I don’t run this blog expecting anything in return. I do it because I genuinely love, love the happiness it brings other people, because I love seventeen and I love doing it all. If I didn’t love it with all my heart I don’t think I would have held up this long. You’re right, it’s my last year of high school. My hardest year because I decided to take a multitude of difficult classes. I have cried tears over so many classes (I’m crying writing this response omfg PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER JESS), I have had plenty of mental breakdowns, a lot of crying whenever someone simply asks me if I’m ok or suggests I get more sleep. I have been an emotional wreck all year. It is my fault though, I did decide to take challenging courses this school year, but one can only run on four hours of sleep everyday for so long and not be emotional I guess. AND I WAS TERRIFIED. I was so scared that in the course of this year, through all the difficult hours of studying and finishing homework at 2/3am in the morning before having to wake up at 6am and walk to school by 7am, that I wouldn’t have the time or effort to do just the one thing I wanted to do the most in the world. I only had one real hobby I loved doing and it was running this blog (again hella emotional and dramatic sorry it’s like one am here when I’m writing this). So I forgo sleep to get everything done. It’s not healthy but in my mind, if I gave up on this blog for one day, that one day might turn into two days, which would turn into a month, and then I’d never be able to do anything ever again just because I kept pushing it off, treating it as if it didn’t mean the world to me when it so very dearly does. OK I’M RAMBLING ABOUT MYSELF NO ONE CARES JESS AHEM,,, My point is, I sacrificed sleep for school and this blog not because I was forced to, but because if I slept, this feeling of guilt when I woke up in the morning, a feeling of “ahh I could have done more, I could have been better” would permeate my mind for who knows how long. I didn’t want to disappoint anyone. I hate disappointing people. So to hear you say this blog and all the stuff we do on it makes you happy? It makes me think maybe I’m not such a big disappointment after all, and maybe if I keep working hard, I can continue making more people happier, and that’s all I really want. True, with college approaching, I can’t make any guarantees. I anticipate not being able to do anything at all, and that idea is scary too and makes me want to work even harder now while I still can. I will definitely try to get more rest though??? I mean no one likes a sleep-deprived me at 3am lmao, I may seem nice but at 3am I’m bawling my eyes out over homework and cursing at my posters and pictures of Seventeen and school and textbooks in like three different languages (it’s not pretty lol). So yes rest? Idk what that is... but I’ll try??? fjnvksjn? I think I recall when you first sent in an ask, I’m not too sure but honestly the blog is about as old as you’ve been here so thank you for being one of our first supporters (did you have a book with a flower icon hmm trying to recall)! The hate I think will always be a thing I’m sure, I just don’t know how to deal with it T-T I am very naturally a sensitive human bean, what can I say... LMAO I’M NOT GORGEOUS THOUGH it’s called filters, lighting, angles, and makeup. The only reason I look anywhere near decent is because I use a combination of those things to hide all my flaws LMAO. As for singing, I’m not super? I can sing a pitch correctly I suppose? I can sing a chromatic scale? Idk if that qualifies as good singing (I can definitely sing svt songs in broken Korean shamelessly no matter where I go though). I’m really not that good, but I’m not awful like a dying seal or smth. I don’t even think I’m a talented writer, I just try my best I guess. I do sincerely try my hardest. YOU’RE NOT ANNOYING AT ALL I 117% would listen to you rant or scream about anything and I’m just super grateful you don’t think I’m annoying lsnfdnvd. OF COURSE I THINK YOU AND CHAN ARE THE CUTEST (or you and Jongdae pick your poison;) and of course I sent all those Channie pics omfg, I’m always here if you need it^~^ Thank you for all your kind words love (AND IMMA PRETEND YOU DIDN’T CALL ME JOSHUA’S WIFE BC MY HEART CAN’T TAKE IT KDFJNVKSBBDIBI I’LL CALL YOU CHAN’S WIFE ISTG I WILL) make sure to take care of yourself and you’re always welcome to come talk to me bb :)

Admin Meagan:  aaaHHHHHHH, really appreciate you Sofia ✨😩 Gosh, can't believe you wrote us sub a long essay AHAHAHAH. Also, SUNAT KAU AHAHAHAHAHAHAH (Non-Malaysians  wouldn't understand lmao) But yeeeee, thank you so so much baby for taking the time to send this ask in <3 It's been amazing knowing you and gosh you are such a sweetheart! Also, Chinese New Year is soon, let's go out together ;)) Cafe hopping at SS15 maybe? Hehe. I want my postcard AHAHA and to spend time with you of course!! <3 You are such a bright individual and Chan loves you hella lots. Thank you for always sending us such encouraging messages and for being a good pal really. But for reals, you mean a lot to me and gosh I can't wait to meet you. Also I not model material lah AHAHAH, only a certain days ;) but yess!! A photoshoot would be amazing haha, I can try to teach you some tips lmao. And yes, thank you for caring about our mental health. January hasn't been the best month for me, honestly it's been horrible but stuff like this really warms up my heart yah know. So yes, really really appreciate you man. Keep being so spunky and loveable. Take care, stay safe and I hope we get to meet each other soon ❤️

Admin Seri: SERIously SERIously, you have no idea how much this warmed my heart. ahh i so wish we could find a better time to talk, i’ll work on that :’) i’m not very good at expressing my feeling through words! and for that mianhae mianhae. in fact, that’s one very VERY COOL thing about you!!! expression your feelings isn’t the easiest and hey, use those feelings to brush for those haters. as you know love, other people’s opinions don’t effect me BUT THERE’S NOTHING WRONG with being affected! just know, those people are irrelivant, and once you realize they can’t do a single fucking thing to you unless you let them, it gets a bit better <3 but GIRL i remember you from the VERY being!!! i can’t believe you stuck around this long , you’ve seen all the changes, how much we’ve grown, it’s seriously amazing. becoming an admin (sure as hell didn’t know it back then) was definitely my HIGHLIGHT of twenty seventeen. there’s not a day that goes by where i regret it, not at all, even when our inbox is loaded or when i have writers block. and you being here along that journey warms my heart so so much! i’m not kidding sometimes i find myself in the middle of the night looking through all the comments or reblogs and GOSH i just see every single sweet sweet message you leave. AND OH MY GOD I’M ALREADY FOR SURE GONNA VISIT AJVBELJNGR IM ALREADY PLANNING TO ONE DAY TO SEE MEAGAN SO LIKE DUHHHH WE COULD MEET UP!!! just augh i’m super super grateful for you message jinja jinja ily~~~ <333 !!! {p.s. i totally wrote bodyguard reader! Chan thinking of you, ngl}

Admin Soph: As much as I love you and as much as you’re my ai. DONT GIVE UP YOUR MEMES FOR ME WTAF. MAN I LOVE YA BUT MEMES ARE IMPORTANT XD. And you might only be disappointed after watching me dance with Jun. Ah I wish we could talk more too :””) We get along so well and Im fucking positive were soulmates just looking at how similar we are XD. Ah im not really good at things like this. Im really speechless because damn boi I love ya and you took the time to write all this for us :””). Youre an angel sent from the heavens. AND ME PRETTY??? NUUUUUUUU.Just like what Jess said, filters and lighting exists. Im only cute tho (char). But youre more prettier than me love. Both inside and outside. You're as beautiful as the northern lights. And like the northern lights, you light up my dark days :””). We dont talk much but we always check up on each other man. Goddamn I love ya. I hope we can make more stupid but fun memories together ^^. And I will literally hug the shit outta you when we meet. Also can we like talk about how much we appreciate ya? You’re always in our inbox sending adorable and heartwarming asks to both Svt and us. I remember telling you that your asks about the admins literally brightens our day. How you're little “I hope the admins stay safe” means so much to us. I really hope you only experience happiness for the rest of your life. You’re a person I really appreciate and love. AS MUCH AS I LOVE JUN. HELL YEAH I SAID IT. hAHHAH Dont be afraid to come to me if you have any problem. I will always be here to talk to you and help you love ^^. Please take care of yourself too. DonT FUCKING SKIP MEALS. GET A LOT OF SLEEP OR IM GETTING CHAN AND JONGDAE. Ah im sorry if I didnt say a lot. I want to say a lot but I literally dont know what to say :””). I WILL MESSAGE YOU A LONG AS MESSAGE ON YOUR BDAY OR SOMETHING. I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY TO YOU GADBSVF ASNMK. For now, I love you and take care of yourself. You are loved by a lot and I hope your life gets filled with happiness and joy. Im also always here if you ever need to talk ^^

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I started a small shop!!

It feels so crazy to say that…BUT I DID IT!  As some of you already know (from Facebook) I recently opened a small little shop called “Sweet Autumn Rain”.  And yes, it’s namesake is Scarlett Rain ❤

I know to some it might seem random but honestly, crafting is just another one of those things that I love to do. Making “homemade” things have always been so much FUN! I’ve done everything from bookmarks, decals, t-shirts, Halloween Costumes! You name it, I’ve probably done it once or twice. Am I a professional at it – heck no! But I sure do put a lot of love, heart, and soul into it.

This past Christmas (2018) I made a ton of personalized gifts for everyone in my family. Some of those gifts were faux leather earrings for all of the women & close friends in my life. As I was making them, I realized not only was I actually pretty good at it, but people LOVED them & it was something that I had a lot of fun doing.

If you know me personally, you know that I am definitely a jeans, t-shirt & sneakers kind of girl. I don’t wear much jewelry AT ALL other than my Apple Watch and the few pieces that BJ has gifted me over the years. HOWEVER, when I was in high school, I was still a jeans & t-shirt kind of girl, but I always liked to wear a set of really cute earrings to “dress up” my outfit.

So it shouldn’t have come as such a surprise when I realized that MAKING earrings were something I really LOVED doing. (It was one of those “duh” moments lol)

Opening a shop, wasn’t exactly on my list of things I wanted to accomplish for myself this year. But I figured – why not!? I have time, I love doing it, and people really seem to be interested in them. So I’m giving it a try and so far, it’s going really well. (Thank you, Jesus!) As I mentioned before, self-care and doing things for ME is one of my focus’ this year and something I’m trying to be better at.

Blogging has definitely brought so much joy and peace into my life.  I don’t ever feel the pressure or need to write or post things. It’s just something I genuinely enjoy doing. I’m proud of this blog. I’m proud of myself for having the courage to put my writing out there for the world to see. Now, if anyone reads what I write… I have no idea & I have no idea if people actually enjoy my writing, but the not knowing doesn’t bother me and I’m not really worried what the answer might be. Because as much as I appreciate those who have taken the time to read my stuff, I’m not doing this for you. I do this for me.

The same can be said for my new little shop! I hope it’s successful and so far it has been. But, if it’s not or something goes wrong, then that’s okay. At least I can say that I tried. (Plus, I can just wear all of my cute earrings myself and be HAPPY! 😉 )

I think my favorite part so far about this little adventure of mine (aside from picking out all of the beautiful colors & patterns I use) is the support I have from my family. No matter what I have done or tried to do in the past, they have always been my #1 fan-club and have cheered me on. For that, I can’t tell you all how much I love and appreciate you. ❤ You guys are the BEST!

SO!!

If you are interested and would like to see this little creation of mine – follow the link below (and be sure to let me know if you came from here!).

Sweet Autumn Rain

Thank you guys for your time! I hope you have a beautiful & blessed day.

Love,

Maria

    Sweet Autumn Rain I started a small shop!! It feels so crazy to say that...BUT I DID IT! As some of you already know (from Facebook) I recently opened a small little shop called "Sweet Autumn Rain".

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Mother shares why she's wearing maternity jeans 2 years after having her third child in viral video

Tiffany Jenkins shares the harsh truth about shopping after having three children. (Photo: Getty Images)

It’s no secret that being a mom is one of the toughest jobs. But one woman is doing her part in making it a bit easier — and more entertaining — with the hilarious honesty that she shares on her blog. Titled Juggling the Jenkins, Tiffany Jenkins‘s shares how she manages her life as a wife and a mother-of-three. What sets her apart from other influencer parents is how real she is about the less glamorous aspects of the role, like the disappointment of shopping for herself after having three children.

In her latest video posted to Awestruck — referred to as the “mom’s network” — Jenkins tackles the topic of her first shopping spree since having her youngest child, who is two. She doesn’t dance around the long-term difficulties she’s faced fitting into old clothing and finding new clothing that’s flattering at a reasonable cost, but instead she calls it like it is and shares her own distress with others who likely feel the same.

“Today I went clothes shopping, and it was the worst experience of my life,” she began in the confessional clip. “I haven’t been shopping for new clothes since before my two-year-old was born. In fact, I’ve been wearing leggings for like the past two years straight. Mainly because: A. Pants are prisons, and B. Because nothing in my closet fits me anymore.”

Chronicling the times she’s shuffled through her own wardrobe only to find the pairs of jeans that haven’t fit since having children, Jenkins says that she finally decided to get some items that she could comfortably wear for a date night. Instead, she was faced with the reality that she can’t shop quite the same way as she had in the past, or in the same stores. But the understandable shift of going from “fun” stores to more conservative “mom” stores became even more relatable when Jenkins talked about the issue of locating a store with consistent and reliable sizing.

“I tried on 29 pair of pants because apparently not only am I no longer a size 12, I’m a size 16,” she continued. “But also, size 16 is different depending on what brand you’re pulling up over your thighs, just like a game.”

Instead, Jenkins admitted to slipping into a pair of maternity jeans, although she’s not pregnant, and feeling right at home. And people, beyond just mothers, couldn’t appreciate it more.

“I’ve literally thought of doing the same thing!!” one person commented. “I want cute jeans that make room for my post-baby tummy that is not what it used to be. The buttons do nothing but make my tummy look like a popped open crescent roll package.” While another simply exclaimed, “Ain’t no shame in the maternity jean game!”

The hilarious video has received a huge reaction — more than 1.5 million views on Facebook — for being so real, which is something that Jenkins tells Yahoo Lifestyle is a vital aspect of her platform.

I'm gonna be honest with you, man… I'm tired. Not in a sleepy way; in an "I feel paper thin, because I'm being stretch so far in each direction that I may rip apart at any moment," way. I wasn't expecting any of this, it has all happened so INCREDIBLY fast. Sometimes it feels like I am a goalie, and hundreds of soccer players are lined up in front of me simultaneously kicking the ball in my direction. I am scrambling to catch all of them and throw some back and let some go, while struggling to catch my breath. It feels as if 1000 tabs are open in my mind all at once. I want to save everyone. I want to make everyone happy. I want to make everyone laugh. I don't know how to NOT want that… It's what I want. But I want to do it on my time, my schedule, when I feel like it. I want to release the ever-growing pressure to create things worthy of approval. The pressure to reply and respond to every person who has beared their soul in my inbox. The pressure to be "different" and "genuine" and "one-of-a-kind". I am one person. With two hands, two eyes and one mouth. I can only be one place at a time, and lately that place has been in my head. Processing, planning,obsessing, worrying,wondering,hoping… I am an addict. I cannot forget that. I cannot allow myself to be overwhelmed, over-worked, under pressure and under the gun I have been forcing myself to function beneath. I have to take pause. I have to take in the milestones of my children who are growing rapidly before my eyes. I have to take my husband into my arms and apologize for being everywhere else but present. I have been blessed with the opportunity to do what I love, and generate income – but it will all disappear in the blink of an eye if I'm not taking care of myself. I look forward to living in peace, creating when I want to create and allowing things to grow organically from a place of joy as oppose to a place of pressure, (from myself). Thank you for being here friends…

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“I felt really defeated that day, and something that makes me feel better is sharing my experiences with others to let them know that they’re not alone,” she explains. “Shopping has always seemed like a chore for me. I think I’ll stick to my husband’s shirts and boxers from now on.”

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Oh look, a sap rant for my 250th post here

//Just me being nostalgic and ranty under the cut.//

So i decided to look back through my old blog and relive all the shit that happened years ago in this fandom and--I’ve literally laughed from all the bullshit (does anyone remember the war? Boys v. Girls there were pegasi and powers and peace was finally reached because of Jason’s abs) and cried from all teh angst (death memes, anti-hero/villain verses, a muse watching the other get tortured but ‘if you make a sound I’ll move to them until they make a sound or one of you dies.’ The gods au where they like. Succeeded the gods of olympus. Remember how early in THAT cluster fuck of feels it was a thing that Piper and Jason couldn’t have a kid because despite now being gods their human genes still made it impossible for the child to survive on Olympus? Cause I do. Among many other painful things) and--

I swear those were golden years to me. There were so many of us and we were all one big happy family (literally at a few points. Still remember polyship hcs) and I swear the depth I got out of almost every interaction (and the laughs that would leave me wheezing from all the CRACK. Never forget that Naruto M!A) was something--is something I can honestly say I’d never been a part of in any other fandom. Maybe it was because Piper was by far the most well known and well loved muse I’d ever had (sorry Giotto but it’s true). Maybe it was because I just met the right people at the right time and found the most brilliant writers by some rare and brilliant fortune.

I still remember and cherish what Cap did for this blog when I first started out. Not only was Pit one of the nearest and dearest muses to Piper’s heart [and he still is] but the mun? That sweet angel was possibly the reason I met such wonderful people like Nat and Daisy and Jessalyn and so many others in the first place. If Cap hadn’t told me to check out Nat’s Jason (at that time the url was...invenustum or something right? I feel like there was another url before that one but i can’t remember for sure...) it might not have been until much later that I stumbled across her and the others--and there is the distinct possibility I never would have become their friends or a member of their social group. I love them to pieces but I know if I hadn’t been introduced to Nat when and the way I was I would’ve been far too intimidated to message any of the lovely people I met afterwards down the line. So I do give a lot of credit for some of my best memories to Cap and Pit because who knows where I would’ve been without that little segway/push?

And then there’s everyone that followed. Contributing to Nat’s mass conversion of all those who entered her territory into Jasiper shippers. Late night talks with Jessalyn about muses, love, and life in general. Jokes and feels with Daisy about Leo and Piper’s most glorious of friendships (and possibility of Leo actually liking and contemplating confessing to Piper before Jason was inserted into their lives and memories) and Leo’s own insecurities and troubles. Angst, angst and more angst from out pain queen creampuff Virginia. Constant support and love from the owner of the pet shop this chinchilla lived in prior to Daisy and Nat adoption (also known as Lexi) and her beautiful OC Jasmine that was the best sister-in-law.

SASSY. PERCY. FOR DECADES. AND PIPER AND PERCY BROTP. Octavian and Piper’s hate/empathetic relationship (its though, loving the same guy). Random crossovers with Harry Potter characters and even Secret Saturdays. All of Piper’s beloved sibilings whether canon or OC. Her beautiful children that lord knows how many people contributed to the making of and later penned by people as amazing as Lexi and Bean (and Jason being the last to know when Junior was conceived. Followed by concerns like “WAIT YO’LL STRETCH THE BABY.”) The list goes on and on. No matter how it happened I still feel blessed to have been accepted by such genuinely kind and beautiful people, supported by so many others whose names I may never know, and crafted memories and experiences that I hope will stay with them for as long as they stay with me.

Many of those friends have moved on to places unknown, but hopefully full of shining prospects and joy. I will always remember the things they’ve done for me--the joy they’ve given me, the insights I had never once considered, the strength to keep moving forward and find a smile no matter how down life got me (whether they knowingly provided it or not)--and I can only hope that even if they don’t remember this chinchilla’s name or anything about our interactions, that at the very least should they think back to their time here with us, I will have provided at least some measure of a pleasurable feeling they can associate with those times. I know they have for me.

As sad as it can be to think about, even those that have been here through the highs and lows, the pops and dwindling of this fandom, won’t be here forever. As many good memories as I have here I know I won’t. As iconic and relieving at Nat, Daisy, and Lexi’s presences on the dash are whenever I return from another unnanounced months long hiatus, one day they won’t be here either. Whether it be days, months, or years from now, I know that one day I’ll log into this account not to roleplay, but to simply remember some of the shining days of my youth these people created. I’d be there knowing all those role models and dear friends have moved on to (hopefully) better places and found contentment in their lives. I’d look to their blogs not to hope that they’ve come back, but to look once more at their final farewell (or last post before they logged off and simply never logged back in) and maybe recount just what they meant to me, and how much that last post means. It’s my sincerest hope and dream to keep in contact with everyone. It’s my must crushing thought to know there’s a chance I won’t (its funny how much people I’ve never even met in person mean to me though). 

I’m sorry--this post took a bit of a sad turn (I know I’m crying at least because I’m just a sap like that), but it wasn’t necessarily meant to be such. It’s just all that reminiscing fills me with a longing for days not likely to return, and feelings that both ache and comfort. I’ll miss those days and people like I miss so many others presently.

But those days may be gone, but there’s still plenty more ahead of us, no? I don’t know how much longer this will last. How many more days I’ll get to log on to the beautifully written prose, and the earnest feelings of love we share for these fictional characters that brought us all together and one another. I don’t know when the last day I or any of my dear friends (the last of my first partners here) make a post will be, or even if there will be a final, heartfelt goodbye to go with it. If I’m being honest I kind of doubt that. Because nothing ever comes out final on tumblr, in my experience. We all part with the message and hope of returning, but with a small whisper from our heart of hearts that tells us we won’t. That the real hope of ever meeting any of those lovely people on the dashboard again would have to be from a chance meeting in that vast outside world we all occupy, or some shining and vague theory of an after life. I don’t know when it’ll come. None of us do.

But until it does happen, I want to continue making memories that’ll follow me forever. I want to write more lines and stumble across more life lessons I hadn’t known I was missing. I want those golden days of the past to shine and slither onto today and everyday after that we’ll share together. I want feelings from sources I may only remember vaguely (or even not at all) when I’m old but still treasure, and names of people I can remember crafting and sharing these blessed, transient days and nights with. I want this blog and my previous one to exist forever--for tumblr to never shut down if only to ensure that these pure, rich, glorious, life changing posts and people will remained forever enshrined with me somewhere. So that even if I should one day forget these things, it doesn’t mean they never happened. That there’s still proof of the times we had and the bonds we shared and posts that may hopefully, one day , make others laugh and cry as we did.

I want this blog--I want Piper and everything and everyone that’s ever touched it, her, me, to live on and be a part of my legacy. These were and still are such defining years of my life and no matter when they come to an end, I never want them to vanish. And I hope you all want that too. I selfishly desire for you to cherish these days and threads and asks as much if not more than I do. For mine to be a name you can recall years later and smile about what I may have left you with.

So hi, my name is Kjirstin Noelle. Commonly known here as Ven or The Chinchilla, I am a 19 year old college student majoring in Media Production that also writes. My dream is to be an actress, or at least contribute majorly to the mass media and entertainment field. I want to star in or produce movies that move and shape others younger than me the same way similar media shaped me. I hope to one day write a book that others can relate to and hold as close as I did the PJO and HoO books and many others like them. I want to create characters and visions that people would want to roleplay the same way Rick Rioridan has for us. I want my works, no matter the platform, to shake and bring people together. To bring them to tears and inspire them to one day do the same.

And more than anything I want to be able to credit any future success I may be met with, to these days on these accounts (and others across many fandoms) and the friends and ideas that formed here. More than anything, I want to carry you all with me and implant the pieces of you that will always linger even after our final farewells, into everything I make, so that one day, those very thoughts and feelings will find their way to another person, and we can ALL know it started here. With me, with you, with friends and ideas come and gone. With forgotten conversations and unforgettable years of tears and joy. So that someone inspired by the things YOU ALL helped me make may want to come back to these accounts and all those related to them, and see for themselves where it all started. To witness the growth we all evoked from one another and keep the memories of days long gone alive when we no longer can.

So. Let’s get writing guys. The history we all will share is already being written, and the works I want to make it into won’t find inspiration from nothing. I look forward to many more threads, head canons, asks, tears, laughter, crack, angst and everything in between with friends both old, present, and not yet made. I love you all, and while this isn’t a yet a goodbye, it is a declaration of everything our time has and will mean to me.