#but damn this might be my new favourite poem i've written

[cassiopeiawritespoetry]

dreams

when i was little, the only thing i ever wanted

was to be someone's love

i never dreamed of a certain place to live

a job to have

or friends to hang out with

all i ever wanted was a partner

i didn't care who they'd be

never thought about the specifics

i just wanted someone to spend my life with

and knew i'd know when i found them

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as i got older

i worried i'd never find who i was looking for

it scared me enough

that i tried to make bad situations work

and stayed longer than i should've

i got hurt enough that i gave up on that dream

and swore to never fall in love again

i accepted my life alone

even though i didn't want it

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then i met you

and for the first time

i felt safe, truly loved, and cared about

everything with you was new

and i wanted it all

i found myself wanting to talk to you all the time

to listen to you talk for hours

and just spend forever in your arms

for the first time everything felt right

and it was like...

i'd found the missing piece that i'd been looking for

all my life

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but good things don't last forever

and i don't think either of us were ready

for all the things we wanted

i know i've grown so much since then

i wonder if you have too

i don't know if we'll come back from this

but it's okay

i've never felt so loved as i did with you

and i'll still think of myself as your honeybee

for as long as i still love you

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right now, i'm still heartbroken

and there's a deep ache in my chest

when i think about you

but i have so much to look forward to

a lifetime of possibilities

so even if it's without you

i think i'll be okay

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i don't know

if i'll ever feel this way about someone again

or if i'll find someone else i want to be with like this

but it's okay

at least i know that i can love

and be loved in return

more than i ever dreamed was possible

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- Cassiopeia, May/June 2023