#but clipping netflix is so annoying LOL maybe later

[skitskatdacat63]

Kinda 😾 rn cause I realized the Senna show made the "can we be equal? 👉👈" scene SOOOO much less intimate/cute. Upon watching it, I was too distracted by "Oh! They're referencing dialog that actually happened!!" but now I'm peeved having rewatched the actual clip 😭

Why would they do this to me specifically

[mermaidsirennikita]

good lord I am so tired of hearing about RJP and his so-called attitude towards Bridgerton. this guy has literally not said a single bad word about Bridgerton or it’s fans. pple are just mad he hasn’t spent every single day tweeting about how much he loved working on Bridgerton or talking about how ‘revolutionary’ it was. lol have pple considered that he viewed Bridgerton as just another job?? He is not part of fandom. maybe he doesn’t want that to be all he is known for. and that’s not an insult to the romance genre.

i reckon s2 will be great, but there is a certain segment of fans that seem to be annoyed that the duke is the character most associated with the show. it is his face pple in general (not fandom) think of when they think about Bridgerton. even pple who haven’t watched Bridgerton still know who the duke is. and a lot of fans really hate that it’s not Kate/Anthony (yet) who the general audience care about.

The thing is that unless you're really plugged into the show or the books, you don't know much about Kate and Anthony at all. We have a clip, some promo photos (most of which aren't of Kate and Anthony together) and a few paragraphs about the plot. If Netflix is smart, they'll promo blitz with Jonathan and Simone (honestly, they should really go for something like that amaaaaazing Outlander EW shoot that imitated old school stepbacks and covers) and then people will get hyped and they'll remember to read the book and so on and so on and so on.

Most people who watched the show probably haven't read the books. They don't know that TVWLM is considered one of, perhaps the best book in the series. They don't know who Kate is. Anthony has yet to ~redeem himself in their eyes, so he's just the brother, you know? The meddling brother.

They know the duke. They fell in love with the duke. My friends literally just refer to him as "the duke" and they adore him. Of course he's what they're focused on.

And RJP took that success and springboarded to other things, which is his right and the smart thing to do. His career is not "Simon from Bridgerton". His career is acting lol, and he's gotta do a lot more to build it up. And let's be real, he's a black actor, so he has to do more than a white actor would. Those opportunities are not going to stick, most likely, and they're definitely not going to stick if he doesn't make the most of them.

He's said nothing bad about the show. He's alluded to the fandom being a bit much towards him, which they have been, but he didn't drag anyone. Fuck, let's compare this to someone who was put in honestly a very similar position--at the mercy of a rabid fanbase, as a romantic hero of a romance series. Robert Pattinson trashed those books. And honestly, Twilight is pretty loaded so I don't think he was entirely off in those terms, but some things he said were demeaning in general, not just towards the books, you know? And he really got little to no backlash for that--he got praised for it later. (And as a former Twilight fan, I have zero ill will about all of that, but I do think he used a type of language discussing things women enjoy that would be side-eyed a bit more these days.). Now he's Batman.

People act as if RJP owes them his life. Like... Dude was on the come up before Bridgerton. I'm not saying he would've blown up as quickly without it, but like....... He was poised for a breakout one way or the other.

RJP has said things about the romance genre that aren't fawning--I doubt he reads it for pleasure lol. But he hasn't said anything that I'd consider insulting. I think his comments are valid and sometimes insightful. An outsider's perspective.

He had a job, he did it well, he finished the job, he left, and he's doing other things. I get no sense that he's ashamed of Bridgerton--I imagine some of the things he sees online are awkward or embarrassing though, as is often the case when you become like this matinee idol type for women. But I don't get the vibe that he looks down on the role. He's just not like.... Soooo grateful to fans. Because ultimately? Where he got is a combination of hard work, and of course, some luck--being cast at the right time, being a naturally hot person. But it was mostly his work. He could be the hottest guy on the planet, with an appealing script, and if he didn't play it well and with charisma, he wouldn't have blown up. He deserves to be able to say "I did this, I earned this, I'm not going to fall over myself to thank people every day".

[weirdthoughtsandideas]

So how did you start to ship Franletta?

Well, when I was a kid, Leonetta was basically the reason I watched the show. I lived for them. Rewatched the show so many times when it was on Netflix, skipped a lot of scenes, because I only wanted to see the scenes that was about them.

And then now i’m older, wiser... more experienced in the ship department. Leonetta was my first big ship ever, but then as I watched a lot of other shows in my teen years, I got a lot of more different kinds of ships. What I discovered was that I have a real guilty pleasure for shipping best friends. I still ship Leonetta very much, though, they are such soulmates.

When Violetta got on Disney plus, I decided to rewatch some random episodes. I mostly watched season 2, as that was my favorite season as a kid, and also s3 wasn’t out on Disney Plus yet (it’s actually still not out where I live. There’s a bunch of clips online in like every language in the world so i’m good and also I have seen it before, but I hope Disney Plus Scandinavia will bring it soon). Anyway, my more ”modern and cool” brain started to notice things like ”Oh my god Naty is totally in love with Ludmila?” and ”Why does it feel like Diego and Leon will kiss in every other scene they have together?” and just finding random scenes I didn’t notice when I was younger and just laughing about how insane this show really is.

Francesca was always my favorite character, but I never really, even as a kid, cared so much about her love life. I always thought Tomás was kinda whiny, Marco was super cute but their relationship didn’t evolve a lot and yeah, she and Diego were cute together, but I was more into the drama of ”omg when will Vilu find out about them oooooh~”. I always loved her friendship with Violetta. And Cami, too, she and Cami had some really funny shennanigans, but I mostly cared about her friendship with Vilu (lol).

So anyways here are some reasons why I ship franletta:

Fran was the first one ever to come to Vilu’s house and Vilu was so excited about it, and they had this little moment on her bed and it was so cute

Violetta wrote ”Amiga” in her diary and then looked at Fran with a sensual look. I knew she wrote ”friend” but like. Still.

In 2x06, Fran goes up super close to Vilu’s face and goes ”you’re my hero!” and Vilu grabs her face and says ”it’s called heroine”

The whole ”Fran moving back to Italy” storyline. Her father realised he couldn’t let Francesca leave Violetta behind. Like, he only mentioned Violetta. Not anyone else. Not even Marco, Fran’s literal boyfriend! He only ever mentioned Violetta as a reason for Fran to stay. Sure, he may have implied all her other friends too, but Violetta was the only one he mentioned so imma go with this now ok

Fran’s dad: ”If you love my daughter as much as you say you do-” OKAY I KNOW, LOVE AS A FRIEND BUT SHUT UP

Them in Madrid together!! Like, Diego and Leon sure were the ones that got some tension here, but Fran and Vilu got some nice moments too

Francesca didn’t want to have a birthday party without Violetta!!

THEY WROTE SONGS ABOUT EACH OTHERRRRRR

Just all the little kisses on the cheeks. I know, I know, that’s a normal standard thing for friends to do, but i’m also kinda sqeak when they just talk and Francesca just gives Vilu a smooch on the cheek

^ My favorite moment of that is when they are talking about the party they will go to and Violetta is not going. So Fran asks if they should do something instead, just the two of them. Violetta says no, Fran continues to ask, but Violetta assures her that it’s fine. Fran is like ”okay” and gives her a big kiss on the cheek before heading to class. And Violetta just... turns around slowly, watching her go.

When they are arguing in season 3 after Vilu found out Fran and Diego dated and Camila sings while both Fran and Vilu have flashbacks of their good memories together while they are apart

You know how Fran used to wear a lot of pants and kind of casual clothes in season 1 and then in later seasons mostly sticking to fancy dresses and skirts? While Vilu on the other hand always wore blouses and skirts and stuff in season 1 and then in season 2 she started to wear more pants sometimes? Maybe, just MAYBE... the girls inspired each other?? Or it could just be an excuse for me to write another reason

I just think they would look cute ok? Also imagine Germán being overprotective over all the boys and Violetta comes home like ”ok good because i’m dating a girl” LIKE THE CHAOS THAT WOULD CREATE WITH HER DAD LOL

As a kid I found Roxy and Fausta funny, but I was annoyed of them always flirting with the boys, as I knew it would lead to something bad. I just liked them being together, being crazy gal pals, without any boy drama

Uh Yeah uh so conclusion I still ship Leonetta but I love Franletta and I believe I may have shipped then too all this time

[lovebunnie]

Do all the asks coward

1. what does your wallet look like?

-i got it as a present from my uncle for christmas and its really expensive but also so ugly im sorry uncle tom. its like that ‘southern fashion’ bullshit that white MAGA moms wear. but it was better than my old wallet, which looks like this and i got when i was 12:

2. favorite color?

- baby pinnk

3. do you own a pride flag, or more than one?

-heres the thing: my parents basically know im not straight but i havent told them. my brother has thought i was a lesbian since freshman year, i have a small pride pin on my backpack, ive never been on a date, its complicated. but no, i dont have one. maybe one day, hopefully.

4. describe your favorite outfit

-black pants, platform doc martens, hoodie under a jean jacket, one clip on earring, and holding my crushes hand :]

5. when was the last time a girl made your heart flutter, and what’d she do?

-okay so theres this girl in my theatre class who is really cute, and she put her head on my shoulder and shes pagan so she drew a little sigil on my arm that means “safe and homely” so like :)))))))))))))

6. do you use nail polish?

-i do, i mostly do black tho

7. do you keep organized?

-absolutely. i have things online filed accordingly, i pick out my outfits the day before, my binders are neat, i learned how to army fold my shirts, i keep my shit CLEAN

8. ever take naps?

-only accidentally. ill be laying in bed watching youtube and next thing you know my autoplay has me watching a markiplier video even tho i dont like him and its 4 hours later

9. who was your first crush?

-idk if this is a real person or not so ill do both. my first fake person crush was either troy from high school musical or frankie stein from monster high. and my first real crush was on a boy named dominic in elementary school. i told him i liked him at the end of 5th grade because i thought i was switching schools but then i didnt and we never spoke again.

10. what are your crush tendencies? fall hard or often?

-both both both. i am the worst with crushes. i have crushes all the time because im romantic and a fucking fool. i have 3 crushes off the top of my head rn and i like them all for different reasons. thats not to say that i want to date them, but its that i like them a lot and i kinda wanna kiss their cheek or hold their hand idk

11. describe your ideal day

-play overwatch with my best friend (u gonble >:) ) then hang out with my cat, go get a smoothie, buy some cool shoes or something, take a shower and be asleep by 9 :,)

12. describe your ideal date

-i have stated that build a bear is an amazing first date and im NOT BACKING DOWN. ITS CUTE AS FUCK AND ILL ACCEPT NOTHING LESS!!

13. whats your favorite food?

-either sushi or strawberries :3c

14. who do you feel most comfortable around?

-my theatre class, people from camp, and gobble

15. what is your favorite compliment to receive?

-i dont have a favorite, any and all are going to make my face go red so i have to cover it and maybe make me cry

16. did you/do you like highschool?

-the first 3 years fucking sucked but senior year has been amazing so far. mostly because i just kinda stopped giving a fuck but its amazing

17. favorite animal?

-i think its cats now. i really like cats

18. do you like your name?

-eh, its okay. its pretty but also it seems like there are 60 million fucking people named grace and its so annoying. i wish it was something more unique idk

19. what kind of weather is your favorite?

-a light rain. no swinging trees or thunder, just lots of rain. its nice to stay inside and feel secure

20. do you believe in horoscopes?

-absolutely not. but theyre fun if you like them

21. tell us about your music taste

-its horrific. to sum it up, my two favorite musicians are the gorillaz and frank sinatra. take from that what you will

22. have you had your first kiss? if so, what was it like?

-i havent had my first kiss yet. gonna be honest, i felt like i was going to, a few times at camp and recently when classes ended. but yeah, nothing yet

23. did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a kid?

-i went thro cycles of favorites. but one ive had for years is a plush shadow the hedgehog from universal studios i got when i was 6. i used to carry him around, even to a pool once

24. what time do you usually wake up and go to bed?

-if you know me, you know i go to bed ridiculously early. i usually get tried at around 6pm and fall asleep between 7:45 and 8:30. and i always wake up before 6 am. i havent slept past 6 am continuously since the end of junior year. please help me

25. what dream trip would you take with your wife?

-maybe to go explore new york, just the two of us that sounds like fun :]

26. do you have any pets?

-i have 2 dogs and a cat. the family owns the dogs but that cat is mine

27. what pair of underwear is your favorite?

-uhhhhhhhhhhh i have some with rainbows that are cool? i dont have favorites, none of them are cute anyway

28. what makes you smile?

-funny jokes make me smile real hard, and if you compliment me at the right time, i kind of pull my legs up and hide my face? its cute and charming i promise

29. what makes you feel heavy?

-in both the physical and metaphorical sense, eating bread

30. what makes you feel better?

-watching bo burnham always makes me feel better, hes my go to whenever im really depressed

31. how do you show your love?

-i show my love in everything i do. everything i do is for love, i love love so much its sickening

32. when is it time to get a haircut?

-whenever u want to lol?

33. where would you live if you could live anywhere?

-maybe san francisco, its beautiful and i love the city

34. do your friends and family take good care of you?

-as much as i allow them to. sometimes i go days without communicating and i know thats annoying but my friends put up with it (they shouldnt have to, i know) and my family is okay. its cliche to say, but they honestly dont understand what im going thro alot of the times, esp with my anxiety and shit

35. have you always used the labels you use now?

-back in the beginning of highschool, i used they/them pronouns and identified as asexual/aromantic. eventually, it didnt feel right, so i know identify as cis and bisexual and that feels right to me

36. what makes you laugh?

-my friends, when people shit talk gobble and i in overwatch even tho???? we didnt know him?????? and the mcelroys always get me

37. who is your favorite fictional character?

-too many options, see list here

38. who do yo admire?

-my father when hes not threatening to throw my phone into a fucking lake and my friends for putting up with me

39. describe yourself in three words

-i am baby

40. how long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 

-usually about 45 min, more or less as each day goes

41. what do you wish you could tell your younger self?

-listen: STOP GIVING A FUCK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE. YOU WILL NEVER SEE THEM AGAIN, BE YOURSELF. STOP HIDING AND BEING SCARED OF YOURSELF, BE GENUINE!!!!

42. what would you do if you win the lottery?

-get my parents settled, see about other family members, and then distribute the money to charities accordingly, starting with flint and getting them water

43. would you call yourself a romantic?

-yes

44. what is your gayest childhood memory?

-my mom had cosmos magazines

45. do you have tattoos or want any?

-i dont have any tattoos but ive been obsessed with them since the 6th grade. id love to get tattoos, i just dont know what or where and also im afraid of pain

46. whats your worst habit?

-either biting my thumbs, starving myself, or ghosting my friends. prob ghosting my friends

47. what are you proud of?

-i guess coming out of my shell finally? idk, i actually have friends now and it feels amazing tbh. im in 5 group chats now. i havent been in a group chat since 6th grade. :))))))

48. did you know that youre actually a gift to the world, for real?

-hi i love you?

49. whats your favorite memory?

-there are so so many. but what comes to mind first is our dance night at camp where we all stood outside and i finally gave ian my tumblr and we all ran inside to dance to mr. brightside then ran outside again and we requested nightcore and rivers was fucking dancing their hearts out and we all sang along and im going to crying just typing this out

50. do you have a sweet tooth?

-i guess so. too much makes me feel like shit but i do really enjoy smarties

51. what do you like most about yourself?

-this is dumb, but my sense of style. since i got a job ive been wearing shit i actually like and its amazing. ill admit i have cool clothes

52. what makes you fall for a girl?

-besides acknowledging me, probably getting to know me and not like, putting me on a pedestal. idk its weird, ive met a lot of people this year who like to place me so high it feels like i cant make a mistake around them without disappointing them. idk, i want someone to call me out on my bullshit instead of assuring me im okay. i want to know what i do wrong so i can fix it

53. make a recommendation

-for what? uhh okay for music, listen to ‘clay pigeons’ by michael cera (yes i know michael cera) and for television, watch bojack horseman and for movies, watch the docuseries called ‘7 days out’ on netflix

54. have you ever had your heart broken?

-yeah, when i broke up with maddy because we werent ready to date. i cared and continue to care about her and i didnt want to hurt her but i knew its what we both needed. its what i needed, atleast. and i cant be a good girlfriend if i feel like im doing badly. but also ive had friends break my heart and family break my heart. but im okay now, this heart is ready to be broken again

55. when do you feel most yourself?

-def when i was at camp, that place is magical in the way it allows you to be yourself. but also when i talk to gobble because hes my best friend and when im at college, we can talk more and its gonna be dope as shit

56. name a gorgeous celeb

-jake gyllenhaal jake gyllenhaal jake gyllenhaal 

57. what are some of your favorite songs this week?

-fake happy by paramore, im not okay (i promise) by my chemical romance, tomorrow comes today by gorillaz

58. tell us 2 or your biggest hopes and fears

-biggest hopes: i publish a book someday & i get a job doing something i love

-biggest fears: i end up homeless and broke & something horrific happens in college

59. what flavor chapstick/lipbalm is the best?

-raspberry i guess

60. are you okay?

-i answered a lot more honestly then i shouldve for some of these and i start new classes tomorrow so im feeling really anxious so im doing alright i guess.

gobble you test me but i do love you

[wolfwhiteflowers]

9x06 / TFD TWD / Rickless eps. speculations

#twd spoilers

I saw a clip of Michonne and yeah I teared up. I think the saddest part of Rick’s being gone is that Michonne is so sad and had to raise her kid(s?...!) alone. I mean I already thought of that but it kinda feels worse or annoying since we know Rick’s been alive for six years too. I’m still interested in this uh new TWD show... it still interest me in some parts. I just don’t wanna see emo!Michonne. :( I hope she finds hope soon. (idk I’ll watch it..maybe on Netflix later on..but I’m reading spoilers and see gifs)

9x06, this episode is gonna a big a test for me to what TWD show will be like after Rick’s gone and six years had passed. (and for the fandom and ratings) 

I think since the bridge was ruined, I think that means the communities don’t interact anymore. They’re not as united. The mains are affected the most from Rick’s not being there. They all probably haven’t seen each other much. Michonne is very harden ..again. It seems like she’s back to being like comic-Michonne in some ways. She’s in the misery plot and ...will find her happiness when she finds Rick. I think she doesn’t want new people or doesn’t want to leave ASZ. She’s holding on to the old ways or what it use to be.  Idk about Carol, but from spoilers, she sounds like Morgan by going back & forth with pacify or pragmatic/violence. Idk I’m annoyed with writers, aren’t these people by that time have laws now? Idk what’s endgame of Carol’s journey exactly. Daryl is ofc out in wilderness alone with a dog(?). Idk about Maggie. I hope we get some kind of closure with her. 

Omg that spoiler about the Richonne baby. I knew if it’s true it would be a boy. heh Like I mentioned before, I have mixed feels about this. I don’t like that Michonne  and have to raise him alone with Judith as she think Rick’s dead. It’s so sad. Before I knew Rick’s alive, I really didn’t want this because it’s sad and added top of more sad feels. Now we know Rick’s alive, it’s like annoying because Rick doesn’t know and he doesn’t help her raise the baby. Another part of it is that since Rick’s gone from the show(AL leaving), I kinda want the baby to happen so that Richonne’s love and part of Rick is still there in the show.

 We don’t know the baby’s name. I hope it’s not Alexander. meh. It’s probably Rick(Richard) Jr., but I hope they all call him RJ. I don’t want them calling him Rick. Like it’s weird ok.. Some names I had thought of: Stanley (lol), RJ, Andrew (with Andre/Andrea thing), any A-name like Arthur or C-name like Cedric, or Eric because of comic Elodie/E name.  Anyways, it reminds me that Judith is Clementine and Richonne Jr. is AJ. lol whatever. #twdg Oh and maybe TWD show people can dress Judith as Andrea in the comics, because she kinda looks like her and that hat. Little Annie Oakley. 

[mysticdragon3md3]

md3 watches Given ep1

...

Maybe it's because I’m having a bad day, or maybe my distaste for most abrasive Romance genre tropes is showing.  But I did not have good reactions.  If I didn’t get spoiled on how good this series will eventually get, I probably wouldn’t continue.  Gawd I’m impatient for this to get good.

Mafuyu is sweet though.  ^___^

8:26 PM 9/27/2019

I'm going to watch Given.  After today, I'm too tired and defeated to do anything more ambitious than react to anime. ;_;

And this morning I watched some clips that suggested Mafuyu's tragic past?  I"m really hoping his childhood friend/boyfriend didn't dump him.  They both seemed so nice and in love.  Then again, if his boyfriend died that would also be very sad.  But at least it's not indirectly saying that Mafuyu was worth dumping.  He seems like such a sweet, fragile kid.  

given Episode 1 – Boys in the Band

"I'm not lonely."  I know it's a cliche now for an anime character to try to convince themselves of this with internal monologue, but it's still effectively sad and still pulls the heart-strings.  ;~;

Uenoyama is too sleepy to eat lunch and his friend asks him to play basketball instead of get bread?  omg

Everyone is sure staring at Uenoyama as he walks by though.  I wonder why.

Jeeze!  I don't know why Uenoyama has to be so upset!  What was Mafuyu doing that was even creepy anyway?  Not talking?  Sure, its more common for an anime character to leave when they've discovered they're in someone else's usual nap/hideout spot, but Mafuyu was nice about making room for Uenoyama.  And now he's throwing a tantrum about getting Mafuyu's hopes up and his naptime interrupted?  Careful or you're going to start hitting my real pet peeves and I'll drop this series.  

He just asked a stranger to teach him now to play guitar...Okay?  Well, that escalated quickly.  ^^;  

Thank you, opening theme.  I feel like I need some music to really set the tone---no, just get into this story/world.  I'm the kind of person who hates that Netflix skips opening/ending themes.

jfc  I know I've had a moderately bad day, but this series is just starting and it hit ANOTHER one of my pet peeves?!  Siblings who are nasty to each other?!  Ug.  If it weren't for all the fandom hype over this show and the nice clips I've seen of it beforehand, I would give up on it right now.  Or maybe I need to stop pausing every few seconds to write and dwell on the bad stuff, and just watch the show.  Ok, I'll try that.  I want to record all my initial thoughts for this series if I end up getting deep into the fandom, but rumination isn't good, after all.  Maybe all the annoying parts will go faster if I don't pause to react to all of them.  

"Now that I think about it, I guess I almost cired when I first broke a string, too, becuase I thought I'd broken my guitar"  Aw, Uenoyama is showing empathy.  (Finally.)  

See?  Mafuyu is reasonable.  He paid Uenoyama back for the strings and everything.

I think watching clips and hearing the fandom chatter before actually watching this series was a mistake.  I've been immune to spoilers for most of my life, but they've been starting to actually hurt my viewing in these past few years.  But it's not like when the shock of character deaths were dulled by knowing beforehand, with Madoka Magica.  This time, it's more like I'm _impatient_ to get to the good parts I saw before.  

So Mafuyu is stalking him now?  Now that I think about it, all those BL manga I used to read were quirky like this, huh?  ...Really???

I should have mentioned this before, but this background music is a little odd. It's like it doesn't quite match the tone of this very solid, real-feeling animation.  

But if he's a total newbie, he won't be able to tell the difference between a "godly performance" and a mediocre one!

"Something cool".  LOL  ^-^

OMG are they totally just riffing?  That's pretty cool.  ^___^

"Uecchi"?  Is this in Kansai?  LOL  

This guilt Uenoyama keeps dwelling on is really helping make him a sympathizable character.  

"Uesama"?  LOL

I'm glad Mafuyu tired the school's music club and that his reason for returning to Uenoyama's band was that he was much cooler.  I'll buy that reasoning.  

What is this exploision effect?  I know the animation in this series so far looks great, like they threw lots of money at it, but wow...  Was it supposed to look cheesey on purpose?  

Well, this ending theme is soothing and nice.  

But I'm not caught by this series.  So far, the primary couple has proven so be one half too angry, kinda mean, and plain grumpy to me.  And the other half is so sweet and fragile seeming, that I just feel sorry when he gets yelled at.  I feel like Mafuyu is just Uenoyama's punching bag, even if his actions are driving Uenoyama crazy.  Why does he have to over-react?  

After a month or so of being tempted to watch this series, I finally gave in today because I couldn't wait to get to answering the questions of those tragic backstories I saw some clips and spoilers of.  And maybe I'll stick around to get my answers.  But I can't say I like this series in and of itself so far. Mafuyu is sweet and intriguing, but I don't feel attached to Uenoyama so far.  I kind of want to watch something else, or just browse through the AkiRyu fandom instead.  ...In fact, I will do that.  No need to jump into ep2.  

But when I come back to this series, I should react to it like a movie.  Just watch it without stopping, then write whatever still stuck out to me enough to have inherently gotten a reaction out of me, at the end.  I shouldn't just stop every few minutes to write.  

Maybe the thing that bugs me with Given ep1 is that I prefer couples who actually like each other enough to instantly click.  At least get along together.  I abandoned my favorite shoujo manga circle because they kept insisting on this "falling in love with the person who annoys the heroine (the most)" cliche.  I generally tell people that I don't like Romance genre movies because so many of them revolve around couples who confuse friction and adrenaline for "passion" and attachment.  But that never sat well with me. I never liked the "argue/hate someone so much, you don't realize you're in love with them", as my aunt once put it.  Even the couples I like which might be mistaken for that trope actually arne't as abrasive as many filler episodes would caricature them to be: Ranma/Akane, Ichigo/Rukia. Maybe that's why I'd prefer to browse the AkiRyu fandom right now.  They actually enjoy spending time with each other!  From the first time they met!  ...I dunno...  Maybe Given will get very good, very fast, after this first ep.  Lots of BL manga had rough starts but turned into great series of scenes that were emotionally moving to experience, once the initial situation that contrived the couple to get together, is settled.  Why wouldn't Given be the same?  

I probably shouldn't post this reaction to my blog.  Or maybe have no tags, so the fandom won't come after me.  I don't need flames for my flippant venting that will likely change drastically once I get further into the series and find what I liked about those spoiler clips.  

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The more time passed after watching Given ep1, the more I tried to use everything else to TRY to figure out why I wasn’t in love with Given (yet). 

6:43 PM 9/28/2019

TOBE!!! CAROLE & TUESDAY EPISODE 14 LIVE REACTION 

by MemoryNK

https://youtu.be/58OI_yufctQ

OMG THIS SHOW!  Just a few clips, edited, talked over by commentary, and I'm already freaking half-crying!  GODDAMNIT!  ;o;  Carole's dad found her, he and his wife wanted to keep her but the wife died and he was unjustly sent to prison, and now he's still on parole and has to return to prison or his parole restrictions on Earth or something---!  ;O;!!!!!!!!!!!  THIS SHOW---! And Carole takes it as hope and something to look forward to, vs typical cliche drama contrived anger!  This show goes for the heart-felt warmth, instead of the contrived anger drama! ;U;  I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!  

Carole and Tuesday season 1 part 2 doesn't release on Netflix for probably a few more MONTHS.  Maybe it was a mistake to see spoilers.  But I've been seeing songs from season 1 part 2 all this time.  But actual scenes, spoiling the story...I went too far.  Maybe I shouldn't have.  

But only because I want to note my emotional reactions.  Especially when I'm having such trouble getting into Given.  I need to now if Carole & Tuesday were able to grab me from ep1, first intros of the main characters,...Because Given is failing hard on that!  And I want to know if I'm justified in not being as attached to Given, or if I was just having a bad day (I wasted all yesterday on that horrible cooking that even made me physically ill ~___~;!)  

6:49 PM 9/28/2019

I came in from my daily walk and had to immediately watch Carole & Tuesday becasue while I was walking, Mafuyu's song from Given was stuck in my head, even though I didn't even know it well.  I started daydreaming about Tuesday and Mafuyu hanging out, jamming, etc., and I couldn't listen to my podcasts while walking anymore.  I had to switch to Carole & Tuesday.  

7:21 PM 9/28/2019

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Re-reading my reactions to watching Carole & Tuesday for the first time, I'm surprised how little I say about their characters (until much later episodes).  I wonder if it means they were so agreeable that I didnt' have to rant anything about them.  Because in contrast to my reactions to watching Given ep1 for the first time, I just kept going on and on about their characters---how mean Uenoyama was.  ...omg...I think I don't like Uenoyama.  I mean, I LOVE Carole, and Tuesday is really sweet and cute, but I never mentioned anything about that in my reactions from earlier this month until like halfway through season1 part1.  In fact, a few minutes ago was the first time I reblogged some Carole & Tuesday art with tags like "#my girls" and "i love them!".  I'd hate to say it, but maybe I only realized how good of characters Carole & Tuesday are, because of how abrasive Uenoyama's introduction has been for me.  I mean, I always thought Carole's brash confidence was cool and Tuesday was sweet, but I guess I was taking it as a given, instead of something extraordinarily rare.  ...I'm trying really hard to get into Given, you guys.  All the clips and spoilers I've seen and the music have been good.  But it's becoming clear to me now that Uenoyama is a barrier.  I used to read a lot of BL and those protagonists do tend to be really quirky or always upset to end up in the plot situation for comedic sakes...But when will the series get to Uenoyama being stupidly in love with Mafuyu so I can laugh at him for being an idiot around him?  I'm impatient over here, especially when I usually drop a series as soon as it centers too much on an abrasive character.  There are 20+ anime series every season and 4 seasons every year, and I've got a big backlog of anime to watch, so I can afford to be picky---I _HAVE TO_ be picky.  

6:18 PM 9/29/2019

I've been really bugged by how I have not enjoyed the first episode of Given.  Maybe I got my expectations too high, after watching it because of so much hype over it, and watching spoiler clips that were really intriguing.  But what really gets me, after having finally seen ep1, is that Uenoyama is not very likable!  Why does Mafuyu even like him?!  Well, Mafuyu is a sweethear and will forgive anything, ti seems...I think the problem is that _I_ as an audience member see no reason to like Uenoyama yet.  Why would I want this jerk to continue getting angry as adorable, frail Mafuyu?  Mafuyu doesn't deserve that!  ;o;  

The really bad thing are the comparisons.  I've been re-watching "Carole and Tuesday" repeatedly this month, and though it's not (blatantly) a romance story, there's just so much reason to want to see these 2 characters always be together.  I love watching them, they enjoy each other's company, they are nice to each other equally,---!  And I just realized that Given's Uenoyama and Mafuyu are similar to Kageyama and Hinata from Haikyuu.  Granted, I didn't really get into the KageHina ship (it just had some cute doujins that I personally thought were too dissimilar to the canon characters for me to think of the ship while I watched Haikyuu), but I LIKED the dynamic between Kageyama and Hinata.  WHY?  All Kageyama did was yell and treat Hinata badly whenever he could!...No...That's not true.  The story made certain from the very beginning to establish Kageyama as a more noble person inside, even though he was just so oblivious to how humans should interact, he only knew how to give commands and yell as a frustrated setter/commander.  Kageyama's first personality-establishing scene was him saving Hinata from bullies and proving that he doesn't approve of low, bully-like behaviors.  And I think pegging Kageyama, from the beginning, as seeking penance and his angsting over his regrets, the the whole first season culminating with him learning how to properly share bonds with people vs bossing them around, and thus finally remedying his past regretted behaviors---It all really turned and angry, easily annoyed character that could have become abrasive, into a character of sympathy.  (Plus, he was cool at what he does.  Which is generally another trait a main character nees to garner audience respect.)  So why couldn't Uenoyama do that from the beginning too?!?!  >O<!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!  It's driving me crazy!  I was supposed to like Given!!!!!!!!!  I _WANT_ to like Given!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  ;O;!!!