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musicalsiphonophore · 2 months ago

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my workload this year is absolutely absurd (1.5x as much hw time as class time in maths, and since it’s double maths i have 8hrs of lessons weekly so that is A Lot, and probs as much hw time as class time in french and bio, but then i put extra time into bio myself). so i would expect to be deeply unhappy about this. but i’m not and i’m actually quite enjoying it. which is odd.

i guess it makes sense though. it has always been that in my spare time, i work on my hyperfixationy stuff, making notes on random crap or working on flute; i have never done nonworking free time stuff like watching tv (except going on tumblr ofc). and now a good half-odd of my school work is hyperfixation stuff. so i am, strangely enough, thriving under these conditions

#im like a specialised deep sea creature that thrives in hostile environments #and just kind of goes bleh and dies in non hostile environmemts #like im not complaining but you would think i would be miserable in these conditions #hmm #im not lying to myself or anything i am just genuinely extremely happy living like this #workaholic ig #almost all of bio puts me in Hyperfixate mode and a good third / half of maths does and a little of french does #french is simultaneously the easiest and hardest of my three subjects 🤔#it has come to my attention that the speaking exam will pose issues not because i dont speak french #bc my spoken french is actually extremely good if i may say so myself #but because i am autistic and a very poor and rambly conversationalist who tends to get Stuck on one topic #and in this exam they actually want me to be succinct and coherent. meanwhile ive gone off on a tangent and suddenly fallen silent #because i dont know the french word for marital rape (the question had nothing to do with marital rape)#so im gonna have to do some self training for that i fear 😂#siph speaks #im doing it now tbh. i went on a tangent about french speaking #because i have been stuck in the topic of french speaking since yesterday #and have talked about nothing else #snd these tags are way too long but knowing that doesn’t stop me #i get STUCK like a RECORD going over the same bit of music #schoolposting

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