#but at the same time really unsatisfied😔

[myokk]

a little family🥹

[callmesel]

I'm having this daydream of another Perciver AU and it's in like the Renaissance or something like that and Oliver is like a painter and Percy is his muse.

I can stop having this idea of an illustration where there is like a majestic painting of Percy with a dramatic light and Oliver standing infront of it looking unsatisfied with it because it doesn't make it justice to Percy's memory, or something like that.

Something like that, (is a quick sketch of the idea)

Why is Oliver doing thai gigantic painting of Percy? I don't know

Maybe they were lovers and Percy died and as a way of grieving Oliver is painting his dead lover and being devastated because it's so similar to the original but not quite the same. And the idea of forgetting how he looks like is killing him inside because he knows that each time he does a painting is more and more different.

Or maybe Percy was just a normal peasant that Oliver saw on the street but his beauty make Oliver obsessed with him and can't stop painting him with the hope of seeing him again. And his portraits of Percy are super famous and then Percy sees them and contacts Oliver to talk about that because, wtf his face is everywhere in the galleries and he is starting to get recognise in his work place and they slowly start to fall for each other and spend a lot of time together but everybody thinks is just that Percy is Oliver's muse and that is why they spend so much time with each other. But actually they are secretly a couple.

Or maybe I'm just crazy. And maybe i might do this concept but I have already so many wip that I can have any more...

Edit: i coloured the quick sketch and now I want more😔

Oliver is really ugly in here but Percy is the focus!! Even the shadows are pointing at his face

[soracities]

hello i have been following the high difference asks and i enjoyed it so much and tbh i am kinda wishing to see more scenarios where the male love interest is shorter than the woman because especially kdrama these days is going full focus on the "high" difference and it's only a male who is too high :( i understand that high difference in general or in real life is a lot a lot of work and it won't always be like we wish like if i fall for someone shorter than me there r many things i read in books or watched or fantasized about won't be able to happen because of the difference but i am thinking just what if the love of my life is a short king? Would i sacrifice it because he won't be able to pin me to the wall or because sex is going to be weird or need effort.... It's really really a struggle aaaah but i still would love to see writers considering that there r women who fall for short men too 😔

to be completely honest, i think sex is always going to be weird or require effort the first time you are with someone (even after the first time, depending on what you get up to & how familiar you become with your own body and theirs) because all bodies are different and height is just one of those; you can end up having weird or unsatisfying sex with someone who is the exact same height if both of you haven't properly communicated what you like and how. sex isn't something that happens innately and harmoniously by itself: you both have to learn what the other prefers, what they don't, what you are both willing or unwilling to try, and what works physically or not because, again, everyone is different. sex is a collaborative act, not a graded performance, and there is absolutely no "set" way to do it "right".

also, based on the number of short icons i have read who are the ones doing the pinning i promise you i don't think height is the sole determining factor here and ALSO i am sure you will find there are many other ways and places you can be pinned down (cannot BELIEVE i am writing that on this blog) and what will matter the most to you there and then is not so much how closely it resembles ficiton but that it is the love of your life there with you. i think in the absence of an actual relationship or experience with them, the things we see in media and read about take centre stage, but when you meet someone--someone who seems to be the exact opposite of what you physically imagined but who warms your heart and makes you feel settled and safe, all of that changes. if you do fall for a short king, the fact that you're in love and being loved will shift so much of your perspective in the end, provided you remain open to discovering and embracing this other human being, fully as they come to you. fiction is nice, but real life is better (even when it requires work). and as long as you are both open to each other and attentive and present, i'm sure you'll discover so much more you'll enjoy that you haven't fantasised about yet because it's the right person for YOU you get to do it with.

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

genuine question since you've spent so much time thinking about jujutsu kaisen – how do you think jujutsu kaisen should end? what would be your ideal ending to the series?

WAHHHHHH THIS IS THE TOUGHEST QUESTION EVER ANON :(((((((((((( i’ve thought abt it a bit but… it’s kind of hard to visualize……..

(jjk spoilers under the cut obviously)

OKAY SO FIRST OF ALL. if akutami doesn’t bring back gojo + nobara + kenny i will Genuinely be upset :)))) i feel like leaving nobara’s death undisclosed forever is like …. Unforgivable from a writing standpoint yk?? kenny and gojo aren’t as bad in that regard but with those two my issue is that their deaths feel SO unsatisfying. i don’t think gojo is Actually Dead at all but i think kenny might be and that pisses me off bc ???? he has SO much potential as a character that’s been hinted at but not explored ?????? so that would just suck. in general i really love akutami’s writing but!!! i need my girls back.

BUT YEAH SORRY TANGENT ASIDE …… when it comes to the Actual Ending i . honestly don’t have many thoughts??? i can’t tell where the story is going 😭 i definitely think yuji or megumi will die, and. honestly….. i think yuji dying would be a good ending. I LOVE HIM I PROMISE 😔😔 he’s my baby i just think it would objectively be kind of cool. considering his death was planned from the very start and him escaping death has led to misfortune for the people around him. so it feels fitting for yuji to chose death himself at the end ….. but at the same time it still doesn’t feel quite right? i really can’t picture all first years + gojo surviving, so maybe megumi will die after all…? he def has the biggest death flag in the cast rn </3

on the other hand, maybe both megumi and yuji will survive, and the series will end on a more hopeful note…? :’3 i think the ending will be hopeful either way and that’s what i’d prefer. jjk has always been a hopeful series even though it’s so dark and cynical at times….. the first volume literally ends with ”love” defeating ”justice”, i don’t think for a second that akutami would go against all that just to be contrarian or whatnot!! so i def have high hopes for the ending but i can’t really visualize it at all 😭😭

WAITT one more thing. my personal theory is that gojo will come back to life at the cost of his six eyes, and i think that could lead to the balance of the world being ”restored” (since it was his birth and power that led to curses growing so much stronger)… with that in mind one ending could be gojo surviving but losing considerable power, which would be the happiest ending for him too. he’d get the chance to exist as satoru gojo instead of the strongest, and he’d be able to lean on all his students and comrades!!! so that’s the kind of ending i’d prefer. :3 as long as gojo survives i’m happy!!!!

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

everything i read in may!

it's that time of the month again! i didn't get to read as much as i wanted this month because unfortunately i have to write this stupid dissertation 😔 but i did also read some really good books SO let me tell u about them!!

The Sunshine Court by Nora Sakavic

I was actually on a book-buying ban and then this book came out and i blacked out and in a day it was in my hands and in another day i had finished it. So so good i absolutely loved it. Reawakened my long-dormant obsession with this series.

To be completely honest, i was never particularly interested in Jean in the original series, but i very quickly fell in love with him. I'm so honestly invested in his recovery and i cannot wait to find out what happens next. It was super interesting to see this world from two new perspectives. I also really enjoyed Jeremy!! Jeremy babe what are your secrets... i need to know... i also really liked that jean's relationship with renée wasn't retconned for the sake of jerejean. Even tho they're obviously not going to be endgame they still get to be really important to each other (and i can't wait for their inevitable reunion at the winter banquet with jealous jeremy 👀). Anyway i'll shut up now but. Thank you nora ❤️

Damascus by Christos Tsiolkas

This book billed itself as historical fiction focusing on early christianity, which is a historical period/topic that i've studied a lot so i was interested. However, the book in reality doesn't really fit that description in my opinion. Bear with me here because the only thing i can think of to compare it to is a modern take on a hagiography.

Hagiographies have this weird semi-fictional, semi-truthful quality about them. On the one hand, they consist of biographical information about a (usually) real person - who they were, how they became christian, what happened to them. On the other hand, they were meant to act as a guide to faith for their readers, and so also include much more abstract discussions of spiritual struggles/didacticism. Damascus really felt the same way, like it was telling a truthful story on one level but, on another, it was meant to be a much more timeless discussion of faith. I'm still not 100% sure if i enjoyed it or not, but it was certainly thought-provoking and really gave me some insight into the experience of being faithful (which i don't personally have).

The City & the City by China Miéville

I thought the concept of this book was really, really interesting and well executed, but the actual plot wasn't so well executed and kind of let the rest of the book down, imo. The concept is of two cities that exist on top of each other. Physically and geographically they are the same city, but political borders have been drawn through it that separates them - for instance, one side of a street could be in one city, and the other half in the other city. Citizens of one city are not allowed to acknowledge the existence of citizens of the other - if they walk past them on the street they must "unsee" them or risk being arrested by the supranational secret police that maintains the borders between the two. If you want to go to a location in the other city you have to pass through a central checkpoint border, and, once across, you must "unsee" your original city. It's a really compelling concept, and I think Miéville explains it really well (much better than me lmao).

The book follows a homicide detective investigating a murder, but when he discovers that the body was driven across the border between the cities it becomes an international case. Unfortunately I found the ultimate resolution of the mystery/story quite unsatisfying :( I would still recommend it but just with a bit of a warning.

The Crow Road by Ian Banks

My parents have been trying to get me to read Banks for ages, and I'm so glad I didn't listen and waited until now because I feel like this book came to me at the right time of my life. It's a coming of age story, essentially, with a surprise murder mystery element that really sneaks up on you towards the end. It is brilliantly written, very emotional in parts and also very funny at others. I also loved it because the protagonist is the same age as me, living in the same city as me, and facing similar feelings of existential dread about the future. Really, really brilliant!! Would highly highly recommend.

On my radar

And that's it! i'm currently about halfway through The Wall by Marlen Haushofer, which I am enjoying but I'm not really sure where it's going/where it can go from here. In June I really want to stick to my book-buying ban, and luckily I have a huge tbr pile to choose from. I'll probably read The Forgery by Ava Barrera next, and I also have a non-fiction book about utopianism/post-scarcity/univeral basic income that I really want to get to. And as always, if you read this far i love you ❤️ and tell me what you read this month/what you're reading now/want to read next month! talk books to me!!!!

[ddeongies]

this ended up being way longer than i expected (again) LOL

to start off, i love how they're in this gray area of managing to pick up on each others hints but still not fully on each other's level with things, like there's still a few (really important) things they need to iron out ---relationship status, what they both want out of this, etc. basics really. but they're also at a point where i'd call it inevitable. but at the same time AGH omg. a lovely level of frustration. ryujin thinking the posts yeji made weren't for her....i need to smack her omg.

one thing i really really love about the way you write them (in all your works but i feel its to a greater extent in nmau because it has more time to actually dig in to these things given that its a slowburn) is just this overarching relationship dynamic where all ryujin has to do is say "yes" and yeji will meet her as far as she's willing to let her... which ofc is not to say that there's no effort on ryujin's part, but ive noticed that ryujin tends to be the one that requires more...coaxing so to speak, when you're writing longer stories about them getting together. and i love this! i think it's a very good bit of characterization (for both of them) and it's not exactly the same over all of your works which just makes me love to see it even more than i already do.

the way yeji "places the ball in ryujins court" as you put it, just really hammers it in, the way that yeji will implicitly say "ok, im here, whenever you're ready". it's in the way she stops as soon as ryujin is uncomfortable when they were kissing the first time, in the way she watches and waits for ryujin to come to the bed, these little bits of opening the door but not forcing ryujin into a decision she might not be ready to make. ugh ITS SO GOOD. + like on top of that i think you write yeji in a way where its obvious like.. even though she literally would give ryujin the world if she asked for it, she still will make sure that she herself is feeling okay about everything and that by doing it she's not totally ignoring her own emotional needs + all that. if that makes sense, i feel like the way im phrasing this makes rj seem really passive but THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEAN u know what i mean, right. like it definitely goes both ways but. yeah. i saw it a lot in balcony au and choreo au as well, just got me thinking a bit. anyway,

some misc stuff from the rest of the chapter:

really great to see how ryujin felt about the events of winter break, i really love ur split povs, u balance each character voice so well.

i love ryujin and yunas friendship in this, i don't think ive mentioned that before but its really good

hwang "fire react" yeji..............

she thinks she's so sneaky, getting yejis number and asking her to model for her sjwhdkfjfk GIRL. and yeji 😭 "oh, youre really gonna..." LMAO

the tension in that whole scene.....delicious omg.....like its hot and heavy and so palpable like you can actually feel how hot it is through the screen. its so good.

they did it! and it only took them 11 chapters wow. i honestly like how this was a bit more on the emotional side rather than outright explicit fucking which like! is still great dont get me wrong, but i think it's very fitting for this particular instance.

"come here, beautiful" i feel normal about this!

yeji getting locked out 😔😔😔 shes so silly. but god ryujins reaction to waking up alone....dude....u gotta talk to yeji abt whwt u want out of this.....

rj talking about how she "cant have yeji the way she wants" DUDE. GET A GRIPPPPP SJES HEAD OVER HEELS FOR U.

this honestly felt very... sequel to the movie couch moment when ryu let her shirt "slip" off her shoulder, only this time they've both somewhat acknowledged the huge mess of attraction between them and so something can actually happen instead of both parties left unsatisfied. i love it i love character and relationship development.

"no, keep going" "im sure" are we even still talking about figure drawing...

yeji ordering basically just chocolate milk...i love her so bad

"sure yeji can be kind of goofy but its charming" u are so....sureee...u just keep telling urself ur not obsessed with her.

yejis focus face…dont get me started...lets just say if she looked at me like that. i would no longer exist.

shoving each other🥹🥹 like i really love how uve written them as "friends first" so to speak, like theyve made a really solid foundation for this budding relationship(if you can call it that yet LOL, ill let them have it though). its so great...its so great...and yeji walking ryu all the way back to her dorm ohhhhh....overall.

very good chapter as always.... definitely looking forward to the next one!! whenever that may be, lol. that and other projects u may be cooking alongside it...thanks as always and take care!

-🖤

long comments like this make me 😈 i’m so ready (i’ll go under a read more tho lol)

i honestly love the point they’re at right now too! they’re somehow on exactly the same page in a way that makes them not be on the same page LOL. like you feel the same way about each other and are assuming the same thing about each other’s feelings!! it is inevitable though isn’t it? someone’s just gotta be a little brave :)

yes yes yes i know what you mean!!! i’m so glad you’ve picked up on and appreciate the way i do the relationship and the characterization there (and that it’s working in general!) you put it really well like, yeji (irl and when i write her) is such a freaking observant person. like you can see the way she watches people, sees when people are uncomfortable, etc. ryu is such an internal and sensitive person and a deep thinker and feeler, and i just love the way those two ways of being match up like “i know how i feel, and i see that you’re figuring yourself out in that way you do, so i’m here for you and i’m gonna be steady through your process” or something idk i’m rambling. but yes! yeji will still protect herself and her own feelings. like, yes, she’s not 100% doing that in feeling that ryu doesn’t want what she wants, but i think part of her can feel the way they really are on the same page (and that ryu would never want to hurt her)

misc stuff!

i love writing this story split pov! when i first came up with  the idea i realized there was no way i could tell the story i wanted to from just one pov. i love having them reflect back on previous chapters but also not on every single thing that happened just the stuff they would naturally be thinking about when we’re back in their heads

i love 2shin…. i love writing hwangshin and 2shin in the same fic my loves

the 🔥 is so important to yeji you have no idea (or maybe you do at this point)

the “oh, you’re really gonna…” like she was right to assume what she was being invited for but still LMAO

i love writing tension…..i love it

just took them like 50k but they finally made it we cheered 🥳 and yeah! i really want this fic to stay M rated i think it just fits the vibes better than E (the next scene might be a liiiil more smutty but still they are Pure)

ryu feels normal about it too and so do i yeji is so 😵‍💫

yeji would get locked out LOL (and yeah ryu pls get a grip girl she likes you so so bad and has for months)

yes!! a similar situation (with the same mastermind), but they’ve honestly come so far since then like they’re truly in a different phase of their relationship now :’) it opens so many doors for them

we’re not not talking about figure drawing ;)

yeji’s sweet tooth is so so dear to me (and chocolate milk is also a great pre workout drink for our little jock)

ryu is genuinely obsessed with her they’re gross! and they will get grosser!

yeji’s focused face is….. let me not speak actually

they’re CUTE they’re friends but also a lil more than friends but also who knows and i honestly love it for them! like no matter what there’s no way they would ever just have a physical relationship when they like each other this much even if neither of them is ready to fully make that leap yet

thank you for such a long and lovely comment as always!! made my day/week/idk how time works anymore is it finally friday thank god

[rev3rb]

Hi, again! I have to admit that the end of this chapter intrigued me quite a bit. I definitely wanna see where they’re going with Shinoa’s powers over demons. After a lot of time spent on angel flashbacks, it’s a good reminder that the humans have unique roles to play. I liked seeing the Shinoa squad, although spending time on crushes I’m not particularly invested in and making very vague, somewhat redundant plans was kinda boring. I enjoy some good girl talk, but I’m not particularly excited about having so many different groups working towards basically the same goal. It’s similar to what you pointed out about Saito still not siding with The First. It sorta seems as if everyone is stating similar values but personal issues are stopping them from just working together and actually accomplishing shit. Idk maybe it’s just me, but I think some of the most engaging and productive moments happened bc of the dynamics within the alliances. As of now, there’s at least 4 different factions, which truly seems unnecessary at this stage. Regardless of how happy an ending we get, I’d feel a bit unsatisfied if 1/4 groups succeeded at the expense of all the others failing. No matter which group it is, because they all have an interesting perspective and feel like protagonists in unique ways. I’m lowkey rooting for them all, so I’d really prefer if they could just compromise lol. I’m sure that solution is way too idealistic of me, but it’s not my fault Kagami wrote such sympathetic characters 😔

On another note… Happy Birthday!!! If I remember right, it should’ve just passed. I hope you had a great day <3

First off, oh my god! You remember! I didn’t expect that. At the time of posting this, yes, it would have been four days ago, but you sent this Tuesday so you were pretty spot on! Thank you so much! I did have an okay day!

I’m actually excited to see where Shinoa’s powers go as well! For quite some time now, the story has hyped Shinoa up as being special and ‘the perfect experiment’ or however it was phrased, but we’d had no real indication of it until now. It’s about time we shifted from tell to show. I’m hoping it gives her a bit more agency. However, I will say that Shinoa, or really rather how Kagami writes her, does disappoint me a bit in other ways, which leads me to the next thing you bring up.

I don’t hate Yuunoa. I don’t care for it either, but the fact that this chapter sorta confirms that Shinoa doesn’t have that much of a driving force outside of it makes me quite sad. You could argue that other Hiragis (Mahiru and Shinya) have a similar thing going on and they do, but there’s more than that, even if the story prefers bringing up Guren as their main motivation instead. Mahiru has the whole thing with wanting agency to live how she wants (which ties to Guren but I firmly believe can stand on its own) as well as wanting to protect Shinoa, as twisted as her methodology was. Shinya also had his goal of wanting to break free from the Hiragis before Guren became what he’d rather stand for. Being able to see that shift adds quite a bit of depth to that.

What else does Shinoa have going on really? As she says her she doesn’t feel like she has much reason for living, so she mind as well have this fight with Mitsu over Yuu be that driving force. You could say it’s similar to Yuu since he’s sorta said Mika is his reason for living, but I honestly wasn’t a huge fan of that either. I liked how Yuu was, at one point, able to somewhat move on and live for others (the Shinoa squad and Guren at the time) he was getting better in a way! But I don't want to rant for too long. End of the day, I kinda wish Shinoa had goals that didn't center around Yuu, even if she ended up dropping them at some point. As she said, she's really just been along for the ride her whole life.

It's nice to see Mitsu actually back and doing something though! Mitsu fans come get your food! I too wish they'd talked about something else, but what can you do I guess. It's just nice to see her. The focus hasn't been on her in SO long.

Now the whole Shinoa Squad being a new group. Yeaaaah this is driving me a bit insane as well. Weren't they just working with Guren, Mahiru, and Ferid? Why is that suddenly changing? I get that it's because they think them untrustworthy, and I get it to a degree, but it's exactly as you said. There's just SO many groups that are fighting for similar things that it's become kinda weird? Like... why did Guren and Mahiru even let the Shinoa Squad run off? They don't appear to be around, and I know that their priority is probably Yuu, but it feels weird that they're suddenly just elsewhere now when they were working together last we saw. It feels like we're missing something here. Anyways. I can't imagine these groups won't join up later, but the fact that we now have to follow 3 different groups (with there being 5 or maybe 6 factions atm) is going to make for an even more disjointed story. And that's one of the big problems with OnS. It's story is kind of all over the place and it can be difficult to follow with how much it jumps around and drops plot points and characters for no reason only to pick them up later like nothing happened. Nothing I've seen here instills me with confidence that this problem will get better.

That all being said, I didn't hate the chapter. Shinoa squad as a whole hasn't felt like they've been the main focus since the Nagoya arc and while I don't think we'll be following them for too long, it's about time they became more relevant. Maybe what I'm saying is a bit contradictory since I just complained about different factions, but hey, there's some pay off here with Shinoa and her abilities like I mentioned earlier, so idk. It's something.

[saetoru]

Sorry just been thinking about 270 wakasa and you seemed like a good person to uh tell this to

But just waka and his impassive face with his cigarette in his mouth, choking you while you ride him… you’re naked he’s got his clothes on only his dick out. You wanted to be a brat so your punishment is riding him till he cums but your doing a piss pour job 😔

LIKE YOU — IMAUSHI WAKASA.

「 SYNOPSIS 」 ⋮ imaushi wakasa x reader — 1.4k words — wakasa likes you, even when you’re a bit of a brat

≣ warnings ⋮ nsfw and 18+ content, fem! reader, based on the chapter 270 leaks but there are no actual spoilers, mean/brat tamer wakasa, riding, teasing and begging, slight choking, unprotected sex, creampie

≣ warnings ⋮ yeah chapter 270 leaks of wakasa got me so ill he looks so fine 😭

he’s unimpressed.

wakasa likes you—he thinks you’re different than all the rest of the assistants he’s met in his time. they get replaced rather frequently in this field, too quick to mess up or too slow to keep up. he figures hooking up with them won’t really make a difference if they won’t be here for longer than two months, but you were work.

you took him some time to open up. you took him sweet gestures and kind words and real commitment—and by then, he’s become more than a little attached. and you seem promising too, you’ve been here the longest of any assistant he’s seen thus far.

he likes you, but you’re being nothing but a brat today. you’re glued to his side through the meeting—he lets it happen, even taking the initiative to rub circles into your back. you’re touchy and feely as you rake your hand over the exposed portion of his chest—he doesn’t say anything, even offering you a soft hum when your nail traces the tattoos. you’re quick to cut off any girl who approaches him for the night—he doesn’t mind, just lets out an amused huff of a chuckle.

but he knows what you want. he knows what you’re hoping for, and now is not the time or place, and you can’t be spoiled just because your lips curl into a cute little pout and your eyes are wide and innocent.

“see what being a brat gets you?” he asks smoothly, like he’s not even bothered by the aching of his hardened cock, like the pathetic attempts you make of taking him fully don’t frustrate him in the slightest.

no, wakasa is patient. he’s always calm and collected and impassive. he doesn’t let his enemies know a thought on his mind, and he doesn’t have any issues pulling a blank slate over his face.

even if he really just wants to slam into your dripping cunt as you wail his name.

“waka, please,” you whine, eyes shining with unshed tears—you’re painfully unsatisfied by the sloppy rhythm you’re setting for yourself. you’re exposed—blouse unbuttoned and skirt pulled down, marks of his teeth as he’d nipped at your skin still visible from just a bit ago. he sits with nothing but his cock exposed, arms crossed and a cigarette tucked between his teeth while you grasp his shoulders and try to bounce on his length.

“please what? fuck you?” he raises a brow, “no, that would be too easy,” he says simply, making you whine as try to sink down on his member. he’s big—thick and curved, the fat tip flushed with pink as he leaks pre cum. it’s a mess, smeared along your folds, mixing with your slick as you try to fit him in. but you’re struggling, and he makes no moves to help.

“please, n-need you,” you sob, the first fall of tears slipping past your cheeks. they stain your skin so pretty, he almost wants to be a bit meaner, just to push you a little further into breaking for him.

but wakasa likes you—he really does.

“yeah?” he snorts, “already knew that from how you were actin’,” he sneers, “thought it’d be cute to get all desperate out there? thought i’d fuck you in that room in front of everyone or somethin’?”

“n-no, i—”

“bet you’d like that, huh?” he cuts you off, and for the first time, there’s an expression on his face besides that stone-cold, empty look. he grins, though a bit sinisterly, but he grins all the same. “bet you’d love to have your pussy stuffed full of me while everyone watches, huh? dirty thing,” he chuckles. 

“jus’…jus’ wanted you so bad,” you whine, nails digging into his shoulder blades as you roll your hips down on him once more. the head of his cock taps against your clit before it sinks past your folds, making you whimper as your thighs shake, burning from the effort.

and then, his hand comes around your neck, squeezing gently enough not to hurt, but firmly enough to make you choke on a garbled moan.

“i took you with me 'cause you said you’d be good,” he hisses, sneering at you as your lips wobble. his other hand comes down to grasp your hip and still your movements, and what little friction you granted yourself cuts off completely, making you choke through a whine as his hand around your throat squeezes as a warning. “but since you insist on actin’ like a brat, now i gotta punish you,” he spits.

“‘m good,” you whimper when his hand loosens around your neck a little, “i-i’ll be good, promise!”

“yeah?” he raises a brow, “gonna be good and take this cock, then?” you nod furiously, making him hum in approval before he shifts back to lean against his seat. 

he’s not so stupid as to think you’ll ride him well—your previous efforts have been less than impressive already, so his hands plant themselves onto your hips, fingers digging into the plush skin as he pulls you down to sink on his throbbing member in one go. 

you squeal as he practically impales you, muffling out his low groan when he finally feels the full squeeze of your cunt, the tight walls hugging around him as he guides your hips up and down his cock. his balls are heavy—tight with the need to release, and by now, even wakasa is a little impatient to feel his peak hit him just like you are. 

“fuck,” he curses, his voice a shaky breath as he feels you clench around him when his tip kisses your sweet spot. “so tight, baby,” he moans, “see what bein’ good could’ve gotten you sooner?”

you’re already so close—so sensitive from all the teasing strokes from before that your head simply falls to his neck, mewling into his skin as he maneuvers your hips to sink down on him over and over. he bullies into you, carving into your cunt like he’s molding you to take only him, curving along your walls and dragging his thick veins with friction that makes your head spin. 

you can practically feel him in your lungs, from the deep strokes of his cock to the intoxicating scent of his cologne, he overtakes your senses until you’re nothing but a sobbing mess clinging to him as he half guides you and half ruts up into you.

“just so needy,” he scoffs, “can’t even do anything on your own. gotta do it myself, huh? need me to fuck you dumb on my cock myself?”

“w-waka—oh,” you squeal when his navel bumps along your clit, the pressure on the sensitive bundle of nerves sending you hurtling closer to your high, “‘m close…s-so close. gonna cum,” you whine. 

finally—finally, he turns his head and plants a gentle kiss on your head, like you’ve said something right, done something good, offered something that makes him proud. 

“that’s a good girl,” he hums, “go ahead and cum for me, baby. let go, yeah?”

you do—you cum hard, gushing around him as you sob into his neck. your hands trail to his long strands of hair, pulling on the locks as he groans at the way you spasm around him. his hips are thrusting up into you, skin slapping against each other, the mess of your slick and his pre cum coating your thighs as the loud squelch of him fucking into you rings through the room. your orgasm rips through you with enough to make slump against him completely, whimpering from the sensitivity as he continues to thrust into you and chase his own release. 

“oh—fuck, baby,” he groans when his own orgasm hits, thick pumps of his cum painting your walls as he rides himself through his high. you feel him trembling under you, breathy pants fanning against your ear as he chokes soft cries of your name. “fuck, feels so good—make me feel so good,” he grunts as you milk him of every rope of cum.

he finishes with a shudder, arms loosely wrapped around you as he slumps back on the couch, hand rubbing slow circles into your back to soothe you as you both catch your breaths. 

“just so you know,” he mutters, “i’m not taking you with me next time.”

“we’ll see,” you giggle, pulling away from his neck to press your forehead to his and peck his nose. 

he grins—because wakasa likes you, he thinks, even a little bratty and all.

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[nightswithkookmin]

Hi Goldy. I dont have a question about Jikook. but i have a personal question. i broke up with my ex 2 yrs(6yrs relatioship) ago and was quite confident that i can move forward now, also started to date a bit but only now started to get a bit more serious with this person i have known for some time. now suddenly i cant stop thinking about my ex and seems like a never rlly moved on. everyone told me it will get better but idk how. can someone truly ever move on from a long and srious relationship

Because you said it's personal, I decided I'd keep you anonymous to protect your privacy ❤ 💙 💜 💖

Sorry you dealing with this. I know the feeling quite well and it sucks. Especially if it gets in your way of being present to enjoy and build anything meaningful and epic with your current partner.

What you are experiencing is very normal if you ask me. True love never dies. As long as these feelings are not affecting your quality of life or the way you give and recieve love in your current relationship I think it's okay.

I also think it's a sign you buried your feelings rather than heal or get closure from it. And there might be something triggering these buried emotions within you that you might want to look into and address.

When you are forced to end a relationship that meant so much to you, a relationship you were not really ready to let go of, you end up burying those feelings and forcing your way out of it.

If you felt like you lost an ideal perfect match when the relationship ended then its possible you are still grappling with that sense of loss buried deep inside you too.

Sometimes it's easy to bury things so we can physically move on with our lives.

But like all buried things, the soil erodes over time, the rivers dry up, the earth quakes out of no where, someone goes digging and eventually they will resurface.

We all have something buried inside us. It will come out eventually.

Personally, there are three people in my past that I've buried bcos I felt they would have been my ideal partner with whom I could do forever with- three and my current partner is one of them.

I bemoan those other relationships from time to time and whenever I break up with my gf I feel the same way about her too. Like if I let this person slip out of my hands, I would be settling if I got with any other person. And if in a 100 years any of these three characters should come back, I'll take them back in a heart beat.

I don't know much about you, but I'd say some times our attachment to past relationships have nothing to do with the person we were attached to but more to do with our attachment to the person we were when we were with that person.

What makes past love epic and a relationship epic is not just that one single individual that waltzed into your life but a combination of several other factors such as the state of your mind at the time, your emotional health at the time- ie the trauma and wounds that attracted that person you were with- how young and reckless and youthful you felt when you were with them. A myriad of factors really including but not limited to your financial status and your world view about love and romance.

But when you grow, and you heal and you mature, and are no longer bound to another through shared trauma, love can feel very different- I mean blunt and boring even.

I'd say, examine your thoughts and feelings to see what exactly it is about your past relationship that keeps you tethered still. Is it them you miss per se or the person you were when you were with them?

If it's them then 😕

So sorry love😔

If not, then you might just be unsatisfied with the relationship dynamics in your current relationship because you miss the old you. I'd recommend trying to loosen up, have more fun, recreate certain moments you enjoyed in the past etc.

When you feel different, you love different. So ask yourself, if you have grown and changed at all these two years, will your ex partner be able to embrace the person you are now? Will they love the you you are now? And will you love them too if they've changed so much from the person you knew or will you even keep loving them if they haven't changed at all all these years?

Like those two other persons I lament over from time to time, like if they knew how much my world view has changed, how my political views have shifted, how I no longer subscribe to Christianity and have been divesting from it then they wouldn't want me at all and a relationship with them wouldn't last because it is chuch that brought us together.

And if I find out they have equally changed from the person I knew them to be then frankly I wouldn't even want them- but my heart don't know that yet so I let her fantasize away. Lmho.

And if any of this is true for you, then you might want to re-evaluate your need for romantic attachment. Some people just want romance and don't care at all who they do it with.

Much like how most straight men just want sex and domestic help around the house so they settle for any girl willing to provide these and won't hesitate to leave you and replace you if you no longer fulfill these needs. They are not attached to you. They are attached to what you can do for them. They want their mothers but a younger version of her they can fuck. Good luck out there ladies. Couldn't be me.

But some people are attached to people and not just because of how those people make them feel. Those relationships are hard to move on from because that kind of love never goes away.

If that's the case with you, I'd say it's okay to love them still. They were not props in your life but evidence of your humanity and capacity to love unconditionally. Let them be a reminder of the good in you and use that as motivation to go all out for your current partner if you love them also.

Just think of your heart as a very sentimental friend who has no clue what reality is and just wants to feel good. Don't dismiss her. Just acknowledge her from time to time and tell her she will be fine. She just has a lot of unfinished business buried inside her. But if it makes her feel any better, she will feel the same way about your current partner if yall lose them too 😆

And don't buy into the lies of monogamy.

Monogamy is a myth. We are capable of loving more than one person at the same time. If not we wouldn't be able to love our kids, and siblings and parents and our pets all at once.

We have elastic hearts. You can love any body but try to commit to one if commiting to several others gives you headaches. That's where monogamy comes in.

Committing to one person is a choice we make. And because we have elastic hearts, know that it's okay to love your current partner, your ex, your other ex, your pet, your old chevy, or that old couch.

Just because you get new ones don't take the sentiments and value you enjoyed from the old ones away or make them invalid.

Love ought to be celebrated whether it's in past relationships, present or future ones. That's the only way we get to move on from it.

I love my partner and I'll always love her whether we are together in the future or not. And while I don't always feel like it, I believe I'm capable of loving other people besides her too (not that I want to💀) And perhaps one day, I'll meet someone equally amazing and if we are not together then, then I give myself permission to love again and I'll love with my whole chest because I'm a romantic.

I think you are a good person. Give yourself permission to love again without feeling you have to pressure yourself to move on from the past. Six years is a long time to move on in two. These chapters were well written, but eventually they become memories; you lived, you loved, you did, you were here and that dull ache in your chest is a reminder not a hindrance. It's your own invisible tattoo on your heart.

Just focus on making this current love epic. Blow your partners mind away. Let them feel all the highs that's gonna leave them with a dull ache too if they should choose walk away 😈

And enjoy yourself. Enjoy the romance so you don't have any regrets too. Life is not supposed to be perfect, but it's full of perfect epic moments that punctuates it from time to time.

But if you feel honestly that you can't bring yourself to love another the way you loved your ex then don't. Don't go through another relationship numb.

I can't see myself with anyone apart from the person I'm with now- even though we are on and of and currently off. She is a grown woman with the emotional maturity of a toddler. My insecurities pale in comparison to hers but I like her 🙈

So even if we broke up for good, that would be it for me. I'm packing my cat and chicken and moving back to my parents house. Love can come and find me there. I'm done chasing it.

Try to fix things, always try before you let go and if they've moved on- or if leaving was your decision- then give yourself time to heal even within this current relationship. Your emotional health is very important. Take all the time you need.

I guess the answer to your question is yes and no. Yes because you can love again and build something meaningful with another person. And it's not going to be the same as your past loves but epic in its own right. Epic nonetheless.

No because it's always going to be part of your experiences of life, your memories, and your story.

Be kind to yourself 💜

[cupidthingz]

I miss Jeanette I wonder how she’s doing 😔 ik wmmap is now focusing on the romance aspect of the series now, but i really wished they had explored a bit more of athy’s and Jeanette’s relationship. We know that Athy cared for Jeanette to a certain degree but I wish they had shown and atleast delved a bit more into Jeanette. Like a bit more sisterly moments and family moments.

I feel a lot for both Jeanette and Athy and it’s conflicting at times. I remember when Jeanette was first introduced I extremely hated her for no valid reason. I hated her cause I thought she would harm Athy and be like a potential villain and I’m truly happy that the writers and spoon didn’t take that overly done and cliche route (legit I don’t think I have read a story where this cliche was even done right but I still do feel there is potential in it.) They built up a great character but I wish they had given her more substance.

I legit love her because she’s kind and just straight up a literal sweetheart, I find her relatable even more than Athy for some reason. For me personally the most profound moment that made me just love her was when (spoiler) Aeternitas was trying to manipulate her into turning against Athy but her strong faith in Athy made my heart churn out a beat just to keep me alive when I was already throwing up rainbows and farting glitter.

Though it was such a beautiful moment I feel like a part of me believes that Athy wouldn’t do the same for her? It always felt like she was being kind to her for the sake of it not because she genuinely liked Jeanette which certainly made me feel a bit bitter. Maybe that’s why I just wanted more moments with them together as they slowly found a footing together and just be a family. But of course this doesn’t happen but they did wrapped it up in still a good way with (spoiler) The brothers attempting to be closer.

In spite of the ending of the Jeanette story arch, i still feel a unsatisfied with the way their relationship had come to a close. Maybe we might have a cameo or like an ending where they have a good relationship like they send letters to each other or something? Probably she could even attend Athy’s wedding disguised as well? Who knows.