#but anyways mamaw is supposed to call me when she and my great aunt are coming up the driveway so i can get Blue handled

[jcsontodd]

so my aunt stopped by earlier w her/my cousin’s dog Maverick and Blue loves Maverick which is good! so she could get some energy out before mamaw and my great aunt come home -- but she tried letting Maverick off the leash bc Blue does so well off leash (to be fair, we’ve done a LOT of training for her to be as good at off leash as she is) and he took off into the woods behind my house so we (my aunt, me, Blue) took off after him and my aunt got scratched up quite a bit before she found him and got him back but Blue enjoys the creek so there’s at least something positive out of it

[thechaosmuses]

Hey darlings, I just wanted to pop on and let y’all know I’m gonna be on in a little bit, I promise. I’m also gonna talk about why I’ve not been here under the cut just to give you guys an update on me but please do not feel like you have to read it, I’m just putting it there mainly to ease my own mind and get stuff off my chest. Before I get to that though; first off, I just wanna say thank you to everyone who’s been patient with me these last few weeks. It really means the world to me that you guys still wanna rp and talk to me even though I know I’ve been really bad at being here. Just, thank you all from the bottom of my heart. And secondly, if anyone would like memes or one liners sent their way just reply to this and lemme know who you want or if I can just send for anyone. And lastly, I hope everyone is having a great day/night and a great start to the New Year so far ❤️

Alright now onto where I’ve been… So the days after Christmas and before New Years were a blur for me because I had been sleeping in the house the past few days from it being so cold and now I was suddenly back in my shed but I’d gotten used to being in the house again; anyways; it just took a few days for me to readjust and then by time I did it was NYE which was pretty good for me but I got tired pretty soon because sleeping in the house had changed my schedule. And then I started having weird medical things happening; like my ears have been hurting and other sinus things, and then I’ve been feeling lightheaded and dizzy sometimes and a bunch of other things. Luckily, I had a doctor's appointment on the 3rd and what I found out then was that everything looked good, no Covid, Flu or RSV and nothing in my blood work that was bad (including my A1C which my mom and I both thought was causing the dizziness and whatnot)- the only thing that was bad was my cholesterol levels, both the regular and bad one. So I essentially just have to work on my diet and all that which I’d wanted to do anyway since I noticed I’ve gained weight- Anywayssss- after I got off the phone with the lab the other day I called my Mom to tell her what they’d said, and she decided to just now inform me that heart problems run on my sperm donors' side of the family. And then when I asked her how I was supposed to know that she told me I should’ve stayed in contact with them. And I could go on for hours about why I cut them out of my life but basically it all boils down to one thing; they were nowhere to be found when I lost my Great-Grandma and my Mamaw in 2015 and I lived 20ish minutes from them then and for two years after, and they didn’t bother to check in on me when my Great-Aunt passed in 2017. I still have one my Aunt’s who's like a year older than me and my cousin on some socials but that’s it. So yeah, I’ve just been dealing with all of that and trying to figure out what to do and what I can and can’t eat and all that because knowing I’m apparently at a higher risk for heart problems is scaring me a little bit (plus I’ve been having some issues that I thought were anxiety related but now am second guessing that so I need to bring that up to my doctor) Also, my Mom is getting me a job where she works, she does taxes and is currently running the store where she works, so in the next two weeks or so I will be a bit less active because I’ll be working. Though like I said my Mom will pretty much be my boss so as long as no one is in the store I don’t think she’ll care if I whip my phone or laptop out. I think that’s pretty much all I have to update y’all on, I’m gonna make another OOC post in a bit because I need your guys help on something but for now I think that’s all I’ve got to say. If you read all of this, I really appreciate you and hope you have the best day ever.. And of course as always, have a forehead kiss..