#but anyways i am a little gay girlboy

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hi honeybee wnna start by saying i LOVE ur hobie content, you’ve captured his characterization so well n it makes me im OBSESSED 🥴🥴 wht i just wanted to ask cause i was curious, if ur non-binary & use masc pronouns, why do u write fem!reader? u totally don’t have to answer this, i was just wondering cause im also transmasc non-binary & ik fem stuff usually gives me the heebie-jeebies /gen

firstly THANK YOU OMG i’m so scared i write hobie ooc so this rlly means alot nonny <3 and i was thinking about this the other day and honestly… i rlly don’t know 😭😭 i’ve got it mostly figured out though. i’m genderfluid and i love femininity, and in relationships i rlly don’t mind bein called someone’s girlfriend. my relationship with gender is… yeah and the things i write are all what’s comfortable for me. i’m not a girl but being called pretty girl works for me 🤷🏾‍♀️ it’s rlly just what i prefer.

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i know you love tamaki but thoughts on each of the other hosts? my favourite is mori <3

full disclosure tamaki was my first real conscious fictional crush at the ripe age of 11 and TO THIS DAY i have to pause the show during the piano scenes to recover my dignity so he will always be my number one. my everything. my absolute love interest of all time. i could write essays on him for real. i HAVE written essays on him. that being said i can absolutely talk about the other hosts bc im literally obsessed w this show

haruhi was the gender blueprint. truly. girlboy swag. she and misa amane death note were definitely like. the two most influential characters on my personal style in middle and high school. this doesn't say anything good about me. she is also multifaceted and well characterized in a way that's SO refreshing for a romance protagonist. character of all time. also btw im the exact demographic this show was written for meaning i was a tamaki/haruhi truther from the very beginning. where is the tall blonde prince boy to my short stupid gnc bitch. when is it my turn to be happy

hikaru and kaoru. yes i know the twincest thing is weird but i am CHOOSING TO IGNORE IT because 1. the show is making fun of shoujo tropes. its SATIRE GUYS and 2. they are literally so well characterized that it MAKES SENSE THAT THEY DO IT. ugh. anyways kaoru was always my favorite of the two bc i love a man thats in tune with his own emotions. i like hikaru in theory but i think if i knew him in real life i would murder him. i am also obsessed with their characterization and backstory in general bc their specific brand of trauma is one that i so rarely see represented in media and i think they had a very realistic response to it?? like they're genuinely very well written characters i like them a lot. i could also probably write an essay about them

kyoya. im obsessed with him. hes a genius. hes an asshole. he runs a literal profitable business pimping out his besties. girls somehow like him despite him never actually showing affection to any of them in canon. hes literally the worst person alive. hes genuinely kindhearted despite everyone in his life attempting to beat it out of him. hes GAY. this is a joke mostly but i truly think that every decision in his life post-middle school is made because he is obviously, painfully in love with tamaki and also completely oblivious to this fact. like the show might attempt to make you think that hes got a thing for haruhi but literally every decision he makes is for tamaki's benefit (the manga is even MORE explicit about this btw and it makes me insane) and the entire time hes in denial about the fact that tamaki is literally everything to him. it's hilarious. "and so kyoya met him" uhhh fellas is it gay to consider the single most important event in your life to be meeting another man

i kinned honey in middle school for real and every time i think about it i want to die. i unfortunately still like cake. and rabbits. and i am still blonde and short. i might be haunted by this character for the rest of my life

i didn't get the appeal of mori at first tbh which might be a result of watching the anime 2 million times but never reading the manga LMAO bc he really is just a filler character in the show. but hes fun and i like him well enough. im sort of hoping he gets a little more room to be a real character in the manga tho bc ive like. just gotten out of the chapters that were adapted directly into the show so we're in uncharted territory now. im waiting for his chapter im SURE its coming

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i was supposed to be laying in bed but i forgot my tumblr password so i had to come sit in this cold uncomfortable computer chair to log into tumblr and see if i can remember what it is but i decided its night and i hada thought earlier and its quite a thought so im gonn a telly ou about it so story time!

i identify as nonbinary and will take any pronouns, but i am uncomfortable being shoved into the category of female; i was a huge tomboy from about fourth to sixth grade and then i tried to push femininity onto myself in seventh grade and stuff but whatevER THAT DOESNT MAYYER HERE@! the beginning of this school year i was home schooled so i was like yoo this is nice i dont have to like... be anxious in a social space AND explain that gender binaries aren’t for everyone! but alas i was kicked out of homeschooling because I’m A Lazy Shit. anyways i was put into the closest public school (which was an ok experience nothing rly special but not bad) and was like crap ok i should be fine right? i mean. i was mostly fine. but there was this girl i used to know from like years before, she just sorta disappeared one day and whoomp here she is again!

im gonna call this girl hanna bc i didnt know of any people there named hanna. so basically i was like yo hanna didnt we like.. know each other before and she was like holy crap is that you? you look so... different?? and i was like uh yeah and she was like wow ok so yeah school was chill. this boy one day came up to me during third period and introduced himself and i introduced myself and all that stuff and we like hit it off and i was like omg i get queer vibes and theyre cute? pls tell me im right and during lunch that day i cracked a gay joke and BAM that sets it in stone we are friends and we are gay and wowowow this is great! i later learn that he is out to a number of people in the school as trans and stuff and so people learn that im hanging out with this “girlboy” (i got mad every time someone said something like that abt him and still do bc i love this boy a lot ok?) and were like omg you’re (his birthname’s) friend! wow that’s so cool and stuff but then he had to leave after like two weeks bc he was going to another school and then i was alone again but yeah, school went on, i spent most of my time alone, reading in the library bc i had no friends, nor did i wish to make any friends because i had barely gotten into this school and all the friend groups and cliques seemed to be established but every once in a while the library helpers, including hanna, included me in their activities and then things got uncomfortable

once i was walking out of the locker room and there was this group of girls, including hanna, who were just talking, then as i passed by them they were like hey you! are you a girl? and then someone else came in and was like why are you asking that?! that’s rude and then hanna came in and said obviously she’s a girl, she has boobs. yeah that wasn’t cool.

anyways ever since then, i felt really uncomfortable around hanna for obvious reasons! and after realizing i never responded to the person asking if i were a girl, it was almost like she was trying to figure me out! there were a few rumors of me being a lesbian going around the little social circles in the classes i had and like i didn’t care but things just felt really off

basically she kept making small comments abt how im a girl and there were other girls who were telling me i would look so much prettier with long hair (more on that later) and then one day, one dysphoric day, i almost cried in the locker room.

i was later than usual to last period because i had to finish up a test for sixth period, so i changed out and stuff when most of the girls were out of the locker room. however, as i was walking out to get to roll call, Hanna randomly tapped my shoulder and looked at me straight in the eyes. She was blank faced but her eyes glinted with something, like she had accomplished something. She stated, her voice low but her tone clear, “I caught you. You’re a girl.” Ever since then, I had massive anxiety whenever changing out because our lockers were practically next to each other and I always felt watched. It was horrible, and ever since then, I try my best to just avoid “public private” areas. I literally felt like throwing up and crying that moment and for the rest of the week.