#but alyce is willing and able to accept these burdens

[jontheredrc]

Well, it's about that time again...and I've felt terribly unmotivated in my creative endeavors lately. I mean, I've been struggling physically and mentally, and a lot of things have sort of fallen by the wayside as I pour everything I've got into my work shifts, because I have to...so of course something as complex as writing would suffer. But I've been starting to feel like I'm getting out of it, too, so it feels easier to look at and look across and whatever. As much as I love writing, it can be difficult to find the motivation to continue when people aren't reading it--not even in a "oh gimme views" kinda way, but, like, despite how folks frequently talk shit broadly about "audiences" or subdivisions thereof like "focus groups"...I dunno, I have faith that exposing my stories to the opinions of others will help me make a better story. Even when it's something as simple as hearing your friends resonate live in chorus over a specific trait of your character, it's like...bullseye...! I've made these characters, these stories, and I like them...and overall, I hope other people like them too. Sometimes it's more about the escapism, sometimes it's more about delivering a theme, sometimes it's just about creating the wildest personalities I can imagine and then smashing them into each other, but I guess I hope overall that if you check out my stuff, you like what you see somehow. And even if you don't, any insight into how this crazy multiverse of mine looks from the outside is still helpful. I mean, even just forming something like a drawing or a novel is helpful, a formation of my primordial ideas into something a little less abstract, which itself forces me to refine those ideas as I work with them. That's cool too, but it's hard to run on that by itself. Outside perspectives can give me a lot more to work with. Sometimes they perceive things in ways I truly don't anticipate, which is wonderful. That gives me a whole new dimension by which to build my characters, my stories, my craft.

Anyway, that's quite a bit of rambling, and I'm not gonna be able to write tonight anyway because my ex-roommate is coming over. Have a great day, everyone! Love you! 👋💕