#but also... confusionnn

[coldercreation]

another day another TMI rant

Hmmm it has come to my attention that there is something rather off-putting? confusing? hollow? self-doubt inducing? about people being casual-sexually attracted to you but not showing even a hint of interest to you as a person when it is outside of that casually-sexual context🤔 You'd think that getting complimented on your looks was nice (and it is, don't get me wrong) but when it is the only driving force for multiple interactions with different people... It can be a very objectifying experience :/ Especially once they find out that you're not into anything casual and suddenly you no longer exist.

I mean, I still haven't found myself crushing on/interested in anyone as of now, but y'know... I'm still interested in people and who they are in general. They don't just stop existing to me once they are out of my sight. Like... I don't need to want to have sexy times with someone to want to know who they are?😭 I've said it before but, do people nowadays really only care for others if it somehow benefits them?

I've found that I'm not made for casual relationships (which is obvs completely fine and it also fine if someone is the opposite). But it is tricky and frustrating that there only ever seems to be two reasons people approach me or engage with me: 1) casual-sexual thing 2) they just don't. And I mean this for both romantic and friendly relationships. Either they just see someone they wanna bang or there's no engagement at all (or it's very surface level/impersonal). :(

Like... I'm a personnnn. I like myself just fineeee; can't be that off putting that it's only my looks people want to deal with ?? My brain could be hot too??? asdfhg lmao :')

[diagonal-queen]

HII

GURL I JUST WOKE UP AND I SAW UR RESPONSE

Now YOU HAVE ME KICKING MY FEET AND FEELING WARM AND FUZZY COS WHATTT

You???liked???my?????blog??????

Huh?????

I AM CONFUSIONNN

Also

THE WAY IM SMILING LIKE A FOOL BECAUSE IM ACTUALLY FREAKIN IN LOVEE WITH YOURS IS LIKE😭

And yes

FUCK IS SO FUxKING VERSATILE!! It just adds so much flavour to anything anyone says~

And yes i shalt drink water when I inevitably free myself from the prison of my bed but i also hope you do too!

And please always remember,

-jaya

YEAH I DID I WAS JUST A SILLY LITTLE GOOSE AND FORGOT TO MAKE THAT FACT KNOWN 😭😭😭 WDYM YOU’RE CONFUSION YOUR BLOG FUCKIN SLAPS

I've just had a coffee and a milo so. That kinda counts as water right? Bean water? (And choccy milk because who doesn’t love choccy milk) aksjksjskdhd I’ll have some actual water soon

Also that raccoon thing is so cute because first of all I love puns and second I love raccoons and third that sentiment is very sweet 🌸🥺🥺 I appreciate you!!

is for you ❤️

[sallytwo]

also like. since i have so much lore and understanding of these characters and story and i only share a fraction of it its hard to trace like whats "common" knowledge and what i forget to post about so everyone is like. what are you saying i never learned this. so it helps clear up confusionnn by understanding where the gaps in knowledge are

pleasee send parousia asks if you got any... i cant find a good ask game but if you got any questions about anything or are confused.. pleaseee

[mazojo]

I Love Yoo - Episode 87

Good this episode was longgg and aghhh I am so conflicteddd

Like Maya’s been mad for a while now and salty about the whole issue of Shin-Ae and aghhhh, I mean I get both points of views but hope they are able to talk things out before a snow ball effect starts ;w;... 

ALSO KOUSUKE IS BACK AND ASDHFE, y’all know Nol is top boy for me but damn did I miss the best cold soft boiii, and like he saw Shin-Ae with Dieter in the park and his heart and asdfght

Shin Ae also blushed with Dieter and its the first time this happens with one fo the boys and ???? I love them ??? but like also Yeong Gi ???? I am confusionnn <333

Hopefully next chapter Maya and Shin Ae talk things out because my girl must be protected and I don't have a good vibe about this whole issue brewing up D:

[askmikuohatsune]

Wait wait I’m confusionnn. Didn’t Mikuo plug himself in and get corrupted? But he’s ok now? But his corrupted self is walking by himself? Two Mikuo’s?

(( Ah, Well this was going to be explained further in the upcoming lore posts but, to clarify, the event is a recollection so its something that happened in the past and not current to present. So yes hes perfectly fine currently! kinda! maybe! who knows! And his corrupted self is not walking around by himself yet

Also, the corrupted cat Mikuo in my recent post would just be a joke pertaining to the multiple dimensions containing Mikuos lol

I did however want to do a part 2 to the lore event where Corrupted Mikuo gets to answer a few asks but I’ve been debating whether I should or not yet…haha

I hope this clears things up for you! If you have more questions feel free to ask ))