#but also it's been two months and i will still randomly remember tidbits and need to stare at a wall about them for 3 hours. ykwim

[queerofthedagger]

had a vision

[spellbcok]

" 𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐁𝐋𝐄𝐄𝐃 𝐒𝐎 𝐌𝐔𝐂𝐇 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐔𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄, 𝐎𝐊𝐀𝐘? 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐒 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐌𝐔𝐂𝐇 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐎 𝐖𝐀𝐒𝐇 𝐎𝐅𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐍 𝐃𝐈𝐑𝐓. "

Was that [ESTHER YU]? Oh no no, that was just [LING MIAOMIAO], a [CANON CHARACTER] from [LOVE GAME IN EASTERN FANTASY]. They are [TWENTY FIVE] years old, use [SHE/HER], and [ARE] aware that they are not actually from Washington DC. Too bad they can’t stray from this city for long.

spoilers tw (vague, but just in case, skip the 'where has your character been pulled from' section as it has mention of the novel ending + episode 31)

how long has your character been here?

miaomiao has just arrived ( 11/24/24 ).

what is your character's job?

unemployed since she has just arrived. she's a pragmatic mathematics major, so in the future maybe something to do with statistics or maybe an actuary/data analyst if anyone owns a company that needs one of those.

where has your character been pulled from in their fandom?

end-ish of episode 31 / end of the novel (not including the extras). pretty much the point when the system is like, 'congrats you reached 100% favorability, succeeded the mission & will be sent back' as mu sheng is dying.

has any magic affected your character?

just that she is currently here.... she was also pulled out while still in the novel, so she is, technically, 'lin yu' / miaomiao's body from the novel & still has the spark power and ability to use talismans. she is unaware of this as she doesn't really have a reason to use it in this world as it's a modern day set novel in her head. so won't try until she meets a demon/threat.

anything else?

just ooc rambling.

first & foremost, if you're in need of something light and bingeable check out this drama. or if you want almost the same story but with a slightly more serious tone & more romance/intimate scenes then read it here. okay small appeal done.

due to a major transmigration brainrot the past few months, i've actually read this one before randomly seeing the drama on netflx. (so the opposite of sweetpea/rhiannon). and probably a hot take but i like the drama's characterizations more (especially of the two original novel main leads; & the friendship between miaomiao and the fl is sm better), so going to go with drama portrayal... mostly. i haven't watched the end yet so i might go with the novel ending ;fiwajd

but that's not really relevant atm with where i've pulled her from, so will decide when the time comes.

back to tidbits about miaomiao

i'll write up a bio since she doesn't have a wiki.

for quick info now: miaomiao woke up as the villainous canon fodder supporting character in the shitty new novel (demon hunters) from her favorite author. last she remembered she was writing a scathing review then bam— a maid is bringing in a traditional wedding dress and telling her to get ready. she learns from the 'system' that in order to get out she has to prevent the 2nd male lead from 'blackening'/turning evil. to do this, she has to get him to fall in love with her. luckily, her starting favorability was at -200% /sarcasm. while doing this she also has the mission of completing the normal plot points of the villain character 'lin yu' that she has taken over; such as harming the fl (the 2nd male leads sister) and get close to the ml.

a little bit of irl background. after standing up for someone who was being bullied, she became the new victim. the school called miaomiao's father to pick her up & he, unfortunately, gets hit by a car in front of her. she has lived with the guilt of his death since and wonders if he blamed her. but she was given some solace when lin yu's father appears & looks just like her real dad. he comforts her as she explains all that as a 'dream' she had.

ANYWAYS, here in dc she thinks the ever-unhelpful system made a mistake and pulled her out and placed her into an entirely different novel.

with her system mia, she's trying to figure out how to go back to save mu sheng & the rest of the four bamboo masters (their team name).

miaomiao is bubbly and energetic. she can prattle on endlessly. mostly for her own mental health as she can't stand silence. can be recklessly fearless when people she cares about are in trouble. a bit high maintenance ("i don't like fruits that needs peeling"). sometimes it seems like she is saying absolute nonsense and has random facts for days, but there's always a point— eventually.

she can be naïve when it comes to romance and has limited experience. but she has extreme confidence that she knows a lot because she has read/seen it.

this is based on the pig quote from chapter 94 where she basically says "i've never eaten pork, but i've seen pigs running". which is a wild metaphor, especially before a nsfw(-ish/not explicit) moment lmao.

&& for the drama equivalent: internally: "if i want to flirt with a guy, i should create more physical contact." to mu sheng: "we should have a bet, right? so, if who wins, the winner gets to flick the other's forehead." (( smh finger flicks is her idea of flirting/physical contact ))

wanted connections.

plea for canons, especially the three other bamboo masters

friends: all of the friends like similar interests (books, math, food), confidants, other transmigrators to exchange notes/complaints with (maybe someone who also had a system if such ppl exist), exploring buddies.

intro to dc: someone to help her around and give her pointers.

business owner/worker: anyone who needs an employee or a possible office co-worker?

roommate(s): atm she's living in the government accommodation.

gym buds: she does light workouts (like yoga or walking/biking around), possibly self-defense teacher/peers?

[microcroft]

“Buhh... sometimes life feels like a slow, gray blur... know what I mean? 

...I feel like you're the only constant color in my life”

so um, heres some Gris and Shane content i have been working on for a month (which is nothing compared to the gris and shane picture i have been working/ giving up on/ working on again for like well over a year now lmao). I really love this line from Auroniova’s dialogue mod (heres the CP version that works ) and this image popped in my head in art appreciation class as i randomly thought about it. i am posting it now because if i dont i will never stop working on it because i am constantly seeing little things i have to fix and there will never not be something to fix.

i love these two dumbass disasters so fucking much.  

heres a description of gris: Gay, absolute nightmare, has adhd, anxiety and depression (because i just cant seem to write a character that doesnt). Long story short, he goes to stardew to try and put himself back together. Shane tells gris to fuck off. Gris tell shane to fuck off. A week later, shane is like “life sucks and im stuck in this dark abyss and i cant even see the light of day anymore” and gris is like “Thats a fuckin big mood there. Cheers, i’ll drink to that bro.”After that they both realize “this dude gets it.” They become best friends. Shane is the only one gris actually feels comfortable talking to about why he really came to stardew and why he only wears long sleeves. Shane, though the least likely person in the whole ass valley, actually helps gris deal with all his shit. Gris provides shane everything he needs to help himself get out of that abyss. On fall 12th of year 1 they finally get together for real then after that they are absolutely disgustingly sappy and in love and it only gets worse from that point forward. Its not always sunshine and rainbows but they understand each other better than anyone else and when they are together the world is less cold and overwhelming.

somewhat longer description (still a basic summary because this boy’s whole life is a mess) under the cut

he worked his way up through joja to a very high corporate position (head of community development, basically he moved joja into communities and integrated them in to those communities) and really fucking hates joja with a fiery passion because they basically manipulated/ brainwashed him into thinking he was doing something good, censoring the internet, always spinning news stories and lying to him and he was terrified of facing that truth that everything he he had done nothing but hurt the people he was trying to help. 

so uhhhhhhhhhhh after that truth really broke through he had a huge breakdown, cleaned out his bank account giving money to communities joja fucked up and other charities, then got extremely drunk and attempted suicide. anyway, after that his therapist pretty much yelled at him telling him for the 50th time that the city environment is detrimental to his mental health and he needs to change his environment if he wants long term results. he goes to the valley.

random tidbits of info:

he comes from a wealthy family, think lorelai’s parents in the gilmore girls, they are basically them, however, his mom is far manipulative and unsupportive than emily. his parents were nearly constantly away on business trips so he and his little sister were left in the care of their abusive, alcoholic grandfather. :) definitely doesnt have absolutely any effect on gris’s mental health, not at all :)

gris used to stay with his grandpa (paternal side, the not-asshole grandpa)  in stardew over the summers for a couple years, there he met some kid and became best friends with him and dug up worms and went on adventures with him. they were basically joined at the hip over the summers. gris’s parents stopped letting him go to his grandpas over the summers, they lost touch and he hasnt seen or spoken to that kid in 20 years. he doesnt remember his name either :/

shane runs a popular depression memes twitter. later he becomes a youtube gamer/twitch streamer, he plays games as charlie just roams around. he doesnt tell his fans he and gris are together until they get married and all hell breaks loose among his fan base. his fans fucking love gris. 

shane and gris are a mixture of ned and ariel fulmer from the try guys and jenna and julien except with more mental illness and chickens.

1 part ned and ariel

3 parts jenna and julien

1000000 parts sad bitch disease and chickens

100000000000 parts “i love my husband” juice, which also counts as ned and ariel but like yeah the fulmers are very powerful in the “extremely married” department but like.... thats not powerful enough

[slashersteve]

Forgotten Love Letter 💌

pairing: Peter Parker/Gender Neutral Reader

summary: Peter discovers a letter you had intended to give him in freshman year of high school before you started dating.

warnings: mentions of blood 

note: I got inspired by letter writing in numerous fics I’ve been running into and tatbilb ofc 💕 enjoy :)) first imagine ive written in over 2 decades, it’s been sitting in my drafts for that long too- now she’s out here in the world thank u thank u

•••

The school week was officially over, and you could finally relax over the weekend. It had been an exhausting week with numerous amount of homework (it’ll be this way in college get used to it now teachers said or claimed) You still had homework, but it wouldn’t be due until the end of the next week, so Saturday was officially for you.

Your boyfriend of a year had promised you two would hang out at your place and watch a movie, but after his nightly activities. You knew Peter was Spider-man, an internet sensation everyone was crazy about including yourself. The only way you found out is because Peter has never been great at keeping secrets. He saw you on the street one time, and just waved, “Hey (y/n)!” He yelled, completely forgetting he was Spider-Man and not another high school student who can nonchalantly say hi to their significant other. You were hella confused and had awkwardly waved back, recognizing his voice but not quite sure if you heard it right.

It took you all night before you had put two and two together. From those late nights he wouldn’t answer your texts or would answer your text, weird bruises and aches he sometimes had, and his ability to climb through your window despite the fire escape being farther away from your 7th floor bedroom. And his voice. You quickly got to work and went to school the next day wearing custom made Spider-Man gear to see if he catches on that you know and he looked completely touched by the fact you were wearing it.

“Did you- figure it out when I said hi to you?” Peter asked one day underneath the bleachers during lunch before Ned came to join you two. You had smirked and said, “I thought the point of the mask was for people to not know who you are, especially the ones you know.” He blushed of embarrassment and you kissed him on the cheek and said, “Secrets safe with me...” with a wink.

It was after that when Peter would come to you after nearly every night patrol he did, he’d come into your room in the full suit to tell you about his day, what he had done, what kind of crime he fought and other times he’d come when he’s injured. Those were the nights that worried you the most and made you lecture him on being much, much more careful. You didn’t care if he’d heal fast- he’s not invincible.

You hadn’t expected him in early today though, knowing he was spending the entire day with his Aunt May before going on “patrol”. So you spent most your Saturday laying sround, sleeping on and off and texting Peter. Your mom was out all day working and you didn’t expect your dad home till the next morning because he’d just left for the graveyard shift. You were bored out of your mind after every favorite movie was watched and decided to clean up the mess in your room you ignored the past week.

An hour of picking up and vacuuming later, you then decided to organize your closet. That’s when you found it- a medium sized white wooden jewelry box with flower and swan designs on it your mother had gifted to you when you were eight. After putting all your clothes back and some in a box, you sat down on your bed, legs crossed as you wound up the music and then opened the box, the melody of Swan Lake playing the moment you lifted the lid. You smiled at the swan figurine that slowly spun along to the music. A feeling of nostalgia bursted through you as you were reminded of being a child, humming the tune wherever you went and drawing swans randomly. Your eyes shifted to look at the contents inside, letting the music continue to play.

There was anything but jewelry in there, In there was instead a few notes you and your best friend from middle school used to give each other, filled with silly stuff and inside jokes. There was even old letters from a pen pal you had in 5th grade! Her name was Elizabeth and she was from the UK. About a half hour had passed with you reading through them when you eyes caught the light pink, folded paper that was at the very bottom. You picked it up, setting the others aside.

You flipped it around, not remembering what the letter was, what it contained or who it was for right until you saw the name “Peter Parker” with a heart around it. Instantly your eyes widened, the happy nostalgic memories being replaced with the cringey memory of that one afternoon on the bus ride home writing out your feelings for your new friend from Science class. You felt your cheeks heat up at the memory, and slowly small tidbits of what you wrote were coming back to you.

Just as you moved to open it, there was a sudden loud knock on your window. You jumped in your spot, the letter falling from your hand and you turned to see the man himself in his Spider-Man suit, waving at you and pointing at the window asking you to let him in. Instantly you relaxed and quickly shoved the letters back into the box and shut it, the room becoming silent.

Hopping to your feet, you went to unlock the window, saying, “You’re here early did May-“ but your words got caught in your throat when you saw he was cut up and bleeding. He pulled his mask off, his brown locks of short hair sticking up in nearly every direction.

“Peter what the hell!” You cried, gently touching around a bruise on his left cheek and then looking down at his cut up suit to see the damage. It was pretty bad, but he just gave a pained toothy smile that you glared at, already knowing what he was going to say.

“It’ll heal- I dunno about the suit- but ill heal I just need to get kisses from you and lay down for a while and I’ll be better in no time,” he said, pecking your lips then walking passed you. You were baffled as he had one hand over his side and used the other to grab a towel to put over your bed before sitting down on it. You’d honestly never seen him this hurt- you’ve seen bruises, mega painful looking bruises, and few cuts but this was just bad. His suit was cut up. What kind of people did he run into for them to do that? He noticed you staring and sighed, “I know what you’re thinking (y/n), but really I’m okay! You should’ve seen the other guys.” He joked but you crossed your arms not amused.

“Other guys? Looking at how you ended up- I can only assume you killed them,” you said in a serious tone, but he laughed like it was a joke. When he saw you weren’t laughing he let his head fall downwards for a moment.

“Can you not lecture me right now- this really hurts,” he motioned over his wounds and you sighed once more, hands falling to the side as he gave you those puppy dog eyes now. You didn’t say anything as you wandered over to your door and went to retrieve some things to clean his wounds. He may heal pretty fast, but you’ll be damned if he’s going to lay there all bloodied up and in pain. Peter watched you go and pushed himself more onto the bed, before swinging his feet up and knocking over the music box on your bed. He raised a brow, and grabbed it, realizing it was a music box when he saw the wound up in the back. He opened it after twisting it, smiling at the soft tune that began to play out like you had done. He curiously looked at its contents and he would’ve left it alone because it was clearly private if they were in a box, but his eyes caught sight of a “-rker” and when he moved the other papers he saw it was his name. Curiosity got the best of him as he pulled out the pink, folded sheet of paper and laughed softly when he saw it was his name written in your handwriting in the center of a near perfect looking heart.

He glanced at the door to see if you were coming back, and saw you still werent back so he gently opened it, seeing a full page of writing and a date at the top, Peter recognizing the year as freshman year, the year you transferred to Midtown High and the first year you met. He felt his heart warm up as he realized what this was.

It was a love letter.

Dear Peter Parker,

I know we’ve only just met, but every time I’m around you I feel butterflies in my stomach and my heart races 100 beats per minute. You’re very sweet, funny, and really smart and I couldn’t help but feel these feelings for you even if we’ve only known each other for a month or two. Everyday spent with you has been the best days of my life! I came to this school with no friends and dreaded having to have to do a partner project in biology. You were kind enough to sit by me and ask me to work with you. After that, I couldn’t stop myself from falling in love with you. I feel silly for writing a letter, but I’m not really good with words and I am not sure you feel the same. I’m currently writing on the bus ride home, hoping to god the person behind me isn’t looking over the seat. I would be so embarrassed! But- I really hope you do feel the same way, I’ll be crushed if you didn’t. Please don’t think I’m a fool for writing this letter

With love,

(y/n)

By the time Peter got to the end, the smile on his lips were so wide. He found this completely touching and adorable because it was dated about 3 months before you two even began to date towards the middle of freshman year. The fact that you already liked him so much before then also made him a bit giddy.

You had just gotten out from your parents bathroom, having been in there a while trying to find the first aid kit. When you walking back down the hall towards your bedroom you stopped when you heard Swan Lake.

“Oh...oh no-“ your heart dropped as you remember what was in that box and you ran into your room, eyes widen when you saw Peter holding the letter in his hands, “What are you doing?!” The music ended on queue and Peter snapped his head in your direction, seeing your horrified expression. You set the first aid kit onto the dresser near the door and reached to take the note away from him but he dodged your hand, “Give it! Please don’t read it! It’s from a year ago please Peter!” You begged, “I don’t even know what’s in it, it’s probably horrible!” Peter hadn’t said anything, just smiling playfully and keeping the note away from you as you leaned over him, still being aware of his injuries. Although he’d forgotten about his own injuries being distracted by your letter. He fell backwards and groaned in pain swinging his legs over the side of your bed. Your eyes widened.

“I already read it by the way,” Peter said, looking up at where you sat next to him, one leg crossed over the other, “I can’t believe you didn’t give it to me! We could’ve been dating way sooner!” You tilted your head, cheeks heating up as you snatched the letter from him and scanned over it quickly.

“Dear god no- this would’ve slowed things down! This is so- so bad,” you claimed and looked back at him with a major cringe on your face. Peter shook his head disagreeing with you, “I barely knew you- are you telling me you wouldn’t of been freaked out by this? It’s kind of stalkerish.”

“Nope!”

You shook your head in disbelief, and looked back down at the paper, embarrassed by the horrible confession of love whereas Peter was grinning like a child next to you.

“It’s cute that you’ve always had a crush on me,” he teased you, you became flushed and began to fold the sides of the paper nervously, “hey, hey why are you so embarrassed? I liked you too you know.” He admitted, pushing himself up now clenching his side lightly. You set the letter down and got the first aid kit.

“I don’t know why I’m so embarrassed,” you admitted as you took the same spot next to him, “We’re literally dating. And I feel like I can’t even look at you.”

“Well- you got what you wanted,” Peter said as he tapped on the spider logo on his, his suit loosing up and falling off his shoulders to reveal the bloody wounds. Normally when he had his shirt off you wouldn’t able to concentrate, no one should let the nerd demeanor throw them off, he was pretty built and it was nice. The wounds were your main focus, along with that embarrassing letter though, there was no time to ogle.

“Oh yeah?” You asked, a smirk on your lips as you got out the supplies, “And what was it I wanted?”

“For me to return your feelings, thus us beginning to date, you got it all!” he explained, wincing when you began to clean around his wounds, “Why did you never give me the letter? It was really sweet...” he said in a strain voice, you pursed your lips together and looked at him.

“I don’t know, I remember coming home that day and just setting it into the music box and never letting it see the light of day again.”

“There must’ve been a- ow,” he closed his eyes and bit his bottom lip and you seized cleaning one of the bigger wounds, looking at him with a sorry look, “a reason!” You licked your lip as you began to think back to that day, and it suddenly hit you. You laughed sadly.

“The next day, I ran into this girl and she was crying. And I asked her what was wrong and she said that she sent a long text to her crush about how much she liked him and he completely ignored her, and that he wouldn’t talk to her,” you explained, Peter frowned, “So as you can tell...that really discouraged me.”

“What a damn jerk,” Peter said raising a brow, “I wouldn’t of done that to you, I mean- look at us now-“

“Me cleaning up your wounds after a year of dating?” You chirped and he smiled fondly.

“Well- we could be doing more!” He teased and wiggled his eyebrows and you rolled your eyes, “Woah! I meant watching a movie together and cuddling! What were you thinking?”

“There will be no cuddling because you’re hurt,” you gestured to his wounds and he scoffed and put out his bottom lip. You continued to clean up in wounds in silence, suppressing that smile on your lips.

When he was all clean and bandaged up, you dug into your extra clothes and handed him a pair of sweatpants and then gave him one of your large sweatshirts you wore in the colder weather. You helped him get it on, pulling the sweatshirt gently over his back and stomach. He wasn’t hiding the fact that it hurt, and you pat the spot next to you.

“Thought we were going to watch a movie,” he said, crawling next to you onto your bed and settling down facing you, propping his head up with his right arm. You shook your head.

“M’ kind of tired,” you mumbled, fluffing your pillow. Peter blinked, and noticed that he was pretty tired too, Aunt May knew he was going over to your place, so sleeping over wouldn’t be the worst thing. He leaned over, catching your lips into a kiss and with a cheeky grin he said, “Thank you for taking care of me (y/n), I don’t know what I’d do without you. Everyday spent with you has been the best days of my life and I can’t wait for more!” Your eyes widen and you flicked him in the shoulder as he laughed loudly, falling into his back. You nuzzled your head into his arm, not wanting to lay on him due to his injuries.

“Everything in that letter was true by the way, Peter.” You said, closing your eyes. Peters eyes were already closed, but there was a smile on lips before both of you fell asleep.

[novamm66]

Pic-Lit 8 (Part 2) - Cullen

I agonized over this drawing, and this story a lot.  This sketch was the first attempt of mine to draw something from my imagination.  And here it is, please let me know what you think.

The story was also tricky I could see it in my head but it was a struggle to get it down on the page.

He had been walking for what seemed like hours.  He was faintly regretting leaving his horse behind, but Kiaya hadn’t taken her Forder with her and there was no clear path to speak of so a horse would have been a bad idea.

Cullen stopped in the fading light and pulled out the letter Kiaya had left in the war room.  He stared at the paper then checked his position.  Maker I hope I am reading this right.  It had been a passing conversation a month ago, one of the personal tidbits that she has started to share with him.  Cullen sighed, putting the letter back in his pocket, and started walking up the hill again.  The lyrium in his system had been sparking and buzzing the entire journey but he couldn’t tell how long ago she had passed.  He had come prepared to spend the night but only just.  He had wanted speed when he had finally gotten away from Haven.

Barely minutes had past when Cullen stopped again.  Smoke, wood smoke; the wind shifted and it was gone.  Cullen waited until he could smell it again on the air, and he set out in that direction.  His pace quickened as the terrain got steeper, trees crowding in on both sides. A hundred paces and he broke through the edge of the trees into the strangest little hideaway he had ever seen.  

At his feet, a small stream slid past on its way to another waterfall below.  Past it, the cliff wall curved around to form a wide-open shelf about ten paces across. There was a small half cave at the end. On the other side trees loomed to the left and right creating a window with the treetops below.  This place would be almost impossible to find unless you stumbled on it.  There was only one way up and that was mostly over grown.

Fire wood had been stacked along the wall and a fire was burning at the back of the curve, the smoke disappearing into the ceiling to leak out invisibly into the hill side.  This place was practically unnoticeable.

Cullen stood looking at the empty campsite, listening to the water and the wind. A sharp intake of breath behind him had instinct kick in as his hand fell to his sword.  As he turned slowly around a shadow rose from the rocks and trees on his left.

“Cullen!?!  You figured it out! You came… FUCK!!!!”

---

Kiaya had known she was going to run, even before they had returned from Redcliffe.  She always ran.  That was why she had started prepping this place almost as soon as she found it a month ago.  She always felt better knowing she had a place to run to when she felt like she was losing control.  And Redcliffe had been too much.  Running away was how she regained some control.  It was not a good way but it was a way and it kept her sane.  She had never felt as out of control of her own choices as she has since the Fade spit her out.  Here, things were simpler; it gave her time to think, she had to get her head on straight again.  True, the whiskey was probably a bad choice, but it was a choice.

When she had gotten here she had every intention of making camp but after the fire was lit she sat down for a rest and a drink, and well...  She had gotten lost in her drawings again.  At some point the bottle appeared from the pack that Dorian had insisted on packing for her, while he lectured her on not eating or sleeping; in fact she was surprised that he had included the bottle at all.  After that she had become completely unaware of the passage of time. The first drawing had reached an end, at least until the sun came up again, and she had found herself sketching randomly, which had turned into a pair of eyes.

When Cullen walked into the clearing, Kiaya was far away in daydreams of amber and gold. She didn’t notice him right away, and he hadn’t seen her, sitting on a rock in the shadows of the trees. When Kiaya did notice him, she froze for a moment.

She couldn’t believe it.  He had remembered and he had figured it out.  It had been weeks ago that she had told him about her grandfather, who couldn’t read or write but would leave messages in drawings. They had made a game of it when she was small.  Kiaya still found herself doing it from time to time, it kept her childhood close.  That Cullen had recognized it, and actually come after her.  She swallowed, wishing now she had less to drink, or anything to eat, or both.

“Cullen!?!  You figured it out! You came… FUCK!!!!”

Cullen started at the sight of Kiaya tangled up in her own feet and her pack, sprawled on the ground.  The drawing kit that Varric had given her had been balanced on her pack and was now scattered on the dark ground.

Kiaya suddenly realized that she had sat still so long both of her legs had fallen asleep, she could no longer feel them.  She had almost pitched head first into the stream. As she crouched on the ground, almost at Cullen’s feet, Kiaya continued to curse and berate herself at her klutziness. ‘Maker, what he must think of me. Why? Why can’t I control my feet when I really need to?’ As she struggled to right herself and blood made it back to her feet, she could suddenly feel all too much, she hated when her legs feel asleep, it was such a horrible feeling.  

Kiaya could feel the blush rising up her neck and added to the redness that was all ready in her cheeks.  She sat on the ground, thumping feeling back into her thighs, thinking nasty thoughts about herself in general, when she was interrupted by the sound of Cullen, turning a laugh into a cough unconvincingly.

“Are you OK?”

“Yes, I’m fine.  Apparently up is not a direction I travel well.”  Kiaya’s could stop the grin from growing on her face; she truly must have looked ridiculous.  What an entrance.  For someone who hated being noticed she sure was great at making a display.  Kiaya’s eyes were dancing with suppressed mirth when she glanced up at Cullen, and he couldn’t stop his chuckling anymore.  Kiaya started to smile, then chuckle, then her head shot back and her laugh rang out like a bell. It echoed and leaped from stone to stone, bubbling up like the stream she was almost sitting in. Cullen was entranced, it was the first time he had heard her laugh, really laugh, without a care.

Kiaya’s outburst of mirth ended with a sigh, she glanced down and wiped her cheek.  She felt lighter somehow, lighter then she had in a long time and more like herself. She still wasn’t ready to face her future, or the possible lack thereof, but she would get there.  She always got there.

With another sigh, Kiaya started to scan the ground for her tools. It was almost full dark and looking for leads and charcoals in the dark was not going to work.  She found what she could and left the rest until morning. She corked the bottle, put it in her bag and climbed to her feet. She swayed a bit and she realized her hands were shaking, when had she eaten last?  She swung her pack on to her shoulder and immediately felt it lifted out of her hand.  Her surprise forced her head up as she swung around, unbalanced again, until she collided with Cullen.  His arms circled her waist to steady her; her hands and arm landing against his chest plate, the cold metal a sharp reminder of reality.

He wasn’t wearing his gloves and the touch of his hands on her back was electric.  Cullen’s touch was burning through the light cotton of the shirt she was wearing.  Kia couldn’t feel her knees anymore, feeling like she was floating, heat sizzled up her spine and pooling low in her belly. The air seemed to shimmer and swirl around them, filling Kiaya’s head with the earthy smell of him.  Oakmoss, and leather and him, everything him; she couldn’t take her eyes away from his, his gaze seeming to read every thought, ever secret that she struggled to hide from everyone.  She would gladly drown in those eyes forever.

“When did you eat last?”  Not the question Kiaya was hoping for.

“I’m not entirely sure.”

“What did you bring with you?”

Kiaya blinked and dropped her eyes from his, her breathe fogging Cullen’s breast plate.

“… I don’t know.  Dorian packed for me.  I don’t think he trusted me...” Kiaya’s voice petered out as she lost her courage.

Cullen could smell the soap that Kiaya had brought back from Val Royeaux, the only thing she had spent coin on for herself, Cass had said. It was unique and perfectly Kiaya, a gentle floral scent with a wild tang underneath.  Her breathe was sweetened with the whisky she had been drinking.  He could feel her shaking and he realized what Cassandra had been worried about was true. As he stared at the top of her head, memorizing the freckles that were scattered across her forehead, breathing her into his soul, Cullen realized that there was nothing he wouldn’t do for her.

Kiaya sighed against Cullen’s chest and leaned closer into him for a moment, “I am sorry I left before I could apologize for how I acted the last time we spoke,”  Kiaya’s words petered out as Cullen placed his fingers under her chin and raised her face so he could look her in the face again.

“I want to apologize as well, but maybe not tonight,” Cullen stared into the grey-green universe that was in Kiaya’s eyes.  It took a great force of will to step away from her.  “Tonight we are just two soldiers fighting in the same war, sharing a campfire and a drink.” Cullen uncorked the bottle and took a drink.  He smiled softly at the happiness blooming on her face, her eyes shining like stars as she gazed up at him.

“Now, why don’t you get cleaned up and I will see what we have?”

“Cleaned up?  What do you mean?” Kiaya looked down at her clothes, they were a little dusty but not bad for a day in the woods.

Cullen’s smirk widened at her confusion.  

“Why are you looking so smug?” Kiaya demanded, placing her hands on her hips.  Cullen started to laugh at the proud tilt of her head as his eyes traced the large charcoal smudges running across Kiaya’s forehead, nose and cheeks.

“Varric calls you ‘Smudges’ doesn’t he?”

“I have smudges all over my face don’t I?”

“Yes, you do.”

“Fuck.”

And there you have it folks, a deeper look in to Kiaya.  Thanks for reading.  If you would like to check out the rest then you can find them at he link below.

Kiaya’s Art; A Group of Writing & Drawing Dabbles

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5 Improvements the Persona Series Needs Before the Sixth Game Arrives in Ten or so Years [SPOILERS]

Let me lay the groundwork before I start tearing into one of the year's best games.

I enjoyed all 130 hours that I dumped into Persona 5, and I'll probably have a blast with the next 130 through New Game+, finishing up those friendship points I've missed and putting the player character somewhere between a student desperate to please everyone and “that one guy who won't leave you alone for a month until he pisses off and annoys someone else”.

I swear, he kinda has that face.

It was also really neat of the game to cut a lot of the fat that only wasted much of the player's time, like re-rolling new persona monsters multiple times just to get freaking Satan to learn Dekaja.

Despite the many steps forward Atlus has made with We-No-Longer-Have-Shin-Megami-Tensei-In-The-Title: Persona 5, there are still a lot of bumps with the franchise that they haven't quite smoothed out. In their efforts to give the formula a little shake, there are several worrying signs that they introduced on top of the problems the previous games have.

Problems like...

The Social Links for team members aren't as interesting as non-team characters

About halfway through my time with Persona 5, I ran into an issue.

A majority of the Social Links, or Confidants as they're called in this iteration, I've spent with were not among The Phantom Thieves, this game's batch of millennial protagonists. Sure, I managed to finish a few of them, but I just wasn't as eager to hang out with, say, Ryuji or Futaba as much as the other inhabitants of Shibuya.

At first, I thought it might have been the limited amount of times team members were available was what was turning me away so often, but then I realized that whatever story moments you spend with them were already serviceable in the main story. While meeting with Ann to help her break into the modeling business sounds like a fun idea, the first third of the time you spend with her was about her hospitalized friend. The story had already given both characters a neat little arc and tied it up, but the Confidant link asks you to revisit it again at the start.

Another missed opportunity was Yusuke. As interesting as it would have been to have a surplus of moves to give to monsters, almost nothing about the activities you spend with the struggling artist was substantial enough to keep you hooked.

Meanwhile, I was far more invested in the endeavors of Yoshida, the washed-up politician, and Takemi, the back alley doctor who gives you benefits for poisoning yourself on a regular basis. Their stories help fit into the larger scope of the game's narrative, where the theme of a generational divide between the youth and elderly is always present in the background.

I was more satisfied following their Social Links to the 10th Rank than whatever happened during Yusuke's free time.

Like so.

While we're on the subject of Social Links...

Stop locking content behind a minimum skill level

I will say, Makoto was one of the better Confidants among the Phantom Thieves. At least it was until I reached Rank 5, at which point I was required to achieve the highest level of the Charm skill and it told me to piss off until I had it.

Heck, this problem even infested the other Confidants in different ways. You can't even begin Iwai's Social Link at the shop until your Guts level sits at 3. Because the airsoft shop owner is met early on in the game's story, the only method you really have to get more Guts is to stuff your face with hamburgers until you have enough courage to... ask him about his suspicious bag with a gun in it.

"I gotta tell ya, kid, there's nothing more badass than somebody who can ingest a ton of carbs!"

Meanwhile, Oda's Confidant quest was one of the most satisfying moments I've discovered by accident.

In order to get his Social Link, I had to take up a Request in Mementos, only to find out I couldn't do jack to the target, in a moment that was really surprising because I realized a side quest was about to introduce a new depth to the game's combat.

After that altercation, I sniffed around in the real world and tracked down an arcade kid who knows about the target's weak point. One destroyed shadow demon later, and boom! New Confidant. I may not have finished his friendship quest all the way to the end, but that was one hell of a way to lead me into a new portion of the game.

There are tons of clever ways to get players into more story content, but dangling a carrot in front of them until they reach a minimum number on a stat graph is not one of them. The previous Persona games also had varying degrees of this problem, but it felt much more apparent in the newest entry because there's only so many times I can let the game insist I find something else to do.

Speaking of the previous entries...

They still haven't figured out how to keep the dungeons consistently fun

In a game series that prioritizes social interactions over dungeon crawling, it's understandable that venturing into said dungeons are going to be the weakest part of playing them. Both Persona 3 and 4 had you traversing maze-like floors in search of a set of stairs that take you to the next set of maze-like floors. Sometimes you have to unlock a gate, but they really don't get much more complicated than that.

So along comes Persona 5 where each dungeon, or Palace as they are now known, have their own unique design and puzzles to solve in order to progress. A perverted teacher's Palace has you jumping on statues of women, an art thief's has you leaping through paintings, and a fast food restaurant CEO's has you shooting yourself out space airlocks.

As restaurants tend to do.

On top of that, the game also has Mementos, where each new day has a randomly-generated dungeon layout much like previous Shin Megami Tensei games.

Problem solved, right?

Wrong.

The developers were forward-thinking enough to know that the floor-based design of the previous entries needed a replacement, so opting to rework all of them entirely should have been a major step in the right direction. Unfortunately, they couldn't quite stave off RPG dungeon fatigue, where the pacing hits rock bottom and the player is forced to trudge through all the puzzles on top of having to plow through all the turn-based battles.

By the time I hit the third Palace, I swore to myself that I, come hell or high water...

*cough cough*

...would reach the end of the dungeons in a single, in-game day's time, because God forbid if any of them prevent me from missing out on any of game's other events. I'm on a strict time schedule, dammit!

When the pyramid Palace rolled up, politely cleared its throat, and gestured at all the puzzles I was about to have fun with, I knew that the dungeons were about to steadily get more tedious and lengthy from there on out.

The games don't know when romance shouldn't be an option

Very early on in 5, the game introduces the back-alley doctor, so that you can stock up on healing and status effect items before barging into the first dungeon. She is also a romance option for the main character, should you so decide. Personality-wise, none of the other available women you could date later on stacked up to Tae Takemi letting a high schooler ingest strange liquids. It confounds me how the developers would think otherwise.

"Next up, I'm testing poison for guinea pigs."

That would have been my main criticism with the game's dating system, had some of the other ones not been as...creepy...in their execution.

At one point in the game, you call up a maid service with your buddies only to find that the employee they send over is none other than your school's homeroom teacher, Kawakami. At first they seem to play it as a one-off joke where both parties agree to never mention it again, but then the game turns her into a Confidant opportunity.

To the game's credit, it does justify the existence of the Social Link by having Kawakami explain that being short on cash was why she took up the job in the first place, and she even draws a thick line in the sand for the player character not to get any funny ideas when you request her service.

So the game wisely subverts the expectation of dating your homeroom teacher by...letting you date your homeroom teacher at the end of said Confidant branch. It doesn't just stop there. Once Kawakami's rank is maxed out, you're able to call her over to do favors for you any time you return from a dungeon. What originally started as her taking the shady job two days a week could turn into every single day of the week should you choose to fight demons those days. Nice going hero.

And then there's Futaba, a later member of the Phantom Thieves who is stricken with social anxiety because of a traumatizing moment from her past. Rather than keeping the romantic opportunity off the table, she just becomes another option among the other female characters in the game. Futaba's adoptive father, Sojiro, even jokes about you hooking up with her at the end of his Social Link, showing just how much seriousness the developers wanted to handle the issue of romanticizing a damaged girl.

As if this wasn't enough to turn you away.

Just let players decide if the main character can be gay already

Before getting into this one, I want to contextualize why I'm worried that a homosexual relationship will possibly be absent from Persona 6.

Between Persona 3, 4, and 5, there's one major change that the latter made to separate itself from the other two:

Rather than adhere to its pen and paper roots much like 3 and 4 did, Persona 5 opted to have the protagonist now think in the first person. Whenever the game speaks to the player, it's now the main character who tells you how he feels.

While altering this little tidbit may not seem very significant, remember that this is a role-playing series. Giving the main character more of a voice, no matter how tiny, will communicate to the player that the teenager they're controlling has his own personality and quirks. A character that is less moldable by the player, compared to the previous two games.

Also, like the other two, you can't have any same-sex relationships. What makes Persona 5 feel different, however, is that the protagonist feels like he carries more of his own opinions and personality traits. Heck, the game's story starts because he intervenes during an altercation involving Politician Rape Man without the player's input.

"COGNITIONS, SON!"

Having a straight orientation is a core part of the protagonist, simply by giving him more of a voice and disallowing a same-sex romance option.

While it's completely serviceable and inoffensive to continue the trend of the protagonist only being able to date characters of the opposite sex, the social commentary the developers introduced in the previous games illustrates how much of a missed opportunity it is to leave out homosexuality. Kanji Tatsumi, from Persona 4, was one of the most succinct portrayals of homosexuality influencing one's masculinity, so the subject really isn't off the table for the writers. Add to the fact that the portable remake of Persona 3 gave you the ability to date some of the male characters (albeit if you choose to play as a girl) and it becomes clear that a same-sex relationship isn't just possible, but also long overdue.

The Persona series opened that particular door a long time ago, but it's always hesitant to completely walk through. At most, it keeps nervously tapping its foot on the other side, but, once you forgive that terrible analogy, it never really commits to taking a firm step in that direction. Yusuke Kitagawa looked to be the prime candidate for a male romance option, as there were early signs about his orientation.

Even the little bits of his Confidant activity gives him an eccentric personality.

I swear, if I have to use this image one more time...

But, much like Yusuke's own Social Links, those relationships never amount to anything in these games. And the series is ripe to make that correction.

Now pardon me while I go and lose more sleep so that I can finally summon Super Satan