#but also a small part of me is *thinking meme* cant donate to a scam instead of a real needy person if you never donate

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I went to go to my new job and they hadn't gotten my background check and I was too anxious/my brain wasn't on so I didn't think about the fact that they hadn't contacted me directly since the last forms I filled out

A black woman knocked on the window of the car I was driving when I parked and she said she hadn't eaten in a couple days and wanted 7 bucks or so to go get some food. I figured I was about to start making money and had brought my wallet in case I needed something from it so I gave her 10 bucks and she thanked me and left

Like I said the job hadn't gotten my background check results so I spent like 5 bucks on a couple charms and left and went home. I told my mom what happened and she said I shouldn't give people money like that, they usually don't need it

And it made me really uncomfortable. Maybe it's me being asocial but why would someone walk around in a parking lot asking for money when they could just Not? Surely it's not an efficient way to make money, even with jobs being shit

I mention her being a black woman because. I mean maybe she saw I was a young white girl and figured I wasn't going to be dangerous and maybe this is fucked-up for me to think and I'm in a semi-decent area not a ton of crime not a ton of race-driven violence afaik but if a black woman is walking around a parking lot asking random people for money when someone could take issue with her and hurt her

She probably really does need it

Idk I usually don't give money to homeless people I don't usually have cash on me (or if i do it's the emergency 20 in my phone case) but she came up to me and asked