#but YEAH lmk when ur startin it

[apileofmoss]

i bet ill like it solely because i have never heard a bad word spoken about brokeback mountain. people act like god herself spoke to them through the screen when they watched it its crazy

NO CUZ YEAH IT IS . one of my lockscreens is a page from the book .im crazy its ooooouuuuguggg

[galaxytale]

yeah all that was genuinely inspired by something but like i said im over it now bcos i got it all out my system just

the mental health system is fucked and it fucks over a lot of people and im one of those people and i dont talk about regualrly it bcos its been so ever present in my life and it failed me so bad that i have had to block it out for the most part. yaknow. like people tend to do with massively traumatizing shit. so yeah plus i forget that its not rly a thing most ppl have As Much exposure to as i have ((again ive dealt with therapists and counsilors and shit just about every year since kindergarten all the way up to hs graduation)) i only JUST started gettin better nd feelin better recently and part of it IS BCOS im no longer dealin with most of the bullshit mental health system’s hoops and instead just figuring out what i need for myself and carving out the most direct path to achieveing that on my own bcos thats. the best bet i have for personal improvement.

the idea of being institutionalized forcibly just in general? is lowkey a way to launch me into gettin real pissy real fast. cuz im someone who has seen some of the worst parts of mental healthcare firsthand. nd im someone whod likely be considered a danger to myself/others and therefore have a lot of my personal agency violated if i was instituationalized. nd i know this because its happened to me before. nd like the person who brought it up didnt know ANY of that so i wasnt just gonna go completely off on her but i did need to get it out of my system w/o startin shit

so like @ her specifically fam if ur readin all this u kno who u are and like. i aint vaguein or holding a grudge or anything i just went off here bcos you had some valid points but i just didnt wanna go off on ya and end up fuckin things up big time cuz when i go off i go Off and it can start big fucken problems ya feel me? anyway if u do see this bullshit just send me a msg and lmk if we got beef now bcos id rather discuss it real chill like than Go Off but if i dont hear from ya abt this im assuming u either didnt see this or are chill w what im sayin. either way i aint holdin a grudge abt this one cuz i know you didnt know lmao