#but I've had a shitty day and just like. fuck everyone. this is the cherry on the fucking cake

[violetclarity]

fucking love coming home from a genuinely shitty day to find that yet another person has decided to reblog something from me with a long, nasty addition. like, pretty sure that people are just trawling the reblogs/notes of this one post to be mad at people because they...presumably have nothing better to do?? (this person’s blog no longer even exists, apparently, so I can’t even see all of what they wrote beyond the stupid tiny preview in my notifications, which somehow makes it worse)

((like yes I did misunderstand what the original poster was getting at, and also did not accurately describe what I was thinking in my reblog, however I maintain that a) the post was unclear and b) people were getting mad at people for daring to tag it with an umbrella term so even if I had been clearer it would have pissed someone off))

but hey, spoiler alert: that’s still not an excuse for being a jerk to strangers on the internet! people you don’t know online are still people! you think you can draw conclusions about me based on the tumblr bio I haven’t updated in five years? you don’t know shit about me, and going into an interaction with a stranger having already decided you’re going to be rude to them makes you a mean person

[666writingcafe]

Good evening Anna,

Can I have Been with

“I wanna eat you out so fucking bad.” “Then why don’t you?”

Pretty please with whipped cream and cherries on top?

Thank you.

Mischief.

Order #10

"I wanna eat you out so fucking bad." "Then why don't you?" Beel x Female!MC

A Text Conversation That Occurs After A Late-Night Fangol Game

Beel: hey.

Beel: you awake?

MC: *thumbs up emoji*

Beel: too tired to talk?

MC: I'm good. What's up?

Beel: i'm hungry.

Beel: i know: shocker. *eye roll emoji*

MC: Did someone say something about your stomach again?

Beel: the opposing team.

Beel: like, all the members.

Beel: their fans even made signs.

Beel: it was quite degrading, actually. i'm trying to play, and everyone's chanting insults about how i'm gonna eat the ball and shit like that.

Beel: what's even worse is that we ended up losing by two points due to a last-minute goal, so everyone was cackling at that point.

Beel: "oh, wook at the wittle baby! he's too hungry to score a goal!"

MC: I'm really sorry that happened to you, Beel. Did your teammates and/or coach say anything?

Beel: only one: my friend aphan. everyone else was silent.

Beel: well, except for when we were heading towards the bus. a whole bunch of them were whispering, snickering, and pointing in my direction. the coach told them to knock it off, but i could tell he didn't really mean it.

Beel: so during the bus ride back to rad, aphan told me that we should quit the team because their behavior this evening was unforgivable. they should have stood up for me, and since they didn't, they don't deserve to have me. obviously, he'd leave in solidarity.

MC: *shocked emoji*

MC: Did you?

Beel: *nodding crow sticker*

Beel: after we left everyone behind, we went through the drivethru of the nearest akudonald's and chilled in the parking lot for a bit, just shooting the shit. it made me feel a bit better.

MC: He's a good person.

Beel: he's trying to be. he was hanging out with some dark magic demons for a while, but he's doing his best to leave that behind.

Beel: but that's beside the point. i didn't just reach out to you to vent.

MC: *questioning mascots sticker*

Beel: you'll have to forgive me for being blunt.

MC: I'm used to it at this point. Hit me.

Beel: well, after the frankly shitty evening i've had, the one thing that could salvage it is you.

Beel: i wanna eat you out so fucking bad.

MC: Then why don't you?

Beel: because i'm not at the house yet.

Beel: but i'm about ten minutes away.

MC: Do I need to do anything to prep?

Beel: this is why i love you. you're so considerate.

Beel: tonight, i just want to go straight into it. don't want to fight clothes or sheets to get to you.

Beel: and i know you normally use magic to make your room soundproof, but don't do that this time. i'm in the kind of mood where i want people to hear you. maybe even wake my brothers up if they're asleep.

Beel: i just want to show that my sin is good for at least one thing: making you feel good.

MC: *a string of smirking emojis*

Beel: fyi, you'll probably lose your voice by the time i'm done, so it might not be the best idea to attend class tomorrow.

MC: That's honestly fine. There's nothing major happening in any of my classes, and I have decent enough grades that skipping one day isn't going to kill me.

Beel: wonderful. see you soon. *kissing emoji*

Taglist: @lost-in-time-wanderer, @fuzztacular, @dianedancer18, @sweetbrier2908, @flare-love, @completelyshatteredbrokenmschf, @thunderlightning351, @l3v1chan, @anxious-chick, @5mary5, @expressionless-fr, @tenkobitch, @budbuddnbuddy

[ravynfyre]

other than just wallowing numbly, i'd managed to keep it together pretty much the whole day. yeah, so i crawled back into bed until noon after taking care of animal chores first thing (and having to chase down an escaped dog, which... was just the dung beetle ball cherry on top of today's shit sundae) but i've managed to just... be numb and calm most of the day

but then i had to go down to the food bank in my little red town.

i don't know if they were all so... unaffected because they're putting a brave face on, or if they're genuinely happy with how things turned out, but everyone there was just... too content. and that really got to me bad, and i started to lose it a bit. and the worst part is that i suspect that they really are satisfied with how things went... but i can't even ask because i don't trust them, don't trust anyone, enough to ask. i can't afford to jeopardize that relationship. literally. especially now.

and, of course, it's a church sponsored food bank, so all of the core volunteers are all "christ be with you" true believers (which is why i am scared to ask because i don't know if they honor the real jesus, or usa jesus)... but i'm *not*. i'm pagan, and i can't afford to piss them off. they of course all wanted to pray over me when they saw i was starting to not do well.

i understand that they thought that they were trying to help... but their imaginary sky daddy is the cause of half the problems in my life right now, so it's especially shitty to feel trapped by their offer. (like, i managed to escape out the door by politely declining the offer, but one of them *chased me out to my truck and stopped me* so that he could pray "with" me. like how do you turn that down without being a raging thundercunt?) why is their comfort and security more valuable than mine?

ohyeah. because they can wreck my access to the food i need to make my budget almost work.

long story short... i'm not coping well right now. i'm scared, and i feel pretty hopeless, and i'm trying real hard to not think about how fucked my future is.

it isn't working.

[jonphaedrus]

epomaker mini cat 64 build talk

ok i guess a couple people said theyd be interested so let's talk to most recent custom i did, for my friend @jowritesfantasy, of an epomaker mini cat 64.

the final build is an epomaker mini cat 64, with kailh box white v2 switches, and a great wave off of kanagawa (dark) cherry profile keycap set. total cost for what is essentially a full (budget) custom build is about $150USD without tax (off of bezoshell).

note: i am a vision-impaired hobbyist with shitty, shaky hands. i am by far not an expert. this is literally just "all the crap i've had to figure out from the ground up as a basic guide". there are more comprehensive references out there, and build guide videos for most custom kits, and do more research, not less, before building. nothing here is gospel and many people do it differently.

anyway, let's talk turkey.

BASIC GLOSSARY:

keyboard: the whole shebang. case, pcb, switch, caps, everything. the thing you type on.

case: the acrylic/aluminium/ceramic/whatever body that the pcb, switches, and keys live in.

pcb: the brain of the keyboard. you can have one where the switches must be soldered in, or you can have one where the switches can be hot swapped, which means you can change them out without any need to use a soldering iron. pcbs can be bought separately from cases.

group buy: when a bunch of people buy in to get a custom keyboard made by pooling resources up front.

switch: the mechanical switch that you solder or hot swap into a pcb to make the button press. there are thre (standard) types: linear, tactile, and clicky. switches work just fine without lubing. this is optional.

stabilizers/stabs: the support stabilizers for your wider keys that help keep them steady and don't let them wobble. there are two standard types—pcb mounted (screw-in, usually) and plate-mounted (click-in). please lube your stabs. krytox 205g0 is good. otherwise trust me, they will rattle. oh, god, will they fucking rattle.

keycaps: the thingy that goes on top of the switch that you actually press. they come in about a million profiles and in every possible permutation or color you can think of. if they're cherry/mx stem, they'll be compatible with most modern mechanical keyboard switches on the market.

QMK/VIA: software that lets you change what buttons on your keyboard do what.

keyboard %/keyboard #: how many keys are on the keyboard. the 64 mini cat has...64 keys. a 78ish key is the full f-row and most standard laptop keyboards. TKL is tenkeyless, or no numpad. 100%/180 is the entire keyboard, numpad and all. 40% is babymode aka "you like layers? i'll give you layers". each board has its use, everyone has their preferences.

ergo: a keyboard designed to be more ergonomic. ergo boards have different layouts and spacing and height. some are split, some aren't, these days one of the more standard ergo layouts is the alice/arisu. it's nice. i recommend it. (my custom is an alice)

custom: you build it, you decide everything you want on it, you buy all that shit, and you put it together.

prebuilt: open box, plug and play.

from the getgo, while epomaker does offer this for sale ready to plug and play, i knew we would not be buying this premade (both because i wanted to build it, the whole point was i wanted to build it and jo wanted it) and also, epomaker didn't offer clicky switches. jo's previous board had cherry/gateron (not clear which? one or the other) blues, which are the "standard" clicky switch: they're 65g actuation, they click, and there are better options. (note: this blog is a cherry mx hatezone. sorry.) i also knew that i was going to have to get a bit creative with VIA layers because jo works on spreadsheets and this is a 64 key board—no numpad. you kinda need a numpad for spreadsheets.

i didn't know much about clicky keys before this (i personally have sad shitty little goobaby hands that can barely even handle 43g linear switches and most people i know use tactiles), so i had to do a bit of research. you can hear (cherry only) sound profiles and comparison here, and this gives you a pretty standard idea of what mechanical switches sound like.

linear keys tend to be the lightest actuation, since they're for gaming most of the time; tactiles are all over the place and have the most options since theyre the most popular; clicky tend to be a little heavier overall. the "actuation" force in grams is how much pressure it takes to make a keypress go through, the "bottom out" is how much it takes to make the key hit the bottom of its arc. tactiles and clicky keys both make sounds/have texture bumps when the actuation of the key happens; linears you just push.

a short list selection:

cherry mx blue (the "standard" click): 60g actuation, 60g bottom out.

gateron blues (the original clone of the standard): 55g actuation.

cherry mx green/gateron green: 80g actuation, 90g bottom out

kailh box white v2: 45g actuation, 55g bottom out. (note: this is the same actuation/bottom out as the v1; the v2 has increased stability and stronger springs)

we ended up picking the kailh box white v2s because of comparative sound testing, the revision being even sturdier than the original box whites, they were on sale when we bought them and came in a closer to 64 switch pack, and they're about 65¢ a switch. not bad, all things considered. they're lighter than the standard mx blue, have a brighter, springier sound (even unlubed) and the "box" around the stem of the switch makes the connection between switch and keycap more reliable, which is a problem that happened to jo's old keyboard (the stem housing of the keycap broke; there's basically no way to get a replacement without shelling out a good bit of cash for an entire set, the box should help prevent that in the future).

the next thing was keycaps—you can do research about keycap profiles until the cows come home, but there's basically two types. "flat" keycaps are interchangeable per row (so work great if you aren't using a qwerty layout or you don't have a standard layout keyboard), "differentiated" have different heights per row (so work great if you have a hard time finding the right keys or are using a condensed keyboard model where you might get lost in the sauce if everything is the same).

the most common profile is cherry—if you want to find something super fun keycaps-wise, cherry is probably what you'll end up with. every keycap profile presents a slightly different sound because of how the plastic housing handles the noise of the switch (sa has more hollow thock; xda has a little more rumble because it's flat; cherry is a little snappier). frankly, imo, the texture/shape of the key is more the question to keep in mind (as well as the type of plastic they're made with—pbt is much, much more reliable). jo wanted dark wave with whale, we found dark wave with whale, it was cherry profile. success.

(note: knockoff keycaps can be a mixed bag—they use different fonts, the stems can be less reliable, even if they are doubleshot (two different kinds of plastic, layered on top of each other for more stability) and pbt. however, they're a lot more affordable. i like having more keycaps. im also cheap. that said, groupbuy or direct from source keycaps are also rad as hell. it's your call)

the epomaker mini cat is a hot-swap board, which means all that the switches had to do was to be popped into their housing. when popping switches into hotswap, always test the pcb beforehand. always. if you fuck up the pcb during switch installation, that is what it is, and you want to know if there's a problem before that happens. (shit can get weird. trust me. my custom pcb is currently getting replaced because of a freak usb-c daughterboard soldering incident that basically cannot be fixed, and everything worked fine in testing... but it's uncommon).

to build this board, i took it in a series of steps:

1: disassemble the entire board, flip the pcb (the "brain" of the keyboard) over, and manually test all the keys with a keyboard tester website and a paperclip. to test the diodes, you want to put your paperclip/tweezers/whatever into the outsides of the diode, not directly into the slot where your switch pins will go

you shouldn't need to shove. just set them there. your key tester should click, light up, or, if you're me, say "josh"

2: once i knew the pcb was good, it was time to disassembe the plate and the stabs. the stabs that came with the mini-cat 64 were plate-mounted and came unlubed, so i clicked them out with my tiny screwdriver, took them apart, and lubed them. if i had a buck for every stabilizer build and lube guide that actually refused to show the parts of a stabilizer, i'd have a lot of bucks, so here's some photos from me. these are akko transparent pink pcb-mounted, screw-in stabilizers. my hands are shaky as fuck so i apologize for any blurriness.

there are three basic components to the stabilizer—the bar, and the two-part housing. when you take a stabilizer apart, whether or not it's screw-in or clip-in, the bar clips and unclips, and the housing works the same.

less lube is always better (you can always add more): when lubing stabs, you want to lube the inside of the larger housing on the two wider portions and the back, where the smaller portion is levered up and down and will hit the plastic, and the part of the bar that goes into it. this is all the stuff that will click and clack if it touches each other.

sorry this is a transparent stab so it's kind of hard to see, but when reassembling your stabilizers, the smaller piece will have one side with two holes, and one side with one hole. two holes goes in the front. business in the front, party in the back, whatever. you can see here where the clicky space thing that you click the stabilizer bar into.

i apologize for my shaky ass hands. sorry. the realy nice thing about transparent stabs, otoh, is you can see where the actual bar goes—it goes into the bottom of the two holes, so that the interior part of the housing is lifted up and down when the bar moves. that's it! click it in once it's in the right hole, you're done.

3: it is time to Insert the Switch. most switches tend to be plate-mounted. the "plate" is the part of the case that goes above the pcb, and is what aligns (and holds in) the switches, so that they land in the right spot. here's an example of a pcb and a plate

the plate fits on over the stabs, and then you have your "alignment" for your switches in place. now you know where your switches go, it's time to stick them in. the smaller, metal holes on each switch location are where the pins go—this is a "south facing" rgb pcb, meaning the pins go in up top, with the smd led (the little per-switch light) facing toward, not away from, the user. north-facing switches are more common. (for anyone curious, this is a mechloving adelais en ciel rv3 pcb, akko transparent pink screw-in stabs, and a switchcouture aluminium plate)

take your switch, align your pins, push in the side with the pins first to be sure they go into their sockets straight, and then push them the rest of the way in to click. hot swap sockets can be finnicky and a little fragile, so when installing switches into a hot swap pcb, you want to push straight down into something below—i.e., take the back off of the case and put the pcb flat on a soft, but sturdy, surface, like a deskmat. then click them in.

and now you've got a keyboard! time for the fun part. put those keycaps on and give it a test.

well, now you have a working keyboard. except for one small issue... the person using this keyboard needs a numpad! okay, so that means that you need to get CREATIVE.

all our keyboards have some level of "layer mapping"—shift + a = A. that's a layer, becuse it changes the key input. on my keyboard, because i use a mac with the extended international keyboard, alt + a = ¯. that's another layer. most people are more familiar with fn + 1 = f1. that's a layer.

for this keyboard, since jo needed a numpad, the way to do that is to make use of it being via compatible and to build that in as a layer. via is a great program (wish it worked with firefox!) in that it's as close to plug and play as you can really get for something like this. it's all overlay, you just click what you need. i am stupidbad at tech, and i can figure it out. let's take a look at the layers that are mapped into this keyboard:

here we have layer 0 (the "home" layer, what the keyboard's base state is), layer 1 (the "modifier" layer), and layer 2 (the "spreadsheet") layer. i made a few changes after i took these screenshots pgup/dwn/home/end are on the modifier layer now and not just the spreadhseet layer), but this is pretty much the final version. in via, the upside-down triangle means that the button naturally defers down to the layer below it. this means, on all layers, the red circle is always the fn/modifier button. if you're on the spreadsheet layer and press fn+1, it will be f1, because that button is always fn.

the "modifier" layer came baked into the keyboard, since that's the way that the function row buttons/the keyboard light adjustment works. all i added was the blue "toggle" layer button, which, when pressed with the fn button, turns the spreadsheet layer on.

even more simply, if you push fn+ralt, it makes the keyboard be for spreadsheets.

on the spreadsheet layer, the right-hand side of the keyboard becomes a numpad, the arrows automatically work as up/down/home/end, and, most importantly, a/s/z/x/c/v are all macros. what those look like, in the via programming, is {KC_LCTL,KC_C} (that's "ctrl+c" as one button press), with the KC_[] changed out for the key you're swapping in as a shortcut. when on the spreadsheet layer, pressing "z" is the same as "ctrl/cmd+z" normally is—only now you only have to hit the button once. that's true for that entire set of macros. so, if you need to save? hit s. if you need to select all? hit a. if you need to cut? hit x. paste? hit v. there's no need to push ctrl at the same time—that's baked into the keys.

you can do this with any keyboard that is qmk/via compatible, by the way. it's fucking amazing. if you work on spreadsheets all the time? awesome. now you can numberpunch one-handed, and copy/paste/undo with the other, no need to use multiple keys.

the macro building and layering on via for this keyboard was waaaay better than what i did on my wife 1.0 (sorry, wife 1.0) and i'll be using the same setup on wife 2.0 (whenver wife 2.0 gets here). overall, this is honestly a really affordable custom board with a lot of adjustment options built in. it was a ton of fun to build, really simple and straightforward in terms of setup, and it's got bongocat on it.

also honestly if i had to get clickies, i'd do the box whites. they're really nice and dont make my fingers feel like they're about to break when typing.

[igiggledalotthenigotshot]

apologies for not being happy for you but you keep doing this to yourself. every man you brought in between us has ruined us more and on top of that was a shitty person. we are JUST getting out from ANOTHER abusive relationship of yours and yeah I guess I can blame it on you since you are now up another guys ass just because he has a house. you are so fucking easy to get and it pisses me off. all these years I've been wondering when we were still living with your ex if I even like you or if I hate you, if I even love you like you ask me every single day almost. and maybe ever since you left me to go up to North Dakota something in me completely cut you out from my feelings because it hurt me. maybe after being sent to foster care and being traumatized by those people forcing me to wear diapers and telling me I'm never going home and how you don't love me hurt me so much too. AND IT WAS APART OF YOUR FAULT I EVER WENT THROUGH THAT. your dumbass worker you had living with us at the time put drugs in my school backpack and you know he does drugs down in the basement. its your fault for allowing him to stay at our home and bring in hookers every night. all your fault. so maybe those tiny itty bitty memories fucked me up alittle bit and I blame you for it. you never truly apologize for shit that you do either. you write me these little sorry notes and then continue to do the shit that gets us no where. you literally get on top of me and choke me out, stuffing rags down my throat with your hands around my throat, strangling me to be quiet just because you "can't take my screaming" I WONDER WHY THE FUCK I WAS SCREAMING. maybe I blame you for that too. maybe all those times your ex abused me even right infront of my friend once hurt me too considering when I called you crying and you came back home, all you did was yell at him. you never called the police or did anything about it once. second time it happened you came home and sat right next to him on the couch and let him wrap his arm around you. you're a piece of shit if you think I should give my all just because you are my mother. I will NEVER forgive you. there's absolutely nothing you can do TO make me forgive you for that. oh, just to add the cherry on top because you keep avoiding this situation and act like it never happened, on the 4th of July in 2022 or 2021 we were in the living room after I made us both a glass of water because you craved one soooooo badly. your lovely ex boyfriend gets downstairs and sees OH NOOO a melted ice cube on the counter. so he tells me to clean it up. what do you let him do after that? I remember you saying "whatever, do whatever" before walking away and he punched me right in the middle of my face, not holding back at all. you can keep pretending like you did shit and like you never told him to do "whatever" but don't be surprised when I cut you completely out of my life. you can keep blaming your "pstd" for grabbing a hold of me and choking me for crying but don't be surprised when I cut you out of my life. remember all those arguments? those questions that you would ask me that if I even loved you because I gave you alittle glare after you proceeded to down me for even existing pretty much and blaming all your problems on me (no exaggeration) and asked if I loved you at all? I don't. I really don't. I might've at some point in my life when I was younger but you cling onto my past self so much that all you want is to see toddler ýùmì again, the easily brainwashed idiot child because I was too naive and I did everything you told me to do, i forgave easily, I was SWEET and KIND and a LOVEABLE PERSON and EVERYONE LOVED ME because ýùmí did as you asked and I was your little puppet. you don't like that I grown up and can do for myself now. fuck you. I can't wait to commit śùìçìdè again on the 4th. no, I'm not happy for you for getting s new boyfriend. want me to congratulate you? CONGRATS ON GETTING A NEW BOYFRIEND. you are a piece of shit.

[megan-loves-surveys]

#34.

The last time you ate leftovers, what was it that you were eating? Pasta bake, it's the only thing I have leftovers of, cos it tastes just as good the next day.

What is your favorite board that you’ve made on Pinterest? -

Do you get on Facebook or Instagram more? I don't use Insta, so FB.

What was the last thing you ate or drank that was blue raspberry-flavored? Some lolly most likely, prob from the USA xD

What is one annoying thing your computer does? It gets super hot when I play games, but that can't be helped I guess.

What was the last song you listened to? The Verve - Bitter Sweet Symphony

Have you discovered any new hobbies in the past couple months? No. I have enough hobbies as it is xD

What’s the wildest animal you’ve ever come in contact with? I stroked a lion cub once at a safari park lol. Very cute.

Do you trust your doctor? I don't have a regular doctor cos I barely go there.

Do you ever question if your mother loves you? Never, I know she does! <3

Do you ever feel scared or unsafe around your dad? NEVER.

What is your favorite type of Lunchables? Never had one.

Do you have someone you feel completely safe around? Yes.

What church do you go to? I'm atheist.

Are any of your siblings’ friends like family to you? -

Do you have any friends who you exchange memes with? Haha yeah. Esp my wrestling friends.

What was the last photo you took? Good question! *unlocks her phone to look* It was a selfie from when I got my hair dyed LOL.

Are you in any Discord servers? How often do you use them? Oh god I'm a member of dozens but the main ones I post in are my wrestling friends Discord and the last.fm Discord. I post on the lfm one so often I'm it's #24 overall poster LOL. And the wrestling one I've been a member since day 1 and I'm a mod.

Have you ever had to see an emergency vet after hours? Yes, and unfortunately it turned out horrible.

When was the last time you sat under a blanket on a couch? Hmm, dunno.

Can you bite into ice cream or are your teeth too sensitive? I can, but it's still not too pleasant.

Do you like snowy winter days or do you prefer rainy days? It doesn't snow where I live, and rain sucks so neither.

Do you know anyone who doesn’t have a middle name? Yep.

What was the last thing you complained about? I've been sick for the last few days, so it was definitely about how shitty I'm feeling lol.

What celebrity irritates you the most? Most of them xD But especially the Kardashians, Meghan Markle, Taylor Swift (her music is great but I'm SO sick of hearing about her!), any of these 'influencers' who randomly get famous etc.

Have you ever watched the Superbowl all the way through? Not all the way, but this year my Mum and I watched to the end of the halftime show then we gave up xD

Would you like to know the exact date of your death? No.

What’s on your to-do list for today? Nothing, I'm sick and taking time off work so I'm just relaxing and trying to get over it.

Do you know anyone who’s been bitten by a snake? Probably not, but who knows.

Are you excited for Halloween? I don't celebrate it.

What makes you smile or laugh no matter what? Certain TV shows like Simpsons, Friends or Big Bang Theory.

Do you prefer strawberries or cherries? Strawberries! Cherries are gross, my least fave fruit.

Biggest insecurity? My stomach.

Have you ever had braces? No.

Do you feel awkward using public transportation? Good lord no lol, I take it constantly xD

Describe your mom with one word. Hilarious.

Would you rather bake a cake or cookies? Cake.

What curse word do you use most? Fuck lol.

Were you always one of those kids who got in trouble with everyone around? No, I was a good kid.

When was the last time you took a nap? Did it relax you any? Yesterday, and not really, I was overheated due to being sick so I slept like crap.

Honestly, do you see yourself as a slut? Hahaha, I used to be xD Not anymore cos I'm in a long-term relationship but back in my late teens I was definitely slutty.

Is there a secret you’ve never told your parents? Yes.

What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever been through? Getting hit by a car and breaking several bones, including my shoulder in 5 different places.

Do you like fast food or does it disgust you? I love it, not even ashamed. My fave is KFC but I like most of them!

Who was the last person you kissed? My boyfriend.

What’s your favourite alcoholic drink? Jim Beam or Malibu.

Do you like the smell of BBQs? Oh yeah! I love smelling them in the summer, my Mum and I always wonder who's having one LOL.

Do you crash on people’s sofas often? No.

Do wasps scare you? Yes, scary little fuckers lol.

Have you ever worn flip flops in the snow? No.

Has anyone ever told you that you & your significant other could be siblings? Have they ever assumed you were siblings? God no lol. We look nothing alike xD

Have you ever heard people having sex in the next room? Probably.

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? No.

Have you ever lost your voice? Yes.

Museum date or aquarium date? Depends on what the museum has in it.

Did you ever have an emo or scene phase? No.

Name a subject you know a lot about. Wrestling, Pokemon or geography.

Most embarrassing poster you’ve ever owned? None?

Could you see yourself having a child with the last person you kissed? No, cos I don't want kids lol.

Who is your favorite person to have random conversations with? Depends, cos I have random convos with loads of people.

Who was the last person to make you feel embarrassed or uncomfortable? Not sure.

What are you known for? Online, it's being a big Jon Moxley fan lol, at various Wrestlemanias people were recognizing me!

Which of the guys you’ve been interested in hurt you the most? Meh.

Do you know anyone who is engaged? No.

What is your relationship status on Facebook? I don't have one listed actually! LOL.

What are you listening to? Bebe Rexha - I'm Gonna Show You Crazy

What was the last thing you looked up on Google? I googled why water tastes so weird when you're sick - I usually drink loads of water but since I've been sick it's been hard to stomach it. It's apparently cos of the bacteria in your mouth and throat making it taste weird!

Ever been kissed on the leg? Haha, who knows.

Last person to hear you cry? Dunno, my Mum probably.

What do you think of the term plus-sized in modeling? Is it empowering or demeaning? It's lame, cos half the time the women aren't even plus-sized, they're regular sized.

Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)? Well, I have a job... but I can't afford my own house xD

Has your ex ever gone out with someone close to you? No.

Are you friends with someone who’s autistic? Probably.

Have you ever had a Bic Mac? No.

Have you ever been to a convention? (comic, YouTube, etc.) Yes, I go to the NZ version of ComicCon every year, it's called Armageddon.

What is the biggest difference between you and your best friend? She has a son! I don't want kids lol xD

Have you ever had a sexually gay experience? Yes.

Do you find any of your friends hot? Not really. I love 'em but not in that way.

Are your legs freshly shaven? No, I need to do them actually lol, but since I'm wearing pants a lot, I haven't bothered. But they get itchy so I will when I'm over being sick.

Does your best friend wear glasses? No.

Have you ever woke up crying from a bad dream? Yes.

Who knows more about you: online friends or offline? Online.

Does your family own any land? No.

Who is the oldest sibling in your family? -

Are you close to any of your aunts/uncles? I barely see them.

When was the last time you were in a hospital? June 2017.

Do you plan on losing weight any time soon? I'm in the middle of doing so.

What do you think of people who get drunk every weekend? Whatever floats their boat, I guess.

Are you looking forward to anything? Sure, small things, nothing big.

What was the last bad news you heard? Hmm, not sure.

What was your GPA in high school? -

Do you require a lot of private time? Sure.

Do you know how to play any odd instruments most people can’t play? No.

Have you ever had a parasite before? No.

Have you ever been punched in the face before? No.

Are there regular trains in and out of your town/city? Yes.

Do you bathe your pets regularly? -

What was the last animal you saw, and was it a pet? It was a cat in a shorts video lol.

Who was the last person you messaged on Facebook? My boyfriend.

When was the last time you saw them? Saturday, I haven't seen him since then cos of being sick, I don't want to give him my cold.

Where do you see yourself in a year? Who knows.

[TW: OVERDOSE/SUICIDE] Do you know anyone who has overdosed? No.

Where are your siblings as of now? -

Have you ever lost anyone close to cancer? Depends what you consider close - cos I lost a friend to cancer last year but I hadn't seen her in person in a few years.

Do you personally know anyone who is transgender? Yes.

When was the last time you got a shot? My last Covid booster prob. Though I might get the flu shot, I've already been sick and it's not even winter yet :/ I have to pay for it though, so that's why I don't usually get it.

Have you ever been into a car accident? If getting hit by a car counts, then yes.

When was the last time you spent over $100 in one transaction? What did you buy? I got my hair dyed, it cost over 300 bucks.

Are you a breakfast person? Not really, but I do eat it on occasion.

What type of books do you like to read? All sorts - non fiction about topics I like, fantasy, romance, joke books etc.

How do you get rid of hiccups? Drink water super fast without breathing.

Do you have any healthy addictions? Dunno xD

Do you pay much attention to speed limits while driving? -

Which parent was more strict when you were growing up? My Mum definitely. I used to ask my Dad to do things cos I knew he'd say yes, while I knew my Mum would say no. My Dad was only strict about me doing well in Maths cos I was so awful at it, he was chill the rest of the time. I used to tell him about things that I never told my Mum!

Have you ever watched The Golden Girls? I've watched clips on YT, it's funny.

Do you like getting dirty? No.

Are you a very flirty person? It depends.

Who was your favorite babysitter? I never had any, it wasn't a thing for me. If my parents needed someone to watch me, my Grandma would usually do it or another family member.

Do you believe in the death penalty? It depends what the person did.

Name a person that you can’t stand and tell us why? Nobody. There's people I dislike, but nobody I hate or can't stand.

If you could have a video of one event in your life, what would the video be? Hmm.

What is the most illegal thing you have ever done? O_O

Last person you sang happy birthday to? Good question.

What form of government do you like the most? (capitalism, socialism, etc.) I have no idea tbh.

Is there a song you can’t handle listening to, even though you like it? Sarah Cothran - As The World Caves In. I legit can't listen to this song without sobbing like an absolute bitch. I love it but it's just way too sad :(

Last time you saw fireworks? Ages ago.

Do you have a black dog? I have no dog at all.

If you took someone on a tour of your town, what would you show them? That depends what they want to see, no? If they want touristy things then I'd take them to the Sky Tower, MOTAT and the museum. If they want shopping, I'd take them to Sylvia Park for sure.

Have you been to the capital of your state? -

Would you be more in your element camping in a tent or an RV? RV.

[ebdanon]

hope you're alright after work <3 and tw for bugs and another long ask lmao

to be honest, we don't have access to mental health resources, that kind of stuff is expensive here, and we already spent a bunch on trying to figure out what was physically wrong with both of us first, during which time my husband (he got ibs) was not working because it was physically impossible for him, and I (thyroid issues) stopped getting paid from the freelance work I do (I'm still owed about 10k which is enough for a down payment on an apartment in the most expensive part in my country) which put us in a ridiculously tight spot. we had to move out of our apartment and start living with my in-laws, which is where more crazy has just been tacked on. it's been a very shitty couple of years in terms of what other people have been doing that directly affects us, but we're trudging on anyway. we finally started applying for jobs abroad, which we couldn't really do until we moved because it was constantly dealing with doctors and with health issues, and scrambling together money for bills and rent and overall living, and then the building got infected with cockroaches which was the cherry on top when we both finally said "we're outta here" and moved out in like 2 days (we knew the consequences of doing that). the day we decided to do that, we were up until 5am - me shrieking at each new baby cockroach I saw, and my husband killing them (I'm terrified of bugs), because a cockroach laid some eggs in a door frame in the apartment. that same week our vacuum made a loud noise and smoke just started coming out of it and it broke, the stovetop also broke, a repairman came and tried to fix it a bunch of times so we had no stove for 4-5 days (which was awful because my husband has to eat carefully cooked meals, and the only thing we could use to cook was the oven, which is ridiculously limiting on an already limited diet), and two of the ceiling lights went out. and then I got a flare up (different health issue) on top of everything which meant I was in bed for a couple of days. it was the worst week of 2023.

we've been applying for the last 6 months, and it's been nothing but rejections because we require visas to move to the countries we're applying to (it's the literal explanation we've been receiving which is a great thing as it's not our skills or something), but it's fine, one of us will find a job at some point (I hope soon) and we'll get to get out of this shithole of a country filled with shitty people. I'm definitely getting a therapist when we're out of here though, I've wanted to talk to one for years but my plan has always been to do that when I leave this country. Mental health is very much taboo here sadly, which contributes to many of the issues people tend to face. Also fun fact, the last time we applied for jobs abroad was at the end of 2019, and then the pandemic happened which meant all the embassy shut down and the applications got canceled (it was a different application system back then). The plan was to get the marriage certificate and start applying again, but the drama happened and we needed to decompress. Then the plan was to start asap after the decompression and then all the health issues happened. Have you ever seen a train wreck lmao it's just me trying to get the hell out of this country since I was 12 BUT IT WILL HAPPEN ONE DAY I JUST KNOW IT WILL (can you feel the desperation lmao)

i know that may have sounded worrisome but don't worry about me and my lore-filled asks, things will work out, they always do

i really hope you guys are able to get the hell out soon :( the job market here in america (idk where ur applying but might be the same elsewhere anyway because the pandemic fucked everything up for everyone) is absolutely atrocious rn so i wish you the best of luck!! you’re right when you say things work out i know they will for you 🫶 it just takes time unfortunately :( but hopefully soon

also as a fellow renter im crying for you with that apartment stuff jeez. it always feels like everything happens at once tbh

[ghost4ghosts]

it's always cool revisiting something you liked when you were younger and seeing how your feelings about it have evolved.

like, i watched angels in america when the revival came out and i was finishing high school. i related a lot to harper with her unnamed "emotional problems", fear of abandonment, and codepency on joe. i kinda saw myself in her, someone who failed to meet everyone's expectations. someone who wants so badly to escape antarctica, where emotions are frozen and you can see rip in the ozone layer.

fast forward like 5 years, i rewatched part 1 right before having my first ever surgery. neither were planned. i watched it on a whim and, i guess, a desire to see andrew garfield look like a poor meow meow on stage. this time round, i saw myself in prior. i'm not going into details on the surgery, but i was in the worst pain i ever felt in my entire life. i felt like i was dying. that terrified me. maybe the only lucid thought in my head as i gasped for breath on a hospital bed was prior's monologue in heaven. but still. still! i want more life. bless me. more life.

this year has been especially cruel to me. something happened right after my birthday and i had to mourn. in fact i'm still mourning (the 4 month mark passed right before i went to the ER). i've been consistenly sick since the end of may. needing surgery was the shitty cherry on top. but fuck, man, i think all this stress and tragedy shocked the suicidality out of me.

it takes a tremendous amount of strength and tenacity to want to keep living. like okay yeah i didn't have a deadly, stigmatized disease like prior, but i think the sense of helplessness is the same. not being in control of your body is a scary fucking thing. i wanted to grasp at any chance to live. depsite all the risks and anxieties, fear of operation, having to depend on someone for a month of recovery, i wanted all of that. anything but dying.

so here i am. with more life. i feel humbled. crushed into little pieces then started all over again. i feel like this is a turning point in my life. a Canon Event. i stopped feeling suicidal since that cruel, cruel spring day, and now i'm left with more life. i just hope i keep wanting it.

[manjiropie]

do whatever is in your mind.

Young Mikey x Reader!

Warn! no warnings today! enjoy!

It's not often Mikey and I have a quarrel. We do bicker here and there, but that's what happens between friends, right?

I've joined Toman for almost a year now– although I've known Manjiro for much longer. I met him through Emma, who is a big friend of mine for as long as I can remember. She was there for me at times when I felt like there was no exit, no light. She's an extremely important part of my life– of me.

I've come to realize that I have been spending more and more time near Mikey, which is not bad, I do enjoy his presence. He may look tough and intimidating but he's just like a mochi: freezing cold on the outside but melting saccharine inside. Now that I'm a part of the gang and actually get to know and participate, I've gotten closer to him. Here and there Mikey invites me out.

"So, it's like a date?" I'd smirk suggestively at him.

"In your dreams." He'd try to hide his smile and he'd look away.

However, there are a few little habits he has that tend to send me on a rage trip. I get mad easily. Things will likely set on fire quickly. It's not that I want to, but my mother is not one of the most patient people in the world and she tells me to cool down. As if.

This last week was the cherry on top.

Mikey had crossed the line. He had pissed me off in every single way possible. He pretended not to listen to me while he was eating. He would answer me in a "oh, I don't really fucking care about what you're talking about!" way. He tripped while he was laughing hysterically at something Draken had said and his pink lemonade was all over my white shirt. He drew in an assignment that was due to the next day for my math class. He told me off for no reason at all in front of everyone in the last Toman's meeting... all of that wasn't on purpose. I am aware of how incredibly short his attention spam is when it comes to not so important affairs. But, fuck, couldn't he just be a little nicer to me? At least during last week where I was having sharp cramps in my fucking uterus? Yeah, maybe he didn't know that because I try not to be so obvious. But when he told us we'd be training last thursday I almost laid on the ground in fetal position and cried for hours. I didn't! I fought and then went home and cried.

Then, this Saturday– today –he invited me to his house to hang out. Emma was with a friend and his grandfather was out of town. When he called me to his house we never did much. We'd watch TV, hang out on the couch discussing stupid stuff, we'd be on our phones... nothing so wow. It was still fun, though.

I wasn't in the best mood to leave my comfy bed but I was way less in the mood to fight him off over the phone. So I slid out of the bed and dressed the first jeans I saw laying on the end of my bed and the oversized Nirvana shirt hanging off my chair (it's actually my dad's shirt, shhh).

~

I knocked twice on his bedroom's door.

"Come in." He yelled from inside. I open the door and he's laying on the bed, his head hanging off of it and his hair is almost touching the floor. His face lit up and he rolled over so he laid on his stomach. I walk over and sit down beside him.

"What's up with the frown?" I didn't notice I was frowning to be honest. Guess the bad mood followed me here.

I shrug.

"Ugh, don't tell me you're in a bad mood." He whines. "I called you here to chill and you're already angry. What's up?" He lays on his pillow and swings his legs to place them on my lap. I huff and shove them off, getting up.

"You've been treating me like shit the whole week and now you wanna chill?" I say, more calm than I thought.

"I did not treat you like shit this week? When do I treat you like shit?" His tone was one of disbelief and confusion.

"Ah, Mikey. Embarrassing me in front of the rest of gang; spilling your drink on my school shirt, which is now stained; ignoring me or answering like you're bored..." I list them off on my fingers. "I am the one who asks, what's up with you?! God, you're always being so unpredictable, which is good sometimes but not like this! Not to me!"

I flop down on the couch, starting to get tired of this whole thing. Knowing Mikey, I know that he'll not lay down again.

"So you're the only one allowed to have bad days now?" He sits on the edge of his bed and I turn my head around lazily, uninterested, bored, like him.

"You were laughing incredibly loud with Takemitchi and Draken friday."

"You can be so annoying sometimes."

"Oh, I'm the annoying one now?" I stand up.

"If you don't like my company, why did you even come in first place?" He also stands. We don't have much height difference, but he's hardly two inches taller than me.

His voice is calm, like always. Which makes me infuriated. "Fucking hell! Does it hurt for you to apologize!?" My sudden outburst takes him on surprise, and me, too.

"I already apologized, stop whining about it."

"I'm not whining–"

"If you weren't," he walks to his desk and sets a cup that was once beside his bed down. "You would've dropped this matter before."

"You don't give a damn about what I feel, do you, Mikey?"

"What?" He turns around, brows knit together.

"You heard me. You made me have a bad week and the least you could do is apologize, you dumbass!" I stomp to his direction.

"I already did! Why don't you–"

"Shut up or I'll punch you." I say, slightly looking up.

His eyebrows twitch and he slowly tilts his head to the side, like a puppy. "Or what.. ?"

"Are you fucking deaf?" I point to my ears.

He comes a little closer. "You're gonna do what if I don't shut up?"

"I'm going to punch you if you don't stop being a brat." I sneer at him. My blood boiling. The stress from this shitty past week overflowing in that moment.

"Oh, yeah?" I could feel his breath oh my nose.

"What? Are you doubting me? I would." I jerk up an eyebrow. I've never fought physically with him. But it's not like I can't.

"I'd like to see you try." His eyes flicker to my lips for a brief second and my breath fails, making me cough.

"What? Can't punch me?" He amuses.

"Fuck you."

Suddenly I feel an arm sneak around my waist and in a second I'm chest to chest with Mikey. My eyes widen– his were peaceful as ever, although superior.

"Do it." He says, looking down at me.

The way he's holding me is making my head spin. True, Mikey is cute...

"Do what?"

He laughs at my confused expression. "I don't know... what did you say you'd do to me?"

Ha ha.

His hold on me tightens.

"Do whatever is on your mind." He says.

My eyes roam free between his eyes and his soft pink lips. Do whatever is on your mind.

If he knew what was on my mind, would he still allow me to?

"Do it," he encourages me once again, "aren't you the 'oh so brave' one? Punch me, yell at me, do whatever you want to me."

Those words were the last push I needed. My hands find the soft skin of his neck, hidden by his long hair. I pull him close and lock our lips together. I feel him making a little sound, I don't know if it was surprise or relief.

If by just looking at it his lips seemed soft, actually touching it felt like kissing cotton candy or guessing cloud shapes.

He didn't pull back, in fact, he held me with both hands. I have no clue how he did that but it seemed as though all of my worries dissipated as we kissed.

My heart was beating so fast that it made my chest hurt. My head started to pound when I spent a little too long without air. I pull back from his lips and keep my gaze on them as I breathe heavily.

"Hm." He hums quietly, almost dreamily if you'd ask me.

I look up at his face and smile a bit, noticing how his cheeks are pink. I lift an eyebrow up as if asking what he was thinking. He shakes his head and then puts his right hand on my cheek, caressing it. He kisses me again. This time is slower. As though being present in the moment. As if it were just me and him and nothing else.

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[higuchisora]

So, we all remember the infamous Flare Scene™. As I've stated in another post, I've been obsessing over it lately, and I realized I never talked about this though I thought I did. There's that part where Jinx goes "are you real?" when she sees Vi again, and we all know it's because she's been hallucinating and is so in disbelief that Vi could be there because she was supposed to be dead etc., etc. This is all super heartbreaking and the scene did put me out of commission for a while. But then I started thinking.

Jinx already has hallucinations of her dead loved ones- Vi included, if we remember the Dinner Party From Hell and how she "never truly died" to Jinx because she kept hearing her all the time, giving her advice and warnings and reassurances. But the point is, when she sees Vi again for real, Vi is obviously older, not at all like how she remembers her, which doesn't fit the pattern for her other hallucinations.

Even when they're scribbled out, Mylo and Claggor look exactly the way they did when she last saw them- the day they died. Vi doesn't fit that pattern because she's not dead nor is she a hallucination. But that's what got me thinking. What if Vi died that night with everyone else, just like Jinx had thought? Imagine her reaction if Jinx turned around and Vi was actually still 15?

In this AU I'd imagine that Vi was one of three things: 1- a hallucination, 2- brought back from the dead, or 3- stuck in the future via time travel. I'd prefer the third, because it would have a pretty neat explanation: Ekko brought her back by accident. As we know, in the game he has the ability to rewind time. But he's not a complete master, and the discovery was through an accident. So what if he has another one of these accidents and Vi winds up in the future?

This make for so much angst on all sides- Vi would be wondering where the fuck it all went wrong, Ekko would be conflicted about seeing what was basically a ghost in front of him, and Jinx would be conflicted about what Vi would think of her if she found out about everything/whether or not she should even tell her. And that's not even covering things like Jinx and Ekko looking at her and realizing how fucking tiny she is (like, wow. This kid even younger than them used to protect them? How in the world-), or- what I find most entertaining- Silco's reaction to her return. Like. His "from the dead?!" would be EVEN FUCKING FUNNIER for me and not gonna lie that's the most important part in my opinion.

And Jinx's reaction? If we thought she was unhinged now, imagine if she genuinely actually thought Vi wasn't real? If Jinx had pulled the gun on her like she did with that firelight girl? The utter shock Vi would be in, to see her baby sister in this state, older than her now and also trying to kill her? I'd imagine Ekko would have to step in again, but for entirely different reasons. And who knows what would happen this time around, with a Vi who doesn't know what happened with their family and Silco in that warehouse? With a Jinx that would do anything- anything- to recover the love and validation she lost the night she made that mistake and lost her sister? Or a Silco who realizes that not only does time travel exist, but a literal dead girl showed up and is now- somewhere with Jinx?

But then it also makes me think about the second one, the possibility of her being "brought back from the dead". Imagine a world where Vi had actually died that night- and Jinx might've even had proof? What if she'd seen her body? That night was already traumatizing enough, but that- that would be the rotten cherry on top of the shitty cake. If you thought her mental state was unstable now, this would definitely be the catalyst that would send her catapulting headfirst into "there's no saving her" territory WAY faster than all of the stuff of season 1 ever did. Because remember, Jinx's hallucinations of Vi had apparently all been auditory: when talking about how Vi "never left" in the dinner party scene, all of her examples were of hearing Vi, not seeing her. Which makes sense. Even if she knew objectively that Vi was dead, she never saw her. She'd have no corpse to attach a voice to, and even though she could've imagined her as she was when she last saw her alive, I think Jinx's particular kind of psychosis just doesn't really work that way, if that makes sense. If anything, I think it was almost her brain's way of protecting her in some strange fashion. Like seeing Vi well and truly dead, another voice amongst the chorus of accusations hissing at her, would've truly been the final nail in the coffin.

I think she'd be even less stable if that's even possible, though it might not be an outwards difference. I think Jinx's episodes and breakdowns would either be more volatile to the point even Silco is concerned, or more frequent to the point that some might not even know what she's like outside of those moments. And all the while, her guilt and grief and longing for her family would worsen, especially when concerning Vi, until it boils over into the territory of obsession.

So what if- (if you know about Warwick and Oriana, you know where this is going) Singed got his hands on Vi's corpse? I can't imagine Jinx would be happy about him desecrating her sister's corpse, especially not in this AU, but it made me imagine a Jinx with a goal beyond helping Silco achieve his dreams. We all know she loves him, but we also know that as soon as Vi came back into the picture Jinx dropped everything for even the possibility to see her again. Hell, her first assumption was that he kept Vi from her on purpose- there wasn't a single second where she gave him, the man who raised her these past 7 years, the benefit of the doubt. She didn't even consider that he might not have known. But I think if she had her way, they both would've been a part of her life, instead of just one or the other. So what if, in a world where she's much more obsessed with Vi and the past than before, Singed approaches a sad and desperate Jinx after another episode.

Maybe it's just after Silco has taken her in. Maybe it's some time later, once she proves her worth not only to Silco, but to others- like Singed- as the most direct line to Silco's ear. If you know about Warwick and more importantly Oriana, you probably could guess why he'd do this. But for those who are out of the loop and want to stay that way, all you need to know is Singed has every reason to want to... alter the human condition. So what if he approaches a desperate Jinx at one of her lowest points, and tells her all about what shimmer and hextech were capable of, and... made a deal?

She'd ask Silco for some favors (he's much more likely to acquiesce if she's the one making the request), cause general chaos, steal a couple things, maybe even provide a couple of corpses. And in return?

In return, he'd bring Vi back.

I can just imagine her sowing what appears to be random, meaningless chaos, until people notice the bodies that go missing. Sure, Jinx is a wild fighter, and a bomber on top of that- it's not unthinkable that you'd be unable to recover some remains every now and then. But it becomes a pattern- every time she shows up, someone goes missing. And more often than not, it's a particular type. Young, decently built (maybe even pink-haired) girls. Not a single trace of them can ever be recovered. Maybe once or twice, she's seen carrying them away. Eventually, things come to a head, as they must. Maybe it's Cait. Maybe it's Marcus. Hell, maybe it could be Silco, eventually too curious about what she's doing with all these bodies and killing all these people- some of which are enforcers - and running away with them.

But I think ultimately, it'll be Ekko and his Firelights. Either way, eventually a confrontation comes. Ekko gets to the lab, finally having traced or followed her there. He's got a million game plans, a million thoughts and sentiments, a million questions in his head. They all disperse the second he brusts into the room and finds Singed and Jinx, standing over a corpse with a million tubes in it.

Jinx would try to fight him on the spot, but Singed wouldn't want them endangering his experiments. And as angry as Ekko is, I think he'd realize how dangerous it would be to fight around all that shimmer. Who knows if one of them accidentally ends up ingesting some? So he starts off with words. She's killed so many people, and it's clear not even Silco knows why. Hell, some of them were his own people, and despite him protecting her from the consequences, even he's not happy with her at the moment because for once her chaos hasn't yielded any visible results. As far as he's aware. And that's when Jinx laughs.

She tells him she obviously has a plan. She needed those bodies for Singed. Why? She's genuinely surprised at the question. It's because she has to fix things, of course. Why doesn't Ekko understand? If this works, these people won't stay dead for long anyway. This would undo everything. She'd finally be forgiven. This is going to help. Jinx is going to help.

And then she'd walk over to a tank, the only one that's actually working, and pull back the cover. Inside is Vi, preserved as well as possible with what little resources they have. And then Jinx would sigh and caress the glass with a smile. Because after all these years, Singed was finally getting results. All these years, and she was finally one step closer to her dream. One step closer to fixing everything. Didn't he understand? She was finally going to help. She was going to bring Vi back.

Everything was going to be okay again.

[vttanon]

today my english teacher found me where i always am, in the english commons, by myself, with papers and books spread evenly across the entire table. this is how i keep others from sitting down by me.

"i was hoping you'd be here."

"i'm always here."

they laughed, and i'm not sure why, because i wasn't joking, but i think it must've been a way to ease into the next bit.

"what pronouns do you want me to use in your narrative comments for the quarter?"

in that moment, i remembered that the quarter ends this week, and conferences are next week, and i've been putting off these conversations for a month now but i really should get on it.

i laughed, because i make a joke out of these things or else it will hurt too much to say.

"oh yeah, i forgot to talk to you about that... you have to violently 'she' me."

i punctuated the statement with another laugh, but their face twisted up because the laughter can keep the heartbreak from being noticed by cis people but it's too familiar to other queer people. we've all been through it, so we can all see it in each other.

that moment meant something big to me, when they wordlessly told me "that is so shitty, and i see you." feeling seen is something rare, and something so very invaluable.

"well, you're almost out of here."

this was a comfort to be reminded of by someone outside my own conciousness. i often forget to internalise that. i am almost out of here. in a year i will be in oregon, studying religion at a college surrounded by queers.

we talked for a while about tattoos, because i think they understood that i was having a bad day, and that this was the cherry on the fucking top of it all, and that i could really use a conversation about something nice. i showed them the artist who'll be giving me my first tattoo in less than a month ("my body will finally be my own,") and they showed me the artist that did one of their's.

"my parents are gonna kill me."

"that's okay. mine did too."

~~~

it's frustrating to send seven emails to each of my teachers who i have finally got to somewhat respect me, and give them permission to misgender me all over again. i feel like i'm betraying myself, and my little sibling who came out to our family and who will always be braver than me. i hate telling my teachers to call me she when they already do it too much without me saying it's okay.

it sucks, too, because my english teacher is my only teacher who is consistently good at respecting me and using language that affirms who i am, and i know that reading the comments they write that will misgender me is going to hurt especially bad. they've never once gotten it wrong, and i know i am going to cry reading those comments.

i wish i was as empowered and unapologetic as everyone seems to think i am. all my peers think im too cunt (paraphrasing) and all the queer punk kids younger than me look up to me. i feel a responsibility to them to present this image of a violently authentic, passionate, intelligent and charismatic queer person that they can see as a role model, because i never had that when i was younger. i feel like every time i go home and say nothing when my parents call me "lady" and every time i go back into hiding is a betrayal to those kids who look up to me.

i'm thinking now, though, and maybe the reason i feel the need to be perfect for them is because the role models i had were online personalities who could cultivate perfection easily. maybe it's my job to show them that i (and they, too) can be powerful and messy and scared all at once. mess and fear breeds power. anger breeds power. complicated, beautiful, human people are powerful.

i don't know. i'm just pretty fucking heartbroken right now about all of this. i hate being she-d more than anything. i'm sad. i thought i'd write it down.

until next time,

xx, VENDETTA

[sailorhyunjinz]

hi cherry a little vent if that's OK w u

so on this app I had 2 people who I had notifs on for, you and my fav sfw writer right? over time though I realized I didn't actually like that person as an author I just got really attached because they were the first blog I was anon on and they responded well. but like 👁👄👁 recently they've been downplaying skz alot tbh and I don't mean in a critique way, in a way where they were saying certain things were just plain bad with little to no valid explanation and just being overall nasty? I think that might be what made me realize that I didn't actually like them a ton tbh, I unfollowed them today cause I got a notif from them and it was a post saying the song that is currently my favorite was bad and didn't deserve a mv :// obv that post wasn't directed at anyone I just think I got tired of only seeing negative things about the boys when I open their blog. I also would find myself going directly to ur blog after reading shitty stuff on their blog because this place is just a place full of general excitement and support, I really enjoy it. but anyways uh, I wanna thank u for being such a cool author and for supporting the boys the way u do :) the author I'm referring to was never directly slamming on the boys themselves, but they just never seemed to have anything good to say yk? I really enjoy being here way more

also congrats on now being the only blog I have notifs on for luv <3

ok end rant//

anyways

my sleep schedule is still utterly fucked in every way, I got distracted trying (and succeeding!!) at making a Kandi cuff but by the time I was done it was 4:30 am so now im just chilling watching anime for now till I feel like getting up for school. since it's so early maybe ill stop at mickydees otw 😌😌

also, I've been streaming literally all day and the new album is SO GOOD BRO SJDJJXDHE

I was expecting something really sad from silent cry and star lost but BRO?? 10/10 think star lost will be the Blueprint of this era

and CHRISTOPHER? mans said nah fuck the shirt yall get bandages take it or leave it

AND I MEAN OBVIOUSLY TAKE IT

also I don't think words can express how down fucking bad I am for seo changbin like 😫😫 please Mr seo just one chance

and like skz making us think the beginning of the unveil for domino was the beginning of the song feels like they're laughing at us rn like zjjxjd ALSO DOMINO IS SO GOTDAMN FUCKING GOOD HOLY FUCKING DUCK the like high pitched thingy he does for like two syllables (idk how to describe it I'm sorry??) is SO HOT I CANNOT

awwwh >:((( DAMN I FEEL SO HONORED BRO THANK YOUUUU <33 ah but i kinda feel bad for your phone HASHSAH WHEN I START SPAMMING SHIT- nah but seriously thank you <33

i mean i can understand that its not everyones favorite album, i really liked it but we cant all have the same opinion can we but theres a difference between constructive criticism and just being mean SO im happy that you noticed the difference and just kinda,,, dont try to associate with people that dont have anything positive to say.

my god your poor sleep schedule,,, DONT U HAVE SCHOOL?? HOW THE FUCK DO U EVEN SCHOOL BRO

also yes can we just say that both silent cry and star lost are amazing songs?? i really like songs with those kinda,,, vibes so i was pleasantly surprised and i just think that everyones vocals fit those songs as well <333 but if we talking favorite song here mine is probably cheese?? idk something about that songs is very unique,,, its fresh, it doesnt sound like anything ive heard before and the concept is very cool and fitting for skz so i just love it, love love love!!! <33

[kingdaddydaichi]

@thamilou Thanks for the tag, my love! 💖 Umm I changed it to Tumblr for mine bc same...I don't write on AO3. I hope that's okay. 😬

Answers below the cut. 👇🏼

1. how many works do you have on AO3 Tumblr?

Does a series count as one (as opposed to the # of chapters)? Assuming it does, 9, not counting hcs. If you count those then 15-ish?

2. what’s your total AO3 Tumblr word count?

I'm guessing there's an easy way to find that out on AO3? I don't think there's a total word count on Tumblr, but it's easily 10,000+.

3. how many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

Three: Naruto, My Hero Academia, Bleach

4. what are your top five fics by kudos notes?

1084 - Sleepy Sex (Bakugou)

396 (total) - Lessons Learned 1 & 2 (Bakugou)

373 - Riding the Fine Line (Bakugou)

326 - Calm What's Shook (Bakugou)

285 (total) - Cherry Pop no Jutsu 1 2 & 3 (Kakashi)

5. do you respond to comments? why or why not?

Yes, almost always! Why? Because I want people to know how much I appreciate their support, love, and encouragement.

6. what fic have you written with the angstiest ending?

Cherry Pop no Jutsu with Kakashi, for sure.

7. what fic have you written with the happiest ending?

Weeeellll I've got a couple in the works right now, but I don't want to give away any spoilers. So, as far as completed fics go, Riding the Fine Line with Bakugou. (I really wanted to make a joke here about all of mine having happy endings because everyone gets to cum! 😅)

8. do you write crossovers?

Nah, I haven't yet, but maybe I'll try it out in the future?

9. have you ever received hate on a fic?

On a particular fic, no. I have received hate once bc of a particular character. They were really shitty about it. Ya girl hit BLOCK and got on with her day. 💅🏼

10. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

😏😏😏 I write ALL the smuts! I'm a shameless hussy, what can I say? I only have a couple of hard limits (what I WON'T write), but most anything is fair game. I write kinky smut, erotic smut, sensual smut, romantic smut, hardcore smut, grudge fuck smut, AND MORE! I'm a veritable one-stop-shop for smut. So come on by and take a look at my smutty collection of smut and read one TODAY!

11. have you even had a fic stolen?

No, not that I'm aware of.

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

Same as above.

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

My very first collab is currently in progress with @inside-mychest! ✍🏼 And I hope to collab again in the future.

14. what’s your all-time favorite ship?

You know what? I've always thought that if Kakashi could've ended up with anyone in the Naruto-verse, I would've loved for it to have been Konan. Yes, she was in the Akatsuki, but all she ever wanted was to be there for Nagato and truly believed he was doing what was best for all humanity and she never faltered or left his side. She was gentle and beautiful and loyal asf and an unwavering caretaker and idk, I really think that if they could've met under different circumstances (did they ever even meet, idr?), I'd like to think they might've fallen in love.

15. what’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

All of my current WIPs will be finished. I've come too far and love working on all of them too much to let them fall by the wayside.

16. what are your writing strengths?

Spelling. Grammar. I really live by the "show, don't tell" adage and try to remain cognizant of it whenever I'm writing. I always try to find a way to incorporate all 5 senses so my readers can feel like they're experiencing the story rather than just reading it. I want you to forget that you're reading when you read my shit. Same goes for emotions. I don't want to describe the feelings of the characters, I want you to feel their feelings. Making it an immersive experience matters a lot to me.

17. what are you writing weaknesses?

You tell me 😂!

Too many adverbs 😅. So many writers throughout history have ragged on using too many adverbs. So I try to look for verb/adverb or adverb/verb combinations and find ways to eliminate them. I struggle with that tho. I love what Mark Twain said about the word 'very' - to replace it with the word 'damn' and anywhere it doesn't make sense, edit it out. I eventually just stopped using the word 'very' altogether. 😂 I think my shit gets too wordy sometimes. I'm too pedantic and forget to trust that the reader will be able to put 2 and 2 together and understand intuitively what I'm trying to convey without having to explain every little detail.

Perfect example from above: understand intuitively...what's a verb that could replace that combo? Maybe just 'intuit'?

I know I have so many other weaknesses, but those are probably the biggest ones.

18. what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I have written a teensy weensy bit of dialogue in Japanese (romaji), but that's it. I would write in kanji/kana, but then the majority of my readers wouldn't be able to read it.

19. what was the first fandom you wrote for?

Naruto!

20. what’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

😬 Oh man, I know this is such a cliche, but it's like trying to pick a favorite child. They're all my creations. There are different things I like about different fics. Jeez, if a gun was pointed to my head tho and I had to pick just one...probs Out of the Ether for Renji Abarai. It's been the least popular, which is a shame really, bc I feel like it's some of my best work. 🤷🏼‍♀️

I'm super curious to see what @simpforsadbois @bakubabes-hatake @bonbonthedragon would say?? Only if you want to, ofc.

20 [Fanfic Writer] Questions Game

i one thousand percent stole this from @depressedhatakekakashi when i saw it and sat down to answer them all now.  i’ll put the whole thing under the cut because it’s l o n g, lol, but i’ll also tag a few folks if they’d like to play along.  i’m only going with folks i know have relatively active ao3 accounts off the top of my head.  if you wanna play, feel free to steal this shit same as i did. 😂

@myaekingheart @whatshernameis @chemmerson @kakashiswilloffire @kakashi-tsukuyomi

no pressure, obvs, but this was kind of fun!  <3

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