#but I'm still surprised it took till the second to last episode??

[diabeticgirl4]

Sneaked a peak at my next ep's wiki and there are two character names listed under taliesin's 👀👀👀

[mash4077confessions]

For your last reblog, please do Mulcahy!!! I love your answers for him. You’re almost single handedly keeping Mulcahy girlies alive!

Thank you very much 😊

Alrighty, let's do the rest of these headcanon questions for Mulcahy!

3) Who depends on them? Everyone at 4077th, in someway shape or form, even if they don't really notice it. He would be prime for an "It's A Wonderful Life" kind of episode.

Back in Philadelphia...it's a very different story. Hell, one of the main reasons why he volunteered to go to Korea, was because he wanted to be useful and no one seemed to need him in Philadelphia.

4) What they would do if they had one month to live?

At first, I think Mulcahy would be very angry. He'd randomly lash out, he'd be hitting his punching bag. Then he'd get very solemn. He'd pray (a lot more than usual), and he'd drink heavily. Then Mulcahy would come out of that, and decide that his last days were better spent on others, instead of pitying himself.

He'd donate all his money, spend extra time with his friends and Kathy. He might even reach out to his brothers that he's long since stopped speaking to.

Mulcahy would give his all till the last moment of life, and still he'd ask quietly to himself, whether or not he'd really done enough.

5) A cherished personal belonging?

Well he has several things I can think of off the top of my head. The crucifix necklace he wears all the time, that was from Kathy. She gave it to him when he decided to join the church, and so it is very valuable to him.

He also has several photographs that he made a point to bring with him to Korea (one of his parents on their wedding day, as no one else seemed interested in having it, a picture of him and Kathy as toddlers, and then the one family portrait they had done when he was still a baby).

There is also his rather healthy library he took with him as well (Plato, War and Peace, The Completed Works of Shakespeare).

6) Something they lost, but would love to have back?

his hearing

His mother. She died just before his 18th birthday. I'm still deciding what actually killed her, but it definitely was caused in part to her having had so many children (7 total). It does things to your body.

If we're just talking about a general item, he has "lost" a couple of autographs from his favorite boxers (I say lost in quotations because what really happened was a nun found his autographed boxing magazines, including one signed by Artie Levine, and she threw them away because she didn't think it was appropriate for a priest to have so many images of shirtless men laying around. She claimed it was the boxing she took issue with, but we know what she was really thinking).

7) This character’s favorite character?

Hawkeye. It kinda goes without saying. Mulcahy is often in awe of him, and he finds him humorous (although a tad obnoxious at times), and he goes to him for help because he knows Hawkeye will be there when he needs him and won't judge him for reaching out.

Mulcahy is also great friends with Potter, though the man is much older than he is, they have a surprising amount in common (side note: is it just me or when William Christopher got old, he started looking more like Harry Morgan?)

Mulcahy also has very close friendships with both Klinger and Sidney.

8) What kind of car they would drive?

I don't think Mulcahy owns a car in his civilian life. Public transportation would have still been pretty common in 1950s Philadelphia and when he was in college at Loyola, that was in Chicago. No real big need to own a car when you're in a city center. That said, if he did have a vehicle, it would be old and second-hand. It would work but it wouldn't be fancy. Probably white or sand colored.

10) How they deal with pain?

Like physical pain? Dude can take a hit. When he was a featherweight boxer (his former life before Kathy got him to become a priest) he'd have concussions, couple broken ribs, black eyes, etc. Of course he gave as good as he got, and then some. But he has a pretty high pain tolerance.

(If you want to talk about that time that Margaret hit him and he acted like he was in pain, it's because she's a woman and he can't hit a woman, so he knew he'd have no way to physically defend himself if she really decided to let him have it. She's also REALLY strong.)

11) This character’s favorite piece or pieces of clothing?

Mulcahy isn't much into fashion. If it fits and doesn't have holes or stains on it, it's good enough for him. His priestly attire is more important to him than any civilian clothes he owns. That said, he is very fond of his Loyola hoodie (aren't we all?), that "G" baseball cap that Hawkeye bought him, and he does have one really nice lavender button down dress shirt (worn only on leave in Tokyo, which he seldom gets to do).

13) What kind of parent they would be?

The best kind. He would be soooooo loving and affectionate towards his children. He would spend so much time and energy engaging with them on their level. The kids at St. Teresa's Orphanage absolutely adore him, and he adores them right back. He's not great at discipline, though. That would be his partner's job, for sure. Not that he can't lay down the law, when needed, but he's afraid he's overdoing it and sounding like his father.

14) How they did in school?

Mulcahy was always very interested in learning and had no problem keeping up with the lessons. The trouble was that sometimes he just really wanted to read Plato or Aristotle or The Odyssey...and his teachers didn't appreciate him wanting to go off and do his own thing. He definitely got hit by at least one teacher at school fairly regularly for this.

Mulcahy always wanted to learn and discuss very broad topics, and his teachers didn't want to deal with that. Which was not great for him because they'd labeled him a troublemaker, and that got him the belt from his dad. Mulcahy always got on better with the girls in his class rather than the boys.

The boys were all like his brothers and his father; they wanted to rough house and when they got older, go skirt chasing. The girls liked him because he was sweet, and kind, and dorky. They felt safe with him. The boys also beat him mercilessly, until he was 12 and learned that it was OK to defend himself.

Many a time, he had his glasses broken, and once again, his dad would go right for the belt.

I think he was always on the outs in school, even in the seminary. I'm sure he had friends but he also had a lot of people looking at him as if he were just one giant question mark. No one really knowing what to make of him, and overlooking so many wonderful aspects of his being, because of that lack of understanding.

15) What cologne or perfume they would use?

I don't know if he really uses any. If Mulcahy does ever use cologne, it's going to be something cheap and earthy. He is a very cleanly person and he has really nice kinda fruity smelling soap and shampoo. Because he's around the church incense so often, it does stick to his robes. The incense has a nice cedar sort of smell to it.The point being in all this, is that he bathes regularly (probably the most often out of anyone in the main cast) and he does smell very nice.

17) What they’d sing at karaoke?

Something upbeat and fun. Maybe from a musical?

18) Special talents they have?

As previously stated, Mulcahy has a serious green thumb when it comes to his garden. He's also got one hell of a right hook for boxing. He plays piano (how well depends entirely on who you ask). Mulcahy has a pretty solid knack for gambling as a whole, but his odds do fair a lot better when making bets specifically on people...rather than cards. He can whistle pretty well too. Carries a nice tune when he sings (still better sounding with a partner).

Sometimes his most important talent is just getting people to agree to let things go with a small smile, and a tiny "please? 😇"

Mulcahy can also read Greek...though that's mostly just so he can read poetry in its original language.

Also did you see his sand castle in GFA? Dude has some mad skills to pull that one off without a mold.

Mulcahy is a mutitalented person. I didn't even name all his talents/skills.

20) Household chore they hate the most?

This is tough, because Mulcahy loves to clean. He loves dishes, and laundry, and finds dusting rather relaxing. Of course, this is all done as an act of service for someone else's benefit; the rest of the 4077th, those he shares the rectory with back home, his mother when he was a child, etc.

My best guess would be cooking. I think he can cook a fairly decent meal, but most of the time he's only ever cooked for himself and that immediately makes him disinterested in the task. He's just doing it because he has to eat. That's it.

21) Their fondest childhood memory?

Ok, not counting the Gentleman Joe memory because we already know all about that one. I'd say it's a memory of a time with his mother for sure. A time when the house was quiet, because his older brothers and Kathy were away at school, his father was working, and there with his head nestled in his mother's lap was baby Mulcahy, listening to her as she read to him, and stroked his head. It was a good place to be.

22) How they spend their money?

While in Korea most of his money goes to St. Teresa's Orphanage and a few creature comforts for himself.

Back at home he definitely still gives a lot to charity (he has his preferred organizations within the greater Philadelphia area). Of course he has to spend money on necessities such as food, toiletries, clothing items as they fall apart, etc. He gives gifts to his loved ones from time to time as well (birthdays and Christmas in particular, but sometimes just to cheer people up).

As for money he spends on himself just because; well he gambles and you gotta have money on hand for that, he sometimes splurges and treats himself to a good quality cigar or a higher quality beer. He's got some good leather dress shoes that he keeps well polished. Oh! And on theater tickets (both plays and the movies). He also occasionally hits the local art museums and will spend hours there looking at the paintings and statues.

(And as I write this, I know suddenly really want to take him to the MET, because he'd absolutely love it.)

23) What kind of alcohol they drink?

Beer and occasionally wine. His max alcohol percentage is 5%. Anything stronger than that and he will get plastered so quickly. Most of the time, when he drinks you'll notice him sort of nursing his beer, as opposed to chugging for the finish. He actually likes the taste of beer, and usually isn't trying to get drunk.

24) What they wish they could change about themselves?

Mulcahy wishes he was a better orator, the kind that really puts the butts in the pews and has them all feeling God's words deep in their hearts. For clarification on this, he isn't a terrible speaker, but his sermons are loaded with dad Father jokes and thinly valed stories of people he knows.

In general, Mulcahy just wants to be better. To do better. He's chasing the approval of others, because he doesn't really approve of himself. Self validation isn't his thing.

25) What other people wish they could change about them?

The people who know and love Mulcahy, wish he could see himself as they see him (goes for most of the fandom as well, I think). But at the same time, his humility is part of what makes him, him, so maybe they just wish he wouldn't beat himself up so much.

People who don't like him or at least don't particularly care about him (Frank, some higher ranking members of the military, couple church officials from his home parish, etc) they would want him to be a bit more "fire and brimstone", and to have a bit more military sense. They want him to be more traditional and fundamentalist in his views. And they'd also like him to stop with the Bible puns. But they don't matter, because they don't like him anyway.

I feel like I've missed some small but still very vital details, but that's the trouble with headcanons; I could go on and on.

[shi-daisy]

Hi! Dropping in to say I read your TomJake fic and I loved it. It really feels like it could be canon compliant. As to how the season's going do you think you'll keep it as is or edit it? And are you still rooting for them or even Jake as a whole?

Aaaaa! Hi anon! So happy you liked my fic! It has gotten such a good reception and so much love I'm excited to write for the fandom again soon.

To answer your questions I do think I'll edit the fic a little if only to include Tatsu who wasn't named at the time I wrote it, and maybe change a bit of Tom's part as I wrote the fic thinking he was an orphan but apparently he has a mom so I'd have to tweak some stuff and include her, maybe change the song too as I found one more fitting for it.

Okay TomJake. Oh boy, to be honest I'm slowly losing hope but holding on by a thread. These two still seem to deeply care for eachtoher but they get on their own way more often than not and while I will root for them till the very end it wouldn't surprise me to see them fall apart too. But we keep the hope until the last scene!

Now as for Jake as a solo character, I am still rooting for him too. Episode 10 has the the fandom divided as to whether or not we should root for Jake or wish for him to be next boot. Personally I want him to grow and losing the only support he has left is likely the only way he's gonna learn.

Many say he will spiral and I'll be honest I could see him having a breakdown next episode. But I don't think he'll give up, my guess is that while he has no reason to get the money, he could try and win it for Ashley's sake. He's in a horrible position now as the villains are 5 against 4 heroes and the other 3 heroes gunned for him last time so I'd like to see him play solo at least one episode as he slowly reels from Ashley's boot and from the heroes who lets face it will unfairly pin this fail on him.

Yes I say unfairly because even if he was an emotional wreck that wanted to throw the vote, the other four also threw the vote and that caused the villains to win it.

Ally hates Jake because of him picking fights and being volatile and I agree with her assessment that actions speak louder than words and that Jake was wrong. However as annoying as he is you need his number to at least tie a vote. For the time being if I was her I would've faked niceness and tried to get along with him instead of fueling the fire. She didn't and took the fight personal too and voted Jake. Okay, what if he goes? It's four heroes against five villains, you're toast unless the villains fall apart and they target other stronger players. Jake is a meatshield and she should've just kept it chill like Ashley and that way he won't go off.

Same thing with Aiden. Dude knows Jake has it out for him because of the previous misunderstanding and because he's petty and volatile. Okay, don't poke the poodle then, don't fight him, don't provoke him. Come episode 9, he starts shit. Dude I get that on 8 Jake was an ass but I highly doubt you taunting him will stop him from trying to win, hell you taunting him is what got him to throw hands on episode 9. Don't poke the angry dude if you don't want him to go off, especially if he does not like you! Quiet and unnoticed got him far in season 2. If he had done so here too, maybe Jake wouldn't have been so down to fight. Same in episode 10. The shot was accidental and Jake should've just shrugged it off and kept his yapper shut, but then comes Aiden and goes 'Don't take it so personal'...My man, you just said that to the dude who already dislikes you and takes EVERYTHING personal! What did you think he was gonna do? Give you a hug? The vote too again was dumb 'It's him or us.' The only targets you have are Riya and Gabby, Tom and Ashley are stronger and if voted could've taken the villains in a tie breaker. Shut the hell up, and everyone vote a villain. They didn't and that's what got their second strongest to go off now. It's not just Jake's fault even if he bears the most fault. Everyone fucked up this episode and are now all on the chopping block.

Self indulgent wish fulfillment ahead while many say Jake will apologize next episode I don't want him to. I want him to be silent, solo, and seething. I want the others to try and pin it all on him only to be told what I just said and for Jake to tell them 'You want me out next? Fine, vote for me again, but I'm not going down without a fight! I owe her that much at least!' I want him to make it clear they all fucked up and they can't pin it all on him alone.

I want Tom to try and apologize for the vote only for Jake to not care, and even say 'I did the same to you last season. We're even.' Let my man seethe and work alone for a bit. Let him make Tom earn him back if he wants him because while I understand his reasoning for keeping away he still ghosted the man with attachment and trust issues for two whole years, avoided setting the record straight, lied to him (knowing his trauma around lying), and topped it all off with voting for him which resulted on his beastie being the one taken out. Jake has every right to pull the plug even if temporarily.

I wanna see him maybe bond with Grett if Yul is still being the worst. Boy would recognize the signs from what he went through with his own abusive ex and probably throw hands with Yul (id pay to see that). I wanna see him and Gabby talk too, Gabby explaining how she feels about Ellie being voted and wanting to support her and while Jake loathes her maybe he could provide perspective too. 'She did this to me for money in season 1, she was going down the same bad path again and you know it. If you love her, win for her and help her but getting out was necessary Gabby and you know it.' Imagine him getting those two out of the alliance, imagine him helping get Yul out or even just fool thewhole camp into thinking he's still a mess while in reality he is secretly plotting their downfall while playing the unstable wreck again. I'd be screaming to see both villains and heroes gagged if he played it right and got the villains out, if he maybe made it further than he did last time. I really want to see my boy shine and shine bright. So yes anon, I am rooting for Jake and hoping he at least gets one or two villains out if he does not win it all, and if he does then let him help support his beastie and make Miriam proud.

As for him and Tom we'll see if it can be saved. I'm hoping for the best but I'm also petty and if our himbo cop pulls one more stunt, I won't be sad should Jake choose to cut the cord for good.

Hope this answers your questions! Thanks for the fic support!

[lovingherrscher]

Rebellion -  叛逆の物語

Warning: Contains spoilers of Madoka Magica the Movie: Rebellion, so read at your own risk!

Note: I was really lost that whether I should post this here or not, since this is a very, very old work of mine. I wrote this about 3 years ago I think? Well I did it anyway, please enjoy this! What was I thinking when I wrote this you may ask? I always wanted to make a scenario where I can take Dazai out and see my all-time favorite series, up till now it’s still got some pretty heavy impact on me, so I whipped this up randomly, I couldn’t recall how did I manage to go this far. Again, I’m sorry if there’s any grammar mistakes, or in some case did I make Dazai seems OOC. 

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It's been a while since you two have a movie night, and since both of you got the day off tomorrow, Dazai decided that tonight will be movie night. He texted you to choose the movie on the way home and he'll prepare the popcorn and stuffs. It didn't take too long for you to answer, instead of popcorn, you told him to prepare some tissues and hot chocolate with marshmallows. Dazai was surprised, usually you'd be the one who ask for popcorn, but maybe you just want some change once in a while.

When you're back, everything is already set up. Dazai even place a few extra pillows around the sofa too, so you won't be sore even if you fell asleep. It's about 7pm, the perfect time to start. Yes, you two skipped dinner for movie night. You inserted the disk then went back to the sofa with Dazai.

Puella Magi Madoka Magica

"A magical girl anime? Now that's rare. Why did you choose this, (y/n)?"

"I just wanted to share some new things with you, Dazai. Is there anything wrong?"

"Nothing, let us get back to the movie, shall we?"

The first, then the second episode passed, everything seems normal, at least it was until the third episode. That part when Mami confessed that she wasn't all reliable and that she was only forcing herself to man up made you cry, even though it's the third or fourth time you seen it.

"I don't deserve anyone's admiration."

"I'm just forcing myself to man up."

Eventually, you two reached the eighth episode, where Sayaka lost herself and let the despair take her, so that she became a Witch. It took more than just a box of tissues and hot chocolate for you to calm.

"When wishing for someone's happiness, someone must be cursed in order to keep the balance."

"The balance between hope and despair remains at zero."

"That's how us Magical Girls work."

"I'm...such an idiot."

No matter how many times you seen this scene, it always manage to strike you right in the heart. You could say that you can understand the Holy Quintet's pain. To Mami, it was loneliness, to Sayaka, it was the feeling when you realized you've done everything for the man you love, but ended up didn't have the courage to tell him about how you feel, to Kyoko, it was the guilt when you did something you thought it'd be good but then fucked up. To Madoka, it was a bit lack of self-confident and sacrifice because of the wants to help everyone ends their suffering. Last, but not least, to Homura, it was the burning desire to protect the one you love, using every methods you have to, even if it was the cruelest thing you ever did.

Dazai stays silent as you two reached the next episode, when Kyoko took Madoka to fought against Oktavia, hoping they could get Sayaka back. There was that line Kyoko said, in the Witch's barrier that made Dazai remember his old days back in the Dark Era, when he was still a mafia executive.

"Only people who have been forced into a corner would do this kind of job that disregards their lives."

He, too, wasn't given a choice. Joining the Mafia was his only choice then. Mori took him under his wings and trained him to be an exact copy of him, so Dazai could one day took the position of being the Mafia Boss. He despise both that man, and himself, who would have become an another him if it wasn't for his friend's death.

Those who've been forced into a corner, huh? It's true that there are many people joined the Mafia almost being forced. For example, himself, Kyouka, Chuuya, and the Akutagawa siblings too. They do the kind of job that disregards their lives, knowing they could die any moment if their guard was left down. Well, again, if it wasn't for Odasaku's death, he wouldn't have left the Mafia and would probably be the Boss now.

"Hey Dazai? Are you alright? You have been staring into space for twenty minutes already.."

The sound of (y/n) calling for him pulled him back to the reality, where the movie was stopped and she was looking at him worried. Dazai just pat her head, saying that he's fine and reach for the remote to continue. It was getting late, but neither of you want to stop, so you wrapped the blanket around the both of you and leaned your head on his shoulder as you two continue watching Madoka.

"As long as you protect the one you want, to protect them to the very end is enough."

Why? They're just little girls, right? If that's the case why did they understand life that much as if they've been living for a really long time? Dazai didn't want to admit it, but he feels as if he is going to cry. Their words lingered in his head, reminding him of his past, those were the days that he wanted to forget for good. After Oda died, he went to Lupin almost everyday like a basis, drink until he's drop and then went back to his empty apartment, passed out on his bed before waking up middle of the night because of nightmares.

The tenth episode, which explain pretty much everything about Homura strikes both of them. That part when Homura fell into despair and began to imagine when she and Madoka became Witches, just right after when they battled Walpurgis Night.

"Hey.. How about the two of us become monsters like that, and ruin the entire world."

"Taking bad things, sad things, and wiping all of it clean."

"Destroy. Destroy. Destroy without end. Don't you think that's good too?"

She was desperate to the point that she had thought about becoming a Witch wouldn't be that bad. She can keep on destroying things, no matter it's good things, bad things, sad things, or happy things. Why did it have to become like this? They were so young and pure and filled with hope and dreams.. Just like him. At least before he tried committing suicide.

"I promise!"

"I'll definitely save you!"

"No matter how many times I go back! I'll always protect you!"

It risen a thought in his head, he wondered that if he was gifted with time-manipulation power, would he choosen the path like Homura did to save Odasaku? No matter how many times he have to go back, and probably see him die. Would he still be able to feel anything? Or would he became numb and eventually give in to the despair? No, the real question is, will he be strong enough to choose that path. Homura may looks fragile and weak, even a bit timid, but she was the strongest one. Normal people wouldn't be themselves after seeing their important person dies right in front of their eyes without being able to do anything once, left alone times after times.

"I don't want to be a Witch."

"Although I've seen terrible and bad things, there are still many things I want to protect in this world."

Strangely, this reminds him of his deceased friend. He was always the one looking on the bright side of the problem. Why did he have to die? He was in the Mafia, yet he refused to kill anyone. But everything changes when Mimic came. Because of them, Mori thought of a way to use him like a pawn to get the license, and ended up dragging the innocents in. He couldn't forget how he looks when the owner of the diner dies along with his adopted children. If it wasn't for him that founded out about Ango, then things probably wouldn't go this way, and Oda would still be alive by now.

"Madoka. If someone came to tempt you with miracles, never be manipulated by them!"

"There's no one to rely on anymore."

"There's no need for anyone to understand."

This.. Feels so familiar. He didn't need anyone to understand the circumstances he was going through. He can't rely on anyone as well. How can he possibly tell them? Would they understand anyway? So there's no need to do such a thing. It'll only be a waste of time.

"Return."

"No matter how many times, I will always choose to return. Repeating the same period of time over and over again, searching for the only exit. For you.. A path out of the destiny of despair."

Will there be a timeline, or a world out there where Oda is still alive, and was able to achieved his dream to become a writer and have his novel published? All of the sudden, he wanted to become a little girl and find that Incubator creature, so he can form a contract with him just to see his friend once again. To see him living the life he had always been wanting. A Mafia non-related life, staying in a house with his room that can see the sea clearly, even in days with bad weathers, writing novels, maybe having one or a few cats. But..

"Why does she fight and risk everything?"

"Because she's still pursuing hope."

"No matter how many times, she refuse to quit; therefore repeating this meaningless and endless cycle."

"To her, stopping is equivalent to giving up."

"As long as she believes there's still hope, she can't be saved?"

After the series ended, you two had a short break before continue with the third movie, Rebellion. You simply said that it was the best thing that ever happened in this entire series to Homura. Was that she finally reached Madoka and get to see her again? He can't know.

At the beginning, it makes Dazai wondered was this an alternative universe where they can all live happily. But things aren't that simple, when Homura's journey to find the truth begun. When she regained her memories about Witches, their barriers and her previous battle against them, even about Madoka becoming a God to save every magical girls and she, along with Tatsuya, are the only ones whose memories of Madoka remained.

Her battle with Mami reminds him of when Oda and Gide fought. No magic, no abilities, just pure skills and weapon. But in the end, Mami still have the upper hand. The way she used her ribbons to tie Homura reminds him of the third episode in the series, when she was about to go against Charlotte, Homura did offer to help her, since Mami was lack the experiences and aren't strong enough to deal with such a strong Witch. She ended up losing her head.

"Would you really be okay destroying this Mitakihara City? You should think hard on that before you decide. So you won't have any regrets."

That was what Sayaka asked her. Since she had became a Witch, she would know how it feels like when the despair swallow you whole, filled your veins and become the blood that flows inside your body. Regrets. Pain. Desperate. It feels like your body became the vessel for every single negative emotions out there.

"It really hurts me to see you suffering so much and being unable to do anything about it."

"You see, I had a really scary dream."

"In it, you had gone to a place so far away that I had no chance of seeing you again. And everyone else in the world forgot all about you. Only I could remember you in the whole wide world!"

"I was so lonely and sad. But no one could understand how I felt. Surrounded by that, I started thinking my memories of you were things I'd made up. And I began doubting myself."

It reminds him of when Oda died, almost no one remember or know who he is. To the outsiders, he's just an unknown man. To the members of the Mafia, he's just a low-level member that they don't need to care about. But to him, and maybe Ango too, he was a friend. An important friend who enlightened their paths and their souls. He was luckier, that he didn't doubt himself, because there was something that proves Oda really exist is always with him. The photo they took together for the last time in Lupin, just a day before the storm.

"But you see, I became a magical girl solely to save Madoka. And that holds truth until now."

"So this is a Witch. My emotions have all come back to haunt me."

"I can't remember anything but glimmers of light and regret."

"Ah.. So this is my despair."

He cried. Dazai cried for the first time watching it. He didn't notice tears were rolling down his cheeks until you pulled him in your arms, holding him tight, pecking his forehead and caress his cheeks in the gentlest way possible. You said that it's okay to cry and let it out like this. You wanted to show him this because Homura reminds you of him in many ways. He needn't to ask for the reason, since he had witnessed it already.

"Despite her appearance, she's the most hurt."

You told Dazai that, the first time you saw him, you didn't think he'd be broken this badly. The truth that everyone thinks that way. He seems to be a happy-go-lucky guy and knows how to irritated serious people, lazy and likes to play around. But inside, he suffered from many things. Ghosts of the past that reminds him of the days in the Mafia, his shadow which guilt-trip him over every single small things happened, his anxiety that caused him to fear for failure therefore he has to think of every single possible that can or may happen to deal with them. Yet people think he is the genius, back when he was in the Mafia, he was called "The Demon Prodigy" because all of his plans worked. But they know nothing about him and what he is suffering from.

"I have to die in this world."

Yes. He has to die. That's what he has been thinking ever since a long, long time before. He had countless suicide attempts, yet none of them succeed. They all failed. Why is that he can't die? Why is that the world is trying to prevent him from dying to atone for his sins?

"I had a sickening dream. A dream where you were dead."

"Because I actually do have one regret. The fact that I left you behind."

He cried again, did Odasaku has any regrets when he died? If he had, then what would it be? You turned to him, whispering that he wouldn't want you to die and his regrets probably was that he left him behind all alone back then.

"That's no good, Homura."

"I told you that you shouldn't go off by yourself."

"No matter what happens, you'll always be you, Homura. And I would never abandon you. So don't give up."

"I'm sorry.. I'm so spineless.. I wanted to see you one more time.. And if I had to go so far as to betray that wish.."

"That's right, I knew I could shoulder any sin. No matter what I became, I knew I'd be fine with it. As long as I could have you by my side."

This.. He only wanted to see his friend again.. But it's impossible. He almost screamed due to his emotional burst out.

"Why did such a good person have to die? Why didn't I the one who dies instead?"

You simply pat his head, pulling him closer and embraced him tightly.

"It's alright. I'll always be here for you. No matter what happens, you'll always be you, and I would never abandon you or stop loving you. I love you, Dazai. So please, don't let the ghosts from the past get to you.. No. I won't let them get to you. I swear that I, (y/n) will bring you happiness with my own hands! Even if I have to turn myself into a mere concept, I will still take all those despair from you, I will be your only God that brings happiness."

He was stunned. There hasn't been a single person who has said something like that to him. He was touched. Even though you two have been dating for quite a while already but he had never heard such a bold decision from you. Immediately, Dazai pulled you into a tight hug, his face buried in your neck.

"Thank you, (y/n).. I couldn't imagine how I'd become or what I'd become if you didn't come into my life. You don't have to go that far just to make me happy, all you have to do is stay by my side, that's more than enough already."

You kissed him before getting back on the ending of Rebellion. You knew what was coming, and you're sure Dazai would be surprise by it.

"It was not even curse that soiled my Soul Gem."

"It's the pinnacle of all human emotions. More passionate than hope, far deeper than despair. It's love."

"She was as sacred as a god, and I couldn't help but pull her from heaven and undermine her."

"A being that perform such threat could only be called a demon, I suppose?"

He smirked, paused the movie before turned to you, who was dumbfounded of what just happened.

"(Y/n), did you just say that you'll be my God?"

"Yes..? What's wrong with that, Dazai?"

"Oh, there is. Because I'm a demon that couldn't help but pull you down from heaven and make you mine, forever."

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To be continued...?

[millepara]

himitsu no aipri episode 2 (from last week but didn't have the mental capacity to spellcheck until now)

I was awake for 22 hours on saturday so I just slept right through this ep with no hesitation...

op thoughts this time: do you think Himari, Mitsuki, Chii, and mystery aipri are going to form a 4-person unit to mirror the student council? (update: I have seen the mystery aipri spoiler info since writing this and yeah. looks like a 3-person unit is way more likely.) Chii seems like she's just the joke/worldbuilding-infodump character so I keep catching myself thinking they won't give her much screen time or let her perform in cgi, but there's not really anything to support that. and in the op, it shows all 4 "together" (well, mystery aipri is in the phone but) so it could be foreshadowing...?

Sakura is cool. I'm having a hard time separating Bear and Rosession's personalities from each other, but I think I do like Sakura at least.

the last ep had me believing that Himari knew Mii-chan was Mitsuki.... what's going on here it's like her memory was wiped between episodes

so much brother content in this ep. why are they on the verge of being more fleshed out than the main characters

wow, I saw it in the ep preview but I'm still surprised that Chii squeezed a performance in here, even if it was only for one single second. so is she actually only there to be the rival...?

Mitsuki's stage is so pretty, I love the water and moon and stars and neon all together. her song is fine? I like it more than P.O.P.P.Y at least.

they said in the beginning of the ep that the buzzalume change is caused by the audience's reaction, but mystery aipri's line here implies she has the final say in whether they can do it or not? she does seem to be part of 'the system' or whatever given her triangle eyes, so I guess those don't have to be two mutually exclusive facts, if they're both true.

oh my god!! I didn't expect Himari to solve her problems through violence. it's so funny that she forcibly took a secret charm from Mitsuki... easily the most exciting moment in all of aipri so far. and the only one that was like... not totally predictable...? I'm sorry I can't think of a less rude way to say it :( overall, I am enjoying the show enough to keep watching it. even if it stays at this exact amount of depth/complexity, mindless cuteness is enough to carry a show for me sometimes. when I'm watching a pretty series show is one of those times. there's nothing about it that I'd even deem actively bad, it's just... not on the level of every other priseries show up till now. but it could still change!!

can't care about the plot of next week's ep, but I'm looking forward to meeting new characters. please be interesting...

[drawing-way-outside-the-lines]

➖ Mature content, 18+ ➖ check the trigger tags each time ➖

Chapter 44c - Late Night Dinner.

Episode 1.

--- Another weird time skip, cause somewhere someday some shit got jumbled up, I apologize, this should be the last one in wrong order --- It was a couple hours later when Malou and Dalton was finally alone again

Dalton: He chuckled lightly as he closed the door after saying goodbye to his parents I'm sorry, they kept on talking!

Malou: She chuckled softly It's fine, I like them… beside they just miss you, be patient with them.

Dalton: I know he sighed soft I gotta be a bit better at balancing work and freetime.

Malou: A bit she chuckled

Dalton: He took a step towards her, smiling bright as he was just about to wrap his arms around her and lean in for a well anticipated kiss, when suddenly his phone rang Sorry he smiled apologizing and quickly picked up

Malou: She nodded softly and walked to the coffee table, starting to gather the leftover breakfast food, well knowing it would most likely be work related, and could take some time, or… perhaps even result in Dalton heading out.

Dalton: Sorry, that was work he said as he slipped the phone back in his pants not more than 30 seconds later I uh… gotta go! He smiled apologizing It might take all day as well… I hate to leave you with dishes and I wanted to talk about last night…

Malou: She smiled softly from seeing how nervous it made him, and how guilty he was feeling Dalton… it's okay

Dalton: Are you sure? Maybe we can talk later I'll try to be home for dinner, would that be okay?

Malou: She chuckled softly, finding him both cute and endearing How about I make late dinner? Around 9? and then we'll see if you make it? No pressure…

Dalton: He smiled bright and happy, it was nice for a change not to get yelled at for being a workaholic, yet it still made him feel slightly guilty, since Malou was being so nice about it Are you sure that's not too late for you to-

Malou: Dalton! he chuckled lightly get out of here!

Dalton: He chuckled amused You're kicking me out of my own house now?

Malou: Was I not clear? she smirked at him

Dalton: He laughed warmly and quickly left out the front door

Malou: She chuckled lightly and shook her head A kiss would have been nice though, but okay.

In a basement a bit across the road

❌Short sex scene START - readers must be 18+❌ ❌ (To skip sex scene, scroll till next marking) ❌

Kris: His moans had grown deeper and more pleasure filled after Andy had finally allowed himself to add a bit of speed and rhythm behind his movements, the two of them still lost in making out, Kris's fingers gently stroking the back of Andy's neck here and there

Andy: His own moans were softer, lighter, still trying to stay grounded and keep it calm and gentle

Kriss: He absolutely loved every sensation Andy was creating in his body, and a thought crossed his mind, that if getting nearly run over by a car, leads to THIS much pleasure, then maybe he should walk around like a zombie on the road more often!

Andy: After few minutes he picked up a bit more rhythm and more of a gentle thrust to his movements. Kris was definitely more than slippery now, still very tight, but there were more room and stretch now, granting Andy more freedom to move without hurting him again

Kris: Oh gawd yeah!!! he felt overwhelmed with desire and pleasure as he felt the new, stronger movement inside him, Andy's dick now gliding more demanding, and he wrapped his legs around Andy's waist, clinging onto him, feeling waves of heat and passion rush over him, drowning him in a sea of rapid moans, till he came with a loud moan

Andy: He moaned surprised as he heard Kris cum, and automatically upped the speed of his movement

Kris: YeSss!!! OH GAWD yesSS!!! his loud moans kept flying from his lips, one after another, more and more, wavy orgasms lingering in his body, rolling between waves of heath, sweat running down his temples Mmmmmoooooore!!!

Andy: He groaned soft and tried his best to hold back

Kris: Mmmmmoooooooooooooooooooooooreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee he came again with a loud roar, gasping for air as his voice broke

Andy: Oh fuck!!! he moaned deep and built up more speed and thrust behind his movements, barely able to hold back any longer, loving how Kris by now was taking it, and completely losing himself in the pleasure

Kris: Fuuuuuuuuck yeahhhhhh!!!! Fuck me Andyyyyy!!!!!!! he let out a loud almost whimpering moan fuck meeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

Andy: He groaned deep and let go, fucking Kris, no mercy, pounding in and out of him wanting to give him more than enough dick!

Kris: OH YeAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He came again with a near scream of pleasure, soaked in his own cum as his legs and arms fell heavy down on the couch, completely drained and finished, barely able to think as his body fell completely limp

Andy: Aaaahhh!!! he only started fucking him harder after his complete collapse, pounding in and out of him hard and fast, feeling Kris's legs flop around, only arousing him further, and then he came with a deep satisfied moan, slowly calming down his speed, till he finally came to a stop, allowing himself to fall down on Kris, panting for air.

❌Short sex scene END - Readers must be 18+❌ ❌ (Congrats, you successfully skipped sex)❌ Andy: It was a few minutes later when his own breathing had calmed down, he noticed Kris's breathing had turned quite heavy Kris? he lifted himself up in stretched arms, observing the guy beneath him…. he had fallen asleep. He chuckled hoarsely and gently rolled off Kris, not to wake him up, amused that he seemed to have finally found both things he needed so desperately. He sat up in the couch and grabbed his cigs, casually smoking about half, till he started stroking his still half boner. He wasn't ready to sleep yet himself, so he got off the couch and walked to the bathroom, peed and placed his phone on the counter, finding a good porn to watch, while he leaned over the counter and started fucking himself with a dildo. It quickly turned into two hours of watching porn in the bathroom, till he finally gave up on finishing, too exhausted to keep trying, figuring the lack of sleep wasn't going to grand him a final relief. So he washed his face and silently made it through his room, to climb upstairs, in order to go ask Evan for help. But just as he was about to climb the ladder, Kris stirred a bit

Kris: Mmmh…Andy?

Andy: Yeah he smiled soft at Kris

Kris: Are you leaving he sat up slow, rubbing his eyes a bit

Andy: No he quickly let go of the ladder well I was…. uh… he chuckled lightly I uh… I was just going to head upstairs for a moment cause I'm still horny as fuck he chuckled hoarse and I can't seem to get off on my own, cause I'm fucking wasted by now he blinked his tired eyes a few times, they were stingy by now I thought I could get a quick fuck, then come back down here and crash on one of the other couches.

Kris: …. you're still horny?

Andy: I wasn't kidding when I said sex addict he chuckled hoarsely

Kris: …… he chuckled soft come over here

Andy: No I uh…. I need to receive this time, that's the only way to get release when I'm THIS horny…

Kris: …. he patted a hand on the surface of the couch Come..

Andy: But you're tired and sleeping…

Kris: Not sleeping at the moment… and I got a bit of energy…. you helped me… let me help you…. please

Andy: He hesitated a moment, but there were no denying he definitely wanted more Kris now that the offer was on the table. So he sighed soft and walked closer to Kris, stopping right in front of him You don't have to, I have 2 husbands upstairs and a friend…

Kris: He nodded soft Okay… but… he leaned forwards, slowly pulling Andy's boxers down, a tiny smile raising the corner of his mouth, as Andy's hard dick bounced out, leaning forwards, and without hesitation swallowed a large part of it with a soft moan

Andy: He groaned softly and closed his eyes, arching his head backwards, by reflex pushing his hips back and forwards, slow fucking Kris's mouth

Kris: He gasped surprised and dragged his head away

Andy: He looked down at him with startled eyes I'm sorry, I didn't mean to…

Kris: He shook his head lightly.. that was fucking hot!

Andy: He chuckled surprised really?

Kris: Mmhh he nodded eagerly and slipped a hand inside his sweatpants, dragging out his now own hard dick, stroking it a few times I've always…. he chuckled shyly wanted uhm… to try… uh…. please don't judge…

Andy: Hey he grabbed Kris's chin, lifting his head lightly Nothing is a taboo for me when it comes to sex… I mean it… Try me….

Kris: …. uhm…. uh…… throat fucking…. to get throat fucked… and I guess also to do it? But mostly to get it done?

Andy: He bit his bottom lip and shook his head lightly You're something special Kris he chuckled hoarsely a real fucking boner magnet for sure!

Kris: He burst out a soft and shy chuckle

Andy: Mmmmhh he gently stroke Kris's chin so… throat fucking… yeah?

Kris: He nodded slow, feeling aroused by the anticipation please…

Andy: …. verbal or none verbal?

Kris: …… don't hold back.

About an hour later, they laid panting side by side on the couch, Andy with his arm around Kris's shoulder, sharing a cigarette after a quick shower, both completely satisfied and emptied.

Kris: And when you say addict and alcoholic… you're not kidding either?

Andy: Nope he blew a cloud of smoke towards the ceiling and handed the cig to Kris

Kris: …. he took a drag of the cig recovering or still active?

Andy: He shrugged lightly depends on the day.

Kris: He nodded lightly and blew smoke out as he spoke again And the scars on your wrists and arm…. are you recovered from that?

Andy: He nodded soft I'd like to think so? My perspective on life changed when I became a dad… well it already did when I married my two best friends, but specially after I got kids… I wouldn't wanna leave them… ever.

Kris: How many kids do you have?

Andy: He chuckled softly so many I some days forget.

Kris: … he turned his head and looked at Andy with a curious lifted eyebrow

Andy: ….. 7

Kris: He coughed a bit on the cig all adopted or biologically yours?

Andy: Biologically mine.

Kris: His eyes got wide and he nodded in slowmotion, taking another drag as he tried to process the information, then handed the cig to Andy How old are they? I mean… you're around my age right?

Andy: I suppose?…. how old are you?

Kris: 37.

Andy: Me too he chuckled soft and took a drag ….. can we not get into their age and such today? I think we've already had enough surprises and things to process in one day?

Kris: ……. looking at Andy confused

Andy: He chuckled hoarsely If you can trust me with sex, you can trust me with this one as well… it's a conversation better saved for another day….

Kris: He squinted his eyes and sat up slowly Another day?…. that would indicate we'll see each other again?

Andy: Yeah? he took a last drag of the cig, sitting up to kill it in the ashtray I mean, if you want? I just assumed we are on friendly terms now… or…?

Kris: He nodded agreeing right… but if you wanna be on friendly terms, and you want me to trust you… shouldn't you also put some trust in me then?

Andy: …….. fair enough he chuckled hoarsely, but then took a deep breath It's just… kinda a family secret sorta situation… I mean… not that you aren't allowed to know at all, but we don't run around yapping it to

Kris: People after you run them over?

Andy: He snorted amused, then got distracted as suddenly he heard his door upstairs slam, looking at the ladder

Willow: Yelling from upstairs DA-AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD?!?! Are you down there you whore!?! I'm coming down!!! Get decent… ish!!!

Andy: He closed his eyes and shook his head Or you get to meet my daughter now instead

Kris: He looked startled at the ladder, quickly slipping his by now fully naked body under the blanket I'm still in the closet, Andy!!!

Andy: Willow! Hang on a minute!!!

Willow: I'm coming down slutster!! Suddenly a pair of heels stuck through the hole in the ceiling, connecting with a step on the ladder

Andy: He shook his head as he looked at Kris I'm sorry, she's cool, and she wont tell anyone, I promise.

Willow: She jumped the last few steps down, landing on the floor, spotting the stash of snacks on the table Yumm!!! She quickly walked towards the table and grabbed a bowl of peanuts shoving a handful in her mouth, crunching them as she spoke again Sup, bitches?! Where was my invitation?!

Kris: Bluescreen

Andy: He sighed heavily Willow, Kris…Kris, Willow.

Willow: She nodded casually and shoved another handful peanuts in her mouth So I take it your new lover boy doesn't yet know about your adult kids and supernatural shit and such

Andy: He stuck a fist in his mouth biting it hard not to scream at her

Willow: She grinned wide, still munching on the peanuts

Andy: for the love of gawd!!! FIX THIS!!! he hissed lightly

Willow: She snorted lightly and put the bowl back down, drying her hands in her jeans what you want me to do dad? Wipe his memory clean?!

Kris: You what?! He suddenly turned his head to look directly at Willow

Willow: Twas a joke… relax… I have no such abilities… this on the other hand… she took a deep breath and suddenly one of her arms turned into a large white and beige wing Cool right?

Kris: He jumped up the couch and stumbled backwards, landing with a bump on the floor

Andy: WILLOW!!!! I swear to gawd!!! He jumped up, rushing towards Kris

Kris: He stumbled to get on his feet, looking at Willow in disbelief

Willow: She shook the wing and it slowly turned back to her regular human arm Dad, what do you want me to do here? He's gonna know eventually anyway, you already have that totally smitten look on your face, and frankly so does he.

Andy: He shook his head lightly Shut up!!!

Willow: Alright, okay, maybe I'm exaggerating a bit, but only cause I know ya… look at him, he's fucking gorgeous!

Kris: Scratching the back of his neck nervously, then remembering he was still naked, quickly grabbing a pillow to cover his junk with

Willow: I didn't catch your name?

Kris: Kris

Willow: Kris, don't spoil the fun now, I've already seen your dick… nice btw she wiggled her eyebrows

Kris: He chuckled awkwardly and quickly walked to the couch grabbing the sweatpants from the floor, hesitating a bit, then dared to look a bit closer at her What… are you?

Willow: Shrug Technically I'm human just like you… but supernatural… yes, it's a real thing, not just a movie thing.

Kris: …..

Willow: There's different kinds… yes vampires and werewolves too.. yaaaawn! she chuckled lightly and grabbed a handful of chocolate buttons, nomming a couple down I'm what's classified as a summoner… I'm a human with the ability to merge with animals. If I share a close bond with an animal, it will eventually allow me to merge with it, which means I can summon it to me, it will disappear into my body and live there as a dormant soul, till I summon it's abilities or set it free.

Kris: His jaw dropped

Andy: Soft whimper Willow, please!

Willow: She shrugged lightly I'm saving you the trouble…

Andy: Kris? he looked at Kris with concerned eyes

Kris: He sat down on the couch, starring blank at the table I need a moment.

After a moment that turned to a couple beers and a lot of questions, Kris had curled up on the couch, and dozed off. And it wasn't till mid evening Andy finally woke up.

Andy: He moaned soft and stretched as he opened his eyes, looking at the couch next to him, it was empty. He sat up fast, looking around the room, but there were no sign of Kris GODDAMMIT WILLOW!!! he yelled loudly and slapped an empty beer can off the table

Kris: I'm out here he suddenly spoke a bit careful from the next door room

Andy: He turned his head and noticed Kris sitting by the pool, his feet into the water Oh? He slowly stood up and walked to Kris, stopping next to him, observing him for a moment, then he sat down next to him with a soft sigh How are you doing?

Kris: Oddly good under the circumstances I suppose? He sighed deep and looked at his phone laying next to him It bothers me more that not a single soul has called me to ask if I'm okay… than finding out about your "family secret".

Andy: He squeezed his lips together in an awkward smile Kris… he sighed a bit and stuck his own feet into the water, swishing them forwards and backwards a bit, playing with the water before he spoke again, in a lowered, hesitating, yet warm voice Feel free to stop me if I'm out of line… but why don't you find another place? It doesn't seem like you are appreciated at all, and I know there's circumstances-

Kris: Andy, I can't afford it, I literally have absolutely no money he frowned uncomfortably I have no savings, nothing in the bank, no job, no family or friends to crash with for a while, and even if I were able to get a "real job" and be able to afford something small… I'm not good at living alone… I never was…. beside… with my mental health going up and down…. mostly down… I can't see myself holding a 9-5 job. So as much as I fucking hate my situation, I don't see many realistic chances to change it either. He sighed deep and heavy I'm nobody, and I have nobody…. just wanna be anybody…. so I could find somebody.

Andy: He contemplated his next question for a moment, before he asked in a further lowered voice ….. are you here because you want to…. or out of lack of somewhere better to go?

Kris: …. both he sighed soft

Andy: He nodded gently how about finding someplace with a roomie or a couple roomies?

Kris: …. yeah, cause it turned out so well this time he snorted lightly I'm not really a people person.

Andy: You seem rather friendly and approachable to me he chuckled hoarsely when he thought about how he had rammed his dick down Kris's throat not many hours ago!

Kris: …. apparently so did he, judging by the light blush suddenly creeping over his nose Yeah… well… I don't know? You're the approachable one… he shrugged lightly I feel less awkward and anxious around you, than I do with most people.

Andy: He smiled soft and somewhat relieved… it had been hard to figure Kris out so far, it had been very up and down emotionally, so it was difficult to figure if Kris actually liked his company, or if he had felt it necessary to escape for a while, even if it was with someone less desirable. Hey… how about you at least stay a day or two, and we get something to eat?

Kris: He sighed soft And your partners… you're sure they are alright with a stranger crashing their basement?

Andy: First of all… it's MY basement he chuckled hoarsely secondly… how about I go grab some food and make the arrangements? I'm sure they are more than okay with it, or I wouldn't offer in the first place.

Kris: He nodded lightly

Andy: We don't have to stick on each other, I can stay upstairs if you want privacy for a while…

Kris: …. he starred at the water surface for a moment, then answered not removing his eyes what I want has nothing to do with privacy and then he silently let himself slide off the edge of the pool, plopping into the water

Andy: He chuckled hoarse and surprised as he watched his now soaked hoodie on the sinking Kris So you get wet a lot he mumbled to himself with a cheeky smirk ….. right… when in Rome! and he quickly head dived into the pool

[chicoriii]

Season 4, Episode 20 - Qilin

It's been quite some time after premiere of Qilin and Penalteam, but as I've said before, I was waiting for the French premiere of last four episodes of season 4, since I completely dislike the English dub and I prefer to avoid watching this show in that language if I can. I started with Qilin, though Penalteam was aired a week earlier in France. I was planning to wait for Qilin release anyway, but since the war in Ukraine started, following the content about it and related to it takes quite much of my time everyday, sometimes more, sometimes less (though mostly I watch or rather listen to YouTube videos during doing something else). In few first days I was unable to concentrate on watching the show anyway. The war is in my neighbouring country and it also affects my own one a lot. Remember that Ukrainians are fighting not only for independence of their country, they are fighting for the Europe and the whole world. Poland isn't as safe as we all thought before, despite we're in both NATO and EU unlike Ukraine. Putin must be stopped for the safety of all us.

I don't know French, but I have one simple trick to get subtitles to watch the remaining episodes in language of my choice. I just rip the subtitle files from the Hulu releases. They including the American scripts of course, so they're are not ideal, but that's better than nothing. Besides Hulu is using different frame rate (23.976 fps) than other releases like Disney+ or TFOU's service (25 fps). Simple changing frame rates of subtitles isn't working ideal, I still need to manually shift time while watching, but that's not a big problem. I'm still glad that I found a solution, so I'm not forced to watch the dub that annoys me. ;)

Unfortunately, there was a problem with the French video of Qilin I got that's ripped from the TFOU's service. For some reasons there are few minutes missing, two fragments got cut. I noticed it thanks to the subtitles, since at some point text stopped to correspond to the video. Still it took some time to figure out why. I suppose something went wrong during uploading the video on the site. One of the early S4 episodes also got corrupted there. So well, since I hadno other choice than watching these missing minutes in English, I can say I don't change my opinion, I still think that the American dub is so awful, soulless and so generic. Only Shadow Moth voice was okay to me. Sorry.

And you know what? I have no idea what to say about this episode, so this post should be one of the shortest and the weakest one I have written about season 4. The first part of it was quite nice, but the second one when the ticket drama started was way too absurd to me. I hate when the plot of this show is that stupidly exaggerated. It reminded me Mega Leech that's one of the worst S4 episodes in my opinion for its absurd plot that felt more like a episode of Peppa Pig or another show for preschoolers than targeted for older kids.

It was really nice to see Sabine's everyday routine and all. That she is better organised than Marinette, but also we've seen what Marinette has from her mother. That was unexpected that Sabine is interested at art like her (though totally different type). I'm also surprised that she has a job outside of working at the bakery. If I got a chance I would be interested at getting some Chinese painting classes as well. It was also surprising to see Lila there, it seems that's her biggest this season till now (remember that I haven't seen Penalteam nor Risk yet, maybe she got any speaking role in any of them, I don't know yet). I don't think it's going to be significant for the plot, but I very like the fact we've seen that Lila has life outside of being a bad girl, there's something that interests her in positive way.

But there's one thing that bothers me. Sabine has been portrayed totally one-dimensional. She's another way too much idealised character, too noble, she is also too ideal mother. She hadn't done anything even a little wrong in the entire episode. I don't like characters without a weak points, they are so boring. So yeah, Sabine is a good mother, but she's not a type of character I can care about much.

Despite that I thought it's going to be a decent episode until that ticket accident happened. I don't want to comment how stupid it was that they started to treat Sabine like a terrorist just because she had no ticket or a wallet with her for a moment. Besides the akuma battle could in my top 5 the worst this season and I don't want to waste my time to write anything about that as well. So unfortunately, the whole second half of the episode was much worse than the first one. Not nearly as bad to me as some of other this season's episodes, just stupidly absurd (that happens from time to time in all seasons) and boring. Not to mention this is another episode without Adrien (as civilian) and Plagg at all, and since I lost most of my sympathy for Marinette throughout S4, this episode has not much to offer for me generally.

I wonder if was that said before that Chat Noir's umbrella is a magical weapon? I don't remember that. It looks like one, since it seems to be completely indestructible. I remember that umbrella appeared once only to protect against rain (but I have no idea in which episode, since I don't rewatch any since Hack-san). I thought it was just a one-time thing to make another reference to the famous umbrella scene. If it's a new Chat's skill, why wasn't it properly introduced? Geez, that's another thing this season that appeared out of nowhere without explaining how. It makes this season feels incomplete like we're missing something.

Also I have a feeling it was the ugliest episode this season. Looking at the picture below just hurts (pay attention at Marinette's eyes and the shading). Although generally I think the animation quality of S4 is better than seasons 2 and 3, not a lot, but still. And at least I like Qilin design and especially her color scheme.

In France the whole season finale is going to be aired this weekend, at 13rd March, so thankfully just one day after the international premiere of Strike Back. I would prefer to see both episodes as fast as possible because I'm worried about spoilers (I've already accidentaly seen something big in my mobile's Google feed and I hate that, I'm not saying what in this post, because it could be read by someone who tries to avoid spoilers like me, I can't be sure if it's a spoiler for any of the finale's episode, but it should be). And mostly because I still read Miraculous fanfics and I'm sure that after premiere of Strike Back there are going to be post-S4 fics with spoilers in the tags and/or summary without warning on AO3. That always happen after premiere of big episodes those bring a lot of emotion in the fandom. I plan to stop scrolling through AO3 to search for any interesting fic after premiere of Strike Back in the USA until I see the finale, but I don't want that to take too long. But definitely I'm not going to watch both episodes in one day and I plan to write two separate posts, because since it's the finale, I expect that I'm gonna to have many things to say about both of them. It would most probably take too much time to do it in one day, knowing my writing speed which is rather slow, especially not in my native language (I don't mean typing speed, that's not too bad when using computer keyboard, but thinking what to write and how to create sentences is another story), and I always takes breaks. Because of that I hope I will be able to watch Penalteam before Sunday, maybe even tomorrow. I've also seen spoilers from this episode, including its final card which is extremely spoilery. :/ At least I know that should be more interesting than Qilin and more plot focused, so I feel I'm a bit more willing to watch it soon.

[lovespelt]

SIENTJKRV OK SO—

BKDK HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON AU

BUT INSTEAD OF HICCUP AND ASTRID AS IZUKU AND KATSUKI.

KATSUKI IS STOICK AND IZUKU IS VALKA.

I JUST IMAGINE THAT ONE SCENE FROM THE MOVIE—

Katsuki cupped Izuku's cheeks, looking at him with a soft, fond, awe-loving stare that Izuku wasn't familiar with— and whispered. "You are still as beautiful as the day that I've lost you.."

AND THE PLOT WOULD BE ALL LIKE, IZUKU GOT TAKEN BY THE DRAGONS SINCE HE WAS A LITTLE BOY WHILE PLAYING WITH KATSUKI.

AND KATSUKI SWORN TO AVENGE HIS (first Love's) CHILDHOOD FRIEND'S LIFE AND TRAINED TO BE NEXT IN BEING THE CHIEF BCZ IZUKU "DIED".

INKO AND YAGI MADE HIM THE NEXT CHIEF BCZ THEY KNEW THAT WAS WHAT IZUKU WOULD'VE WANTED.

AND THEY DIDN'T KNOW THAT IZUKU WAS ALIVE AND WAS LIVING AND LEARNING ABOUT DRAGONS.

He was 13 when he was taken, Katsuki and Izuku would still be friends while growing up bcz they don't have quirks here, even tho Izuku is weak, Katsuki still tries to protect him, Katsuki is still friends with Izuku bcz he didn't get much praise from his peers like the canon.

But it really messed up his head when Izuku got taken and that was the start of his hot headedness.

Idekrnrkkdk ERI AS HICCUP??? KOUTA AS ASTRID!!!

Eri was born with a horn shaped lump on her head after Katsuki became Chief (he's like,, 22 now)

But she wasn't his biological child, she was actually at another island, her father—chisaki, didn't like her appearance and he tried dropping her on a cliff.

But at this time, Izuku finally bulked up a bit and is living and familiar with dragons after 9 years and he learned everything about them and learned how to fly with them too and when he saw this man dropping a child from a cliff, he swooped in and saved Eri from the fall, the bottom was foggy so Chisaki couldn't see but he thought Eri was already dead so he walked off, not realizing there was a big ass dragon opening it's mouth to shoot fire into his whole body lmao

After that, Izuku tried raising Eri for a year with the dragons and realized that this isn't a suitable place to raise a child well and he was heartbroken by this realization and decided to maybe, give her near a village.

Perfect timing that Katsuki was out hunting in a nearby woods when Izuku was flying his dragon to go to the nearest village but then he saw this tall strong blond male hunting, he seemed to target a big deer but then he stopped when he saw two baby calves nearby and cursed out loud, making the deers run away.

And Izuku thought he was a perfect parent and all that without realizing that it was Katsuki.

So he left Eri (he hugged her tight one last time— his little snow) within Katsuki's sight and looked behind a tree. Ofc Katsuki saw the child and was like "it's parent's must've left it here to die bcz of the strange looking bump on it's forhead." And angrily took her back to his village, Izuku sighed in relief, knowing that the person that took her was a nice morale one.

And he left.

And Katsuki is all like, I'm just keeping you around till I find you a good enough family and one day Eri is all like Papa to Katsuki and Katsuki is all like Fuck shit looks like I'm a father now. And adopts Eri officially. And Katsuki mellows out again.

Eri didn't know why she had a fascination for dragons and wanting to learn about them and decided to use a journal and Katsuki was anxious (scared—) bcz his little girl acted just like Izuku, he still had Izuku's journals somewhere safe bcz he's a secret sentimental bastard and all that.

People loved Eri and shit but they were worried that there was gonna be another Izuku incident bcz of it and yada yada yada.

Gobber is Kirishima.

Tuffnut and Tuffnut as Katsuma and Mahoro.

Fishlegs as one of Tsu's little brother.

And Snotlout as that spoiled kid from the "I wanna see your cute face. Ft. Todoroki and bakugou" Episode.

Kouta is definitely Astrid.

And Eri kissed his cheeks Instead and bla bla bla.

So after most of the movie plot and Katsuki just accepted that Kouta is gonna be part of their weekend dinners from now on and the dragons when his daughter had almost died bcz of him.

They met Izuku again.

Eri learned how to do the flaming sword, she's like, 16 now. (And Izuku is like, 39 at this point but let's just make him look like he's in his mid twenties)

And Izuku revealed his face to her and was all like, "Eri..?" And Eri was all like "How did you know my name???" (And Izuku low-key blushed coz that was the name he wanted for his child to have when kacchan asked. He still didn't know that it WAS Katsuki is her dad tho.) He slowly removed his mask and kneeled to cup Eri's face and was all like "I could never forget you my little snow."

And it all clicked from there. Where she got her fondness for dragons, her little drawings of green bunnies (bcz of Izuku's mask HAHA) , her crybabyness, and her Notebooks.

She kind of adapted his traits shen she was 2 and she kind of connected some dots after she remembered her dad saying that she acted like her first love alot.

And she asked him. "...Are you Deku?"

Ofc this surprised Izuku and he was like "how did you know that name??" And she was all like "My dad talks about his first love to me because the way I acted reminded him, my dad is Chief Bakugou Katsuki from birth." And Izuku's eyes widen and he was all like "Kacchan is the Chief now?!"

Ofc they reunited at last after Katsuki tracked down where her daughter was and tried attacking Izuku coz he was wearing a mask and he did not recognize him until he was pinned to the ground (damn this guy is strong wtf?!) And Eri is like NO! STOP DEKU! THAT'S MY DAD.

And Katsuki froze and the person above him whispered "Kacchan..?"

And that ladies and gentlemen, was the third time in his 40 years of living, crying.

(first when Izuku was taken and second when he thought Eri died)

So yeah, (first Love's) Childhood friend reunion!!!

They talked alot and it was the first time Eri saw his dad smiling and laughing alot with someone that isn't her. And she just casually mentioned about how Izuku is her dad's first love and all and both became a blushing mess and stutters.

(wow never in a million years did she thought her dad would act like this,)

So they went back to Berk on their dragons (Eri did not loose a leg, and her Dragon is a Light fury instead!!!)

And Watch everyone doing a reunion for Izuku and bla bla bla and all that (we aren't gonna make the whole Stoick dying part, no fricken way,)

And both now reunited childhood friends tried to flirt with each other and being oblivious to both of their antics and the whole village find this amusing and just kept quiet while Eri thinks Kouta would have a permanent hand shape mark on his face for facepalming too many times because of both of her parental figures that act like fucking teenagers hahahaha.

Like that's their whole plot lmao, hope you enjoy!!????

(this is unedited and rushed coz it's really late where I live and I'm sorry for any possible spelling errors, it just struck me in the middle of the night and I'm too tired to reread and edit it lmao, I'm sorry,thx for reading!!)

this is rly rly cuteeeeeee. i’ve never actually seen httyd 2 or 3, but i loved this- the bits w eri and jouta were adorable too 🥺🥺🥺 i would so totally read this fic!

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I can't believe it.

This is episode based, the Hank Abraham case- which i touched on as lightly as possible but its there, so there is fair warning.

Warnings: Usual Svu, SVU based & Hank Abraham case.

The air was thick with tension, no one was game to say anything at risk of adding more fuel to the fire or saying something wrong. Sonny, Amanda and you felt like you had done something wrong, when in reality you done your job and caught a bad man, you guys couldn't help who it was.

Rafael wasn't himself when he found out the news. You guys hadn't spent much time together since the case came in, he had been working late, you asleep when he got home and gone by the time you woke. He was getting pressure from the DA to sort this out and get it out of the way as quickly as possible. It had to come first till it was all over with.

Pippa Cox walked out of Liv's office after watching one of Hank’s interviews with Rafael and Ed Tucker, she looked into your eyes with such hate and hurt, and you looked down holding back tears with red cheeks. You guys had walked into her and Hanks apartment at two in the morning and turned her and her kid’s lives inside out. Of course she hated you for it. You got up from your desk and pretty much ran to the on call room and shut the door behind you letting the tears fall.

Amanda had seen the look you were given and how you reacted, you didn't know she had followed you.

The door opened and you were sitting on a bed. She walked over and sat next to you putting her arm around your shoulders.

"It's a tough one"

"You’re telling me, I just hate feeling like we done something wrong, you know"

"Yeah I know, but we didn't. We caught the bad guy"

"We tore his family apart"

"Yeah, but he was doing bad things, you wouldn't want to be married to someone like that would you?" You shook your head

----

Friday afternoon came at a snail’s pace. You had a few messages here and there from Rafael over the week, and one late night conversation, he felt like a stranger. He told you he didn't want you to feel that he was taking it out on you, but he has having trouble processing everything that was going on, which you could tell from his sad watery eyes during that conversation. So you left him to it and stayed out of the way.

Sonny had gone to court with Liv on Friday for the ruling, he wanted you to go too, but you wanted to stay back and finish off paper work and just go home. You finished early and signed out when Amanda did. You got a cab a block away from the apartment and picked up two bottles of wine then walked the rest of the way home.

You hadn't heard from Rafael so you decided to give it a couple of hours before you would order in. Sonny messaged you with outcome and you weren't sure how Rafael would be when he got home. You showered and washed you hair and put on some cotton shorts and a t-shirt and opened the wine.

You pretty much sculled down the first bottle. You were on your last glass from that bottle staring out the window when you heard the keys in the door. Rafael walked in like a zombie and went straight to the bathroom not even saying hello and you heard the shower running.

You stood at the island and opened the second bottle of wine and filled your glass up, picked up your phone and ordered his favourite Thai dish from a place down the street. You poured him a drink just how he liked it and sat it at the end of the island so he could see it when he walked out of the bathroom.

He came out in a pair of cotton track pants and a white t shirt, walked straight to the drink and drunk it in one go, he walked over to you, turned you to face him and wrapped his arms around your waist and hide his face in your neck.

"Just hold me, don't let me go ok" You nodded and kissed him on top of the head.

Not much was said for the rest of the night, dinner came and you ate in silence, Rafael having a couple more drinks after dinner. After you cleaned up and sat on the couch, Rafael joined you and laid his head on your lap and you ran your fingers threw his hair.

Next minute you heard him lightly snoring, you wiggled out from under him laying is head slowly down and covered him with a blanket and went to bed. You wanted nothing but to pull him to bed with you, but he was completely drained and slightly drunk, so best to just leave him there.

****

The light was streaming in from the window through your eyes lids, you slowly rolled onto your back and was surprised when you seen Rafael laying there looking up at the ceiling.

"Morning Rafi, are you ok?" You lent over and kissed him on the cheek. He didn't answer straight away. He was frowning and his jaw was clenched.

"I can't believe it you know-why he would risk everything over doing something like that. He had everything. An amazing job, a wife, two healthy happy children and he did that knowing if he was caught what would happen" he shook his head.

"No one will ever be able to answer that Rafi, not even him. He was fighting demons no one knew about and they won. I feel sorry for Pippa. Being married to him for so long and having his children, for him to be doing that behind her back. But I can't help but think it was our fault."

He turned his head and looked at you, you looked down

"Why would you think that?"

"Well if we had left when Liv told us too, he wouldn't have got caught and their lives would have gone on like they always had. All week Sonny, Amanda and I have been blaming ourselves. But we were just doing our job. But we tore his family apart-and I couldn't help but think you were mad, at us, at me starting this shit storm"

He rolled over and faced you, wrapping an arm around your waist.

"Look at me Hermosa" you didn't "Hermosa" you huffed and looked up to meet his gaze.

"I don't want you to ever think that ever again. He would have got caught. You done your job, and a good job at that. I'm sorry for the distances, I just couldn't get it to sink in. It triggered so much for me and I didn't know how to process it. Not that my father did anything like that, but he had an amazing wife and me, and it still wasn't enough, his actions caused him to lose us. I don't understand why what they have isn't enough."

"It’s life Rafi, some people it’s just their makeup, how they are made, they don't care if they lose what they have, no matter how good it is. If we weren't in the job we're in, none of this would matter as much as it does, it would just be another story on the news. But we see it first hand, we have a different point of view than most people. I just hope-never mind"

"No say it"

"I just hope I'll always be enough for you Rafi" his whole face softened and he lent down and kissed you lightly on the lips.

"Hermosa, you always have been and always will be enough, I love you."

****

 "Tio Raf, you promised so long ago" Zara pouted over the video call.

"I know mi Amor, but Tia and I have been really busy with work"

"Sweetie, as soon as Aunty Liv and Tio Raf's boss give us some time off we will be out to see you"

"I can call Aunty Liv and talk to her" you, Rafael and Nick started laughing

"It's ok sweetie thank you, but I can handle her"

****

"Ladies and Gentleman this is your caption speaking, we have arrived at LAX airport, local time 7 am, enjoy your stay in Los Angeles California"

The sun was shining down and you could smell the salt in the air, you hadn't been this relaxed in a very long time. You and Rafael were standing on Santa Monica pier waiting for Nick and Zara to come.

You both finally got some time off and worked with Nick on a week he had Zara over summer break. You guys all decided to keep it as a surprise for her. Although Rafael would have preferred a beach somewhere, you both naked most of the time, he was looking forward to some time away and some time with Zara. Nick only had a 1 bedroom apartment, so you guys were staying in a hotel. Rafael preferred it that way anyway, because he knew at the end of the day he could get you alone.

"You excited Hermosa?" Rafael was leaning on the rail looking very handsome in jeans and a casual button down, your arms wrapped around his middle and your chin on his shoulder

"Very much so. You?" He nodded and kissed you on the cheek.

"Hey Sweetie, I have a surprise for you"

"What is it Daddy?" Zara looked up at Nick

"Have a look around first to see if you notice anything"

Nick had sent you a message saying they were walking towards the pier, so you both started to make your way toward the entrance. You could see Zara scanning the crowd, and then her eyes met yours and she smiled and screamed.

"TIA" she ran towards you and knelt down a bit so you could pick her up as she got to you. Zara wrapped her arms around your neck and you picked her up.

"Hey my sweetie, surprise. I've missed you so much"

"Tia you made it. I've missed you"

You gave her a kiss in the cheek and placed her back on the ground when she wrapped her arms around your waist.

"Hey mi Amor"

"TIO RAF"

She pulled away from you and jumped on to Rafael, him picking her up. That finally gave you a chance to say hello to Nick. You wrapped your arms around his neck and his around your middle, he lifted you slightly off the ground.

"I've missed you so much Y/N"

"Me too Nick"

He put you down and pulled away, kissing you on top of your head resting his arm around your shoulders.

The week had been amazing, you guys had done so much with Nick and Zara. Zara was going back to Maria that night, and it was your last day tomorrow, you guys had a midnight flight. Nick was going to take you both out for dinner and then drive you to the airport.

"So the last case was a tough one hey" Nick took a sip of his beer.

"You could say that" Rafael frown "You’re lucky you missed out on all the fun" he rolled his eyes.

"It was horrible" you took a sip of your wine "that's really the first time I questioned myself at my job"

"Why would you do that?" Nick grabbed your arm and gave it a light squeeze "Your amazing at what you do, you couldn't help who it was. I was shocked when you told me"

"Anyway let's talk about something else, you look happy Nick, and so does Zara" you smiled at him.

"She is, I’ am. I' am missing a couple of things, well people, but it was worth the move for the most part, especially when the people I miss most come to visit"

"You don't miss me Amaro" Rafael smirked at him

"Well no, but you guys are a package deal" Nick winked at you.

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"I'm Sorry, Kat!"

Friday 30th October 2020

Hello again everyone! I hope you're having an enjoyable week so far! I am back with another post following Friday's episode, during this week I'm going to try my absolute best to catch up. It may take a while but I want to thank you all for being so patient with me, I'll either do one post a day or I'll see if I can manage two post in one day, we shall see! But let's jump right in with Friday's episode!

The episode starts with Honey, after being found by Jay in the alley after being attacked, Jay is sat by her bedside in hospital. This is quite a sad scene to start off with I have to say, Honey can barely remember anything, she wakes to see Jay sat closely beside her. She can't seem to understand how she's ended up in hospital, she remembers being with Paul but she can't remember what events took place. She looks to Jay for some answers but he looks as if he can't find the words to tell her what he's saw. He informs, gently, that she left him a voicemail which left him concerned as she sounded drunk. He explains he went to check on her, just to make sure she was okay, but on his search he found Paul in alleyway taking pictures of her, and before he made a run for it, he was either unbuckling his belt or doing it up! As far as I could tell, he was unbuckling his belt - of course the main worry and fear in their mind is if they don't know for sure whether he's actually raped her or not. Honey can barely breathe as all these thoughts go flooding through her mind.

Meanwhile at the Mitchell household, Lola is still waiting to hear news from Jay, has he been with Honey all night? Has Lola been made aware of what's happened to Honey? Clearly she's still waiting to hear from Jay. The next scene jumps to the Panesar's, Kheerat and Vinny are asking their Mum about Jags, it sounds as if she's gone to see her son, or maybe she's just been given an update from someone on the inside - wouldn't surprise me to be honest! Suddenly, Suki just so happens to come up with an idea, having a poker night in her son's honour! Is it just me, or it once again she's using her son's name to do her dirty work! Both her sons are surprised at her suggestion but once she happens to mention inviting a few people over to play and when she happens to mention Kush's name, Kheerat can see straight away that his Mum is up to something, he questions whether it has anything to do with him winning 10 grand and also the fact that she wants to kick the Slaters out of their house. He informs his Mum that he also asked Kush the previous day for a poker game and he declined their offer, even though it was Kat who kind of answered for him. Suki is adamant that their family do not lose, but the offer still stands to invite him to the poker game .... Why do I get the feeling that this is just going to end badly?!

Back at hospital, Jay is trying his best to console Honey and trying to keep her calm, she confides in him that she has been drunk before, but the pure fear of not being able to remember anything is clearly shaking her up. It must be the most terrifying thing not being able to remember what happened. I can't even begin to imagine what it must be like. Jay is adamant that he'll be with her all the way through no matter what barriers they may have to come across. He informs her that no one else knows and that her children are safe at home with Lola. It's then that a type of nurse walks into the room, the following scene shows the nurse informing Honey that there are all types of tests they can do to check whether she has been a victim of sexual abuse. Honey agrees to go ahead with the tests, but when the nurse mentions that a police officer will come a visit her to report the incident if she wishes to, Jay is quick to argue that she doesn't have to report it if she doesn't want to. This is quite surprising to me, as Honey asks - why wouldn't she want to report it?!

At the Atkins household, Gray is home and it looks like he's finally been reunited with his children after Shirley suggested that Karen and Mitch look after them while he's getting himself together. As he's enjoying his time with his children, he gets a phone call from Shirley - the last we saw Shirley, she nicked Sonia's car. Could her call to him maybe be something to do with it?

At the Panesar's, Kush is handing over money to Suki which should cover about 2 months rent. As he makes small-talk to the vindictive woman, she brings up the plans of hosting a poker night at the club in honour of her son. Kush, at first, does not seem interested. He seems to click on that maybe the fact that he's won a big sum of money is the main reason why she's wanting him to take part. But Suki just digs her shoes in deeper, kind of almost stabbing him with a knife at his weak spot. She claims that there will be an open space for him and she'll keep the rent money, oh just in case he changes his mind! I actually hate the fact that she's playing on his weakness. She's claiming her sons play big and they play to win, and she has to sit-in in case it gets out of control ... I actually hate that she's almost convincing him to play. Urgh does anyone else hate Suki as much as I do? She is a very vindictive woman! Do any of you agree that she's just as bad as Janine, or could she potentially be worse?!

Meanwhile, at the Café, it looks as if Sonia and Whitney are wanting answers from Gray. As their conversation continues, it's more clear as to why Shirley phoned Gray. Sonia is feeling pretty annoyed that Shirley, not only tried to con her, but also nicked her car and made a report about it. The main reason Shirley called Gray was to try and convince Sonia to retract her report. He speaks for the Carter mother that she's been going through a tough time with Mick lately, she only just wanted to take the car for a little spin, he points out the fact that she's been there for him in recent weeks and he wants to do the same for her. He informs Sonia that Shirley wants to make an offer to make it up to her, Sonia agrees to hear Shirley out, but only for Gray's sake and that the offer she's making must be a damn good one!

Back at the hospital, Honey is still reeling from her recent revelation, as she's slowly coming to terms with everything, Jay pops in to see her. He's insisting that he should go and see Isaac and Sheree, just to explain things as everyone knows that Honey isn't one to get drunk so easily. But Honey makes a brilliant statement, it's not their fault and it certainly isn't her own fault either! Jay is quick to agree with her as a police officer comes in, ready to ask Honey some questions. As they begin to get comfortable, Honey asks for Jay to stay with her. Understandably she wouldn't want to be on her own during this horrific worrying time. I believe there have been many rumours recently regarding Honey and Jay, with everything that has happened to Honey and Jay being the one looking out for her, could their be a romance blossoming between them? I do think people wouldn't mind Honey and Jay being together, but then there are others who see Jay belonging to Lola. The main thing that comes to my mind when I picture Honey and Jay being together, is Billy - won't he feel some kind of betrayal? From perhaps both parties? His ex-wife with the boy he's basically brought up since his Dad passed away? Who knows? What do you guys think?!

At the club, Martin and Ruby are getting everything ready for the poker night. I have to be honest, I am really liking the way Martin is questioning her about the event. It's like something does feel right, know what I mean? Like something doesn't sit right with him. He notices his wife making certain movements of the table and chairs and everything placed on the table, Martin questions her actions. Ruby is quick to defend herself that it's the one time that someone had hired the club out and she wants to make a good impression. Of course, we know that Ruby and Suki are behind this, they know something is going to happen and they're planning something horrendous. As the Panesar family are making themselves comfortable, Kush arrives - much to Martin's surprise. Kush reveals the only reason he's there is to pay Ruby back the money he nicked from her till. As he turns to leave, (surprise surprise), Suki is quick to make a dig at him saying that that repayment could've waited until tomorrow, hinting the fact that Kush couldn't stay away because he knew what was taking place there. When Suki invites him to stay, Martin is quite to defend his friend by saying he can't stay, he even tries to get his wife to back him up, but Ruby - simply - couldn't care less what he does with his money. Kush asks Suki whether she's still kept hold of the money he gave her earlier, as she pulls out a chair inviting him in, he agrees! Martin bows his head and jumps in quick "So am I!" ... I know it sounds silly, but my heart did a little flutter there! The fact that Martin is joining in the game of poker, just to look out for his friend, something I bet Ruby and Suki didn't expect! Could Martin perhaps stop Kush making a huge mistake?!

Returning to the hospital, Honey is sat with Jay as she's answering the questions she's being asked. Did anyone else feel that this was another sad scene? Honey reveals that she doesn't normally drink as she has children and a job. She tries to recall her first date with Paul, how he seemed so excited to see her for a second time, and how he made her feel special. How she made an effort in an attempt to look pretty - but it seems like she's turning the blame on herself, she's feeling guilty for "Pushing" herself. As Honey breaks down into tears, Jay is quick to defend her, claiming that no matter how many dates she went on with Paul, no matter how many glasses of wine she had, he shouldn't have found her in that state in the alleyway. No one deserves the be found in that way. No one deserves to go through or experience sexual assault. Something does tell me that something is going to happen between Jay and Honey though, what do you guys think? The more I see them together, the more I can see it happening!

Ha! I just want to mention one thing - Rainie!!! As Jean are Stacey are looking for Kush on the Square, they bump into Stuart and he reveals he's seen Kush in the club taking part in a poker game. As Jean and Stacey rushes off to find him, Rainie appears from the Minute Mart with an ice cream in one hand and a bottle of tomato ketchup in the other! Stuart looks on in (what I can tell) amazement as she squirts the ketchup onto the ice cream - I simply loved the way she looked up to him and said "What baby wants, baby gets!" - very weird craving but absolutely hilarious moment! - At the club, I loved how idiotic Martin was being, of course he knows how to play poker but I think it was plain to see that he was jeopardising the game to stop Kush from gambling! True friend right there, right?! As the Panesar brother's can't take any more of Martin's ways, they leave the game, calling it quits. When Jean and Stacey eventually find Kush in the club, they plead to him to stop playing, even Stacey begs Kheerat to call it day, and Kheerat agrees - leaving his Mum absolutely stunned. She almost panics that her plan isn't coming together. Kush looks a little bit disheartened also, gutted that he's been caught gambling again and that the game has come to end so quickly. As Kheerat, Vinny and Martin leave the game, with the possibly of Kush leaving to - Suki announces one final game, between her and Kush. What an earth is this evil woman up to?!

At the pub, Gray and Sonia are one again meeting, but with Shirley in tow this time. Gray reveals to Sonia that the offer Shirley is purposing is that she will sell the car on Sonia's behalf to a collector friend of hers, at no extra cost for well more than £2,000 - that way she manages to get rid of car she doesn't want and she'll be getting the car for a lot more than that she thought in the first place, in exchange for Shirley not being reported to the police and going to prison for a mistake that she regrets. Sonia doesn't seem keen on the idea, she even throws in an insult and warns Gray to make sure she doesn't nick his silverware, but from what I can take from that conversation is that Sonia agrees. As she walks off, Shirley is thankful to Gray for helping her out, as he goes to leave, she offers him a job to work for Phil. She explains that he's needing a decent lawyer and with Ritchie being snowed under with other clients, Phil could do with someone like Gray in his defence. Gray doesn't seem keen at first, but Shirley explains that for her, it could be too late to help Mick, but for him, she might've made it just in time. It's an interesting concept, will Gray end up working for Phil? Will he enjoy it? Will Phil be able to trust him? Who knows?!

Returning to the poker game in the club, Ruby watches from the bar as Suki and Kush are sat at the poker table. Jean and Stacey are also also stood watching from a distance. Suki plays right into Kush and teases him that there's two months rent in the pot, there's no cause for indecision now! Suddenly Kush makes a massive move and raises her and pushes all his chips into the middle of the table. The pot has now raised to 4 months rent. Jean and Stacey are absolutely stunned, they're pleading for him to stop until it gets any higher. Stacey pleads to Kush to think of Kat and Arthur, he confirms that he is which is why he's making such a big move, he believes that Suki has nothing he can't handle! -  Oh my god, as this scene goes on I am trembling in my pyjamas! - Suki looks to Ruby and we can see that Ruby has been looking at Kush's cards from her CCTV footage, basically giving small signals to Suki of what cards he's got! - Firstly, how the hell does Ruby know how to play poker?! - And also, that is so bloody sneaky! That was their plan!!! Suki smiles and Kush's comments and decides on a wager, she proposes that if Kush wins, they can live for 8 months, rent-free! But if she wins, they are out of their house by the end of the week. Stacey and Jean are can't believe what they're hearing, their pleas to Kush fall on deaf ears as Kush smiles, he is so confident that she's bluffing and makes the wager from 8 months, to a year rent-free! I fear he's getting himself in deeper and deeper and there's nothing Stacey and Jean can do to resolve it. Suki smirks at Kush's confidence, she asks him whether he's prepared to play or walk away!

Returning to the hospital one last time, Honey is getting herself ready to leave. Jay is still with her, informing her that he'll sort everything out for her regarding work. But Honey is adamant that she'll sort herself out, she asks him why he didn't want her to speak to the police. In her mind, if there was any doubt in his mind that it was her fault, he wouldn't ask her to do that! Honey doesn't want people thinking badly of her, but I truly believe no one will! Jay even admits that he doesn't think that, not even at all! As the police officer announces she's ready to take Honey to the test centre, she asks whether Jay could accompany her.

The final scene of this episode is quite horrendous! Poor Jean is teary as it looks like she's revealed to Kat what has been happening. Kat can't believe what she's hearing, she's absolutely furious to hear that her boyfriend has gone behind her back and gambled again, even though he promised her he wouldn't! What's worse, is that he's only gone and betted the roof over their heads, with the house full, what the hell are they going to be able to do with the children?! Kat hurries herself to go and stop Kush from making a huge mistake, but it's too late - as she gets to the door, Stacey barges through the door, without a word, and marches upstairs! Behind her, looking ever so sheepish, Kush. Kat confronts her boyfriend and demands to know what's happened, but as he turns round, ever so slowly, he looks defeated, almost like he's going to burst into tears! Kat knows that look and tells him not to even show her that face ... all he can muster is "I'm sorry, Kat!"

Kush has only gone a lost the poker game and caused his whole family to be homeless. What the heck are the Slater's going to do now? Surely someone will help them or something may happen? I mean, they've only got a week, but I truly hope things will get better for the Slaters. They're one of my favourite families on the Square, it's going to be hard to see them struggling over the next few episodes. I mean, something tells me, Martin won't see his children go homeless, which might mean that he may take them in, which will just anger Stacey so much more when it means her children will be living with Ruby also. What do you guys think? Do you think Martin will click on that it was his wife who was partly to blame for duping Kush into losing the poker game and causing them to lose their house?! Martin isn't dumb, I do think - in time - he'll come to realise that his wife has been playing games with not just his ex-wife, but his children's lives also, and that is something he will not tolerate! I also hope that this will be a wake-up call for Kush, we know Davood Ghademi is leaving the soap next year, will Kush be able to turn his life around before he leaves? So many questions and possibilities that could happen.

I hope you've enjoyed reading, I apologise once again for it being a bit late. Tomorrow I will do a post following Monday's episode! I hope you all enjoy the rest of your evening and I'll be back very soon! Love you all xXx

[dirtpie39]

(SPOILERS) I just finished watching the anime Zetsuen no Tempest and it was really nice to watch... I loved it!

I'm just gonna start here at episode 12 then jump to episode 19 then to the finale which is episode 24.... Okie?

Seeing hakaze come back like this was so cool I mean just wow! She formed on her own skeleton in front of Mahiro, Yoshino and Samon.... If I were there my jaw would've dropped to the ground....But anyway I thought it was pretty funny how yoshino was the first and seemingly only person there to freak out over hakaze being naked.... Like Samon and Mahiro just straight up stared at her blankly..... not doing a single thing...

Honestly, the moment Yoshino bluntly told Mahiro about him being Aika’s boyfriend I was expecting a good b*tch slap to be served but to my surprise that wasn't the case. Mahiro took it like a man and basically explained how he didn't really have a good reason to hit him after all he wasn't required to tell him about it just because the law called him her brother. Which really stuck with me... Mahiro really is a strong person as Yoshino points out cause if you put the situation under the microscope so to speak; two close friends are sitting on a bench casually talking but one candidly reveals he was dating behind the others back there dead younger sister (Non-blood related) for all that time without telling them anything till after the younger sister was gone. If I were Mahiro I wouldn't have been so calm about it whatsoever.

Now I'll start talking about the finale (episode 24)!

Oh man Megumu Hanemura really did step up here from the time he was first introduced in episode 14 to right at this scene where the blade of Exodus is summoned and used to spite the heart of the tree of Genesis thus destroying it. When I first saw him I mistaked him for Junichirou Hoshimura cause he had that look about him IMO.

Then after the big battle is over we get to see the final message Aika Fuwa left behind for Mahiro and Yoshino to see.... Despite the pictures below, most of her message to them was sweet and heartfelt. But then before she ended it she played a little prank on the boys by lifting up her skirt a little and saying ”Now, as a final favor, I shall show you my nude body” which surprised them but also revealed they were hella interested....then she just said that she was joking. Like wow right till the end she loved to tease them.... Well that's Aika for you.

And then at the near end of the episode we see Mahiro and Yoshino at the Fuwa family grave site. Mahiro tells Aika that unlike her he will not live by someone else's script and that he’ll save the world. But besides that when he's done talking to Aika, HE PUNCHES YOSHINO. He says its because Aika gave him permission and cause hanemura lectured him about it but still... He didn't need to do so, granted I can't say he shouldn't have done it but still ouch (He does help him up tho which was nice to see). Luckily Yoshino isn't all that surprised by it nor does he get angry about it. Mahiro then asks Yoshino if he has anything to say to Aika to which he replies ”You already said everything that needed to be said. Besides, lovers don't need words to communicate.” which then leads Mahiro to imply that HE GONNA GET SMACKED AGAIN XD.

And last but not least we see Yoshino and Mahiro on the steps that lead to the Fuwa grave, (also I just HAVE TO mention that they show the cherry blossoms in the same way they do in the lovely second ed which I thought was pretty dang sweet) there they talk at bit but at the end of there little chat Mahiro basically tells Yoshino that he should now move on with his life and get over Aika by being with Hakaze who happens to have a crush on him. After the second ed plays with some of the animes previous episodes/scenes flashing we see that Mahiro sees that Hakaze has just gotten there by way of black car. He points that out to Yoshino, his face practically screaming ”GO GET YA GIRL!” before he says ”Yoshino” then leans his head to point at hakaze with her seemingly heavy luggage. Yoshino then gives Mahiro one final silent look of I think was confirmation before running to Hakaze at the very bottom of the hill. We see Mahiro have a look of a emotion I can't quite describe but still for some reason grips my heart. After we then see that Yoshino has finally reached the end of the stairs to which Hakaze sees him and they run to each other (hakaze completely drops her belongings in order to also run to him). They stop for a second and stare at each other longingly and with desire in each others eyes before they continue running to each other as the screen fades to black. I like to think they kissed when they got to each other and swung around in each others arms like some cheezy couple but that's just me here.

[dukereviewstv]

Duke Reviews Tv: Smallville 1x05 Cool

Hi Everyone, I'm Andrew Leduc And Welcome To Duke Reviews Tv Where Today We're Continuing Our Look At Smallville By Talking About Episode 5 Of Season 1 Cool...

In This Episode, A Jock Named Sean Kelvin...

Oh, I Get It Like The Unit Of Temperature, Ha Ha Ha!

Accidentally Falls Into A Frozen Crater Lake Only To Emerge With An Insatiable Hunger For Heat Thanks To The Meteor Rocks In Crater Lake, In A Effort To Stay Warm, Sean Sucks The Body Heat Of Anyone That Will Talk To Him, Including Chloe Sullivan. Will Clark Ruin His Date With Lana So He Can Save Chloe From Sean's Frozen Personality?

Let's Find Out As We Watch Cool...

The Episode Starts Near Crater Lake, As Clark Kent And Chloe Sullivan Arrive At A High School Party...

Chloe Goes To Sit By The Fire As We Get An Introduction To Our Bad Boy Of The Episode, Sean Kelvin, Who Asks If Chloe Is Flying Solo Tonight With Clark Telling Sean That Chloe Isn't His Type...

But Going Over To Talk To Her, Sean Asks If He Can Warm Chloe's Hands For Her And Saying That He's Read Some Of Her Articles In The Torch...

Asked To Play A Game Of Toss With Whitney And The Other Jocks, Sean Asks For Chloe's Number, And She Gives It To Him Despite Knowing He'll Never Call...

Talking To Whitney And The Other Guys, We Find Out That Sean Is A Douchebag As He Says That Chloe Is Just Another Notch On His Belt...

However, In Tossing The Ball Too Far Onto The Frozen Crater Lake, Sean Accidentally Falls In And Drowns Only To Be Resurrected The Next Morning As Solomon Grundy!

No, Just Kidding, But Wouldn't It Have Been More Interesting If That Actually Happened! But Still Sean Is Resurrected The Next Morning With Severe Hypothermia To The Point He Can Only Stay Warm By Sucking The Heat Out Of Something Let's Say This Fire...

Meanwhile At The Kent Farm, They're Not Doing So Good Money Wise To The Point They May Have To Take Out Another Bank Loan, However, Clark Has An Idea...

Wait A Minute! How Is Clark Walking With Chloe And Pete When He Used His Powers To Get To School? And If He Just Ran Out To Them, How Did They Not Get Startled Or Discover That He Has Powers? Because...

Spoilers!

At This Point In Time, Pete And Chloe Do Not Know That Clark Has Powers!

Anyway, Chloe Tells Clark That Sean Didn't Call But Despite Pete Saying That Maybe Something Came Up, Clark Is Determined That Sean Is A Horndog...

Meanwhile At School, Sean Is Starting To Feel Hypothermic Again But When He Starts Sucking The Nurse's Body Heat He Starts Feeling Better...

Back On The Kent Farm, Martha Is Chopping Wood Using A Chainsaw When Lex Enters....

I Thought You Were Something From My Childhood!

Turns Out Lex Needs 30 Of Their Artichokes For A Dinner He's Hosting Tomorrow Night For The Local Farming Community About Financial Options. With Lex, Offering His Hand As An Investor, He Wishes To Help The Community Modernize And Expand, And Despite Knowing How Jonathan Feels About Him, He Invites The Kents To Hear His Pitch...

After His Talk With Martha, Lex Heads Down To The Beanery Where He Runs Into Lana Who's Planning To Take Whitney To Some Museum Exhibit In Metropolis But Unfortunately, Whitney Has Given His Money To His Pals So They Can Watch A Fight Tomorrow Night On Pay Per View...

Well, What Can I Say Except Bros Before Hoes...

Taking Advantage Of Whitney's Fumble, Lex Offers Clark Radiohead Tickets For Tomorrow Night In Metropolis But Only If He Asks Lana Out...

Now The Question Is Clark, Deal Or No Deal?

We Have A Deal!

Going Inside, Clark Tells Lana About The Tickets And Asks Her If She Wants To Go Just As Friends...

Telling His Friends About His "Not A Date" With Lana, Clark Thanks Chloe For The Well Deserved Push...

Sean Goes To Talk With Chloe For 2 Seconds Before Going Over To Talk To His Ex, Jenna To Which Chloe Gives A What The Hell! To...

That Night..,

Ooh, A Hot Girl In A Shower!

Oh, Wait A Minute, I Know This, Hot Girl Takes A Shower, Guy Creepily Watches From The Other Side Of The Shower Curtain Till Finally....

Sucking Jenna's Body Heat, She's Murdered By Sean Who Shatters Her Guts All Over The Floor

The Next Day At The Kent Farm, Martha Tells Jonathan About Lex's Offer And He's Put His Foot Down That He's Not Going...

Knowing That Lex Has Been Nothing But Generous, Martha Has Already Told Lex They'll Be There Because They're Running Out Of Options...

With Clark Bursting In To Tell His Parents About His "Not A Date" With Lana, Jonathan Isn't Exactly Pleased That Lex Gave Him The Tickets...

Meanwhile At Sean's House (I Guess?) He Calls Every Girl He's Ever Dated To Try To Steal Their Body Heat But None Will Talk To Him (No Surprise There) Except 1...

Calling Chloe, She Tells Clark That Sean Apologized Saying That He Didn't Feel Well, And Asked Her If She Wanted To Get Together Tonight Just To Talk...

That Night, The Kent's Pop By To See None Of The Farmers Are There, Despite Martha Believing That They're Just Early...

I Don't Know Martha I'm Beginning To Think That Maybe...

Well, Technically It Is And It Isn't....

1. Lex Lied To Martha, There Is No Farmer's Meeting But 2. He Only Did It Because It Was The Only Way To Get Jonathan And Him In The Same Room Together So Jonathan Could Hear Lex's Offer To Help Them...

So Yeah, Lex Lied But It Was For A Good Reason...

Picking Up Lana In A Limo, They're On Their Way To The Concert, But Before Clark And Lana Can Even Leave Town, They See A Report On Sean's Now Dead Ex Jenna And That Sean Is Wanted For Questioning On Jenna's Death, Parking The Limo, Clark Drops Lana Off At The Beanery Before Racing Off To Check On Chloe Who's Being Attacked By Sean...

Saving Chloe From Sean, They Research What's Going On With Sean At The Torch, Finding A Sort Of Medical Condition Where There's Damage To The Thermosensative Cells In The Brain Creating A Permanent Case Of Hypothermia....

Taking Chloe Home, Clark Knows That Going After Sean Means He'll Have To Cancel His "Not A Date" With Lana But She's Already Out The Door As Clark Is Concerned As She Gives Pete And His Date (Who We Will Never See Again) The Limo And Goes Home With Whitney Who She Tells Everything Too...

Meanwhile, Sean Starts Stealing Power From The Smallville Power Plant In An Attempt To Get Warm, While Lex Talks With Jonathan About Saving His Farm But Jonathan Goes On About How His Father Taught Him To Solve His Own Problems But It Turns Out That Jonathan's Father, Hiram Lived On Government Subsidies....

Driving Lana Home, Whitney Takes Lana's "Not A Date" With Clark Pretty Well...

You're Doing It Right Now, Whitney! So Shut Up If You Know What's Good For You!

Pulled Off The Road By Sean, Whitney Gets Lana (Who Twisted Her Ankle) Out Of The Car And Down To The Luthor Mansion With Lex, Jonathan And Martha Who Are Liking Lex's Proposal But There's One Question Jonathan Wants Answered...

Meanwhile, Clark Finds Whitney's Truck On The Side Of The Road To Discover That Whitney And Lana Are Gone...But Sean Isn't!

Taking Clark's Body Heat, Sean Is Returned To Normal For Now. With The Gates Shut And The Alarms On The Luthor Mansion Is A Fortress That Sean Can't Get In Or Can He?

Yep, Turns Out Sean Got In Before Lex Shut The Damn Gate!

Greatest Mind The World Has Ever Known My Ass!

With The Generator Frozen, Power Is Completely Off, With Jonathan Going To Check The Gate, Martha Goes To Check The Generator Where She Runs Into Sean However Clark (Still Alive Despite Sean Stealing His Body Heat) Arrives To Fight Sean In One Last Battle...

Fighting Sean, He Steals Clark's Body Heat Again But Still Okay...

The Next Day At The Kent Farm, Lex Visits Jonathan After Hearing That Jonathan Took Out Another Bank Loan Meaning That Jonathan Is Not Going To Accept Lex's Offer...

Telling Jonathan That When He Changes His Mind, His Offer Will Still Stand, Lex Walks Away...

Meanwhile, At Smallville High, Chloe Stands By A Memorial For Jenna, Counting Her Blessings That That's Not Her And Swearing That The Next Time A Guy Asks Her Out She's Gonna Do An In-Depth Background Check First...

After Talking With Chloe And Pete, Clark Goes Over To Talk With Lana As He Apologizes For Screwing Up Their Date. Asking If She Would Like To Do It Again Maybe Saturday But Lana Turns Down Clark Because Whitney Is Taking To That Exhibit In Metropolis Because Was Freaked Out By Their Non-Date..

And That's Cool And It's A Good Episode

The Story's Good, The Characters Are Well Written, It Had A Great Villain In Sean But I Do Have A Problem With That One Scene I Talked About At The Beginning Of The Episode, Jonathan's Resilience Towards Lex And Whitney's Growing Jealousy Of Clark And Lana's Friendship/Relationship But Despite Those Reasons I Say See It...

Till Next Time, This Is Duke, Signing Off...

[lucisfavoritedemon]

Fate & Destiny: Mistakes Were Made

Pairing: Dean x Nelly

Summary: Nell and Dean are sent away from shoplifting, but things don’t exactly go how they thought.

Warnings: Spoilers (episode of Season 9 and part of a few episodes of Season 11).

Word Count: 1338

A/N: Words in italics are things happening while Nell and Sam read the book. Some chapters won't have any because those are read silently, but the ones with italics are being read aloud.

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It was February, 1995, when our first mistake takes place. Dean had gone and gambled all of the food money John had given him to make sure Nell and Sam we're fed. It was Nell’s brilliant idea to shoplift from the convenient store. Both were horrible decisions that ended up with them in seperate homes for delinquents.

Nell was sent to an all girl’s home called Miss Hewitt's Home for Juvenile Girls, while Dean was sent to a boy’s home, called Sonny’s Home for Boys, just a mile down the road. They were stuck in this place till someone could get a hold of John. Nell and Dean both had horrible expectations of these places, and of course they both thought the worst when it came to John finding out. Both were surprised, yet not at the same time, that John wanted them to stay there till he came to get them. Dean thought the worst about what would happen to Sam, and Nell was just worried about what might happen to her.

“Woah! Wait a sec! That is not what I thought at all!” Nell yelled at Sam, who was sitting across from her in the Bunker Library.

“Maybe Chuck doesn't know what you were thinking.” Sam rationalized

“But he's God. God knows everything. How could he misinterpret what I was thinking.”

“Maybe he didn't.”

“Whatever, just continue reading.”

Nell and Dean we're settling nicely into there new temporary lives. School was going well for Dean he was a Sophomore and already found himself a girlfriend. Nell, who was a Freshman (she skipped a grade through passing extremely hard tests), on the other hand was struggling with this new arrangement, and she did not like the fact that her best friend had someone else he wanted to rely on. She felt this girl was changing him, and he started to drift away from her.

“Hey Dean.” She approached him cautiously.

“Oh hi Nelly.” He said barely taking a glance at her.

“It's Nell, and do you mind if I sit with you?” She asked hesitantly, but also stern because now that she had this new nickname, she hated her actual name.

“Um this spot is actually being saved for someone.” He looked over at a girl and waved her over. She had long brown hair, and, overall, she was really pretty. Nell walked away knowing the seat was for her. She didn't talk to him much after that.

2 weeks had rolled by and still John had not shown up, but Dean didn't care he wanted to stay. He wanted to stay with Robin in a place where he didn't have to be the hero all the time. He started to take up wrestling, and was actually kind of good at it.

It was going quite the opposite direction for Nell. She was just told that if she wanted to they had finally found family in England who would be willing to take her in and finish raising her.

The news hit her like a ton of bricks. She didn't want to leave, she liked it in the states, and she didn't want to be away from Dean. No matter how horribly he treated her for a girl he was always going to be her best friend. So, she decided to ask Dean. If he even hesitated on answering she would stay and wait for John to come and get them, but if didn't hesitate on answering to yes, then she would leave because he made it perfectly clear that he didn't want her around anymore. She just hoped he would tell her no and apologize for treating her so poorly. She would totally forgive him in a heartbeat.

“Hey Dean?” She approached him sitting in the bench outside of Sonny's.

“Hi Nell, uh what are you doing here?” He looked flustered, like he was trying to hide something.

“I wanted to ask you something.” She spoke, but he just kept frantically looking around.

“Sure.” He answered still not really paying attention to her.

“I wanted to ask if you wanted me around anymore. Miss Hewitt found living relatives in England and U wanted to ask if you thought it was a good idea for me to go, or if I should stay and just wait for John?”

“Yeah that sounds like a great idea do it.” He answered, and Nell was heartbroken, then she noticed Robin coming down the driveway, and she knew what his decision was.

“Well I guess this is goodbye.” She spoke softly not even sure if he could hear her, and she honestly didn't care anymore. The damage had been done.

“Yeah bye.” He blatantly stated before he walked over to Robin.

Bell walked off toward Miss Hewitt’s, and gave her, her answer. She was going to England, and living the remainder of her life there until she could afford to come back, and even then she's not even sure she would.

“Dean really said that to you?” Sam asked looking at you confused as to why Dean would do something like that to his girlfriend, or why she would even want to be with him after that.

“He was all caught up in Robin that he barely even knew what u was saying. He didn't even remember me asking the question.”

“So you gave him a free pass?”

“No he apologized for what he did even though he didn't realize what he had done.”

“Oh okay.” Sam rolled his eyes, but continued reading.

The last few days of her life in the states was hard. She wanted him to notice her one last time, and she didn't want their last encounter to be all she remembers in 30 years when people ask her how her life was back in the states, and why did she decided to move to the UK.

She wanted to at least give him a proper goodbye, but by the time she was going to, the car that was going to take her to the airport had arrived. She had no time left. She was going to have to hold on to the good memories if Dean, Sam, and John. They would always be her second family, and she was going to miss them even if they never thought about her again.

A week had passed since Nell was taken to the UK,  and Dean wanted to talk to get about something personal, but he couldn't find her anywhere. He asked every teacher and student who had ever come into contact with her. No one knew where she was. She hadn't been to school for a while. All of the just assumed she was sick with a cold.

Dean decided to head to Miss Hewitt's and ask her where Nell had been…

“Wait… it took him that long to figure out you were gone?” Sam queried.

“Sh, keep reading.” Nell ordered.

“Hi Miss Hewitt? I'm looking for a girl named Nelly Charles though she goes by Nell.” Dean looked at the woman doing paperwork at the front desk.

“She left a week ago boy. I just emailed the school to remind them to take her off the rosters. Silly people keep calling to tell me she hasn't shown up for class. Of course not she's not even in the country.” Miss Hewitt said not looking up from her papers.

“What do you mean she's not even in the country?”

“Boy please leave to do my work. She left to live with her grandparents until she is the proper age live on her own. Now please go away and quit distracting me.” She looked up angry before going back to what she was doing.

Dean had no idea what to say. He was lost now. There were things he wanted to tell her that he didn't get a chance to tell her. She was gone from his life forever, and she was never coming back. This hit him like a ton of bricks. Now he was truly alone.

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[actuallylorelaigilmore]

the ultimate citation list for Schneider of ODAAT, volume 1

A reference collection of quotes and details, organized chronologically, for the first 26 episodes of One Day At A Time. Used to create this character guide.

“Can you believe it's only been 10 months since you moved in? I remember 'cause I got my five year sober chip and your mom baked me that cake. I enjoyed watching you guys eat it." 1x01

"You're 40 and you look stupid." “I'll have you know, I was invited to several Pride parades." 1x01

Uses a “very expensive” Damascus steel hammer. 1x01

"I've been doing some outreach down at the rec center, talking to at-risk youth. You guys wanna start takin' bets? Actually, scratch that. I'm addicted to gambling.” 1x01

"Love isn't even real. It's just something your nanny says sometimes to your dad." 1x02

"Hey, I may have money in the bank and two living parents, and four living stepmothers but there is a hole in here. We never had family meals. I ate alone in front of the TV. Oh, don't get me wrong. It was a massive TV. Sometimes my nanny would join me, but only if I agreed to watch telenovelas. This one time, Rosa got jealous of the housekeeper 'cause she was makin' a move on her man, so she threatened to throw live scorpions on her while she slept. Rosa was my nanny. Ex-nanny. Now, stepmother." 1x03

[Lydia and Pen fighting] “It's startin' to feel kinda like home in here.” 1x03

Schneider cooks fancy hipster food. "Nutted quinoa, wilted broccolini with radish micro-greens, and venison carpaccio on a bed of nettles. Grab a cedar plank and dig in." 1x04

"Always interesting to be the sober one at a dinner party." 1x05

"I immigrated here illegally. I'm a Canadian. But yeah, born in the 'Couve, overstayed my student visa, forced to live in the shadows of Pepperdine University. Anyway, it's fine now. My lawyers made it all okay." 1x05

Uses sheet masks, knows about chauffeurs, butlers, estates. 1x06

“The kids barely touched my black olive tapenade.” “Thanks for helping out, but maybe next time pick a food a kid would wanna eat or has heard of.” “Yeah, and maybe next time, don't hand out masks with my face on them.” 1x07  

"The members of my college band have finally put aside our differences and we're reuniting to play at the fair this afternoon. My band, Full Sail, plays yacht rock. These guys were like family. I used to show up at their dorm rooms unannounced and just hang out for hours and hours and hours." 1x07

"We were setting up for the show and our keytarist threw a decorative anchor at me. This is why Full Sail broke up in the first place. Too many passionate personalities." 1x07

Has a magnifying glass in his costume trunk. 1x07

"I know nothing about my grandparents and I never will. And they live in Pasadena!" (but he goes to 'the depot' in Pasadena) 1x09

"I have never seen such un-professionalism. This is why I don't work!" 1x09

"I need to find a new place to get my eyebrows threaded." 1x10

Has a safe. 1x10

"Well, Father believed it's best to have this kinda discussion in a car because you don't have to make eye contact. Plus, you're traveling in the same direction, which fosters intimacy. So we're in the Bentley with our chauffeur, Paco. Father said it's time to have the talk. We came to the next stoplight. He hopped out, Paco told me everything." 1x10

"I didn't get the period talk till I was 12. Paco just called it 'Shark Week.'" 1x10

"When I was a kid, there was an adult section in the back of the video store. Behind the beads. I'd always chicken out and just rent a Jane Fonda workout tape. Still worked. Still works." 1x10

"You'd be surprised how many of my hookups started with 'Ugh!' ...When I was 15, I told Father I wanted to be a professional tap dancer. He laughed. It was that lack of support that contributed to my drinking and drug problem. Oh, do you find that amusing? Because 15-year-old Schneider's drinking peach schnapps out of an unused tap shoe right now." 1x11

"You have a girl over here and you were offering to have sex with me?" - "Yes, Penelope. That's the kind of friend I am." 1x11

"My dad never came to my games. All he ever did was put me through rehab six times and buy me this building." 2x01

"Maroon 5 is the best." 2x01

"Okay, I decided to take a break from dating. See, I realized that women were just another one of my addictions, like alcohol, drugs, gambling, cigarettes, snow globes. The point is, I've broken the cycle of addiction with spinning. Five hours a day, every single day. I have to do it! Plus, it's the perfect substitute for dating, 'cause it burns a lot of energy and also numbs my junk!" 2x02

“Snow globes? Is this one of our family?” 2x02

"I come over, tell him to do stuff to me, he does it, I go home. You should get one." "I think what Nikki was kinda dancing around is that you don't always have to have a relationship with a capital "R." Sometimes all you need is what the great poets of the Renaissance called a junk buddy." "Exactly. You don't even have to like them." 2x03

"See, the great thing about having a green card is you get to live here without having to do all the stuff Americans have to, like vote or serve jury duty or become obese."

"Okay, but at least you vote in Canadian elections." "Mmm. No. Even in Canada, nothing ever changes. Clean air, sensible gun control, free health care. The system's rigged." 2x04

Can picture himself “doing it” with Elizabeth Warren, was Stephen Hawking for Halloween. 2x04

"You have to pay taxes with a green card? I just texted my accountant, and he said 'cause I'm in the highest income bracket, I don't have to pay taxes." 2x04

Keeps on hand: panic room, gas mask, water purification pills, MREs, enough cash to get to Cape Verde by boat. Followed Max on Instagram. Would be honored to be Penelope's maid of honor. 2x05

"I'm very patriotic. Look in that basket. There's a bald eagle thong." 2x06

All Elena's video game equipment belongs to him. 2x06

"Penelope, tell my third stepmother I loved her! Not the second one, though. She was kind of a jerk." 2x06

"Hummer limo's downstairs. My third stepmother used to take me to the racetrack to spy on Father. For the longest time, I thought she was saying, 'Your father is with Rebecca, that horse!' It's like I'm back at the racetrack with my stepmom. What's next? Throw a mint julep in his face?” 2x07

"I love Cuba! I've been there four times. Property manager, job's just temporary. My father owns the building. I'm really a musician. Play a lot of rap-rock-ska. I'm like a male Gwen Stefani. When you're hiring a nanny, make sure she's not too hot. That's how I met my fifth mom. I had four nannies and look at the results." 2x08

Did not speak a word of Spanish when he first met them, is interested in single moms. 2x08

"If you joined an adult kickball team after saying you were too busy to join mine, you are on a long road to forgiveness." 2x09

"Your idea of stress is when your chest-waxer goes out of town." "Roberto is the only one who doesn't make it sting!" 2x09

"I shouldn't have to need these either, but I do. To see. So it's Fourth of July, 2011. I'd been sober for a while, so I thought I'd celebrate with a beer. Woke up three days later in an alley. Then the bowling ball hit me. I was in the gutter for a long time. It's really slippery without the shoes. That was the day I truly accepted that I can't have alcohol or drugs, ever. Not a beer, not a glass of wine, not even six hits of acid at a Grateful Dead show, no matter how well it makes me dance. I kinda get where you're coming from. There's something I want that I can't have for the rest of my life." 2x09

He and Pen are best friends. Also considers Max his bestie. Wants to Netflix and chill with them both, together. 2x09

"My abuelita used to put Vicodin in her coffee. And her lemonade and her sandwiches. Maybe she had a problem. As my father said to me on my ninth birthday, 'You don't need me anymore.' I use my garage for pickling and sea horse breeding." 2x10

Loves puns. "This is Elena Alvarez, my handyman mentee. Or handy-manatee." "The toilet is a cruel mistress. She is flush with complications." 2x10

"Herb and Sherb McGurb. Her real name is Sheryl, but she gets a kick out of Sherb." 2x10

"Bonsai's for dorks. This is penjing. The gentle Chinese art of tray scenery. Now that you're working for me, I finally have some leisure time." "Oh, look, there's little people. Wait, is that my family?" "Could be any Cuban family." 2x10

"I may only look two or three years older than you, but I have the wisdom of that ancient bonsai!" 2x10

"Always take the lemonade. That's Handyman 101! So you watched Jeopardy with them and then what? Well, now we know what your problem is! You fixed their toilet, but you didn't fix their souls. Elena, growing up, I had everything. But I was always alone. I don't want my tenants to feel that way, so I do more than just fix stuff. Apartment 306, macrame with Mrs. Watson. 201, lose at chess to Mr. Roth. 402, listen to all their Cuban nonsense. That's the job. That's what takes four hours. That's the difference between being a handyman and a super." 2x10

Has heard 'you're fired' a lot. 2x10

"After a grueling 30 minutes of thought, Nikki, will you be my starter wife? You're on the rebound. That's the best time to get married. You don't have time to think. So you were never thinking about me? My emotions? My feelings? You used me, Nikki, Finn's mom! And not in the way I like! And that's not all, Sister Barbara. We knew each other. Biblically. And while we were doing it, she took the Lord's name in vain. A lot!" 2x11

"Last night, I was testing the pH of the water in my seahorse ranch and, as I looked at those vomiting little guys, I realized I suck at tests. All tests. Drug, sobriety, vision, IQ, smog. You name it, I fail it!" 2x12

"Have you ever been arrested?” “Does public nudity at a hockey game count?” “There is, uh, no mention of a public nudity charge in your file.” “Oh, you just go to YouTube and type in 'Zam-boner.'" 2x12

"Yeah, they didn't specifically ask if I got drunk and tried to ride a moose, so after that I was golden." 2x12

"How important is having kids to you?" "Never really thought about it." 2x12

"I'll have you know I babysat my babysitter's kids while she was babysitting my dad, so, yeah, I got a little experience under my belt. Oh, it's my cousin Gordy. He still thinks I'm full-on Canadian. All right, good news is Gordo bought it. Bad news is I'm judging a poutine festival in Saskatoon next week." 2x12

"You're the single greatest mother I know." "Thank you. That means a lot coming from a guy with five moms." 2x12

"Fuzzy Afghan she likes, picture of the Pope, picture of a different Pope, picture of your dad, picture of the family, picture of me with the family, picture of me by a waterfall. I'm just gonna keep talking 'cause I'm not good in crisis situations." 2x13

"It's so crazy how we're both immigrants. I mean, I would never compare my story to yours, but the parallels are spooky. You were 18, I was 18. You left your family behind. I left four step-families, a maid, a butler, a chauffeur, and a horse groomer who really got me. But Father was expanding his business to the US and so I had to go. I remember, at the airport, I was crying. But Father put his arm around me and he said, 'Son, only losers cry.' So that was a long flight. You don't know how dirty a dirty look can get until you're crying for a whole plane ride and you're not a baby. I really didn't wanna be in America. So I drank. And I recreated the snowy plains of Canada with cocaine. I'm told I attended classes at Pepperdine University, but I will have to take that on faith. So, I'm in a detox center in El Segundo. This was my fourth rehab. My re-re-re-rehab. I thought I'd been doing a kickass job keeping my drug stuff a secret from all the tenants and then you showed up in my room at that clinic. You brought me sopa de pollo and said it's Cuban penicillin. You told me, 'You eat this, you get some sleep, and tomorrow, you try again.' And then you tucked me in and kissed me good night on my forehead. Forehead kisses are wildly underrated. Just something really comforting about 'em. Then again, it might just be you. Dad never did that. Or my horse groomer. After I got out of rehab, I started hanging around your apartment a lot more, 'cause it helped. Back then, it must have felt like you had this annoying, intrusive guy over. Not like now. 'Cause now you're my family. Don't worry. I haven't legally changed my last name to Alvarez. My lawyer said it was a whole thing, so... Anyway, Pen said no crying, so I'm not gonna. Actually, for once, I agree with Father. Only losers cry. And we're not losing anybody today. Let's hit that oath ceremony soon, okay?" 2x13