#bushy tail. slightly wider and pointier rabbit ears. and a slightly longer muzzle with fox teeth and canines alongside rabbit front teeth

[je-doute-donc-je-suis]

Last night i spent like, almost two hours only watching videos of dogs eating raw food.

I've always craved raw meat and those raw dog diet where it's like, livers kelp powder a chicken leg quail eggs minced meat and a cracked egg on top. Always wanted to try steak tartar because it's the only way i know for this body to get raw meat. Now i desperately need to be able to eat bones too. Duck and chicken necks, and chicken and deer ribs look and sound so so so good. Same with dried cow and deer ears

Just an entire hour and a half of watching dogs crunch on and slurp up raw meat and bones while i salivated like crazy and kept gulping down air

Then when i was done and settled for bed. My anxiety was suddenly very high. Any noise or creak made me freeze, and sudden paranoia made me convinced that it meant someone broke in without making any noise at the front door, which is impossible, and kept making me turn around to look, and made me convinced that I'd turn around to see an intruder in the dark staring at me before hurting me. The feeling of eyes prickling on my back

Obviously i know that was bullshit. But the fear and paranoia was still here, and i didn't understand why. Until it clicked

My predator shift (still don't know if domestic dog, african painted dog, or fox) switched to my wild rabbit/hare type, and the natural prey anxiety + all the meat eating by predators made me go fight or flight-fearing for my life mode

That really didn't feel good