#bunnyinluteal :: cycle

[bunnyinluteal]

6:30pm :: day two ... the bleeding slowed to light but med again now

i'm feeling the fatigue again but

i think it's from lack of my pms issues and more my horrible sleep last nightsakjdglsdg

i also haven't ate yet so we'll see... by end of night esp if i try to stream lol

[bunnyinluteal]

3:02 pm :: feeling bad, and low → edit day 1 of menstrual/period

no cramps or anything else

just Fatigue and bowel movements

im so tired rn, it's hard to keep my phone upright

i believe my last post said, if the "spotting" continues, mark as my period, will not here or in new entry if i do

edit 1:

i am definitely no longer spotting and am on my cycle early :stressed: whooo

but as i noticed... with bleeding starting i don't feel As Bad now since the last past like 3 hours (from 9pm - 11pm) which i assume is about when i started

[bunnyinluteal]

5:25 :: again waking up was hard

i felt fine [around 11am - 1pm] at first but got really exhausted from just bed rotting... [2pm]

my mood didn't drop to the pits until i found dark fic aventurine where again the mindset was too much like mine and it like amplified how bad i was feeling

it wasn't as severe as yesterday but it wasn't great either; the thoughts were nowhere near as loud

after getting up and moving around, socializing a bit and not being glued to my screen AND eating [4pm - 5pm] i feel better and the thoughts are like muted completely (currently as of writing this)

[bunnyinluteal]

1:55pm :: was struggling really bad with getting out of bed after i couldn't get back to sleep

6:58pm :: today was rough; was really deep in my self-hatred depression today... every step of every action today was hard because i was berating myself left and right

again my patience was really short with my mom who i expected to help me but couldn't be bothered to (she did in the end but laughs)

i'm... okay now, will report back if mood dips further now that i'm at my desk (where it can get worse due to discord notifs

[bunnyinluteal]

8:42pm :: day 1 cycle... with some data to look out for

so based on this i had 20 day cycle before my last last cycle

last cycle: 09/07 to 09/10 was period (4 days), cycle lasting for 15 days (09/21)

so the last one i had was like 23 days... so i'm averaging a 20 ~ 25 day cycle? 15 was Quite short

mum mentioned the 31 days a month might be throwing it off

i've only consider that it's hormonal or stress

the only sure way to find out: see my doc (overdue, anyway, since i've a new doctor with my new job's benefits)

[bunnyinluteal]

10:46pm :: cycle day one - bleeding finally

was spotting up until when i woke up early this morn

doing mostly okay, better than yesterday

11:30am - instead of going back to sleep like i intended (woke up super early) and self-care... had a small moment of depression (felt like yesterday but worse) and had a spiral moment of jumping from one thing to the next

i'm okay now and even found the energy to do trash chores

[bunnyinluteal]

8:32pm :: hhh hard day

was beating myself up about stuff... dragging my feet, low energy (more like mood)

and then i get home to see i've been spotting

if it spots 1-2 more days i'll log as period

the occasional anxiety (where i thought i was just being crazy) and sudden spike of depression wasn't just my imagination wow !!!

[bunnyinluteal]

9:02pm :: been slacking but i think i blame ovulation (+ stinky weekend)

yesterday was the final day of my ovulation...

[bunnyinluteal]

3:36pm :: spotting... felt down today

so it makes sense how i feel, been out of my luteal phase for at least 5-7 days (been busy and slacking zzz) been more or less oke though !!!

8:30pm :: spotting into bleeding, period def started

[bunnyinluteal]

10:02pm :: flo alert, luteal phase beginning... !

either started yesterday or today... so be mindful!

[bunnyinluteal]

6:30pm :: the spotting and bleeding is finished ywy

and i feel better than i ever have!

will drop a better edit later:

[bunnyinluteal]

3:12pm :: day four ... doing way better but

not sure if this is spotting or bleeding?

it seemed spotty but woke up to bleeding so...

https://x.com/erebuns/status/1816597259968258181 need to keep an eye on that it basically; we'll see tomorrow

in other news; pms symptoms

doing and feeling much, much better...

fatigue is mostly gone

and the emotions and spiraling are under control

[bunnyinluteal]

2:06pm :: it went all bad last night..... (also day three?)

went to bed late, stayed up and read a fic, fic was too personally relatable and had i haitham'd out

it went Real bad when i vented to napa and he brought up further points

and instead of putting the fic down i spiraled harder

ended up being 6am and i struggled to sleep bc my mind wouldn't shut off

and then i felt bad all morning due to not eating and almost 0 sleep sigh

things were better after food and finally getting home though sigh

i'm doing okay now..... just the deep realization that i overshared probs lmao and i have regrets but w.e

[bunnyinluteal]

9:22 :: sudden spotting ??? just came back from the bathroom

i'm 12 days from my period (currently supposedly ovulating -- i think

but i'm spotting Right Now??? with 12 days...

also sudden mood drop and fatigue (RN AS I WRITE THIS ENTRY) and lack of horny just made me think

i'm in MY LUTEAL PHASE???

IM IN HELL FREE ME

from flo btw........

so not luteal but ??? what is this-- ACTUALLY THE CIRCLE GRAPHS EXPLAIN EVERYTHING THIS IS THE MFING LUTEAL PHASE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

(but this. doesnt explain the spotting

[bunnyinluteal]

8:16pm :: i think i will stop daily logging

and only report during luteal + menstrual phase so today will be my last "daily" entry

so nothing to report as usual!

just a dip in energy (which i attribute to socializing - fam and aunt and baby came over, mike and tiff came too)

and then i took calcium w.o eating LOL so i'll do that now

[bunnyinluteal]

8:18pm :: okay just exhausted

not pms related or anything; just woke up twice and didn't sleep long or much today

then had 8 hr outting

i'm okay... the spiral thoughts are at bay just literally exhausted...