#bunch of fucking rainbow puritans

[whetstonefires]

calling preferred pronouns a “stupid social protocol” is,,,, a take for sure

Yeah and honestly I think it's a very valid one for an autistic 16 year old who has exclusively had the concept explained by people inexplicably shouting at her about what an evil person she is because.

She asked someone how a mutual acquaintance was doing these days by the name and pronouns they used four months ago, when she last heard about them.

Rules are just. They're just rules. We make them up. We have to tell each other about them and navigate and negotiate and evolve them. There's gonna be access conflicts. People don't know your set of rules as a natural upwelling of inner virtue, that's not how culture or goodness or anything works. Queerness should not be about conformity.

Social constructs aren't. They aren't all that important.

You have to realize this if you want to liberate people to actually fuck freely with gender. You have to stop criminalizing and taxonomizing and demanding universal obedience to your particular principles. I am sick to death of shit like getting told by trans women that drag is transphobic and should be shamed.

If we enforce Virtuous Conduct by abusing people, we do not get an overall improvement in wellbeing. We get a lot of people keeping their heads down and obeying the New Rules with the same bitter helplessness they obeyed the first set of Arbitrary Gender Pronouncements they were raised into, and a bunch of unnecessary enemies.

Don't do that shit.

[holeposts]

is it just me or is the whole "progressive" christian "jesus would totally rock out to some nine inch nails and hang ten bro" thing super fucking cringy. i don't think there's anything in either the bible or the historical record to support that and i don't know if nine inch nails would be particularly fond of that assertion either. imo liberal christians do just as much cherrypicking of the bible as conservatives do. the bible is a religious text written thousands of years ago over the course of hundreds of years. yes, it contains sex, and rebellion, chastisements of authority, and love, and it also contains warnings of punishment, misogyny, slavery, religious laws, chastisements of the people. it's not all strict puritanism and it's definitely not all sunshine and rainbows because it was literally just written by a bunch of religious people in a religious society with very different customs from our own tf

[longeyelashedtragedy]

this has been the most wild fuckin year so let’s do a Year in Review shall we

in terms of internet and fandom life, that is. my real life has been atrociously boring but who cares about real life amirite folx

january probably the only calm month of the year.  i spent the first day of the month watching the brazilian inauguration in burgos, spain with one headphone in, while ordering for my family in a restaurant where nobody spoke english (my sister speaks decent spanish, but my whole family has like 8194814 food restrictions so it kind of went past her level of ability). translating between spanish and english with portuguese in one year was kind of awesome. i watched bodyguard and it was amazing!  what else...in january i briefly owned the issue of spanish GQ with Luka on the cover which i then forgot about until november. other than that...? nada.  the calm before the storm. (fav music)

february was so long ago that i keep forgetting how insane its 28 days were.  probably the wildest month of the year really. i got involved in an absolutely batshit and exclusive group chat with a famous person’s family member (which must remain confidential). it was all sunshine and rainbows for a week and a half and it then devolved into the most absolutely insane Lord of the Flies situation ever--it turned into 1 main chat and then 1 chat that was less puritanical than the main chat, and that chat spawned another chat that didn’t trust the previous chat, and then that chat had a massive argument and a like 6-person bitchy chat modded by a gay guy who does voodoo (shoutout to ALCIDES) spawned from that one.  i made it into every level of group chat and was asked by the tiny bitchy chat to spy on the other bitchy chat (i did not lol). i was a member of the tiny bitchy chat until i got a new phone and was logged out of whatsapp for like a month.  these words can’t even convey what this chat was like--oh and did i mention it was all conducted in only my 3rd-best language? it’s no wonder my weird ass survived middle school almost entirely unscathed.  as this was winding down, on the very last day of the month, I found out about Justin’s involvement in the SNC-Lavalin scandal and decided to go public about my years-long boner for him; Lavscam definitely changed the course of the rest year ~ Oh, also i began helping to repair a friendship that had had some Drama go down so that was p cool ~ (fav music)

march was a Time. The insanity of lavscam helped me finally finish the macdeau I started writing the previous December when a bunch of tungelr people called me disgusting for writing it.  i wrote my first straight-up serious explicit porn in years which has wound up being the third-longest thing i’ve ever published on ao3. Also, Hozier released Wasteland, Baby! which made a huge impact on me as well.  i spent like half of march staying up till 3:30 am writing said Long Fic, and i was firmly in the closet about stanning manu. also justin almost got a vote of no confidence or something and he got busted for eating a chocolate bar during a parliamentary all-nighter.  (fav music)

in april i wrote a ton of fanfic thanks to declining mental health(tm).  i think this is when i started my emmanuyell insta account and became really into making weird edits (which i still love doing just...don’t anymore.)  i started meeting some cool people thanks to macdeau.  what else happened in april? i feel like it wasn’t actually too eventful other than writing a lot of fanfic and being Annoyed about manu.  feel free to jog my memory lol.  oh i think i wrote “Okay so who from the French national team are we gonna ship Manu with” on twitter after seeing photos of manu + antoine griezmann at the World Cup but nothing came of that...at that time... (fav music)

may saw me having to deal with my shit mental health and up my meds but that seems to have had a good effect because i seem to not be too depressed to write in the winter/fall anymore! it was the 2nd anniversary of manu’s election and at the Christchurch Call in paris, macdeau took that amazing fairytale princess photo together that was completely unrivalled in Gay Shippy Feels moments until ivan went out of his way to kiss luka during the el clásico gameplay last wednesday. someone wrote ao3′s first griezmanu drabble and at the end manu gets down on his knees in front of antoine, takes off his shoes for him, and sucks his dick, and i achieved another state of being entirely.  my sister graduated from grad school and when we went down to DC for the weekend i went to eat at this restaurant manu famously ate at while there and ordered the same stuff he did and i have no idea how he consumed all that grease.  i learned about the song O Come, O Come, Emmanuel *snort*. i feel like other things happened in may too?  OH YES--i got the idea for my magnum opus, Trophy Boyfriend, and started to write it. the first scene i wrote was justin blowing manu in the hallway. then the same day i wrote the scene at the airport (which was the ending for a solid month and half till i realized it shouldn’t be), and the saddest scene in the fic--but we’ll stop to open presents.  oh! and i stumbled across the macronists discord chat which is such a delightful little community *weepy sniffles* (fav music)

june was Eventful.  a french neonazi on tumblr told me to go let manu fuck me in the ass because i was a fucking degenerate.  what a start!  then came the ceremony in which manu awarded everyone on the french national team the legion of honor medal and the way he and antoine looked at each other was truly...Wait it was the 3rd Gay Shippy Feels moment of the year.  as soon as the ceremony was over i wrote a fic about it and haven’t looked back.  between this + watching almost every 2018 World Cup game and the women’s world cup (during which I cried during argentina’s last game because of that miraculous penalty) i finally achieved my years-long goal of getting into Futbol(TM).  Antoine dropped his spotify playlist and my crush on him turned into Intense Love (TM) and also he introduced me to some legit awesome artists.  which led to (fav music)

july, in which i wrote “ça c’est ma dope” which is definitely the best thing i’ve written since i wrote “modernity towering in front of the sky” almost exactly 10 years before. got embroiled in Soccer Transfer Drama and learned its pain for the first time (unfortunately, since i wound up attaching my heart-wagon to barça’s Suddenly Least Favorite Player, the transfer drama pain has...never ended) became a full-fledged culé, O the joy O the honor.  i wanted to ship antoine with someone on the team, which in their current chemistry-less season is a real challenge, but after seeing a few photos i decided it would be fun to casually ship antoine + ivan rakitic (partially because, ever since i went from Enemies to Lovers with the croatia NT during the World Cup, he was one of the only players i knew anything about other than messi, suárez, and piqué lmao). while looking on ao3 to see what kind of headcanons people had about him--and the fic is definitely in general better than what’s out there about antoine, which is perplexing because antoine is much easier to write than ivan--i found That Amazing Rakidric Fic and thought “oh wait that ship makes a lot of sense” and started also shipping ivan and luka with the fire of a thousand suns.  oh and my air conditioner was broken for like 3 weeks. i worked on more fics, seriously outlining the path of Trophy Boyfriend, and my music taste was killer. (fav music)

in august i finished Trophy Boyfriend in my neighborhood Starbucks after writing the scene that was giving me the most trouble (the scene at the beginning where they’re organizing their book collection). the fic has made multiple people cry and people disagree on whether justin’s choice at the end was the right one and god i’m so proud of it.  Instantly went on to write ‘i might not mind,’ a lively lighthearted Friends to Lovers ivantoine~ romp which was definitely going to be a one-off and i was definitely not going to get an extra celeb crush out of it,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, (fav music)

in september ivantoine became A Thing in my mind and it’s a whole ongoing slow-burn character-arcy series that has taken a very different turn than i had expected. i’m not saying it’s like, the most deep writing of all time, but it’s gone to some interesting places emotionally. honestly, ships and boners aside, the concept of a person who made some really stupid homophobia 101 comments many years ago slowly realizing over and over again that they have gay feelings for a man who seems rather comfortable with gayness is a fascinating one and one that’s really cool to explore in writing.  Or at least, i think so.  in many ways ivan is my most unreliable narrator because of the many layers of Discomfort, Emotion and Repression at play in the fic while he’s interacting with this pretty cheery and uncomplicated seeming-dude who’s still perceptive enough to sort of know what’s going on (and that’s not even adding in the star player/falling from grace former rockstar dynamic!!!)  i know in the current climate it’s Not Allowed to write about someone who said a bad, but luckily i’m too old to give a Fuck. ivantoine is hard to write but it’s my bff’s favorite ship of mine and has a few other excited fans on ao3 which tbh is kind of an accomplishment considering i made it up out of thin air and it’s not something you’d ever think would be a thing. instantly also developed ‘getting called out about ivan by a child on the internet’ as a goal.  and...i achieved my dream of leading high holiday services!!! (fav music)

october had more high holiday services and i worked a lot on certain fics (including d*janfic which would be fun to finish). i came up with the idea of a Very Long Rakidric Fic based on the translation of a gorgeous croatian folk song i sang in college (Janko fell asleep under the poplar/My dear and beloved/My beautiful dark eyes/Look at me/Under the poplar's golden branch/My dear and beloved/My beautiful dark eyes/Look at me/I tore off the golden branch/My dear and beloved/My beautiful dark eyes/Look at me--in which the golden branch is a reference to a way to get into the underworld). decided to start quarter-assedly learning croatian for fun.  Fun...ha.  other than fangirling a lot and watching the croatian NT play, october was pretty uneventful? i think? Justin got reelected and mauricio didn’t ;( (fav music)

in november i finally achieved my dream of having a literal child on the internet call me out about being attracted to a homophobe.  (they were a madridista even!) accidentally started writing some more rakidric and now i’m seriously hooked.  also accidentally came out of the closet about the secret crush i’d been harboring on luka modric and then one fateful day in the ihop on 14th st i realized i’d had this crush already and repressed it from my memory. Don’t do that kids! now it’s Hurting Really Bad. Ivan dropped the most pathetic and candid interview like...ever and i hope “¿Cómo puede disfrutar uno? Jugando al fútbol. ¿Cómo se siente mi hija pequeña cuando le quitan un juguete? Triste. Yo me siento igual. Me han quitado la pelota, me siento triste” goes down in the history of most epic futbol quotes of all time.  (still haven’t actually been able to watch this because no one has uploaded it anywhere)  What else...............Am i forgetting anything? i celebrated my birthday with @tender-vittles in epic fashion after two years of Not doing that, and turned 32 going on 15.  enjoyed my first-ever “x reader” fic (zlatko dalic x reader LOL) and finished “drive your plow over the bones of the dead” which was real fucking good. i saw hozier live and it was a religious experience and i unexpectedly cried during nina cried power and then called myself “Luka B” when ordering at the classy taco bell across the street after getting a glimpse of alexxx ryan in the flesh. (fav music)

now it’s december and my seasonal depression is a little worse than it’s been the past few years but i’m managing.  still shipping and writing and i just got called out about ivan again last week.  i’m 2 for 2 here!  el clásico was boring but also it was gay and my heart my heart my heart ! Anything could happen in the last 10 days of this year and honestly...I’m pretty sure I’m ready.

Most importantly this year, despite it being not that great in a lot of ways, I developed a lot more self confidence, made many important realizations, and became a lot more peaceful (despite how this post makes me sound) and wiser and less bitter and pessimistic.  And i became outspoken enough about antisemitism on the left to lose friends over it...3 for 3.  i can’t say i’m displeased with these developments.

Hasta 2020! <3

[screamqvccn]

❛   — INTRODUCING the scream queen EDWINA ! ❜ ˙ ˖

STATISTICS

Title: The Scream Queen

Full name: Edwina Clussy

Faceclaim: Kristine Froseth

Age: 17

D.O.B: April 19

Year in school: Junior

Gender: Cisfemale

Pronouns: She/her

Residence: North Normal

Worst fear: Blood, germs, dying, and pretty much everything

Milkshake order: Birthday cake with whipped cream and rainbow sprinkles

ABOUT

Edwina goes by Eddie, Eds, dumb bitch, or whatever you want to call her. She just hates when people call her by her last name (she’s VERY aware is sounds like ‘clown pussy’), so if you want to get under her skin then call her Clussy.

Comes off super timid and puritanical, but she’s really just a ball of rage (#aries). If you get to know her then her actual personality shines through. The first time people hear her curse they’re usually really surprised.

Edwina is a bit of an outcast. She’s not very confident and she’s not really good at much, but she’s a really broad knowledge of cars and is really good at tinkering.

She is a C R Y B A B Y. She tears up at the drop of a hat and is super emotional/ sensitive. On top of that she’s loud as FUCK when she’s upset so you better get earplugs if she’s ever mad or sobbing.

Although Edwina has been with the school paper for some time now, she isn’t really good at writing or photography. She really just joined because The Stoner did. She had 0 clue it’d turn from writing about soccer games to “why is blood oozing from the 2nd floor locker room walls?”

She’s pretty useful for troubleshooting technical issues though. Whenever the computers are down the duty of fixing them is left to Edwina.

Her dad owns the only car dealership in town so she’s grown up around cars. Edwina actually really likes them and wants to go into car engineering. She’s currently trying to fix up an old mustang her parents gifted her. 

The only time you’ll ever really see her dirty is if she has car schmutz on her hands from working. She really really REALLY hates things that are dirty and can be a germaphobe.

Edwina comes from a really Catholic family so she’s into the whole “I love you Jesussss” culture of the town. 

VERY in the closet. Edwina Clussy is a big ol’ lesbian, but keeps that shit buried so deep that she’s afraid to even mention it in confession.

The whole spooky shit about the town freaks her out. She’s really easy to scare, so if people start talking about any of the weird things happening, she starts screeching.

Edwina lives in North Normal towards the edge of town so there’s some vast woods in her backyard. She doesn’t want to believe God would let anything supernatural and malicious run amuck in the world, but something about the way she feels watched from her window sometimes just feels unsettling.

UPDATES

A few month ago, Edwina had an incident where she glanced at this girl Heidi Dods in the locker room while they were all changing for gym and Heidi started calling her a bunch of gay slurs. Heidi told everyone Edwina was a pervert and so everyone started spreading around that she was a lesbian & Heidi convinced the gym teacher to ban her from the locker room.

It #sucked, but then her and Jamie got forced to do 7 minutes in heaven at Tommy’s blood and guts blacklight party. They pretended like they kissed and Jamie was like “wanna fake date so people stop calling you names?” and she was like “you talk about Satan and wear a lot of black, but w/e I’ll do it.”

Now they’re “dating” but if you literally ask her even the most innocent of questions about their relationship she usually gets all sweaty and will likely blurt out some crazy answer.

Is currently working on a rover for her science fair project. She always wins second to this guy Shoprite Cruz, but she’s hoping to kick his ass this year. You can usually find her doing something with it in the club office.

Sometimes she builds weapons for the club (for self defense purposes of course) and like 99% time she’ll say yes if you tell her you want something.

She refurbished a bunch of walkie-talkies and handed them out to the club.

HEADCANONS

Favorite animals are bunnies and she really wants one, but her dad says no.

She barely hits 5′1″ and hates when people point out the fact she can’t reach the tall shelves in the Newspaper office.

Tries to come up with every excuse under the sun for P.E. class. If her teacher forces her to participate then sometimes you can catch her trying to make herself throw up behind a bush when the class is running around the track.

Says she doesn’t believe in ghosts and ghouls because they’re not in God’s vision, but she get’s pretty shaky whenever anyone takes about them for someone who’s a “non-believer”.

Has never been kissed. Someone tried to kiss her once at a birthday party, but she got nervous and high-fived them instead.

Her usual reactions to things are this, this, or this

Sports a fanny pack to school every day like a champ. Also carries around a rolling backpack and wears her lanyard around her neck like a fucking nerd.