#bulldoze through baby please baby please baby pl

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punish me gently!

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Okay I just finished the ACOTAR series for the first time and I have so many thoughts so I'm gonna write them down.

Also I have not looked at any fan theories or been a part of this fandom very much so all these headcannons are straight from the noggin:

Literally what the fuck is tamlin doing.

Okay getting this out of the way cause its a hot topic. Azriel is my baby I love him but

I would have mixed feelings about him being with both gwyn and Elaine. I love the idea of Elaine being azriels sunshine he deserves light in his life (also their scene in ACOSF had me ejdjbdksks) but also all three bat boys being with all 3 sisters rubs me the wrong way idk.

Gwyn is amazing because she's a badass bitch and if azriel doesn't snatch that up I will. I feel like azriel almost gets bulldozed over by the other bat boys (like he will do the dirty work only because he feels inferior) And I want gwyn to help him stand up for himself.

Gwyn is an adult jfc. I'd be more worried about her trauma.

I am totally a elucien shipper I'm SORRY lucien deserves the world

But at the same time I would totally understand if Elaine couldn't forgive him for his involvement in the cauldron business. That shit was wack. I just want this relationship to be the biggest, most "period drama esqe" slowburn.

I have very mixed feelings about lucien. On one hand lucien has never had a home and when tamlin took him in I can see how that loyalty blurred the lines of right and wrong. But at the same time lucien messed up MANY times where the archeon sisters are concerned.

Nesta deserved her kick in the ass because it was needed. She did not deserve everyone to be a little bitch to her. It felt like feyre was the only one who wanted her rehabbed for nestas sake. I definitely would have preferred Nesta to hit rock bottom and choose recovery for herself (cause alcoholism and things can only be truly solved through self help) Everyone else was uncharacteristically nonempathetic. Idk how Cassian could be okay with her treatment after they mated.

I'm still digesting Rhys and nestas relationship. I like that they don't like each other for most of ACOSF. Nestas reasons for treating feyre poorly are valid, but not excuses. The feyre, Nesta, and rhys relationship thing is weird cause I see all sides. I need more feyre and Nesta bonding they always get interrupted.

I HATE what SJM did to Mors character. What the fuck is up with mor not liking Nesta. Maybe we will get an explanation in the next book but I feel like mor was set up to be a great LGBT character with himbo allies but SJM just dropped her off a cliff. Big mad.

However I do want eris and mor to end up together. Not necessarily romantically, but I want them to have it out and I want eris to support mor. Kinda want them to be mates. Kinda want eris to be gay as well. Kinda want them to get married and them have consorts.

WHY does everyone treat feyre like a porcelain doll when the IC has more collective trauma than anyone else in this universe. Don't get me wrong I'm all about the hurt/comfort but it was so inconsistently written LOL. When the IC was telling their stories the first night they met and then feyre told hers I cackled like sorry but she is a baby

Rhys's trauma is just as recent as feyres... yeah he's a lot older and seasoned but oh my GOD he was consistently assaulted for 49 years. Feyre does very little to comfort him. Idk I feel like it was SO glossed over.

Like in ACOWAR feyre admits that amaranthas hatred wasn't personal it was general, unlike Tamlins hatred. But amarantha and rhys had multiple personal vendettas against each other. Like his amarantha is vaguely feyres tamlin. Rhys didn't even get to kill amarantha. His trauma is untapped. Rhys is the main character feyre is the love interest idc

Idk what yall say rhys is my baby my lovebug my everything. He's got his flaws but you can't love Nesta and hate him at the same time without being a lil hypocritical

But he's fucked in the head for thinking he was justified in drugging feyre every night for 2 months. Almost more mad about that than the SA (I dont really blame Rhys since it is not cannon to me. SJM just messed up 😌 it was so out of character) did he ever really apologize for that??

ALSO I know smj wanted to write like #consentking but half of what he allowed was so unnecessarily dangerous (like the first AND second weaver encounter- if my SO ran off in the middle of a battle to track down a mysterious creature when the task could have been done after the battle I would have be livid. Mor was justified in being mad.)

I'm so mad rhys didn't flatten tamlin during the high lord meeting. Either it will happen in the future or I will burn these books.

THE BAT BOYS HAVE CONNONICALLY BEEN IN THE SAME ROOM WHILE HAVING SEX. the foursomes in my head gets clearer by the day

I HATE the fact that rhys almost had an existential crisis over feyre being so young when she found her mate and not having "lived" and THEN GETS HER PREGNANT??? Are you kidding me. I'm so mad. I don't wanna deal with babies. I hate babies.

But I DO have a fun headcannon that since the bone carver is a death-god or whatever he KNEW nyx wouldn't survive and that is why he appeared as him. Also when the bone carver offered to take feyres first born in exchange for help rather than the oroboughs I think that was also foreshadowing. The only reason nyx survived was because of Nesta and the bone carver had trouble seeing the cauldron.

((Maybe nyx should have died during the birth idk))

Literally I would have enjoyed ACOSF if instead of the pregnancy feyre was busy looking for bryaxis. Literally what happened to him. Wtf

I know the plot armor is crazy thick around the IC but it would have been nice if one of them died. Well, not nice, but more believable. Maybe thats why nyx should have died. Lol I need therapy.

FREAKING HEADCANNON: the archeon sisters are partially fae. Their mom was definitely a descendant and that's why all three sisters have mates. It was hinted that the sisters had mated because they were powerful and cauldron made but Cassian and rhys could feel the pull before the sisters were turned.

Tarquin is the hottest high lord

The whole blood rite thing was stupid. I would have loved if it was spread out over a longer period of time but it was so unrealistic

You know we all love a good #girlboss🤢 moment but the whole valkarie thing seemed 1. Out of no where 2. Really quickly forced (ACOSF should have been like 2 books) 3. If emerie and mor get together life=complete

The inner circle and ther archeon sisters would not get along if they weren't mated to like 50% of the gang

They're too whiny

It's so weird that the mating bond can only be felt by guys??? Lol wut

Okay I know this is a complicated subject but having LGBTs in a universe with mates based in evolutionary advantage seems more homophobic than having a universe without LGBTs LOL. Like their connection can't be as deep cause they can't procreate?? I did like that SJM made up for it a little by saying not all mates are complementary souls.

Hybern was so powerful and for WHAT. I don't understand

Vassa, lucien, and jurian being a trio is so weird 😐

I WANT A NOVELLA ON THE STORY OF AMREN AND VARIAN. They are my otp. If anyone has made it this far and knows of some good amren and varian fanart pls let me know

Okay that is all for now thank you if you read down to here xoxo gossip girl.

P. S. Also I am starting throne of glass and am having a hard time getting into it. Can anyone vouch for this series please I'm conflicted.

Edit: omg I was zooted when I wrote this and didn't realize my phone autocorrected cassian to Caspian RIP

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Family Values. (1, Halstead Bros)

"Do you not understand what a fucking DNR is?" She had cornered him in he back room, their older brother by her side and Will didn't know if Jay was there to berate him or keep their spitfire sister from stabbing him with a scalpel. From the angered look on his face and the way his hand ghosted their sister's waist every now and then, it might be both. "Do not resuscitate. How hard is it for you to get that through your thick skull? Or do you just show up to work and forget all the medical training you've had?"

"She has a kid, what do you expect me to do?" Her eye twitched. She was the baby of the family, the only girl with two overprotective brothers who liked to act like she didn't have the ability to kick their ass. It was the eye twitch of anger that reminded them that she had taken more karate classes than either of them, and even if she hadn't, they could never hurt her.

"I don't know, perhaps respect the patients wishes?" She questioned, throwing her lab coat onto a nearby table and scrubbed her hands over her face. "And she wasn't just your patient, she was mine too and you completely ignored everything I said. I'm a good doctor, I know what I'm doing, and you just chose to ignore my every bit of advice."

"I know you are and I'm sorry but -"

"But what? You wanted to be an idiot? You wanted to lose your license? You wanted to be like da-."

"Hey!" Jay interceded, recognizing the line of thinking. His hand clamped on her shoulder as her voice cut off, hands going smack over her mouth as the intense anger escaped her. "We don't do that."

"I know. Will. I didn't - I'm sorry, please, I didn't mean to. I wasn't - please," Her hand reached out for him and he didn't hesitate to hold it in his.

"I know," He swallowed thickly. She hadn't meant to start to compare him to their father, although he was exhibiting some of the man's traits. "It's okay. I know I messed up, I should be apologizing to you."

"No, I get why you did it. I do. I wanted to, too but you can't keep doing this." She was almost begging, tears pooling in her eyes as she squeezed his hand as tight as she could muster. "You're a good man Will Halstead, but you have to remember to be a good doctor too. I'm a good surgeon, and it's selfish of me, but I'm nothing if you're not here working with me so if anything, do it for me."

"Shut up, you're the best surgeon this city has ever seen and don't think we don't know about the offer to work in Manhattan. We know we're the only reason you're staying." Will scoffed, but his fond was showing as he pulled his sister into a hug. "I'm sorry little bit, I shouldn't have done it."

"I just love you a lot and know what you're capable of. I don't want to see it stripped away because your feelings get the better of you." She reached out for Jay, pulling him into the impromptu family hug and barked a laugh when he practically bulldozed them over. "Okay, let me go now."

"Nope, you started this and you're going to see it through." Jay hated when they fought. The wonder twins were his everything and seeing them at odds was like getting punched in the chest. He should know, he had been.

"You guys are so gross."

"You're the one who got all mushy about me not working with you anymore."

"Okay, that's it; either let go of me or I'm telling Erin and Natalie about bros with hoes night from when you were in high school."

They were off of her in a flash, hands held up in surrender as she slipped on her lab coat and disappeared through the door with a bright smile like they weren't just arguing.

"We have the best little sister in the world, you know that?"

"Will, she is literally four minutes younger than you but yeah, we do."

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