#bucky barnes x reaer angst

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Hello would you mind doing an angsty oneshot where Bucky feels like you're falling out of love with him and pulling away from his affection and love? (The rest is up to you 😊)

Once and Always

Pairing: Bucky x reader 

Word Count: 1,757

Summary: You’ve been very busy and haven’t had a lot of time to spend with Bucky. Not even enough to notice that it’s hurting him.  (Dont’ worry it ends happy!)

Author’s Note: Thanks for this request love and thank you very much for your patience. I hope you enjoy it! Thank you all for reading! ❤❤❤

Warnings: Angst, sad Bucky, but followed by fluffyness and happy Bucky :) 

Bucky watched as you threw your head back in laughter, your whole face lighting up with the emotion and he couldn’t help but smile. It felt like he had been doing that a lot less recently. He missed you. It seemed that every time he tried to make plans you were busy. After almost a year of dating Bucky still felt like he did the first day he laid eyes on you, heart aflutter and happier than he had ever been. He was starting to wonder if you still felt the same for him.

After a few more giggles with the girls they all went their separate ways and you walked toward Bucky, wrapping your arms around his waist, “hey baby, whatcha doing?” Kissing the top of your head and pulling you in closer he’s quiet for a minute before responding, “nothing, just thinking about how much I love you.” You pull away just enough to look up into his stormy blue eyes, “I love you too, Buck, so much.”

His heart feels lighter at your words and he says, “let’s go to dinner later, we can try out that new restaurant you’ve been wanting to go to!” Squeezing him tighter and burying your face in his shirt you mumble, “I can’t baby, I promised Nat and Wanda some girl time tonight, I’m sorry.”

Bucky’s glad your face is hidden in his chest, he’s sure his own is reflecting the hurt he feels. Taking a deep breath, he replies, “no problem, doll, we can try for another night.” He doesn’t let you go, holding you like it’s for the last time, “you smell so good.” His comment takes you by surprise, “thanks babe, I always smell the same, unless I haven’t showered,” you joke, crinkling your nose.

He laughs but the smile doesn’t reach his eyes and his broad shoulders seem to slump under an invisible weight. You open your mouth to question him but your phone rings. You frown as he pulls away, grabbing your phone from the counter and handing it to you, “it’s Nat.” “Thanks,” you say quietly, watching him move around the counter to grab a glass.

Nat talks excitedly on the other line, telling you all the things she bought at the store for your girl’s night. Her excitement is infectious and before you know it, you’re jabbering animatedly along with her, all thoughts of Bucky’s sad eyes leaving your mind.

After saying goodbye to Nat, you turn back toward the kitchen to tell Bucky about your plans. Except, he is no where to be found. You’re frowning again. You walk to your shared room and call out for him. No answer. You notice there is a note on the coffee table, and you reach down to read it, ‘I went for a run, doll. If I’m not back before you go, have fun tonight. Love you.’

With your brows furrowed and shoulders sagging you walk to the bathroom to shower and change before heading over to Nat’s room. You let the hot water wash away your current worries, determined to have a good time tonight.

You arrive to Nat’s a few minutes early, helping her set up the snacks and drinks. “Hey Nat, have you noticed Bucky being a bit mopey lately?” you ask, trying to keep your tone light. She stares at you for a moment before looking down and busying herself with the cheese plate. “Nat.” You know she has something to say and you want her to say it.

“Well, Steve may have mentioned the same thing to me the other day.” Her confession makes your stomach turn, “he did?” you ask, your voice coming out small and broken. She moves closer to you, throwing her arm over your shoulder, “he just asked me if everything was ok and if anything had happened between you two because Bucky seemed a bit down and he hasn’t seen you guys together as much.”

You took a deep breath, thinking over the last couple of weeks. Breaking you out of your thoughts, Nat asks, “when was the last time you two went on a date or spent some good one on one time together?” You don’t meet her eyes, a shudder running through you as you admit, “his birthday, almost 2 weeks ago.”

The tears start to form before you can get out the next sentence and Nat has you wrapped in her arms. “Hey, it’s ok y/n. It’s ok, you’ve been busy, between working with Tony and all that the team has going on it’s been a lot.” You sniffle, looking up at her with watery eyes, “I know, but it’s no excuse, I should have made time for him, he’s everything to me. I can’t believe I didn’t see how sad he was until now.”

Nat hands you a tissue, wiping away a stray tear, “so then fix it.” You hug her tight, squaring your shoulders, “ok, maybe you and Wanda can help me think of something special to do for him.” She smiles, grabbing the drinks and pulling you toward the couch, “we definitely can!”

Wanda arrives a few minutes later and you fill her in, more tears staining your cheeks, but you’re determined to make Bucky realize that you love him more than anything. Over the next few hours, you eat lots of sweets, have a few yummy drinks and devise a plan to show Bucky just how much you love him.

As you walk back to your room later that night you feel a bit lighter and not because of the three drinks you had, but because you have a solid plan in place and you can’t wait to set it into motion. You’re going to need a little help from Steve, so you text him to see if he’s up. When he quickly responds you head over to his room and fill him in. Pulling you into a hug he mumbles into your hair, “he’s going to love it.”

Crawling into bed you notice Bucky is facing the other way, his wide shoulders curled into his knees and he almost looks small. You lean your chest against his back, wrapping your arms tightly around his waist and grabbing hold of his hand. He squeezes your fingers but makes no other indication that he is awake. You litter kisses all along his back, his muscles shifting under the softness of your lips. “I love you,” you whisper against his skin before falling into a dreamless sleep.

The next morning you awake to a cold and empty bed, Bucky’s side a tangled mess. Another small note sits atop his pillow, scribbled in Bucky’s handwriting, ‘out for a run, don’t wait for me for breakfast, Steve said he wants to grab a bite, love you.” You smile, knowing Steve has his part of the plan under control. Flinging the covers off you walk into the bathroom with a newfound purpose, ready to get Bucky’s surprise started.

The scavenger hunt you send Bucky on has him traveling all over the neighborhood. Each new clue found in a spot special to you both, the place of your first date, the location of your first kiss, even the tree in the park where he told you he loved you for the first time. You made sure each of your clues was detailed in ways only Bucky could know, words meant only for him.

When he finally arrived at your last clue, he was standing in front of the very restaurant he had wanted to take you to last night. With a genuine smile on his face he walked in and looked around, his eyes landing on you seated at a nearby table. You shot up from your chair and ran into his arms, burying your face in his chest, your quiet sobs wetting his shirt.

“Baby girl, it’s ok, don’t cry, look at me.” Bucky places his finger under your chin, gently lifting it so you can look into his eyes. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry!” you cry, clutching the front of his shirt in a tight grip. “I got so caught up in my own crap and I didn’t make time for us and it was wrong and I need you to know that you’re my everything and I love you more than anything Bucky!”

His large thumb swipes over your cheek to dry your tears. “I love you; I love you, it’s ok, I forgive you, don’t cry.” He repeats the words ‘I love you’ against your lips, cradling your face in his hands as you continue to hold his shirt in a death grip.

You don’t know how long you’re standing in the middle of the restaurant, holding each other and whispering. Bucky’s lips silence your constant apology, the kiss quickly becoming desperate as all your emotions are poured into it.

The loud clearing of a throat startles you both as you pull away to find the manager smiling but giving you the ‘take it outside’ look. You and Bucky let out a giggle and spew out several apologies as you walk out the door. Bucky grabs your hand, pulling you into his side and holding you close. “I know just the place to go, doll, come on.”

Bucky leads you toward your favorite park, “this way we have more privacy in our spot,” he says, smiling down at you. You reach the grassy area under the large oak tree that is tucked away at the other end of the park. Bucky sits and pulls you into his lap, “now where were we,” he hums before brushing his lips to yours.

“Bucky, wait.” You look at him, eyes pleading, “I love you and I want you to talk to me if you’re ever feeling like my head is up my ass, please.” He holds your gaze, staring into your eyes, “I know, I really do and thank you for doing all this for me, it was really special and made me happy and I promise to talk next time. I love you.”

The kiss starts out soft, Bucky’s warm lips moving languidly against yours as you straddle his lap. Large calloused fingers run along the soft skin under your shirt, your soft moans swallowed by his mouth. He feels every inch of you he can in the public space, gently sucking your bottom lip between his teeth before coming up for a breather. “I could spend forever right here with you,” he murmurs against your kiss swollen lips.

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Hello would you mind doing an angsty oneshot where Bucky feels like you're falling out of love with him and pulling away from his affection and love? (The rest is up to you 😊)

Once and Always

Pairing: Bucky x reader 

Word Count: 1,757

Summary: You’ve been very busy and haven’t had a lot of time to spend with Bucky. Not even enough to notice that it’s hurting him.  (Dont’ worry it ends happy!)

Author’s Note: Thanks for this request love and thank you very much for your patience. I hope you enjoy it! Thank you all for reading! ❤❤❤

Warnings: Angst, sad Bucky, but followed by fluffyness and happy Bucky :) 

Bucky watched as you threw your head back in laughter, your whole face lighting up with the emotion and he couldn’t help but smile. It felt like he had been doing that a lot less recently. He missed you. It seemed that every time he tried to make plans you were busy. After almost a year of dating Bucky still felt like he did the first day he laid eyes on you, heart aflutter and happier than he had ever been. He was starting to wonder if you still felt the same for him.

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