#btw not the same reason i was upset earlier I'm just feeling bad about it rn lol

[heatobrienswife]

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[summercourtship]

Um… hi Kyra! Be prepared bcs this will be a long one…

So, I finished KCU about four months ago, and let me just say that I think it’s a masterpiece, everything about it is perfect, one part in particular that I loved was how relatable the reader was (Believe it when I say it, it is HARD to do that, especially when you don’t know WHO is reading) I could definitely see myself doing exactly what she was doing! I loved how possessive Kylo Ren was and how he as also extremely conflicted about the reader herself, you managed to portray his turmoil really well! A part that BROKE me was when Leia was talking about how he got his soulmate phrase… Damn… you’re telling me this kid, that already thought of himself as a monster, was super happy that he HAD a soulmate, because that was a confirmation that he could be good and be loved unconditionally by someone, only to have his hopes CRUSHED when HIS MOTHER read to him what it said???!!!! DAAAANNGGG GIRL!!! You woke up and chose violence!!!!

But anyway, let’s get to the point that I wanted to get… ahem… if you’re comfortable… AND ONLY IF YOU’RE COMFORTABLE… (if not, ignore this part all together) I wanted to know if you have plans to continue it, i have been searching in your profile (stalking) for a reason why you stopped(not that i am obligated to have one!!) and the only thing i could find was that you stoped writing for KCU was bcs you felt that people wanted to end in a certain way and you didn’t (I could be wrong btw it has been a long time since I saw it) and that’s so sad! BUT I am really happy with the chapters we have! I love re-reading them! In the end you should put yourself first, if it’s not making you happy then you should not stress about it!

Also… if you don’t have any plans for it… I think it would be really cool if showed some BTS! I saw the other ask saying the same thing about STBOTDI (amazing fic btw) and i thought “hey it would be pretty neat if she did it for KCU too!” so if you’re feeling generous, feed this starving woman?

Anyway! thanks for listening to my rant! Thats all Folks

oh, kingdom come undone, my beloved. thank you so much for your kind words- it's been a while since I've looked back on KCU. I'm pretty sure I cackled when planning the part with Kylo's soulmark and the revelation about how it appeared because it's so sad lmao.

I do have plans to continue it, eventually. I want to go back and edit earlier chapters (and truly EDIT them, like overhaul level of editing) because I want to put it back on track to the vision I had for it originally. A big part of why I kinda fell out of love with writing it is because I felt like there was going to be a lot of people upset that I didn't make "Ben Solo" happen because fuck that shit, I like Kylo Ren bc he's a piece of shit who is sad sometimes not because he's an uwu soft baby who made a lil mistake.

But also, I started writing it in a really hard time- I had been dealing with extreme isolation due to both COVID and some things that happened with my friend group that ended up separating me from them (I had my family and I'm very grateful but there were months before I returned home from my college apartment because I wanted to be independent and believed it wasn't that bad and ended up just... not coping well with that, I'm afraid). I started planning KCU when I was in Pennsylvania for my grandmother's funeral and was writing it while dealing with extreme anxiety and depression combined with the struggles of being on different medications. So, while I do hold KCU in my heart and I love it, I do view it as a time capsule and know that I was writing it to distract myself from and cope with the shit I was dealing with. All of that makes it hard for me to go back to it because it feels very vulnerable, even if it doesn't come through in the text. I don't know if that makes sense.

BUT yes, I would love to one day go back, give it some TLC, and finally finish it for you all. I don't know if I have any BTS I could share right now because I really want to sit down with it and fix it, but once I'm comfortable with the state it is in, I will share.

Thank you so much. <3

[17cmiller]

So, do you guys know Kraneimation from DA?

Hey guys, 17cmiller here. Once upon a time I had a Deviantart account. I had to deactivate it due to a conflict involving a certain user - I didn't want any beef.

So, you guys may know this guy as the creator of Tom MacPow (or well now it's Tom Matthews). Well for those of you who don't know what if I told you all that he had another account once: it was called Jeremy the Blockhead (and mariolover54321 before that). He operated it from 2012-2018 before making his current account around August of 2018. At the time, he had characters like Tom and Star (er, Samantha now) and still does but what you didn't know he also had other characters at one point: Melody, Kippy, Clara and a few others (he stopped drawing them before the account jump). Well, the reason I'm making this post is because he recently deactivated it. I initially made a post on the topic on there wondering what happened, he wouldn't say anything about it, so I kept making a few more posts on the matter, I even sent him an email on that same website at one point - still nothing. So, I messaged him on his message wall and that was when I finally got my answer (I'll be analyzing it)

''you realize that the old account's been deactivated for literal months right, up to a year even? (Well, if it's been deactivated for a year then how come I was still able to see it up earlier this year fully intact. Hell, how were you even able to reactivate it a few weeks ago with the same results. Plus, you act as if I'm supposed to just know when it was deactivated)

i deactivated that account because i wanted to move on. i understand this is upsetting for you, but i feel like you need to understand that i just want to move on with myself and better myself. i had a lot of bad memories from that account and i'd rather focus on bettering myself. (Dude, let's be honest - you left it up for over 5 years after you stopped using it (which btw is half a decade or more) - how is that wanting to move on? (especially considering you never even considered deactivation beforehand). Plus, if you had ''bad memories'' from that account, why did you leave it up for as long as you did?. Also, didn't you also have good memories from that account as well (why are you only focusing on the bad)?)

now if you can stop obsessing over me on your end, that would be fantastic, thanks : ) (Woah there buddy, slow your role there, I only said I was a fan of your work, I never said anything about being obsessed over you. Plus, I just wanted you to reactivate your other account. So, chill out, will you? Geez, you're acting like I want to marry you or something - no offense but I'm not gay. And before any of you come at me with the ''he's autistic'' thing just know that I am too, but at least I don't say stuff like this whenever someone appreciates my art).''

You guys have to admit that I made some pretty good points on this. If you're gonna leave an old account up for years on end, only for you to decide to deactivate now all of a sudden, then why even bother leaving it up at all?

Yeah so, that was the response I got - it took a freaking week to get a response out of him and I don't even agree with it (especially that last part which was completely out of pocket imo. I get that I may have annoyed him at some point with all the posts asking what happened to his old account but that last bit was still unnecessary - if this is him wanting to "better himself" then he's doing just a stand up job at it already. Keep in mind, I've been nothing but nice to him the whole time). Anyway, after one final post on DA explaining that I finally got some closure. He blocked me. I tried to apologize to him (and I even deleted all the DA posts I made surrounding the deactivation), but apparently he didn't want to hear it. As I mentioned before, I deactivated my DA account because I didn't want anymore problems with anyone.

[theroseempress]

the disability angst trope is very interesting to me.

now personally I am not disabled in the way most media (and social perception) counts as disabled, (so if you do fit that bill and have thoughts on my thoughts on this trope absolutely feel free to add them) I just have funky eyes (while I personally think this should be viewed as a disability, glasses are an aid after all, media never does) and joints that make loud clicking noises sometimes for no apparent reason. the closest i've ever gotten to disability that impaired my movement was the one time my knee got injured and had a bandage wrapped around it that made it very hard to to bend the knee.

but anyway, back to the point.

there's two types of disability angst that I see in media. the first one is when a character is born with their disability and Oh Woe Is Me Everything Is Horrible How I Wish I Could Run And Skip Like The Other Children.

now personally I think this part of the trope is bullshit, if you'll pardon my language and the strength of this statement.

the closest I've ever gotten to disability angst is when i was around 10-14 and went through a period of intense social anxiety because I thought everyone was staring at me and thinking 'oh she's so weird, her eyes don't point the same way, she's so weird and bad'.

that was never because of how my actual eyes worked. that was entirely due to how every piece of media with characters that had exotropic strabisimus (what I meant by 'funky eyes' earlier) depicted those characters as crazy, unstable, wacky, ditzy, and insane. (I still have yet to see a character with either type of strabisimus who isn't depicted like that).

now, again, I'm certainly not qualified to speak for other disabilities considering I don't. have them. but I really wouldn't be surprised if that's also something that happens with other disabilities.

my point is, I guess, that if someone is undergoing disability angst, then it's almost definitely a product of how the world around them views it and not their actual disability. like, if you're born like that, that's just how you are, you know? I've never considered getting eye surgery or anything like that, because that's just part of what i am. my hair is brown and my eyes are funky. (no hate on people who do get eye surgery btw, they're your eyes and if that makes you happier? then I'm glad for you) IDK, this wasn't really the part of the trope I was planning to talk about.

anyway, the second part of this trope. and the part I was talking about when I said it was interesting to me!

characters who acquire a disability in the course of their life and then get angsty about it.

now, this does actually make some sense to me. if I were to suddenly use full use of my legs tomorrow? yeah! I don't think I'd be just cool with it! not because wheelchairs are horrible instruments of suffering or something, but because fuck, my legs, I was using those.

just the way I am as a person, I don't think I'd be very prone to 'woe is me suffering my leg broken', but it would certainly take me a while to adjust, and depending on how it happened, I would probably be rather upset.

now, admittedly I don't put as much value on my legs compared to, say, my eyes. if I were to lose full sight in my eyes? fuck.

(brief aside on my sister now, who is also able-legged and the most active person I know, I feel like she'd have a much harder time than me with adjusting to a wheelchair. she's an adult woman older than me and runs around with the energy of a toddler. it's incredible)

would I adjust after a while and continue on happily? yes. definitely. blindness is not the end-all of everything and I am a stubborn woman, I know I'd still be fine. but the adjustment would be rough. I'm not an audial person at all, and if I couldn't see then audio's really the only way I'd be able to interact with writing, (unless I learnt Braille, which would presumably take a bit) which is something incredibly important to me.

and ignoring that, there'd be lifestyle changes. going with the wheelchair example, my current living situation and lifestyle are not wheelchair accessible at all. I'd quite literally have to move if that happened, and that would be. an issue.

if I went blind? I don't think I'd have to move, but again, the adjustment. I also love photography, and assuming I was fully blind, I wouldn't very well be able to do that. losing sight would really be a loss, to me.

and I think that's really it. that's what people who acquire a disability would struggle with. that's why people born with disabilities don't struggle with it.

loss. not the disability itself, but the loss of the.. ability I guess.

I don't know, I'm not really sure what I'm getting at here. what was my original point? ... oh right, that's what it was.

I still don't like it when disabled characters arrive on screen/paper and just spend their time drowning in angst on Why Do I Exist Like This, because there's always a part of me that remembers 12-year old me wondering if everyone hated me because I looked a little different.

and it feels so incredibly uncomfortable to see a character feeling the same way as little me and nobody comforting them, nobody telling them 'hey it's ok. it might be hard but it's ok. we still love you, this doesn't make you evil or unloveable. it just makes you human'

but on the other hand, if someone's just gotten their arm chopped off or something? yeah. that's going to be hard.

I don't know, maybe we just need more media that instead of letting characters drop simultaneously into disability and crushing angst, it has other characters help them through the adjustment period.

maybe there's another character who was born without an arm and they show the newly disarmed character ways some things are easier.

maybe when it really is harder to do things media should show characters figuring things out and getting help instead of just angsting or getting pity and platitudes rained upon them.

I'm not really sure where this post's going so I'm going to end it before I ramble any further. hope someone enjoyed this? leave your thoughts?

I'm going to go eat breakfast now, bye. <3

[archer12xx]

Letters to Tobias...

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Yo! I'm bored so I thought of writing you some letters. Of course, I won't give them to you~ Like I'd want you to read this stuff. Lol (also not sure whether you'd read them so...)

Anyway, I was at the mall with my friend the other day and I saw this pair of cool sunglasses and it reminded me of you. Then I wonder... When did things start reminding me of you? Still don't know the answer so I let it go.

Don't ask me if I bought the sunglasses. Maybe I did. Maybe I didn't. Who knows? My lips are sealed. :P

Welp that's all for today. I hope Vegas is fun for you~

-Me.

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Heya~ Saw you on TV today! Man, you're really good at what you do, aren't you? Makes me wanna watch you in person. But we both know that's...

Anyway, today's my day off and I didn't really have anything planned. Talked to the others a bit but since most of them are busy (esp Brooklyn) we ended up splitting right away. Why weren't you there, btw? You're usually online even when you're up in the air... Uh no, I'm not saying I miss you. Uh... Maybe I do...? Lol jk I don't. It's just weird not to have you around, I guess. Got used to your presence, and by your I mean the six of you. So if one of you guys isn't around, it doesn't really feel right.

I guess.

Anyway, hope you're well and come online already!!

-Me.

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3

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Yo! Why did you suddenly leave the chat earlier? Did something happen? I'm so curious but at the same time I'm not sure if it's okay to ask or if you'll even tell me. I couldn't follow your conversation with Rory since Leo and I are talking about the game he was recommending. Did he say something to upset you? Or...? Ugh I really don't know. I hope you could just tell me.

You know you can tell me when something's wrong or bothering you, right? I hope so...

Anyway, please take care always.

-Me.

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Dude, really... What's wrong? I messaged you after my last letter but you didn't reply. Until now you're not talking to me. Did something really happen? Did I say or do something wrong? I feel like you're avoiding me, avoiding to talk to me for some reason.

I don't understand.

You're in Vegas again today, right? Hope you're having fun. Then at least one of us is... :(

-Me.

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I can't open the messenger. No, it's not broken or anything... I just won't. I haven't been opening it. I can see some of the messages on my notification panel though, but I can't get myself to open it.

For some reason... I don't wanna see our conversation being left unread. I don't wanna see that you haven't replied on my messages.

Am I overreacting? I don't understand myself anymore...

Saw you on TV again today, btw. You seem okay so I'm glad. Take care always, Tobias.

-Me.

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6

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I was out getting groceries today and when I was looking for some snacks, I unconsciously grabbed a packet of mini m&ms. When I put them on my cart, I realized I don't really eat those... So why am I buying them? Then I remembered a photo you sent in the chat while you were on set before...

Ugh, I really need to go online.

-Me.

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Hey. So... We're back to normal. We're talking as if nothing happened... Well, nothing really happened. Apparently it was just me.

When I got back I saw loads of messages from you and for some reason the heavy feeling that I have been carrying in my heart in the past few days have been lifted. I guess now I can't deny it. I really did miss you. Too bad, I'm not telling you. :P

Hope you get enough rest this weekend~ You've been working hard a lot. I'm happy that the show's doing well. Good job, Tobias. ;)

-Me.

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So... I didn't mean that. I didn't mean to snap at you. I was just really annoyed for some reason. Plus I wasn't in the mood to joke around to begin with. But still, I'm really sorry. I know I already apologized and you said it was alright and that you're sorry too but I can't help but feel bad.

What was I annoyed at anyway? You've always had a lot of fans asking for your autograph and taking pictures with you. You're a celebrity, that's normal. I don't understand why it was annoying for me that you (and Leo) accused me of being jealous. Still I'm sorry...

Damn, now I think I'm being guilty. Am I jealous? Was I? I... I really don't know anymore.

Anyway, be safe and take care always~

-Me.

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What do you do once you find out you have a crush on someone? I don't know what to do. This is... crazy. Wait... Is it a crush or plain admiration? I'm not sure. The line is so thin I can barely see it.

You're a celebrity. You're (obviously) handsome. You have a good personality. I mean you're fun to talk to and everything. Although sometimes your mischief annoys people (ehem Rory), you don't mean harm. And I know deep down that there's more to you than meets the eye. And I wanna know more about you. I wanna see the person behind every smile in front of the camera. I wanna know Tobias not The Fox nor Prince of Vegas. I wanna know you... Everything about you. The good, the bad, the happy, and the sad... I hope you'll let me though.

Anyway, I'm gonna go freak out now. Bye bye~

-Me.

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I knew it. This is bad. Milo noticed. And now Milo knows. Why is that guy so perceptive anyway? Ugh...

This is bad. It's also kind of scary... What should I do? I mean, it's not like I'm in love with you or something... Wait... No... I'm... No... No!

Maybe I like... You...? But I'm not in love with you. That's too fast. Do feelings grow faster than plants? Should I ask Brooklyn about this? Ugh, no. I don't... Shoot. This is really bad.

Stay safe and don't catch feelings Tobias. Lol

-Me.

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Yo! Heard about the news and saw that everyone's congratulating you. I haven't though. Because you haven't confirmed nor denied it. It's still a 50-50 chance that it was just a rumor. For some reason, my chest hurts. And I feel like crying. And my mind keeps telling me that I don't want you to be with someone else. Why am I thinking this way? If you're really going out with them, and if you're happy, I should be happy for you. Right? You're my friend after all but...

I might be a bad person. Don't get involved with me, Tobias. I'm sorry but I can't be happy for you if it turns out you're dating someone else. I'm selfish and I want to keep you all to myself...

But of course I'm not going to. I'm probably just going to lie and congratulate you and tell you I'm happy for you. Maybe joke around and tell you to behave yourself and everything.

And if the rumors aren't true, still... If you ever find someone, I'll be happy for you even if it breaks my heart. I think that's one of the bitter parts of being in love.

Wait did I just say love...? Oh what the hell...

Anyway, this has gotten longer so I'll stop here. Be happy always, Tobias.

-Me.

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12

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So it wasn't true after all. But then you confessed something to the group.

There's actually someone that you like. And you sound so happy about it, so I'm still glad. You're wrong though. You said they might not like you back but I think there's no reason for them not to. Not that I'm saying it was me you like but either way... I already like you. Anyway, I'm sure that person will end up liking you back. You're pretty cool, after all. Lol and that car 👀 come on! Hahaha jk like I said in that other letter, there's more to you and I'm sure that this person will see it as well.

I wish you well, Tobi.

-Me.

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I was out to deliver some documents to our client today and guess what...? While I was on my way to their office, I got on the elevator and it broke. There was another guy in there actually. So I was stuck with him for a whole hour.

That was the longest hour of my life. Though he's so nice to talk to me the whole time and keep my mind out of the situation, I still couldn't help but panic. I thought my heart was going to leap out of my chest. I think he noticed how nervous I was and he offered to hold my hand. I was tempted but still refused because I might end up doing more than just taking his hand. Don't go getting jealous now, because it was you. Yes. I can't believe it either! Apparently you had a photoshoot at the same building. That coincidence is too much of a coincidence that my heart believes it to be fate. Was I wrong to refuse to hold your hand? I'm kind of regretting it right now. But I guess an hour of being in the same space with you was enough... For now at least.

You really are the best, Tobias. Despite not knowing who I was, you still showed me how good of a person you are. I think I just fell in love with you all over again.

-Me.

P. S - do you know now why I panicked? Lol

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Valentine's Day is just around the corner. You're hinting at something and I'm pretending not to know. But little did you know I'm one step ahead of you.

But the thing is... Should I really do this? It's not about being misunderstood but mostly about being known. Do I want you to know about how I feel? Maybe this is a good time to do it. But the real question is... Am I ready? Are we both ready for it?

Man, being in love is a lot of work. Should I just play an otoge? Ugh... Sorry I got sidetracked there. Anyway, have a happy weekend Foxy. :*

-Me.

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This is going to be the last letter that I'm going to write to you.

Today is February 15, 3am... And yes I'm not asleep yet. But you are, on my couch. Why? How did that happen? I don't exactly remember how. I just know that the moment I gave you the chocolate I made and told you how I feel, you're already holding out a bouquet of red roses and the largest chocolate box I've ever seen in my life. The next thing I know you were telling me you like me, too, and you want to go out with me. I think the words got lost on the papers I used to write these letters that I couldn't find some to say. So speechless, so happy, that all I could do was run to you and wrap you in a hug. And here we are. We spent the whole night sitting on my couch, and movies that we don't really watched played on the tv as we talked the night away. We also ate the chocolates we gave each other. And this is one of the best things that ever happened in my life.

This is the last letter I'm writing to you because from now on, I will be able to tell you how I feel.

I love you, Tobias. Always have, always will. I don't have to say take care always now, because I'll just do it myself. ;) Sweet dreams, my love.

-Me.

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The End.

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So instead of Halloween on Christmas we're having Valentine's on Halloween. 😂

[anonsleap]

Hi! I'm back to request again! Could you write Hifumi and Teruteru in a polyamorous relationship with the reader? And the reader is touch-starved and loves to cuddle, hug, and kiss Hifumi and Teruteru ALL the time. And they love to compliment and flirt with them all the time too, especially when Teruteru flirts with them.

Them!!! I love them so much! Btw, highly recommend the animes mentioned but dm me if you want to know more/ warnings for them.

Teruteru and Hifumi in a poly relationship with a touch-starved S/O

Content warnings: scars, body image issues, Hiyoko in general, teruteru misinterpreting modeling, burns

Before you were dating, you hung out with Hifumi and Teru watching anime. Once a week, you’d meet up and binge anime together. Teruteru brings homemade snacks like chocolate covered popcorn, mini pizzas, brownies, garlic knots, all sorts of stuff. Hifumi provided the subscriptions to Crunchyroll and Funimation. You brought games to play while watching.

You all took turns picking the anime, and then binged that pick for the rest of the night (unless you finished it). Teruteru’s picks were always Food Wars and Restaurant to Another World. Hifumi chose a wide variety, but it was mainly Demon Angel 🌟 Pretty Pudgy Princess, Good Luck Girl, Blend-S, and Ouran Highschool Host Club.

Teru would flirt constantly with both of you, get a nosebleed anytime there was fanservice, and would lean on your shoulder. Hifumi would cry at emotional scenes and hug the both of you. They’re both pretty touchy and flirty people already, so you fit right in.

Teru cannot handle if you flirt back he will pretend he’s fine but he can’t do it well. He becomes a blushing babbling mess.

Later on it was less of just chilling on the couch and more snuggling. None of you even addressed the change, it was just one day you were snuggled up to Hifumi while Teru laid on top of you guys.

You and Hifumi felt kinda bad for having Teru make the snacks all by himself (even though he’s the one who refused to let you get store bought stuff), so you ended up having either the day before your binge session or just earlier in that day to help in the kitchen.

Hifumi would burn himself on accident and you both immediately went “do you want me to kiss it better?” at the same time.

You guys finally start dating, they both adore you. Snuggles and reassuring kisses all the time, Hifumi has issues with his body image and Teru does too, but he puts up a confident act so people won’t pick on him.

“I knew you had two hands for a reason, S/O ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)”

Speaking of hands, odd headcanon but Hifumi’s hands are constantly sweaty and Teru’s are super soft but they’re covered in scars from cooking. They’re both really subconscious about it.

Anime nights are a lot more often now, sometimes you just end up staying at Hifumi’s dorm.

Teru has now taken all of Hifumi’s junk food by force. He feels a little bad, but he wants the best for his boyfriend. To make up for it, he teaches you both how to cook.

You couldn’t hide this relationship even if you wanted to. They will follow you like lost puppies. So you’re immediately thanked when everyone realizes that they’ve stopped flirting with them.

You help Teru drop his persona because you love him for who he really is. Now that he’s not pretending to be so confident he will hide behind you whenever Hiyoko or another bully shows up. He will also hide from Nagito but that’s just because he creeps him out.

Hifumi brags about the two of you and everyone’s like “okay but who cares.” He doesn’t even get upset that they don’t care, he just keeps talking about the two of you.

PDA all the time. Teru will sit in your lap if you let him. Holding hands, hugging, all that fine and dandy shit. Hifumi will see things that he thinks the two of you would like and buys them without hesitation, he gets super excited when he sees them and will grab you by the arm and drag you to them.

Whenever either of them overwork themselves you just drag them to the bed or couch and nap with them. You all snuggle up, it’s the only way to stop them.

They’re not jealous, really, they just worry about you leaving them. They don’t think they’re all that good looking and they feel like you deserve better.

People compliment you and they’re just like “damn right. That’s my partner right there. Aren’t they so perfect? Can’t believe we’re so lucky to have them.”

But if someone crosses your boundaries they will have a problem. Teru is a tiny ball of country fury and Hifumi has the power of god and anime on his side.

Gifts all the time! Hifumi will buy you guys merch and will even write you fanfic! Teruteru memorizes all of your favorite snacks and foods.

Hifumi sometimes asks you guys to model for him. Teruteru immediately jumps to the wrong conclusion.

“Teru, honey, put your clothes back on, it’s not that kind of modeling.”

There are so many drawings of you two, Hifumi draws you individually, together, or the three of you. He thinks you’re both so perfect.

[calpalsworld]

Not "autistic anon," but also autistic, (being called maybe ableist made me want to put this out there before go to bed) i thought Zane was depicted that way purposefully by the writers. He has stereotypical traits like taking things literally, and has an actual humor switch. The writers have done things with Zane before like have him lose bodily autonomy (during that one Wu's teas short) and did something with his voice be it making him unable to be understood or talking too loud and the forced pirate voice by Jay. (what you're doing isn't too different from that, right?) I thought it was just a little iffy to distort his body and memory bc that could be interpreted as something not that I'm sure what exactly, it's some kind of disability. I dunno. I'm not good with putting this to words. I hope this makes sense.

Sorry I went to bed but now I’m awake 😭

Also I ended up totally spilling all my thoughts here rather than only specifically replying to you please forgive me context: my scary zane concept design, & my ninjago rewrite i refer to a lot��

Im a little confused but I think I get what you're saying? You're saying the Ninjago writers absolutely DON'T write Zane well (you listed examples of this) and you don't want me to fall into the same trap?

I had the opposite logic earlier. I thought: If Ninjago writers made Zane have stereotypical autisitic traits while also being a dehumanized robot, I may as well embrace it, say he is autistic blatantly, while also making him do funny/cool non-human robot things, so its clear as possible the two aspects of his character are literal and separate and not a metaphor for each other. But you're right! I do have a choice and I dont have to embrace things! :)

Like there were a couple ways I was gonna reject the original, for example, I never wanted Zane to have a funny switch, and I hated how other characters could fuck with Zane and he didn't even care 😬. I want to change that stuff. So youre right, if I am changing shit like that, it would be counterproductive for ME to GIVE him MORE traits along that theme. 😬😬😬 I should try to feel less obligated to portray Zane like he originally is. I still like the concept of "scary zane" (for reasons i explain below the cut) but I might tone it down a bit like with the claws and weird proportions and shit. I’d def make him look more skeletal and undead. That was my original intention, but i didnt execute it as good as I could have.... idk if anyone could tell thats what he was supposed to be like...my bad! But rn I dont wanna redesign him I wanna draw other stuff like normal alive Zane. Sorry LMAO 😳. Like I said in some earlier asks I think, I think Im gonna focus rn on how I should portray season 1 normal not dead Zane so thank you and feel free to share any other Zane thoughts ^_^ SOME OTHER THOUGHTS:

Also I Wanna Argue Some Stuff But I Understand its a Weak Argument Since All of This Context was Just In My Brain (so don't take this as an argument, just as me rambling): I don't want messed up things to happen to Zane and for it to just be ignored. I think if Zane is going to have fucked up things happen to him, as all characters must, its best for it to happen during a season where he actually addresses his feelings about being a robot (learning to accept that he will always be himself, regardless if hes "human" or the "original" or whatever. (thats how I always interpreted his emotions)). But I wouldn't have the other Ninja be very phased by Zane's looks because the whole point is they already love who he is (seasons 1-3 were about getting to know Zane) and now Zane himself just has to learn the physical, robot part of him is okay. Its about person-hood rather than humanity. Because the season focuses around Zane's soul, and because he lost his original body, I feel like I could mess around with his current, temporary body and have fun and make it scary. Because that body should be irrelevant. I understand it possibly being upsetting for an autistic character to be designed like this, but other people I talked to see it the opposite way. They find it comforting for him to look so different but still be himself and be so loved. SO IM ABSOLUTELY NOT saying its wrong to be bothered or to hate it or to feel any way. Just that I personally think it would be cool for Zane to be portrayed with a little spice lol, so thats why I like scary Zane for season 4.

Another Thing I Wannna Say But Is REALLY Hypocritical: (this isnt directed at anyone I just REALLY want to say this) I know I say "this is Zane but scary, he looks like fnaf" so he's obviously dehumanized, but I always felt like "scary" is more of an objective fact. Its an instinct. But what's "not human" is subjective. I think there is a problem with saying anything different from "average" human is dehumanized because that could extend to real people. Lol I know its bad for me to compare FNAF-ass Zane to real people, but I mean he could be real. People can have exposed teeth, and people can be shaped weird. And when someone first sees a person who looks like that they'll probably think "woah those features are scary" by instinct. And that surprise doesn't make someone ableist obviously. But bring that person’s humanity into question is NOT an instinct, and is fucked to shit. This is kinda a bad point for me to make since its about the fictional FNAF Zane I drew, and I am NOT implying ANYONE was thinking like this. [especially not the original asker anon who I am totally forgetting about at this point OOPS]. But I just thought it was an opinion of mine I couldn't go without mentioning when talking about dehumanization and disabilities.

^^^ I think you (anon) understand what I mean and might’ve said the exact same thing as me if you were writing a long ass response? I think this because you started to bring physical disabilities up and you said it was "a little iffy." ^_^ So we agree, but I don't see Zane's relation to real life disabilities as "a little iffy" I see it more like "complicated"? IF THAT DIFFERENCE EVEN MAKES ANY SENSE?????? I feel like a lot of things about Zane are really just complicated and need the right context, rather than the concepts necessarily being wrong -- NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT! THATS THE WHOLE REASON I DO THIS STUPID REWRITE! XD thats why a lot of my rewrite SO FAR has been the same concepts and plot beats, but different dialogue n specifics and such. I like a lot of concepts in Ninjago but I dont think they were presented correctly.....! :( So I guess all we can do is wait and see if I make Zane offensive or not....???

Also something about the memory part - yeah i agree i was surprised no one thought that was weird to make jokes out of his memory issues..... BUT I am like 100% firm on making his memory take longer to come back because I think its stupid how quick Zane was able to recover from literally dying. Like its just dumb to me. Hate it. (also bc memory & soul mechanics is ummm kinda important in my rewrite.... for reasons). Another memory thing btw, I was going to make his original amnesia come from hitting his head in an attack against the Skulkin when they stole his dads corpse, rather than his dad fucking choosing to make him forget. (its a sweet & iconic scene, but Um, WHY?!!!?!?!?!?) He has to follow data recovery instructions he finds in his dads diary. I think in that context it makes moments of memory loss somewhat different for Zane's character? Instead of loss of autonomy associated with disability, its a literal violent loss of autonomy associated with being traumatized by physical force. Idk how to phrase it exactly but I think that makes some vibes different?

Sorry, I think I got really distracted, and I don't know if I responded well to your points. Because uhhhh I think I agree with your stance actually? If I understand correctly? Fuck Ninjago writers for making the robot lose autonomy (a stereotypical robot theme) while also making him seem clearly autistic (NOT A HAPPY THEME FOR AUTISTIC PEOPLE) and not addressing it. And also auuugh Zane with a weird body is a difficult topic - kinda sussy pretty iffy.

Lol anyway idk if this made any sense and I REALLY rambled on you. but this was nice 👉👈 more Zane criticism pls love you and i love zane. i hope u dont feel mad at me because then it would be weird that im saying that lol. if you do feel mad at me tho you can send another ask (ILL TRY TO JUST LISTEN NOT RAMBLE NEXT TIME) but assuming ur chill rn, love you thnx

Take this page, don’t mind cole’s ass.

[the-awkward-outlaw]

Hii, I'm actually sad-sweet-cowboah and I've always wanted to request something from you! How about modern AU, Arthur surprises reader with a horse she's been really eyeing for a while? Maybe it doubles as a cute proposal? (and just for reference, a gorgeous golden Palomino Quarter Horse!)

Ah I’m so glad you sent this in to me! This was a lot of fun, and Arthur is fucking adorable! 16/10 best boyfriend/husband material, you cannot change my mind! (Will someone make that into a meme?) Anyways, have fun! 

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(BTW, Arthur’s hot as hell in this pic.....) 

Arthur stands on the deck of his house, lost in thought. He really should be in the barn, finishing up the last of the day’s work, but he’s worried. You should’ve been home half an hour ago and yet he still hasn’t heard from you. He’s texted you, but nothing. Maybe you’re just stuck in traffic. 

You and Arthur have lived together for over a year, and been dating for over two years. He remembers how he convinced you to move in with him, as you’d been adamant. Hell, it’d been hard enough to get you to date him. 

When you both first met, it was like a spark between you. However, you were scared of taking the next step with him, as you were just a natural loner. Not only that, you’d been alone for so long you didn’t think there would be anyone who wanted to be with you. So when Arthur asked you to be his girlfriend, you almost ran off, sure he was pulling your leg. However, something told you that you needed to be brave, to take the leap, so you did. 

About 8 months later, Arthur really wanted you to move in with him on his little ranch, tucked in a canyon not too far from a small mountain town. But again, you were hesitant. It’s not that you didn’t love him, just the opposite in fact. You were so in love, you were constantly terrified that you’d mess up, that he’d end up hating you when you ended up living together. The last thing you wanted was to mess this up. 

Then, shortly after your first year anniversary, the Coronavirus pandemic hit and everyone was sent into quarantine. Luckily you were able to work remotely, so you didn’t lose much money. It was nice working from home, you could stay in your pj’s all day, not worry about makeup, none of that stuff. But you missed seeing your boyfriend and he missed you. The two of you did plenty of video chats, but it wasn’t the same. You couldn’t smell him, hug him, touch him, kiss him… nothing. You tried doing some video sex, but you got outrageously uncomfortable doing it over video chat (what if some hacker got in?), and Arthur wasn’t all that comfortable either. 

Those 60 days were some of the longest and loneliest of your life. You would’ve easily gone to his home and see you, but his little town wanted absolutely no outsiders to come in, so they blocked the roads, preventing you and Arthur from visiting. When quarantine was lifted, that was when you decided to move in with Arthur. After all, you didn’t know if there would be another one. You could work remotely, only having to go into the office a couple times a month for meetings, so the work situation with you was easy enough. 

That was over a year ago, and despite your fears that the two of you would end up breaking up after a few months, the opposite happened. Your relationship grew beyond what you thought and the two of you have never been more in love. Sure, there’s been a few arguments, but nothing bad enough to break things off. For the most part, you and Arthur get along famously. 

Arthur sighs again, still feeling worried. Today was one of the days you had to go into the office for meetings. They never run past five, and the office is nearly an hour away, but it’s nearly eight in the evening. You should definitely be home by now. You must be stuck in traffic, which is why you’ve not answered any of his texts. He pulls out his phone and dials your number. Why he didn’t do this earlier is beyond him. 

A few rings go by and you finally pick up. “Hey, babe,” you say. 

He smiles. “Hey, darlin’. Just worried about ya. Everything okay?” 

“Yeah. Just a big accident on the freeway. I stopped and got dinner too since it’s late. Should be home in like ten minutes.” 

“Good. Kiss ya when I see ya,” he says and hangs up. That’s always how he says good bye to you over the phone and you love it. 

Like clockwork, ten minutes go by and you pull into the driveway. He walks out of the house to greet you, pulling you into a tight hug and kissing you like he always does. He wants to tell you so badly what he’s got planned, but it’s gotta be a surprise. Under no circumstance can he spoil it. Not like this. 

After dinner, the two of you cuddle up on the couch and watch a show before going to bed. He can tell you’re exhausted. These meeting days are your least favorite and they always wipe you out. Arthur cradles your head to his chest as you lie in bed. Within seconds, he hears you snore softly, making him smile. He goes back to thinking about tomorrow. 

Arthur’s owned this ranch for most of his life. It wasn’t always his though. He grew up here with his adopted fathers, Hosea and Dutch. However, Hosea was killed very suddenly a few years ago in a car crash after he’d been hit by a drunk driver. His death had been so sudden that it hit Dutch extremely hard. Dutch ended up just vanishing one day, driven by grief and confusion. Arthur hasn’t seen him since. 

The ranch fell into his hands after Dutch disappeared. He secretly hopes that maybe Dutch will come back someday, if he’s still alive that is. He’d love you two to meet, as he’s sure Dutch would like you better than his last serious girlfriend Mary. 

His thoughts drift to her and he feels even more nervous. He’d been engaged to her for three months before she’d broken it off. She claimed it was because she hated his location, that she wanted to live in the city, not some small mountain town where everything was far away. Perhaps that was true, but he suspected there was more to it than that. After all, when Mary’s father discovered that Arthur had two fathers, he was extremely upset that Mary was dating someone raised by homosexuals. He’s always suspected that her father had a big reason behind why they broke up. Not only that, but he wonders if she was seeing a guy on the side. How could she go from being engaged to being in a new relationship only three weeks after they broke up? Good riddance, though, he thinks. He loves you a hundred times more than he ever loved her. 

You’ve never cared about his upbringing, stating that Hosea and Dutch were at least good parents to him. You’ve known far too many heterosexual parents who were awful, and how many gay couples are out there who’d love to have kids and be the best parents. You weren’t in contact with your parents anymore (he still didn’t even know what they look like), so they aren’t an issue. 

Arthur starts thinking about how sad and lonely your life has been. How you spent so many years alone and how you believed you’d die alone. He’s so grateful for having met you. You don’t deserve to die alone, you’re too good of a person. He kisses your head as you sleep, overwhelmed with his sense of love for you. A smile makes its way to his lips as he thinks about tomorrow. 

Over the past year, as you’ve grown more comfortable to ranch life, you’ve been thinking about maybe getting your own horse. Arthur has a few that you’re certainly welcome to, of course, but you’ve been wanting one to call your own for a while now. A few weeks ago, you’d both been in town to go to the one grocery store there. As the truck went down the highway and passed another ranch, you saw the signs “horses for sale”. In the pasture was a beautiful palomino quarter horse. It looked like it was made of gold as it grazed in the sun. You begged Arthur to stop the truck and just go see the horse. 

He pulled over, unable to resist your excitement, and you went to the fence. The palomino, along with most of its pasture mates, came over to investigate you and Arthur. You patted her nose and Arthur could tell you were already in love with her. However, he had no idea what her temperament was like, so he came up with a plan. 

On the days when you had to go to meetings, Arthur went to the horse’s owner to ask questions and get acquainted with the horse. She was young, only three, but the owner had raised her and trained her himself. He invited Arthur to go on a trail ride using her so he could see how good of a riding horse she was. After only twenty minutes on her, Arthur knew she was perfect for you. She responded to his lightest touch and command. After the trail ride, Arthur bought her, but he kept her at her former owners so you wouldn’t see her too soon. 

Yesterday, while you’d been gone, Arthur went and picked the horse up and brought her back. She didn’t have a name yet, but he wanted you to have that privilege. The man who raised her called her Sierra, but he knew that was your mother’s name and you were unlikely to keep it as you had no desire to see her for as long as he’s known you. He struggles to fall asleep, feeling like a kid on Christmas, excited to show you his gift. He’s also terrified as he’s going to use the horse as a segway for the biggest decision of his life. 

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The next morning, Arthur gets up much earlier than usual. He’s normally up a bit past sunrise so he can feed the animals and get an earlier start on cleaning before it gets hot. This morning, though, you wake up at the crack of dawn and find his side of the bed empty. After grabbing a cup of coffee, you go out and find him just finishing feeding the chickens. 

“Hey, sweetheart,” he says, a big grin on his face. 

You say good morning and he comes over, leaning across the fence so he can kiss you. 

“Hey, I got a couple more chores to do, but once they’re done, I got somethin’ to show ya.” 

“Okay, I’ll help. What needs to be done?” 

He smiles, loving how willing you always are to help him out. It makes his life a lot easier. He struggles though, as most of the remaining chores were in the stables with the horses, including yours. 

“Um… well, why don’t you go through the chicken coop, see about eggs.” 

You nod and go off to grab the collecting basket. Arthur asks you to finish feeding the chickens as well so he can go into the stable. After collecting nearly a dozen eggs and placing them in the egg storage so they can be sold this weekend, you brush off your hands and start heading into the stables. Arthur darts out, slightly sweaty from his work. 

“Woo, it’s hot. Hey baby, um, maybe you can go get us some drinks?” he says. His tone is weird, like he’s hiding something. 

“Um… okay. Everything okay?” 

“Everythin’s just fine.” He kisses you again real quick and then shoots back into the stables. 

After retrieving two beer bottles, you go out to find Arthur in the paddock, which is attached to the right side of the barn so the horses can go in and out of their stalls. He’s wringing his gloved hands a bit, but smiles when he sees you. What is going on with him? 

“Thanks, darlin’,” he says when you go into the pen and hand him his beer. Instead of opening it, he places it onto a post of the fence. “I wanted to show you somethin’.” 

He looks to the barn and whistles. Odd, he’s looking at one of the stalls that’s been empty the entire time you’ve lived here. Something snorts and out walks the golden horse you’d been admiring for the past few weeks. You gasp and put your hands over your mouth. 

“Arthur, is that…?” 

“She’s yours, sweetheart. I took her for a ride a while ago, she’s a good horse.” 

The filly walks over to you and snorts in greeting, stretching her neck out to bump her nose to your hand. Tears leak out of your eyes as you start rubbing her neck, going down to her withers. 

“Arthur, she’s beautiful!” 

He chuckles softly and walks over to hug you, grinning as you bury your face into his chest. God, you couldn’t ask for a sweeter boyfriend. 

“Thank you so much, Arthur! I love her.” 

“Good. What’s her name?” 

“Did she not have one before?” 

He tells you what her name used to be, but as he predicted, you don’t like it. You think for a moment, studying her golden coat. She swishes her silver tail. 

“Maybe… Freyja? I know you like having names of gods and goddesses for your horses.” 

Arthur chuckles as he thinks about his two favorite horses, Boadicea and Artemis. “If that’s what you want, darlin’. She’s your horse though, you name her whatever feels right.” 

You look at her and smile. “Freyja feels right.” 

Freyja snorts, not giving a single damn about her name. Her eyes are soft as you pat her neck again. 

“Well, why don’t we groom miss Freyja? Maybe you can ride her around the pasture, see how you like her.” 

You nod and go into the stables to grab a brush and hoof pick. Freyja’s very patient as you groom her, standing still as you clean out her feet. Arthur hauls out the heavy saddle after you throw on her saddle blanket and grab her bridle. After cinching on the saddle and adjusting the stirrups, Arthur says, “Oh I forgot somethin’, hold on.” 

He goes into the stables as you pat the horse’s neck again, anxious to hop into the saddle. He comes back out, empty handed and looking frustrated. 

“I thought I left it in there,” he grunts, coming back over to you. 

“What you looking for?” 

“A thing,” he says, ignoring you and shoving his hand into the saddle bag. “I thought I left it… ah ha! Don’t know how it got in there.” 

He pulls his hand out and you see a small, velvety box. He brushes it off quickly and then holds it out to you. 

“Sweetheart, I uh… I been thinking about doin’ this for a while. It would… it would mean a lot to me.” 

You take the box, your stomach clenching. Is this a ring? Or is it something else and you’re just being hopeful? Your heart pounding in your ears, you open the box and see the ring. You gasp. It’s not a diamond, you always hated diamonds. Too common and overpriced. Instead, it’s a silver band, the metal engraved with fancy, swooping curls, a gem in your favorite color perched on top. 

“Arthur?” you say, your voice squeaking as you take out the ring. 

He clasps your hands in his, the ring nestled in your palm. “I wanna marry ya, sweetheart. You… well, you’re more than I could ever hope for in a companion. I never thought I’d wanna marry someone again after Mary…” he looks down and swallows. You know all about her of course. “But that was until I fell in love with you. There’s no doubt in my mind that I wanna spend the rest of my life with you.” 

Fresh tears are cascading down your cheeks. You look at the ring again and Arthur’s suddenly afraid you’ll say no, or that you’re not ready. He worries that he might have to try and talk you into this like he had when he wanted to date you and then have you move in. He doesn’t want to do that with this though. Just as his stomach begins to sink, you smile up at him. 

“Yes, Arthur. I will marry you, a thousand times.” 

He smiles, swallowing a wave of his own tears and cups your cheek. He takes the ring and slides it onto your finger, then he presses his forehead to yours. For several moments, you both stand there in this position, letting the world go by as you bask in one another’s presence. You slide a hand over his neck, wanting to be even closer to him, your future husband. 

Suddenly something shoves your shoulder hard and it’s followed by a loud snort. Arthur chuckles, pulling away from you. “Think Freyja wants your attention again.” 

You laugh and kiss him before facing your horse and climbing into the saddle (with his help of course). You adjust yourself in the saddle, sliding both feet into the stirrups. Arthur pats your thigh and tells you to just walk around the pen so that you and Freyja can get acquainted with the feel of one another. 

As Arthur watches you walk with your horse, he feels a sense of excitement and contentment. Excited for the future, of course, but he’s never been so sure about anything as he is about this. Marrying you is the only thing he could do, he’s never wanted anything more. 

[v-hope]

His members upset you

Pairings: Park Jimin / Kim Taehyung / Jeon Jeongguk x Reader

Genre: Angst, fluff

Request: "Please do “His members upset you” but the maknae line ❤️❤️❤️❤️ btw your writing is amazing"

A/N: The hyung line's one can be found in my masterlist 💞 Also, I realised I always make Jimin's reactions angsty so I changed things up a little bit hehe.

Park Jimin

“Baby…” Jimin gave you a questioning look, “heels?”

“What about it?” you wondered, standing up after having put them on and walking towards one of the mirrors in the store. “Don't you like how I look in them?”

“They make your legs look fantastic” he gushed immediately, making his way over to you. “But I thought you found them uncomfortable?”

“I just want to try something new” you simply replied.

However, once the two of you were back at the dorms after your shopping day, Jimin for some reason started to feel like the intention behind buying high heels was not only you wanting to try something new, but you wanting to look taller.

And his realisation kinda had to do with the words Hoseok had said later that day, when all of you were having dinner and Jimin told them about the things you guys had bought earlier.

“I hope this is just for aesthetics because you'll still be the shortest person we've met”.

Now, you had never considered yourself a short person, nor had the rest of the people you had met through your life, for your height was actually pretty average for a woman your age.

But you were shorter than Jimin.

With that, plus being also a little shorter than the others’ partners, you were officially the shortest of the group, and you were reminded of that by all of them every single time they had the chance to. It was as if all the height related jokes that used to be directed at your boyfriend had been transferred to you. And you were not very fond of it, to be honest.

One look at you was all Jimin needed to know it was definitely not about you wanting to experiment new things. No, this was about your height and you being self conscious.

He could not let that happen.

“Okay, new rule” he drew everyone's attention, “no one is allowed to make fun of Y/N's height”.

Yoongi smirked. “You do know that means all our jokes are going back to being directed at you, right?”

“Yes, I know, you hypocrite who's only one centimeter taller than me” your boyfriend's bold words made everyone laugh. Everyone but Yoongi, that's for sure.

Not minding about that, and focusing only on the bright smile he had managed to get from you, Jimin pulled you towards him, pressing his lips to your temple.

“Only I can tease my shorty from now on”.

Well, you guessed that was one of the perks that came with being your boyfriend. And as a reward for having sacrificed himself for you, of course.

Kim Taehyung

Taehyung was a very affectionate person. And just like that, he expected his significant other to be the same, which is why he absolutely lived for your daily calls and constant visits when you knew he was free from work. They were the highlight of his day, to say the least.

So, when you stopped doing so out of the blue, it was normal for his mood to drop a little bit. But he thought nothing of it. Maybe you were just busy.

When you started also blowing off his intentions of going to see you, however, he knew something was definitely wrong – that being confirmed when you had him beg you for hours to go see him to the dorms one evening.

“Oh, look who's back!” Namjoon announced after seeing Tae open the front door for you.

“Couldn't live any longer without your oxygen TaeTae?” Jeongguk teased from the sofa.

You felt Taehyung tense by your side, making you close your eyes. This was exactly what you didn't want to confront.

“What the hell was that?” he snapped by your side, leaving you behind to go face his members.

“Nothing” Jin was the one to speak up, “it's just funny how clingy she is”.

Tae's eyes went straight to fix on yours. “Is this why you've been so distant lately?” he softly asked; his heart hurting once you tried to turn around and leave without a word.

He was fast to grab your hand, though, pulling you to his body and protectively squeezing your upper arm before his stare turned cold as he focused it back on his friends.

“I don't appreciate you calling my girlfriend that. Especially when it's so far from the truth”.

“We just thought you–”

“Well, you thought wrong” he cut Hoseok off. “I love having her around and it's really not your place to make such comments. If I considered her clingy I would've talked to her. Talked” he emphasised, “because mocking her like you've been doing is straight up rude”.

“Taehyung-ssi” Jimin tried to explain, “we didn't think it'd upset you so much, we were just messing around”.

“You've upset her, of course I'm getting upset too. Besides, how could I not when Y/N's been distancing herself from me? I thought I had done something wrong but turns out it was you guys?” he furrowed his eyebrows.

“Tae–”

“No” it was fair to say, Taehyung was livid. “You know she's my escape from this crazy life we live, and you don't get to decide the dynamics of our relationship for us”.

By this point, all of them were just sitting there with their lowered heads, not knowing what to say.

But Tae for sure did.

“I want you all to apologise to her. Right now”.

Jeon Jeongguk

Although Jeongguk and you had been dating for nearly a year now, everything was still pretty new not only to him, since he had never been in a serious relationship before due to his busy schedule, but also to his members.

Which is why they had all freaked out when Jin was cleaning up around the dorms one day and found a black lingerie bra that most definitely did not belong to his girlfriend – and after asking around one by one, the truth came out by Jeongguk that it was yours.

Now, his hyungs trusted that you guys were being safe and all, but you were still babies to them. That being the reason they would fake cry every time any sexual topic was touched in your presence.

And it came a point when you started feeling like what you guys were doing was wrong, which Jeongguk had denied the second you let him know your thoughts. You were a couple, for crying out loud, how could that be wrong?

But he said nothing, not wanting to seem disrespectful towards his hyungs. Of course, that until they were the ones to make you really upset. Jeongguk knew then where his priorities were.

“Okay, you all need to stop this now” he finally snapped one evening, furiously closing the door right after he came back from dropping you off at yours. Everyone stood frozen.

“Wha–”

“I'm not a baby anymore!” he threw his arms up in frustration.

“Jeongguk, we know that…”

“No, you don't” he furrowed his eyebrows, “because you still treat me like one. I know I'm the maknae here but I'm an adult now. Y/N's an adult!” he said as if it was brand new information, “and you have no right to make her feel bad about her sexual life. About our sexual life” he corrected.

“Guk-ah” Taehyung looked at him apologetically, just like the rest, “we're sorry, we didn't know it bothered you guys so much”.

Jeongguk sighed, trying to calm himself down.

“I know, just… please, stop” he pleaded, “she was supposed to stay over tonight but you really upset her today with all your comments to the point she just wanted to leave, and I… I hate seeing her like that” he weakly shrugged.

Watching Joon open his mouth to talk, he stopped him by shaking his head.

“Whatever, I'll go back to hers. Be back tomorrow”.

Because he both just wanted to be with you and didn't feel like being with his hyungs right then.

And maybe then, just then, it hit them all, the fact that their maknae was no longer a little boy and shouldn't be treated like one anymore.

[mari-m-rose]

Hi, Mari! Thanks for always posting good info about Magi! I recently read your post about japanese fans and I'm still curious about specific opinions they might have, if that's ok with you. It's not always we have such international disasters in fandom, so I wanted to know they words and obviously your opnions on the final arc as well. Do you think Magi can recover from it?

Hi ♥, I’m happy you enjoy what I share ♥♥♥♥Haha you should have seen them when Sin died, I guess they freaked out a lot more when that happened, ofc they were sadder than this time.

The amount of salt is too big this time and I’ve never seen people wanting to mute words on twitter for their own safety.

First of all I’m not a fan of this chapter either so aside ele’s summary (I read it because she assured me that it was not gonna upset me) I don’t know anything about this chapter. People ponder a lot about if they got married or not. I’m not sure either and Idk if it’s confirmed, tbh I don’t wanna know either, at least not for now.

A lot of the tweets I read just went:

“poor Seren/Seren-chan doesn’t deserve this/I wanted Seren-chan to be happy”

People are mad because their relaitonship is portrayed like something sweet between them when it’s written like a curse for both characters. (I’ll elaborate more about this below)

“When love does not have sweet and gentle elements, it’s just dust …. I thought that the reason for Sin not getting married was Seren, but I did not think that it was such a heartless reason. It’s not cute at all,“I take responsibility that you took away your life” … It’s not marriage out of love, but atonement“ (all of them are google translate, beware of bad English)

“Although it’s too muchimpact on the picture surface, so much content is not coming in, I wonder ifthere is Seren black Rukh inside Sin now.”

I love these ones because this is exactly what bothers me too. The portrayal of their relationship in Magi, picture-wise, contradicts the true nature of it. So much Seren dearly in his memories, and now the hand-holding at Zepar (even tho this is Zepar doing it), all sweet and close and intimate, yet Seren left the company in this week’s chapter, they were never friends and didn’t even bond deeply,So instead of emphazising all the other relationships she’s created around Sin, Ohtaka suddenly decides to focus on this one and sugarcoat it when it’s one hell of a toxic relationship. Ofc we still dunno how it will end but at this point if it’s a “good” end, I won’t be able buy it anymore. 

Then pretty much everything is people unable to empathize:

“If such sweet heroine would have been introduced a lot earlier, I’m sure I’d have fallen for her, but this is the last arc and this makes no sense and I already prefer other characters’ connections to Sin.”

“I always knew there was a dear person for Sin in the past and was prepared for it, …but not like this, I cannot accept this.” (These two tweets are written from memory tho, I lost them on my TL)

This is another weak point about Ohtaka’s writing. I think that talking about Sindria’s tragedy during first Sindria arc was cool but instead of slowly revealing info she just suddenly makes her picture appear with no explanations (Mystras’s and Ruru’s at least had more mentions). Yeah I know pretty much everyone reads SnB by now, but Magi is a different story and such an important character deserves a well-written introduction, not an assumption that everyone already knows her.

And well these were some of my fave tweets, I also faved a lot of salty tweets from angry people, I don’t think I should share cause it’s hate and a lot of swearing (one tweet just literally says: shit shit shit shit).

As for my opinion, I couldn’t agree more with the japanese fandom. (long rantish opinion incomming:)

I reacted the same and I’m very disappointed. Not about this chapter but the lack of sense and coherence in Ohtaka’s writing lately. It’s all piling up and as I said before, it feels like the last straw. A lot of people and I feel betrayed at this point and are upset with how Sinbad’s family was put away, so this tragedy could happen.At the beginning of this arc we were all pondering about Sinbad’s friends opposing him or at least being in conflict with him about all the changes, why? Because it makes sense, because they love him and they would have tried to stop him more. But Ohtaka suddenly made them unable to do anything and even when Ja’far’s role is to criticize Sin (and he did), he didn’t do much and seemed terrified, when he was just a little confused and worried (very OOC)…

And now at Valefor they all seemed to be Sinbad’s cheerleaders, minimized to blind followers when none of them were like that. But what’s worse is implying that Sinbad feels that way about them. All those people loved him and sacrificed a lot for him, their entire lives, yet they all got reduced and minimized to a dungeon in which they cheered Sin like robots, while Seren gets to share one with Sin in equal terms and hold his hand like a sweet couple? Seren who just wanted to do things her own way? (there’s nothing wrong with that btw) She who just wanted Paretevia back? She who presured and upset Sin so much he just had to accept any offer to find land so he could reject her plan? (I hope this doesn’t sound like Sin is Seren’s victim because I think he brought the worst out of her too and made her suffer) The difference of opinion of Sin and Seren isn’t even a discussion of who’s right because they just want to do things their own way, so why did she make a sacrifice for him? And if she did, does that mean that because of that sacrifice she is the most important of Sin’s dead friends when they never genuinely liked each other? It’s infuriating.I, at least, wanted them to be good friends and well, then they could have fought all they wanted because even if they had conlfict they would have already harbored feelings for each other and all of this would make sense.Btw this doesn’t have to do with a romantic relationship between them, such things is just not gonna happen nor is important and people aren’t upset about it, but it’s the way Ohtaka draws it as if they were a sweet couple and a sweet memory when it must have been hell for both of them. With this I don’t mean that Seren isn’t or shouldn’t be important for Sin, she clearly is and deserves to be, but to put her above of all his friends this late is definitely upsetting for everyone who loves the eight generals, Mystras, Ruru, Mahad and Vittel, who were also very important for Sin and who actually had a good relationship with him. 

There is lack of information and maybe, just maybe the thing that will happen between them will be well-written and cute, but idk if I’m gonna be able to enjoy it anymore with so much bs in between, especially when there are more beautiful relationships to focus on. So yeah there is always hope for better writing but if things continue like this I doubt it.I just hope that in Magi in future dungeons we see more love from Sinbad directed to his dearest family or idk maybe at Magi’s ending……or  else Magi just lost me. I refuse to support a manga that has destroyed everything I loved about it and fucked all the relationships I cheered on.

I will only read new chapters if my friends assure me I’m not gonna be upset, because I’m a little tired to be upset. So I’m just gonna dive into new manga and anime to enjoy other fandoms until this mess is over.

(Oh and sorry if you were expecting that I talk about the current main 4…I seriously don’t care much about them: Aladdin lost me with his lack of character development, Alibaba lost me with his mysoginistic remarks to Mor, Hakuryuu lost me when he had his edgy phase and Judar never had me. But I understand that a lot of you are supporting them and are excited every chapter, tbh enjoy it all you can, doo iit, be happy, I wish I could join you but ……eh)

Anyway thanks for asking and I hope things just start improving…soon. I also kind of want to enjoy myself like the old days…