#btw if anyone knows how to write instrumentals for songs please help me i’m fighting for my life over here

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Allow me to be near You

I have not done something like this since January with my series of songs based on The Great Divorce but once again God ambushed me and made me spend several hours on this out of nowhere. I am a begrudging participant.

This is a prayer I wrote put to music (aka i’m singing it). It’s the only prayer I have ever ever shared with more than one person, but God keeps calling me back to it to give it to others. So could I ask a favor of my Christian mutuals? Could you stop, for just a couple minutes, and pray this with me?

here is the music (linked so I don’t do a face reveal to ALL my followers)

and here is the original non-musical prayer if you prefer that!

O Lover,

Allow me to be near You, to be near the horrible acts inflicted on You. Allow me to kiss Your Face, stained with inexpressible pain. Let my lips linger with the taste of copper and salt—metallic, a weapon in its own rite.

Allow me to be near You, to wash myself in Your Wounds. To catch to Water from Your Side in cupped hands, for I have no chalice. Allow me to cradle Your Body as it’s broken and emptied. Allow me to wet Your Head with my tears and the tears of Your faithful.

O, but have flowers grown where Your Blood hit the ground! Your Blood has touched me too, Lamb, deeper.

O, but my heart quivers and trembles in Your Presence! I am a fragile bird, wings clipped and voice hoarse and frayed from my imprisonment.

Allow me to be near You, Lord! The earth will die no longer, but it will live! Allow me to sing You a song that will not wear my throat. Allow me to make You a robe that will not be torn off.

For You are my everything. Allow me to treat You as such, when Your enemies scorn You as nothing. My heart breaks with it, but without Your allowance, I do not know how to make You my Lord.

Allow me, Beloved! Allow me!

(very sorry gnashing my teeth etc but I am tagging my Christian mutuals in this— @bookdragon1811 @turtleduck-enthusiast @silverpaintedstars @kanerallels @accidental-spice @heckin-music-dork @avatardoggo @ladygobpire @holbytlanna @tessathecaffeinatedbutterfly @distance-does-not-matter @kazoosandfannypacks @intothelionsden @i-am-a-stupid-robot @babsbabbles @the-permanent-blur @i-am-a-freg *hides*)