#btw do not take this post and use it to read into any other longform projects i do that surface after months of wait. it's unrelated.

[pochapal]

emails are so fun because they're all about bargaining with things that don't actually exist yet.

[virtuosin]

❤ + me? (shameless)

Aight everyone sit down this is a doozy--

Y’all seated? Got your drink and popcorn? Good. Lunar, you and I have been chatting since I made this blog. Practically, anyway. At the time, I was so nervous because I had just come out of a bad writing slump. I left my multimuse behind because I had such terrible writing anxiety about my portrayals but I knew I loved writing in the League RPC and that Sona was the one true muse I felt strongest with, and the one I wanted to keep around. She was truly the only one I had any passion to write even through those bad times. And so I relocated her to her own blog and left the other to gather dust. Initially, I was nervous she wouldn’t be received well. There are other Sonas (WHO ARE LOVELY BTW) and I didn’t know if I brought anything interesting to the table. I thought maybe a couple people from my previous blog might follow me but that’d be it. And then you followed me. Honestly? I hadn’t really interacted with a Kayn before, and in truth I didn’t even give AUs much thought despite loving all the various verses which exist in Leagues skinlines. But when you popped in and proposed some Odyssey interactions, I was thrilled...and terrified. Your writing was fantastic and your rendition of Kayn was so perfectly executed. I thought I’d let you down with whatever I’d write. Not only that, but as much as I loved the idea of Odyssey, it came out during a time where I wasn’t playing League, so while I heard of it and knew its aesthetic and core, I had to refresh myself on it by reading the Lure short story and watching the cinematic and game mode playthroughs. It was honestly so much fun doing that as ‘research’. It really amped me up and had me so excited, and as those first few posts went out, I found the anxiety lessening because you seemed encouraging and optimistic about my writing! This meant SO MUCH to me when at that time I was still new to Sona being her own blog, and I had so much fear about doing her justice back then.

Fast forward and we’ve written SO DAMN MUCH together! From our main Odyssey thread, to the various asks and art, to the HOURS we’ve spent brainstorming and theory crafting this longform thread, to the conversations we’ve had about irl stuff, be it good or bad. I feel as though we can chat with each other about anything without worrying about judgement, and that’s honestly really wholesome to me. What we say to each other, I know it is spoken in confidence and without harsh criticism. I certainly know on my end that I’ll always make myself available for you, be it for a shoulder to lean on or an ear to bend whenever things get heavy. And to break away from Kayn a bit--your other blogs are so fantastic as well. Jez is one of my favorite OCs I’ve interacted with, period. That’s not to say the other OCs I’ve interacted with aren’t great, because y’all are FANTASTIC and OCs in general deserve far more love than they get yes I will die on that hill--but what I’m getting at is for how long and how developed Jez is...it’s awe-inspiring and fantastic. I’m so happy to see you on my dash, even if it’s not replies to me. Be it Jez, Kayn, Yone, etc. Even your low activity blogs. Honestly, you do your best to stay as true to character as possible with canon blogs, and your OC is so fleshed out that her personality really shines through and reads like a canon character would. I know I’ve been badly lately with writing as a whole, and even replying to messages gets rough for me sometimes given how life had been treating me lately. I used to message daily to check in and say hello, or we’d spend all day musing and chatting about whatever, and I’m so sorry but know it was NEVER intentional (and that goes for everyone else too). I love our conversations, the sharing of space videos and silly animal fact videos, of theory crafting, of just talking about our day from how your rides go and how my drawings are going. I honestly look forward to our interactions between our muses, our talks, our everything. You’re truthfully such a valuable and dear friend to me, and I cherish you so damn much. I feel as though I do you an injustice by taking long on threads, or by not saying it enough--but Lunar, I really do appreciate you being in my life and reaching out to me that day.