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[gukkle]

I Can’t Go On If You’re Not Here

Genre: Fluff/Angst

Pairing: Jeongguk x Reader

Length: 2k

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You have been in love with Jeongguk since freshmen year of college, but you never had the courage to confront him about your feelings. A new girl pushes you to admit to him finally what you both were waiting for. 

You didn’t choose to be friends with Jeongguk, we just became friends. We met when we were young. He was a new freshmen in college and very active. You were the quiet girl who just wanted her degree in business so you could finally escape from my parents who constantly breathed down your neck. You had friends but none of them compared to Jeongguk. You became friends when the teacher had decided to partner you two up for a project.

“Hey, I’m Jeongguk”.

Those words will forever haunt you to the fact that you can never have him. He will always be the boy that you loved so deeply but could never have. Jeongguk was the light of your life, simple enough. He brought you favorite popcorn when you was feeling down, when you was on your periods,he would become the most patient man on earth.

He never complained when you would talk for hours on hours about the cute guys in your accounting class. He would smile at you and pat you on the head and say,

“You’re too good for them anyways. You’re too smart for them, all they understand is how to crunch numbers. You are both naturally blessed with looks and intelligence”

You would always blush at his compliments. People would call him awkward and silent with no emotion. He would compliment you with the straightest face. People didn’t know how to respond to him because they thought he was making fun of them. It was just that Jeongguk meant every word he said. He wanted you to know that he was honest and truthful.

Jeongguk never realized what you had felt for him. It wasn’t his fault. You never confessed to him because you didn’t think it was worth it. You had some boyfriends here and there, but none of them were serious because you were forever waiting on him. He didn’t know, he just thought you didn’t really love anyone of them. It wasn’t until your senior year of college where you finally gathered up the courage to admit to him what you have been feeling for the past four years.

“Hey, where were you at the party?” Jeongguk slid into the seat besides you in the library, He was decked out in his signature black stussy sweatshirt with some skinny jeans that seemed to make him ten times more attractive. He started to stroke your hair. Jeongguk had a thing with hair. Yours was mid length and dyed a soft light brown, you kept it soft for him. Because he liked it.

“I didn’t go. Jongsuk didn’t want to go so I stayed back with him to help him study” You turned towards him, away from your economics textbooks and placed your head in your hands.

“Ah, always helping the new student. You are just too nice Y/N,” Jeongguk quirked his head and smiled at you. He was just too cute. It was the time in between your classes. You were about to graduate, just one more semester to go and you were finally done with the education system.  

“Nah, I’m not nice. I just felt pity for him because he didn’t know what we did in class”

Jeongguk started to pick at your pens and pencils, “You should have gone to the party. It was so much more exciting but some new incoming freshmen came and crashed it. But the best thing about it is I met someone.”

“You met a girl? Who? It’s been a while.”

You tried to mask the look of surprise on your face. Jeongguk hasn’t dated any girls in a while. He had dated a girl named Wendy a while back ago but he broke up with her because he didn’t think they had fit together. Jeongguk was a true romantic, he loved to hold hands and spend hours reading at a cafe with his girlfriend. That’s what you loved about him, he loved the simple things. He had said Wendy was an amazing girl but he just didn’t think they were good together. When he was dating Wendy, you had to deal with in love Jeongguk, he was gone.

When Jeongguk had a new girlfriend, he would disappear from your life. He would put all his attention and love into the new girl and it would be like you never existed.He wasn’t ignoring you on purpose, he just wanted to spend time with girlfriend. This really hurt you. You felt like you were a throwaway, only needed when he was free of a romantic partner. People knew you guys were best friends, they knew that you guys had perfect chemistry. They didn’t understand why Jeongguk didn’t make a move. Many guys have tried but you wanted to wait for him. You had boyfriends but they never made it to your heart. You dabbled in romance when Jeongguk had a new girlfriend. You felt lonely and wanted some attention, the attention that Jeongguk was not giving you.

Jeongguk had a little smile on his face and he shyly looked down, “She’s a sophomore. She loves to dance and she’s really talented at the violin. I met her at the party and we just hit it off. I think I really like her. I know we just met but I feel like we connect so well.” He had the starry look in his eyes, the kind he gets when he talks about Overwatch and Justin Bieber.

You stopped fiddling with your pen and looked at him, “Wow, I guess it’s time for you to move onto the next girl. What happened to your promise of waiting till you graduated?” You tried to mask the hurt in your voice. Jeongguk had a real chance of falling in love with someone that wasn’t you.

“I was, but man Jennie is a work of art. I never met anyone like her, she brings out sides of me that I never knew existed. We had talked about random things but it was the most interesting conversation I ever had. She’s so beautiful,”Jeongguk swiveled in his chair, his body opposite of what it should have been if he was sitting. He leaned back against the desk, and brushed his hand through his hair. His hair was a startling black color. He never dyed it because he thought that it would make him seem more like a girl.

You knew who Jennie was. She was a transfer student from Gwangju. You guys had some mutual friends, you never formally met her. It was an understatement to say that she was an amazing and one of a kind. Jennie made guy friends after guy friends, she never dated anyone since she had transferred this year. She was an up and coming dancer in our dance team. Hoseok, the dance captain and your closest friend after Jeongguk and Jisoo, had complimented her on her fluidity and techniques.  He had also said that she was pretty but not his type. Hoseok had a specific type, he liked the smart and caring ones. It wasn’t that Jennie wasn’t smart or caring, it was because he thought that Jennie was a little superficial. Apparently Jeongguk didn’t think the same.

“Oh. Good for you” You didn’t know what to say. Your heart was slowly tearing at itself. Why couldn’t Jeongguk look at you and think of you like he did with Jennie? What made you so unappealing to him. You guys have been friends for four years, and never did he once show a sign that he was attractive to you in the point of more than friends. You would flirt with him but he would just smile at you and go back to what he was doing. It wasn’t like you didn’t try. You didn’t know how to approach him with the topic that you wanted to be more than friends.

Jeongguk turned his head towards you, “It isn’t great? I’m taking her out on a date later. I need advice on what to wear. So get out of the library and let’s get back to the apartment and plan what to wear.” It was also quaint that you guys were roommates because you wanted to get out of the dorms and finally get a place of your own but you were too poor to afford it yourself.

You found yourself being dragged out of the library, his hands linked in between yours, with your things haphazardly shoved into your open tote bag and onto the streets. Jeongguk happily took the lead to the short walk to your apartment complex. He seemed to be bouncing on the soles of his feet. His hands still linked with yours. It was normal for you two to hold hands. He had started this habit because you always got lost in crowds when you guys hit Myeongdong for shopping. You felt like he does it now because he liked to torture you with a little sliver of a romantic relationship with him.

“Hurry up, the date starts in an hour”, Jeongguk basically shoved you up the stairs in barely contained excitement and into his room. You didn’t want to help him with his date. In fact you wanted to give him a reason to cancel the date, you. But he would never do that because he didn’t like you. You had to be his friend and just his friend.

He started to pilfer through his closest that was ironically filled with white t shirts.

“I guess I would go with casual but a little dressed up,” you pushed him aside because he was actually hopeless. Your chest hurt every time you touched the clothes hangers that held his clothes. You chose a white button down with a mandarin collar with some jeans. He would look great. This was going to be a long night of you eating ice cream and watching some movies to pass the empty time. Why does Jennie have to exist?

“You are the Sun to my Earth. Thank you so much. This is why I still need my mother and you, of course.” Jeongguk quickly grabbed his clothes and rushed into the conjoining bathroom.

You plop down on his bed. His room wasn’t especially big but it wasn’t small. You had an identical room, with connected bathrooms. You looked up onto the ceiling and saw stars. Jeongguk always love what stars represented. To him, stars represented hope and ambition. He saw them as the push to his success.

Jeongguk slammed the door open, all dressed in his outfit ready for his date, “Is this alright?” as he fixed his collar. He looked so handsome and so Jennie’s.

You motioned for him to come over to the bed and you sat up. He stood right in front of you, still fixing his clothes. You laughed at him, he had skipped a button,

“Aish you dummy, you missed a button, no one it looks weird,” You went in to fix it, your nimble fingers skipped over the soft material. It would be so nice to just push him onto the bed and snuggle. He stared down at you as you slowly fixed his error. You looked up at him, into his starry eyes. He sent you a smile and continued to stare.

The tension in the room began to heat up. Your eyes seem to drill holes in one others. Your fingers stopped it’s administrations. You opened your mouth to say something.  

[an-exotic-writer]

22; college!namjoon

lip felt happiness (22) p: smiling just before or during the kiss

everyone has their perception on summer flings and the variations came in a bundle of thoughts. some described it to be a moment that was made to be a dream, lived out on days that were expected but never in reality, nights that were in hopes it’ll last for a lifetime but never will. some forbid in believing such things exist. some didn’t care. some wouldn’t give it a shot and some... some just...

yours felt like there were no such thing as endings. call you oblivious, call you being shielded with fantasies clouding your mind to see things clearly but you feel it. right here when namjoon’s looking into your eyes like they have answered every question that has left him awake. right now when he cups your chin like it means something to him, and smiles just before his lips touches yours with subtlety that makes your heart flutter, soon deepening with passion when he lays you down on the sand with his other hand pillowing the back of your head.

he likes to take his time kissing you; unable to resist biting into your smile, feeling your lips give into airy sighs before he feels the curling of the corner of your mouth lifting up, happiness filling his cup before he downs it and craves for more. namjoon’s a top scholar and it just so happens when it comes to kissing, his level to that isn’t too far off.

halfway through as he decides to lure himself away down your jaw, over to your neck where he starts painting on the canvas of your body with the familiar colors of red and purple, he’s unable to proceed. he stops and listens to when you chuckle.

that makes him move his face until its hovering over yours, a brow raised in curiosity, “what’s so funny?”

shaking your head with a lingering smile, you frame his cheeks and guide him down for a kiss; softer, gentler, yet filled with the amount of love that makes his heart combust when he thinks about it.

“i’m just really happy. with you,”

it’s a silent, mutual understanding when he gazes into your eyes after seeing how your smile is out of bliss but it has a tinge of sadness to it as it hooks to your cheeks. it would be amazing if you and namjoon could be in the same college without dropping the aspects of your lives just to be with one another. it would be perfect if the two of you hadn’t met on a boat, to an island for two months before things would break away and apart.

but for now, when namjoon thinks you look gorgeous as the sun sets in the part of the beach where no one would pass by because the tour guide hadn’t manage to figure out who went missing apart from you two, he doesn’t want to think about it. neither do you, when he notices how you’re fiddling thumbs behind his neck.

“i am too,” he admits, resting his forehead on yours, sliding his arms around your waist as he holds you down tight, willing to make you stop thinking about everything because that makes you sad and he doesn’t like that. “but for now, let’s just enjoy this.”

[gukkle]

Rose-like Embrace

okay omg this gif is so cute. I love hobi. thank you guys for sm love on I can’t go on if you're not here. next part will come soon please hang in there for jeongguk <3

Genre: Fluff

Pairing: Hoseok x Reader

ONE SHOT SERIES

!inspired by Hold Me Tight- BTS!

You feel neglected as BTS seems to grow with popularity everyday. Your relationship with Hoseok gets especially strained as you try to hold him tight

“Hobi! Where did my panties go?” You lifted your head from besides the bed and yelled out. The bed was a complete mess, with your white sheets strewn around your king bed.

“I dunno, look for them yourself. I gotta to go. The guys are yelling at me to hurry up. We have dance practice and our comeback is in a month,” Hoseok rushed past you. The breeze that he created when he came by was colder and frigid than normal and bothered you.

Hoseok wasn't as cuddling and clingy as he was before. If it was a year ago, he would have tackled you onto the bed and snuggle into your neck. Hoseok had a thing for your neck, he said he loved your collarbones and the nook your shoulder. Now he was always rushing and quickly kissing you on the head, running out the door.

Bangtan Sonyeondan has quickly climbed up the popularity charts. They were international superstars with packed schedules. They never had anymore free time. Hoseok barely came to see you anymore, he would climb into your bed at 12 o’clock at night after working almost 17 hours on new music and choreography. He would pull you close and fall asleep. You treasured these small moments, you would hold him closer and drift off.

He was now too busy to even come back to you, he moved back to the dorms with the rest of the boys. BTS was so close to their newest and anticipated comeback. All the boys were constantly working.

“Hoseok, really calm down. Don't hurt yourself,” you grabbed at his arm before he fully get away from you, physically and mentally. Feeling the tug of your hand he whipped around, his hair flying up.

“I’m sorry, honey. I really need to go. Love you,” Hoseok took your hands and kissed it before he grabbed his jacket and ran out the door. The loud sound of the door echoed throughout the apartment. You were again, left alone.

It’s been a couple of days since you heard from Hoseok, he had sent you some texts telling you that he’s fine and that he will be back in a few days. The boys wanted to have a small male bonding mini vacation and rest up before their schedules were going to be packed for the next few months. You looked at your phone as you got another text from him,

“ don’t sleep too late.”

Even though you guys weren’t together, he remembers that you have to go to work really early in the morning.You really missed Hoseok, you missed his head on your shoulders when you guys would stroll around the park and he would hug you from behind. You missed the moments where he would surprise you with your favorite drink, a caramel macchiato, at work. You were a fresh out of college nurse, still working towards your dream to becoming a cardiology nurse. Hoseok supported you throughout college, you guys have been together for more than three years. You two met at a small cafe, he was eating some ice cream with his friend and bandmate, Yoongi. He had spilled some of his food and you offered him your napkins and he gratefully accepted it. He had continued his small little date with his friend, and before he left, he asked you for your number. Everything went off after that.

You strolled around the park near your apartment, alone time always helped you get your thoughts together. Hoseok has come back from his little vacation with his friends, but he hasn’t called you or even texted you yet. You knew from Jungkook that had a calm day of practice. Why didn’t Hoseok contact you? You decided to call him, you weren’t going to stand there and become idle as your boyfriend was slowly distancing himself from you.

The phone rung for a few times and it was picked up and then dropped. You thought this was confusing. Why would he pick up and then hang up again? You decide that going to the Big Hit Building to see him, but before you go you picked him his favorite snack.

The Big Hit Building was always more imposing from the outside. You went up to the dance practice level and saw Hoseok. He was practicing, he was drenched in sweat and panting. He was helping his member, Jin, with the choreography. You couldn’t help but lean against the doorway and watch him. He was still the man you knew all this time. He always helped others, even before himself. You always thought you were super selfish, it wasn’t that. Hoseok was just that selfless in everything he did. He didn’t hesitate whenever his friends asked for something and always did it with a smile on his face.

“Oh hey its Y/N!” Jungkook spotted you and called you out. Hoseok whipped around and the look on his face surprised you. He looked a little mad. Greetings chorused from the rest members, they all waved at you.

“Hey, what are you doing here?” Hoseok walked towards you and motioned for you guys to go outside. You could feel the stares from the rest of the guys, before you left, you put down the snacks you bought for them and sent them a little smile,

“I bought these for you guys. Enjoy. Practice on!”

Hoseok was waiting outside of the room, sitting down on a bench. You handed him his drink. He looked up and sent you a tired smile and accepted it.

“Thanks. But what are you doing here? I told you I was fine,” Hoseok quirked his head to the side. He was quietly sipping on his drink.

“I wanted to visit, I didn’t hear from you in a while. You’re my boyfriend Hobi,” you walked closer to him and sat next to him. You leaned and placed your head on his shoulders. He was covered in sweat.

“I was busy. I’m sorry. But next time can you first call please?” Hoseok got up and your head was left without support and he placed his drink onto the floor, “I’m sorry, but we’re kind of busy right now. I’ll see you later.”

You just stared at him with your mouth open. What was he doing? You came to visit him. He loved it when you visited, he knew it took time out of your day to come see him and you always brought snacks. You leaned back onto the bench and try to think about the times where you surprised him and he was the happiest little large boy.

“Hey it’s Y/N!” Jimin yelled. Hobi’s head popped him from what he was doing and quickly looked around for you.

“Y/N!” Hobi got up and started to bound towards you like a little puppy. He swept you into a giant hug and buried his head in your neck, taking in your signature scent of lemons.

“Why didn’t you tell me you were coming? I would have cleaned up a little better. I think I smell,” Hoseok whiffed at his shirt. You giggled and nudged him. Even though he was dirty you still cuddled to him. His warmth seem to radiate from him. He laced his hand in between yours. You handed him his drink, he happily took it from you and sipped it like a little child. It was cute.

“I wanted to surprise you, you’re working so hard,” you smiled up at him. He looked endearingly down at you and poked your nose.

“You’re the best girlfriend a guy could ever ask for. Ever so loyal. I love you.”

You smiled as you thought about the memory. Hoseok used to love it when you surprised him. But now it was like you guys weren’t even dating anymore. It was like you were just friends and now you were the bothersome and annoying one that never left him alone. You knew your presence wasn’t welcome, so you decided to just go home and wallow in sadness. Hoseok didn’t want you here, he wanted you to call first.

You flung open the door of your bedroom and crumpled. You weren’t usually dramatic but you couldn’t hold it in. So many years of love and now you guys were left to this? Tears began to stream down your face and you stuffed your face into your pillow.

The sun began to set when you finally got up from your bed. You looked in the mirror and saw your red face. The image of your own sadness made you want to crawl back into bed and cry the night away, but you couldn’t. The apartment was empty, the darkness started to settle into you. Your bare feet padded on the wooden floor as you walked towards the living room and kitchen.

On the carpet in the living room was Hoseok. He fell asleep. On the kitchen table there was a packaged cupcake. You walked towards it, it was your favorite. Hoseok was soundly asleep on the floor. Your heart began to warm. Hoseok came back to you. He had brought you your favorite cupcake that was located on the other side of Seoul.  

Aish he’s so dumb, why didn’t he just sleep on the couch instead? You sat down and pulled your legs to your chest besides him. He was soundly asleep, he was still dressed in his practice gear. His hair had fell from his head and now covered his face. He was also still wearing his shoes. You reached over to brush the hair out of his face. His dark locks made a nice contrast against his pale face. You traced his features. He was so handsome. When he was sleeping, his whole face was relaxed and it made him look so much younger. He looked like he did when you were still in college. The boy whom you fell in love with. A small smile appeared on your face.

Maybe Hoseok might be a little off and you guys weren’t like you were before but you knew that he always came back to you. You knew that your love can be rekindled again. He loves you and you love him.