#brought to you by vodka and fucking. PTSD flashbacks

[dykeredhood]

I have a weird and interesting relationship with gender

Considering the time I spent as an actual ballerina … and then everything following that. Throughout all that I’ve always wanted to be a knight with my own horse and a sword

And then when I cut off most of my hair, my parents asked if I wanted to be a boy; I indignantly said that no, that wasn’t my aim at all

That was especially fun because 1) Dame Julie Andrews is very womanly and has short hair & 2) we had a family friend with short hair and nobody questioned her gender (from what I saw on my end)

Later on when I went to the hairdresser with a picture of Charlize Theron’s short hair as a reference, my mother said my new haircut looked dykey (derogatory). That was coming from the same woman who tried to demand I go in hormonal birth control before I left for out of state university and “cautioned” me against dating anyone bisexual 🙄

I’m never having kids of my own, I academically know how to be a good parent but considering everything else I know I’m not going to be able to nurture a youth in the way that they deserve

That being said, I’m amused when coworker M🧹 says to me: yeah when you’re a mother you’ll be great at rearing children

Fantastic, coworker M; I first need to find someone who wants to be my spouse bc while divorce is a great and feasible option I could not cut it as a single parent

I technically could. Academically. I cannot in good conscience choose to subject a child to that, though