#brooo he means so much to me genuinely he’s sooo

[trevination]

thinking about micah looking at his little siblings every time he hears about the socs targeting the younger greasers like johnny and ponyboy....

TWEAKIINGGGG. micah who’s always so worried about his lil siblings, teaching them how to throw a punch and how to take a punch. he’s never even really thought that he could leave the town. like, it never even occurred to him as a possibility, he’s never once thought of it. he’s always there to raise his siblings, to care for his sick mom, to help his dad with bills. he’s never wanted anything outside of that because it’s never been a possibility before. and he knows tulsa beats people like him down into the ground and he’s desperate to keep his siblings from that as long as he can. but he knows it’s not possible

his lil sister who’s still in elementary school and his little brothers who always rough around and pick fights and joke. and micah, who’s raised fighting and learned how to hold his own the hard way. he just wants to keep them safe

[lastsleepageturning]

so i just found out so much about boy and how toxic that kid actually is and also things about sade and the drama she has been in with certain people in certain friend group

i’m very surprised about the things i found out about boy but also very happy that we aren’t together anymore cux the shit i found out i wouldn’t want to be with someone who is like that - like ew bro homie really different lmao you really never know someone. shit it be your own niggahs brooo it be your own nigga lmaoo

and sade is sloppy bro like of course i knew this and more from things we’ve been thru in the past but ummm girl u need some milk cuz it’s not cute but u do u cuz that’s none of my business at the end of the day

shit is no longer my problem i’m writing about it to offically let all this go and put it behind me - break ups are never easy but this has been such a easy break up for me cux i didn’t lose anything dude i didn’t even benefit anything from my relationship with boy.. and sade - bro friends come and go - it happens it was simply nice to know her and to share the moments we had i will forever cherish those dumb silly moments with her cuz that’s love and she was cool (till she wasn’t lmaooo)

but about boy, brooo i didn’t learn anything from him like you know how in certain relationship you grow as an individual and learn from ur partner and you gain a lot from being with that person and become a better version of yourself yeah ummmm this relationship was not like that at all for me i didn’t elevate to a higher vibration if anything i lowered my vibration to put up with boys insecurity and emotional instability, his lack of being a man. it isn’t his fault - some males are just brought up different but boy was not a real man he is a lil boy as his nickname entails he is a Boy not a man... this relationship was more me beneficial for him - like there is only one lesson i learnt and that was don’t think that a fuck niggah won’t be a fuck niggah - what i mean is he left his girl at the time to be with me and what did i think that he wasn’t ganna do that to me lmaoo corny fuck niggahs will forever be corny fucking fuck niggahs lmaoo , boy has learned sooo many lesson thru me - i know i wasnt that ángel of a girlfriend but he is finally thinking about his mental and how he has mental issues and realizing a lot about himself and wants to be better (or so he says) and all this new knowledge i have put him on to about energy and spirituality and philosophy, ways of living a more fulfilling life broooo calm i put him on to so much

talk about using me for character development lmao i ain’t mad thou i know how powerful i am i am on this earth to change lives like i’m a pleadian baby i am a star seed and indigo child and healer and spiritual being - there’s a major mission for me here and you needed to go thru all this with me to become a better human but from the looks of it you seem to be falling into the same pattern - it’s honestly sad - i hope u find the right path but not everyone is meant to be in the right path soooo at that point that’s none of my business lmaoo

it’s about to be 2:22pm and i give thanks to universe and my angels for being here for me and also shoutouts to me being a secure bitch so independent and knowing her worth and also for being a scorpio cuz my feelings for boy that was once so pure and magical and full of so much love like genuine love is totally nonexistent and to me in my head, me and him never happened - i look at him now like eww his is an ugly human not only in physicality but also as a being, as a soul, as a person - he has good qualities about him but i think it stems from being a peoples pleaser but thank you universe for doing what you do best and eliminate those energies that are trash and i don’t need in my life

i am the same person i was before i got into a relationship with boy - during the relationship i still remained true to me but homie deadass was so insecure and all this extra shit that it rubbed off on me like ewwww lmaoo like i am light love and peace, smart, gifted, powerful, knowledgeable, intuitive and THAT FUCKING BITCH and i will only elevate

i wasted my time but it was fun - i got to love again and experience love even if it wasn’t real from him it felt real to me and i’m happy that i proved to myself that i can love deeply and allow myself to feel love

twinflame my fucking ass lmaoo Jorge was a soulkarmic and a joke lmaooo

i only hope you grow up one day for ur own good

gracias por todo aunque tu eres basura, como dice la canción de Bad Bunny llamado ‘Pero Ya No’

Ante' yo te quería, pero ya no

Tú me gustaba', pero ya no

Yo estaba pa' ti, pero ya no

Ey, pero ya no, ey, pero ya no

it was nice knowing u, u won’t be missed unfortunately and fortunately breaking up was such a weight lifter it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulder and the one thing holding me back from really really embodying everything good and positive that was coming into my life was ur bummmmass lmao

i wish u knew that i dead lied to you towards the end about many things especially my living situation i was not house hopping i was already moved into my new spot that the same day i moved out of parkchester nov 30th and let me tell u it’s such a lit spot brooo i live in manhattan now and in a newly renovated apartment that everything in it is new and the floor my fucking big ass closet like dude i’m so in love we really an adult signing leases hannnnnn lmao but yeah i lies cux i just wanted to see what u would do and you proved to me for i want to say the 10,000th time that u ain’t shit and was never shit lmao and that was the last official chord attached to u that finally broke off - i wasn’t tight anymore or sad i was literally living my best life so much abundance was coming in and i felt bad for being so happy without u cux i mentally emotionally spiritually broke up with u weeks before me moving out literally the week of my bday but u had already been doing me dirty for a while - what u did to me is something i will never do to u in a million years - lol and to think that u really believed and wanted to tell me that me and hassan did something and that there is something there between me and him, we have been and still are friends but u and sade dudeeeee u and her was deadass projecting cux u know what u was doing and knew what she was doing too but y’all dead tried playing me lmao - i am not u jorge i am better than you and i actually respect people and kept it real since day one- yeah sure dike you and sade was just friends yeah aight lmaoo u tried playing me but u only played urself and with time you’ll understand how if you really that dumb of a person lmaoo you showed me how good i was off that (that being u) and the feelings i feel is only bad for u cux shiet karma really is a bitch and i paid my karmic debt for doing what i did to Ania and we have learned and are now living in full greatness you wasn’t worth my tears or stress or fucking anything bro like you are for the birds and insecure bitches not me sir not me