#bren talks irl

[lynxgirlpaws]

Me waiting in the rain at 6:37pm in November in Connecticut for a ride to come take me home from therapy really is something huh

[coolermatt]

not to be dramatic but i’m all up in my feels about owl i know i’m lucky i got to see a match even though i don’t live in cali but i’m sad i couldn’t see more it’s literally indescribable how fun it is and my match wasn’t even the most exciting matchup in the world

[naz-yalensky]

Isn't it cool? Like you never know which mutual is thinking about you right now, @same-crazy-art-girl34 , I always somehow think about you and the zoya simping nation we have going lmao and @black-like-my-soul I don't even know what I think about you but yeah I do and I almost started saying smol bren/big bren irl conversation and my rem sis is like wtf- lmaoo and @im-someone-i-guess your inej's cosplay is somehow stuck in my head and that ghost you told me about is almost haunting me despite me being an Aquarius- and @alonlyfangirl I always think about that song you played with your ukulele and of course your ukulele individually and your blogs theme is somehow stuck with me lmao and @saltydreams , I always think about that first conversation we hAd and of course, how pretty you are ;) and @ahecktonoffandomsinoneblog idk what I think about but yeah I do and in my head, you're somehow in the file of besties even tho we barely talk I- 👀 and @willothewhisper , idk I just be going in the middle of the day and I'm suddenly like "hmm I hope anushka is doing fine-" i- and also your name always autocorrects to 'Anastasia' in my phone i-💀 and @untowardflower we don't even talk much lmAo, it's just me sending you asks and being obsessed with your theme 😌 and @kctniss idk whY aM I obsessed with yOur uRl, I don't even know the hunger games that much i- and yes you're also in the file of besties in my brain :) and @grishaverse-wrayth YOUR NAME IS WRITTEN FIRST IN THE BESTIES FILE IN MY BRAIN BECAUSE YOU'RE THE FIRST PERSON I TALKED TO IN THIS HELLSITE AND ILY I- and @captainswanandclintasha I just love seeing you in my dashboard so so so much i- and @wafflesandschemingfaces YOU'RE THE FIRST SISTER I HAD IN THIS SITE AND ALSO YOU'RE SOMEHOW ANNOYING ( AFFECTIONATE) BUT ALSO ILY I- and @wolfnzy01 yes I'm also in love with your theme and just you and wOw you're jUst tOo coOl and @iambecomeyourvillain hi, you're just too cool for me and that's all Ik :) and @ghafascortana , ik we don't talk but I already see you as a best friend :) and @cressjacquine fuck me because I forgot you at first but fun fact you were super intimidating to me at first but now you're my bestie and that'sit :) and @ all the other mutuals I didn't tag, I see you too, in my notifs, ily :)

[prettyoddfever]

the early Panic nicknames

There are a few similar & super old questions sitting in my inbox that I'm just going to answer all together here. So basically, I said “Bden” and “JWalk” but not “Ryro” because I used whatever names the guys called themselves when they communicated with fans. I really wasn’t overthinking it and there’s no deep meaning to any choice. 

here’s anything else I can remember about their nicknames right now:

Jon called himself every name possible while doing the band’s journal, but he and his friends seemed to lean more towards JWalk.

Brendon called himself Bden from the start and that almost felt like his actual name at times. Pete spelled it “Bdon” for years, but the thought still counts ha. Otherwise, I remember some fans in the Fever era calling him Brenny, Brenny Bear, Bren, Bren-Bear, and variations of that. I heard he wasn’t comfortable when people he wasn’t close to called him Brenny Bear. Ryan supposedly called him “B” sometimes when he was trying to get his attention during signings.

The guys in the band occasionally called Spencer “Spence,” but he used “Spencer” when talking or writing to fans. Ok this is horrible but the main nickname-related fan thing I’m remembering for him right now is “grandpa” or all of the stuff about him looking like a lesbian cat.

It’s kind of funny to be so familiar with a word that you read a lot but then realize that you have no idea if people actually say it out loud irl... I vaguely remember different discussions about this topic and I think more people actually said Ryro & JWalk than Bden. I’m pretty sure I only said JWalk out loud. Again, there was no serious thought that went into this... it just happened that way and I’m sure thousands of other fans did something different.

Ryan called himself “Ry” in the early Fever era, but then stuck with Ryan. A couple fan sites were saying “Ryro” by mid-2006 so that caught on more. By mid-2007 even MTV was calling him Ryro, but other bands and journalists sometimes spelled it RyRo or Ry-Ro. A decent amount of fans called him Ryry too... and that sometimes led to Rychu (like the Pokemon. does Raichu actually say “ry ry ry”?? idk if that’s what people were going for). There was also Ryspoon, Ryguy, Ryho when he started partying with a lot of people in 2007, and a bunch of other stuff I’m probably blanking on. Brendon called him Ross sometimes. Ryan responded to fans calling him George too.

[readbythestarlight]

c2e110

Did they lose all their hacker abilities lol

"Oh my GameCube" ajslakskjsla

"1.21 gigaflops"

The drama!

"Oh last hack! For justice!"

This is so hacking stupid xD

"Oh who? Oh jeeze. Those are some pretty doohickeys you’ve got on your arm there."

"Holy shift!"

I love those stupid ads

[[MORE]]

I just remembered what happened at the end of last week and now I’m suffering

Mmm I don’t like the idea that he’s an "ongoing" experiment vs an old failed one

Uh... someone hug him??

"I am like them. I... was like them. I...am like them..." Oh baby.

I forgot he hadn’t shared with everyone yet and now it hurts

C: "I liked being seen as I should have been. Or could have been."

Thank you, Jester! Where’s the group hug, someone initiate a group hug.

Also I just realized Veth won’t be there at dinner?? Right?

B: "no one blames you."

C: "heh... one person does."

Oh wait good it’s tomorrow so Veth will be able to be there

My god, they are exactly the chaotic aunts and uncles we all knew they’d be

Word of recall sounds VERY handy

We’re not going to make it to dinner and before break and I’m going to have to be in suspense until I can finish it tomorrow

New book harness!

lmao Jester this outfit is elaborate

LOL Jester you’re gonna break the shopkeeper

This does sound really cute for Veth

Awww she’s doing a little Keyleth imitation

Everyone: elaborate outfits

Fjord: coat plz

Give them Nonagon as a name, Beau

It’s wild that there’s NOTHING?

Oh good break just in time for me to sleep

I’m back and I’m still not ready

So like obviously attacking Trent here in own dojo would be dumb

Not that I think this is where that’s headed but hey

I haaaate Trent he’s such a creep

LOL picking on Wulf

Caduceus lol

He’s such a creep making his creepy power moves

Mind ya damn business Ickythong

Don’t compare yourself to them, you FREAK

W: "you, what are you?"

Cad: "Vegetarian, so I hope the meal reflects that."

Catch me crack whipping Wulf/Cad

Ooo they trying to get the inside deets

Don’t tell them NOTHIN’

"You might not inquire." YAS Jester

He’s a creeeeep and I haaaate him

PLEASE succeed that deception check

It did sound like he said "tissue"

He did NOT know what he’s getting into with the M9

Oh shit is this the one Essek killed after Caleb talked to her

It is oh boy

Caleb isn’t being especially subtle, not that I can blame him

How... diplomatic of him. But still def suggesting war.

Cad and Jester calling him on his shit I am LIVING for it

lmao Beau stealing the thunder of Astrid’s showing off

Fuck off Astrid

"I have good friends. Good people." Buuuurn

The way Trent keeps "tripping up" over Caleb’s name

And also like how he’s like low key acting like he gets any credit for who Caleb is now (which, he does I guess, but not the kind of credit anyone should want)

Beau and Cad calling Trent on his shit still and I’m still living for it

"You have the eventual makings of an assembly member yourself" bitch he’ll tear your assembly to shreds

"To truly grow you needed to be broken, and left to build yourself"

Oh god wait what

Somebody fucking STAB him

They fucking stole and then returned his memory didn’t they, they did it all

STAB

HIM

NOW

WITH A RED HOT POKER

I haaaate him

What does the symbol mean

What does it meannnnnn

Somehow this is even worse than anything I imagined. That they "broke" him on purpose.

I can’t wait for Caleb to tear him to fucking SHREDS

"I did out of love" IM WITH JESTER

DONT you being his parents into this like they would have wanted this you sick fucking fuck

"It is the greater man who puts the needs of others over himself Bren"

I fucking hate

Trent saying that Astrid and Wulf don’t have what it takes to basically be Trent 2.0 but that Caleb does will backfire on him, since Astrid WANTS to be Trent 2.0

Some interesting vibes off Astrid...

Caleb’s response should be "you haven’t made me what I am. They ARE who have made me who I am. I was not what I am now before I met them."

Steal all of Trent’s glory

I hope he dies painfully.

Godddddd

I’m seething irl you guys

"Whatever it takes to keep the people of the Empire safe" your families and those children ARE the people of the Empire!! Who the fuck are you protecting??

YES Caleb, thank you.

Also don’t use that "the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few" thing

"When talent rises from nothing, then nothing truly is lost."

"What if the thing to do now is to supplant you. To pluck you up like a weed and do better."

Fucking. He probably means it which means there won’t be any satisfaction in tearing him to shreds

Oh...

That’s interesting but it also sounds like a trap

Like they’re trying to draw Caleb back by saying "you could fix it by taking over"

Trent’s gonna hurt Astrid huh

I hate this

"Don’t disappoint me" let’s find a way to disappoint him

I hate him

Fjord just dropping the beacon question like a bomb

"You’ve only seen the one. That is what we have."

Okay okay he said HAVE though.

That’s not an answer.

Like Matt says he’s telling the truth, but it’s like when Pinocchio in Shrek avoids lying by obfuscating things and being indirect.

How can they have only just begun research on something he claims they don’t still have

They need to ask some more very specific questions, like "how many beacons do you have RIGHT NOW", and "how many beacons have you found, in total, ever".

Why would you mention the Eyes of Nine to him

"He has a hobby. He’s a sculptor." That’s a dig

"Didn’t need those ten years" ouch...

Hey guys please give Caleb a group hug after this. Don’t leave him alone for a while.

Cad: "I think you are one of the most powerful mages that I’ve ever been in the company of. For this I would offer a gift. I think it’s been a long time since someone point out that you’re a fool. Pain doesn’t make people. Love makes people.......I wish for you, in the future, to find someone who will mourn you when you’re gone.

Respectfully."

BOOM

Like I couldn’t type fast enough for this whole thing but that was AMAZING

Fucking LOVE Caduceus nothing but respect for MY firbolg cleric

Jester buddying up and being sweet to Astrid is... good. I don’t like her but I feel like maybe being kind to her is a good way to go. And Wulf too. Maybe they can be saved after all.

I was joking and I’m still joking but I really do want Cad and Wulf to like... hang out

That hurt a lot but went better than I anticipated overall

Marisha’s notes are amazing, like the fact that she remembers this shit is amazing

Oooo Cree is gone that’s interesting

I have a bad feeling

Bad feel bad feel bad feel

“I know a nice place” and he finds the shittiest inn xD

He’s gonna do some fancy spell I assume

Jester is so cute trying to make him feel good about it, probably assuming it’s a nostalgia thing lol

Where are they gooooooooing Maaaaaaatt I wanna knoooooowwww

Love you too!

[jq37]

IDK IF YOU'VE SEEN IT ALREADY BUT THERE'S A BEHIND THE SCENES FOR BLOODKEEP WHERE THEY TALK ABOUT SOME STUFF THAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED. Please share your thoughts

**spoilers for just like, all of bloodkeep**

***also, finale thoughts are coming, I had technical difficulties w/ the dropout site this weekend when I sat down to rewatch for notes***

OK, wow, I was NOT expecting the BTS video to THAT illuminating. I thought it was gonna have some cute cast stuff (which it did; I loved all the stuff with Matt and Rekha especially). Not, like, wild behind the DM screen plot twists. OK, taking it chronologically:

I can’t IMAGINE Rekha in Fantasy High. The energy of her and Emily at the same table would be so much. I will always be haunted by the knowledge of what could have been.��

Trapp buying monster manuals as a kid had big Sohkbar energy. Also, mad at myself that I never made the Hagrid connection because that is so what he’s doing all the time. 

“That’s Knife backwards and she’s very proud of that and so am I.”

It never occurred to me that Maggie has a full name tbh.

“Murderous Rodney Dangerfield.”

Matt can’t even even stop RP’ing during his interview.

I can’t believe this was a TWO DAY SHOOT. I thought it was at least 3 days. And, for some reason, I thought it was weekend shoots, not back to back days (prob cause my group is weekly). That means this was mostly super off the cuff. There wasn’t a lot of time to mull over strategy on the car ride home or whatever. This was such a roller coaster stretched over 6 weeks. Imagine it in 2 days!

Brennan at the camera with absolutely no prompting: Hell yeah!

OK 

THE BATTLE

Ooooh boy

So, in case you didn’t watch the video, what was SUPPOSED to happen was they would go down to the evil basement and then only one of them would be able to go on the boat. In order to get on the boat to hell, they would need to get a blessing from one of the statues. Four statues, six PCs. Brennan tried to lead them to a PvP endgame. THE PLAN WAS ALWAYS A PVP ENDGAME.

WHAT?

There is just SO MUCH to unpack here!

Like, OK. These guys are evil, right? Like, they casually talk about genocide all the time. That’s USDA Grade evil. BUT. They’re not mean. (OK, to the odd NPC but I’m speaking generally). When they all start off, the only real animosity in the group is Sohkbar towards Leiland for not being great with the wyverns and then there’s a little cattiness between Leiland and Maggie. But that’s it! And, like, Efink and Lilith read as straight up besties from ep 1! I NEVER felt the game leading towards any kind of group dissonance. From episode 1 there was a, “We’re all in this together,” vibe. They decided that so early on and they stuck to it. (In fact, they MADE MORE FRIENDS on the way!)

It’s like, Brennan told them, “You’re evil,” but he never said, “You don’t like each other,” and that made all the difference. 

Like, even in the pregame interview, Amy says something like, “I get to play someone evil whose ultimate goals will still help the people around her.” 

When you’re playing with players who are decent people irl and who haven’t been given a good story reason or the explicit direction to go turncoat, I feel like most peoples’ natural inclination isn’t to do that. 

AND. AND.

Knowing that the game was supposed to end with a Super Smash Bros Free for All, the fact that episode 5 was all epiphanies and hugging and feelings is that much funnier. That wasn’t the boatman telling him to stop hugging. That was Brennan, the DM that knew his sick plans just got jossed to hell. 

I love that Brennan said that the sweet character moments were completely unprompted by him but, as a viewer, they play as the most logical actions by these players. I was like, “This ISN’T what you wanted to happen?????” They felt like totally planned arcs! Brennan is so good at rolling with the punches. I feel like he must have accepted it by that point in ep 5 because, the way he was describing those falls (except for maybe Lilith’s looking back) read 100% to me like people who were having a near death experience that was going to bring them *together*, not the other way around. And, if it wasn’t, that’s how 6/6 of them took it so…

There was way too much time for these PCs to bond for this to end in PvP. The opportunities for backstabbing would have had to be planted WAY earlier for it to maybe work, imo. Or some kind of gollum/crown mechanic for craziness to spur a betrayal. 

This also explains why Bren kept prodding Lilith about how the crown should have been hers. Lol, and instead of staging a coup, she called dibs on the godmom position. BLESS.

IMPORTANT EDIT: I was thinking this so hard that I thought I wrote it but turns out I didn’t. If Brennan had forced them into a Thunderdome situation, I am 100% convinced it would have ended with everyone (except maaaaybe Markus) just bowing out to let Maggie win. Lilith and Leiland for sure at the very least and they for sure would have enough firepower to fight off everyone else if need be. (Efink would be next on that list after her near death moment of clarity.)

Brennan mentioned how wild Maggie and Leiland’s collective arc is and he’s right and I wanna talk about it more later. 

THE GHOST FIGURINES. Oh man, that would have been dope. I’m glad about how it ended, but that could have been cool. 

HOT SCORPION DAD. 

Nevermind, this is the bad ending, we were robbed. 

[vexie-chan]

Hi, I can’t stop writing. 

This is a scene that I wrote before I changed how the entire voice of a story I’m working on is going. The scene had to be cut, but I really, really love it. Sooo..... Have some Empire Kids in a kind of semi-fluffy moment? 

I like writing Beau...she talks like me IRL, but with less memes bc y’know. Setting. 

Caleb has his head propped on one hand, under the guise of reading the book spread across the table, but he hasn’t turned a page in several minutes. Beau knows he reads far faster than that—it’s a bit of a sore point, actually. She knows him well enough to know he’s using the book to keep everyone else out of his little corner so he can do his tragic, brooding thing without anyone bothering him.

              Which is good for Beau…this way she can bother him by herself. She saunters over to his table and leans on his shoulder, adding more and more weight until he finally looks up, frowning. She’s almost pinning him to the table by now. He sees it’s her and sighs.

              “Oh. Hey,” he says.

              Beau gives him a smirk and lets him up. She pulls a chair over so she can sit close to him.

              “Hey,” she says in return. “Good book? Doesn’t seem like much of a page turner.”

              “Was? Oh, uh, I was just…processing…really,” Caleb admits, rubbing at his eyes with the palms of his hands.

              “Yeah, there’s a lot of shit to process today,” Beau says. She pauses, giving Caleb a look. “Bren.”

              Caleb flinches as if she’d slapped him.

              “Please…do not call me by that name,” he whispers. “I am still Caleb.”

              Beau nods slowly.

              “Yeah…sorry, Caleb,” she says. “I didn’t mean…I, uh, actually just wanted to tell you that you did real good today.”

              Caleb glances up at her, eyes narrowing suspiciously. 

              “I uh, I know that wasn’t easy for you to tell them all that stuff. Especially with, y’know, everything going on. I know that was hard. But you did good,” Beau says. “I’m kinda...proud. Or whatever.”

              Beau is once again glad that she has a complexion that doesn’t blush easily as her face burns. She’s really bad at this whole…caring about people and talking to them thing. But the small smile that crosses Caleb’s face makes it worth it. 

              “I appreciated your support today, Beauregard,” he says. “Thank you.”

              He’s the only person who ever uses her full name, she realizes. He’s the only person she’ll let do it, really. She always hated her full name…but for some reason, it doesn’t sound as bad when he says it. Maybe it’s the accent. She’d never noticed before today…all this talk of names is making her overthink all this.

              “You…ever gonna tell them the rest of the story?” she asks, returning to the task at hand. “You kinda…left some stuff out.”

              The smile fades from Caleb’s face like a candle going out. Beau almost regrets asking.

              “No,” he says, then sighs. “I don’t know. Maybe. It wasn’t important at the time.”  

              “I mean…that was a pretty good opportunity,” Beau points out.

              “How? How would it have been good? When…a mother has been separated from the child she loves for so long. When we just took a child from her loving mother a few days ago. And then I…” Caleb trails off, dropping his head in both hands and shaking it. “And with the smell of smoke and fire and those people so close…no. I couldn’t.”

              “Okay, okay. I’m sorry,” Beau says, alarmed. The last thing she wants is a full Widogast panic attack. They’ve had enough emotional trauma for one day. “I wasn’t trying to yell at you, I was…trying to help, I guess.”

              “Why is it that important to you?” Caleb asks after a moment, lifting his head.  

              He doesn’t look angry with her, which is a surprise. He looks more curious than anything else. Beau sighs, reminding herself that they’re being honest now. 

              “I don’t know. I guess…I just want you to really believe that we’re ride or die, and I know you will never believe that as long as you’re holding…the entirety of what you did against yourself. You’re prolonging them finding out so you can keep this one thing to yourself, this one reason you think they’ll hate you. You won’t know until you just do it,” Beau says.

              Caleb sighs. He looks so tired. Beau supposes it’s been a long day. She’s feeling it pretty good too.

              “Maybe so,” he says. “But today was not about me. Not really. It was about…about Nott. And divulging the information that would best help her. Confessing my sins wasn’t useful. Explaining who these people are and what they’re capable of was more important in our current situation.”

              Beau gives him a half smile.

              “Mm…yeah. You’re actually kinda smart, you know that?” she teases, earning another tired smile from him in return.

              “So I have been told,” he says.

              Beau starts to get up, then pauses.

              “Hey…if you were just divulging useful information, why’d you tell everyone…y’know. About your name?” she asks.

              Caleb’s eyes slide behind her. She glances over her shoulder, where Nott is unhappily sipping tea with Caduceus and Jester, her flask safely tucked in the haversack.

              “Caleb Widogast was the name I gave to Nott when we met. Caleb…belonged to her first,” Caleb says softly. “If Nott is not…Nott…then who is Caleb?”

              Beau is not a hugger, but the look on his face kind of makes her wish she was. Instead, she gently lays a hand on his shoulder—somehow it’s become their chosen form of physical affection. It’s a thing.

              “Who is Caleb is a question I’ve been trying to figure out since I met you, man,” she says, gently teasing. “Look. You said…Caleb belonged to her first. But you belong to all of us now, right?”

              Caleb reaches up to cover her hand with his own. He doesn’t quite smile, but something in his eyes eases. He nods, giving her hand a squeeze.

              “Ja.”

              Beau stands, putting her other hand on his other shoulder, dropping her chin onto the top of his head. She bounces it hard enough to jostle him, but not hard enough to really hurt. It’s a strange, almost-hug.

              “I’m glad you’re Caleb,” Beau says. “And that’s me being honest.”

              She feels him laugh, just a little bit.

              “Me too, believe it or not,” he says.

              Beau straightens, giving Caleb’s shoulders one last squeeze.

              “Get some sleep, Widogast,” she says.

              “Danke, Beauregard,” Caleb says in return.

              Beau walks away, this time with a smile. 

[themilokin]

with titian and thrush both taken care of how about bren + 2, 10, 15, 20

Bren it is!

2. Emotional/Moral Weakspots?Cavvery is his security blanket, biggest weakness, and probably the only reason he’s alive by the time he’s like 17. He’d also screw over a large portion of the world to make sure that Ambrose died and couldn’t ever come back, because he refuses to let that fucker stay alive.

10. Fears/Phobias?Bren is absolutely terrified of magic, obviously. He’s also creeped the fuck out by earwigs, insects of unusual size, losing his sister, and also scared of becoming a proper monster. The idea of going feral and monstrous and becoming a killer with no control is terrifying to him, which is what the Idiots saw in the Astral Plane, and depending on the availability of his medicine it’s a pretty present fear.

15. What it takes to make them cry?Hurt Cavvery in a way he can’t help with, break his hands, break his guns, hurt a shark, show him genuine kindness repeatedly, give him a really well thought out gift. Extreme cruelty or casual meaningful kindnesses.

20. What ifs/Alternate timelines?MODERN MAGIC OH BOY i could talk for hours about this (and i have before IRL it was a long day) where Kay and Ambrose are taken down by a band of idiots and the twins strike out on their own in urban fantasy- that’s where most of Bren’s development has come from. There’s the one-shots I play him in in a steampunk setting too, wherein he and Cav are mercenaries with one awesome lobstertank and an apartment on the shit side of town that they keep because it’s cheap even tho they can afford better.

But for a proper what-if or just alternate timeline, then the biggest change would be if Bren and Cav had followed through with their original mission and straight-up backstabbed the idiots. Ya’ll were too charming for them, though.

There’s also the Mundane AU with no magic at all and Bren is mostly known as Cavvery’s brother. He’s got a GED and barely any prospects after college and keeps building really cool shit for friends and never turns in his engineering homework on time.

((edit: I FORGOT TO FINISH ANSWERING FEARS/PHOBIAS WHEN I FIRST POSTED I’M A DUMMY AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH))

[edgeworth-for-the-truth]

Fuck it, I can add a little more detail.

It's also because quite frankly I need to exert a lot of focus and my time with some shit on here: reading a long thing, making my reply, making sure I think I got everything right, double checking, editing, rereading the others' things just so I don't miss anything with it, etc etc and like

I really can't be assed with it sometimes y'know? Ok a lot of the time. This site is draining. Even with people I care about on here, I prefer causally reblogging fun stuff, and if we need to hash something out, we can do it directly. Honestly it's the people I love and the fun stuff I enjoy that's why I'm still on here. Otherwise? I'm skimmin' and-a scrollin', skimmin' and-a skippin' Barbara Ann.

It just really isn't worth it. Serious discussion is nice, but quite frankly it's better within your friend groups. Not because of echo chambers— your friends shouldn't just blindly agree with everything you say—but because all you get out of doing it on here is more reading than you really need, more writing than you want to do but have to do to get your point across, and either clout or flack from randos. All on something you're only passionate about from a serious, boring, and/or political side than something you actually enjoy.

"Bren, this is the third time this week you've talked about logging off Tumblr sometimes and just hanging with friends/doing your hobbies."

It's because you should fucking do that.

Frequently.

It's for your own sanity. Otherwise you get too caught up on shit and sour your own life with shit that doesn't really matter to the average person irl.

Y'ever wanna say something but fear it'll both:

Sound like a vaguepost

Get involved into an unsavory bit of discourse that always seems to get people too heated over something dumb

Shit drains me dude. Really does.

[warmbeebosoftbeebo]

this might be too similar to the ask you already answered, but what about a car ride home from a bar where zack is driving? similar brendon x drunk reader dynamic? I just loved that little mini story so dang much, and i think zack is hilarious and would be a great addition to that dynamic

i’ve held off on this one, because i got into it a bit in my your boys fic with b n josh, zack driving n zack irl is all “leave me the fuck out of it” about fic.

but too bad ;) i’ll just do a lil blurb

bren has to carry you piggyback out to the car, because you lost your damn shoes and keep calling out for rides on the brendon caboose express, even before you lost the shoes. bren suspects you did it on purpose.

“my personal chauffeur!” you almost shriek, laughing, kissing over his face. “my personal express train.” you grin, raspberrying his neck, over n over. “choo choo!” you shout, n squeeze him to you harder. 

“you’re gonna have to let go to get in the car, darlin”

“yes, sir,” you salute. 

b just rolls his eyes. “let me help you in, MA’AM.”

you snort. “i’m younger than you, old man.”

“and i’m older than y’all, and my beard is growing as i wait for your slow childish asses, c’mon.”

you grin, wishing you could reach over n hug him too. “zack!”

he almost winces. “sorry, zack,” you loudly whisper. you start bouncing on the spot, finally in your seat. 

“seatbelts.”

“yes, siree bob, zach.” b has to help you get it on after you try and fail, then look at it confused n betrayed. “thank you, baby.” you give b a sloppy kiss on the lips. 

zach’s chuckling a little, n b is full on giggling. “hey, b, let’s give zack a thank you kiss after he gets us home,” you whisper in b’s ear.

“Nooooo,” Zack butts in. “Leave me out of it.” Apparently, you’re still louder than you thought.

“We’ll keep it pg, we promise. Don’t we Bren?”

He just chuckles. “Hey Zack, carry us both in after, and we’ll both promise to keep our lips to ourselves--”

“and each other! but not you, if you don’t want...” you chime in.

“Fucking children. Buy me dinner tomorrow, and I will.”

“Deal, Zack! We get to ride the Zack express too, B...” you start bouncing again, but it makes you feel dizzy n pukey. 

“Puke in the car, y/n, and you get the honour of cleaning it up...”

You make a sourpuss face, then put your head on B’s shoulder. “Give me pets, B; Zack’s being mean to me.”

“Just so long as you keep the comforting PG, Brennyboo,” Zack jokes.

You stick your tongue out, n B follows suit, then uses it to lick your cheek when he raises your head, stroking yr hair.

“Gross, Bren,” you laugh, and kiss him on the lips. “Smoochies!” Within a minute, you’re seriously kissing.

“What did I just say?”

You pull away, just kiss over B’s forehead n cheeks, then lick him back. “This is pg...”

You lick over his lips, kiss him slow, tongues going. “Careful, y/n...” B says. “Feel like I should put the brakes on.” 

“Fuck, B, your mouth...fucking made for kissing...n going d--” you remember Zack, n switch to “and other things.” You blush, and B chuckles, puts yr head back on his shoulder, stroking thru yr hair.

“Better not get much wetter, there, y/n. Or you can clean that up too.”

“Pervert.”

Zack laughs. “Oh, sure. You’re one to talk, Ms Oh Brendon, oh Brendon, your lips are made for eating me out!”

You decide to go with it. “Hey, what can I say? I speak the truth.” And kiss Bren again. “Right, honey?”

Now Brendon is all flustered, n looks so cute. The cutest boy ever. You answer yourself, “Fuck, yeah, I’m right.” Making you all laugh.

[lynxgirlpaws]

This fucking sucks

Me waiting in the rain at 6:37pm in November in Connecticut for a ride to come take me home from therapy really is something huh