#brb never gonna stop thinking abt this scene gnight

[fruti2flutie]

i love the scene by the water.

the night is quiet, almost. the lights from the boats & the city are the stars floating on the water. porsche drags kinn by the hand to the edge, flops onto the ground with his face to the sky, laughter in his lungs. kinn doesn't know what to make of it, of someone so foolish. porsche dusts off the space next to him & gets kinn to sit. to lie down. to be at his level.

what are you thinking?

banter. jokes. warmth. touches. happiness.

what are you thinking?

porsche, drunk on alcohol & good vibes, revealing what's on his mind to kinn with that goofy smile is something so bittersweet. porsche tells kinn about his late parents, the loans, the knocking, the fear. how it hurts to be in this position, now. how he hates being the one to inflict pain upon those who don't have any other option.

and kinn, more drunk than he should ever be, muses aloud that if that's how porsche feels one month into living in this world, what does that make of himself? for kinn's whole life, he has been a young master of the mafia. it's ironic that he's never had a choice either, never had any other option to turn to. kinn tells porsche this, and what he gets in response are simply words of gratitude. understanding. a goofy smile.

kinn yearns for intimacy, and porsche gives in.

but what happens once the sun comes up? what becomes of the memory once the suits are donned, the ties are tied? what will porsche think when he recalls escorting a call boy out of kinn's room? what will kinn say when he's in front of his brothers, his father, his bodyguard?

what will this moment mean, if it means anything at all?