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mkay one more song headcanon type post before I get cracking on replies since I wanted to talk about [ Prologue / the Day I Got Expelled ] a bit since it is the opening song to the musical and we get a really nice synopsis --- so I guess people who don’t know pjo but are following me anywho, here’s a nice start !!! kinda. the song is pretty good about following the start of book 1 so why not ( x ) --- this is really long don’t mind me I’m including all the lyrics whoops :0 [ I’m even including a link to book 1 if you want ]

the beginning of the song is a little interesting since, unlike the book, it has a more general introduction. in this case the introduction focuses on demigods in general !!! as you can see in the lyrics below the show throws you right into “hello there’s Greek gods, they have children, we kinda have a lot of problems because of it” which, in all honesty, is not wrong for the series ( for those of you who don’t know the pjo background stuff ).

the gods are real like the Greek gods like the ones you learn about but weren't paying attention to well, they don't pay attention to you, either especially if you're their kid

the gods have godly things to do godly places they need to see godly plans they need to make that don't include, me

ya the gods are real and they have kids and those kids have issues, issues

daddy doesn't love me mommy is a god mommy can't protect me daddy is a god mommy is to busy, daddy is to busy busy, busy, busy, busy being a god, ya

you never listen to me, you never listen you never listen to me, you never listen, no you never listen but now you're gonna listen cause it's time you heard our side of the story it's time you heard our story

so I don’t know who reading this knows the whole Percy Jackson and the Olympians background sorta thing, but the premise is Percy is the narrator writing the books later in life as a guide of sorts for later demigods. he straight up says at the beginning of the Lightning Thief that most people reading it will think it a work of fiction --- he calls those people lucky. Percy then proceeds to warn about any demigod who might be reading it as the books will put them in danger. interesting way to start the series... ANYWAY as you can seen above the musical ( while still focusing in on Percy and his story ) includes a broader greeting. Percy at this point in the musical has no clue he’s a demigod or anything that’s going to happen, this sets the scene for the other demigods we meet later and how their stories factor in and how Percy’s is going to grow. “it’s time you heard our side of the story” not mine not yours, ours. the musical is a collective voice that Percy is not narrating, he’s not even our guide this time, he’s watching and learning like the rest of us. 

I see this first set as really showing that the musical is going to be a more outside view then inside view which, in turn, lets us see and understand more about how Percy is viewed from another person. this isn’t his self evaluation...

then Percy himself takes over to start us off ( I would assume to match the well known beginning of the books because this does not happen at any other point in the musical ). he sets the scene and the show takes off from there.

look! I didn't want to be a halfblood I didn't ask to be a hero seeking grace being a halfblood, it's scary it mostly gets you killed in very nasty ways

as is seen in the books, Percy states this is not what he wants. Percy wants to be normal ( as shown in other songs ). pulled this image from [ Pinterest ] but it shows the first line of every booK --- we’re gonna crop it here for length purposes:

we start off this series with Percy straight up saying none of this was under his control. the musical reiterates that fact in a way the movie just.... brushes over. Percy isn’t in it for the glory or fame or anything, he is just a kid making the best of a situation he does not choose.

then as I said on [ last night’s post ] the following line really smacks on the head Percy’s whole idea of being a hero. he does not want to be a hero. he does not enjoy the spotlight, does not like people telling stories of “what he has done” ( which I will not get into right now ) and most especially does not like people putting him on any kind of pedestal. he’s a kid who is doing the best he can and just wants a normal life where he doesn’t spend every day wondering if he’ll live through it. these are all things put on him by others.

I didn't want to cause trouble, trouble I'm less a player and more the played and honestly I'd totally be fine if I could make it to the next grade next grade

as I said right above this --- Percy just wants to keep living his life to the best he can and not die some horrible gruesome monster related death just because he “smells” so strongly to the monsters nearby. for the non pjo people out there, demigods can’t use any from of electronic device without broadcasting their location. for a demigod like Percy this means no phone, nothing that runs on the internet ( being as that’s a broadcasting wavelength ) and the like. he just wants to spend more then a few months at each school and prove he’s worth something. 

and don’t even get me started ont he “I’m less a player and more the played” line because I could talk for hours on the fact he’s basically the gods little puppet they expect to do as they want when they want --- just let him have his own life ??? I fell like that’s not to much to ask ESPECIALLY considering current canon points. I just remember hearing this line for the first time and wanting to just strangle them all since my boy deserves more.

it wasn't dirty socks or my step dad it was danger that I smelled the day it all went down the day I got expelled

maybe you don't know what a halfblood is because your life is normal and happy and not constantly in danger, but my life mmm... let me set the scene.

right off the bat we see emphasized what I said. though we all see him showing his life as unhappy which is a point I’ll either get to later or you’ve heard me discuss before rip.

we were on this freaky field trip ( freaky trip ) that's when this story should probably start ( ooo ) we were geeking out on ancient Greek at the New York Metropolitan Museum of Art

we stopped by all the statues ( statues ) learned about the gods ( gods ) Mr. Brunner and my subsitute, Mrs. Dodds having done nothing wrong, wasn't rude hadn't rebelled

on the day it all went down the day I got expelled

I don’t know if maybe I’m reading to much into it ( lmao ) but this is one of those times something Percy says strikes me as “I did nothing wrong but fully expected to be blamed” which brb need to cry my eyes out. it’s stated that he has had issues in school and with authority figures, it’s stated that on his record / etc he’s marked down as a problem kid. I know not all teachers are like this but for Percy everything he did was scrutinized and, should he even toe the line a little, he’d get in trouble for it. these lyrics show a bit into how he doesn’t expect much ??? and has given up trying almost. it’s like “they’re gonna blame me anyway, what does it matter?” kinda thing. which is a disastrous thing to tell a kid since this is the mentality he’ll have for the rest of his life --- if no one shows any form of believing in you then why should you believe in yourself ??? 

[ cut out some non singing dialogue here - just the bit where Chiron asks about the story of Kronos and his children + Zeus tricking him yada yada ]

I didn't really get the story at least it wasn't boring, as I'd feared but is it me, or is Greek mythology not deeply weird

I didn't want to pay attention ( pay attention x2 ) now I wish I had taken notes but my focus is in question, and got some indigestion cause they're goin' for our throats ( ew ) --- not sure if this line is correct rip

[ Grover makes a sheep noise dialogue ]

my best friend was acting strange at which he so excelled the day it all went down the day I got expelled

okie dokie so I know I cropped a good portion of this out ( mainly be the dialogue between the singing --- I linked the song above from my dropbox and included my lyrics writing so you’re welcome to listen to / look at it ) but this is really our --- both us and Percy’s --- introduction and foreshadowing to what’s coming up. as anyone who has read the books / reads my headcanons knows the first big war in canon is the Titan War against Kronos and his rising army. this piece is a literal foreshadowing. Percy is in this situation due to a prophecy he is entirely unaware of that is causing gods / monsters / etc to react. Chiron is basically trying to make sure he knows what’s going on for when Percy, inevitably, ends up at camp. specially considering all the summer solstice bullcrap. me, incoherently yelling from every rooftop.

[ pb&j dialogue --- that bit where it’s in Grovers hair ] Percy: Grover, you are a good friend. Grover: aawww! dude, I'm your only friend. Mrs. Dodds: Percy Jackson!

I knew something was up when I heard my name get yelled the day it all went down

I saw something out of Mrs. Dodds' frown the day it all got weird the day I got expelled

[ that dialogue bit where Mrs. Dodds calls Percy away and turns into one of the furies and then Mr. Brunner ( Chiron ) gives Percy the sword pen to fight her off ]

honestly this is the bit with the fighting but I wanna draw attention to that line from Grover. it’s a lighthearted comment following a series of dialogue where the both of them reference being bullied by a girl named Nancy Bobofit --- Grover took a pb&j to the head so it didn’t meet Percy’s face --- but it highlights some stuff I’ve already stated ( here and other headcanon posts ). Percy, throughout all the school’s he’s been to, has never fit in and has stopped trying to. he is the target of bullies. remember that Percy at this age is small and scrawny !!! he is not the grown demigod we know currently !!! no one wants to befriend the new guy and school reject --- he spends most of his life alone. now I could bring up all kinds of statistics on kids who grow up with anxiety and other things based on how they were treated as kids but I think you get the idea. this whole interaction eludes to a much broader and long lasting issue...

ummm... I didn't know what just had happened was that all a creepy, crazy dream my teacher was a creature then she vanished in the ether with a demon scream

the next thing that I knew I was where detention was held the day it all got real the day I got-

Percy: expelled!? Chiron: I tried Percy, but the headmaster stands firm in his decision. you were supposed to stay with the group and this was your final warning Percy: but it wasn't my fault it was Mrs. Dodds! she lured me away, she attacked me and... you saw it Chiron: did I? Percy: and you gave me that pen only it wasn't a pen it was a sword and... what? Grover: Percy, we've never had a teacher named Mrs. Dodds Chiron: perhaps its for the best, this wasn't the place for you. it was only a matter of time before- Percy: I got kicked out? Chiron: that was not what I was going to say- Percy: you think I'm trouble just like everyone else Chiron: no! but, that is to say, I can only accept the best from you Percy. someday you'll understand why. I'm truly sorry Percy: ya, well, I'm sorry I let you down Grover: maybe he's right, you never fit in at this school anyway. you're not exactly- Percy: normal? Grover: exactly! ( laughs ) I mean, umm... I'll see ya on the bus

now I could just reiterate everything I have said elsewhere on this post but instead I’ll focus on the highlighted bits ( and ignore the whole normal / accepted thing ). I know what they’re trying to do here is the best for him --- since in pjo canon if a demigod is aware of who / what they are they become bigger targets --- but the way its handled rubs me so the wrong way. they basically are telling Percy he can’t trust his own eyes / mind / whatever. like ??? as if he didn’t have enough problems ( as if weird things haven’t happened before ) they’re trying to play it off as his imagination. boy, I don’t know about you but it makes me think about the fact Percy probably spent a while full on not trusting himself or anything around him because people told him something that happened --- that did actually happen --- wasn’t real. which, then knowing how not even five years later the Tartarus thing happens, makes me feel horrible. Percy isn’t given the option to trust anything because it might not be real. people keep telling him he’s making stuff up --- there’s no one who trusts him that he feels comfortable talking to.

so if you think you are a halfblood better get headed to the exits now cause folks will think you're lyin better run and don't start cryin cause you're monster chow

stick around and maybe you'll learn from me this ain't Odysseus' odyssey so hear me out, if you're so compelled

but, nobody listens to me, nobody listens nobody listens to me, they never listen, oooo ( dude you got expelled ) I didn't wanna be a halfblood I didn't ask to be a halfblood

expelled

to close out this ridiculously long post ( thank you to anyone who read it all the way through, like mad props ) cause I just want to touch on how conflicting this last bit is. Percy is asking for you to listen to him / his story and learn from it BUT he’s also stating no one listens --- people always think he’s lying. so which is it ??? clearly he’s trying to maybe reach out again ( trying to help others in his same situation ) but he doesn’t really think anyone is going to listen to what he has to say on anything. makes me wonder how much “writing the books” is actually for him instead of other people. like, maybe a way to let him know this was all real. it did happen and he did survive it. like, Percy has some of ( if not the ) worst dyslexia in canon. now, I don’t know about you but writing a book for others when you can barely make out letters ??? sounds a little suspect. I don’t know, this last bit just makes me wonder his real methods behind sharing his story in the first place...