#brb going to ugly cry into my chicken wings

[softboynick]

sometimes i think about how i went most of 2023 without taking my antidepressants (for a number of reasons), but then, around the end of the year, i decided to start taking them again because i was feeling so stressed and anxious about grad school.

so i start taking them again in november/december. it takes a few weeks before i start noticing a difference. when i stopped taking my meds, i just didn't like anything. i lost my interests, my creativity. i had no energy to like or do things that bring me joy.

but then, one day, i decide to watch red white and royal blue because i was curious, and immediately, i fell in love with alex and henry's love.

i read the book, and i just see so much of myself in alex.

it's crazy that in a span of just two months, this silly little movie and book brought back the joy and creativity in my life again.

i love this little corner of happiness we've created, and i'm just so glad i'm here.